#<- how do you draw a living shadow?? idk but i tried

[howdyfriend]

minor disagreements.

aka I FUCKING HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT THESE TWO OKAY??? listen you KNOW they grew to be really close friends studying under tempus so that confrontation in the desert was fucking BRUTAL.

also pspspspsp @r3d1ke come get the blorbo content

[cafecourage]

Little Red Riding Hood where Reader is Little Red but also a werewolf

Love Interest and rest of chain can be assigned however

(Cause I'm always down for a fairytale au)

I did a little twist on this. Idk if this was what you wanted. I had to ask doggo experts for how doggos act around each other. I am leaving this off on a small cliff hanger because I do want to write more of this.

Twilight didn’t trust the new person in the group. Well. It’s more like he didn’t know what to think of her. She came in like a hurricane running after the Shadow like it was her prey. Then when the dust settled and she calmed down the group quickly learned of why. The short of it being that for some reason the Shadow attacked her brother and she took chase. Which then led to her to finally agree to join the chain. Much to the Ranchers chagrin. However, he knows better than to start an unnecessary fight. Twilight could be civil.

Civility could only go so far.

Little Red, as Warrior’s likes to call her, noticed Twilight’s presence and slight unease of her and ran with it. Twilight couldn’t understand just why she was always running circles around him talking about this and that. It confused him to no end when she instantly would stick to him even when he was wolfie. He had to on more then one occasion threaten to bite Little Red’s hands. She never cared or backed away from Wolfie when he showed a bit of aggression. “He is going to bite you.” Wild warned her as he watched Little Red try to play with Wolfie.

She looked up at Wild while holding Wolfie’s face, “what? No the baby is just playing.” That comment only made Twilight growl more.

“Baby? Wolfie isn’t a baby.” Wild was torn between being completely amuse and helping Twilight out as he did know about his slight distrust of Little Red.

“No no no, Champion. This is a wolf pup. He has to be like…” Her attention draws to the wolf as she observes the good boy. “Man… I have to say maybe 10? He is very small even for that age. Wolfie is like an adult dog size but he is definitely a wolf.” She boops the snoot and quickly pulled back as Twilight tries to bite her hand again. This only makes her giggle more.

“I think your wolves might be just bigger than my Hyrules.” Honestly to Wild, Wolfie was the same size as most wolves, but he just shrugs and not questions that further. Twilight couldn’t understand why you were like this, he wonders if it was just an eccentric thing. He has met a lot of weird people in his life and Little Red might be one of them. After being free from your grasp he takes it upon himself to run away for now. Only because you don’t tend to grab his face while being Twilight and thats the most annoying part of being wolfie around you.

It wasn’t until they finally came to her era that he finally understood.

The village Little Red lived in was small, but cozy. It reminded Twilight of his own home. People tended to light up when seeing Little Red. But given the size of the group following them most villagers tended to just say hi and remarks that they needed to talk to her later. “My house is a bit further.” Little red said pointing to a path that ran into the woods. “It’s just me, my brother and Grandma oh and our cat. I’ll make sure to keep her out of your stuff. But we should have room to fit everyone.” She explains as the path slowly clears up to a cottage in the wood with a small garden. There was a small pup running around in the yard playing with said cat. Who was purely annoyed at ready to pap the puppy in the head.

Little Red’s eyes brightened “Link!” She calls out gaining the Pups reaction.

She dashes towards the house as the puppy starts running towards her. They meet halfway and the puppy shifts into a young boy. “You’re back! You’re back!” This Link giggles as he gets lifted in the air by his sister and spun around.

“I am! For now.” Little red nuzzles her brother’s face as she shifts her grips on her brother to put his weight on her hip. “Boy’s this is my brother. Link these are the adventurers I’ve been traveling with.”

She turns to the group with a smile. The chain was utterly confused and silent before Wind speaks up “Did he transform into a wolf?”

[mewharley]

it's so wild getting into Sonic little by little and seeing the posts about it on Tumblr without much context ????

like I've only read the idw comics, played the first 3 games, saw like 10 minutes of sonic boom years ago and the rest is Tumblr osmosis

and the most relevant or wildest stuff I've learned is:

sonic was a werewolf (werehog) at some point???? (game????) which was referenced in the idw comic

the whole sonic and the black knight posts ??????????? I'm SO lost (another game ????? an AU made game ????)

the whole thing with shadows backstory which i already read two years ago 💔 but still don't have the whole context so for now he's just a random dude that sometimes appears, he's serious, he's powerful, but I haven't seen a lot and i have no context, like what does he do with his life ??? does he just wander around ??? where does he live ???? same with sonic but at least he likes to run everywhere and go anywhere and helps people, but shadow ??? dude what's your purpose in life ?????

I THOUGHT ROUGE WAS A VILLIAN ???? I mean she's a thief but still ????

knuckles is *not* as beefy as he was in Sonic Boom ???? he's so scrawny ?????

Amy's love for sonic IS NOT a secret ?????? at least in the idw comic

Tails and Sonic are actually brothers 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i thought they were just best friends and he was his sidekick but didn't expect it to be referenced so explicitly 🥺🥺🥺🥺 (idw comic again, idk about other media)

fuck the chaos emeralds in the first games, I gave up trying to get them (only got them in the first game)

are the chaos emerald like the dragon balls? do they randomly hide in the world after "being used" or what ?????

WHY ARE THERE SO MANY KIDS WITH THE REST OF THE CAST??? HOW OLD IS EVERYONE ELSE???? is sonic freaking 15 ????? older? Tails is a kid, Charmy is a kid, Cream is a kid, what's up with that? (at least Cream lives as a kid and Charmy seems to act as a kid, but Tails?? baby noooo 🥺🥺🥺, he's smart, I love him)

First sonic game I played was sonic adventure 1 GameCube version about 3 years ago, but it was so weird, random and hard that i dropped it quickly... but apparently it's one of the best Sonic games ???? so ????? (will definitely try again later)

the sonic franchise and its fandom knows no "cringe" and I admire everyone for that 👊😔, it's just so positive I love it, they're just.. free

haven't tried but I already know i won't be able to draw the characters hahaha, they're just SO dynamic that drawing them all stiff would look weird 💔💔💔💔

are there humans or not in the sonic world???? wait is eggman a human? what's up with sonic adventure having humans? (as far as I remember, I might be confused) do other games have humans? I know sonic is in the human world in the movies but ??

silver my beloved, I've only known him from the idw comic but if anything happened to him i would kill everyone in this room and then myself

for real, the characters are so likeable so far, I love sonic he's cool, a good lad, he's cocky but he like he's right, you know? and he helps everyone and he knows he's cool and and and I love him

so this is my sonic journey

very interesting

[monochromefilms]

Yuu’s deal

This is a Twisted Wonderland x Creepypasta!Yuu Ms.Kismet! Yuu. Ms. Kismet is from Better Films that can be found on Creepypasta and also on the wiki. I suggest reading it if you like detailed gore. 

This was not pre read and also a long chapter. :D

there may also be a better one written in the future.

TW: Gore, Blood, Paranoia, Filming on Human Mutations, Bodily mutilations, bodily scars, Bodily harm, Self-harm, Traumatizing a canon character, dead doves(?) idk if that’s used here…

Yuu always carried a camera. The pomefiore third years noticed that. Everyone noticed that. But it wasn’t a phone, it was a hand held. Yuu never let it go either. Cater tried to get them to use their phone to film but instead they kept on using their camera.

Some students would make fun of Yuu for carrying it like a doll and being attached to it. They even went as far as to take it from Yuu when they weren’t looking. But that all eventually stopped when they appeared with scars a few days later when they took the camera. Shaking and getting afraid even at the sight of Yuu.

Nonetheless, Yuu filmed absolutely everything everywhere. The flowers, people, bugs, dead birds- wait… dead birds?

“I’m sorry Jade, but is this information correct?” Azul placed the paper down slightly showing it to the rest of the people in the room. “Yes, it is.” Jade answered stiffly he was shaking slightly yet he kept a calm face and demeanor.

Yuu also filmed dead animals at times. 

Yuu was always quite quiet and always kept to their own group of friends. (Ace, Deuce, and Grim) They never wore anything that had short sleeves and always wore formal attire at every occasion, in or out of school, all outfits worn always had some shade of red.

“Yuu seems useful. say, isn’t there an assignment to use a camera?”…

…

Yuu tilted their to the side, “What would you like me to do?” They were confused at the gesture or the terms of the deal Azul had placed before them.

