#( memes. ) play it again johnny guitar.

[cheatdeathsarchive]

[wh6res]

127 SQUAD AND ROMANTIC BF TINGS

tw a lil bit of suggestive on jae's but nothing explicit

✰ — TAEIL would sing lullabies over the phone or video call. you and him would just be doing your own thing, not talking but enjoying being each other's presence. he'll probably pull out his guitar and start singing random songs until he eventually notices you fell asleep on him. will not end the call and when you wake up in the morning, his snores and his cute sleeping face is the first thing you see. "love? you still there? ... taeil?" then laugh out loud when you hear his snores instead. "okay yeah lets sleep more" the call will only end probably because his phone died. he kinda strikes me as a guy who's phone is always < 50% battery lmao

✰ — JOHNNY is your everything. literally. as long as he has the power of youtube, google, and instruction manuals on his side, he can fix anything and everything for you. we've all seen him do crafty things on jcc lmao so it'll probably apply to relationships as well. will 100% say you now owe him cuddles for fixing something for you. you kinda dont like the fact that he's doing all these things for you so you try doing them on your own without him knowing only to fail big time. "what did we learn today?" "never touch the pipes under the sink" "and?" "and always ask johnny for help" "nuh-uh thats not how i said it" you sigh exasperatedly "always let my smokin hot amazing handsome boyfriend johnny suh get the job done"

✰ — TAEYONG doesn't care whether you take the time shopping or not. in fact, he loves seeing you all excited and giddy for pampering yourself as you should. totally the type to hold the paper bags even if you complain and say you can manage on your own. is a complete angel and will wait patiently outside changing rooms and will give you genuine insight he has of the clothes you picked. "that looks nice. you should get that. the length is just right and the sleeves help accentuate your waist" "really yongie?" "yes love. i mean you look pretty in everything anyway" miss ma'am my heart just fucking melted ?¿?

✰ — YUTA doesn't look like it but will exert real effort into things. would be the type to have a note or a google doc about your favorite orders from restaurants because he just loves how your eyes light up appreciatively and you look so smitten by him. its like a cheat sheet. eventually he memorizes the list with how much time he spends with you and he wont even need it. the type to always bring you food before meeting you (if its just hanging out inside the house). "no way! i was just craving for these!" he smiles before kissing your forehead, volunteering to put the food out its container for you. "i figured. you'd been working since this afternoon. lets eat first then you can tell me about what you've been working on so i can help you, okay?"

✰ — DOYOUNG loves cooking for you. i highkey feel like its his love language? like cooking for you and seeing your eyes light up as it darts back to him after you take your first bite from whatever he cooked just gives him so much happiness. its disgustingly sappy and he doesn't like talking about it. now he understood fully what it meant to see your loved ones eating and being full yourself or some shit. idk how the actual quote goes okay dont come 4 me but u probably get it. anyway the type to always pack you lunch and will get hella mad if you skip meals. "what do you mean you havent eaten yet?" "yeah but i will after i--" "you mean you're going to eat Now?" "what? no maybe later--" "thats it im coming over"

✰ — JAEHYUN would be the type to make you playlists. its really random sometimes he'll send them to you in the early morning for the heck of it bc he cant sleep. most of the time its him being horny lmao the frat boy in him awakening and sending you a playlist called imma blow your back out or something extremely cringey and thirsty pls dont block his sorry ass maybe he'd spell out the words using song titles too! idk jae just rlly strikes me as a guy who's love language is music. "hey babe did you check the playlist i sent you?" "wtf its 4am???" "oh so you havent listened to it yet?" "fuck off" but at the end of the day he'll come over and will use the playlist to,,, you know,,, do the sexy thing ;)

✰ — JUNGWOO always makes sure you walk on the inside of the road. you know when you're walking in the street and he softly nudges your waist? yes. will probably even scold you playfully because with how long its been since you both are together, "babe you always walk on the inside of the road how many times do i have to tell you?" is also the type to remind you to wear your seatbelt immediately after hopping onto his car. would ask you Again while in the middle of the car ride because he forgot that he already asked you earlier. please don't mind him he's just looking out for you bb. "seatbelt?" "yes, babe. already done" "are you sure? i dont think i heard it click--" "babe eyes on the road please" "oh right sorry"

✰ — MARK sends you tiktoks, vines, or memes. this is his love language fite me im calling it. he just wants to see you laugh too okay? thats why he does it. i mean it made him laugh, so maybe it will you laugh too. also because he hopes to make inside jokes with u cuz he believes thats how people really get close and stuff. would definitely love it if you do the same thing with him. you'd be chilling in the sofa while khalid plays on the bluetooth speaker and he'll suddenly go "babe babe babe check this out!" then you both proceed to laugh at a vine for the next thirty minutes <3 #living.the.yn.life

✰ — HAECHAN will do your skincare for you when you're drunk or super tired that you just passed out cold on the bed. would probably come into the room to see you snoring and tutting bc now he has to do it for you again but meh deep down he loves it because he enjoys admiring your sleeping face. its sorta like a healing thing for him? yeah it just washes away all the stress he's feeling and bb is just excited about the idea that this becomes "your thing" with him if u get what im saying? altho the next day he'll probably use it as a leverage to get out of chores :) "no way im not folding our clothes" "and why is that?" "i took your make up off yesterday u know how hard that is? im still tired" "but its literally the next day--" "awww thank you for doing my chores, baby! u the best!" ._.

[firetextskpop]

Omg poly OT23 ofc no sexual stuff for jisung or chenle,but like imagine poly ot23 just babying y/n oml🥺

I love the idea of this sm, I’m sorry it took so long to write it. ♥ I’m going to break it down to days of the week and how they’re typically spent with the boys. I'll make it a multipart series.

 Monday

Mondays were the days you woke up in the Dream Dorms. Often you found yourself in bed with Jaemin, his arms wrapped around you as he scrolled through a food delivery service. “Good morning” you mumbled and cuddled deeper into his side. “Good Morning love, what are you feeling for food?” He asked and rubbed your shoulder. You groaned for a bit before telling him your preference. Jaemin nodded and ordered food for the entire dorm. The both of you shared the dreams you had and discussed them until there was a knock on the door. “You guys up yet?” Renjun asked cautiously cracking open the door. Once he sees the both of you laying in bed with your eyes open, he smiles and properly greets you. The younger of the two informs the elder that food is being delivered. Junnie acknowledges him and tells you both that Chenle arrived. Quickly the two of you get out of bed and throw on a T-shirt to greet your other boyfriend. Once the two of you make it to the living room, Renjun has his arm around Chenle, and Jeno is cuddled against Jisung. "Good morning my loves! " You say rushing to sit on Chenle's lap and hold him close. He chuckles and the 3 males you haven't yet spoken to bid you a good morning. Jaemin went to cuddle with Jeno and Jisung. To your luck, Chenle brought Daegal, who also clung to you. As everyone talked and discussed their plans, the food arrived. You thanked the delivery man and sat next to your youngest boyfriend. "So yeah Y/N, We're going to go to the park then grabbing some food. Wanna come?" Jeno asked putting his hand on your knee. "Of course." You agreed, ruffling his hair. Once everyone finished eating, you and Renjun went into the kitchen to wash the dishes remaining. He washed, you dried. After all of the dishes were finished, Renjun loved giving you kisses all over and little praises to make your day just a little better. Jisung walks in and gags a bit at how you two can be like this any and everywhere. You rolled your eyes at the tall boy and go back into Jaemin's room to find some cute clothes to wear. After preparing for your 3-way date, you meet the boys in the living room again. "Since you won't give me the love out there, can I get my hugs and smooches in here?" You ask looking at Jisung. He nervously chuckled and nodded. Your arms wrap around him tightly and he kisses your forehead. He leans down a bit for you to kiss his cheek and nose and then you break the hug. Jeno pouted a bit before mumbling about not getting his affection. "Well you'll love me in public but Sungie is a bit shyer." The pout still stood on Jenos face. You went over to Jeno and kissed him, held his hand and the three of you went to the park. At the Park, Jisung rode a skateboard while eating his ice cream, and you and Jeno followed him by walking while still holding hands. After a few hours of the three of you being active, you all sat on the bench, and you cuddled against Jeno. He scrolled through the NCT/WayV group texts, which contained lots of memes, plans, and scheduling. You looked at the texts with him, then looked over at Jisung. The mentioned boy was thoroughly enjoying the scenery around him. With the people busy, the wind blowing against the trees and your skin, and quiet nature sounds, he truly felt at peace. Being here with people he loved just made it all the better. You reached out a hand to put on his and he looked at you and smiled. Before you knew it, Jeno's phone rang and it was Haechan asking when you 3 will be home. A brief discussion happened that ended on agreeing to go back at that time. On the way back, you held Jisung's hand in the car and told both of your boyfriends how much you appreciated the time together and that you loved them. They smiled and reassured you that the love was reciprocated. As soon as you got to their dorm, Mark and Haechan were sitting on the couch while bickering. It wasn't over anything serious, just a little teasing. "Hey, big head!" You mess with Haechan. He turns to you and throws a pillow at you. "Your head is way bigger than mine," Channie stated. "Whatever," You joked and

messed up his hair, now sitting between him and Mark. The boys talked to each other about upcoming scheduling to make sure everyone was prepared and aware. Mark rubbed his hand against your arm to warm you a bit. "The boys at the 127 dorms are excited to see you." He says loud enough for you only to hear. "Really?" You responded happily. Lately, 127 have had promotions which just finished. The promotions made it a bit harder for you to spend as much time as you'd like but never impossible. Mark nodded and checked his phone. "Our ride is here, you two ready?" You and Haechan nod and say your goodbyes to the Dreamies. The car ride to the 127 dorms was comforting, Mark flirted with both you and Haechan which made you blush. Once you arrived at the dorms, everyone actually still was quite busy. Jaehyun, Johnny, and Jungwoo all went to the gym, Doyoung, Taeyong, and Yuta all went to grab a bite of food and maybe even a drink, and Taeil went straight to sleep after returning home. Leaving you, Mark, and Haechan to your own. The younger of the two played on his switch as you cuddled against him in Mark's bed. Mark played his guitar while writing a new rap for his upcoming mixtape/solo release. Slowly you began falling asleep but when Haechan failed something in his game, you woke up a bit. You checked your phone to see that the boys who went to the gym had returned and began to get up. "I think I'm gonna sleep in Jae and Jungwoo's room tonight." The two youngest members nodded. "Alright, I think I'll go back to my room too. Johnny gives the best cuddles." Haechan said and looked at Mark. "Wait but you told me I did this morning." The 99 liner said a bit upset. "Did I? Well it's Johnny, he's like a big teddy bear an-" The older of the two could now see that the younger was messing with him and threw a stuffed animal at him before they began bickering again. You chuckled a bit to yourself before heading to Woo and Jae's room. When you open the door, you're surprised to find Jaehyun alone in bed. Judging by the fresh smell, headband, and him being in sweatpants only, you concluded that he just got out of the shower not too long ago. "Hey babe," He greeted you with a smile. "Hey, where's Woo?" You asked getting in bed with him. He wrapped his arm around you and put his face into your neck. "He decided to join Johnny for a bit." A hum of acknowledgment left your mouth as you got comfortable. Both of you drifted into a sleep while talking about your days.

[nctsworld]

couldn’t be better

✩ mark x reader | fluff | campfire au | 1.2k

→ summary: you and mark hang out with the boys in johnny’s backyard during one evening. → warnings: none - pure fluff as sweet as marshmallows! → rating: general  

→ gif created by me, please don’t repost or share without credit!

With his guitar in tow strapped around his body, Mark’s fingers are daintily hooked with yours as he leads you into Johnny’s backyard through the side of his house. You’ve been there a couple times, but you’re always taken aback every time at the picturesque sight that could be straight from a magazine. 

