#(and i'd rather be safe than sorry yk)

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

So I (25afab, with autism and adhd [sorry if redundant it felt needed]) am 5'7" and 160lbs and have issues with remembering to eat leftovers and have a small appetite bc of my meds so I keep some easy snacks around to eat instead of a meal (usually breakfast).

Crackers with cheese and Greek yogurt are the healthy snacks; single serving pringles and cheezits are the unhealthy ones. I will eat one of the healthy ones and one of the unhealthy ones. (I don't know if it's relevant info but these are less than 300 calorie ordeals)

I'm still eating 1-2 meals outside of the snacks. If my husband is working it's one, if he isn't it's two. I'm not gaining or losing weight nor am I just eating them because I'm bored.

I'm usually only hungry between doses of my medication (for example right after waking up I'm ravenous). On days he does work this isnt a problem because then I can just eat my snacks, walk the dog and go about my day; but on days he doesn't is the issue.

It has happend a few times that I've woken up at 8-9am eaten one of my "breakfasts" and walked the dog. Then my husband and I make food at 10-11am and he gets frustrated at me for not being hungry(I take the medication that messes with my appitite at 10am 2pm and 6pm every day). I will eat about half of my food, put it in the fridge for later and then forget about it because it is a never ending cycle with me forgetting.

So AITA for forgetting breakfast/lunch/brunch making with my husband multiple times and forgetting leftovers and for having a small appetite?

(I understand if I am, if you have any solutions I am very open to them)

What are these acronyms?

[lains-reality]

hey lain! im so sorry if this post is long asf but i just spent like 25+ minutes reading your posts and replies to anons. i (well ego, actually) has spent every day since she learned about non-dualism seeking something that would "click." she was desperately trying to find what she needed to do to realize self, because as much as she told herself in her mind that she understands non-dualism, she really wasn't understanding. so anyway, she basically just had this feeling of "i'm done trying. this is exhausting and i'm so damn tired of this. there's nothing to try. the fact that i desire things and want to understand things etc., is all irrelevant." so with that, she started scrolling thru your posts, reading them fully rather than skimming them (she's lazy and doesn't like reading all the way, she always just skimmed long posts💀💀)

she just wanted the most simplest understanding on what to do and now she knows that it's literally just to stop identifying with ego. so i, my actual self, literally does not need to ask questions. i do not wonder what to do, all thoughts of "what do i have to fix" is ego. i do not have to convince ego that i am not her because... she isn't real and self doesn't think anyway, so anytime i have one of those exhausting mind battles where i think i'm telling ego that everything is fake and an illusion, i just need to remember that both of those thoughts are literally the ego. so feeling like i need to read more information, or i need to convince myself of something, will always be the ego, not ME. ALL THAT I NEED TO DO IS NOT IDENTIFY WITH EGO.

and let me tell you, i paused reading for a sec to "test it" (not necessarily testing anything but i was just getting into the feeling of not identifying) and i genuinely felt the difference. like i felt what i was supposed to, the freedom and desirelessness yk? every thought in my mind, every feeling i had, any desire i was thinking about "getting" i just said quietly said in my head, not me. that's all ego. and i didn't bother convincing or reassuring myself like "see its just ego so relax, okay i don't need to worry. i'm not ego! remember that!" because the only thing that ever needs reassurance is ego, and reassuring her is identifying with her. i didn't bother trying to "believe" anything because i knew anything further was ego. and if i am not ego, it is absolutely pointless to do anything more than just observe the thoughts and let it pass. i'd be holding my own self back from freedom by doing anything more than observing and letting it pass.

basically i just wanted to share that, because i got this giddy and relieving feeling because i know exactly what i need to do. it's not even something i "need to do", it's not a process, it's just a simple look at anything that makes me feel not free or like i'm desiring and thinking "not me, just ego." and moving on! i already feel less stressed because i'm not trying to achieve desires, i don't feel desire, ego does, but i'm not her so i don't have to fix it or remove the desire, i just let it pass on. i feel so relaxed now and just empty (in a good way. i'm emptied of hopelessness, desire, confusion) the "click" ego wanted so bad is basically this. and its so SIMPLE. i know that the habit of identifying is still kinda there for me though, but understanding the simplicity of this now and not feeling the need to search for "what to do" is gonna make it so easy to break the habit once and for all. thank you so much for your posts lain sincerely. i might delete tumblr to avoid the ego's habit of mindlessly opening the app and scrolling for hours cuz she thinks she needs to find the secret krabby patty formula to realizing self but at the same time your page brings such a comforting and safe feeling that i love 💙💙💙

i'm so glad you understand! it's good that you finally practised, you can read everything and get nowhere if you don't take the leap ♡

keep going!

[ayayabaroque]

Tears, Laughter, Sorrow.

corny, pero wla ako mapost e wla akong no choice last march pa 'to sa drafts CW: Angst? mostly none, corny writing, i hate writing esp since i cant think of anything good/this is why i dont post anymore ffs Spoilers for Lantern Rite '23, not sure if i mention anything but yk its just to be safe A/N: i love school, but i went from rank 1 to rank 3 and i absolutely hate everything and everyone im going to cry sorry for not posting anything recently(and ever), and as usual, English isn't my first language, so please don't have any high hopes for this piece. I might go back to completing the Slowly series but im not feeling well since i last went on here to write a serious fic Read utc!