“Since I helped you with rebuilding ramshackle, in return, could you show me how you make your films?”

This was mainly to gather notes, Azul doesn’t know much on filming and the internet could go so far. Vil wouldn’t even speak to him either.

“But… you didn’t help me rebuild Ramshackle… my friends helped me… You only blueprinted some…” Yuu pointed out in their gravelly voice. 

Azul had to improvise on this.

“Are we not friends? You and me? I should have known this…” he looks to the side slightly not noticing Yuu’s stone cold eyes. “Oh, what you say is true… It’s fine. I’ll just ask Vil to help me. He already hates me anyways, why not make him find me annoying.” He says with a dramatic sigh. “Well… If we can negotiate…” Yuu only started speaking but Azul already has a smirk on his face.

“You do something for me, and I will give you a full notes copy for you to distribute. Would that sound nice?”

“And what would you ask from me?” Ironically, Azul wanted to be careful on this deal.

“Just one night with you.” The Cecelian blushed  at the wording of such a phrase.  “Um, Yuu- I-“ Yuu interrupts him, “I know how it may sound weird, Just hear me. I want you to help me paint an image. Grim and the ghosts won’t be home so it’s the best time to work on it. That is all.”

He was hesitant and nervous for an unknown reason. Was it the wording? Was it because they were to be alone together with only Yuu? “Deal?” “Deal.”

A few minutes after Yuu leaves, Azul notices a business card on his desk.

A messy drawing of a smiling face with the words “BETTER FILMS”.

“huh, ‘Better Films for a Better Audience’.”

——Time skips———

The night Azul arrived at the ran down building was very quiet. Almost too quiet.

He knocked his knuckles against the wooden door to which it answered with a quick, “Enter.”

Ramshackle’s interior was fairly dark. The living room only had one working lamp which illuminated where Yuu sat.

They sat as if they were waiting for something. It seemed a bit creepy to Azul. The lamp casted a shadow over their face only leaving one wide eye and a mouth. 

Azul brushed off the unnerving feeling as Yuu only wanting to wait for Azul. They did have a paint brush and pallet next to them. Everything was laid out already. The wall was lined as well.

But with Yuu being Yuu, they had a camera set up.

Azul closed the door behind him as Yuu started to get the pallets and camera set.

“I wanted to film this and later edit it. “ They began to explain, “I like seeing a full process. I hope you don’t mind being in the camera a bit.”

Azul thought of it to be a bit weird but didn’t say anything of it. “ It’s fine.“ he really hopes no one sees it. “Can you start the camera?” Yuu asked as they turned around and checked over the pallets once again.

“It’s the red button that has a tape icon.”

Doing as asked, he started the camera.

“ Yuu, I appreciate you being able to take all of your notes to help the film students. But even if there are already pallets and brushes… I don’t really see any paint.”

Here isn’t any paint. Not one bucket in sight. Yet Yuu ignored this detail. Instead they just told him to: “Just keep filming. No matter what.”

The room began to tense a bit.

“We’ll be using a different paint.” Yuu began to stand up. Yuu turned to the camera, revealing the paint spatula in hand.

Except it was made of metal. And was sharp…

Yuu stuck the spatula into their own hand causing Azul to step back slightly in horror. Blood spilled onto the paint pallet. Yuu moved the spatula around and harsher into the bleeding wound. Smiling as it made a wider hole in their palm. Azul swears he could hear the squelching of flesh as a few chunks begin to fall from Yuu’s hand.

Yuu begins to slide it down their arm, cutting each vein until they reached their shoulder. Only then did they stop. But that wasn’t the end of it. Yuu began to cute diagonal slices on their already wounded arm, cutting each piece of flesh into squares before throwing the utensil to the side and using their own hands to strain it like a towel for more blood to come out.

As it all happened Azul could only look wide eyed and horrified.“Yuu! Stop! Yuu! Please stop!” He screamed out. But Yuu didn’t answer or even look up at him. Metallic smells engulfed the room.

“We have enough paint…” Yuu’s face was shadowed by the lamp. Only a glowing eye laid behind the shadow. Their face was lifeless. “Please…” their voice began to crack. “Save me. SAVE ME! BRING ME BACK HOME!”

And that was it. 

Azul ran for it.

He didn’t appear at NRC for the next couple of days. Too afraid to face Yuu. Too afraid to face anyone else.

Until he was forced to come back by Crowley. Azul avoided meeting Yuu’s cold gaze. Even at the sight of their red ribbon made him run the other way. Floyd could tell not to say anything as did Jade.

He was finally forced to see Yuu. For his end of the bargain.

“Here’s the notes.” Yuu was wearing a sleeveless turtle neck with shorts. Their grey jacket was tied around their waist as all of their scars were displayed. Bandages wrapped tightly and securely around their cut arm from the night. It was a sight for sore eyes.

“They were a bit messy so I rewrote a few of them the best I could.” And the camera. The great seven’s forsaken camera they forced him to film from hanged from the side pouch.

“Yes.” His mind went back to that night. “Th-th-thank you…”

:) ——————————————————————————————————

A/n: I am very sorry for adding a traumatized octopus. But Azul just reminded me of the brother a bit. Also! Better Films does not belong to me! I am using the Wiki fandom pastas to make these! There most likely to be a Russian Sleep Experiment!Yuu next or one of the classics or popular pastas!

[kawaiiblue18]

Family portraits

So Sonic family tree lore has been swimming around my head to point that it’s gone from headcannons to its own somewhat au that ties in Sonic’s many parents and siblings

The full condensed au lore is below the Keep reading

I was gonna draw a portrait of Tails & Sonic as well as Sonic, Shadow, Maria, & Charles but I didn’t like how they looked so yeah

Might attempt to draw them again later idk

I’m very normal about the sonic fandom wdym

🚨GIANT AU LORE PARAGRAPH WARNING🚨

So basically, Jules had a fling with Aleena when they were in their 20s, but Aleena’s parents forbid them from marrying because Jules was not of royal heritage like Aleena was. However, Aleena’s parents never properly reinforced them to separate until Aleena found out that she was pregnant and Jules was banished from the kingdom. Eventually, the triplets are born with Sonic being the spitting image of Jules with Aleena’s green eyes. (As for why Manic is green and Sonia is pink, I’ll just say it runs in Aleena’s family which is why Aleena’s parents are the color they are in the family tree.) Since Charles, Jules’s older brother, still lives within the kingdom, Aleena asks him to help her in raising the triplets which Charles readily accepts. (Robotnik never steals the kingdom from Aleena here so Aleena never gives up her kids.) Charles is the one who gives her the idea to give Sonic his birth name Olgilvie Maurice, named after both of Sonic’s grandfathers. Charles and Aleena co-parent the triplets, Olgilvie spending more time with his ‘Uncle Chuck’ than his siblings. The three siblings find out that they all had a love for music so Aleena crafts them those medallion necklaces. (They don’t have magic powers like they do in Sonic Underground.) But unlike his siblings, Olgilvie is born with an unusually high amount of chaos energy which gifts him the ability to run at super sonic speeds. When he turns 10 years old, he decides he wants to go off and see the world. His family disapproves so Olgilvie tries to run off, but Charles catches him. Charles doesn’t want Olgilvie to leave, but knows he can’t stop him so Charles gives Olgilvie his plane. From then on, Olgilvie introduces himself as his nickname Sonic to anyone he meets. Sonic then stumbles upon a fox kit that he takes under his wing as his adoptive little brother. All of Sonic’s cannon game story lines stay the same. At some point between adventures, Sonic reunites with Jules and Charles. In all that time separated, Jules had fell in love and married Bernadette (he has a thing for purple hedgehogs I guess lmao), essentially making her Sonic’s stepmother. (Jules never gets robotized here.) Jules never gets to meet Sonia or Manic. Continuing the family tree, Sonic falls in love with Shadow and they have kids with their combined high amount of chaos energy. Their first born daughter is named Maria in memory of Shadow’s adopted sister and their second born son is named Charles after Sonic’s uncle. 

Woo boy thats lot. Props to you if you actually read all of that :))) 

[watercubebee]

Hola Bee! Como estás? ✨

I’ve been meaning to ask you this for a while, but didn’t know exactly how to phrase it. I’m gonna try my best tho!

I was wondering if you could talk about your relationship with colour on your art! I’m always so mesmerised by how you use colour in your drawings and how expressive and poetic they are! Would you mind sharing a bit of your process, and how you developed your eye for colour?

