#<- ( ill kill uu if uu do that )

[sleptting]

" That's what makes me love you "

[tadpolebobatea]

Day 7 - A song you associate with UU

Oh girlies we're really in it now. its still the 31st somewhere right?

I never know whether to call something an animatic or not. like its kinda static? whatever!!!!

(Yep its billytella again. no apologies. i wont mean them)

i had a few other songs i was considering. i mean I have a couple songs that are A. more actively billytella or B. more actively Undead unluck.

specifically "the truth" by the front bottoms, its very billytella to me with its whole "i will believe in anything you believe in. i will do it for you" and "over at the frankenstein place" from rocky horror, its super sweet and uplifting but rocky horror is complete balls to the wall insanity, which i think suits undead unluck, like theres a quote thats lovely out of context but then the context is "the character is in the middle of trying to kill the anthropomorphic concept of spring with a card game." i think rocky suits that energy

in the end i couldn't get the imagery to work in my head. so maybe another time.

This thing really is my excuse t draw the blorbos in the most sappy poses possible. (oh and to make more people listen to will wood )

Images i think deserve special mention (there are 90+ in the thing btw)

this one of wet dog tella. it goes by super fast but i thought it was charming

i was possessed by something and had to draw tella like... giving billy water directly from his hands (oh and the visual of going bottoms up with an unbrella wasnt the vibe necessarily )

pretty proud of this detail, direct gunshot to the head from our dead eye billy and scattered body shots from tella, for flavour

(i regret the blue skin. i made billy look like the purple guy.)

drawing billy like a ditzy clumsy anime girl is deeply funny to me. cutie pie.

gently holds ughhhhhh (Tellla does not enjoy being known)

Im a total sucker for characters hugging in general. but i really love the whole; clinging to you as the only thing thats keeping me sane thing

They are married. to me. (this is the only time ive successfully drawn the back of tellas head. i wanted to highlight it. im really proud)

i did have an ounce of consistency in this whole thing regarding heights. was entirely based on vibes. I need actual measurements (ill ignore them. but theyd be nice to have)

this image exists because i was like "oh shit. i have a ton of "characters facing eachother and doing X" but no like... diverse profiles" so boop, moe over the shoulder shot

[princessb4mbi]

SEXTING JJK CHARACTERS PT. 2

꩜ characters fushiguro meguumi, itadori yuuji, ryomen sukuna

꩜ cw none! jk, subtle degradation from guumi, full degradation from sukuna, mentions of nude exchanging [bold is said jjk char], sadist!sukuna, gn!reader

꩜ summary you send a “i want you so bad” to ya bf

a/n this has more plot now!!!! part 1 with getou, gojo n naoya in here

whenever you send yuuji anything that’s along the lines of “intimate” he’ll go crazy. even just sending him “i want you so bad ;(“ message will want him to drop everything he’s doing and go straight to you. buttt in the times that he’s REALLY busy, all he has is to simply text away his sexual wants and needs.

whenever you send yuuji anything that’s along the lines of “intimate” he’ll go crazy. even just sending him “i want you so bad ;(“ message will want him to drop everything he’s doing and go straight to you. buttt in the times that he’s REALLY busy, all he has is to simply text away his sexual wants and needs.

whenever you send yuuji anything that’s along the lines of “intimate” he’ll go crazy. even just sending him “i want you so bad ;(“ message will want him to drop everything he’s doing and go straight to you. buttt in the times that he’s REALLY busy, all he has is to simply text away his sexual wants and needs.

his way of sexting you is really him responding with “mhmm” and “yes baby” because he is either trying to restrain himself from going into a private room and just start jacking off..

now since yuuji can’t let his poor baby be let down, he’s fights harder than he usually does to get this over with.. and come home to you right away

“don’t worry baby, ill be home right away to take care of you ok?”

FUSHIGURO MEGUUMI

meguumi is on his way to defeat a curse until his phone rings. now usually, meguumi doesn’t get a lot of notifications aside from a mission alert from gojo, or you just texting him. he looks up to check what popped up to see a “i want you so badly” message from you. he sighs, knowing that if he doesn’t at-least entertain it, you’ll be a bratty little s/o when he got home.

“now? of all times y/n?”

and what guumi can’t admit is the fact that if YOU’RE sexually frustrated, then in some way HE’LL be frustrated.. fuck’s sake.. guumi mumbles.. he’s outside the premises and he just wants to sext with you.. just for a little bit.

“you have one minute to tell me what you want from me in full so i can use that as motivation to kill this shit faster.”

a minute later, you sent guumi a full paragraph detailing how bad you wanted him to fuck you to the point of not being able to walk. guumi smirks at the message then turns his phone off, meguumi says to nobara, “let’s finish this quick, i have some important things to do at home.”

RYOMEN SUKUNA

[in the case that sukuna is his OWN person and ISNT in yuuji 😭]

sukuna spends most of his time in the underworld.. to you, available 24/7. and to him, you’re available 24/7, even when you’re truly not.

it’s hard to sext kuna because he’ll just show up with a simple “can you come over pls?” but today, kuna was feeling very.. sadistic today.

as per usual, you send kuna a little “i want you so bad” message, knowing that he would come right over to you. but to your surprise, kuna didn’t text back even after 5 minutes. he read for sure, but didn’t respond back. you give him another sultry message, “want to feel your hands all over me, kuna..” but he once again didn’t respond.

you then send him a row of dirty messages, ranging from “please i want uu” to desperate “fuck me”. and still, kuna keeps reading it, but not giving you a respond nor is infront of your face.

as a final attempt, you send kuna a faceless pic of you naked, hoping that’ll do something. and it did.

“you’re so fucking easy y’know? you see me reading it, but you’re still needy for an answer. i’ve spoiled you too much i see, that’ll change tonight.”

[dialovers-translations]

Diabolik Lovers LOST EDEN ー Shin Dark [05]

ー The scene starts in the living room of the Sakamaki manor

Subaru: ...Che. Why do I have to deal with this shit...?

Reiji: ...Subaru. So this is where you’ve been. I’ve been looking for you. 

Subaru: ...What do you want?

Reiji: You have received several letters. Please write your responses to them.

...I believe I told you to do so this morning?

Subaru: ...Not my problem.

Reiji: Haah...Perhaps it is time you become a little more self-aware. 

Of the responsibilities that come with inheriting Father’s powers, that is.

Subaru: ...How many do I have to tell you that I don’t give a flyin’ fuck!?

*THUD*

Subaru: It’s a pain in the ass. Havin’ these powers forced upon me when I never asked for them...

Reiji: Regardless of how you feel about it personally, you cannot escape this fate as long as those powers remain within your possession. 

I hope you will make your resolve already.

Subaru: Che...

ー Subaru walks away

Reiji: Haah...He truly is a handful.

What to do with him...?

ー The scene shfits to the saloon at Banmaden

Carla: Coff...Gah...Coff, coff...Haah...!

ー His vision grows blurry

Carla: My vision...grows blurry. As if my body is breaking apart.

ー He can hear approaching footsteps

Carla: ...Who’s there?

Giesbach: ...

Carla: ...! Father...

Giesbach: ーー This is your retribution. 

Accept the penalty for killing your Father. Suffer in agony...and perish.

Carla: ...!

...Father. Do you intend to punish me...no matter what...?

Then I shall once more...with my very own hands...!

ー The scene shifts to the entrance hall

*Rustle* 

Shin: Hm...Seems like tension is rising overall after all... (1)

Anything else to report? 

ー The Familiar shakes its head

Shin: I see. You can go then. 

...Well then, I better go inform Nii-san right away.

ー The scene shifts back to the saloon

Shin: ...Nii-san, remember how we talked about the other Clans’ movements the other daーー 

Carla: ...

Shin: Huh? He’s asleep...? I guess I came at the wrong time...

( That being said...His face is sheer white...Has he been feeling that sick? )

Carla: Uu...

Shin: Nii-san?

Carla: Guh...Ah...!

Shin: ...!

Carla: I still...have duties I need to fulfill...!!

Shin: N-Nii-san! Hang in there!

Nii-san, can you hear me? Wake up...!!

Carla: Uu...Ah...

Shin: ( Nii-san’s eyes...They’re not focusing. )

Carla: ...!

*Rustle rustle*

ー Carla starts strangling Shin

Shin: ...Ah...Gah...

Ni...i...sa...! I can’t...brea...

Carla: ...! Coff...Coff.

Shin: ( Blood...! )

*Rustle rustle*

Carla: Coff, coff... ーー Shin, it’s you.

Shin: ...Are you alright? Did you have a bad dream?

Carla: No need to worry. ーー I just need to step away for a bit.

Shin: ...Okay.

ー Carla leaves

Shin: ( ...Will he be alright, for real? )

I can’t believe he coughed up blood... 

( Has his illness gotten that bad? )

( Wait...Hm...? My hands feel kind of stickyーー )

*Rustle*

Shin: ...!

ー He dashes off to the bathroom

*Pshhhh*

Shin: ( It should be fine...There’s no way I’d get infected from just a few drops. )

( There should be no danger as long as I properly rinse everything off like this. )

*Psssh* 

Shin: Ow!

*Splash splash* 

Shin: ( There’s a cut over here...When did I get it? )

( Blood might have gotten inside...I better clean it thoroughly. )

If I got contracted with Endzeit...

( She might get it as well. )

...

Yui: ...Shin-kun? There’s something I’d like to talk abouーー

Shin: ...!! Stay away!

Yui: Eh...?

Selection

→ Don’t leave

Yui: Why...? You need to be more clear or I won’t understand.

Shin: Shut up!! Just leave already!

Yui: ( I don’t get why he needs to get so mad... )

→ Leave (❦)

Yui: ( I suppose I should step back for now... )

( But I wonder why? I can’t believe he’d lash out at me out of nowhere...That’s not how he has been acting as of late. )

Shin: What are you standing still for? I believe I told you to leave.

Yui: Ah...I’m sorry.

Yui: In that case...I’ll come talk to you again later, okay?

ー Yui leaves

*Thud*

Shin: ...

ー The scene shifts to the entrance hall

Yui: ( Shin-kun...What has gotten into him...? )

Monologue

ーー ‘Stay away’.

As Shin-kun spoke those words,

he seemed somewhat panicky (焦っている). 

We were able to have a normal conversation not too long ago,

so what exactly has happened since then?