*:･ﾟ✧ Zhongli *:･ﾟ✧ "Would you live to see Liyue's downfall, or always relive the one most painful moment you have felt in your lifetime?" You pause, thinking on an answer to your friend's question. "The latter. Liyue's downfall won't happen for another thousand years, I doubt that any of you would be attending my funeral any time soon." Your friend tears up at the thought. "Right... yeah probably right." "I'm kidding of course! An endless time loop would keep me stressed, I'd rather have you by my side." ... "I'm... relieved? Hey listen, it's getting late, you should be getting home. I'll see you tomorrow." It was unlikely for your friend to suggest to leave this early, but you don't mind, as long as you see them again tomorrow. Then again, it was too tiring to walk home just right now, maybe you could walk around the harbor, after all, you and your friend have been playing by the docks all day, without anything better to do. "I should be getting home back to Zhongli." you mutter. Although cold, the air in Liyue would always smell of various floral scents, specifically the Glaze Lily. You hated Glaze Lilies. There wasn't one word in the dictionary that could describe how much you loathe these cyan-petal, night-blooming lilies as much as you possibly could. Well, truth be told, you hated the person Zhongli associates with these blooms, and it drives you insane. Guizhong, Zhongli's late friend before the Archon War, used to be so close to him. He would return late from his ventures with his friend in tow that he forgets to come home to you every single time. You couldn't really argue with the reasoning he has, since he is more of your superior rather than a lover. It's been so long since he spent time with you without reminiscing about Guizhong, probably a little over your 429th birthday. Oh yeah, did I forget to mention you were old? The more Zhongli leaves you to mourn Guizhong's day of death on your day of birth, you resort to laughter every time he comes home instead. The false joy of seeing him return home after a mournful day which he marks Guizhong's passing, your laughter behind the façade you show for your lover. "How's Guizhong been? Any response yet?" you muse. "I prefer you not adding salt to my wound." "Oh yeah, you guys ended on rather good terms, it would be a shame if I were to slander her in front of her good friend." The statement always seems to make Zhongli seethe with fury, and it looks like he's had enough of your insults and remarks. "A true shame you did not get to know her, or were you busy burning away your lifetime serving false gods?" "You know well better than to bring my past stature into this conversation." It pains you to think about your past, when your parents sold you off to a minor god for wealth, leaving you to rot in the god's hands. "I'm tired, I do not wish to make this into a heated argument. Go to bed." ... "I honestly wish it was you instead of Guizhong, I miss her dearly." That was what made this memory painful, it was what made you cry in the eve, and sob in the morn. In the end, when you were asked the same question years ago, immortality seemed like a dream, now turned into a living nightmare. You only wish to awake from this horrible dream, again, and again, and again. "So... Would you live to see Liyue's downfall, or always relive the one most painful moment you have felt in your lifetime?" The question that would mark another day of the loop, spent in misery and sorrow. The days you've spent celebrating your birth over, and over again. "Happy 7,329th birthday, to me."

[dainty-fingertips]

Okay I have a weird idea, tssm sinister six All fighting for the affection of y/n, who's there to fix their broken tech and be an in house engineer.

I AM A SUCKERRRRRRR FOR THE WHOLE WE-ALL-LIVE-TOGETHER TROPE (thanks to my creepypasta phase in middle school) SO THIS IS AMAZING THANK YOUUUU HEHEHE

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(tumblr gif makers, y'all need to make some tssm sinister 6 gifs fr)

being a resident technician/engineer for the sinister six hcs

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Shocker/Montana would be very... open about his "little" crush on you

"Alright, sugar. I know you're gettin' tired. Why not take a rest with me?" And a wink (bro come on PLEASE)

You laugh at most of his advances because you find them silly and charming, but Montana is internally sobbing

It's very funny to listen to him get interrupted by whoever is within earshot because they all wish they had his confidence but none of them want to be like him

Sandman/Flink Marko is most frequently the one to run in and yell at him

"Hey, cowboy! Leave da girl alone!" and he'd bonk him over the head

and then he would immediately start asking if he could help

he is only polite when it comes to you

"you uhhh... want me ta hold that for ya?"

"Oh, sure. Thanks, Flint!"

sobbing cryig PLEASE HE JUST WANTS TO HOLD YOUR HAND

along with doing suit upgrades and repairs, you also work around the base repairing electronics and other unspecified repairables

very often, Rhino/Alex O'Hirn will struggle with the smaller things like microwave settings and computer keyboards and cellphones and tv remotes an

he asks for help a lot exclusively from you (he is very obvious)

he probably breaks things just to go talk to you because he doesn't know how to properly strike up a convo with this person he has such a crush on

"..........Yn? I think da remote's gooked up again..........."

"[sigh] bring it here, Alex."

Electro/Max Dillon is where things get a little funny, though

he is a being of pure electricity, he has no real 'physical form'

(eighth grade me had a fat crush on tssm electro dhmu)

but wearing the insulator suit, he's able to actually participate in day-to-day activities

like dropping hints to his oblivious electrician

I like to think they spend a bit of time together because, yk,,, electro

and through all of these, he always admires her whenever she patches up something after he accidentally shorts it out

she's never upset with him, but she's firm enough to be respected

"I'll wear the gloves next time, I'm sorry. I'd rather have you on my hands, though. ;)"

"I won't always be here to help you make food! Why depend on me??"

"wait what"

he literally is completely and totally smitten I'm sorry but this man wants nothing more than to give you a kiss

it's very difficult to, however (for obvious reasons) and so he lives in constant torment

Vulture/Adrian Toomes would quickly come in and laugh at him for blowing up the microwave

"Now, dear, don't waste your time with this dolt. I require your help."

",,,,,,let me order a replacement and I'll be right there, doctor"

I think he began to have a crush on you when he realized you actually respected him

Otto is the only one that treats him like an actual retired doctor, but now this charming young lady does too?

You make him feel so young <:) your positivity is quick to spread to this grumpy old man

You often are asked to help Doc Ock/Otto Octavius with work on his actuators

You're no nuclear scientist, but he's always happy to explain to you anything you ask him about

You have been taught things by him that have never left the walls of MIT before (knowledge is power)

"Initially, these were created for the handling of radioactive materials from a safe distance. They've proven useful for many other things as well. Like felonies."

"Though I can't condone, I understand."

He LOOOOVES how respectful and kind you are

ong mans has been starved of that for like 20 years

you remind him of his humanity

He literally will just grab you with the actuators and pull you to his lab if you aren't working

no one else says a word he is the one lawmaker in his house

they all literally know the rest of them like you too but I'm getting like sitcom vibes from this and I am obsessed with it

[fuckmyskywalker]

YOU JUSY REMIDNEDD ME IF ANITHER CONTRVERISLA HEHE

i block people if fi even suspect they're a minor bc of the way they talk nd type yk even if they aren't i'd rather be safe than sorry bc they cb lie abt rheif age ughhhh

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I love you but what is that typing babe

[pkmntrainertrix]

You make it home safe?

Also i doubt you intend to but better safe than sorry, DO NOT MENTION MY NAME TO YOUR FAMILY!!! im elsewhere in unova and I'd rather not make a scene right now yk?

Have a wonderful day!

I decided to stay at my cousins for the night BUT! I’m heading home now! Also, yeah i wasn’t going to don’t worrryy :] my dad would go freak mode if he knew so he’s never going to <3 have a nice day Clara!

[iced-coffeebean]

Ooh no worries, I gotcha

So, What exactly caused him to be a Kaiser of Darkness? 👁👁

I'm not gonna lie, I have it somewhere in one of my chats but I can't find it right.

I told a break from YGO in like November?? And I've been snorting lines of Hetalia (again) till like a week or so ago? Now I'm in both fandoms at the same time.

So I might have forgotten or I might fuck up the details but this is what I remember:

(Sorry for any and all grammar or spelling errors 😭😭)

Season 4, you have Trueman/Mr. T. He wants an easy way out. Rather than personally going after Jaden himself, he thinks he should instead send one of the strongest duelists in the Academy after him to make things easier if possible.