The landscape is one thing to notice; colourful assorted flowers are sprinkled everywhere in the midst of the thick greenery of bushes and trees. However, what draws the attention of most is the large covered pergola encircled by dim, small light bulbs. Underneath the pergola lies enough comfortable cushioned seats and matching side tables for a sizable party, fitting for the many friends Johnny has. And in the middle of everything, a campfire blazes brightly in the circular fire pit, warmly welcoming all who enter.  

The host formally greets both of you with a hug, albeit more of a side hug since Mark’s guitar interferes, while you’re holding bags full with snacks to share and take-out dinner for the both of you. More greetings are exchanged with Johnny and Mark’s closest friends already seated around the fire before the host gestures with a nod for you to sit in one of the loveseats. You oblige and Mark places the guitar next to the furniture, while you’re filling in the space next to him and setting the food and snacks out on one of the tables. 

Dinner begins immediately as the rest of the guests trickle in and fill the seats surrounding the fire pit. Main courses are inhaled quickly and when you and Mark finish your meals, he eases into his normal routine. Arm slung over you casually, mindlessly drawing circles and lines on your thigh, playing with the tips of your fingers, and the like. Although you’re not always conscious of his every touch, you nevertheless relax into them and reciprocate if possible. Soon enough, Johnny’s handing out long skewers alongside an extra-sized pack of marshmallows being circulated. 

Beginning to roast your respective marshmallows, you lay your head on Mark’s shoulder, gaze focused on the dancing flames heating the sweet treat. Unaware, you don’t see the little smile Mark flashes downwards to you, adoring how precious you are. Your boyfriend plants a tender kiss upon your head. In response, you break away momentarily to link an arm through his and rest your head back upon him, snuggling close. 

Just as the fluffy sweetmeats are smoked to your taste, you ensure to blow on them before consumption. Despite how you’re still blowing yours, Mark suddenly holds his marshmallow between in fingers in front of your face. Your eyebrows ruffle as you glance up at him, unsure why he’s offering his.

“Mine’s cooled down already,” he mutters close to your face over the crackling embers and vibrant voices. Without hesitation, you open your mouth and Mark plops it in.

“Is it good?’ Mark giggles at the sight of you nodding, chewing, and humming with a full cheek. His hands then reach for yours holding the skewer and drags it closer to his face, continuing to cool your marshmallow on your behalf. Once done, he gestures it towards you. Your fingers gently pluck it off and like what Mark did moments ago, you drop it into his mouth, but he abruptly makes an O with his mouth.

“Are you okay?” You sit straight up, unsure what was up with him. Realization dawns on you as he begins to fan his mouth.   

“It’sh shtill hot,” he manages to say. You offer him his drink, but he declines, not wanting to ruin the sweetness. Shaking your head with a laugh, you run a hand through his hair and pet him lovingly. 

Darker shades of blue fade over the night sky while marshmallows and skewers are traded for Mark and his guitar. Songs vary in genres and moods, but regardless, everyone who knows the words to whichever song Mark plays sings along. At times it’s discordant with laughter and exaggerating notes, but there are times when people harmonize as a canorous choir. The stars aren’t quite out yet, but stars could be seen glittering in your eyes, marvelling at your beloved’s natural inclination with music and singing.    

After some time, Mark passes the guitar over to Taeil and finds his hip glued with yours again. You whisper affectionate compliments in his ear prior to your lips meeting his cheek, while he thanks you and wraps an arm that encompasses your waist.  

Stars finally engulf the sky and since it’s near the end of summer, the wind rises with a slight bite. Mark catches on quick, knowing you like the back of his hand, when it’s becoming too cold for you. Without a word, he takes off his plaid button-up and places it atop your shoulders, rubbing your arms to keep you as warm as possible. 

A few moments pass before he whispers into your ear that he’ll be back. You yearn for his body warmth the second he leaves your side. As a close replacement, you move closer to the flames and rub your hands. 

You observe Mark heading towards Johnny, interrupting his conversation, then your love makes a bee line into the host’s house. He heads back out with a thick blanket in his arms. You two are tucked underneath in seconds and thanks are given.

“You know I got you,” he replies. Even with the blanket, you can feel the goosebumps on his bare arms since he was only wearing a t-shirt underneath his button-up.

“Are you sure you’ll be okay?” 

He nods, dismissing your compassion. “Gotta keep my girl happy, don’t you worry about me.” 

A wink follows, and it warms you more than the fire ever could.  

The conversations all about have veered to topics that you and Mark aren’t as invested in, so you and him are left in your own bubble. Sharing the occasional meme on your phone. Talking about the dazzling constellations. Comparing each other’s hand sizes. 

Across the fire, Johnny notices you lovebirds off in another world away from the party. The contrast between you two and the fire, the soft lighting, and the night sky make for a gorgeous moment, so he rushes to grab his camera next to him and snaps a picture.  

“So,” Johnny speaks up, words cutting through the fire and popping the bubble you’re both in. “What’s it like being the oh, so picture perfect couple?” 

Everyone’s conversations die down, shocked at Johnny’s loud inquiry and intrigued since you both haven’t really spoken up much during the evening. Eyes are on you and your love. You face each other as if on reflex, appreciating each other’s features for a silent moment. 

You watch Mark’s eyes sparkle, reflecting the strong blaze, which compliment his saccharine grin. 

Mark loves how you glow brighter than anything he’s ever seen before, and the way he feels at home whenever he’s with you. 

“It’s pretty good. You?” Mark raises an eyebrow, still keeping his stare on you.

You nod, matching his steady gaze.

“Couldn’t be better.”  

As Mark reaches in and cusps your cheek to share a kiss, fake gags, wolf whistles, and lengthy oh’s erupt in the background along with a “Get a room!” from Haechan. 

[violasmirabiles]

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you want to know better.

i got tagged by @ruskatuska which i somehow forgot to mention first jesus christ why am i like this

1. Name/Nicknames: ali

2. Gender: who tf knows

3. Star Sign: aries

4. Height: 160cm

5. Time: gonna be 1pm in a bit

6. Birthday: march 26 so yall still have time to get me presents 

7. Favourite Band: pink floyd and wigwam are my go to bands to put here but really there are So Many

8. Favourite Solo Artist: also So Many but bowie and kate bush are safe choices

9. Song Stuck in My Head: rufus wainwright - cigarettes and chocolate milk

10. Last Movie: it chapter two

11. Last Show: uhh. god i dont know. 

12. When I Created This Blog: late 2011. like late november, early december. i know it was before i saw paul mccartney in helsinki and that was on dec 12 2011

13. What I Post: whatever fandom shit im into at any given time, bands/artists/music i like, whatever pretty and or interesting and or funny catches my eye. just posted a selfie, i do some of those. some text posts. i do use this blog to vent and i do have a shit brain so yeah

14. Last Thing I Googled: the model of my vacuum cleaner so i could find the right kind of filters i need for it lol

15. Other Blogs: @ihmekukkavesi for my photography, @shineondoc for university hell with some stephen king peppered in there. but it like. its relevant

16. Do I get asks?: sometimes. not super often. but like, i dont reblog those ask memes very often and the one good update this piece of shit website ever did is the chat system so thats good

17. Why I Chose My URL: i mean i wanted something related to my name (it is, trust me), coulda been another species but this one can also be a sneaky reference to a character from a thing im into so . yeah lol. also aesthetic. i mean it looks cool. pretty.

18. Following: a lot of people, many of whom arent active anymore but i keep following them anyway because what if they come back one day

19. Followers: a little under 2300

20. Average Hours of Sleep: eight-ish so thats good

21. Lucky Number: dont really have one of those but if a number is even OR divisible by 5 its a good number. i like 12 more than 10

22. Instruments: i have a 20-year-old shitty electric piano my dad gave me when he needed room for a newer, better electric piano. only in my current place i dont really have enough room for it even though i need it to practice choir stuff independently and just like having it because sometimes i just like to fuck around with it yknow? not calling myself good cos im not im super out of practice cos ive never been diligent abt that sorta thing but i can accompany myself and thats enough. so i keep it under my bed, not the best place, and practice on the fucking floor. cant even use pedals that way and that sucks ass. one day i will move to a bigger apartment and set it up again. i also have a baby blue ukulele with a picture of jack nicholson as jack torrance doing his heres johnny face taped on it. i got it in 2019 from my brother and his girlfriend as a christmas gift and was doing my ba thesis at the time, which i think a lot of the people who follow me know was about the shining. also also i can play guitar and bass but am not excellent at either because i never practice either of those and have neither in my apartment. and i never practice the ukulele either so even though i know a few chords i fucking suck. maybe someday.

23. What I Am Wearing: black leggings. black shirt. one black sock and one white one

24. Dream Job: i want to be able to write in some capacity and get paid for it but thats all i know and if i think too hard on it ill work myself up and wont be able to sleep so im gonna leave it at that  

25. Dream Trip: right now i just want to be able to visit my True Home Town which is not this piece of this place where i live and study and also happened to be born in

26. Favourite Food: yeah. not olives

27. Nationality: finnish

28. Favourite Song: feel like this woulda been more appropriate with the other music/art questions but hey whatever. also how the fuck am i supposed to have a favorite song when so many different gems exist. go listen to the musical box by genesis though it fucks me up every time i dont care what it does to you

29. Last Book I Read: still working on white noise by don delillo im fuckin slow i didnt use to be this slow

30. Top 3 fictional universes I would love to live in: the one where i can fucking FUNCTION, the one where i can Fucking Function and am also some sort of professional™ writer™ , and uhh. yeah idk

im gonna tag @panwriter, @appelssiini, @stokoetopia, @slip-sliding-away and @kukkahattumursu but no pressure or anything no ones gotta do this if they dont feel like it

[mistymark]

nct 127 x spotify

TAEIL

calling it now he has a few Disney songs on there

why am I thinking beauty and the beast

has a really chill music taste that u can still get down to

has a playlist called “get funky” that he plays exclusively through speakers and dances to in his room in his pyjamas

has a low-fi playlist to listen to when hes just lying on his bed on his phone

JOHNNY

has a playlist of music he plays when he hangs out with mark

probably names all his playlists after vibes they give off

speaking of: he has a lot of playlists

makes a new playlist every day

really specific playlists for a certain event or vibe like ‘walking home after practice and it’s slightly raining but still warm enough to not need a jacket’

TAEYONG

probably follows a lot of playlists of music he wants to listen and check out

has a playlist of songs that really inspire him or incorporate cool things he wants to try in his own music

lots of music he can’t sing along to in a variety of languages

probably only has like, three playlists that he’s had for years

has one playlist of songs for doyoung to listen to but its called “meet me on the roof lets fight... honey”

YUTA

has an anime aesthetic

probably has a playlist of anime OSTs

puts those songs on when hes hanging out with winwin *wink*

follows all of winwins playlists and listens to them when winwin’s online

has a playlist of his favourite songs to show taeyong and there a lot of cute emoji stars in the title aw :(

made taeil’s Disney playlist collaborative once and now keeps adding songs from beauty and the beast

DOYOUNG

really aesthetic white/beige theme going with all his playlists

follows no one he knows, but follows a few of his favourite artists

has a playlist with songs he thinks Taeyong will like but its named something like “taeyong I hate you stop listening to my music”

names his playlists with complaints hes feeling that day like “why doesnt the fridge work anymore” “must I always be the organised one” “I WANT TOS LEEP HUCYK STOP COMIGN INTO MY ROOM”

can hear Johnny and Hyuck’s music through the wall

only a little irritated

JAEHYUN

dOEsNt UsE sPoTiFy BeCauSe He OwnS vInYLs

WINWIN

best music taste

has mostly private playlists 

has a series/folder on his phone called ‘people talking’ with each member’s name in it - listens to said playlist when that person is talking and he wants them to shut up

he petty af :O

his profile says he follows Yuta’s anime OST playlist but that's only bc Yuta stole his phone and followed (and downloaded!) all the songs

every time he unfollows it, it shows up again a day or two later

hes given up

JUNGWOO

has a pastel theme

probably uses pics of him and his members in matching pastel sweaters for his playlist photos

has a playlist for each member bc hes sweet like that

can get down to anything so he follows a lot of his friends’ playlists

the type to follow all the Spotify-made personalised playlists

listens to top hits and viral hits and sings along even if its the first time hes heard the song

laughs at his own photos when trying to pick one for a new playlist

MARK

definitely has a playlist of music he listens to with Johnny

its called something like “hanging out with Johnny: the bangers”

Hyuck follows him but mark doesnt follow him back

constantly tries to report Hyuck’s playlists

has a playlist of guitar covers and acoustic songs he wants to learn

probably has all his pics as photos he actually took - so most of them feature his friends

and a few ugly pics and memes of hyuck (for revenge)

DONGHYUCK

has really specific playlists like “playlist to cry to after mark called me a dumb bitch”

theres definitely a lot of joke playlists

a playlist of just Matty b raps but its called “follow marks soundcloud”

mark keeps trying to report him

judges what other people are listening to on his friend feed lmao

claims to know music before it came popular and pulls out his playlists to prove it

doesnt know the words to most of them but sings very loudly over the top and it sounds,, somewhat? like what the artist is singing

[lenle-g]

could you write something cute between Alan and Scott?