HOLAAAAAAAAAAAAAA BSFHVKBS aawauawuuaw first of all, thank youuu இ௰இஇ௰இஇ௰இ ¿COMO ESTAS TÚ? ¡ESPERO QUE SÚPER MEGA BIEEEN!!!

Second, I truly hope this is understandable cos I have zero explaining powers skjfvbkjsbfv

But I think I have always like color! Even at the beginning, when I was learning to draw, I usually tried (and failed skjbvkjsv) to keep it colorful!!! (It didn't help that when i was a kid i wanted to live in a kaleidoscope world alcmkwnmxkakfn, also, putting marbles near yhe light makes the look sooooo pretty i like pretty colors fr fr)

Most of the time they looked muddy or very mismatched, but I did promise myself I will do my best to one day being able to learn to color (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)

One of the few things that helped was this book by James Gurney (even if I don’t understand most of it, I try to just focus on the images)

And also, practice, A LOT SNVJS, but a trick that helped me (along side of really focusing on the images, as I said) is to try to mimic another artist way of coloring, but try not to use the eyedrop, that way you can be able to train more your eye when it comes to certain colors (like when you totally think its blue but IT IS NOT SDVJKSV it ends up being a red ish hue, but when its paired with other colors it kinda tricks your mind to make you think “ah, its blue!” 

In this case (I think it was my third attempt to mimic this style) the things that pop out the most to me is -Blue saturated-Blurry edges-Not render/less render-Lack of detailing in face (in other artworks you can see that thingy more) And I did my best to try it cos, you can get new tricks when you apply them in your normal way of coloring (obvs in mine I did made the face features more noticeable but that’s because that’s what I like the most, face features are 👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼) It doesn’t have to be an exact replica, at the end of the day, its just practice and learning on what color goes better with the other (its like slowly building a library in your head of possible color combinations and how suitable they are to each other)

And for the process when coloring…I think the best way put it is…just playing around (imma add a speedpaint for you to see how it goes kdfjbnksfb) most of the time I know how I want it to be, but I leave it very mmm minimal(?) or short on terms of how to describe it

-what do I want the pose/feeling to be 

-what color for background

-Subject colors (taking in account the bg color)

-Textures

It's truly a process of "this looks better, i don't  like how this one looks, i can make it look better, would it look better if i add this? Or add a texture here? What if I erase this one?"

Also, the eraser it's your friend, try not to use the normal one that often, idk how the feature is called i forgot, but it lets you use your brush as eraser, that helps a lot to create new textures ᕙ⁠(⁠＠⁠°⁠▽⁠°⁠＠⁠)⁠ᕗ

Closing words….

Experiment a lot ᕦ⁠ʕ⁠ ⁠•⁠ᴥ⁠•⁠ʔ⁠ᕤ that also helps to lose the fear of color, cos at the beginning i also had that problem, I didn't leave the same hues when coloring (using blue shadow for a blue subject and such and such)

Hope it helps ♥⁠╣⁠[⁠-⁠_⁠-⁠]⁠╠⁠♥ this extended A LOT SLLCLWNFKDKKSN but color is an amazing stuff fr fr fav forever ༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽adding that, i'm not expert, what I know it's what I learned along the way I never went to school to learn about this stuff so, my best shot (the one that worked for me) was to experiment and practice tons, even when the result its not always the best, you are still learning from it,  and there is always room for improvement and to learn new things ༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽ᕦ⁠(⁠ò⁠_⁠ó⁠ˇ⁠)⁠ᕤᕦ⁠(⁠ò⁠_⁠ó⁠ˇ⁠)⁠ᕤᕦ⁠(⁠ò⁠_⁠ó⁠ˇ⁠)⁠ᕤ

I HOPE THIS IS HELPFULLLL ༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽

[just-eyris-things]

okay eyris rambling lets fucking goooo (because i dont remember if i've said any of this before)

soto spoilers so imma put a read more riiiight here.

So I was thinking and then I did some more thinking and then I thought some more! In conclusion: I've been thinking a lot lately. About Eyris.

Honestly, SotO fucking sucks for her.

All your friends and family are either dead or have left you because they have their own lives (and that's okay!!). Your girlfriend kinda disappeared without a world so I guess she dumped you. Your dragon child went for a long-ass nap, your life-long mission that you've tried so hard to avoid for most of your life is finally over and in theory you finally have what you've always wanted: freedom. There is no more Wyld Hunt, no more lose threads to pick up on. Your mission is over and you can rest peacefully in a shadow of a tree with a book in one hand and Elonian wine in the other.

So why do you feel so empty? Why do you feel like a part of you is gone now that it's all over?

So after the entire Oni business is over in Cantha, Eyris finally returns to Tyria. She tries to rest at Whale Tail Island and fails miserably. Sitting idly is not doing her any good. She hates how the moment she gets to sit down and relax, she immediately starts overthinking and having nightmares. She hates how all the problems that she avoided adressing are now resurfacing. So, she leaves for the Shiverpeaks. She could try to find Freya, right? She went missing after Bjora's Marches so...

SOTO SPOILERS BEGIN HERE. THEY SMOL BUT THEY STILL THERE.

While it keeps her occupied and she meets another norn, Yagna (more about Yagna in another post that I will eventually make, but here she goes for your "looking orbs" needs),

Eyris gets a call from "Caithe". By the Bear, she is sooo happy! Finally she's needed again. But she isn't aware of those feelings. Eyris just sighs heavily and says "well... I guess she's really gone...", then proceeds to go to the Grove to meet Caithe. Right after she gets it over with with the Reporter, she gets an unexpected letter - a letter from an old acquaintence and a Whispers agent, Laeyrin.

Laerin wants Eyris to investigate the disappearance of Wizard Tower in Garrenhoff. Eyris was hesitant but she agreed. She had nothing to do anyway. Laerin gives Eyris a little private comm device for the two of them only (she omits that latter info) and sends her on her way.

So we have:

Eyris, lost, traumatised, running away from confronting her past which causes her to get send into the demon realm

Laerin, who wants to slither back in because she's bored.

Peitha, Eyris's new brainworm. Eyris doesn't want to trust her. Eyris would still choose Peitha over her sadistic ex. Also she somehow finds Peitha's presence comforting. Peitha being in her brain somehow resembles the connection to the Dream and to Airell. Yes, it's a bit more intense since Eyris feels like she has NO privacy and that Peitha's watching and hearing EVERYTHING but... She'll take it. Eyris leans into it because something about Peitha is drawing her in. Idk, something something Eyris is trying to subconsciously replace Freya and Peitha is RIGHT THERE.

Okay ramble over. Two minor points left.

This is not where I was going when I started writing this post and

I was thinking "What if Freya and Eyris reunited in teh Wizard land or in Nayos but idk how to get Freya there so for now I am shelving this idea until I figure out how that could happen and if I realise there's no way - it goes into the idea trash can.

THANK YOU SORRY FOR THE LONG POST BYE--

[blueeandyellowmakesgreen]

hello . its 1:49 am, i cant fucking sleep and i wanna overshare. lets do this

so when i was 18 my ex girlfriend and i were both artists who had a fair presence in the fandom where we first met. she was heaps much better than i was, a couple of months younger, and she was beloved by all of our mutual friends mostly because of it, and i was so proud she was mine. it got to a point where i was kind of living in her shadow, but i did my best to try to support her and compliment her bc god she really was amazing anyway, despite my own seeping insecurities. i remember supporting her a lot whenever she posted art.

but when i showed her my art, she didnt really react much. the best she could give me was an ‘aww, cute!’, but it honestly felt patronizing. i thought it was just me being paranoid about the whole thing, until she started pointing out things that felt wrong in my art, like how one strand of the char was on the wrong side or how the char had an extra finger. it felt worse that she worded in a way like she would to a child.

it was humiliating. i knew she probably was trying to help, but coming from her, it just felt really embarrassing and made me feel smaller, considering her skill. and when i tried communicating to her about it, she then said ‘aw it just be like that :( youll get better’. i felt even worse, but i didnt want conflict so i just said nothing.

then when i posted a christmas themed art of our fave ship back then and posted it, she told me ‘your recent art was so good, it almost made me ask you to match icons with me. almost.’

its like she was saying that my art was almost good enough for her to be associated with it. its like she was expecting me to be at her level in art before we could really be.. equals in that. anyway i broke up with her. she didnt seem bothered by it, and seemed to move on pretty fast. i dont know where she is.

idk im just trying to find the root of my insecurities of perfectionism in my art. i used to not give a fuck about what i draw and just post for the hell of it because in the end i was passionate about it. but now it just seems like the opposite, and now i have this obligation to make everything i make good or im not good in general.

maybe i did feel jealous. maybe i envied her skill and the way people swarmed over her art than they did mine. its the fact she enabled my insecurities and instead of trying to reassure me in a respectful way, she basically confirmed my doubts that, yeah, my art fucking sucks. unfortunately, it was brutal enough for me to start making grounds to improve.

i knew my art wasnt that good back then and until now, i know for a fact i am still learning and leagues behind certain artists. but at least im in a place in my life where im improving and moving forward.