Zane was the king of all these peeps and his deck was incredibly difficult for people like Jaden to even beat considering he tied with him. Since Zane handed down the Cyber deck to Syrus, he decided to target Syrus.

Syrus... Poor poor little Syrus.

HIS WEAKNESS TBH IS HIS LOYALTY TO PEOPLE. IF HE CARES ABOUT YOU, HE IS WILLING TO DIE FOR YOU.

He's trying so hard to reconnect with Zane that he's willing to do anything to make sure he's safe and okay. Trueman and Darkness take note of this and decide that if he does what they say, they will make sure nothing happens to him. But he if he says no, they would do something to him.

So, he joins their side and is pit against Jaden. And they especially find this wonderful since Jaden and Syrus are like VERY CLOSE FRIENDS. Like LITERALLY THEY JUST HAD THEIR MOMENT IN PRIOR EPISODES (The whole pep talk yk before the Makoto duel)

So they find this GREAT because Jaden would NEVER hurt a friend, let alone someone as close to him as Syrus is. And it would be kind of painful for him cause he practically helped shape Syrus into the person he is, so seeing him stray into a different path like this would make him LOSE HIS SHIT.

In this AU, rather than Sorona, taking out the other students and sending them to that one hell hole (you know what I mean, the place where they were all living their personal hells and stuff), it's Syrus

I'm also basing this off a mostly dub/not original translation, where in the all the dubs (basically any lang vers of the show that isn't the OG Japanese version) you have Season 3 going on. Dark World stuff. Syrus is like dreaming in that cave and shit. Jaden in the dream says something along the lines of "If something happened to you, I'd probably act out even WORSE-" (referencing to Jesse getting taken away and becoming evil)

So I'd think when they met up in Season 4 in this AU, Syrus would be like "You said you'd do ANYTHING to make sure nothing happens to me. Is that true?"

So during Season 4, yk where Jesse and Jaden duel Yusuke?

Think of them having a moment like that. Or a duel like that. That would be like the ULTIMATE moment.

SOMETHING LIKE THAT

I SWEAR THIS MAKES SENSE TO ME I SWEAR

I'd imagine that if Syrus hesitates to do the orders he's told to do, he gets like nightmares or mental thought flashes (?) about bad things happening to Zane, to make sure he doesn't flake out.

IM SO SORRY IF THIS DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE I SWEAR IT DOES TO ME 😭😭😭

[catgirlwarrior]

hey, if anyone who sees this makes moodboards, could you tell me where i could find good royalty-free stuff for them?

[daenerys-targaryen]

Hope you stay safe Leah!

Thanks! Mostly just seems like freezing rain and the possibility of snow, I've already mentioned it to my manager so that if it gets too bad, we won't be driving in it at least.

[starsistertarot]

Hey I saw your account on the explore page and I love the content!! Can you do a request about the GOM, Kuroko, Kagami, Takao being with a s/o that serves in the military and what branch the s/o serves in? I hope this isn’t too much and I totes understand if you don’t answer my request. Have a good day! <3

Thank you so much my lovely, it means a lot when someone enjoys my simp posts ❤

And a headsup to anyone who stumbles across this: I am not familiar with the military (at all), so you can read these with any branch of your choice really lmao-

WARNING: Aomine, Kise and Akashi have more upsetting headcanons- I don't know if that's triggering for someone, but I'd rather be safe than sorry, so avoid them if you're not in the mindset for angst ♡

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Headcanons on how the GOM, Kuroko, Kagami and Takao deals with a S/O that serves in the military.

(Written as if this was S/Os choice. Whether it is obligatory or voluntary, they still wanted to enlist)

Kagami

When you told him that you got accepted, he felt conflicted. He was happy for you, but he was also kind of bummed out.

He'd word-vomit on how much he's going to miss you. He feels awkward about it afterwards, but it's honestly so cute-

So the day before you left, he couldn't sleep. He'd stare at the ceiling all night. But after that, he'd go from a light sleeper to normal again.

He would hug you as if it was the last time he'll ever see you. SO *TIGHT*. The hug would literally make you feel butterflies by how much love is embracing you right now.

Hed be quite distracted the first weeks, as he keeps thinking about your well-being a lot. Examples: Oh I hope they make lots of friends/I hope the food tastes good/I hope they get enough sleep---

Eventually he's normal Kagami again. He is proud and happy for you. He just *knows* that you'd wait for him/allow him to follow his dreams too.

If you had to go off on a dangerous mission, he'd be worried sick about you but also "my s/o is gonna kick everyone's ass"-----

No but seriously he would be pretty worried, but he just knows you're going to be okay.

Kuroko

"That's great, Y/N. I'm so happy for you" *pats your head with a soft smile* OK but he would genuinely be so happy for you, if this is something you've been wanting-

He would be sad to see you go, but he finds your happiness to be more important than his selfish wants and needs.

The night before was fine, the day after you leave will be chaotic. He would lay awake thinking about you and how you're going to adapt- (cute)

His hug will only get stronger the more he realise it will be the last time he hugs you for a while. He'd send you off with a *proud smile but teary eyed*

He is honestly fine the entire time you're gone, once you finally give him an update on your first week there, he'd relax (He'd be more concerned if you hated it though).

I can see his friends comment on how it's weird how calm he is;;; But as said, once he knows you're okay- He has nothing to worry about since he is extremely proud of you.

If you were going off on a dangerous mission, his inner panic button will be *smashed* and he'd physically shake. His friends would have to calm him down, and he honestly needs time to digest-

He'd eventually calm down a bit, but he would be uncharacteristically nervous for a while until he knows you're safe again.

Aomine

OK no but why would the first thing this grumpy bitch says to you is a spicy comment on how hot you'd look in a military uniform-

It's a mix of "thats cool" and him being grumpy that you're leaving him.

If you sleep in bed together, he would definitely notice his personal bodypillow is gone. (He's grumpy because he can't force you into involuntary nap times anymore)

His goodbye hug would honestly be him hugging you *so tight* while pretending to be lowkey about it, and then tear up in the car on his way home. (My boy-) He secretly doesn't want you to worry about him yk-

He is fine the first couple of days, but progressively becomes more of a mess as time goes on.

I think the long-term loneliness is going to fuck him up a bit because of his depression- Just because he's gotten used to being around someone a lot.

If you were going on a dangerous mission, I'd feel he'd be a mix of seeing red and being extremely worried/sad and kind of takes his aggression out on others by being even *grumpier* than usual (my poor baby)

Honestly I believe he'd be a bit of a mess, until he knows you're okay.