Feeling a tinge of worry (一抹の不安) in my heart,

I began to walk towards the living room.

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

Translation notes

(1) We are given very little context right here but Shin uses the word 色抜き or ‘ironuki’ which literally means ‘to fade in color’. However, it can also be used to refer to the mood worsening, which I believe to be the case here. 

[cowederevived]

Hello, this is a rant post because I need to evacuate some thoughts, I know this blog isn’t for it, but don’t hesitate to respond in anyway, if you agree or not. I would seriously really appreciate, this blog is the only place where I can really discuss about stuff with people outside of my work environement (because my work is my life, and funnily enough I hate my work.)

Upon rewatching Hellsing (the 2001 show) and now ultimate (the ovas) I’ve come to realize something.

See I’m not usually one for the edgy, I tend to find it more funny and litteraly cringe than cool, it’s not that I don’t like a bit of edge, A dark character can be very cool when done with an appropriate tone or contrast, or just being an evil fucking bastard, for example ruin from UU is very very edge and cringe, but I don’t consider it bad writting at all, he’s litteraly an overzealous fanatic who think he’s god favorite very probably because he got 2 UMA in him who groomed him into thinking he was gonna survive ragnarok, ill never say that the edge in berserk is bad for example, (well I do for some of the stuff that comes before golden age. Before GA guts is a dark sasuke on steroid and outside from the halucinations, I can’t take him seriously)

But anyway, even without my not trully appreciation for the edge, nowadays when someone tells me "oh that show is so cool it’s dark and mature" I’m SUPER OFTEN disappointed. I mean come on guys, really, solo leveling is "the peak of maturity and badass?" "Omg sun said arise, and summon tons of ex bosses he fought that constantly praise him like fangirls" (And for those who haven’t read the manwha, I’ll add that those shadows are among the best characters in the series, and they aren’t great or profound.) or to change series "wow rimuru is so cool now that he transformed into a demon after eating one". "Annos is peak badass, he killed a guy then used magic to resurect him and killed him 100 times!" or even mentioning how there’s people out there who consider stuff like kingdom of ruin or redo no healer "deep and mature" because girls get r*ped in it. Rudeus being labeled as a good guy for doing absolutely no effort in helping a girl who is trap in this world with him because "ugh real world was bullying me" where we’ve seen him do litteraly no effort in real life at all.

It made me realize something, for a while I thought that "yeah it’s just not your age anymore" or "don’t be a boomer, you were cringe too back then" "you lack objectivity" but fuck it I’m gonna say it those series ARE trash, mid at best, but if you consider stuff like THAT peak, really ? You clearly haven’t watched good series, and it’s not an issue of "but it’s the genre / trope" you want good mature show ? They exist, you want a good isekai ? Same, log horizon’s worldbuilding and not have the entire world rely on the powerfull but not op protag is right there, you want a good power fantasy ? Ever heard of fucking dragon ball ? (I know it’s a shonen neketsu first, but really shonen neketsu is power fantasy except with a minimum of depth and characters with personality)

I won’t spoil in details Hellsing / Hellsing ultimate because I really think it’s a story that needs to be watch, but it’s not just good because "ahahah ultra badass psycho vampire, girl with huge boobs and even huger guns and English lady boss kill nazis" the whole story is a parallel about moving on from traumas of the past and the idiocy of following dogmas / the past without thinking, and that’s just scratching what’s good.

Meanwhile what does a show like solo leveling teach us ? "Be on the grind and a sigma male and be super handsome rich and strong because that’s the only way girls and people will care about you and respect you ?" "Be a piece of shit to people and you’ll be rewarded" "every Japanese is an asshole" (ok in all seriousness that last one is something in manwhas in general and it can easily be understand that Korea has a grudge against them because of history)

Anyway all that to say, I’m tired of pretending that mediocre, or even bad series are good just because duhu they’re popular and it’s the new style. There’s PLENTY of good new stuff. But people don’t focus on it and it’s fucking pissing me off.

Just in the shonen genre : dandadan, yozakura familly, undead unluck (duh), jjk ( i mean it’s not very "new Gen" and tbf the last arc crumbles because of gege’s writing and him being stuck with underdeveloped characters that no one care about because he put all his eggs on just a few chars. Basically it was very good for a while, like mha really (even though for mha it’s because the author takes 0 risk and just wants to please the fans) didn’t paid off, but you can respect the work) sakomoto days or yes even kagurabachi (throw in the memes) and even BIG SHOCKER one piece.

And that’s JUST SOME of jump’s content (well dandadan isn’t in the main magazine but shut up) AND I just talked about the most apreciated genre of battle shonen, staying in jump you got very fucking cool stuff like blue box, akanebanashi, csm, witch watch, elusive samouraï.

And once again, that’s just from jump and currently running. If you want good writen stories of any genre theres TON, and I can assure you that you will find badass and cool characters you can self insert into, difference is that they have actual care put into them, and say stuff, and have more than 1 character.

To chill me out I’ll remember than frieren and apothecary diaries got freakishly good results and that’s very fucking cool. I’ll also remember that we have very good non shonen targeted stuff like some high quality rom coms (dress up darling (in its first parts, gojo’s continuous depression and self doubt is getting on my nerves personally, they made him regress and it sucks) komi can’t comunicate, bochi the rock or dangers in my heart come to mind) Go watch them (the diaries have like, no action at all, but at the minimum go watch frieren, there’s a reason why people are saying it’s a new goat on the level of a fmab, as long as you have two neurons and now how to focus on a story, you’ll have a wonderfull time, it’s also plenty epic)

Anyway all that rant to say : it’s ok to like trash, I do to for other stuff, everyone does, it can even be your favorite thing. But please for the love of god and anything sacred, do yourself a favor and actually watch / read good stuff, varied at least, try to analyze what makes a good story and don’t be a slave to market that copy paste formula harder than an ai fucking could. It’s so fucking tiring to see authors and passionate project crash when next to them a copy pasta formula who does no effort and just rubs the viewer in the good way to have them brain disconnect on it. I know that anime and manga is a distraction, it’s for fun, but respect work and creativity for f sake (Queue the joke about the fact that a person who does ai art says all that)

[novembermorgon]

Hello op tis me again!! Apologies for taking [checks notes] 84 years to get back to you I have had A Week. However!!! Cayn and Ysabel continue to live rent free <3 like I'm just so obsessed with how gothic they are which is like. My favorite thing tbh. Part of me is gratified bc everything you said I kept nodding and going yeah I thought so, because your art was so *clear* the vibes were just. So easy to read (in the best way). I THOUGHT the ring was a match with Aegon's and also rip the rat tail long live the rat tail. I have to say Ysabel haunts me but Cayn scratches an Itch. Like. U feel me? Cayn belongs squarely in Hannibal NBC with his palatable person suit that is doing very little to distract *him* from the fact that he's about to eat someone whole and raw and it's probably going to be someone he loves before he moves on to someone he hates. Maybe it'll even be the same person. Who knows!! There's this tragedy to them both but Cayn is almost trying to tell himself he can Change it and Control the way the tragedy will fall (and getting humbled bad lmao) while Ysabel is like. Carrion carted away by the waves. Never stood a chance and at some point she stopped fighting very hard. Also I feel like. There's this Deep Intimacy yet Huge Emotional Distance between Aemond and Ysabel where neither knows how to communicate or really Approach someone so instead they have to consume maim kill leave a mark. I cannot touch you except to hurt you ect. And her obsession with him is in and of itself so haunted bc it's like she wants to Eat Him but she Doesn't but that way she can Control It but. And we stay at that but. While with Aegon and Cayn it's like yes I do like you. I fear writing the stronger word. Instead I will eat you whole and you will remember me by the imprint of my teeth on your side and I will remember you by the way I bloat with desire for you and choke on your blood <3 and it's like wooow. Wooow. Love it. Obsessed with it. As you can tell I do not like them normal. Do u know what happens to them at the end of the war? I can't imagine Ysabel ending up any better than Helaena. But also. I gotta say. Big fan of tragic siblings I am—I have So Many Feelings about these two relating to each other qnd hoe The Love Was Apparently There and it Didn't Change Anything. Too many feelings to put it too words. After all that word vomit (thank u if you read the whole way through) I wish to tell you that u have inspired me to make my Bolton oc more weird and unsettling and haunted. My disgraced Lenora and her legion of skinned animals and skulls <3 My Shadowskin Lady. I want her to be such a Freak while also being so tragic and doomed to being nothing but a third wife <3 but anyway!! I have stolen enough of your time and wish you good luck with your commissions!! Thank uu for replying to me and I look forward to future works on these doomed suckers 😌

under the cut because this got long ..

IM JUST GLAD TO BE TALKING ABOUT THEM !

it did make me sit and stare and giggle a little bit because its true you were very on the mark with them . i do think part of the charm with the boltons Is their inability to be anything but very un-subtly gothic and weird and strange . you look at them and you can immediately clock what's going on here .

and its very true… ill be so real and genuine i STILL havent watched hannibal the whole way through but ive absorbed the vibe enough through many years of being a gay person online to where yeah definitely this guy has some hannibal in him . that bit of restraint in really really trying to put yourself in a square that slowly but surely begins to crack under the weight of at the core needing to feed the urge to hurt something . believes himself to be strong enough to keep it away but ultimately the same fate waits each time …… similarly to ysabel . they both end up in the same place of hurt inflicted on others and in turn on themselves but while cayn fights against it and tries to rise above it ysabel leans into it and accepts it regardless of how much it scares her because she's always been taught to lay down and take whatever comes her way as a polite nice lady that doesn't fight and doesn't say no .

i do like to spin their relationships around in my mind . both separately and between each other . with ysabel i feel like her most intimate moments Are when she gets to be a little unhinged ie biting and chewing on someone etc because its very raw . so entirely separate from anything she knows and anything that's expected of her and so desperate and pleading that it gets very real . whereas cayn for a long time sees that violence as a failure to himself and in turn prefers to sit down and have a polite conversation and only thinks of how it would be to reach across the table and strangle a man . ultimately though that violence is inherent to him i like to think he wants to feel in control of it . wants to have the upper hand no matter what and doesnt like when it becomes an urge that just drives you without thought or reason . ysabel starving animal who cant help it vs cayn predator on a calculated hunt etc in the end theyre both very much formed by being raised by a dad who was so much worse . united in misery and a root of violence and hate and death that was planted in them from the moment they were born . they both have it and they will never escape it because there was never a point where it wasnt there. as for endings ….