Ask Meme: I wish you would write a fic where… 

a rambling on brothers and space and rock climbing

It’s funny, Scott reminiscesas he braces his legs and reaches his left arm up toward a good looking handhold, he doesn’t get to hang out with Alan very often and this is actually…this is really nice. The kid keeps himself occupied 90% of the time -playing video games, tuning that guitar of his or plotting something deviouswith Gordon - and Scott’s always got something he’s busy with too. Missions ormaintenance or paperwork. It takes a lot of time and effort and money to keepan organisation like International Rescue going and, out of all of hisbrothers, Scott sometimes finds it hard to connect with the youngest of them.They’re so many years apart and Alan can be, well, such a brat sometimes…

“Geez Scott!” Alan isgrinning down at him from over the lip of the ridge, backlit by a night skyawash with golden stars. He’s evidently finished attaching his ropes for thenext segment of the climb and is peering down the length of Scott’s top rope tocheck his brother’s progress. “Hey! Think you’ll be up here before you’reseventy?”

Way to prove a point kid.

The stars give hislittle brother a glowing halo of light and Scott scowls; not just because histhighs and shoulders and burning but because he kind of hates how perfect itis.

How well Alan suitsthe stars and the stars suit him.

Scott is terrified ofspace, if he’s honest. He’s a damn good pilot and John and their Father havetrained him extensively to operate up there but… there’s something about thatvast, empty, airless void of death that can’t help but unsettle him.John would scold him for calling space empty, and yes, in theory, it’sanything but, but when Scott looks at those stars he doesn’t see what John andAlan do.

He just sees amillion different ways his little brothers could die.

“Oi! Have you fallenasleep down there? Sheesh!” Scott pulls a face at the little blond monkeyswinging about above him and he heaves his bodyweight up toward another handhold with gritted teeth.

“You didn’t exactlypick an easy trail.” He huffs, wishing he’d at least brought one of theInternational Rescue grapple lines with him even if it would becheating. “Who thinks ah yes I’ll pick the route where we’ll have to climbhalf a damn mountain to reach the top.”

Alan Tracy that’swho. Alan Tracy, champion rock scrambler, who’s currently sitting back in hisharness and laughing his socks off at him.

“There’s a perfectlygood path up to the satellite relay you know.” Scott points out. He’s in no wayout of shape but this is hardly his preferred kind of exercise. Why couldn’tthey have just gone for a jog on the beach?

“Where’s the fun inthat?” Little brother crouches down and extends a hand over the edge ready forScott to grab. It’s mostly Scott’s legs that boost him up that final bit but hecan’t deny the reassurance that those small fingers secured around his wristprovide. Finally up on the ledge of rock with his brother Scott finds himselflaughing.

“Sheesh.” He wipessweat from his eyes and slaps Alan on the back with it, finding an adrenalinefulled grin has made its way onto his face. His heart is buzzing, the airtastes unlimited. “Come out for a climb with me Scott.” He mimics theirconversation earlier that evening, teasing. “It’ll be fun Scott.”

“It is fun,Scott.” The poke of a tongue between teeth lets big brother know that Alan, therascal, is thriving off his misery.

“It’s dumb.”Scott shoots back, only this time it provokes a pout and full baby brothermode gets activated as those big puppy dog blues come into their own, fullforce.

“Well… You’re welcometo climb down on your own…” Alan’s face has dropped and his eyes looksuspiciously shiny, he pauses just long enough for effect and sniffs. “I don’tmind…” He very clearly, very obviously does mind, or, in the least, heknows how to play being the baby of the family to his advantage and that itworks especially well on his dear, humanitarian oldest brother.

Curses.

“Nngh, ok fine, it’snot dumb.” Scott concedes, “I’m having fun.” He raises his hands defensivelywhen Alan shoots him a sceptical look. “I am, I promise.”

Alan just laughs atthat, brightening like a switch has been flipped. Damn, definitely gotplayed. It’s worth it for the hundred megawatt smile Alan shoots his waythough.

“Ready for the nextbit then?” He asks and Scott looks up at the five feet of rocky wall thatextends into the sky above them with a sigh. He stretches out the tiringmuscles of his shoulders behind his head and moves onto unlooping his top ropeand beginning to secure it to the hoist for the next section of the climb.“Want some chalk?” Alan asks beside him, smug and set to go. “You’re lookingsweaty.”

“Please.” Scott nodsand waits, his callused hands outstretched as Alan pulls a handful of thepowder out of the little bag at his hip and dumps it into his palms. Scott rubsthem vigorously together to try and absorb some of the moisture and the knotshe’s putting in his line become much easier to tie. “Thanks.”

“Ha, no problemo bigbro.” Alan’s impatiently started testing the next series of hand holds like hehasn’t climbed this section so many times before that he’s not got fivedifferent good routes already in his head. “Mmm, I wonder if I could dino thatbit up to the overhang.”

Finished with hisropes Scott squints upward at the way the rock juts out above them, severalfeet up.

“With no hands?”Scott’s nose crinkles at the lingo, kids these days with their… complicatedclimbing terminology. “That seems pretty impossible.”

“Dinoing is no footholdsyou goof.” Scott gets a cheerful slap against his shoulder, “Look,” Alantucks his elbows in to his sides and grabs hold of a couple of convenient handholds. His upper body strength alone hoists him off the floor and suspends himthere. It's… actually pretty impressive. Damn kid. “You make tiny t-rex arms!”Alan wiggles his elbows to demonstrate and then there’s a flex of the musclesin his little brother’s back and the kid swings one hand free to grabs foranother hand hold. “Raar!” He crows, delighted with himself as he goes sailingup the rockface one bound at a time. “Eat my dino dust Grandpa!”

Scott, grounded belowhim, laughs and shakes his head. His fingers seek out a good hand hold to starton and once he’s got a rhythm going he realises Alan’s already up to theoverhang, sitting on the edge of it with his legs dangling over the edge,watching his brother.

“Dino it!” Alan yellsdown at him and, never one who wants to disappoint a little brother, Scottthrows himself into a valiant, legless attempt. Alan doubles over laughing aminute later as the belaying rope has to catch his big brother’s weight asScott completely misses his handholds and tumbles off the surface of the rock.“Incredible! What a flop!”

“Yeah yeah,” Scottgripes, tugging at the harness that’s gone tight around his thighs and tryingto stop the rope he’s dangling from from spinning in rapid circles so that hecan latch back onto the wall of rock. “I’ve not got the technique down yet,that’s all… And anyway! You weigh less than me!” He complains, finallystopping his rotation. “You’ve got hardly anything to lift with those weedyarms of yours to start with.”

Alan blows araspberry at him from half way up.

“Aww come on Scotty!”He cheers his brother on, “You can do it! I know you can!”

…

“Oh my gooood.” Scott collapses on his backnext to his baby brother in the moonlight shadow of the satellite relay. “Thatwas insane.”

“I know right.” Alanlaughs, and the kid stretches one hand up towards the star studded sky abovethem as if his fingers could actually brush the tiny lights. His hand forms adark silhouette against the bright sky and he watches as the little speck herecognises as Thunderbird Five passes slowly though the gap between hisfingers. “Huh… Do you think Johnny’s watching us from up there?”

“Oh undoubtedly.”Scott scoffs, the toe of his trainer flopping sideways to kick the metalsupport strut of the relay tower. “Spacecase is watching everything. Hey thereJohn.” He waves up at the big shiny dish as if it’s a holorecorder and Alansnorts at him.

“You know thatdoesn’t work like that, right?” He points out, amused, but then there’s a longsigh from little brother and the hand that was reaching for the stars flops tohis side. Scott turns his head and frowns at him.

“You tired?” He asks,concern seeping in. “We’re gonna take the path back down, no chance I’mtackling those rocks again today.”

“I’m going to get youto love rock climbing sooner or later.” A ghost of a smile passes overAlan’s face. “But I… yeah I guess I must be tired. I was just thinking…” Hetrails off.

“Thinking?” Scottprompts, rolling on his side so that he can better study his sibling’sexpression. Something about the flecks of stars reflecting in those baby bluesstrikes him, for once, as a little unsettling. “About what buddy? You ok?”

“Yeah.” Alan nods.“It’s just… space.” He says, like that in itself explains everything. “It’s so…big, you know?”

Scott’s eyebrowsraise nearly to his hairline.

“But you lovespace.” He points out, confused. He understands perfectly, of course, what it’slike to fear the void above but never had he expect that fear from Alan Tracy.

“Yeah.” Alan nodsagain, the motion getting repetitive, “But… I’m not John, you know. I can’t…” He gestures vaguely at the sky above themwith a limp arm. “I can’t just be so unaffected like he is. So completelyabsorbed in… John’s… John’s made forspace. I’m just borrowing it and it…it all scares me sometimes, you know?”

“You?” Scott blinks,surprised, “Alan Tracy, youngest space operations pilot in history is scaredof…?”

“Nevermind.” Alansnaps, cutting across him, rocketing into a sitting position and curling hisknees in to his chest until he’s squished into a little ball. His knuckles arewhite. “I knew you wouldn’tunderstand. Just… forget it.”

“No no no.” Scott’sup on his knees, shuffling over to his brother, hands outstretched. “Sorry, sorryI… I was just surprised, that’s all. You and John are always so space this,EVA that, I didn’t… I didn’t know you, uh, felt that way, is all Sprout.”

Alan’s little balluncurls a little, the fight going out of him. He raises worried blue eyes tolevel with his brother.

“I… don’t wanna diein space.” He whispers and something twists viciously in Scott’s chest.

“God Allie…”He breathes, dizzied like something has just struck him hard across thesternum. “I… You’re not going to die in space. Ok? Absolutely not. You’ve gotme and John looking out for you up there, right? There’s no way we’d let anything like that happen to you.”

“What if it happenedto all of us? What if we get trapped? What if… what if something like Eoshappens again?” He’s trembling, “John was so close to being out of oxygen and Iget nightmares about how limp he was and that moment as I pulled off his helmetand there was nothing and…”

“Alan. Alan stop.”Scott’s hands land on his brother’s shoulders, making the kid look at himproperly. “I… I understand. Ok? I know how you feel because I feel it too,every damn time we head up there. It’s a miracle of science and engineering andit’s absolutely insane that we’re leaving the planet. So often Ican’t believe it’s really happening. Space is so massive and so full of thingsthat could go wrong and… and you’renot alone in feeling… scared.” He admits, reluctantly. One good look at Alan,wide eyed and worried, cements the fact the kid needs to hear this though. “Butthat’s the thing isn’t it.” Scott’s fingers rub warm circles into his babybrother’s shoulders, “You’re not alone, ok?” He promises, “You never will be.You’ll always have one of us riding along as point, and John is always just aComm call away, and we would never leave you in space alone.”

Alan makes a small,unhappy noise and plops his head against his brother’s shoulder.

“Despite what you maythink,” Scott brings one hand up to comb his fingers comfortingly through thekids soft, blond hair, “It’s not just the person we’re there to rescue whoseour priority. It’s you.”