[sk3tch404]

.. Yeah

I didn't even know naib is south Asian🥲

Oh I know them.

Yeah Naib is from Napal, and I do agree that he should be darker. Though, trust me, there are a lot of pale asians, including south east asians. I don't think there should be been a 'white washing problem' with your post.

Bro how can you white wash a character when they're already that skintone? 💀 it's not like you went out of your way to make him even paler because you think paler skin is better or smth.

It's pretty common knowledge that Naib is a pale character despite being from Nepal (I hate Netease for this every single day of my life) but I don't think that person should have came at you like that? Especially because skin color does not equal race/ethnicity (not saying that people can claim to be a race/ethnicity when they're really not)

Yes there are varying degrees of skin color people give Naib, and there is no denying that the character design team fucked up. Though I can't speak for Southern Asian people, I can tell you that some of my fellow brother and sisters are fucking GHOSTS (Not european looking because um yeah...) My sister of course has melanin, but she is more pale than most.

I was real PALE in quarantine. I was born very toned because I have most of my father's body genes. I did still have tan and yellow undertones, but I changed a considerable amount.

Especially when I moved and winter rolled around, I started to look even more different. Then the warmer south temperatures came around and I was tanned again. (Though not too much because I did a lot of physical labor inside) After I quit that, I started to do online school and went back to being paler.

This is my hand rn (I tried to keep it in the shadows so the white light wouldn't interfere much)

Don't say anything abt my nails, I HAVE MAD ANXIETY.

I was way tanner than this. Let me tell you, when I was younger, I always said I was the tannest kid out of all of my family members after leaving the beach. Nowadays I'm more of a in between looking type of gal.

You're very obviously not a native English speaker (/gen /nm) and I'm sure where you live, colorism is incredibly rampant. I understand that you may be uneducated and dissimive of these sort of things because you grew up around these kind of ideals.

I can totally help you understand and educate you on colorism and the issues of IDV. There's always room to grow and be better, especially with these types of things.

I may not know you personally, but I know you're not the type of person to purposefully act with bad intent. I trust that you are a good person and genuinely want to learn about the difficulties of representation in media to better yourself.

You also have no issue with drawing my skin tone, soooooo I don't see why you would try to 'white wash him' when you're alright the one I had at the time.

I personally prefer when people do give Naib more realistic representation, but I don't really mind it when people draw him pale? Idk I guess I'm just used to seeing him pale. From now on, it would definitely be nice and more realistic if you started drawing Naib with tanner skin due to his lore and cultural background. (Not saying that there ZERO PALE NAPALI PEOPLE)

Eh I don't really rock with that person anymore anyways. No shade, just saying we ain't buddy buddy.

[b-rainlet]

bestie i was ALSO thinking abt babysitter steph seducing jason...... so fuckin tastee -dick

Okay so this is neither thought through nor is it as tasty as it could be, but have it anyway (I imagine this is some sort of AU where Steph is older than Jay and kinda associates with Bruce outside of vigilante work? idk, like I said, not thought through).

@dubacheryking

The kid is scrawny, almost unhealthily so. 

“Nine,” Alfred had said, but looking at him, you could easily mistake him for a six year old, all wiry arms and jittering legs. 

He’s an anxious boy, easily spooked and Stephanie thinks it has something to do with the haunted look he has in his eyes, this shadow that’s following him around, making his shoulders hunch forward when she’s talking to him, his gaze flick away when she’s crouching down to be at eye-level with him. 

Like now. 

“It was an accident,” Stephanie says and normally she would reach out for him, put a comforting hand on top of his crossed arms, but somehow she has the feeling it wouldn’t work with this one, would only make Jason draw back even more. 

She’s gotta be cautious with him, Bruce had told her when she’d first been over to babysit, but even without his words she had known, one look at the kid had confirmed it. 

“I’m good at reading people,” she had soothed, had slipped on her brightest Steph smile before striding over to the living room, carefully settling down next to Jason on the carpet, mindful of the way Bruce was tracking her movements. 

Jason isn’t her first kid - he isn’t her only kid - but she had known back then already, had seen it in the way Jason startled when she moved too quickly, the way he scooched over when she leaned forward too far, but also the way a smile spread over his lips when she complimented him, small and fleeting but nonetheless there. 

This was a kid desperate for attention. A kid desperate for love. 

Her gaze flicks down to the remnants of the vase on the floor, the one Jason knocked over when he’d moved too quickly, stepped back instinctually when Stephanie had called for him. 

There’s something about Jason, something in the perpetual downturn of his mouth that tells Stephanie he knows about the things kids his age shouldn’t know about, the one thing every parent hoped they’d never have to explain to their child. 

It makes it harder for Stephanie to work with Jason - makes all their interactions tedious and drawn out like chewing gum - but after nearly two months of coming over regularly, even outside of her assigned babysitting nights, she’s pretty confident she’s got a handle on him. 

“Bruce…he’s gonna-” Jason doesn’t finish the thought, still stubbornly avoiding her gaze. Hiding from her. But Stephanie can see how his eyes fill with tears, how his lower lip starts wobbling until Jason bites down on it. 

That’s the thing with her newest kid - her newest project, really -, Jason is aware enough of all the dark things hiding in the corners of the world, he refuses to show weakness, even for a second. 

But that is also his mistake. 

Stephanie smiles at him - not a trademark Steph grin but something more settled, more reassuring. Motherly. 

Most kids like having Stephanie as their big sister, play pranks with her and be chased around the house by her until they are all out of breath giggles and tired limbs, have Steph hoist them up on her back or her shoulders, pulling at her hair to keep their hold. 

Not Jason. 

Jason needed something else, needed warmth and calmness and baby steps. 

Stephanie knows how to give him that. 

“How about I tell Bruce it was my fault?”

A sharp turn of his head, wide eyes staring at her in shock.

“You would do that?” There’s an angry tone to it, an indignance that should be funny coming out of the mouth of a nine year old. 

Stephanie never asked about Jason’s life before Bruce found him but she doesn’t need to. Kids like that, they’ve seen things. Done things. 

She nods, tries to sound as sincere as possible when she speaks: “Of course.”

Jason doesn’t like being touched - especially by men. He doesn’t trust easily - especially when it comes to Bruce and his reassurances that there’s no ulterior motive to taking Jason in. He doesn’t confide in anyone - especially not the two men living under the same roof as he does. 

Stephanie is no man. 

She leans forward conspiratorially, her smile turning just a smidge sharper at the corners. 

“It’ll be our secret, just between us. I wouldn’t want you to be in trouble, Jason, never.”

For a second she fears she’s been too forward, laid it on a little too thickly, but then Jason squints at her, as if assessing her and her words, and nods his head. 

“You’ll keep my secrets,” he starts, a stubborn glint in his eyes as if he’s challenging her, “and I’ll keep yours.”

The smile that spreads over Stephanie’s lips at his words isn’t calculated nor is it false. She considers him - all of him, head to toe, just for a second, indulging herself just for a glimpse of a moment - and she knows she’s got him. 

He’s gonna flower beautifully under her care. 

“That’s exactly how we’ll do it Jay.”

[idontdanceisit]

So uhhh… I made this. No I’m not making a fnaf fan game idk how to code, I only know how to draw. (Barely.)

The summary is that Withered Freddy finds out that most of the animatronics are missing and looks at the console where he saw Toy Freddy. Toy Freddy found it from a dumpster so of course it’s cursed and so Withered Freddy gets sucked into the survival horror game console. There are multiple worlds like a haunted house, abandoned hotel, a lost ship, a totally not dangerous carnival and some glitchy world idk. Fighting some animatronic monsters 👺 I guess. So this is my first out of 8 playable characters in the game (characters are Withered Freddy, Toy Freddy, Toy Bonnie, Toy Chica, Withered Bonnie, Withered Chica, and Withered Foxy. Some of them which you have to save in certain worlds and levels). Withered Freddy finds Toy Freddy, later Withered Freddy goes missing and Toy Freddy has to save him. Okay. Now I summarized the story I will explain the pictures too. Ouch.