i'm a little conflicted on them both partially because i still need to iron out some war details etc but as a general frame of reference it ends aaaalmost the same as in canon beyond the fact that the greens win a little more vividly . well . as much as you can 'win' a terrible tragic war with your own family . in the end jaehaera + aegon + alicent + cayn + ysabel and her kids are alive . aegon iii and viserys ii hang around too like in canon . i imagine errhhmmmm… (taps my noggin) aegon remarries . ive been fond of cassandra baratheon stepmom to jaehaera lately . well.. king's landing politics ensue . everyone is sort of miserable . i swear that i'll get to figuring it all out one day . i swear!!!!

most relevant to court i guess would be ysabel since i imagine she remains in the red keep for most of the war and after it . mentioned somewhere i think but she has two kids - a daughter (aelora) and a son (baelor) both of which make it through the war - but baelor is weak and sickly kind of partially because ysabel is basically left half-bedbound after her second pregnancy that probably shouldn't have happened in the first place . … he dies of illness pretty young which sends ysabel spiraling even worse than she already was post war . girls who have their bodies irreversibly ruined and torn apart to where they can barely function anymore in the hopes of having a son - giving a little boy to a husband who is bound to die at war and having your son follow closely behind and having it all be for nothing . i think she grows to resent her daughter silently for being a girl (westerosi misogyny so deeply seated even in its women) and i don't think they ever really grow all that close . sits and rots in her chambers or in the gardens and dreams about her dead son and her dead husband instead of looking to the family she has that are still there .

i think she's kind of disconnected from court just based on the fact she's entirely too hurt physically and mentally to really even be able to contribute much . she's allowed to sit in her misery because she's family to the targs atp but it's a little rough . in a little twist of weird connections i think she would get along with aegon iii pretty well in the sense that they're both horrendously miserable and she projects some sort of son onto him. sits and reads with him and talks about whatever kids talk about and acts like nothing is wrong for a few hours

i played with the idea of her eventually joining the silent sisters as a sort of final frontier of guilt and shame and horror at what her life becomes but i don't think she would even have the drive to do that much at the end of the war LOL

and cayn …

this one is trickier because he's …. … ……..? i dont know. i think its tough to find a real direction for him in my mind and i cant figure out why . but i think i got it.. more context first > their dad dies during the war, i imagine somewhere around rook's rest after the north is openly split apart or a bit later on when they actually try to go against the starks directly, and in my mind it kind of leaves cayn in (similarly to ysabel) in a state of being trapped in the past in a place he can never return to . their dad represents everything cayn believes he should be and all he should live up to and all his house and family stand for and seeing him die really does get to him . not to mention he also gets hurt pretty bad - just that chunk of harm that comes with war and what it'll do to a man. forever stuck on some field of battle far away and the world keeps spinning but you never quite spin along with it . dons his dad's armor and now suddenly he's saddled with the weight of responsibility and duty and all their family's pain both literally and metaphorically . kind of resembles the bolton skinchanging theories if you really get insane about it ie you take on a man's skin (his weird flesh armor) and now you're just as much him as you are yourself etc

i imagine he returns to king's landing for a while after they've duked it out with the starks for a bit and the north cools off a little . comes back and he's hurt and aegon is hurt and barely conscious half the time and his facade probably drops pretty harshly . spends some time taking care of aegon and doing what he's told and dreams about the fact that there has to be a purpose and a meaning to fighting a war . goes against what he used to want (restraint) and drives himself to violence and hate because if he doesn't then he'll sit down and think and realize that his dad died for nothing and theyve been fighting stupid battles for a cause that he doesn't really care about . rabid guard dog off the leash with no true goal he wants for and no true cause he believes in .

by the time the war ends and aegon remarries i imagine he leaves court because admittedly he would actually seethe a little bit seeing aegon married again . with helaena it was okay because i think he recognizes neither of them chose that and neither of them (from my perspective) really love the other in any romantic sense but when it's an active choice he gets really really upset . silently of course . <3 the gay yearning catches up with him and he faces the fact aegon is barely a person anymore and he has no place at court in turn . goes home to the north and with the greens sort-of-winning he's given winterfell and titles and they settle into some kind of peace for a little while. he marries a karstark girl because it's what his father had intended for him and they're about as unhappy as you can get in a relationship. maybe they have a son in time but more than likely not. i think while everything kind of holds up for a while there are a lot of issues here that don't seem to ever really get resolved properly - lots of unhappy lords and lots of bastard siblings who think they know better and lots of rumors and disagreements and a steady swirling pot of disaster boiling under the surface. i can imagine he goes off to fight off some rebellion after a good few years and ends up dead . maybe for the best .

i dont know if ysabel even really processes it . i think if she wasnt already so unresponsive she WOULD just step out a window

in another reality that im going to manifest in my mind space cayn stays in king's landing after the war and has someone else manage the north . sticks around and tries to ignore the fact that he's jealous and angry and feels no satisfaction or ease even when they've won and the war is over . sticks around and has a toxic evil homosexual relationship with the king that grows strained when he has a new wife and a kingdom to run properly this time and they settle into a horribly tense unbearable distance that's broken only when cayn steps up and poisons him or just chokes him out or something and proceeds to kill himself ala your first gay situationship where dying feels like a good alternative to having to process the fact that you cant really be together . hope you understand . either way the boltons (well . the ones that are relevant in this case there are always cousins and second cousins etc in asoiaf to pick up the slack) fizzle out and end up miserable or dead even after the promise of power and status is fulfilled . don't aim too high or you'll have that much further to fall if you will a whole lot of nonsense being put out here but i hope you enjoy whatever's cooking …. really really appreciate the interest and im glad to provide whatever u might be wondering about + more ramblings… would LOVE to see more freakish bolton ocs also . there is nothing like a horrible house that raises horrible people who reek of tragedy and terror and a doomed narrative and SO many chances to make something so fun please tell me more !

[blubushie]

hi ive recently happened upon your blog and if its not too weird of a question,,, how do u go and live in the bush? i dislike living near or in the city and ive always wanted to just go live in the wilds and live just in the wilds but i have no idea how to actually achive that dream. ive always assumed u couldnt just, go live in nature but im glad im wrong

if u have any resources to figure it out and u dont mind letting me know i would greatly appreciate it thank uu

I never went straight into it. I was raised on a rural farm when I was in America so I grew up hunting and learned how to do things like dress a kill and store fresh meat at a young age. As I got older I spent more and more time camping and when I went back to AUS after high school I became a licensed hunter and the rest is history. What I do is a culmination of all my lived experiences and there's been times I've stared death in the face, even with that experience.

The best I can recommend for someone with zero experience at all is survivalist classes.

You also can't really just go live out in the wild. It requires a lot of preparation. If you go into it headfirst it's nearly a guarantee you'll die (look up the story of Chris McCandless). You need to have a certain level of experience that you only get from prolonged time out in the bush. This means you should start with short, brief camping trips (NOT ALONE) and gradually increase how much time you spend out there. Bushwalks (hikes) become weekend trips, weekend trips become weeklong, weeklong becomes two weeks, etc.

Also it heavily depends on where you're planning to do this. It may or may not be illegal depending on your country. For example I have a hunting license with every state in AUS simply because it can be days of driving between states and if I run out of food and am unable to go to the shops, I don't want to get arrested for hunting to feed myself. In the US I have a hunting license for California, Nevada, Arizona, and New Mexico. Hunting licences don't carry over between states in either the US or AUS and so whether or not you starve highly depends on what you have available to you. You definitely need to familiarise yourself with hunting and taking a life before you go into the bush. You don't want to have to figure things out when your mind is cloudy because everything's gone wrong and you've found yourself out of food with no way to contact help. You need to be confident in your ability before you go out there and nothing will test your mettle like the bush.

Meat is a necessity. A part of your diet should consist of wild fruits and veggies but those won't sustain you long in a survival situation. You need raw protein. Meat should make up the core of what you survive on and everything else should be tacked on top of that. Meat is your lifeline, and you won't get it without killing.

You need to know how to properly disinfect water you drink. You need to know how to clean your clothes, how to recognize the signs of illness, how to perform first aid. How to make a fire, gather water, make snares, change a tyre, etc. Survivalist classes will teach you that. Most people change their mind about it when they realize just how difficult it is. You shouldn't go out to the bush because you dislike people—at that point just move to a rural town if you can. You have to crave the fight for survival or I guarantee you the bush will bury you.

It's definitely not for everyone, but it's a great life if you can survive. There's no thriving out here, either—it's just survival.

Also, the internet sucks and in most places there's zero reception. Bring a satellite phone in case you need help because you will be rooted otherwise.

[pesterloglog]

Roxy Lalonde, Calliope

Act 6, page 5590-5603

TG: is it...

TG: could it be...

TG: OH MY GOD ITS TWINKLY HERBERT

TG: ;D

TG: haha what a pal, all comin to see me from infinite nowhere

TG: twinkly herb i didnt expect to find u here

TG: actually where do i know you from?

TG: this is driving me crazy when did we meet

UU: ....................... !

TG: callie goddammit cant you see im catching up w a good friend

TG: if you wanna join the conversation feel free to start speaking in something other than a load of dots

UU: ... .... .... .... .... .... !!!

TG: oh

TG: "shhhhh"?

TG: heh sry

TG: had no idea u were saying shush

TG: (but ok ill be quiet)

UU: - .... .- -. -.- / -.-- --- ..- !

TG: (no probs)

TG: (um)

TG: (i also got no idea why i can suddenly understand morse code)

TG: (which...)

TG: (u are all butt blinkin @ me thru twinkly???)

TG: (idgi)

UU: - .... . / ... .... --- .-. - / .- -. ... .-- . .-. / .. ... --..-- / -.-- --- ..- / .- .-. . / .... .- ...- .. -. --. / .- / -.. .-. . .- --

UU: - .... . .-. . / .-- .. .-.. .-.. / -... . / .--. .-.. . -. - -.-- / --- ..-. / - .. -- . / - --- / - .- .-.. -.- / ... --- --- -. --..-- / -... ..- - / .-.. . - .----. ... / .--. .-.. . .- ... . / -.- . . .--. / .- / .-.. --- .-- / .--. .-. --- ..-. .. .-.. . / ..-. --- .-. / -. --- .--

TG: (ok fair enough)

TG: (this is a dream)

TG: (now shit kinda starts making sense)

TG: (your soul is like)

TG: (presenting itself to my subconscious in the form of twinkly herbert)

TG: (or uhh)

TG: (maybe your soul was always in twinkly or)

TG: (oh man)

TG: (theories are hard i am being an embarrassment to science here)

TG: (so.....)