Kise

I know Kise tends to be the hyper peacock, (with a darker personality ofc) but in my *personal headcanon* ... which this is; he would strip that part of him completely. He'd look at you with that sad smile, because he secretly hoped you wouldn't get accepted.

And no, it's not because he's a bad boyfriend. He knows that you can either be completely fine or you could risk a lot or even everything. And he knows thats selfish of him, but he cares too much to care if he is-

He'd struggle to sleep the day before and many days after. He just can't stop worrying about you.

His goodbye-hug would involve a lot of tears. He'd hug you till the last possible second and continues to cry as he feels your warmth turn cold.

Would be a mess the first weeks. His *peacock spark* is kind of dead, and he'd stare off into space a lot.

Would eventually get better as time went on, especially if he knows you're doing fine and enjoy it. Still misses you a lot though ♡

If you were going on a dangerous mission, he wouldn't regret his original feelings about how he wanted them to reject you. He doesn't care at that point if you'd get mad at him for even thinking that very thought. He just wants you to be safe *with him*.

Is honestly extremely upset and kinda mad for an unknown amount of time time, even after you make it back. He wishes that he could go back in time and never let you enlist in the first place.

Midorima

Great, the tsundere- No but in all honesty I think he's fine with it. He won't stop you or be grumpy about it but he won't express how he really feels on the situation either. *BUT DEEP DOWN HE ACTUALLY CARES AND LOVES YOU WOW*

He is genuinely proud of you for being able to enlist, and he doesn't want to diminish the situation with his feelings on the situation. (Aka he's going to miss you a lot 🤧)

I have an inkling that he will be a light sleeper for a few weeks, because in theory he's hoping that you'll be okay in a new environment (not that he's willing to admit that but okay)

His goodbye hug would be kind of awkward- It's like the realisation kicks in and his mind is mentally processing everything that's going on. And when he snaps back, you're already gone.

Overall, he'd be fine. He sees this as something you have to/want to do, and wouldn't want to be the one to stop you.

But he sometimes catches himself trying to talk to you only to realise you're not there.

If you were going on a dangerous mission however, he'd act more *annoyed and emotionally constipated* because he is constantly worried about you.

Relies on your horoscope to be good every day for him to be able to relax just a little.

Akashi

Akashi in my mind has abandonment issues- So I don't see this going very well. After all, this isn't a vacation or a business trip.

I do feel he might get a bit heated and have a *calm heated argument* on the situation. It doesn't really matter to him how much you want/need to do this, he's got tunnel vision.

A lot of nights where he is staring at the ceiling. Like a lot.

I don't know if he's petty enough to not hug you goodbye or gives you that *butterfly in your stomach* hug. (I guess it depends on how well the discussion went- If he's mad at you then lmao no. If he snapped out of his tunnel vision then yeah)

But no I think he'd spiral down into hell the first weeks. Where he feels like what happened to his mother is going to happen to you too. He will pretend to be fine on the outside, but his mind is a tornado.

He gets calmer, as time goes on. He tries to latch on to any false sense of security that you're going to be just fine.

But that gets thrown out the window if you're doing something dangerous though. His tornado is stronger than ever, and I'm convinced he'd try and do everything in his *Akashi powers* to get you out of that situation.

Overall, he'd be scared every day for previously mentioned reasons, that what happened to his mom will happen to you.

Murasakibara

*headpat*, very proud of you. Honestly he would be kind of impressed. Since in his lazy nature, anything that is active must be really impressive---

He might be a bit of a sulky baby because he won't get to see you whenever he wants, but he will be fine as long as you reassure him it's temporary.

His sleep is mostly undisturbed because I don't.. see him as an overthinker.

His hug would be snuggly and cute though, he'd see you off with a soft smile and a "Good luck" and a headpat- because you're so damn cute-

I don't think he fully understands the severity being in the military- It's either going to be peaceful or it might end up being dangerous- But he's not really worried.

Would be pretty much unbothered the entire time, mostly sulky because he misses your cuddles and your occasional cafe dates though.

If you were going on a dangerous mission ... He might have a similar reaction to Kagami? Like "I'm not worried because my S/O is a tough cookie", I think panicked reactions are saved for *actual emergencies*.

Overall, he'd be the most unbothered out of them, as he doesn't allow the situation eat at his concious. "They'll be back soon enough" mentality.

Takao (My first love 🥸🤌)

Okay but I think he would react two ways; Externally he would celebrate with you, full on party party with confetti- but internally he'd be a bit upset about the fact you're leaving him

He would be so honest about how he felt, because he needs you to know that: even if it hurts him to see you go, he is happy that you're doing something you want.

He'd probably toss and turn the very first night's, but the more accustomed he is, the better he sleeps.

His hug would be so *emotional*, he's crying, you're crying, but he's also grinning like an idiot because he loves you and he's happy for you-

He would be fine the first weeks, he'd manage to distract himself with different activities and friends

But will slowly start missing you, *like a lot*. He'd start feeling the loneliness lurking in the corner, but he promises himself that he'll be fine.

If you're going on a dangerous mission, he'd probably pace back and forth a lot- Like he can't stand still. He'd take that opportunity to rant about his concerns to his friends, and allow himself to cry when he's alone, instead of bottling up his emotions.

He would worry for your safety, but he also has a feeling in his gut that nothing bad is going to happen. (Bonus; Midorima probably got him hooked on his horoscope show that he'd check in on your luck in times of need-)

[stargaze-issei]

— "𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐞" (𝐛. 𝐤𝐚𝐭𝐬𝐮𝐤𝐢 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫)

𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭; when your father, the head of the japanese mafia, was killed, your childhood friend swore to protect you till his death. now, you're the empress of the underground world, and he doesn't know what's harder, to keep you safe or manage to hide his feelings. what will he do when, for the first time, your life's at risk and he isn't anywhere near?

𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞; mafia!au, angst.

𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬; swearing, mentions of blood, guns, murder, kidnap, yk... mafia stuff.

𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭; 2.7k

𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞; lemme know if u want a part two bc i felt like it was getting too long and i don't know if anyone will read it or like it 👉🏻👈🏻

"where the fuck are you?" bakugou's voice stroke over the phone, noticeably angry. he had told you several times to never go anywhere without him, which you mostly did, if it weren't for him being away a lot of times. nothing less was expected from your right hand, who handled every dirty job, and considering your line of work, it wasn't scarce. but you did had other bodyguards, just as trained as katsuki, willing to give their lifes for you, which was extremely better than having bakugou giving his life.

to his eyes, you were still the little girl from before. he saw you as a someone who needed protection. at first, you agreed. your father was murdered, someone managed to get through all his security and killed him, none of the guns he and his security team carried around could protect him, killing you would be like stealing a sweet from a baby. bakugou had always kept you safe, despite his agressive usual safe, he cared about you more than he cared for himself. so you stuck to his side, believing, hoping, he'd die for you. but that was a long time ago, now, you could defend yourself, and had raised a sense of loyalty in your people by your own. your father's empire was based in fear, yours? by admiration. you didn't see your people as working ants, but as important parts of a whole. still, anyone who was a threat to you, bakugou made sure to erase them forever.