This is Withered Freddy’s character selection picture. The brighter one represents him being unlocked and still alive. The darker represents him not being unlocked yet or he ended up dying.

Now I will explain whatever this image means. And No it is not a Game Over. (I’m not making the game over screen till I have done all the playable characters.) You See the characters act as lives. If your character dies (unless u only got one) you have to continue the level you’re on with a different character. The game over is when all your playable characters die. Then you lose all of your items /(Including collectibles hehe yes I am evil.) and you Have to start the level you’re on all over again, so just don’t die. (Unless you got a game over and you only had one playable character, you can keep your items I'm not that evil :)) The only way to get the character back is to complete the level your on, find a very rare item that brings them back, or you know, get a game over.

Heavily inspired by this lol. (I tried okay?)

This is Withered Freddy’s character description. If you can’t read this don’t worry I’ll re write it here. Sigh.

“Withered Freddy-‘The Broken Bear’

Withered Freddy, the once beloved stage singer of Freddy Fazbear was now replaced his Toy counterpart. Despite being a Worn-out looking animatronic, he has lot’s of strength and is great at hiding in the shadows. However…sometimes his almost constant stress gets the best of him. It doesn’t get any better when he has to fight back to survive…”

Yea there is another version where it explicitly shows his strengths and weaknesses. I’m thinking that for my none existing fnaf fan game there would be an explicit description that you could turn off and on. When it’s off you must figure what they do in game and maybe description. When it’s on, it tells you straightforward what their weaknesses and strengths are. This is the explicit description turned on,

I hope y’all can read it cause I don’t wanna re write it rn. I literally am going to repost this because I didn’t like the time where I posted it. Aka at ONE AM IN THE FREAKING MORNING. So yea…

Well I hope y’all didn’t cringe that badly. Anyways congrats on making it to the end I heavily appreciate it. If you have questions, ideas, and criticisms I would appreciate it in the comment section! I’m gonna need it lol. Thank you all and have a good day/night.

[write-for-the-moment]

Can someone write a fanfic, where MC, who is somehow manages to get inside a book, and be like to everyone “yeah no. Please. Get me to the Mortal Lands. I don’t want to be here!” ?

Listen, I wouldn’t be thrilled to be even near the fae lands or the characters. Rhys? You can love him, fuck him, hate him, but I would just “either kill me or let me fucking leave your place”. I don’t want deal with him. You can have him. Fae!Feyre can have him.

Fuck, I would gladly be this silent person, who just lives with humans. If I see Feyre, in her human days? *clap* I would’ve adopted her so damn fast, it’s not even funny. She won’t be amused, bc the girl was used to be provider to her family since she was a kid. But at least I would have her a chance not to worry about her next meal not coming the next day. And let her damn paint. And draw. And fuck, I would even have a chance to help her become independent artist or art teacher. Nesta? Yeah, I would’ve adopted her too, but alike Feyre, I would give her a room to heal. I’m not gonna “fix” her, but I will let her know that “hey, do you wanna talk?” Be an open ear. Not gonna let her berate Feyre though. “No, Nesta. Don’t call your sisters an animals! And, stop stealing!” *sprays water at her*

Elaine? Well, kinda tricky. I don’t have anything in common with her. Nesta would force me to adopt her, just like Feyre would try to persuade me to help their shithead father. I think Elaine would be like this kid, who tries too hard to get an approval from other person to make them like her more. I would just be like grandparent “There, there. Here’s your garden. Also, you!” *drags Archeron papa be his ear* “We need to have a damn talk”.

How’s next? Ah, Tamlin. I think I would UNINTENTIONALLY adopt him, like my pup. Cool, hella traumatized fae boy, who is also cursed. Idk why, I’m becoming a ACOTAR version Bruce Wayne with this adoption addiction of broken people. He would be sooo confused by my parenting, but in the good way? His blood related parents SUCKED. Jesus. Lucian? Oh gods, he would be sooo mad. He has a mom, who clearly loves him, but her circumstances are clearly not in her favor, especially with her older kids and Beron. He doesn’t need a parent, BUT he does need a damn therapy sessions. He will be so grumpy, but I don’t mind.

Eh, who… I guess Mor? I don’t hate or love her, but something about her way of dealing with trauma and her sexuality is nagging me, not in the good way. She would be offended by my doings, but I won’t force her to do anything that will make her uncomfortable. Like making see her abusers in the city where she felt safe *glancing at Rhys*. And stalking her from the shadows *glancing at Azriel* Tea parties with tears and cupcakes would be I think relieving for her. Also, hugs. I’m hella soft and plump, so she would be drowning in my bear hugs.

Who else, who else… Oh, Jurian! Fucked up guy. Very old, also. Hm, I guess also Vassa? Help her break the stupid curse and let her cry, laugh, live.

Rhysand? Fuck no. Please. Don’t fucking touch Feyre, you bitch. I would break his body and soul for even slightest harm towards my kids. Would whip him and tear apart his wings for every fucked up thing he did to Feyre/Tamlin/Lucian in UTM events. Fuck him.

Cassian? …no. Like, no-no. Triple no. I don’t want to deal with him. Same goes with Az. One is radiating with testosterone and abandonment issues, the other is reaaaaly creepy stalker with unresolved traumas. Cassian would so conflicted with me, and have a stupid jealousy, bc of his history with parent figures and me giving a parental attention to other characters. Though, not gonna lie, I think I will have a slip ups with him, bc he was kinda a cool guy in the second book and I would without a second thought would call him “good boy!”. Or ruffle his hair, laughing at his disdain for ruining his hairstyle. And hug him, if he open up to me about his childhood in war camp. With Az though… that’s kinda slip ups won’t happen. Sure, he too had a rough childhood, but unlike Cassian, he is a damn stalker of Mor. And I won’t have that shit happening with my adopted daughter. She’s so damn scared about even slipping about her sexuality, even to her damn cousin! And you think I will have a patience to deal also with him cornering her every moment? Fuck that shit.

…Tarquin. Let me smother him with platonic affection. His cousin also.

Amren? No.

All I’m saying that I need a story, where MC is not fucking anyone, be not powerful human, who just adopts characters like their children (regardless of their race/age). Who know the plot of the story and goes “yeah nah. We’re not gonna do that. Feyre, don’t go hunting. We have enough food. You going to school tomorrow.” Feyre: “Okay”.

Let see read about Feyre about being excited for school and showing her progress to MC. Let me read how Elaine, Nesta and MC help Feyre read and write. Let me read how Nesta slowly let herself heal from trauma, inflicted by her shitty parents. Let me read about how she started to openly smile, laugh with her whole chest, eat with her sisters and making amends with everything. Let me read how Elaine shows her strength with actions and words, without this whole Seer situation. Let me read how she excited to grow her own garden of vegetables, fruits and flowers. Let me read how MC helps Spring Court to break a curse WITHOUT the romantic love involved. Let me read how Tamlin and Lucian break down after everything in arms of MC, crying and hoping for the better future. Let me read how Feyre, after the curse, becomes unlike friends with Tamlin and Lucian. Let me read how MC proudly smile to their kids and saying “I love you all. So much.”

Let me read how MC unapologetically berates Rhys for his actions, for his whole character. Let me read how MC helps Morrigan not to be afraid of her love towards women, that’s there’s nothing wrong with her saying that “yes, I fancy woman”. Let me read of how Mor becomes more and more comfortable with her sexuality, and being able to say that to her supposed found family. Let me read about how Mor consoles with MC about her past with her blood related parents and her gruesome parts. Let me read how Mor cries from relief, when MC says to her that she’s not a failure, she’s not disgusting, that her love is not a mutation. “You have a jaded heart, Morrigan. That’s doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to love or be loved.” Let me read about how MC tells Cassian to back off, when he tries to argue with Nesta. Let me read how annoyed he feels, when MC with laughter calls him “good boy”, desperately ignoring the warm in his heart. Let me read how Cas in horror explains MC significant in giving him a homemade food and MC in answer frowns, tells him that’s he’s their kid and that’s he needs to eat. “Now eat while it’s still hot, son.” Let me read how hopelessly Cassian tries not to cry, when he eats the homemade food and how MC gently hugs him, and him not having a strength to push them off. Let me read how MC chastises Azriel for his creepy behavior towards Mor. Let me read how confused As feels when MC without any problem holds his hands, when he in panic state drags them away from fire attack. Let me read how hollow he feels when telling his fear towards fire and surprise, when MC firmly tells him that’s wasn’t his fault for his father and brothers abuse him. Let me read how frigid he feels, when they tell him that his scars are not sight of weakness, but a mark of survivor. Let me read about MC say that they dared to kill their kin, yet Az still stands here, alive; that his fear of fire is not something to be ashamed off, that he’s a survivor. “I see that you take a comfort in your shadows, because that’s the only thing you knew all your life. But don’t let your shadows defy you, Azriel. It’s not the only thing that’s makes you full.” Az: “…”.