TG: (whoops omg dont mistake my dots 4 letters k callie/twinkly)

UU: ..- ~ ..-

TG: (lol)

TG: (but uh)

TG: (what exactly are we being quiet for)

UU: ... --- / -- -.-- / -... .-. --- - .... . .-. / -.. --- . ... -. .----. - / .... . .- .-. / ..- ...

TG: (oh noes you mean hes here?)

TG: (already??)

UU: -.-- . ...

UU: .... . / .. ... / .--. .- ... ... .. -. --. / -. . .- .-. -... -.-- / .-- .... .. .-.. . / -.. --- .. -. --. / -.. .- -- .- --. . / - --- / - .... . / ..-. ..- .-. - .... . ... - / .-. .. -. --.

UU: .... . / .. ... / ..-. --- .-.. .-.. --- .-- .. -. --. / .- / .-.. .- .-. --. . / .--. .- .-. - -.-- / --- ..-. / --. .... --- ... - ... --..-- / .. -. / .... --- .--. . ... / - .... . -.-- / .-- .. .-.. .-.. / .-.. . .- -.. / .... .. -- / - --- / -- .

UU: .... .. ... / .. -. - . -. - / .. ... / - --- / -.. . ... - .-. --- -.-- / -- -.-- / ... --- ..- .-.. / ..- _ ..-

TG: (aw dang)

TG: (well dont worry callie)

TG: (i wont let your bro kill your soul!)

UU: -.-- --- ..- / .- .-. . / ...- . .-. -.-- / ... .-- . . - .-.-.- / .. / -- .. ... ... . -.. / -.-- --- ..- --..-- / .-. --- -..- -.-- .-.-.-

UU: -... ..- - / - .... . .-. . / .. ... / -. --- - / -- ..- -.-. .... / -.-- --- ..- / -.-. .- -. / -.. --- / .- - / - .... . / -- --- -- . -. - --..-- / --- - .... . .-. / - .... .- -. / .-. . -- .- .. -. / -.. .. ... -.-. .-. . . - .-.-.-

UU: .-.. . - .----. ... / -.-. --- -. - .. -. ..- . / - .... .. ... / . .-.. ... . .-- .... . .-. . .-.-.- / ..-. --- .-.. .-.. --- .-- / -- . !

TG: (ok)

TG: (where are we goin?)

TG: (hey wait for me!)

TG: (the fuck?)

TG: (what happened to my house)

TG: (some stuff is different)

TG: (i dont remember this)

TG: (callie do you know whats going on)

UU: -. ---

UU: -... ..- - / .-.. . - .----. ... / -.- . . .--. / --. --- .. -. --.

TG: (and what am i even wearing)

TG: (what are these clothes?)

UU: .. - / .- .--. .--. . .- .-. ... / - --- / -... . / - .... . / --- ..- - ..-. .. - / --- ..-. / .- / ..-. .- ... .... .. --- -. .- -... .-.. . / ... -.-. .. . -. -.-. . / .-- --- -- .- -. ?

TG: (oh yeah)

TG: (like a sexy science lady suit)

TG: (thats p cool i guess)

TG: (hello and what have we here)

TG: (.... omigod)

TG: (ohhhhhhhhmygawd)

TG: (DAT WIZARD)

TG: (heck yes)

TG: (hes so perf)

TG: (callie check him out)

UU: ..- --

TG: (that aint even a painting)

TG: (ahaha its so shitty)

TG: (did someone like)

TG: (grab a random ass low res wallpaper off the internet)

TG: (of a jolly wizard doing what appears 2 be the worlds dumbest spell)

TG: (and saved at low quality then just like)

TG: (printed it way too huge)

TG: (lmao)

UU: ---... ..-

TG: (its not even scaled proportionately)

TG: (its stretched extra wide to fit this expensive as fuck frame)

TG: (is that shit like)

TG: (literal solid gold)

TG: (ahahahahah i cant even deal)

TG: (whoever did this was a wonderful genius)

UU: -.-- . ... --..-- / -... ..- - / .-- . / .... .- ...- . / - --- / --. --- !

TG: (yeah im coming!)

TG: (sheesh callie)

TG: (u got to stop and sniff some roses now and then)

TG: (by which i mean)

TG: (ogle some garish wall wizards)

TG: (such are the simple joys of life)

TG: (anyway in conclusion and in summary)

TG: (daaat)

TG: (wizzerd)

TG: (booyes)

TG: (more choice 'zards)

TG: (dont worry i wont stand around fangirling over these ones)

TG: (well maybe for a second)

TG: (lookit that one)

TG: (dude means business with his resplendent beam of pure white superstition)

TG: (hey wait)

TG: (youre getting away from me!)

UU: - .... . -. / .... ..- .-. .-. -.-- / ..- .--. !

TG: (hold on)

TG: (what was that)

TG: (callie hang on)

TG: (is there someone else in here)

TG: (callie wait...)

TG: (calliope!!!)

TG: (was that...)

UU: - .... .. ... / .-- .- -.-- !

TG: (is she here?)

TG: (is the batterwitch here in my house?????)

UU: .-. . -- . -- -... . .-. --..-- / -.-- --- ..- .----. .-. . / --- -. .-.. -.-- / -.. .-. . .- -- .. -. --.

UU: .- .-.. .-.. / - .... .- - / -.-- --- ..- / ... . . / .. ... / -.-. --- -- .. -. --. / ..-. .-. --- -- / -.-- --- ..- .-. / -- . -- --- .-. .. . ... / .- -. -.. / ... ..- -... -.-. --- -. ... -.-. .. --- ..- ...

TG: (ok)

TG: (i will keep tellin myself that)

TG: (it is only a dream)

TG: (it is only a dream)

TG: (ugh)

TG: (my dream nerves are a wreck)

TG: (hm i wonder if my dream house has any dream booze...)

TG: (NO!)

TG: (bad dream roxy)

TG: (must not)

TG: (fall off)

TG: (THE DREAM WAGON!)

UU: ... .... .... .... .... .... !

UU: - .... .-. --- ..- --. .... / .... . .-. .

TG: (kay after u)

UU: .-- . / .-- .. .-.. .-.. / .... .- ...- . / -- --- .-. . / .--. .-. .. ...- .- -.-. -.-- / .... . .-. .

TG: (more privacy?)

TG: (you mean in the observatory?)

UU: -. --- - / . -..- .- -.-. - .-.. -.--

[chop-romen]

HOMESTUCK

Random info dump for my weird spontaneous homestuck phase right now the dialogue from calliope and Roxy’s conversation in act 6 act 5 translated from Morse code

TG: twinkly herb i didnt expect to find u here TG: actually where do i know you from? TG: this is driving me crazy when did we meet UU: ....................... ! TG: callie goddammit cant you see im catching up w a good friend TG: if you wanna join the conversation feel free to start speaking in something other than a load of dots UU: (Shhhhh!!!) ... .... .... .... .... .... !!! TG: oh TG: "shhhhh"? TG: heh sry TG: had no idea u were saying shush TG: (but ok ill be quiet) UU:(Thank you!) - .... .- -. -.- / -.-- --- ..- ! TG: (no probs) TG: (um) TG: (i also got no idea why i can suddenly understand morse code) TG: (which...) TG: (u are all butt blinkin @ me thru twinkly???) TG: (idgi) UU:(The short answer is, that your are having a dream)- .... . / ... .... --- .-. - / .- -. ... .-- . .-. / .. ... --..-- / -.-- --- ..- / .- .-. . / .... .- ...- .. -. --. / .- / -.. .-. . .- -- =>

UU:(There will be plenty of time to talk soon, but let's please keep a low profile for now) - .... . .-. . / .-- .. .-.. .-.. / -... . / .--. .-.. . -. - -.-- / --- ..-. / - .. -- . / - --- / - .- .-.. -.- / ... --- --- -. --..-- / -... ..- - / .-.. . - .----. ... / .--. .-.. . .- ... . / -.- . . .--. / .- / .-.. --- .-- / .--. .-. --- ..-. .. .-.. . / ..-. --- .-. / -. --- .--  TG: (ok fair enough) TG: (this is a dream) TG: (now shit kinda starts making sense) TG: (your soul is like) TG: (presenting itself to my subconscious in the form of twinkly herbert) TG: (or uhh) TG: (maybe your soul was always in twinkly or) TG: (oh man) TG: (theories are hard i am being an embarrassment to science here) TG: (so.....) TG: (whoops omg dont mistake my dots 4 letters k callie/twinkly) UU:(u~u) ..- ~ ..- TG: (lol) TG: (but uh) TG: (what exactly are we being quiet for) UU:(So that brother doesn't hear us) ... --- / -- -.-- / -... .-. --- - .... . .-. / -.. --- . ... -. .----. - / .... . .- .-. / ..- ... TG: (oh noes you mean hes here?) TG: (already??) UU:(Yes) -.-- . ... UU:(He is passing near by while doing damage to the furthest ring) .... . / .. ... / .--. .- ... ... .. -. --. / -. . .- .-. -... -.-- / .-- .... .. .-.. . / -.. --- .. -. --. / -.. .- -- .- --. . / - --- / - .... . / ..-. ..- .-. - .... . ... - / .-. .. -. --. UU:(He is following a large party of ghosts, in hopes they will lead him to me) .... . / .. ... / ..-. --- .-.. .-.. --- .-- .. -. --. / .- / .-.. .- .-. --. . / .--. .- .-. - -.-- / --- ..-. / --. .... --- ... - ... --..-- / .. -. / .... --- .--. . ... / - .... . -.-- / .-- .. .-.. .-.. / .-.. . .- -.. / .... .. -- / - --- / -- . UU:(His intent is the destroy my soul U_U) .... .. ... / .. -. - . -. - / .. ... / - --- / -.. . ... - .-. --- -.-- / -- -.-- / ... --- ..- .-.. / ..- _ ..- TG: (aw dang) TG: (well dont worry callie) TG: (i wont let your bro kill your soul!) UU:(You are vary sweet. I Miss you, Roxy.) -.-- --- ..- / .- .-. . / ...- . .-. -.-- / ... .-- . . - .-.-.- / .. / -- .. ... ... . -.. / -.-- --- ..- --..-- / .-. --- -..- -.-- .-.-.- UU:(But there is not much you can do at the moment, other than remain discreet.) -... ..- - / - .... . .-. . / .. ... / -. --- - / -- ..- -.-. .... / -.-- --- ..- / -.-. .- -. / -.. --- / .- - / - .... . / -- --- -- . -. - --..-- / --- - .... . .-. / - .... .- -. / .-. . -- .- .. -. / -.. .. ... -.-. .-. . . - .-.-.- UU:(Let's continue this elsewhere, follow me) .-.. . - .----. ... / -.-. --- -. - .. -. ..- . / - .... .. ... / . .-.. ... . .-- .... . .-. . .-.-.- / ..-. --- .-.. .-.. --- .-- / -- . ! TG: (ok) TG: (where are we goin?)=>