"don't talk to me like that, i'm your boss" you could feel him losing his shit, a smile began to form in your face. even when everyone respected you, he was still the same.

"you can't boss anyone if you're fucking dead, you dumb shit" a laugh came out of your throat, he couldn't avoid smiling at the sound "wait, oh, okay, i know we're you are. stay there, i'll be in three" he hung up before you could reply.

you looked back, at one of your guards who was just putting away his phone. of course they told him. why couldn't you go get your own coffee? being in the office all day was tiring, to be five minutes outside was all you asked for. a few seconds after, they handed you your coffee, obviously, a guard had to try it first, in case that barista wanted to suddenly murder you. of course he didn't.

"who let her go outside without me knowing, huh?" a furious katsuki appeared through the door, making a scene in the place. you gave him a warning look. if there was something you hated, was that. everyone in the area knew who you were, but why make it any more obvious. those people were just living their usual lifes, and people tend to get nervous around you. "the car is waiting outside" he understood, but you knew he was going to scold you anyways.

you walked outside, smiling, and got into the car, followed by katsuki and one of his subordinates, the other one got in the front sit, next to the driver.

"save it, i'm n–"

"the fuck you are" he cut you "your safety is my responsibility, if i say you can't go out without me, then you fucking don't. specially not when there are people after your head" there was no denying he was right, but still, it upset you.

"there's always people after my head, bakugou".

two weeks ago, two men went into your office. they were in charge of some dealing territories, though small, important. most contraband had to pass those places, you controlled those police departments making everything easier to your truck drivers. they were beaten, cover in blood and barely standing.

"our men, all of them... they all..." only one of them could talk, the other being too shocked to even look at you. "kazuhito's men, it was them... they said we had to tell you, they're coming after you" you couldn't show any fear in front of your so called soldiers, and your template remained at ease. a shout was enough to get those men the help they needed, after holding their hands, you promised to go see them once they were checked by doctors. you called bakugou as soon as they left, he was the first who should know and help you decide what to do next.

the kazuhito family had always been rivals, enemies of the worst kind. everyone suspect they were behind your father's assassination, but with no proof, even you knew it would be the biggest mistake to charge against them, despite your personal desires.

"i already told the drivers they had to take rout b for a while, but we can't let them just keep what's our" you explained to katsuki once he arrived. "those drugs have to get in town by us, damnit". it was clear how frustrated you were, those assholes had mess with your and your father's hardwork.

"if we retaliate, a war will unchain. your father tried to avoid that for years"

"and see how he ended up" bakugou didn't know if it was the anger, or you talking. "we will lose everyone's respect if we don't do something, they killed dozens of our people, katsuki".

he was trying hard to stay objective in that situation, but it was near impossible. a war would put you in more danger than ever, your life was at stake, and bakugou wasn't sure if he was willing to risk it. growing up by your side, your father taking him in when his parents died, you were his only family. more than that, he loved you. the only reason he was able to do his job right, was the fear of losing you. your head was already valued in millions, how could he protect you in the middle of a conflict, that would end only with your death or the kazuhito's leader's death? your power was bigger than theirs by little, but they did something that reckless, which meant they thought they had out powered you. had they? or were they just bluffing? had they miscalculated?.

"we're taking action, wether you support me or not" you looked into each other's eyes, you knew him enough to understand his fear, just not the reason behind it. your voice softened "but i'd much rather do it with you by my side".

"you're the boss" he spoke, already regretting it "i'll schedule a meeting so the high charges let everyone else know, i'm staying at your place so we can trace a plan".

and there you were now, being reprimanded by bakugou. he was extremely tired, he decided to stay with you until things were calmer, which could be several months from then. getting up at six a.m, going to sleep past midnight, being always looking for possible threats, it had given him bags under his eyes.

"i'm sorry" you said once you were alone with him, it was only then that you could let your guard down "i'm making this harder for you".

"yeah, you are. but it's my job, after all" that came out wrong, he thought. it wasn't his job, it was his fucking life purpose. he wanted you to live a long, happy life, as hard as it seemed.

"i guess it is" deep down, his response disappointed you.

"hey, look at me" out of nowhere, his body was insanely close to yours, you felt his breath in your face as he lifted your chin with his finger "there's nothing i wouldn't do for you, got that, dumbass?"

for a brief moment, the taste of his lips was all you could think about. i bet they're soft. but as fast as it started, it was over, katsuki pulled away harshly, inventing an excuse to leave. he had flown too close to the sun, so close that it burned his skin.

a few more people went to see you that day, asking for diverse permissions, advice and stuff like that. since it had been slow, compared to other times, you decided to home early. a call to your team, and the car was already outside. bakugou left instructions for your departure, because he had things to do somewhere else, much to his displeasure. you were accompanied by your escorts to the doors of the building, that seemed like a normal office compound. there were waiting two other guards, making a total of six people protecting you. way to go, bakugou.

"how's your wife, ryota?" you asked the driver. of course, not everyone fitted in the same car, so you got into the second one, middle seat, between a built up woman and a big man. you tried to remember everyone's name, but it was difficult.

"she's good, ma'am, sends her regards" he smiled at you over the mirror.

"and the baby? he must be a month old, right?" at the memory of his child, his face lightened "you should take some days off, i bet your wife and son miss you"

"i have a duty with you, m–" a loud impact interrupted him, the front glass had exploded. the car had an abrupt movement back and forward, all you could see was blood, everywhere.

the woman next to you took her gun out, in order to protect you , you thought, completely wrong. before everyone could react to her act, she shot the guard in front of you.  you looked at your side, searching for someone alive, the same bullet that had killed ryota was in the guard's at your right forehead. besides you , the only other person was that woman. if she hadn't glasses on, that stare could've seen throughout your soul. then you remembered, katsuki made you bare with a knife under your sleeve. with a weird move, you felt its sharpness against your skin, it was there, but she read you like a book. before you could even pull it out, another shot stroke followed by a intense pain in you thight. the bitch had shot you. you blamed it on the adrenaline, because nothing hurt. what happened after was a couple of blurry images in your memory.

bakugou had called you more than a hundred times, you, the drivers, the guards, everyone in his fucking team, but no one knew anything. the cameras at your house never showed you arriving, your phone's location was off. he was out of his head, if he didn't hear from you in the next five minutes, someone's going to die. he rushed into his car, following your rout at a dangerous speed. 

both cars were full of bullet holes, and every guard he had hired was dead. there wasn't a place without blood. tears of pure rage came to his eyes, fuck, it was his fault. he started to look for you, but the whole world was spinning around him. where were you? where was your body? were you alive?, this couldn't be happening. he had left you unprotected, alone, and now you could be dead, because of his uselessness. his phone vibrated in his pocket.