Platonic and family love is just as strong as romantic, even powerful then that. Please, goddamn. I know some of them feel OOC for some people, but I’m TIRED reading about characters having sex with other OC. How the act of sex is the only action you take, when you want to show their love for other.

That’s all.

[paintcloset]

Drawing Station 1

This is the station I had been waiting the longest to finally start doing! I was expecting what i expect most often, what is considered as academic drawing but was kinda delightfully surprised to have a good mix of both so far!

First lesson, Walk and draw

First assignment, easy enough! Take a bunch of paper, go walk around, capture!

I enjoyed this a lot more than I thought I would actually, felt like letting go and just letting the pen flow, as if just working with my subconscious. I realized at one point that I was basically doing people watching on x games mode. As people walk by me, i captured their jackets, their conversations, ect. Walking around the academy I law a lot of wires and electronics, and i liked focusing on that linear aspect combined with the people that i drew.

After drawing we came in and got tape to connect all of our pieces. I really liked the almost electrical tape that i took, and i ripped into thin pieces which I layed out over the exhisting wires that i drew, giving them more shape and dirrection. I also used this to connect all of the disjunkt drawings, making all the exhisting wires connect in a loop. A closed circut if you will!

Second Lesson, Figure Drawing

Exhiting doesn't begin to describe how I felt about this class. I have never done live model drawing at this intensity, by size and time and skill. As well that it was nude drawing I was also shitting bricks because the model was naked and I got very nervouse.

The first page was a warm up where we had to follow the models movement, kinda just in energy and then we got cracking to quick poses. I loved sketching this big even though it ment I couldn't work into the drawing more. Also after this class I realized that I had gotten quicker and more accuret at drawing people! So bonus on that

BONUS ROUND! Station Skill, Digital Model Drawing

What do I do the next day after my first time model drawing? I go and I do it again of course!

I liked how this class had a lot more focuse on shadow and light and capturing figure rather than only capturing the model. The first drawing was to me, a warm up, and the biggest challende here now was fighting photoshop since I had never painted in it before.

Word of advice that I realized right about now in drawing station, never ever look at other peoples work WHILE you're still working on yours. I kept glancing over at other people's work and being like DAMN. It wasn't that I was doing something wrong either, we were all just painting differently, but in the moment it always feels like you're doing the wrong thing.

Also I squeezed into this class without regestering cus I just wanted to attend it so bad lol. Really like Victor's classes and I'd like to attend more. He gave me the greenlight to show up unregistered btw! some people just always skip without unregestering

Third Lesson, Tree of Words

She said pick a word and surprise me!

The day before this lesson I had been experimenting with ink and how to capture and essense of allusivness as well as barely being there. So decided with the first drawing to carry on with that. I don't actualy remember what word I picked, but I'm preatty sure it was shame. So person in ink falling to their death? maybe!

After looking over at other people working (against my own advice), I saw how much of a fluffy edge you can get when working with charcoal. I'm not a big fan of working with charcoal due to how messyyyyy it gets but alas I was really after this fluffy barely there effect. Took the plunge and refrence some old old photos of a friend from 2021. I tried to make a big contrast and try to demonstrate the snow from the photos but idk how good that attempt was. I can always try again!

Forth Lesson, Model Drawing Part Two

3rd time doing model drawing is a lot less intimidating. This lesson I tried more on capturing not only figure but also shadows and dimension. I also realized I gotta scale down no matter how much I love going bigger, I just dont have enough time to work into the drawings on such a scale. I think a lot of these would have looked more rendered and better looking if I just had more time. But oh well! you live and you learn.

[kaypeace21]

Idk if this is possible or not or if you've done it already but could you list all the rainbow references in the show?

Haha- talk about pandora’s box. Sure, personally i think the rainbows have multiple meanings -3 meanings to to be exact

1) Rainbows being associated with psychics + Will’s powers plot twist

*We see in the stranger thing novel 'suspicious minds' when overusing powers you may hallucinate rainbows (which are also associated with the void/ monsters in the series) .

Terry: “Spots bloomed behind her eyelids. Every color … as the sunlight turned to rainbows” ( p44-45), “streaks of rainbow appeared (p47)”,“The rainbow stayed with Terry for a long while, but eventually it faded and in its place: darkness. A pit.”(p. 48). 

Alice (who sees visions of the future) : “Snarling, snapping monsters,RAINBOW LIGHTS playing in the air around them” (p. 121).

cough Will being in the upsidedown/being chased by “monsters”. And Joyce communicating with Will  via “rainbow lights.”

The rainbow room (from s2) also has a rainbow on the door- according to the novel kali drew that rainbow. Similar to Will's rainbow drawing. Kali in the book also creates a rainbow allusion with sunflowers (Terry ref).

Kali: “field of yellow sunflowers  grew up around them. A rainbow arcing over the golden tops.” (p. 139).  “He noticed she’d drawn up there, a rainbow with her colored pencils. Maybe he’d suggest that for the playroom” (the rainbow room we see in s2) (p. 298)

I also already talked about how Terry saying "breath, sunflower, rainbow " is actually a reference to s1 Will- here (in link including pic of Will and Terry being told to “breath”.

*El in s3 also thinks of papa, her mother , and the rainbow room- cause she sees a cereal box with a rainbow (on it).

Dustin and susie sing a song from the film adaption of the book "never ending story". Which indicates how Will is subconsciously creating the supernatural creatures & people in the series . Before they sing, we also see  susie is next to a ‘wizard of oz’ posters & she reads & talks to Dustin about the book "wizard of earthsea'. 2 of the 3 examples have  rainbow-related songs (in their film adaptions) & all 3 hint at Will’s powers.

* wizard of earthsea:

It’s about a pre-teen wizard named Ged who has a bowl cut (Will) who casts a powerful spell, but the spell goes awry and instead he releases a shadow creature (by opening a portal between the living & dead- Will is a zombie boy remember?)! The new Archmage, Gensher, describes the shadow as an ancient evil that wishes to possess Ged. But the ‘shadow’ turns out  to be a representation of the darkest aspects of his personality. It’ only when he calls the shadow monster by his own name “Ged”(cough mf=will the wise) does the monster stop acting out. The only way to save the world is for ged to then  merge with the shadow(and for Ged to accept himself-and “become whole”).This also reminds me of the “Jungian shadow” 

* never ending story: 

Bastian ( who has a bowl cut- and is from single parent house hold) subconsciously creates a fantasy world being over run by darkness (symbolizing the loss of hope and dreams). One of the characters he creates is Atreyu (El). Atreyu ( was the child deemed the ‘chosen one). “Atreyu is knocked into the sea of possibilities. There he wakes on the shore of abandoned ruins. And Gmorick (mindflayer) then latches his jaws onto Atreyu’s (El’s) leg.”Pretty much what happened to El.”The Empress in the story later tells Atreyu, that despite being told he was the chosen one (he never was). And that it was always Bastian (Will) who was the chosen one-since his imagination created Fantasia (so he’s the only way to stop the darkness from over -running it).”

Will has mental health issues and  accidentally writes a “story” about the shadow monster (reflecting his tra*ma). Bastian is depressed (over his parent) and subconsciously creates a story about darkness over-running everything. Like how Hopper describes his depression- like a black hole.

song Dustin & Susie sing:

 “Written on the pages is the answer to a never ending story” (cough the books susie referenced - are explaining the answer to what’s causing the mindflayer/upsidedown/the lab...this story )

“DREAM a dream. And what you DREAM will be” ( Will’s imagination making his nightmares come true)

“Rhymes that keep their secrets Will unfold behind the clouds.And there upon a RAINBOW Is the answer to a never ending story.”