TG: (hey wait for me!)=>

TG: (the fuck?) TG: (what happened to my house) TG: (some stuff is different) TG: (i dont remember this) TG: (callie do you know whats going on) UU:(No) -. --- UU:(But let's keep going) -... ..- - / .-.. . - .----. ... / -.- . . .--. / --. --- .. -. --. TG: (and what am i even wearing) TG: (what are these clothes?) UU:(It appears to be an outfit of a fashionable science woman?) .. - / .- .--. .--. . .- .-. ... / - --- / -... . / - .... . / --- ..- - ..-. .. - / --- ..-. / .- / ..-. .- ... .... .. --- -. .- -... .-.. . / ... -.-. .. . -. -.-. . / .-- --- -- .- -. ? TG: (oh yeah) TG: (like a sexy science lady suit) TG: (thats p cool i guess)=>

TG: (hello and what have we here) TG: (.... omigod)=>

TG: (ohhhhhhhhmygawd) TG: (DAT WIZARD)=>

TG: (heck yes) TG: (hes so perf) TG: (callie check him out) UU:(Um) ..- -- TG: (that aint even a painting) TG: (ahaha its so shitty) TG: (did someone like) TG: (grab a random ass low res wallpaper off the internet) TG: (of a jolly wizard doing what appears 2 be the worlds dumbest spell) TG: (and saved at low quality then just like) TG: (printed it way too huge) TG: (lmao) UU:(:U) ---... ..- TG: (its not even scaled proportionately) TG: (its stretched extra wide to fit this expensive as fuck frame) TG: (is that shit like) TG: (literal solid gold) TG: (ahahahahah i cant even deal) TG: (whoever did this was a wonderful genius) UU:(Yes, but we have to go) -.-- . ... --..-- / -... ..- - / .-- . / .... .- ...- . / - --- / --. --- ! TG: (yeah im coming!) TG: (sheesh callie) TG: (u got to stop and sniff some roses now and then) TG: (by which i mean) TG: (ogle some garish wall wizards) TG: (such are the simple joys of life) TG: (anyway in conclusion and in summary) TG: (daaat) TG: (wizzerd)=>

TG: (booyes) TG: (more choice 'zards) TG: (dont worry i wont stand around fangirling over these ones) TG: (well maybe for a second) TG: (lookit that one) TG: (dude means business with his resplendent beam of pure white superstition) TG: (hey wait) TG: (youre getting away from me!) UU:(Then hurry up!) - .... . -. / .... ..- .-. .-. -.-- / ..- .--. ! TG: (hold on) TG: (what was that) TG: (callie hang on) TG: (is there someone else in here)=>

TG: (callie wait...) TG: (calliope!!!) TG: (was that...) UU:(This way!) - .... .. ... / .-- .- -.-- !=>

TG: (is she here?) TG: (is the batterwitch here in my house?????) UU:(Remember, you're only dreaming) .-. . -- . -- -... . .-. --..-- / -.-- --- ..- .----. .-. . / --- -. .-.. -.-- / -.. .-. . .- -- .. -. --. UU:(All you see is coming from your memories and subconscious) .- .-.. .-.. / - .... .- - / -.-- --- ..- / ... . . / .. ... / -.-. --- -- .. -. --. / ..-. .-. --- -- / -.-- --- ..- .-. / -- . -- --- .-. .. . ... / .- -. -.. / ... ..- -... -.-. --- -. ... -.-. .. --- ..- ... TG: (ok) TG: (i will keep tellin myself that) TG: (it is only a dream) TG: (it is only a dream) TG: (ugh) TG: (my dream nerves are a wreck) TG: (hm i wonder if my dream house has any dream booze...) TG: (NO!) TG: (bad dream roxy) TG: (must not) TG: (fall off) TG: (THE DREAM WAGON!) UU:(Shhhhh) ... .... .... .... .... .... !=>

UU:(Through here) - .... .-. --- ..- --. .... / .... . .-. . TG: (kay after u)UU:(We will have more privacy here) .-- . / .-- .. .-.. .-.. / .... .- ...- . / -- --- .-. . / .--. .-. .. ...- .- -.-. -.-- / .... . .-. . TG: (more privacy?) TG: (you mean in the observatory?) UU:(not exactly) -. --- - / . -..- .- -.-. - .-.. -.--=>

[mccarthymolly]

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Discouraging psy , psy elaboration. Saying u so advanced or i so dumb, that i cdnt be right while u not think, okhmuj,yh,uh,uh, n wt, dk,uh,no. Hmuh, headphones,uh,ok,yh,uh

Say be good while good bc vtrting make imprint n confuse n saying am bad or that can become bad, omg so pain,

Y say ww uh wt omg y the painfulest,omguh

Nr flatteing. Say im ill, not getting food theyd eat, wtdk,ij,ww,uh,omg,the yrs,omg,yh,this,ww,omg,uh,the most pnfl possibl?

t hpn, ethical to get that mad? Omg,u,h

Lk think hidden, n cant tell, nt sensi,ww,uh,dk,ww,okhmuh,y,h,ih,ok,jm,u,hyh,ih, b nt fnny,o,mh,j,g,g,

Mv frm aikido,ok,hmu,n,o,u,juh,dk,uj,,j,m,u,j,n,ou ,k,

New plc no, uh, ww,uh, bit, ltr middle schl n schl yh,ww,uh,okhmuh, fast, uh no, catchup, fast dk,okhmuh,n,oh,k,

Uh hm uu no, uh, hard to have discussion with psy matur n differentiation nt groupthinking nt similar,uh,ovetslk,dkzuh, no nt gd,ih,,ww I, irony downvotinf?hkj,dk,uh,hm,uh,,uh,j,i,h,ig,dk,uh,

Nt fair js time n called fair b y coercive then,uh,random,mad, nt do,uh,surprise? U dumb sh, not participate, seem for me,uh,no,uh,wt,omg,uh,hate. Uh, nt want vengeance urge,

[lvejae]

hi!! can u write some thing with getting caught in the act with dream ?? js can be something like suggestive / fluffy! thank uu <33

of course!!! i love this idea so much!!

mark!!! you guys were actually home alone at the dorm for once. this was rare, as he had 23 members and three different schedules to keep up with. you were originally watching a movie, until mark had gotten too touchy. one kiss turned into a make out session, causing you to sit on your boyfriends lap. “m-mark baby i don’t think this is a good idea, w-what if the boys come home” you stuttered as he sucked little hickeys onto your neck. he pulled away, “babe, calm down we’ve got so much time left”, he brought his lips to yours. you both were lost in the feeling, only for the moment to be broken by a few screaming boys.“OH MY GOD!” taeyong screamed. “MARK LEE I SWEAR IF YOU ARE HAVING SEX ON OUR COUCH ILL KILL YOU!” jungwoo yelled. your faces went bright red. you immediately hid yourself in marks shoulder. “we were ONLY kissing” mark tried to clear the air. “more like making babies” yuta replied. mark apologized, and quickly took you to his room. making sure to LOCK the door. “anyways, where were we…”

renjun!!! you and renjun were in the kitchen making some pastries. your job was making the cake batter, while renjun made the icing. you were almost done whisking it all together when he wiped some icing on your face, more specifically your lip and jaw. “renjunnnnn!!!!” you gasped as he laughed at you. “why would you rub icing on my face?” you started to argue, putting down the bowl and whisk in your hand. “so i could do this” he kissed your lips, eventually getting the icing off. “smooth” you giggled at him. he moved down to your jaw, determined to get the icing off. just that moment, mark walked in. “oh my god oh my god MY EYES” he screeched, turning himself around and speed walking out of the room. you both blushed before finishing what you started.

jeno!!! you and jeno were in the practice room, alone. you were just watching him dance while eating an orange. he looked so good with the sweat dripping down his neck, you couldn’t fight the urge to kiss him right then and there. once the music stopped you immediately went up to him, not expecting the kiss to become heated so quickly. the rest of the dreamies walk in, making gagging noises, “ewwww why can’t you two get a room” renjun rolls his eyes. you and jeno end up breaking the kiss due to your giggles, “you just ruined the moment dude”.

jaemin!!! you and jaemin weren’t exactly having sex, let’s call it making out on his bed while in your underwear. it started out as cuddling, until he got too flirty. who could blame you? jaemin has been both very busy and hot lately. you had hardly any alone time together, so you were just trying to work with what you had. jaemin is just about to whisper in your ear when the door opened, only to reveal jisung. he quickly pulled the covers up, covering your body specifically. it takes jisung a few seconds to realize what he just walked in on, “...holy sh…. HYUNG IM JUST GRABBING MY PHONE CHARGER I PROMISE I WILL BE QUICK IM SO SORRY” he rambles on as he races in and out of the room. once he shuts the door, you and jaemin begin cracking up, “sung is so cute,” he starts “but not as cute as you” kissing you softly again.

haechan!!! you were in the car driving home from one of his schedules, when haechan decided that he was bored and that this stupid car ride was too long. he put his hand on your thigh, slowly moving it up higher. haechan and you sat in the back of the car, so he figured no one would really notice what was happening. once you caught onto what he was doing, you grabbed his hand and whisper yelled in his ear, “hyuck?! what are you doing? we are in the car with the rest of your bandmates!”. he chuckles lowly and whispers back, “cmon baby, just give in. i promise you they won’t find out” he winks. you keep your grip strong on his perverted hand, letting him know that you REALLY think it’s a bad idea. he catches your eyes and pulls you into him for a kiss. a cute little kiss becomes a heated, which you could of gotten away with if he didn’t MOAN INTO IT. jaemin turns around and glares at haechan, only to pull out his phone and text him, “dude, if youre gonna fuck your girlfriend, at least wait until we are HOME. ya nasty”. hyuck shows you the texts and you shoot him an i told you so look.