"sir, we– we have– the kazuhito's are here" he left as fast as he came. they had touch you, they had taken you away from him, and he wasn't going to let them get away with it, even if he had to go against a whole army, whoever was behind it all was going to pay.

a man in a suit was sitting in the chair of your office, smoking a cigarette, as calm as a rock. katsuki was so close to rip his head of right there, that somebody had to hold him down. his own people updated him, saying that he had gone into the building alone, with no weapons of any kind, not even a cellphone.

"where the fuck is she?" he crashed his hand against the desk.

"ah, mr. bakugou, please take a se–"

"tell me where she is right now if you want to keep your head, fucking bastard" his hand had wondered to the tip of the gun in his belt, menacing to blow up at any second.

"you won't do that, mr., if i don't return to my people in one hour, she'll be so fucked up that not even you will recognize her" a laugh surge grom bakugou, a dark, cold laugh.

"i don't have to kill you, then" one of the man's hand rested in the desk, like asking for katsuki to rip it off his body. as you did, he also carried knifes under his shirt. in less than a second, one of them was buried into the man's hand. he screamed, both in shock and pain, giving your bodyguard a hatred look. "what do you want, shitface?"

"i-it's quite simple, actually" his face was white as paper, and even though he wanted to talk normally, his voice shivered "we want you to take over the y/l/n's business, under our command of course" he let out a sigh, trying to keep his composure and ignoring his bleeding hand "if you– if you agree, she will have to leave japan and never..."

bakugou won't agree to that. not now and not ever. to give away what you and your father built from scratch, and spent decades keeping safe, was like killing your child, and your father's memory. to send you away, alone, where he most likely won't see you again in years, was also off the table. it wasn't funny anymore. he started walking around the man's chair, picking up his sleeves. he checked the clock in the office, he had forty-five minutes with the man, meaning, forty-five minutes to make him talk. he ressourced to every fast interrogation method he knew. the people outside the door weren't surprised when they heard the man's screams, even wondering what had taken so long for the boss to start acting. katsuki was never a patient man. his senses were blocked, he couldn't hear anything but screams and begging, all his eyes could see was pain through all the man's body, his hands felt nothing but warm blood. but for the first time in a while, he wasn't enjoying it. he was doing it out of need, the need to save you. every minute that went by, was a minute were your life risked. he never felt so close to losing his sanity.

"outside the city! she's in one of our safe houses outside the city! i don't know which, please stop!" ten minutes before the timeline he finally gave up. your intelligence had all their safe houses, storages, garages, every location needed. not a second passed when one of yours men delivered a map with all the points marked. there were five in total.

"throw him outside in ten minutes" he shouted, walking to the armory "two teams, six people each, my fucking people, hear me? now, dammit! we're leaving in a minute, if i have to go by my fucking self, i'll do it"

when he was armed to the teeth, almost a dozen of people followed him outside. they were his most trusted men and women, being trained together, he knew they were as skilled as him, and they were all willing to put their life's at stake for you, their boss. in the car, bakugou barked the instructions. he had narrowed it down to two possible locations with all the information he had. if they had to kill every person in those places, then be it. he's going to get you back.

[hematomes]

Yeah, and I'm honestly very worried about that..

I have also heard about the Xiao situation and I think the same kinda happened with Kazuha? I do remember seeing some posts about people sending horrible stuff to those who obtained him but not as bad as Xiao.

I just hope people won't lose their minds but I know a lot are probably gonna lose it, unfortunately. I know a LOOOOT of people love Scaramouche and don't get me wrong, I like him a lot as well, I think he is a very interesting character but I'm scared of what people are gonna do.

If he doesn't come out and it's maybe the same with the whole Signora thing or he just disappears or literally anything, people are gonna be extremely upset and if he does come out, I'm worried about the people that will get him, I just hope they don't receive horrible threats and so much more.

Co-Op is gonna be hell for sure, I'll just be quietly watching what will happen, let's hope the fandom won't go crazy and do anything stupid..

Sorry if this came out as rude or anything, feel free to rant about anything that is on your mind.

Have a wonderful day. ❤️

yeah kazuha received a lot of hate from the 'meta slaves' (almost everyone regretted skipping him afterwards tho lmao) and kazuha havers were resented by those who lost the 50/50 and stuff. i myself received some rather spicy anon asks but i tend to just block and delete without a thought so yk zkdkzk

i wanted to keep the ramble to a minimum but it turned out long in the end so uh utc!!

honest the community is quite uh... filled to the brim with loud, toxic people. it's still a minority, but it's really, really loud and it's hard to ignore most of the time. i love scaramouche too, his lore is insane, his charadesign is gorgeous and his japanese voice actor was the one voicing my first ever crush (natsu.... what a time) so im kinda attached to him but not to the point where i'd handwrite his name **1,200 times** or have a breakdown bc he might not fit the idealized version of him i crafted over the year. this one i genuinely don't understand, i think most of the scara fandom has kinda correctly depicted him psychology-wise, he's a villain and shit, but you have to take into account that if he's playable, it most likely means redemption act, or at least a good reason for him joining our party and stop trying to kill us (in some degree at least, bc childe still wants to fight us lmao). and just because he has some depth and nuances doesn't mean he's ruined, just that he's more human than wr thought. i like the idea of playable scaramouche bc not only will we get his lore (hopefully more than with kokomi, ngl her story content is EMPTY) but also we'll get to know the character better. for now we have snippets, bits of a man with so much potential it's kind of insane. but the thing is, when i see how they act, i feel almost ashamed lmao bc i don't want to be associated with this sort of crowd. just like the xiao mains when his banner came out, it was a shitshow and players came into my world just to insult me bc i got him day one?? like,,, i don't understand

let's hope it doesn't go downhill when/if he becomes playable!! and know that if anything ill keep this blog absolutely safe, if you wanna ramble about anything hehe

it came off as anything but rude omg don't worry i love hearing ppl's thoughts!! kinda used the opportunity to go overboard anyway- and a wonderful day to you too <333

[thestarssystem]

hello! same anon who asked the last question about being able to send an ask! i've been having questions about whether or not i could be an osdd system (1b to be specific) but i can't find answers to sone questions so i was hoping you could help me out? it's really long, sorry:(