He feels Alan nod against hisshoulder.

“Thanks Scotty.” He says, verysoftly, “I… I’m glad I’m not alone.”

“You Alan Tracy, have four older siblings whowould do anything you for.” Scott curls him close, pressing a kiss to theirbaby brother’s temple. “You are never alone.”

[lookninjas]

So this is the piece I wrote for the last issue of FUCKIT, and I’m posting it here for a couple of reasons.  A -- I always kind of wanted to and it’s mine, so I’ll do what I want.  B -- As a word count case study, this is 1309 words or so, and it’s about four pages long.  Which seems bad, but it also depends on how I format, what font I choose, and honestly this last issue was 32 pages and still pretty slender, so my point is don’t stress the length too much unless you’re at, like, 5,000+, in which case we’ll have to have a discussion about giving you your own little thing. 

And then, C -- if anyone out there feels like what they wrote is too off-the-cuff or messy or goes into too many tangents or just isn’t formal enough or whatever:

This is what I deliberately chose to write, as the person making the zine.  This is what I felt best encapsulated the feeling of FUCKIT.  And honestly, even though I almost kind of cringe at some of it, I still feel that way.  We are saying FUCKIT.  This is the point.

So:

The problem is wanting to write the perfect thing. 

The problem is wanting to write the perfect thing when your subject inherently is imperfection.  The glorious messiness of life in all its bitterness, all its frustrated lashing out and bad decisions, too much and then again not enough and then too much again, petty jealous miserable misanthropic messy messy messy because at the same time I still want to somehow get it right.  To be understood.  To make some kind of a damn sense. 

It's hard.

Of course it's hard.  Every damn thing is hard.

That's not the point.

Anyway.  This is a tribute to Robert Smith.

It isn't just that Trent Reznor probably said it all first, and arguably said it better.  It's the problem of saying any of it without it coming off worse than it should.  It is 2019 and at no point are any of us to aspire to be any less than our best selves.  To live our best lives.  Instagrammable soups in designer bowls we got for cheap on Amazon with free next-day delivery and I swear to God I will get to the point here soon I'm just trying to establish some context. 

So. 

For context: I am a forty year-old woman aging awkwardly in a world I understand less with every passing day.  And I don't mean antifa, and I don't mean memes, and I don't mean this modern music or the clothes or the slang or the tattoos or the funny hair colors.  I mean, mostly, contouring.  Contouring and everyone's weirdly identical eyebrows.  The fetishization of names like Apple.  And Tesla.  Mindfulness.  Fucking mindfulness.  And manifesting.  What the fuck is manifesting and why the fuck does Alyssa Milano think that's the way for us to get the game show host out of office and for the fucking record how the fuck did the game show host wind up in office and what the fuck made the United Kingdom go "Oh, we've got one of those!  Let's elect him Prime Minister!" and why the fuck does Alyssa Milano (Alyssa Milano!) think we should instead be manifesting into office a goddamn faith healer with a Course In Fucking Miracles and why the fuck am I supposed to care what Alyssa Milano (Alyssa fucking Milano!) thinks to begin with and how much of this can I blame on John Mayer because I'm fucking blaming some of it on him at least fuck you and your Waiting for the World to Change, Johnny-boy, fuck you straight to Hell --

But Robert Smith still exists, and I guess that means there's hope for us yet. A specific kind of hope. 

Black-clad.  Hair a graying bird's nest of tangles.  Eyeliner unfashionably heavy, lipstick smeared, guitar festooned with stickers like the hatchback of my niece's hand-me-down Subaru.  Bursting into tears at the end of a concert, bursting into tears in the middle of "Disintegration," bursting into tears because boys might not cry but Robert Smith goddamn does and I guess if he does, then maybe it's okay if I do too.  Maybe I can go back to dying my hair black if I want to, maybe I can wear eyeliner if that's the mood of the day, maybe I can pile on jewelry or maybe not, maybe I can do what the fuck I want to because Robert Smith goddamn does and he is perfectly fine.  Better than fine.  Robert Smith got inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame by Trent fucking Reznor, and I get that that's never going to be my life story (I'd have to take up an instrument other than euphonium, for starters), but still. 

Maybe I don't have to think about the right way to age, the right way to eat, the right way to shower or take a nap or tie my shoes.  Maybe I don't have to compete against my weird imaginary Best Self living her Best Life in total wellness and inner peace, this race I can never win, this high score I can never catch up to.  Maybe I can just, you know, be a fucking person.  Human and strange and spiky and flawed.  And it's okay.  I'm okay.  So are you, while we're at it.  We're not okay, but you know, we still are.

Maybe this still isn't the best way to explain it.

Maybe it's the only way there is.

*

It's hard.  All of it is hard. 

That's not the point, but then again it is, too.

Look at your imaginary Best Self, living their imaginary Best Life.  Looks pretty easy, doesn't it?  Looks like it all just kind of happens without trying.  Without smudging the makeup, without rumpling the clothes or messing up the hair. No unflattering wrinkles, no bulges distorting the line of the dress.  Simple and clean.

Now look at Robert Smith.  Rumpled, messy hair, smeared lipstick, thick black eyeliner.  Living his life, his only fucking life, and tell me it's not a hell of a life?  It sure as fuck is.  Married to the girl he fell for as a teenager, still in a band with his best friend, still in the Cure after over 40 years of it, playing festivals, recording music, maybe even releasing it someday (we kid because we love, Robert).  No one could accuse him of making it look easy; looking back, it sometimes seems a hell of a lot harder than it should've been.  But you know, he fucking got there.  On his own terms, in his own inimitable style, he got there.

Doesn't it all kind of make the whole Perfection Quest seem kind of pointless?  A distraction at best, a modern-day Soma at worst?  I'm not saying don't do what makes you happy, just -- do what makes you happy, not what you think will make you happy at some point in some future where you've finally got your shit together.  Where you've completed every quest, beaten every boss, finished every level.  Because we don't.  Or I don't think we do.  I don't think we get our shit together.  I don't think we ever feel adult, or mature, or ready. I don't think it ever gets easy.

I don't think you ever say it the way you mean to.

I don't think that's the point.

*

The point is that, sometime over the summer, YouTube suggested I watch a video of the Cure performing at Glastonbury, and I did, and it hasn't been the same since then.  Or rather, it's been more the same than it ever has.  Or both at once.  Or neither.  It's hard to say.  A lot of things are.

The point is that it helped. 

The point is that it's still hard, and it's always going to be hard, and that doesn't really matter and then at the same time it absolutely does.

The point is, go listen to "Fight" if you need to.  Go listen to "Faith" if you need to.  Go listen to "Friday I'm in Love" if you need to.

Wear black or don't.  Smear your lipstick or fill it in perfect with a brush or don't wear any.  Listen to the Cure.  Listen to Lizzo.  Listen to the birds or the river or the wind howling against the windows or top fucking 40 radio.  Be as clean as you want, be as messy as you need to, be the you that is you right now and not any other imaginary you because that you doesn't exist and it never will.  Live the life that you are living right now because that's the only life you get and it might be the worst sometimes but at the same time it is still the best.  It is the only.

Write something, even if it's not as perfect as it ought to be.

And fuck the point, anyway.  

[maryellencarter]

tagged by @aphorisnt

rules: answer 17 questions & tag 17 people you want to know better (I have not the brain to tag people and anyway since tumblrpocalypse the people I would usually tag are mostly gone, but if you want to do the thing, consider yourself tagged!)

nickname: I think of myself as JT more than by any other monicker. I'm still mad about losing that branding.

zodiac sign: Scorpio. Opinions vary on whether I am "the least Scorpio Scorpio ever" or whether I fit the category fairly well. Sexually confident and manipulative I am not. (Confident in general, still dubious. In touch with my dark side, okay, I will give you.)

height: 5'6", give or take

hogwarts house: Every quiz gives me a different answer, and I've never really clicked emotionally with any particular house. One of my supervisors at work decided I was a Ravenclaw, which I can definitely see. I poked at the @sortinghatchats system a while back, which puts you in *two* houses according to a system of their own, but I was doing me and Wes at the same time and all I really remember is that we were similar but different. I think one of us was... no, I can't remember, and I don't have time to rebuild the analysis at 3am on a work night. I *think* I was a Burned Ravenclaw Primary with Hufflepuff Secondary, or maybe the other way round, and I *think* Wes might have been a Burned Gryffindor or maybe a Burned Hufflepuff Primary? I remember we were both Burned (this is fundamentally the part of Wes I first glommed onto) and I'm pretty sure he was Ravenclaw Secondary but I wouldn't swear to it.

last thing i googled: "smallest count aida" apparently. I'm looking at poster-sized cross stitch patterns, and by poster-sized I mean we're talking 52x72" if I do it on 14ct so more of a tapestry really, and I don't have room for a tapestry in this apartment. I also don't actually have fifteen years to dedicate to making a cross stitch tapestry, but I was looking at potential smaller counts of aida cloth because I am dubious about the whole evenweave thing and specifically "you have to start on *this* side of a thread so the stitch doesn't roll underneath and stop being a stitch" thing. Apparently I could hypothetically get 22 count aida. Which would make it only a 46x33" tapestry, which is practically down to poster size if you think about it. Assuming I could *see* to work on 22 count aida; I really do need to schedule a fucking ophthalmologist appointment already, the whole diabetes-affects-your-eyes thing is being a thing.

song stuck in my head: I don't often get songs stuck in my head. I am not particularly auditory as a rule. Right now there is no song stuck in my head, only the twin whirs of the ceiling fan and the fridge.

following: 64 tumblrs, apparently. Most of these are more or less defunct, so I keep adding currently-active ones that catch my eye. Lot of cross stitch lately.

followers: 85. I used to have over 300 but there was the blog switch and then tumblrpocalypse and yeah. :P They're all apparently people, though. I keep on top of the pornbots pretty well. (Not like that. ;P)

amount of sleep i get: Not fucking enough. I need 9-10 hours a night and I get 5-7. You may notice that I'm up at 3am doing a meme. I suspect the depression, but I honestly haven't identified any underlying cause in a way that would allow me to fix the issue.

lucky numbers: I don't really have any that are "mine". My relationship to numbers isn't like that. I tend to think of 3 and 7, as being the classic medieval Christian lucky numbers.

dream job: That one tumblr post where you black out for forty hours a week and the paycheck shows up. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do that I am also able to do. My "passion" is geology, but that ship has sailed; I'm not physically capable of making a career in geology now, if I ever would have been. Or proofreading, but that hasn't been a livable wage for decades. Or spinster, like the kind that spins thread all day, but that went out with the Industrial Revolution. You see my dilemma? ;P

wearing: My skin. It's 3am, what do you want, fuzzy bunny pajamas? They don't make those for a 56" ass.

favorite songs: The Mary Ellen Carter. Most things from Pete Seeger. A selection of Raffi, The Monkees, and Johnny Cash. Probably some others I'm not thinking of right now.

instruments: I can play piano right-handed well or both-handed badly, recorder fairly well, guitar badly, and can make noises come out of a syrinx, which takes a certain level of skill. I also sing, loudly and sometimes very well.

random facts: Aphorisnt did a combination of random facts about themself and about the world. I, being sleepy, will provide you with only one, that I have been knitting for twenty years pretty continuously and that kind of scares me. (Huh. Maybe in another twenty years I'll be staring in awe and dismay at a similar mastery of cross stitch and finally take up quilting or naalbinding or something. Weaving, crochet, macrame, who knows.)

aesthetics: My phone was trying to autocorrect this to "Wes" until I got a ways into typing the word, and really that's pretty accurate. I have a sense of Westhetics. XD (My clothing is very utilitarian, jeans and solid-color t-shirts mostly, but you should see my apartment. If I ever catch up on the laundry again I'll post some more pictures, I'm pretty proud, even though right now I'm also in an obnoxious state of "NOTHING SPARKS JOY!" :P)

[trans-siberian-orchestra-life]

Night Castle

Hi all! I will be posting mini-reviews of my favorite parts from each TSO album! I will go over band personnel, the story, and the music! Please enjoy! 