chenle!!! you were sitting on chenles lap doing his makeup. this time he actually ASKED you to do it. usually you would have to beg him for it, and only half the time he would let you. when he asked you, you sprinted to your bag and grabbed a bunch of your favorite makeup. he found you so cute. you came back to the couch and sat on him, rummaging through your bag, “what do you want me to do baby?” you asked. “anything! i don’t care, just make me pretty like you” he flirted. you flushed and started to draw a tiny wing with your favorite blue eyeliner. it was so hard to focus with him staring at you, so you had to do both sides a few times. as you were examining your work, renjun and haechan burst through the door: “CHENLE-YA!!! Y/N!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?”haechan screams. you laugh awkwardly and start fidgeting in your boyfriend’s lap. chenle looks at the boys and rolls his eyes, “i’m just letting y/n do my makeup. nothing more than that you PERVERTS!” he yells.

jisung!!! you guys were laying on the couch. he was playing one of his many video games and you were reading a book. somehow, jisung convinced you to give him a kiss for every kill he got. once his 3rd round ended, he looked for you and said, “y/n!! i got 28 kills, where are my 28 kisses”. you put down your book and complained, “havent you gotten enough kisses yet?”. “nope!” he pulled you onto him, and you started landing kisses on every inch of his face. as soon as you got to your 10th kiss, which just happened to be on his lips, chenle and jeno walked in. “EW JISUNG AND Y/N ARE MAKING OUT!” chenle shouts. you and your boyfriend sat up and dusted yourself off quickly. “n-no we weren’t. we were just kissing!” jisung stutters as both of your faces start to turn red. “don’t worry about it ji, have fun!” jeno winks as he pulls chenle back out of the house.

[cyanocoraxx]

.hey jay. cyan. metal. tumblr user cyanocoraxx. care to edxplain this?> im crying btw. just so yopu know. this was so intentional and i feel like im being crushed. its like there is a LARGE HAND. GRIPPING ME. AND CRUSHING MY TORSO. ...................... (•.)___(•.) ummmmmmm. thanbks for. killing people? wow. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. auuughauauuerauauuraurauuauuauauauughhhhhh . HHERHHRHRHRHRHRHRHRHEHHHREHRHHEHRHRHRR. HFSADJHDFJKDASFHJSD. *BREATHING NOISES BREATHING NOISES* *SOUNDS! SOUNDS!*

HRHAHRAHRHAHRHARHAHRGaHRGAHRAHGRHARHGaHRGAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whwhwhwhwhhwhwhwhawhahwhWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

*breathing nosieses very close to microphone. kill.* *GROWLING*

JAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!! JAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DO YOU CAUSE ME PAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant . fucking do this.................................................. now i have to care about HOW MANY ROBOTS? ummmmmm. all the badniks AND an SCP even though i DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT AM SCP IS? FUCKED UP. AND NOW ......

metal i learn about yoru scp . i look at ur carrd it says. it says. "awh boy i sure do love a good old [SCP-079, AS-WELL AS, SCP 682]" AND I SAY. "I SHGOULD LEANR ABOUT THESE SCPS I BET ILL LIKE THEM SoOOOO MUCH." AND I FIND OUT ONE IS A COMPUTER AND I GO "OH ILL LOOOOOVE LEARNING ABOUT THIS!" and im right. but you know hwat? that doesnt last long. because i watch the 5th video. i watch. [SCP : Sedition - SCP - 682 & SCP - 079] and guess what i notice IMMEDIATELY? "oh. this is familiar............ oh. OH...... OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.........................." ANDF I FUCKING. i go to your FAN FICTIONED. FANATICAL FICTION ON AO3. I PRESS "see full thing" or whgateevr. i press funny buttons on keyboard i open up WORDF SEARCH. i type in "grieve" AND YOU KNOW WHAT I SEE? THE ONLY USE OF THE WORD "grieve" ? IM CRYING. I KNEW YOU DID. I CANT DO THIS SHIT! YOU CANT KEEP MAKING ME FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL THINGS ABOUT THESE ROOOOOOOOOOBOOTTTTTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *CRIES CRIES CRISE CRIES CRIES CRIES CRIES CRIES CRIES* fuck you fuck uou fuck you fuck yuou fcuk fu opdfid uidug fkdiu gifdguiifd ugioufdgiufdgfid gfdugiofdgi uu fd gjuikjhgfiyu874y4 8rt4y8ui4894 ytu48uyu5 89i4 u89u5r4893475 894 54589475 843757 20975097 902871039875689761 897457 47 378539 05739 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 cyan you cant keep doing this. youre a good writer but PLEASE stop being THIS GOOD..... YOU MAKE ME FEEL SO MANY THINGS AND I CRY AND SOB EVERYDAY! YOU CANT JUST COPY AND PASTE DIALOGUE TO MAKE THOSE WHO know FEEL THINGS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAUURAURUARUAURUARUAURUAUUGHHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

jay i love you friend i cry every day because of your ABILITIES

OMG I WONDERED IF ANYONE WOULD SEE THE SCP SEDITION REFERENCE and its even better that it was you to point it out omgf 

i’m sorry i made your robot brainrot worse. i’m sorry. we have to care about so many robots..... sighs.... *upgrades my storage space capacity to make room for more robots.*

anyway yes 079 is my fav alongside 682 also they’re gay.

“how do you feel about memes”

also since u said ur not that familiar with scp. in the game scp containment breach, scp 079 is responsible for releasing all of the contained scps because they take control of the remote door control system. when you go and disable the remote door control system, 079 bargains with you - if you enable the door system again, they’ll let you go through blast door B to escape. just thought you might appreciate this crumb of info if 079 is your fav

[dialovers-translations]

Diabolik Lovers DARK FATE ー Carla [VAMPIRE ENDING]

[Vampire] [Manservant] [Brute] 

ー The scene starts with a black screen

Yui: ( I can’t take it anymore...! )

Shin: Che...Nii-san...

Carla: ...

Shin: Don’t tell me...This is the time...When you decide to hold back? ...Come on. Grab hold of your sword again.

Yui: Eh...!? 

ー Yui opens her eyes again

Carla: ...Is that what it looks like to you?

Shin: Yeah, it does. I mean, ever since I was just a kid...

I’ve been keeping a close eye on you...

Come on...Here I come!!

*CLING*

Carla: Ugh...!

Shin: I can see through everything! Like whether or not you’re giving it your all!

I guess I’m being underestimated. Am I really that unworthy of an opponent? 

*CLING*

Shin: You’re even ill on top of everything, yet you’re still looking down on me!? 

I can’t forgive you...!!

*CLING*

Shin: Not ever!!

*CLING*

Yui: ( Oh no...At this rate, both of them will...! )

Just stop already!!

Carla: ...!!

Yui: It’s been enough, you two!!

Shin: What do you mean!? Enough, my ass!!

Yui: But at this rate, you’ll boーー

ー Somebody runs up to them

Yui: ( Eh...!? )

Richter: Hihihi...Too bad...right!?

Shin: ...!? You...!? 

Carla: You are...!? 

Richter: I am...not dead yet! I can’t die...!

You truly thought a single stab through the heart would let you get rid of me...!?

*Woosh*

Yui: ( Oh no...!! )

Richter: It’s only checkmate once you’ve chopped off the head...!!

Like this, see!?

ー He charges at Carla

Yui: Stoooooop...!!!

ー Yui jumps in the way

*STAB*

Yui: Uuu...!!

*Thud*

Yui: ( I-I was stabbed...in the chest... )

Carla: ...You bastard!!!

*STAB*

Richter: Guh...!!

Shin: ...W-Why would she shield Nii-san...? 

*Cling*

Carla: ーー Ugh...! Oi, hang in there!! Oi!!

*Rustle*

Yui: Uu...

Carla: Good grief...How reckless of you. When you’re just a weak human...

Yui: I’m sorry. But...Now the two of you...

no longer have to fight to the deathーー

Carla: ...!?

Yui: Haah...I’m doomed to spend my whole life...always having someone trying to use me...unable to escape said fateーー

However, I didn’t want to acknowledge that...But now...I was able to use my life doing what I truly wanted myself...

Carla: Don’t be ridiculous...!

Yui: It’s fine...

Carla: Damnit...Don’t die...Oi, stay with me...!

Yui: Ugh...

Carla: Don’t die! This is an order!

Yui: An order...?

Carla: You are necessary. To me.

Yui: ...

Carla: Yes, exactly! You are vital! I need you...!

This is not weakness. Exactly, I love youーー

Yui: Love...?

Carla: Yes! Exactly. As much as I hate to admit it...

Yui: Aah...Carla-san...I alsoーー

ー Yui loses consciousness

Carla: Oi!!

Yui: ( Aah, that same prideful guy now needs me in his life... )

( And claims to love me. He might only be saying those things to please me but... )

( Still, I feel blessed...I’m so happy... )

*Rustle rustle*

Carla: Yui!!

Oi, you...! Open your eyes! Wake upーー!!

Shin: ...Jeezus. 

Carla: ...What’s your problem, Shin?

Shin: ...I’m disappointed. 

Carla: Run your mouth all you want.

Shin: But at the same time, I’m also relieved. Up until now, you had always been the ideal I could never reach. 

While I felt proud and boastful of you...simultaneously, you were the person I loathed and envied the most. 

Nii-san, I believe I can finally...face you as an equal.

Carla: What do you mean?

Shin: In the end, I think I was simply reflecting all of the ideals inside my head on you. That’s whyーー

When you had to bow your head for my sake back then, I couldn’t forgive you. 

I couldn’t let my ideal Nii-san submit to some inferior species. 

Carla: ...

Shin: But, you’ve ruined that image I had of my perfect older brother even further. 

*Cling*

Carla: Shin...!

Shin: I don’t need to...kill you if you aren’t perfect.

Yui: ...

Carla: ...

Shin: Nii-san, what are you gonna do? She’s going to die...

Carla: ...As if I’d let that happen...

If this woman dies...it will mean the end of us Founders. Howeverーー It goes even beyond that.

Without her around, I can no...no longer smile. 