1. the thing i have the most issues with is alters fronting. i don't exactly know how it feels to have another alter fronting and taking control of the body. there's only been a few times where i've genuinely felt like i wasn't in control of my body & felt trapped in it but other than that, whenever all my other alters(?) fronted i would still generally be able to control the body. i don't know how to explain it. for example, an alter who i think is a protector was fronting last night but besides the name and some traits, everything was pretty much still the same, like as if i was the protector? and i'm not the most knowledgeable on how osdd works, but should i be feeling atleast somewhat out of my control ?? it's happened pretty much every time an alter(?) has fronted(?) and i ended up in a really bad mood after trying to validate the possibility i might have osdd because i didn't know if this was real or if i was just being delusional. and this is kinda a silly question but when another alter fronts, thinking is still the same, right? like they can still talk in their head like a singlet would and such

2. 'voices' in your head - a lot of systems i've come across generally have the voices. i don't, atleast i don't think i do. again, i don't know how it would be if i experienced it. is it like how someone would talk to you irl? or is it more vague? or is it like, more of a feeling that you can't really 'hear' but yk it's saying that?

3. i can't exactly communicate with my alters, if i have any. i don't know how to and even then it feels really odd trying to talk to myself and again, i start to feel dumb/delusional again because osdd may not even be the case.

4. similar to the last thing, is it normal to 'talk' to your system? like last night for example, it's a blurry memory now but i remember 'we're going to bed now' 'we're gonna do this and then sleep' and such, despite the fact i know we can't really communicate. i think another alter was fronting then

4. i have trouble recognizing my alters as seperate identities and people, and rather tend to think they're pieces of me. so like, if another alter were to do something, and later i fronted, and if i would talk about what the other alter did i would still use "i did" rather than "(other alter) did". i'd just like some advice on this part

5. i have no idea whether or not systems i've met have 'different talents' but i've seen it going around a lot. to be more specific, my 'talents' or other stuff has never really changed. i usually still have social anxiety, my triggers are usually still the same, i've never suddenly gotten good at anything, and so on. is it a normal/common thing for systems for that not to happen?

6. memory. i have really bad memory, which actually led me to did/osdd (+ 8/9 year old me going "why do i feel like two people" and googling it years ago), and i always have trouble recalling what happened. after i do anything and i try to think back to it - it's just foggy. i can sometimes remember a bit of what happened, but generally i'll have to think for a bit and the visual memory of it will just be really really blurry. this happens pretty much every day but i have no idea if it does the same with important events because nothing important has really happened. and another thing - when you switch, do you still remember friends/online friends/family? i've had times where they've seemed odd(?) and somewhat unrecognizable but i've always known it's them, same with trauma and other stuff. i've always kinda known about it.

7. i've tested some things multiple times. for example, a few days or weeks ago, i was doing and typing stuff on discord in a server just for me, for fun. when i went away and checked back later, i know that it was me who did it, just not,, me, yk? like it happened with my own fingers and hands, i didn't have exact visual memories that i did it, but i had memory of doing it, so like, i knew, despite the fact another alter could've been the one doing it. same thing happened last night - now that i look back at the account i, or my alter, created, i can tell it wasn't exactly 'me', but i still had memory doing it. and it's never been like "what is this? i have zero memory of doing this" or something like that

8. i don't really have roles for my alters. well, some do. for example i think a protector (and maybe caretaker as well) was fronting last night. i just have trouble with the roles? if that makes sense. unless it comes naturally, like the protector for example, it's just kinda really hard for me to make stuff out. i also have dpdr & i dissociate and i believe that influences on how i view my identity and how i can't really make out stuff, even stuff like emotions, my opinion on something, who's fronting, etc.

9. as far as i know, systems have an 'inner world', right? i know some systems that don't, but i'm not sure if i have it and i dont know how to find out if i do

to add on, i'm kinda worried i might just be thinking i have osdd because i've been exposed(?) to it and that i might just be delusional and that i'm just making people up

lastly, would it be a good idea to try to reach out to alters? and if i should, how would i do so? thank you :D !! again, i'm really really sorry this was so long! don't stress yourself out on this please:]

- fox

DISCLAIMER: We are not trained mental health professionals! All of the information we give is coming from our own experience as a system, or from research we have done! We always recommend that, if at all possible, you speak to a therapist about OSDD/DID!

hello! thanks for you questions! i’ll do my best to answer everything haha. I’m going to section everything off in the same way you did, but there may be some overlap between questions!

1.)I’m gonna start my answer to this by saying that switching feels and looks different for every system. There is no one way to switch. What happens for us when we fully switch is the obvious dissociative feeling, and then it feels like we’re “falling” almost and then after that falling feeling, we’ve switched. With your experience you’re describing, though, it seems more like co-conscious or co-fronting. Co-conscious is typically a feeling like you’re still in full control of the body, but another alter is in the ‘passenger seat of the car’ and is giving their thoughts on what’s happening on the outside. Co-fronting is more of a feeling where you feeling like you’re half in control of your body, and another alter has half control of your body. This can be a moment (that i’ve vaguely described on my tumblr actually) of feeling like “this isn’t my hand. I’m not controlling that arm.” However, that feeling can also happen with depersonalization. To help you tell the difference, i think it could be helpful to journal when/if you get those feelings and if you “feel” different, like you could actually be another alter. —/ part b.) for my system at least, thinking is still the same, regardless of who’s fronting. I’m not sure if that’s the same for other systems, but i’ve never heard or seen anyone talking about thinking being any different, but i have heard systems discussing something i’ll address in #2

2.) so, in my experience, my system does not audibly hear each other’s voices. Some systems do, and some systems have a different form of communication. Since i can’t talk about audible voices, i’ll only talk about ‘intrusive thought’ communication, which is what we experience. For my system, we get an intrusive thought of sorts. It’s just a thought, but we can tell who it’s coming from (honestly not really sure how, it’s just a feeling. I can always tell who is telling me something) That thought is different from normal thinking though, because it doesn’t feel like it’s coming from us and it has a different... vibe?? idk i honestly can’t really think of how to explain it lmaoo. To continue my answer from part 1, alters can use something called “passive influence” which is where they ‘control’ your thoughts to get what they want. An easy example is if someone asks what you (the fronting alter) want to drink and you want to answer water, but another alter wants sprite, they can use passive influence to say that YOU want sprite, when really you don’t. That’s the only way I can really think of the act of thinking being different though haha.