Night Castle was released in 2009, and was TSO’s second non-Christmas album! It is also their longest, with 26 total songs, and, to me at least, their most emotional album to date.

The album features many familiar faces, with lead singers being Jay Pierce, Jeff Scott Soto, Tim Hockenberry, Rob Evan, and Jennifer Cella. The band personnel is also very familiar, with Paul O’Neill, Chris Caffery, Angus Clark, Al Pitrelli, and Alex Skolnick on guitar, Robert Kinkell, Jon Oliva, Luci Butler, Shih-Yi Chang, Jane Mangini, and Derek Wieland on keyboards, Chris Altenhoff and Johnny Lee Middleton on bass, Roddy Chong and Anna Phoebe on violin and strings, and John O.Reilly and Jeff Plate on drums. And, with Dave Wittman on, as all TSO albums say, “drum, guitar, and bass inserts for those little things the rest of us forgot.”

It also features Emerson, Lake, and Palmer's Greg Lake on bass for Nutrocker!

And, not to mention the numerous amazing backing vocalists and instrumentalists!

Its a big album with big personnel, a big story, and even bigger music. Lets get into that~

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Night Enchanted

-Best hard opening to a TSO album

-HEEERE belieeeve a nigHT ENCHANTED S̸̟͋̉̔͛̀͋̃̑̑̈́̏̅̈́È̵̡̜̼̞͔̖̩̦̟̞̣͈̑̄̽̒͝E̸̛͖̯͙̜͕̟̽̈́̃̉̿̏̈͛̌͆̔̂́ͅE̵͙̙̞̯͚̹̲̟̙͐̀͑̍͊̚͜Ẹ̷̡͇̹͍̓̈́̏͑̄̅̀̎̈́̓̚E̶̛̱̖̘͓̹͍̟̭̲̲̽͋͒̀̓E̵͓̰̠̤̻̪̣̎͊̎͒N̴̢̧̜̰̦̰͓̯̗̦͚̘̝̑̔̌͂͐̀͊

-Very different song, like,,VERY DRAMATIC. ExtrEMLEY DRAMATIC

-Based on Verdi’s Requiem and Dies irae

-Has the Child Of the Night aria sandwiched in the middle

-So the falcon character sings the aria

-I don’t know how that works either

-then it KICKS IN AGAIN FULL POWER

-The pounding opening guitar motif that repeats is amazing

Childhood Dreams

-A very classical-based song, like, its very operatic

-The “controversial” song on the album. Only because people either love it or hate it. I love it. Its fun.

-CHILDhood CHILDhood CHILDhood

-Jay is singing from his SOUL here

-Lyrics are very whimsy:

“But then it's known to catch our eye And dare us all to once more try And with a childhood faith believe And that magic to retrieve As childhood dreams ...”

-Overall solid song

-The slow piano that kinda hangs back the entire time is great

-I love the way he sings the line “But suddenly inside the dark, she sees the magic of the sparks...”

Sparks

-Old-school rock n roll song

-One of my favs off the album, its just so, idk..classic sounding?

-”Tell me when...Ḁ̷̯͖͉̽̎̔͋̀̽͗͐͂̊̌̇̕A̸̢̳̪͉͓̼̟͑Å̷̛̛̜̈́̆̀̆͂͋̊͐͗̔͑̇Ḩ̸͋̿̓̆͋͛͌͐͑͆̕̕Ḣ̷̨̙̺̦͚͓̠̀̿́͝H̴̗̮̎̽̀́̓̏̓̋̚H̶̼̘̩̱͖̻͎͒́Ḩ̶̢̧͓̲̼͇̼̱͓̱̞̖͕̀̽̾̒̚̕͠ͅ”

-It actually has “AHHH” in the CD booklet I kid you not

-Its a tad long ill admit but it rocks so hard you hardly notice

-The old school chugging guitar riff rocks

-”Leaving marks...SPARKS!”

-Just a classic song, nuff said

The Mountain

-eyyyy first Savatage cover- based n Prelude to Madness! From Hall of the Mountain King!

-The atmosphere is REAL

-The windy sound effect in the opening, the deep bells AH so good

-A familiar melody, and MAN they give it their best

-They speed up gradually over time, and it just gets to the point where its ridiculous how much is going on in the song

-These guys are so talented I swear

-The solo at 4:09 KICKS

Night Castle

-Jeff Scott Soto giving me life, once again

-Very different sounding song I believe, not many other TSO songs sound like it

“Am I risking my own life...my life..?

-OK also I SWEAR in the last 4th of this song, when the slow bit hits, the melody is EXTREMELY CLOSE to the opening to Mephistopheles, from Beethoven's Last Night. It may just be coincidence, but it sounds like an Easter egg to me. Or maybe I’m just crazy. AHA. 

-The falling synth piano bits at 1:55. Yes.

-Song gets creepy with the minor change at the end

-I LOVE the last few seconds its so peppy and pretty, like that piano is so gentle

The Safest Way Into Tomorrow

-And I’m crying already, thanks Paul.

-They used this song for the tribute to Paul O’Neill in the 2017 live show. And i get so sad every time I hear it now. Like a melancholy feel now.

“Morpheus is at your side, offering the wings to fly, and be there..”

-Thanks Morpheus

-This line hits me right in the feels every time:

“Be there, free from Earth to sail across this night, where stars are all eternal”

-The piano build at 3:15 mmmm

-BEEEE THEEEEEERE

-BEEEEEE THEEEEEEERE

-BEEEEEEE THEEEEEEEEEERE

-BEEEEEEEE THEEEEEEEEEEEERE NOOOOOWWW

-”And tell me what you...see!”

-I cry

-Also may I note how I LOVE that every character that TSO makes looks like an 80′s rocker. Like look at my dude Morpheus. And Tran-Do. Never stop TSO, never stop.

(Morpheus^)

Mozart and Memories

-Second Savatage cover!

-Very eerie

-Fits with the “dream” thing going on in the story at this point

-The guitars are the best part at 0:42, that melody is so eerie and cool

-The pianos and strings at 0:24 hit me hard, VERY well recorded there

-It gets real fast at the end

-TSO and classical covers are such a good combo

Another Way You Can Die

-TSO got PG.

-Like look: 

“And the tracers probe on 'Till a close friend is gone And you find yourself embracing ground”

-and:

“I see a figure in my rifle sight Who does not know that he's there And as I hesitate to take his life The ground explodes My blood it flows My heart is racing Times escaping As I feel it slowly scraping by”

-like holy hell

-Like I love the song don’t get me wrong

-But lord Paul went all out here

-He was NOT holding back

-PAULS GOT A MESSAGE TO GET ACROSS AND LORDY HES GONNA DO IT ANY WAY HE CAN

-That end piano drop mY HEART HURTS

Toccata - Carpimus Noctem

-TSO has mastered Christmas, TIME FOR HALLOWEEN MUAHAHA

-Literally its such a good cover. They keep the classic classical intro, with synth and guitars of course, but then they go full metal with it.

-I love the weird guitar lick at 1:49, it really stands out

-Yet another guitar solo featured song and mmm its good

-Also, the DRUMS ARE AMAZING IN THIS ONE

The Lion’s Roar

-Third Savatage cover kind of

-The second half is from Temptation Revelation from Gutter Ballet

-As a trumpeter, I love this song, as it is TSOs only trumpet-featured song.

-The first half is a very military-esque (Fits with the story, eh?) trumpet solo on The Minstrel Boy. This song is very accurate as it is usually played at military events or funerals.

-Which makes me even sadder because of the context of thE STORY

-Nice little interlude song

Dreams We Conceive

-EMOTIONS.

-The opening organ, it its me right in the HEART.

-You can just HEAR the sorrow in his voice in this song.

-The way he sings “Where the dreams die...as the blood dries...”

-Too relatable my soul can’t take it.

-His little voice quiver on the word “do” in the line ‘WHat else is the night to do..”

“As you stand all Alone at your station What if God doesn't Know where you are As you send out your Prayers for salvation But afraid that They don't go that far

So you wait all Alone in your darkness There's a train that drives on Through the night And if everyone's On it except us Would it return for That single life

In a city After midnight Neath the halo Of a street light”

-Its just so LONELY SOUNDING this man needs a hug

Mother and Son

-I used to skip this track before I understood it in context to the story.

-Then I felt emotions

-You can find the translation HERE.

-Imagine you past self looking at you and saying “How did I become you?” TO YOUR FACE

-savage

There Was A Life

-ENTER ROB EVAN

-This song man,,,the emotions are REAL

-The way he sings the word “life” in the opening line

“Can someone tell me Can someone say when The writer of this story Will just tell us how it all will end?”

-I relate too much to that

-Paul asking the real questions of life: “ Is there forgiveness for hesitation?”

-The HURT in his voice when he sings “DEAR GOD” at 3:14

-Robbbb why you gotta kill me like this

-The piano is superb at 4:22

-Captures the vibe perfectly

“Are you scared of your life? Are you scared of your death? Though that day will arrive Well it hasn't come yet...”

-Calling me out like that huh

-His “ALIIIIIIIIIVE” at 8:37 oh my LORD

-I’m feeling ALL the emotions

Moonlight and Madness

-OK. So I can’t think of which piano player it was, I’m thinking either Kinkel or Weiland, I could be wrong...BUT. Paul said in an interview once that the songs piano was recorded in one take. ONE TAKE THAT INTRO. He just FLEW INTO IT PERFECTLY.

-Its a wild song, based on the moonlight sonata. 

Time Floats On

-This song man..this song

-*Insert seagull meme here* “tiiiiime flllOAATS OOOOON!!!”

-It was one of the first TSO songs I ever heard

-The crazy contrasting piano bit in the middle AH its cool

-Such an eerie song really

-”Time floats on...as I write these letters that you'll never see...”   ;-;

-this song has so much heart

Epiphany

-OK HERE WE GO

-TSOs longest song

-TSOs most emotional song

-I’m crying again

-The SHEER HURT and SORROW in Rob’s voice when he sings “ I fear the night, I fear the dark, I need this light...that distant spark...”

-The fast bit at 3:52...I don’t think Rob breathed once during that recording.

-The spoken part was a bold choice, TSO has never done that before. I liked it a lot, its a great addition to the song. 

-The subtle harmonies in the “Somewhere”s...amazing.

-and MAN. The LYRICS.

“Did you ever walk up To the edge of a cliff Stare into the abyss As your mind wonders if You should take one more step Further into that night Well your mind says you won't But your heart says you might Would you fall through the dark Feel the wind in your hair Would you embrace the ground And end your life right there Or would god reach his hand And that moment you fly Or if he chanced to blink And then, that moment you die You die...”

-Like GEEZ that is heavy stuff

-This is the “contemplating death song”

“Be who you are What you were What they see From eternity's view Tell me which one is me?”

-Relatable. holy heck.

-He sounds like hes about to cry when he sings “Hold me close...”

-Like me too Rob. Me too.

-”This all is your....life..."

-You feel DRAINED by the end of it, like wow. The emotion, the power, my soUL. MY HEART.

Bach Lullaby

-A nice calming music box medley of the C major prelude.

-OK SO TSO SHOULD ACTUALLY MAKE LITTLE MUSIC BOXES THAT PLAY THIS HOLY HECK ID BUY 50

Father, Son, and Holy Ghost

-The OTHER most EMOTIONAL SONG on the album

-First half: pain, sorrow, regret, melancholy, slow piano...

-The EMOTION in the line “ Never quite there but it's never quite gone, you are the star that is wished upon...forever....”

-Second half: RAGE. ANGER. FIRE. AAAHHHHH.

-The main guitar riff is so heckin powerful

-Lyrics literally have this background in it: “...she raged against all those citizens of apathy and willful ignorance who lived behind the sacrifices of others.”