(the lyric ���rhymes that keep their SECRETS” purposely pans to Will both times the song is sung). Because the ‘SECRET’ is -he’s causing everything. And thus he’s the only way to stop it- or they’ll all be stuck in a never-ending story. The only way to stop it is for Will to face his shadow/the mindflayer (aka the other Will) who is always shown within the STORM CLOUDS . Will needs to create a RAINBOW (out of those storm clouds). Like rainbows that show up AFTER a storm.He’d do this by accepting himself , his tra*ma/mental health relating to his dad, and or his gay identity- then the story will be able to end.Dustin even says “ defeat his RAINBOW of DARKNESS” (and later says a “rainbow is the answer ”(to the story). st book:”The RAINBOW stayed with Terry for a long while, but eventually it faded and in its place: DARKNESS. A pit.”AKA: Will has to face his symbolic darkness and the storm/and than create a rainbow from it- for the story to end...

When Dustin says ‘rainbow of darkness’ he talks about my little pony- where one of their friends became a dragon.  in d&d wizards can become dragons &Bastian also summons a dragon with his imagination powers in ‘never ending story’. And Will is associated with dragons: s1he  has dragon comic & drawing, s2 Will has dragon poster in his room + watches his friends play dragon game. And again... dungeons & dragons.

Also tw for s.a/parental ab*se (so skip to ‘wizard of oz’  if you prefer ). In the 4th book of wizard of Eathsea (20 years after the original, where ged was the protagonist). The new main  protagonist - was r*ped and burned by her father as a child (and in the sequel she became a dragon as a form of empowerment ). which goes with my lonnie theory-sadly.

*wizard of oz: 

it’s about a Dorothy creating a mythical world based on people she both likes and dislikes . Dorothy sings in the movie a song about a ‘RAINBOW’ and references ‘DREAMS’ coming true in a mythical land -much like the ‘never ending story’ song (referencing “rainbows”/”dreams” coming to life).

“There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby Somewhere over the RAINBOW, Skies are blue, And the DREAMS that you dare to dream, really do come true...”

We see in s1 Hopper cop-partner calls the lab “emerald city”. Murray in s2 says people “don’t want to look behind the curtain” (to see what’s causing the supernatural -in the film what was literally behind the curtain was a wizard-cough like Will). We also have -lion, tiger, and bear stuffed animals (as a ‘lion, and tigers, and bears-oh my!’ quote )from the film. And David harbor (Hopper) when referencing the s4 rainbow room (quotes the song)  and he also quotes a speech from Dorothy-when posting about the cabin the mindflayer destroyed.

2) Rainbow cups (hinting at Lonnie’s return) 

We see 2 rainbow cups in the series. 

in s2) when Mike & Will are sitting together & saying they’re “crazy together” . This cup next to them says “happy birthday” in rainbow. Later that season- they talk about Will’s birthday-rainbow drawing, Mike&Will meeting & Lonnie leaving. And in s2, we also see in Will’s room a card that says “sorry, I forgot your birthday”(most likely from Lonnie). So both Lonnie & Mike are associated with Will’s bday.

in s3) We see a woman yell “I don’t want her in my house!” (while she sits next to a rainbow cup). reminiscent of Joyce saying to Lonnie “get out of my house”. We also know there are rumors s4 takes place during Will’s birthday & Lonnie’s actor may have been spotted on set.  Along with the fact (it’s pretty much confirmed) Mike will be visiting the Byers in s4. However, the woman (next to the rainbow cup)  also says “2 visitor only. 2!″

THE 2 VISITORS ARE MIKE &LONNIE (for Will’s b day). 

Also, in s3, when El is drinking from cup- she sees a rainbow. And what’s the first word she thinks of? “Papa.”

so rainbow+cup= shitty dads (lonnie & brenner) probably returning

*And of course if that’s the case -Lonnie (the same guy who called Will h*mophobic sl*rs) will not be supportive of Mike & Will’s “friendship”. And will not be nice to Mike (to say the least). Like... imagine Hopper in s3 - but we know he’s not bluffing and the audience won’t have the option to take it as a joke... and yes the s4 movies hint at that...

3) gay symbolism

First we have Mike wheeler. He in s1 has rainbows sheets, rainbow bedroom blinds , and in his basement there’s a heart propelled by a rainbow. This is like how in s3 Mike kisses El and there is a drawing that says "Mike'. And on the drawing is a heart propelled by a rainbow. I already explained how its symbolic of him trying to be straight/fighting his feelings for Will, but wherever he goes a rainbow still follows (even when he tries being romantic with El). He’s trying to hide his “rainbow heart” by dating  El- why in s3 (the rainbow-heart in his basement) mysteriously disappeared from his room (but a similar symbol follows Mike even when he kisses El). 

Even in s2 when talking about Will (in the AV tech room): Mike is placed in the center of 2 objects : an object with 11 on it & on the right a rainbow apple (this apple is supposed to be an ode to the gay father of computers- but also about the forbidden apple). Hinting at the love triangle of Mike (with El/Will). PLUS, in the ST book ‘worlds turned upsidedown’ they literally show Mike in the AV room- and  put the caption “FALLING IN LOVE- with tech” (and placed rainbow flags next to the caption). And of course we have Mike & Will pose next to the rainbow apple- in the AV room.

 We also see when Mike and Will says they’re “crazy together” (aka LOVE-as Flo stated) and they’re next to a rainbow cup that says Happy birthday .

And later that season they ref the rainbow ship Will drew for his birthday-which Joyce was "proud" of.  And while dancing with a girl (Will according to the script was looking at Mike instead of her) . That girl is wearing a rainbow heart hair pin. This is essentially a parallel to Mike . Will (next to a rainbow heart) is dancing with a girl, but is secretly thinking of Mike. Mike (next to a rainbow heart) is kissing el but secretly thinking of Will (and immediately goes on a movie double date with Will after this). The lyrics of both these scenes indicate they're not happy pretending to be straight. The lyrics for Will are "every smile you fake". And Mike while kissing el is "just a little uncertainty can bring you down" (and during this lyric is when El puts her hands on him-and he removes her hands from him *aka he’s not as confident in the relationship as he pretends to be.

We see in s4 bts that the rainbow heart hair pin (worn by the girl Will dances with) is also worn by nancy while standing next to Robin (who is gay). So being near a  ‘rainbow-heart’ is prob a hint a character is gay. Aka robin & Will & Mike.

tumblr user “awhstrangerthings” pointed out the nancy -hair clip detail.

In s1 when troy is calling Will h*mophobic sl*rs (in front of Mike) he wears a rainbow shirt. And max while often critiquing m*leven (in s3) (to Mike) often wears rainbow shirts. I talked about how I thought Troy and max subconsciously remind Mike he isn't straight - so they're associated with the rainbow iconography-post here. Like we see Max with rainbow sheets (like Mike) and than she immediately talks to him on the phone. I mean she could be queer- but I lean to that theory at the moment. 

The whole being near rainbows when associating with a queer character makes sense (it’s like a ‘gay-dar”). Similar to Nancy’s hair clip when being near Robin/ that Girl having the same rainbow hair clip when dancing with Will. If we assume this theory than see a pattern with other characters (when speaking about/being near queer coded characters)....

it’s similar to how : When lucas (via subtext) criticizes m*leven- he is also next to a rainbow (in Erica's room). I explained here- why it’s about m*leven.

or when Jonathan says he’s going to hang out with Will (it’s near a rainbow).

This Jonathan moment -Is similar to when Steve ( who has a rainbow bandaid-from the Byers’ house) calls Mike “Nancy” (which is slang for a gay guy)

*another addition: you see in the comments of this post ghostgirlsatin mentioned Dart has a rainbow blanket. But, I noticed a couple of other things. 

notice Dustin says "we have to talk- its about my friend ,Will". As Dustin is near rainbow lights and a rainbow bed sheet. Like how

A) rainbows are associated with the supernatural creatures + Will

B) rainbow lights associated with Will

C) rainbows near straight characters when talking about /near queer characters... similar to how Jonathan is near a rainbow when talking about Will

*also can’t tell if that is a ‘rainbow ship’ poster?

We also see Erica has a sunflower & rainbow drawing in her room... at the moment not sure if its just a random easteregg , foreshadowing something supernatural we're not aware of yet? or just for the m*leven diss?

