#< I mean. kinda. they are inspired for sure but they are veeeery far away from the source material

[lynaferns]

Beekeeper Fairy AU

TW for bug features

Well, more like bee-helper fairies.

I wasn't really going to share this yet but you can thank @shirajellyfish for encouraging me to show it, even if I'm not yet sure if this is going to go somewhere or is going to stop here like my other projects and AUs.

These sketches are a few months old, I'd like to polish them a little. I was getting into the fairies mood lately so hopefully I'll redraw them soon but y'know I can't promise anything when it comes to drawing.

Some close-ups and more info under the cut + Ferns design for this AU (Now I have no excuse not to make memes between my 3 selfinserts lol)

So the idea of this AU is mainly to be a chill and cozy story. No angst or anything, maybe memories of a couple of bad events from the past, but now everything is healed and they are focusing on living peacefully.

The story would be around Fern who has their own shop of handmade kitchen tools, tableware, tea, coffee etc etc. (all ecofriendly vegan products) in a village. They are also a beekeeper, so she sells honey too at the shop.

One day collecting honey from the hives she finds a tired bee-helper fairy trying to hide. Decides to ignore it not to stress the little guy, but the fairy was still there when they were finished with the bees. So she goes inside the shed for a small cup of water with sugar to give to the fairy.

After that, the fairy followed Fern to the village and now it visits the shop very often. And Fern always has some treats for the fairy.

I have the idea of making an askblog for the AU. People could roleplay as the villagers coming into the shop to buy something and ask about the fairy(ies) and Fern would be the one anwsering. BUT that would require a lot of effort from me, making the drawings and expressions of Fern and the fairies, and have backgrounds from the villagers POV of the shop. And I don't want to do low effort background, I want the world to feel organic.

So idk, maybe I'll do a small comic but I can't assure to keep constant motivation for this.

[verobonelli]

JIBcon 8 || My experience with Jared Padalecki (or The Story Of How I Died And Ascended To Heaven)

All right, I'll try to explain how things went with Jared at JIBcon: get ready for a veeeery long post.

(tl;dr I didn't think I could love him even more, but apparently it was possible and he's a giant puppy made of sunshine who just loves to cuddle people)

So, the second day of JIBcon was my first day of my first con ever. I was alone, but the SPN family is a proper family so I wasn't left alone for long: I met some beautiful people, and especially Camilla, a sweet girl from Rome who spent the whole second day with me (another Sam / Jared girl, so we kinda were two sobbing messes by the end of the day, which was awesome).

Now, Jared. I saw him once in the corridor while we were in line for the autographs, but he was far away and all I could see was a beanie walking through the crowd – and that alone was enough to make me nervous. I saw him in the corridor several other times after that and also during the third day of the con: once he grabbed my hand as he was passing by, and Camilla took a picture of that exact moment.

Jared grabbing my hand as he passes by

The autograph

I was in line for Jared's autograph with Camilla. We started freaking out way before we got to his desk, because he was even more beautiful than on TV, with his soft hair and big bright eyes, and he was so kind with everyone. Many of the girls were in tears as they left the room after getting their autographs, which added to the hype. At one point Jared stood up and started shaking his legs because he was feeling stiff, and I remember thinking that he didn't seem so tall (which I found out wasn't true when I had my photo op with him later). Then it was our turn and Camilla went first: Jared said he liked her jeans, then she thanked him for the AKF campaign, while starting to cry, so he immediately got serious and took her hand to comfort her and make sure she was alright. She said "you're very important to me" and he replied "no, you are important" while looking at her in the eyes, meaning every word he was saying.

Then she waited for me while I got my autograph, so Jared kept looking that way to make sure she was okay (which she wasn't, of course, because she couldn't stop crying, but hey, that's Jared Padalecki we're talking about). I got to his desk and gave him the t-shirt I wanted him to sign. Then I gave him some sheets of paper and (it was a miracle I didn't forget how to speak English) I said "Jared, I have something for you". He looked at me and for a moment my mind went blank (did I say he's breathtakingly gorgeous and his eyes are huge and bright?). Then my brain started working again so I explained those were some poems, about hope and the beauty of life, that I wrote because he inspired me (with the AKF campaign and with his overall positivity), and now I wanted him to have them. When he understood what that roll of paper was, he looked at me, shocked, and whispered "how fucking cool", then, louder, "this is fucking cool": he apologised for swearing but immediately repeated "this is fucking cool". He took the poems and said "Thank you. You didn't have to", like I just gave him the moon. I smiled and couldn't say anything (I couldn't believe he was thanking me), then he said "Thank you. You're so sweet" and I said "no, you are". Then he lifted his left hand and waited for me to take it: we interlaced our fingers and we just stood there looking at each other (while I was kinda dying, as you can imagine). Surprise, gratitude, affection, all these things were written all over his face, and even though he sees a hundred people every day he gives each one of us all his attention and he really makes us feel important. Then he glanced at Camilla and asked me "Is she your friend?", I said she was and he told me to go check on her (yeah, she was still crying, I don't blame her). I said I would, then I had to force myself to let go of his hand and I started walking away while he was still looking at me. I hugged Camilla and let her sob on my shoulder, while I was finding it extremely hard to breathe.

The autograph (I don’t know if you can see it, but trust me it’s there)

The photo op

I spent something like an hour waiting in line for Jared's photo op, but at the end I was still feeling light-headed because of the autograph and I just kinda stood there staring at the wall, incapable of doing anything else. Suddenly the line started going faster and in just a few minutes I found myself in the photo op room. The line was going so fast that I found myself just a few meters away from Jared and I remember thinking "I am sooo not ready, can somebody please stop the line so I can psychologically prepare for the experience 'cause I'm kinda freaking out? Pretty please?" Then it was my turn and I miraculously managed not to run away from the room, which I seriously took into consideration. Jared was waiting there, so freakishly tall and handsome, with a smile on his face, and this time he wasn't wearing the beanie (someone had forced him to brush his hair and oh god don't make me think about his hair or I'll start shaking again). I went up to him and he bent his legs so he would be shorter in the photo (which shows how sweet he is, because he always does it and I can only imagine how his knees hurt when all the photo ops are over). Anyway, he was still much taller than me. Of course.

We did the pose, a half hug with my hand on his heart: I asked for permission before touching him but I don't really know if I said something intelligible 'cause I was a mumbling mess. While doing the photo, I couldn't stop thanking him and he just looked at me, with a tired but sincere smile. When the photo was over I couldn't help myself and I hugged him: I threw my arms around his neck (I probably touched his hair but I really don't remember) and he placed his left hand on the small of my back and his right hand on the back of my head, grabbing a handful of my hair. He held me so tight against his chest that I couldn't breathe - but then who needs air when you're being smothered by Jared Padalecki? Anyway. It only lasted a few seconds and the volunteer started rushing me so I had to go: just like I did with his hand before, I had to force myself to let him go, while he was still holding me. I thanked him one last time (I lost count of how many times I said "thank you" to Jared during that day) and then I was outside. I found Camilla and she waited as I tried to find the words to explain what had just happened, then she started freaking out because I was freaking out and it was awesome. We also managed to see a bit of the J2 panel while waiting for the print of my photo op. Then the day was over, so we painfully said goodbye (she wasn't coming back the next day so I wasn't going to see her again anytime soon) and then I got home and kept staring at my photo op, still shocked and even more in love than before.

A rare moment when I stopped repeating “thank you” and just decided to shut up

In conclusion: Jared Padalecki is the sweetest, purest, most breathtakingly beautiful soul this world has ever witnessed.

This is part 1 of my series of posts about JIBcon 8: you can also read part 2 and part 3.