-The high piano swapped out for low guitar and bass melodies, a heavy mood, and pounding drums

-”...You cling to that card, Father, Son & Holy Ghost”

-You FEEL THE RAGE

-It has the most metal lyrics:

“And Christ and Confucius Are all their words useless We quote them in fractions But not in our actions”

-Like WOW

Remnants of a Lullaby

-A simple, but pretty song

-Very calming, and a nice breather from the song before

-The feeling in “ What to keep, what to save...”

”Wished on coins Childhood wings Carousels Still turning Waiting there patiently Remnants of a lullaby...”

-IM A KID AGAIN

The Safest Way Into Tomorrow (Reprise)

-dangittt I’m crying AGAIN

-album comes full circle here in the most emotional way possible

-especially when you consider the context of the story at this point aahhHHH

-Soto owns my soul

Embers

-OK, just..I love this song. Simple as that.

-This is pure atmosphere.

-Listen to it. Bonfire. Embers soaring to the stars above. Fireflies all around. Friends sitting with you at the camp fire. Acoustic guitar playing. A perfect summers night.

-Just...perfection.

Child of the Night

-Eyyyyy the aria again. It grows on yah.

-Very relaxing.

-Just brings that calming night vibe to life.

-Makes yah feel like a kid again.

Believe

-AAAAND the TSO song everyone knows for one reason or another. 

-Also one of the more emotional ones on the album.

-A cover of the Savatage song off Streets

-I love this version, (No offense Jon), like idk why exactly...it just feels more..personal? Idk, maybe its just because of the sheer emotional journey we just went on lol.

-It builds spectacularly, and the emotion is all in in this one. 10/10 great cover.

Nutrocker

-YAYY JUST HAD AN EMOTIONAL AND HEARTBREAKING JOURNEY, TIME FOR HAPPY FUN CHRISTMAS EMMERSON LAKE AND PALMER NUTCRACKER SONG YAYY

-Heh I kid I kid

-It features Greg Lake on bass!

-This song ROCKS man it ROCKS

-TSO does SO WELL WITH THIS

-The fast piano, the amazingly melodic guitar melody, the rock bits with a jazz break sandwiched in between AH.

Carmina Burana

-This is also one of my favs off the album.

-I believe this is also the song that got some conservative folks mad at TSO for being “satanists” by playing this. It was the latin I think. 

-Doesn’t matter, this song is epic. Very bombastic.

-It builds so well, and the repeated guitar and bass riffs make it feel so pounding I love it.

Tracers

-Ok so this song and I have history.

-I originally didn’t like this song (woah, right?)

-It just didn’t click. Buuuuut, TSO did it live in 2018, and BOI that changed everything. I loved it after that. Its top 25 TSO songs for me now. 

-IDK what they did or how they did it, but after the live show, I loved it. Past me was wrong. This song ROCKS.

-The pounding opening is iconic

-The soaring guitars

-The weird interval medley at 0:49 is so cool

-The main melody KICKS at 1:00

-My fav bit is the surreal acoustic bit at 2:06

-Its SO GOOD

-The repeated 5 notes at like 1:34 are so driving

-The descending bit at 2:55!!!

-and the BUILD UP TO THE VOCAL PART AT 3:32 OH MAN POETIC CINEMA

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And there you have it!!! Night Castle! To me, its the most emotional album of the lot. And the most atmospheric. Its long, but its a wild ride the entire time. The story is sad but inspiring, the music is legendary, the art is beautiful, so all around, this, to me, may be their best album in terms of general scoring. What do you think?

Thanks for reading ya’ll! You rock!

[13yawnie]

tagged

thank u so much for tagging me YOO @egghearts

yall aren’t obligated to do this buuut im tagging @kevinnie @here4exo @jikooksgf @joohyunsgirl @i1oveyoongi @goodgirlsgoto711 @bubbletea-hun

star sign: gemini 

height: 5’6

put your playlist on shuffle. what are the first four songs to come up?

deja boo - jonghyun ft zion t

rise - solange

brooklyn baby - lana del rey

sign of the times - harry styles

ever had a poem or song written about you?

yeah my boyfriend writes poems about me sometimes lol

when was the last time you played guitar?

i can play air* guitar

what sound do you love? what sound do you hate?

i love the sound of cats purring its very therapeutic and a sound i hate?? uhh the sound of my alarm when i have to get up -_- 

do you believe in ghosts?

i used to be non believer but now i feel like i have no right to tell people what they did or did not see when they tell me ghost stories

how about aliens?

yes !

do you drive?

no but i want to ... soon

what was the last book you read?

cruel beauty

do you like the smell of gasoline? sometimes

what’s the worst injury you ever had?

i tore my acl in my knee playing basketball i also dislocated my patella AGAIN playing basketball so yeah... no more sports

do you have any current obsessions right now?

possums??? and also that johnny meme LOL

do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

no i find it stupid

in a relationship? ye

[ray-rabies]

multiples of 5 for that ask meme

this is gonna be a slightly abbreviated version just cos of how many songs i have on here but here we go (under the cut so i’m not internationally hated)5: Which songs have “dream” in the title  Dream Lover-DionDream Police- Cheap TrickDon’t Dream It’s Over- Crowded HouseDream a little dream of me; california dreamin’-the mamas and the papasSweet Dreams-EurythmicsDream- Mahavishnu OrchestraAnd Dream of Sheep;An Architect’s Dream;The Dreaming- Kate BushAmerican Dream;Dream For Him;Find A Dream;House Of Broken Dreams;In My Dreams-CSNYDream-Tally HallAsleep and Dreaming; Busby Berkeley Dreams-The Magnetic FieldsApocalypse Dreams-Tame ImpalaBoulevard of Broken Dreams-Green DayCircle Dream-10000 ManiacsCountry Dreamer- WingsCowboy of Dreams;Shinin On Your Dreams- Crosby NashCity of Dreams; Dream Operator- Talking HeadsCaught In A Dream-Alice CooperDeadly Dream of Freedom- TriumviratDream Again;Lucid Dreams-Franz FerdinandDream Attack-New OrderDon’t Let Me Lose This Dream- Aretha FranklinDay of The Dreamer-RenaissanceDream Away;Dream Scene-George HarrisonA Dream Away-The CarsDream Clock-Weather ReportA Dream Goes On Forever- Todd RundgrenThe Dream Nebula-NektarDream of The Archer;Dreamboat Annie-HeartDream One;Dreaming From The Waist-The WhoThe Dream of Blue Turtles-StingDream Police-Gary NumanDream Time;The Planner’s Dream Goes Wrong-The JamDream Within A Dream-PropagandaDream Within A Dream-SpiritDream Within A Dream-Alan Parsons ProjectThe Dream’s Dream-TelevisionDream World-The MonkeesDreamer-SupertrampThe Dreamer-Nicky HopkinsDreamer’s Ball-QueenDreaming-PolystyreneDreaming;Dreaming Is Dangerous-Bruno CoulaisDreaming of 4000;One Summer Dream;Ordinary Dream-Electric Light OrchestraDreaming of Me-Depeche ModeDreaming While You Sleep-GenesisDreamline;Middletown Dreams-RushDreams;Flash’s Dream;Only A Dream-The KinksDreams-Fleetwood MacDreams-Allman Brothers BandDreamtime;Endless Dream;Sweet Dreams-YesDreamy Lady-T RexxEverybody Has a Dream-Billy JoelFever Dream-Nash The SlashFurther Than Funk Dream-Medium MediumGirl of My Dreams-Charles MingusGasoline Dreams- OutkastHad A Dream (Sleeping With The Enemy)-Roger HodgsonThe Gunner’s Dream;Julia Dream;Post War Dream-Pink FloydHere I Dreamt I was An Architect- The DecemberistsI Don’t Sleep I Dream-REMHung Up On A Dream;Is This The Dream- The ZombiesI Dream Myself Alive-A -HaI Dreamaed There Was No War-The EaglesI Had Too Much To Dream Last Night-The electric PrunesI’m Only Dreaming-Small FacesIn Every Dream Home A Heartache- Roxy MusicInfinite Dreams-Iron MaidenIs It A Dream;Street of Dreams- The DamnedIt’s Only A Dream-TrapezeJohnny Panic and The Bible of Dreams-Tears For FearsLittle Dreamer- Van HalenKeep Dreaming-Pineapple ThiefMaximum Dream For Evil Knieval-Flaming LipsMoney Honey Impossible Dream-The Sensational Alex Harvey BandMusic In Dreamland-Be Bop DeluxeNew Gold Dream-Simple MindsNice Dream-RadioheadRainy Day Dream Away;Still Raining Still Dreaming-Jimi Hendrix ExperienceQueen of Dreams- StrawbsRed Brick Dream-XTCRunnin Down A Dream-Tom PettyRado’s Dream-FoxygenSex Sleep Eat Drink Dream-King CrimsonSleep of No Dreaming;Stupid Dream-Porcupine TreeSome Dreams Come True-BanglesThe State of Dreaming- Marina And The DiamondsSweet Dreams- BeyonceThese Dreams-Jim CroceTomorrow’s Dream-Black SabbathWeird Dream-HarmoniaWest County Dream-Mountain GoatsWhen Poets Dreamed of Angels-David SlyvainWildest Dreams-AsiaYou Make My Dreams Come True-Hall & Oates40 Day Dream-Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeroes10: Which songs have “blue” in the titleBlue;Blue Boy;Blue Motel Room-Joni MitchellBlue-Fine Young CannibalsAcute Schizophrenia Paranoia Blues-The KinksAll Blues;Blue In Green-Miles DavisAeroplane Blues-Black KeysAmbulance Blues;Blue Eden-Neil YoungAntichrist Television Blues-Arcade FireBaby Blue-BadfingerBaby’s Tears Blues- Mort GarsonBacklash Blues;Blues;Central Park Blues;Gin House Blues;Little Girl Blue-Nina SimoneBallet For A Blue Whale-Adrian BelewBehind Blue Eyes; Red Blue and Grey;Summertime Blues-The WhoBeyond The Blue Horizon;9 Times Blues-Michael Nesmith And The First National BandBirmingham Blues;Mr Blue Sky;Boy Blue;Bluebird;Bluebird is Dead-Electric Light OrchestraBlonde Over Blue-Billy JoelBlowing The Blues Away-Max WebsterBlue As a Jewel-Be Bop DeluxeBlue Beard-Band of HorsesBlue Cheese- Courtney BarnettBlue Days Black Nights-Buddy HollyBlue Eyes- Elton JohnBlue Jay Way;For You Blue-The BeatlesBlue Letter;Jigsaw Puzzle Blues-Fleetwood MacBlue Light-Mazzy StarBlue Light-UltravoxBlue Monday-New OrderBlue Oyster Cult (Subhuman)-Blue Oyster CultBlue Overall-XTCBlue Orpheus;Drunken Blue Rooster-Todd RundgrenBlue Nile-Alice ColtraneBlue Rhumba-Aqua VelvetsBlue Ridge Mountains;Blue Spotted Tail-  Fleet FoxesBlue Room In Venice-Rick WrightBlue Sky-A-haBlue Sky;Come And Go Blues-Allman Brothers BandBlue Suede Shoes;Cocaine Blues;Folsom Prison Blues-Johnny CashBlue Sunday;Runnin Blues-The DoorsBlue Turk-Alice CooperBlue You-Magnetic FieldsBluebird-WingsBluebird-Buffalo SpringfieldBluebird Revisted-Stephen StillsBluejays and Cardinals;Blues In Dallas-Mountain GoatsBlueprint-FugaziBlues De Luxe-Jeff Beck GroupBlues From An Airplane;Chauffer Blues;Eskimo Blue Day-Jefferson AirplaneBlues Man-ManassasBrilliant Blues-Pete TownshendBlue Angel-MarillionBristol Steam Convention Blues-The ByrdsBullet The Blue Sky-U2Buried Alive In The Blues;Kozmic Blues-Janis JoplinCan Blue Men Sing The Whites-Bonzo Doo Dah Dog BandCharlie Manson Blues-Flaming LipsCatfish Blues-Jimi HendrixClear Blue Skies;Suite Judy Blue Eyes-CSNYCrazy Lady Blue-UtopiaComputer Blue-PrinceDamn Right I Got The Blues-Buddy GuyDeep Blue;Electric Blue-Arcade FireDeep Blue;Devil And The Deep Blue Sea;Marwa Blues-George HarrisonDeeper Blue- Bruford Levin Upper ExtremitiesDachau Blues- Captain BeefheartEarly Morniing Blues and Greys;Papa Gene’s Blues;Some of Shelly’s Blues-MonkeesElectric Blues- HairEmpty Bottle Blues-TMBGEvening Blues-TrafficEstablishment Blues-RodriguezEveryday I Have The Blues-Rolling StonesFeelin Blue-CCRGoodbye Blue Sky;Jugband Blues-Pink Floydh20gate Blues-Gil Scott Heron and Brian JacksonHobo’s Blues-Paul SimonHoneymoon Blues;Cross Road Blues;Me and The Devil Blues;;etc-Robert JohnsonI’m So Blue-Michael JacksonInner City Blues-Marvin GayeInvitation To The Blues-Tom WaitsIt’s All Over Now Baby Blue;Tangled Up In Blue-Bob DylanJeff’s Blues;The Nazz Are blue-The YardbirdsOut Of The Blue-Roxy MusicLooking Good In Blue-BlondieMy Melancholy blues-QueenNew Blue Moon-Traveling WilburysNight Owl Blues-Lovin SpoonfulOoby Scooby Doomsday or The D Day DJ’s Got The DDT Blues-GongOtherness Blue-Sun RaPink And Blue-OutkastPoor Boy Blues- Barclay James HarvestProtex Blue-The ClashProzakc blues-King crimsonRainbows All over Your Blues-John SebastianRunning Gun Blues-David BowieSame Old Blues-Bryan FerrySeem To Have The Blues All The Time-Procol HarumSepository Nihlist Blues-FoxygenScrew You (Young Man’s Blues)-Elton JohnSky Blue-Peter GabrielSittin And Cryin The Blues-Willie DixonTurn Blue-Iggy PopWildwood Blues- NazzWinter Is Blue-Vashti BunyanWoman’s Blues-Laura NyroWorn Out Blues- Gotye9-5 Pollution Blues- Neil Innesi give up -_-