(although given the fact i think some characters were created by Will- and given all the Max &Billy/Will & jonathan parallels ... the rainbow stuff may be a hint Will created them? I mean they even made a Troy comic just to show his dad is a bully.) But, at the moment, i still lean to (some) characters having rainbow iconography because they’re referring to/are near a queer character.

[timextoxhajima]

2. 3 words, 8 letters - I "hate" you

❆ title: i hate you

❆ member: enhypen sunghoon

❆ wc: 1.4k

❆ warnings: idk just alot of angst

❆ synopsis: “If I had told you that I'd never hurt you, would you believe?”

❆ send me a made-up fic title and i’ll tell you what i would write to go with it [closed]

autumn. the entire afternoon, he didn’t even look at you. he may have been in your bed, playing with his phone and aggressively tapping away at the screen like he normally would, but he didn’t say a single word. not to you, not at the screen or at the automated characters in the game. 

“are you alright?” a gentle crease strains your brows. “you’ve been... very quiet since you came over.”

“i’m fine,” he brushes it off, doesn’t even bother looking away from his phone. “i’m just... thinking about stuff.”

your thumb locks your phone, eyes drifting from the screen to him. “thinking about what? tell me about it.”

“i don’t want to.”

cold.

“why not? was it something i did earlier that pissed you off or did something happen at home?”

silence. 

“oi,” gently wrapping your fingers around his hands that were holding his phone, you pull the device out from between his hands. “talk to me. what’s wrong?”

he rolls his eyes in exasperation, poking the inner side of his cheek with his tongue as he sits up in your bed. his back creaks against the cushioned head board, the back of his head resting on the blue wall. 

the royal blue shade flushes kind memories through your mind - sunghoon had helped you paint your walls just a year ago. 

“do you remember when you kicked the can of paint over? my god, it was so expensive and i was so mad-”

“stop.”

a sudden chill runs down your spine. there are a few moments of silence; heavy tension in the air, before you finally sit up and look to him.

“hey, i didn’t mean to bring that up if you didn’t like it. i just thought-”

“no, i’m saying we should stop.”

a gentle frown draws across your forehead.

“did i do something wrong? i-”

“no, i just-” sunghoon pushes himself off the bed, running his hand through his hair and picking up his phone. “i don’t think this is it. you and me. us.”

“i don’t get it. if i didn’t do anything wrong, then what is wrong?”

“what’s wrong is that i don’t love you, okay?” he grabs his hoodie and pulls it over his head. 

“wha...?”

“in fact,” he licks his slightly-chapped lips, thick brows almost pasted to one another, and his eyes had seemed to lost the light you once thought were for you. how could he say that so easily? “i hate you.”

pent up frustration yanks his chin away from you. watch him pick up his bag, full of your memories with him, full of laughter and cries and smiles that you had shared with him, that you had fallen in love with him over. 

“sunghoon, what-”

“don’t,” he swings his bag over his shoulder and turns, just enough to show you his side profile. “don’t call me ever again. delete my number. i’ll be blocking you from all our social medias.”

so, the door swings shut behind him, and there are soft whispers from outside as he bids your family goodbye. 

the room still smells like him. your fucking bed probably smells like him. the walls have been painted by him. the pictures of your phone either have him or were taken by him. 

the downfall of falling in love is that the same person who can give you anything, can take away everything. 

you find yourself zoning out as you sit at the edge of your bed, tears silently streaming down your face and soaking the ends of your sleeves. your mucus has long stained the lines of your lips and your cheeks are bloated from the quiet crying. 

no reason. no explanation.

now all you know is that he hates you. 

knock knock knock

winter. snow. snow angels. snow flakes. ice. 

“i know you’re in there! please open the door and come out!” jake’s voice is muffled through the door. the shadows stretched from under the door shifts restlessly, but you’re stuck to your bed like gum to hair. 

“please. if you don’t see him off at the airport, you’ll never see him for the next few years. what if he stays? what if he doesn’t want to come back? you can still make it in time and you can still come to some kind of agreement.”

the sour in your nose starts to spread through your nasal cavities again, and you can feel the lump of sobs stuck in the back of your throat. it feels like someone had just punched you in the gut so hard that your stomach was going to tumble out from your mouth. 

“you can’t possibly believe that he’s leaving because he meant what he said! this is... his dream. he was absolutely torn just by thinking about this, god! none of us knew he was going to pull this stunt!”

a soft thunk. the shadows stop shifting, but he’s standing directly against the door. he probably has his forehead shoved against the wood.

“y/n, please. we can’t stand by and watch this go to waste like that. we all knew sunghoon had nothing but eyes for you and he still does, i swear to god. he only said that because he didn’t want you to commit to a long-distance relationship and possibly neglect you but... you’ll get through it, won’t you?”

“is she not coming out?”

“no. she’s not responding.”

“move over. y/n, it’s jungwon.”

you sit up slowly, starting to wonder if sunghoon’s entire friend group is standing right outside your door. 

“sunghoon told me not to tell you this... or anybody in fact, but he said he’d be too greedy if he wanted both you and skating. he said... that he thinks he doesn’t deserve you, and that no matter how hard he tried, there would still come a time that he might hurt you. he said that skating is technical and can be improved and the only person getting hurt from it is him, but he can’t bear to hurt you ever. not now, not in the future.”

“since when did he say that?”

riki. 

“shut up- you ask the worst questions at the worst timings ever.”

sunoo. 

“y/n, are you listening? sunghoon still loves you and he never meant it when he said he hates you. he said it as... as an attempt to hurt you one last time, so you’ll stay and he’ll go live his dreams while thinking he’s protecting you.”

“we all know that’s bullshit, by the way.”

jay.

“jay!”

heeseung.

“what?! it’s true!”

by now, you’re standing with your hand on the door handle. the only thing between you and his friends was the door, and a broken heart that might just be too far for redemption. 

the jostle outside continues, and the shadows start shifting all over again as the boys squabble to get the door open. 

but it stops abruptly, and you see the light under the door shine through before it’s shadowed again.

“y/n.”

sunghoon. 

he tries the door, but you’re too frightened to open it. why would you open your heart to someone who has broken it before?

“please... open up. i... i thought that this would be the easiest and the best way to make sure you were safe from all the things i wanted to do... but i am far from right and i can’t... i’m- i’m sorry... that i chose to go down this route. i just... i never want to see you like this. i’m sorry.”

your trembling fingers kiss the cold metal of the door knob lock, and you twist it with a click.

the winter coat is snug around his shoulder, and he has a scarf around his neck with a passport boarding pass sticking out from one of his coat pockets. the cracks in his heart when he sees your face shows in his eyes as glistening tears, arms opening wide as he takes a step forward.

a sharp exhale, followed by sudden, almost-violent sobs into his coat as he sinks to the ground with your head in his shoulder. he rests his cheek against your head, hands stroking your hair.

“i can never hate you, i promise.”

[dakt37]

Hey 👋

First of all, your art gives me life and joy and a will to live, so jot that down.

Second of all, I have an artist question! I notice that you post a lot of pencil drawings and the quality of the actual photos is always really good. As a person who also does a lot of pencil sketches I always have a hard time getting the camera to accurately capture the sketch in a way that doesn't look cheap.

Do you have any advice about taking good pencil sketch photos?

Thanks is much!

Thank you very much! 🥺💕 Step 1 is probably just to have a good camera. I currently have a Pixel 4a, for context.

The main thing I've found important is to have the sketchbook flat on the table and to shoot from above, in an area with really good light. It can also help to back up and get a wider shot than I actually need; my phone likes to try to auto adjust as I take pictures, so it can improve the focus and lighting to get some other objects and colors into the initial shot. I'll also rotate the sketchbook 90 or 180 degrees sometimes to get better results. Don't ask me why that works though, lol. The phone is just overthinking something, idk.

After that I use my phone's built-in photo editor to crop and adjust. I increase the white point, decrease the black point, and sometimes decrease the overall color saturation too. Occasionally the filter I have called "Eiffel" gives a good result. But generally I've found that adjusting just the white/black points is the best for making my particular pencil lines pop, and for getting rid of the dingy look of the paper. I've tried messing with contrast, shadows, highlights, etc, but they don't give me results that I like. Idk how helpful this will be because it's keyed specifically to my usual pencil pressure and phone app, but a recipe I often use is: White Point +30, Black Point -75, Saturation -100.

It's really just about trial and error, tbh. But I hope some of that helps! ☺️