#(and tumblr I really don't appreciate you taking this from my queue and putting it back into my drafts)

[soaps-mohawk]

I'm going to be honest

I'm having a genuinely hard time making this post. I've been fighting with it for a couple weeks now, but I think it's time I finally make it.

I'm not having fun on this blog anymore.

It sounds bad, but honestly, it kind of is.

I think a lot of it started from the very beginning with the precedence and expectations I put on myself. I've always tried to respond to every comment I get. Even from the beginning. It's just a polite thing to do since those who leave comments took the time to write out what they think of my fic, even if it's just a keysmash. I've always felt the need to thank those who leave comments or reblog my writing or (now that tumblr has it) replied to my fics. It worked fine before because none of my fics were particularly popular. Even my most popular fic (at that time) didn't get as much attention as CRCB has. I've never had a "big blog" before, nor a fic as popular as CRCB has gotten.

It was fine at first, responding to everyone, engaging with everyone. I was riding that high of omg so many people are reading and enjoying my fic! I've never had anything quite like this before.

Now...it just feels more like a chore. I set this precedence on this blog that I respond to everyone and I know a lot of people have said that they're surprised I responded to them and to everyone, and now I'm getting why a lot of writers don't. I'm exhausted. I feel like I've just been robotically saying the same thing over and over trying to respond to people now. I used to love seeing asks in my inbox and reblogs and replies but now? All I feel is dread because I have to respond to all of those.

Turning anon off was a big help. It lessened the sheer volume of asks I was getting a day. And while I do feel bad for all of my anons who prefer to stay anons, with everything that happened (the multiple incidents) with anon that kind of started to suck the joy out of everything. That paired with the obsessive need to constantly have my inbox cleared and make sure everyone gets a response...I can understand now too why big blogs will have 200+ asks in their inbox. It's hard and it's exhausting and I'm burning out.

First it was the fic that was burning me out. Things have gone on far longer than I planned and I just wasn't prepared for this fic to go on and for a while there it was dragging. I'll admit that. If I could go back, I'd speed up a few things, but it's done, it's posted there's no going back. I kind of hoped I would have the mental capacity to upload more than once a week too, but I just couldn't. I still can't.

I've come to dread posting chapters because I know I'm going to have to reply and respond to everyone. The only thing keeping me posting is the fact that we're in the part of the story I've been excited about since the beginning and also because I keep leaving everyone on cliffhangers and I love torturing y'all with all of them.

So that being said, this is in no way to shame anyone for interacting with me, anyone leaving comments or replies or sending asks. Don't feel bad about doing it please. I appreciate all of you that have engaged with me and it really means so much to me. Honestly, earlier this year, if I didn't have this fic and everyone on this blog, I might not have made it to now. It's been a really rough year and it's still going to be into next year. It's just getting to the point where I need a break.

I've needed a break for a long time. I thought taking days off the blog would help, and it did for a couple of weeks, but now even on the days I'm supposed to be on the blog and engaging, I just find myself queueing stuff up and just being offline most of the day still.

I'm tired. That's the best reason I can give. I'm tired and burned out on life and I'm tired and burned out on this blog.

So...I think I need a break. I need to not keep responding to every single reply and reblog every chapter. I need to not force myself to answer every ask right away, no matter how much I want to. I feel bad, but I know everyone would rather have me here and enjoying the blog than forcing myself to interact to the point where I'm dreading it and just robotically repeating myself over and over with every reply and answer and comment.

I won't be pausing the fic, I won't be not uploading. I'll still be posting chapters, I just might not be interacting as much as I have been. It's just putting such a mental strain on me still, even with anon off, even with days off. And with things getting busier for me, it's going to be too much to try and deal with irl stuff and write and try to be super active on the blog. There's going to come a point where I have to sacrifice the writing or the blog and I'd rather sacrifice the blog to keep myself sane, and also to keep trying to finally get this fic done. I love this fic, don't get me wrong, but I'm just burning out.

I'm already burned out in a lot of ways.

I was planning kinktober this year but honestly I'm considering not doing it because I know interaction is going to be insane and it's going to be a lot to keep up on. Plus trying to write that many fics is hard and I'm not sure I have the ability to do it. I have a few done but now I'm just like...is that something I want to do on top of irl stuff and CRCB.

There's just no joy in it anymore. It's not anyone's fault but mine. I put the pressure on myself, I held myself to that standard for this long despite the fact I knew it was draining me. I've tried to push through when I should have prioritized myself. I feel so guilty not responding to everyone. I feel so guilty being a day or two late responding to everyone.

I want to be here and interacting and responding to things but I just can't bring myself to anymore. It's no one's fault, and this is not a drag on anyone, or an attempt to make anyone feel bad or guilty for interacting or sending asks or anything. I'm just airing out the truth and saying what I need to say because I feel like I've been so robotic and lifeless with my responses these last couple weeks and I feel like I need to explain why. It's nothing anyone has done. It's my fault. It's 100% my fault.

Things have just gotten to be too much and it's my fault for forcing myself to be so active. The social battery has dropped into the negatives. I'm not a social person. I can only handle so much interaction and I've pushed so far beyond that, that things have gotten to this point. I want to be here and I want to have fun and I want to use this as an escape but I just don't feel that way about it anymore. It's a chore for me, a job, something I feel like I have to do and it's my fault that I feel that way. It's my own standards and expectations I set on myself, and my expectations on what I think my followers want and deserve and now I feel like I've gone on too long like this that I can't change things without hurting anyone's feelings. I don't want people to think I'm ignoring them in favor of others because I know there's writers out there that do that. They only respond to a certain group and ignore others that comment and reblog. I don't want to make anyone feel like I'm doing that to them and that's now led me to here.