3.) my system doesn’t really have the best internal communication, but that’s the case for a lot of systems, especially new ones. It takes time and determination. One of the ways i’ve seen suggested to help with internal communication is before you go to sleep, when you’re in the calm and peaceful state, just ask into your head if anyone is there and wants to talk to you. Let them knower they’re safe and that you want to talk. Keep the convo friendly and ask them about themselves (i.e their name, age, role {if they have one}, favorite color, etc)

4.) to be completely honest, it’ll just take practice to change your habit of using “i did.” I don’t know how old you are, but you went your entire life up until this point believing you were a singlet. Using “i did” is still natural for you to use as a default. Try to catch yourself as (or after) you say “i did” and try to correct yourself and overtime that habit will hopefully be broken. The same goes for not really recognizing your alters. You went your whole life thinking everything was just ‘you’ (the host) so now, when discussing OSDD, it might be hard to really pinpoint who is who. That’ll just take time though. But don’t force your alters to fit a specific mold you made for them. Everything with figure itself out eventually

5.) what you described (with different talents and different mental health issues) doesn’t happen to my system and i believe it doesn’t happen to a good portion of systems, especially OSDD systems. The only thing that really changes for my system from alter to alter is preferences, such as food, instruments (my system knows how to play 8 instruments and each alter prefers one over the other lmao), and hobbies (like reading, painting, and writing) HOWEVER, we all still can paint and play all 8 of our instruments with the same skill. Our skill level doesn’t change between alter, just our desire to do that activity (if that makes any sense lmao)

6.) problems with memory and forgetting things is not a sign of OSDD-1b. Dissociative amnesia is only a sign of OSDD-1a and DID. I think it might be helpful to keep track of your switches and see if your memory “fog” overlaps with it. If yes, then you should probably consider check out OSDD-1a or DID. If it doesn’t, my honest suggestion is to consider talking to a doctor/therapist about memory problems and short term memory loss. (also to answer your question asking if we remember online friends: yes, we always remember other people, regardless of who’s fronting)

7.) this relates back to the memory question. OSDD-1b is not characterized by forgetfulness or memory problems. With OSDD-1b, you will never have that moment of “I don’t remember doing this” unless there is a VERY specific reason (i.e. a traumatic event that needs to be hidden) It is normal, on the other hand, to know that another alter did something, rather than you, and still have memory of it.

8.) i think roles are difficult for a lot of systems. I know my system had (and still has) a little bit of trouble with roles. My biggest advice is actually something i’m following rn and that’s to not force roles. Let alters naturally choose their roles. It may take a really long time though, but that’s okay. It might help to do some research as well. Google all the different alter types and see if you can pinpoint some that fit your system (like i said though, don’t forget those roles! let them have the ultimate decision)

9.) My system doesn’t have an inner world. We have something called Aphantasia which makes it impossible to see images in our head. There are systems who don’t have an inner world, however i don’t know if there is a specific reason or not. Ive heard that meditating can help you access the inner world, as well as, once again, trying to access it before you fall asleep. However, because I can’t have an inner world, i haven’t done much research on the topic and I suggest that you try and find a method that works for you :)

closing points: When considering any type of mental health problem/ mental disorder, make sure you’re not bending the diagnostic criteria to fit you. With OSDD, there are slight differences between every system, but nothing major that would require serious bending of the criteria. At the very end, you asked if you should try and reach out to your alters. You DEFINITELY should. They’re scared and confused, just like you. I think my answer for 3.) gives a good, easy starting point for alter communication c:

I hope these answers helped, at least a little. Good luck and stay safe xx

-the stars system (written by multiple alters all at different times)

~sorry if there’s any typos~

[i-need-air]

omg hi, jsksjsdos i'm so excited idek why. anyways, hello wonderful being, just decided to participate in the match up event hihi~

[💘]

So.. my pronouns are she/her, i'm an 18 years old bisexual with a preference for guys, i'm 164cm tall, half white half japanese and i'm a libra who's also an INTP.

Physically i'd say i have a fit body, strong legs with wide hips and really tiny waist (the only thing i'm proud offf). I have black short straight hair, black thin eyes and i'm kind of pale. I hate my mouth because of my really sharp teeth and the way they often get stuck on my lips i look like a damn chihuahua. My friends also told me I had really really glossy/shiny eyes and they always think i'm crying when it's just my eyes, so now i think they're cute lmao.

Personality talking, i'm a quiet person but with an attitude, i don't really talk if i don't feel like it's needed. I like helping people and putting them before me, but if im taken advantage of be sure that i will get mad mad. I'm not close to my family and I don't have a dad, so I don't have a lot of social interactions outside of college. Even if I'm an introvert i'm always down to go to parties and get wasted, play games with people and laugh with strangers, it's pretty rare but it happens heh. Last thing I could say is that i'm really dirty minded and I rely on humor a lot, mix them and you get dirty jokes 24/7, i'm also a lil horny on the daily so better hope the one i end up with, can deal with my ass lol. I loveeee dancing and singing,music is the only escape from reality i can get. I really feel the music on a different level yk.. I feel like adding that I struggle with my mental health a lot since i'm dealing with severe depression, intrusive thoughts and IED (terrible anger issues basically) so I can get pretty messy sometimes and I tend to rely emotionally on people a lot. If I can't focus on someone else I get lost inside my own mind and go insane, you get the vibe.

I'd also prefere a hero student or young pro hero yk, not really comfy with the pro heroes older than Aizawa like All Might or Endeavor etc. I think that's all I can say 😺

Thanks for dealing with my talkative self, sorry if i said too much but heh.. love your account lots and hope you're staying safe, don't forget to drink water and sleep well!💗

I hope Hawks fits as a young pro-hero for you because I feel it so much. A libra INTP, you sound like a really cool person to be around! You'd get along with different types of people but his attitude would fit yours so well, so hear me out:

Hawks:

× Everything you said about your physical appearance, he'd find absolutely adorable, special your teeth. They're cute and please, smile more, dove 🥺

× Even if he's very playful and outgoing, he really enjoys people he can connect one to one and your introvert side fits him well. Of course, he misses out a lot because of his hero ranking but will definitely keep up with you at parties. Loves having fun and would be discovering it with you of all people! I think seeing you laugh gives him energy.

× Sing to him and he melts? Record something for when he's away. He misses you. Dancing though... he could dance but he'd rather watch you dance.

× Lmfao, you two would laugh a lot and have this underlying sexual tension because he's just as dirty. Oh, my god, if you're witty enough you'll definitely make hom blush before he grins and attempt to make you stutter. I see you guys playfully flirting with each other non-stop. Also, he will keep up with you. You know it. 😏

× He's good as an emotional support. Really knows how to read people and how to lead a conversation for you to open up and easen your burden. Hopefully you can help him too.