Shin: ...Nii-san...

Carla: I had forgotten this whole time. No, I pretended I had forgotten about these feelings...

I was reminded thanks to her. 

ーー Because of her, I remembered just how agonizingly painful the feeling of lonliness is...

I...love her.

Shin: Haah, you’ve become a total softie. 

Carla: Shin, I cannot continue being the ideal man you thought me to be.

Shin: Yeah. That’s why I’ve been voicing my disappointment. ーー But.

I feel like...I don’t dislike this side of you either. 

Carla: Heh, I see. ーー Then, follow me. 

Your older brother has little time left but...Before I go...I will revive this woman.

Shin: How?

Carla: I will go bow my head...to the owner of the Castle up ahead. 

( I am no longer scared. Of admitting inferiority... )

( What truly terrifies me... )

( Would be losing this woman, that’s all. )

Yui: ...

Carla: Yui.

I will save you right now. And then...

I will ensure...that you no longer have to live your life being manipulated by others. 

*TIMESKIP*

Monlogue

ーー By the time I regained consciousness,

I had been put to sleep,

in one of the beds at the Founders’ castle. 

ー The scene shifts to Yui’s room in Banmaden

Carla: How do you feel?

Yui: It still stings a little. However...I feel a lot better already. 

Carla: I see. 

Yui: ( Carla-san hasn’t changed one bit. ...I wonder if what happened back then was just a dream? )

...Excuse me?

Carla: Yes?

Yui: How did I get here?

Carla: ...

Yui: Carla-san?

Carla: You truly never fail to disappoint me. 

Yui: I-I’m sorry. 

Carla: ーー Back then, you were on the brink of death. Which is when I...

No, to be more specific, Karlheinz is the one who saved your life. 

Yui: K-Karlheinz-san did!?

Carla: ...I bowed down and begged for him to save you. 

Yui: Eh...?

Carla: Surprised? 

Yui: W-Well...Yeah...

Carla: ...

Yui: I’m sorry. But...I just can’t imagine you’d lower your head...for someone like me...

Carla: You say the exact same thing Shin did.

Yui: Shin-kun...?

Carla: Yes. However, he told me that...as pathetic as I may have become, he does not despise me as a brother. 

How do you...feel about me? 

Yui: Ah, o-of course...! You know...

ーー I like you.

Carla: I see.

Yui: If anything, that feeling has only become much strongerーー

Carla: Back then...

Yui: Eh?

Carla: Before you left Banmaden. You told me that I can be a little more selfish. 

Yui: Ah, yes.

Carla: Back then I failed to grasp the meaning behind those words. ...No, that would be a lie. I refused to understand. 

Because prioritizing my own desires would go directly against everything I had ever been taught as a King. 

Yui: ...

Carla: I was at a loss. Wondering whether such a thing would be allowed. 

Yui: I can’t blame you, you felt like you needed to uphold your status as a King after all. 

Carla: Yes. Hence, I should not create a weakness for myself by harboring personal feelings for youーー 

That is how I thought. Which is why...I was going to put an end to my life myself, as a King...

But then you jumped to the scene... 

In the end, by sacrificing your own life like that, those feelings I had been suppressing this whole time came gushing out...

Yui: Carla-san.

Carla: ーー Come here. 

*Rustle*

Yui: C-Carla-san...?

On certain CGs, little black roses will appear on the screen. If you click on them, you get an extra line of dialogue.

“Heh...I supppose I do not need to ask you why, as the answer is quite obvious already.”

“If your blood will heal the symptoms of Endzeit...Then I suppose I should say that I am being kept alive by the person I love?”

Carla: I no longer need to hold anything back. What should I call these feelings? 

Yui: ーー Love...?

Carla: Exactly. I...like you. I love you. 

Yui: Yes...

S-Speaking of which...Carla-san, um...

Carla: About my illness? Through some strange course of events...

Ever since I have begun to drink your blood, progression has been halted. 

Yui: Eh!?

Carla: According to what Karlheinz told me, it must have something to do with your blood...

Yui: My blood? 

Carla: Yes.

Yui: T-Then...You won’t...disappear anymore...?

Carla: While we do not know how effective your blood will be in the long-run, for now at least.

Yui: I’m so glad!!

*Thud*

Yui: ( I truly am relieved...! )

Carla: ...Are you happy?

Yui: Yes.

Carla: ...Tell me why.

Yui: Eh!? W-Well...I mean, you know...

Carla: ‘I know’...?

Yui: Because I like you a lot...I love you. 

Carla: I see. In that case...

*Rustle*

Carla: I will never let you go again.

Yui: ...!!

Carla: Are you fine with this? I might just be sweet-talking you to use your body for my own personal gains, you know?

I might just be trying to abuse you like I always have...?

Yui: Fufu. You aren’t.

Carla: You seem to trust me quite a bit.

Yui: You said you love me earlier. Also...I feel the same wayーー

Carla: All it took was one phrase? You are rather easy.

Yui: But I think that is the ultimate proof...Besides...

Remember that you are the one who claimed to love this ‘cheap’ woman?

Carla: Heh...Fufufu...

Yui: ...!

Carla: Good grief, I am simply...no match for you. 

*Smooch*

Yui: Nn...

Carla: I truly...never get tired of watching you..

Yui: ( I feel the same way, Carla-san... )

ー Somebody walks up to them

Shin: Ahー ...Ahem, ahem!!

Carla: Shin?

Yui: S-Shin-kun...?

Shin: You can be lovey-dovey all you want but Nii-san, don’t forget that there’s still heaps of work left to do!

Carla: ...You can handle that, can you not?

Shin: Wait! One second!! You better not start playing the role of negligent King the second you decide to turn a new page in life!

Carla: ...

Shin: Don’t pout at me! Hey, you should tell him as well!

Yui: Eh? I-I...

Shin: For starters, let’s say it’s a good thing we managed to come to a compromise with the Vampires...

But we have to think about preserving the peace between the other races as well and plan towards the future. Also, how we will arrange a heir for us Founders. 

Carla: No need to worry about that. I have this woman. 

Yui: Eh?

Carla: Become my wife.

Yui: ...!!

Carla: I do not need to hear your answer. I already know it after all.

Shin: ...Haah, good grief. I’ve heard enough! (1)

ー Shin leaves the room

Yui: W-Wait, Shin-kun. You’re leaving!?

Carla: Just leave him be. More importantly, you should keep your eyes only on me...

Yui: ...!

Carla: I shall make it so...I am the only thing on your mind...

Yui: ( Carla-san...! I feel as if he’s being more cheeky than ever before... )

( But...I think that side of him is lovely as well. )

( It was a long road, but we’re finally on the same page... )

( At first, I thought all of this was part of some kind of dark fate I had been cursed with... )

( But just by connecting our hearts, I was able to break through that fate. )

( No, I’m sure there never was any fate to speak of. )

( Carla-san, you are the one who helped me realize that. So allow me to say... )

( ーー Thank you. )

 ーー THE END ーー

Translation notes

(1) Shin says ごちそうさまでした or ‘gochisousama deshita’ which is usually said at the end of the meal when one is full. I assume that in this case, it means that he’s done with seeing the two of them be all lovey-dovey with each other. xD

[noritoshiikamo]

in connection to ur most recent post---

we wouldn't have you in any other way, tee. love uu, we'll be here for whatever you wanna share with us (with some exceptions of course...yknow like killing animals or cannibalism :<< ). stay safe, babie! 🌼

awwwweee that so sweeeeeeeet u gonna make me cry mid meeting now khfbrb thanks guys, i know im slow in updating now, brains just stupid rn but ill try my best

dont worry i havent pick up hannibal's taste yet yall will be first to know if i do ujgrfjhrbgfrb IM KIDDING /j

stay safe too bb kith kith <33

[littlebabycrybtch]

oh my god im sorry but i HATE reading analysis discourse so fuckgin much. its so annoying and unnecessary and cruel bc per usual ableists just Scream over everyone and manipulate the view by focusing on the wrong points. disrespect towards this issue is never gonna work and yall would get that if you actually listened to the way the (usually nd) people felt about it and why, but ur too busy mocking them so you look good for consuming the Proper Medias tm. i mean you literally have to know this isnt productive, yall keep going bc you get a kick out of laughing at ‘unintelligent’ people.

‘uu ur teachers didnt oppress u by making u read to kill a mockingbird instead of the hunger games” ok listen 1. media you dont personally care abt can still definitely hold depthful value and be analyzed. oh my god lmao. the people who prefer ~that kind~ of media arent stupid and dont prefer easy thinking, its your own fault for Not looking into it yourself and just assuming its worthless, literally judging a book by its cover. LITERALLY avoiding the analysis skills you claim to have by assuming anything you read in highschool = smart, valuable and anything mainstream = stupid and useless. most books inherently contain symbolism and morals, a lot of these people CAN understand it, theyre just criticizing the inaccessibility of the writing that was forced on them academically. the people analyzing those medias instead of your favs are still taking in lessons even if they prefer to do it in a different format, i mean for instance THG is literally about fucking classism and racism and war you dumb hypocritical tunnel vision bitch, young adult media usually has a Lot of real world parallels in it that very much pertains to how teens see the world, thats the literal POINT, just cuz ur too elitist and dont respect children enough doesnt mean some books are ‘too stupid’ to analyze with any real social value, and 2. A BOOK NOT BEING EXCITING... OR EASY TO UNDERSTAND... IS LITERALLY SMTH VALID TO CRITICIZE IN MANY CASES, ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE GIVING IT TO CHILDREN.... if a kid says “this is boring/too long/uses words that i dont know, so i cant make any sense of it” that doesnt always mean theyre lazy or w/e, if its not a book made for kids (bc kids can understand mature themes but that doesnt. mean you can just throw all the other skills they arent experienced with yet at them, they still need writing tailored to them), Thats your first problem, but sometimes ur book is just fucking boring all together. a book can have as much symbolism as it wants, if its not there to open the mind and provide necessary depth, but to feel self important and make you feel self important for getting it, thats not a good book. and with books i do respect now like TKAM i remember outright saying, “i literally cannot read this and dont get it at all” at like 10 yrs old, and my teachers didnt do shit to explain it or help me or give me any skills at all, they were just like. :) keep trying!! according to your scores we know you can do it!!! so, i did not keep trying, i gave up, and i guarantee if it had been a few years later it would have been easier. if i had been given the opportunity to read stories with similar morals that were made for my age range that i WANTED to read, i guarantee i wouldve gotten so much more out of that. but i was literally DISALLOWED, bro if i grabbed a book that actually interested me, i was told i couldnt check it out at ALL unless it was in the ‘range’ i was assigned, which was college level since i was in 4th grade. so if you think i shouldve kept reading, im being unironic rn, you need to go get a degree, become a teacher, and if a kid or teen says to you what i said, sit them down and TEACH THEM without shame, and fight for better regulations of what reading levels can be pushed on what age groups. if lit analysis is this important to you, FUCKING TEACH IT PROPERLY, that is literally the ONLY REAL SOLUTION to the problem you have, NOT SHAMING the people who were ALREADY FAILED BY THE SYSTEM.