15: Which song titles start with “Where”Where Have All The Flowers Gone-Joan Baezit’s 3 am now i am giving up

20: Which song titles start with “Good”

25: A song with a strange title  In And Out The Chakras We Go (Formerly Shaft Goes To Outer Space)- Todd Rundgren30: The very last song on your list of songs35: A song longer than 10 minutes (a sampling) (i apparently have hundreds) Singring And The Glass Guitar (An Electrifyed Fairytale)-Utopia (18:22)Healing-Todd Rundgren (20 min)Supper’s Ready-Genesis (23 min)Echoes- Pink Floyd (23 min)A Plague Of Lighthouse Keepers- VDGG (23 min)Ommadawn-Mike Oldfield (32:50)Mountain Jam-Allman Brothers (33:50)Treatise on Cosmic Fire- Todd Rundgren (35:19)Thick As A Brick-Jethro Tull (42:53)The Ikon (live)-Todd Rundgren’s Utopia (45 min)Journey To The Center of The Earth-Rick Wakeman (54:20)40: The first 5 songs that play when you hit “shuffle”Breakaway-The CarsMutual Surrender (What A Wonderful World)-Bourgeois TaggPassover-Joy DivisionLunar Sea-CamelJingo-Santana

[whipped-for-kpop-fics]

nct members <3

moon taeil, 23 (24 in korea), KOREAN

sleepwalks, is considered the “manliest” and can get quite nervous. he is the oldest and doesnt talk a lot but is quite wild, funny and random. really awkward and cries a lot. members tease him.

johnny seo (seo youngho), 23 (24 in korea), AMERICAN/KOREAN

is really good at parrot impressions and loves ten. first language was english (because he’s from chicago) but is just as good at korean. knows quite a bit of french/spanish/japanese. biggest boyfriend material and is the strongest of the group. can play the piano. is very talented and is very soft.

lee taeyong, 22 (23 in korea), KOREAN

is really adorable and soft even though he may not seem like it. is like a mother to the members and is a really good cook and cleaner. hates aegyo. bit of an introvert and doesnt talk much. constantly getting picked on for his “ty track,” especially by haechan. nicknamed TY (tee-why)

nakamoto yuta, 22 (23 in korea), JAPANESE

is probably the most dirty minded member. sassiest and the cutest. nicknamed “healing smile yuta.” loves to climb mountains and play sports, especially football. absolutely hilarious. taught winwin korean and is very close w the dreamies/foreign members.

qian kun, 21 (22 in korea), CHINESE

is a really good chef and good at magic tricks. plays the piano and guitar. roommates w lucas. not perfect at korean so the language barrier makes it a little awkward w everyone. is absolutely adorable and squishy. quiet. savage af but takes care of the younger chinese members.

kim dongyoung (doyoung), 21 (22 in korea), KOREAN

can play the flute. loves baking and was going to be a baker. jokes w jaehyun the most and groans in his sleep. just like taeyong, constantly nagging. relieves stress by jogging and loves valentines day. makes quite a bit of noise.

chittaphon leechaiyapornkul (ten), 21 (22 in korea), THAI

speaks fluent thai and korean. loves drawing, dancing and sports. a little random but really funny and quite confident. very very cute. is also very bubbly and energetic. really close w johnny, taeyong and mark.

jung yoonoh (jaehyun), 21 (22 in korea), KOREAN

lived in america for 4 years and has forgotten quite a lot of english but is learning again. was nicknamed “caspar” because of his fair skin and nicknamed “jeffrey” by johnny (because “he looks like a jeffrey”). is quite optimistic and smart. born on valentines day. very caring of other members and will always try to cheer them up. really sweet and funny, like a second mother to the group (after taeyong).

dong sicheng (winwin), 20 (21 in korea), CHINESE fluent in chinese obviously and mostly korean. was very shy w the members because of his ability in korean but is starting to open up now. members adore him and he’s really sweet. is an absolute savage.

kim jungwoo, 20 (21 in korea), KOREAN

he is very observant and a little quiet. close to mark and doyoung. is very calm. is quite humourous. good at imitating people. has a huge appetite. nicknamed “zeus”/“jungwoos”/“juwoos”

wong yukhei (lucas), 19 (20 in korea), CHINESE/THAI

knows cantonese, korean, chinese and english fluently. hobby is playing pc games. likes spicy food, not sweet. quite crazy. loves the dreamies (loves everyone tbh). extremely dorky and precious. insane.

mark lee (lee minhyung), 18 (19 in korea), CANADIAN/KOREAN

fluent in korean and english. close to taeyong and haechan. gets picked on by the dreamies. is very loving and sweet. really funny and is a quality meme. stubborn and hates aegyo. very protective of the dreamies. cannot cook to save his life.

huang renjun, 17 (18 in korea), CHINESE

18 in a couple of days!! (23rd). his korean name is hwang injoon. absolutely loves moomins with all his heart. knows korean almost as well as chinese and also knows quite a lot of english. very charming. helps translate for chenle when he’s stuck so they’re always together. very good at drawing and cooking. quiet, polite and very cheerful.

lee jeno, 17 (18 in korea), KOREAN

is allergic to cats. loves jaehyun and cars. he can play the violin and guitar. his favourite subject is science. mature and calm for his age but can sometimes come off as cold. dreams to be happy and works extremely hard.

lee donghyuck (haechan), 17 (18 in korea), KOREAN

is a very good cook and cleaner like taeyong. best friends w mark. makes fun of everyone at every chance he gets (especially mark and taeyong) and is a jokester. can play piano. mood maker; makes sure the atmosphere is always happy and fun and light. is definitely the loudest nct member.

na jaemin, 17 (18 in korea), KOREAN

nicknamed nana. loves sports, watching anime and cooking. has a very positive energy and vibe. is very cute and cuddly. takes short showers and has very prominent abs. eats apples every morning and relieves stress by listening to music. his mouth sometimes drops open when he doesnt notice.

zhong chenle, 16 (17 in korea), CHINESE

his korean name is jong jinrak. always next to renjun. has a laugh/scream like a dolphin, therefore always being called a dolphin. plays piano and is afraid of spiders. talks in mandarin in his sleep. is very mischievious.

park jisung, 16 (17 in korea), KOREAN

very clueless a lot of the time. very good at football. shy, patient and loves to play pranks on the other members. quiet and doesn’t get angry easily.

i tried to include everything i could, if you need anything more or need to ask anything please feel free to do so!! 

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Thank you for doing this for me darlin! I really appreciate it

I’m posting this in case anyone else wants to know about the boys :) ~Chee

[flowerofwar]

YOU omg I am so happy you're here!! i came for gal and sweet merciful jesus did you ever deliver. i know you're always like 'don't match i got carried away' but i always see it as such a good thing bc it shows how passionate you are about your writing and your characters and you're such a joy to have around in general. What kind of music do your bbys listen to??

BABE! At this point I’m a walking billboard that just says ‘pls no need to match i got crazy’, I’m literally a meme. But it’s true, I’m a ride or die bitch, no middle ground here hahah I’ve said it in the previous anon but I’m saying it again especially to YOU because our replies between Gwen and Ettie got randomly long - thank you for putting up with me and my writing :’) Honestly you’re the sweetest, I always get so giddy when I see I got a new message for you or when we gush over Gal and Margot and while we haven’t gotten to writing together enough yet, I am looking forward to everything we’re going to do with our bbies in the future. Even if it’s not all as chirpy and sweet as it is when it comes to our Yoga Babes. You are an amazing writer, and legit one of those people whose replies I read when I’m lacking inspiration (and when I’m not, cause I’m the KGB) because your writing is so inspiring. I remember you messaged me on day one when I first came here and I was freaking out so hard but that just made me feel really welcome! okjfdlksoksd ok I’m starting to rant, I better end this here, but I want you to know how much I adore you and your bbies Also everyone move, our queens are coming through

OH SHIT I FORGOT TO RESPOND TO THE QUESTION  sorry let me get to that ahahahaI see Ettie as mostly influenced by the time she spent in Paris? There’s a lot of classical music involved, of course, because it’s Ettie - but I see her as a die hard fan of Edith Piaf and Charles Aznavour? Throw in some Marlene Dietrich for good measure. Frank Sinatra, Armstrong, Ella Fitzgerald, Billie Holiday, Neil Young, Elvis Presley, Leonard Cohen, Elton John, The Beatles, Queen… anything that’s got an old-timey ring to it? She’s a hopeless case when it comes to modern music, unless it’s Nick Cave. For Hunter… it’s a bit more complex? He’s always been trash for music, and honestly you’d be surprised at how well-versed he is when it comes to classical music. But I’d say his current phase is definitely stuff from that good old days of rock? Give him Pink Floyd and Led Zeppelin, The Rolling Stones, Queen, AC/DC, Jimi Hendrix, The Who, The Doors, Eric Clapton (Tears in Heaven anyone?), The Smiths and The Clash. But even if he wouldn’t admit it, there’s some Bowie in there too, and some really old obscure stuff that he loves to play that just does not fit his image hahaha Johnny Cash and Bob Dylan? Sign him up. Babe loves his music, no wonder half the walls of his apartment are just covered in guitars. Also I did not just nerd out over music… it’s not like I listen to all of this…… don’t judge me.

[flyingsassysaddles]

I was tagged by @must-be-ryan , thanks man!

1. Nicknames: Sassy’s my name, sassy’s my game

2. Gender: I honestly have no idea, but I’m guessing somewhere around female-ish to non-binary?? Demi-female I guess?????

