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[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

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Hello anonymous! Here's another bit from Hiraeth. It's part of a significantly longer bit that I'm pretty proud of, but I cut it here rather than also sharing the next section. After all, I probably shouldn't be sharing everything of this story anyhow :P

[...] She snorted in near silence, annoyed by her own blind inability to see truly. Ever an optimist. Ever cast down by the true reality as it unfolded before her. Ever a lover of nature. Aelwen looked out the window with a weary sigh. Everything felt hard, and not only hard—remote and nothing that she needed to care about, really. Apathy had long since shown itself as a viable option, and—to her shame—she found herself grasping at it, instead of the despair that settled more and more deeply into her bones at every passing day. The clouds chased each other, white and fluffy and clean, across the clear blue sky. They were so beautiful, and she longed to feel the wind on her face. If they hadn’t been just about to go to meet with the other believers, she would have gone out and tried to appreciate the beauty she had long adored.

Fun fact: I have a note that I put in this section that reads 'Aelwen is SPIRALING here I think!' which somehow amuses me. Especially given when I wrote this first.

I think I would have more sympathy with Aelwen if I were writing this now (looking at you '--to her shame--' line).

I would love feedback! Also (keeping this straight for myself) this is the third excerpt I've shared, chronologically sharing, today. There's chunks between them, of course.