the problem is not ‘idiots think symbolism is stupid’ the problem has ALWAYS been ‘the education system is flawed and how and when children are taught certain skills is so corrupted and damaging, the children growing up with it cannot Help but struggle later in life, and your issue should be with the system”. like can i be real. learn how to Emotionally ~analyze~ posts from sad kids with mental illnesses saying smth as basic as “i wish i wasnt forced to read mature books as a child without any themes pertaining to me at all bc it hurt my already fragile motivations for learning :/” without your ass getting defensive over the classics. bitches stan ‘the door is red to symbolize anger’ but think thg is just a stupid dystopia love triangle book................ ur not even that smart like yall are just elitist like LITERALLY just elitist if you mock the values ppl see in other books and claim theyre too stupid to understand ~real books~. a fucking mickey mouse cartoon could hold the exact same moral lesson as a 1200 page novel written by a college professor of 30 years, like the Exact Same Conclusions CAN be drawn no matter how many words and analogies and metaphors are thrown on top!! for many those fancy details make it more enriching but its literally possible to get the same concepts from “EASIER” material, that is not Lesser it is ACCESSIBLE and it should be ENCOURAGED all the same. yall are gatekeeping and its stupid, if you actually want ppl to analyze media then you’d applaud how they analyze their passions even when you dont share it, not shame them for struggling with understanding other stories. this rly boils down to either ‘i hate ppls preferences and wanna make them feel stupid’ OR the ever so lovely ‘i hate whiny disabled ppl and kids who were pressured to the point of burnout, and wanna make them feel stupid’. its fucking exhausting. idc how you guys feel, you talk to hear yourselves talk and its all just talk and nothing helpful, your disrespect doesnt work bc its an echo of the root problem. for gods sake shut up already lmao

[magioftheseas]

Not Too Hot, Not Too Cold

Summary: In which Matsuda and Komaeda clean themselves off in the public bath. It's clean, I tell you, CLEAN!

Rating: PG (?)

Warnings: I mean two boys are taking a bath but it’s non-sexual and it’s...a bath. There are some decriptions of the nudity and scarring but it’s clinical.

Notes: Ah yes, the mandatory bathing event that comes with every killing game. Honestly it’s fairly tame and I admit I just really like writing people taking baths. I just love baths. But yeah, this one takes place immediately after Chapter 10. It’s short and sweet but I enjoyed writing it, ehe.

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Just undressing was a bit of an endeavor with how much his shirt got stuck to his skin. It was a hassle to drag off, and the tag in the back was fucking scratchy as shit. Grumbling, Matsuda practically yanked it off, tossing it aside. He moved onto his pants, even more of a hassle due to the texture and scowled all the while.

“Do you need help, Matsuda-kun?”

“No, fuck off.”

Komaeda giggles in response and Matsuda doesn’t look at him but at the set of clothes set delicately aside. Shirt, pants, and boxers all daintily folded with the ridiculous jacket hung up lovingly. Compared to his heap on the group currently burying his slippers. The orderliness annoys him for several reasons, but he’s not in a particularly introspective mood right now so he lets it slide.

Komaeda had already turned on the shower, humming and checking the temperature. Matsuda stole a glance at his bare shoulders, noting that without extra layers, Komaeda Nagito was almost disgustingly frail. The steam did little to obscure that, but Matsuda quickly directed his attention to wiping the moisture off his forehead rather than overthinking as he was prone to do.

If I had let him get tied up, would he have actually survived?

He shouldn’t think about that.

Also, he caused two deaths yesterday and is humming a damn tune. But, hey, we all cope in different ways. Urgh.

He shouldn’t think about that, either. While a shower was one of the more ideal places to get ill, he did want to just bathe and wash everything away rather than creating a larger mess.

Even though I’m a mess of a human being even without that damn basket case over there.

Ha. Ha.

“Matsuda-kun, the water’s ready!”

Who’s responsible for who, here?

With a sigh, Matsuda dispensed the last of his clothes into the misery heap and made his way over. Komaeda handed him the shower nozzle cheerfully with his face and hands both looking awfully red.

Matsuda checked the water and nearly screamed from the immediate, searing burn.

“What the fuck, how big is your death wish?!”

“Oh,” Komaeda intoned, pulling the water away and staring at the nozzle in confusion. “Too hot or too cold?”

“Hot! Way too hot! Are you trying to burn yourself alive?! Wasn’t Hanamura enough?!”

Urgh, and now he felt sick again.

“It felt fine to me,” Komaeda muttered, almost curiously. He puts his hand under the spray. “Mm.”

Matsuda yanked his hand away by the wrist, expression dark.

“The least you can do is take me by my fucking word.”

So he can’t feel it. That’s great. That’s just great. He’s bad at guilt, grief, and heat. What a combination. But, I can’t exactly be surprised.

Sighing, he took over the shower and twisted the knob so that it was more suitably lukewarm. He personally preferred them on the cold side because he was less likely to fall asleep that way, but he didn’t want to give the idiot he was in charge of a fucking stroke.

“Sorry, Matsuda-kun.” Komaeda ducked his head, looking apologetic at least. This guy and his standards. Matsuda simply rolled his eyes.

“Do you never notice blisters?”

“Oh, I get them sometimes. Why?” Komaeda tilted his head, smile stupid and innocent. “It’s the same with bruises.”

“Understandable,” Matsuda grumbled before spraying Komaeda in the face. “Aah, it looks like I’m gonna have my work cut out for me.”

Komaeda cried out, gurgling his name. When Matsuda pulled back, he was groaned and covering his face.

“Uu, it got up my nose.”

“Ah.” Matsuda clicked his tongue, and he couldn’t brush off the rising heat in his cheeks as being the fault of the water. Dammit. “Sorry about that. Turn around. Let’s just start rinsing you off.”

“M-Mm?” Komaeda blinked at him blearily. “I can do that myself, Matsuda-kun.”

“Did I fucking stutter? I can’t even trust you to not eat soap with how you act sometimes.”

“I wouldn’t do that.” A pause. “I can’t even see how that would serve any higher purpose. Really, if anyone should do that, it should be Matsuda-kun.”

“Fuck off.”

Giggling at his inane joke, Komaeda obeyed and turned around. Matsuda’s gaze ran up and down. Every contour of his spinal cord and shoulder blades stuck out, and even over his hips, the skin seemed to be stretched over thin. Komaeda still hummed cheerfully, squirting shampoo into his hand and lathering his hair.

“That melody,” Matsuda found himself murmuring. “I guess it’s not terrible.”

“Aha, thank you.” Even tossed carelessly over his shoulder, Komaeda’s smile was painfully bright. “It’s a lullaby that a nurse used to sing for me.”

Not your mom?

His chest clenched at the thought.

Then again, do I even remember her lullabies?

“Do you know any lullabies, Matsuda-kun?”

“Haah? What kind of question is that?”

“I just,” Komaeda chuckled, turned away with pink ears. “Whenever you remark on something, I can’t help but wonder about the significance of it.”

Komaeda’s hands dropped to his lap, head tilted back. Getting the message, Matsuda turned the spray back on him to rinse out the soap. Without thinking, he runs his own fingers through the ivory strands to be thorough. As one would expect, the hair was thin, frail, and easy to pull out if he wasn’t careful.

“Mm, Matsuda-kun,” Komaeda hums happily. “So cleansing.”

“If you make it weird again, I won’t hesitate to spray your face.”

“Uwah! Please don’t!” A light laugh tinged with weariness. “I really didn’t enjoy the previous time.”

“So there’s your limit on your self-destructive tendencies, huh?”

“I don’t like to be hurt without purpose, Matsuda-kun!”

“I see.”

He wanted to scoff but instead bit his tongue.

A fucking mess I got myself into, that’s for damn sure.

All the same, he finishes with Komaeda’s hair and moves on to scrub his back. Komaeda shudders, flushing for some reason, and Matsuda avoids his stare. Instead, he observes the various scars on the other’s body. Some of them were surgical scars. He could tell they were the work of amateurs and it pissed him off considerably.

“U-Um, Matsuda-kun? You really don’t have to go this far.”

“With how pitiful you are, you’d sprain something by accident if I just left you on your own,” he retorted. “Besides, it’s easier this way. Do the same for me next because I really don’t want to expend this kind of effort on myself.”

“Aha,” Komaeda gasped before nodding cheerily. “That’s so like you. It’s still the highest honor to ask of from someone like me!”

“Not really.”

If I end up falling asleep, I’m hoping this idiot has the sense to wake me up, at least.

Komaeda was still giggling and fawning over the idea and he may have made a mistake, but Matsuda was a stubborn enough guy to commit. And whatever regret there was, it wasn’t enough to overcome his sheer laziness and disinterest in maintaining an acceptable level of personal hygiene.

“Hm, hm.”

He was actually starting to doze off already.

“Oh, Matsuda-kun, I’m not done washing myself off yet!” Komaeda exclaimed, aghast. “Ah, just let me take the nozzle back to finish.”

He was tired enough to comply, sitting down and laying his cheek against his knees with a groan.

“Ugh. The day hasn’t even truly started yet. That’s fucking great.”

“Chin up, Matsuda-kun! As an Ultimate, you have to keep looking unwaveringly towards the future.”

“Ew.”

And then, Komaeda was the one to spray him in the face. The ensuing water fight after that, with Matsuda cursing and Komaeda chortling, was more than enough to get his spirits up in a manner of speaking.

But even after the water took away all the sweat, dirt, and a little bit of blood, it sure as hell didn’t lighten up the overall situation. Still, Matsuda supposed he felt a little more capable to handle it, even with a beaming nuisance trailing after him.