3. Zodiac Sign: TAURUS AND PROUD

4. Height: 5′8″  (or 172.72), and I’m probably just going to get taller

5. Current Time: 6:42, North American Eastern Standard Time (EST)

6. Birthday: May 12th!

7. Favorite Bands: meh

8. Favorite Solo Artists: meh but solo

9. Song Stuck in My Head: I was thinking about this one when I GOT A FEELING OOOO OOOO THAT TONIGHT’S GONNA BE A GOOD NIGHT popped back into my head, so thanks Tumblr, also When Johnny Comes Marching Home Again during tests (always)  

10. Last Movie I Watched: “Captain’s Corelli's Mandolin” which is some really sad shit if you can understand the mothers and fathers sobbing, “Το παιδι μου!” (my child) after finding out they died in WW2 ;-;

11. Last Show I Watched: “Medici: Masters of Florence” because my mom loves to watch it but we can’t get it on the TV so I have to use my computer to hook it up and by then I want to watch it too anyway so (on the plus side ALL the renaissance painters are like SUPER gay because HISTORY)  

12. When Did I Create My Blog: Hm, about two years ago! I only actually started using it like a couple months ago and before that I just used it to read awesome comics I originally found on youtube

13. What Do I Post?: TibMongol for sure, Mongolia stuff, Tibet stuff, my own writings once I finally piece them together, and occasionally a headcanon or two!    

14. Last Thing I Googled: “Calendar” because I forgot what day was last Monday

15. Other Blogs?: Nah, but SOON (dun dun duuuun)

16. Do You Get Asks?: meh but lonely even though I reblog like no ask memes oops

17. Why Did You Choose Your Url?: Er, this is a little embarrassing, but I was (and sorta still am) a huge My Little Pony fan, and when I was making my account, a new character called Sassy Saddles just made her first episode, and I was like “meh sure why not” and put a “flying” on there for good measure 

18. Last Thing I Ate: POTATOES

19. How Many Pillows?: One primary hugging pillow, two for its actual purpose, and like one just being tossed around all night idk

20. Favorite Color(s): For the longest time it was purple, but it turns out I really like green?? It’s a May color and is the color of leaves when the sun shines through, so I’m thinking of switching! Yellow is super pretty too because gold and shit

21. Favorite Tag To Use?:  Either #TibMongol because it means I FINALLY FOUND ONE or I WROTE ANOTHER TIBMONGOL FIC or THESE DORKS ARE ADORABLE LOVE THEM PLZ, or #Sassy’s Writing because it means I FINISHED THE FIC GUYS OH MY GOD FINALLY 

22. Lucky Number: Three. Why? School House Rocks, that’s why

23. Instruments?: Guitar! I know, I can actually play, it’s a miracle (bar chords are so annoying though T^T) 

24. What Am I Wearing?: An I-Heart-NY sweatshirt, jeans, the usual

25. Last Thing I Wrote?: A fic for the account that doesn’t exist yet (SUSPENSE) so no spoilers people

26. Dream Job: Um, a guess a neuroscientist, a chemical engineer, or a writer, you know, one of the three! :D

27. Dream Trip: A trip from Mongolia, to Tibet, to Nepal, to India, and then to Inner Mongolia!

28. Favorite Food: POTATO

29. Nationality: Greek-American!

30. Favorite Song Right Now: “The Grey” by Icon for Hire, Youth by Daughter, and Blood On My Name by The Brothers Bright currently!     

I tag: @d-joana-a-shippadora @spiritussalis @amechulover @huggiebird @aph-solukhumbu @ariuka-munkh @aristotle-s-lover@thatcraxygirl15 and anyone who wants to give it a shot!

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Auden’s YouNow Vids!

Do you want to see me be a dork? Want to hear me ramble on for hours on end? Do you want to see me dance like an idiot and sing like Jacob Sartorious? Are you always preoccupied whenever I decide to stream? Do you want your mom to join the army of middle aged mothers who complain in my inbox about my topics of drug use, sex, and other inappropriate topics? (Yes I’m fucking bringing you up again Laura and Janice.) If so, then here you go! Whatever the reason might be, for entertainment or for finding good roast material, you’re in luck. These are my YouNow livestreams… I do them sometimes to talk to you guys, connect with y’all, and share my stories, jokes, and even myself more easily! *My YouNow is thepatricktreestump*

8.3.17 – 22min Treehouse: very first livestream, back to school tips, summer reading advice, talking about transitioning into high school, some of the classes I’m taking this year… 8.4.17 – 3min Bathtub: giving my bearded dragon a bath, that’s literally it 8.8.17 – 5min Aunt’s House: talking about fics I’m writing, Saudade plans, a shitton of tumblr updates and ideas, being hopeful for the upcoming school year… 8.14.17 – 19min Treehouse: how school is going, my love for hats, tmi period health talk, storytime my starbucks nightmare experience, guy talk and friend group drama, Ryden and Brallon, memes, my bearded dragon eating my homework, no regrets, geometry class stories, me giving my best regards to a chicken… 9.4.17 – 2sec Middle of the woods: Literally two seconds of me walking through a forest with my girlfriend at the time??? I don’t even know 11.14.17 – 5min Bedroom: Last stream with my long hair, talking about dysphoria, introduction of coconut water, showing off art on walls, apologizing for my hiatus… 11.19.17 – 20min Bedroom: Celebrating almost hitting 2.3k followers, new haircut, beanie vs hat, answering tumblr asks, I’m a fast ass typer, my anxiety with adding smiley faces and gifs, freaking out over requests, back at it again with dat coconut water life, being hype for MANIA, being paranoid, flashing a boob by accident, talking about meeting Anthony Amorim… 11.20.17 – 25min Bedroom: birth of the live ice cream mom joke, failing at making jokes, being hype for Christmas, procrastinating on writing Black & Red, answering tumblr asks, penguins, my little sister annoying me, having my writing read on almost every continent, being in a relationship, my social media moms, Twitter talk, being spontaneous af… 11.21.17 – 1hr20min Bedroom: Emo dabs, I listen to songs you’ve recommended me, return of the coconut water, being in love with blood, share some jams of my own, promoting After Laughter and Razia’s Shadow, rap one of my favorite songs, talk about musicals, lots of singing and dancing and reacting… 11.30.17 – 1hr Bedroom: I do my homework, freak out over my life being a mess, listen to some more music, I attempt to speak and sing Spanish, rant about the net neutrality issue, promoting AM and Cybersex, giving a government conspiracy theory, talk about dysphoria… 12.3.17 – 43min Bedroom/Bathroom: I play acoustic guitar, give my bearded dragon a bath, play some covers (WDBWOTV, 90210, House of Gold, Young Volcanoes), some original songs of mine (Sunday Morning, Insomnia, Rabbit Hole, etc.,), advice on how to ask people to use the right pronouns… 12.5.17 -53min Bedroom: Return of the coconut water, I listen and dance to BTS, I go through my art binder and sketchbook, I read and show the original “Poem For Emos” loose leaf, talk about the novels I’ve written, diss sprinkles, talk about the Dubai Anesthesia video…

12.7.17 – 50min Bedroom: Getting injured, finding acceptance through suffering, religion and explaining being an agnostic omnist, 55 questions, the optimism in pessimism, relationships, complaining about ortho, listening to Blackbear, Arctic Monkeys, and Fall Out Boy, transforming someone into a drag queen, more dancing…

12.15.17 - 40min

Bedroom: Listening to more music, talking about Brendon's 12 Days of Livestream, me being hesitant as fuck to livestream, doodling Santa Claus, wearing my S.O.'s christmas sweater, Brendon deciding to stream while I stream...

12.19.17 - 6min

In Bed: just a quick positivity post for you guys, keep doing what you're doing, you are enough...

12.23.17 - 34min

Bedroom: my 2017 in review, Aaron's transition, q&a, saudade, being interrupted by parents and relatives...

12.27.17 - 44min

Bedroom: Ukulele stream, sin blog got marked as explicit, dallon let panic!, playing a shitton of covers (Bad At Love, Creep, I'm Yours, Me and My Broken Heart, Skyscraper, Titanium, Hey There Delilah, This Is The First Day of my Life, Can't Help Falling in Love, Viva La Vida, Immortals, Valerie, Coconut Sharks in the Water, and much more), not really knowing what the fuck i'm doing...

12.28.17 - 1hr7min

Bedroom: reading my hate comments, giving unpopular opinions, roasting my followers, return of the coconut water, finding jeff, following Kaitlyn, jamming out to soul punk, talking about how I fell in love with brendon urie, what to do when home alone, being cheesy about how much I love you guys...

12.29.17 - 15min

Bedroom: messy hair, reading a call to love poem, book review on Pete Wentz's (not) autobiography Gray, I get all my shirts from Hot Topic...

12.31.17 - 56min

Bedroom: last livestream of 2017, talking about the Cabin album, performed my poetry program Because of Silence, read more suicide based poetry, return of the coconut water, improvisational ukulele music jam, I play covers (Alone Together, The Judge, New Rules, Fake Your Death, One Last Time, and more), happy new year's eve...

1.1.18 - 8min

Bedroom: Happy New Year, mall haul (Inside Scoop, Spencer's, Starbucks, Hot Topic), resolutions for the new year, healthy living...

1.4.18 - 47min

Bedroom: trigonometry homework, shitty return of the coconut water, listening to Vices & Virtues b-tracks, jamming out to other music, talking about how YouTubers grow up, the panic! song algorithm...

1.10.18 - 50min

Bedroom: storytime livestream, fuck apologies, changed the names in the story for privacy purposes, return of the coconut water, what happened this weekend, more tea is spilled, how my miserable day went, how I lost all of my friends, lots of drama, I am an honest person, talking about therapy and help, going to my school, mostly life problems...

1.12.18 - 32min

Bedroom: I hit a can for half an hour straight, learn how to play the dodie Heinz bean can song, troye sivan's new single, I throw a can in my face, not a big fan of corn, return of the superman pajamas...

1.14.18 - 7 min

Bedroom: laptop camera test, lots of purple glasses, bitching about finding quality guitar chords, Johnny Boy uke cover very messy and rough and low quality and glitch, me not being able to hit high notes lmfao, wearing my s.o.'s sweatshirt, tyler and josh phone lockscreen, thank you for support on my livestreams...

1.23.18 - 14min

Living room: super fucking sick, winning first place at a speech meet, I took my bearded dragon to the vet storytime, being connected to a pet, talking about joining the bts army...

1.28.18 - 44min

S.O's house: i'm still sick lol, mac and cheese, introducing my s.o. Gray, Q&A, talking about gender identity, unboxing, accidentally being sent surprise item, dad jokes, opening up christmas presents, also featuring Gray's dog Rico, complimenting other people, being addicted to lime hot Cheetos....

2.10.18 - 25min

Bedroom: got a new-ish haircut, crushed an interview for a theater internship, fanfiction recommendation list...

2.16.18 - 44min

Bedroom: valentine's day, wearing a binder, Can't Help Falling In Love cover, talking about how much I love you guys, re-reacting to BTS music videos, fangirling over the Black Panther album, we love and support Vince Staples in this household, Young Dumb and Broke cover, go text someone you miss and rekindle an old friendship...

3.13.18 - 7min

Bedroom: short summary of where I've been, "mental hospital" google doc, updates...

3.30.18 - 12 min

Bedroom: new wall, basically a drunk vlog, very delusional and out of sorts, k-pop ate me alive, being on spring break, talking about how I used to listen to music in middle school...

4.14.18 - 20min

Bedroom: all time low poster, talking about my date night, self-care tips and tricks talk...

4.25.18 - 12min

Treehouse: self-harm coping mechanisms, low quality stream I apologize...

4.27.18 - 20min

Bedroom: Patrick Stump's birthday, talking about the clique and the twenty one pilots comeback, dema theories...

5.3.18

Bedroom: with the bebe

6.14.18 

Park: talking to you after getting off of work

6.21.18

Kitchen: sick, chicken noodle soup, talking about IDKHBTFM and fall out boy

6.22.18

Aunt’s House: my sister in the background, pray for the wicked reaction, just a lot of fun idk

6.23.18

Kitchen: teaching you how to make cilantro lime rice!

6.27.18

Kitchen: ok honestly i forget what this is sorry

7.11.18

Bedroom: twenty one pilots is back bitch