I'm forcing it and I'm tired.

It's been hard these last few weeks. The life has just been draining and draining continuously. The joy and the love I have for this blog and my followers and the interactions and the fic. The last anon bullshit that happened was just kind of the last nail in the coffin so to speak. The straw that broke the camel's back. Things stopped being fun. It made me feel bad (and not in the guilty way, though that was a part of it) and I'm honestly just over it. I'm over the blog, I'm over interacting, I'm over life at this point. August is a hard month for me and every year it seems to get worse and worse. A lot of it is unrelated to anything online and I was going to make a post about it but honestly I just don't want to. Those that know, know. Those that don't...it doesn't matter.

I'm getting annoyed by the blog, I'm getting annoyed every time I look in my notifications and see an ask or a reply or a comment. I'm getting annoyed by some of my followers and that's not fair to you. Everyone always talks about how nice and kind and patient I am when I'm really not. I'm not the person I present myself to be on this blog, the way I mask myself so I can present myself as being a normal, kind human being. The mask is coming off because I'm so tired I can't keep it up anymore. It's happening here and it's happening in real life. I'm tired and I'm frustrated and I'm angry at a lot of things and the last thing I want is to start taking it out on my followers. You don't deserve that, especially when it's not your fault, it's nothing any of you have done. It's all me.

It's not you, it's me.

So for the sake of not burning this whole thing to the ground, I'm going to take a break. I'm not replying to everyone, I'm not responding to every reblog, I won't reply to every ask I get right away, if at all because sometimes I just don't have anything to say in response and I need to learn that's okay. It's nothing against you. It's not aimed at anyone specifically, I'm just trying to put myself first and stop things from escalating. I need a break and I'm going to do something selfish and I'm going to take it.

Don't apologize because it's not your fault. Don't apologize because you think you might have contributed to this because you didn't. It is no one's fault but my own.

I'm the one that needs to apologize to all of you because I've just not been myself because I've been forcing myself to be someone I'm not. I've been very unfair to a lot of people over the last seven months that this blog has been active and I've held a precedent that is not sustainable in the long run and made everyone believe that I was capable of maintaining that kind of interaction when I'm not.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I've been putting everyone through this. I'm sorry I've been so detached and robotic and ingenuine. I'm sorry I led everyone to believe I'm someone I'm not. I'm sorry I've dragged this on this long that it's gotten to the point that I have to make this post.

I considered just disappearing but that wouldn't be fair to you either. I don't want to put you through that, so I'm pouring all of my thoughts out and making you read through this fucking novel of a post. If you've made it this far, then congrats I guess. Gold metals to you who bothered reading this far.

Anyway, all of that aside, I'll still be posting chapters. I'll have them scheduled and I'll probably come on and add links places to keep things current. I'll respond and reply and answer asks when I feel like it. You don't have to stop sending them, but just don't expect them to be responded to right away anymore. I'll probably still be here reblogging things I want and doing things when I feel like it.

I just need a few weeks to myself. Time I don't have to care about the blog at all and keeping up with it. Anon will remain off for the sake of keeping asshole trolls away, and also so I don't open tumblr and have 200 asks in my inbox after a week. Sorry to my anons but it's just the way it needs to be right now. Maybe once this break is over and I've dealt with irl stuff, I'll consider putting it back on. I just can't after everything I dealt with recently on anon.

It'll be the same on Ao3, for those that follow here and read there. Comments will probably sit for a while. They won't be answered right away anymore unless I get the energy to burn through them. Even then I won't try to answer them all at once like I did this last weekend.

I'll try to reblog something every day so y'all know I'm alright. I don't want y'all to panic and it's not fair to put you through that, especially those that might not see this or bother reading it. Those that follow simply for the fic and nothing else. I'm here, I'm just not...here.

This week's chapter is in the queue to be posted tomorrow as usual. Chapters will still come out as planned since I'm not stopping writing, just taking a break from the blog itself.

Thank you those of you who stuck through to the end here. I appreciate all of you so much. You have no idea. I'm sorry I let things get to this point and I'm sorry to anyone that I've gotten rude or snappy with because I couldn't be selfish and put myself first. I'm sorry to anyone that got a robotic, repeated response to something they were probably excited to share. I'm sorry I've been so unfair to everyone and I hope you can forgive me.

Take care and I'll talk to everyone when I have the energy to.

[lemonmangosorbet]

meeting mister Harry Lloyd at Power Con on March 8th 2025, a thread! 🧵

copying my entire thread from twitter into one big text post here on tumblr for the benefit of those of you who do not use twitter!

however, you can view this thread on twitter or on bluesky if you'd like! enjoy! :3

first off, myself and Lydia were the first at his table when the con opened at 9am. we almost ran straight to his table lmao. it did not take long for a queue to build for his table and start going around the corner, longest queue for any of the guests at the con

the guests are never there when the con first opens, I don't know why lmao. but the staff were getting nervous when they saw Harry's queue getting really long. I believe Harry got to his table at about 9:30am?

he rocked up dressed really cosy and drinking a coffee. before he even got settled at his table he went to see who all the other guests at the con were and I think that was a very sweet thing for him to do :')

once he got to his table, Harry immediately said hi to us and chatted to us while he got set up! it was sweet that he was still happy to chit-chat with us whilst he was getting ready

it was really funny because he started looking at the photos on the table of the characters he'd played and he was like "hmm, oh yeah!" like he'd forgotten some of the characters he's played??? sdfghjk- incredible man

so Lydia kindly let me go first to meet Harry and he was like "oh you're wearing a Viktor t-shirt! what does it say? glorious ovulation???" and he started laughing and was like "I haven't seen that before" THIS MAN IS SO OFFLINE, IT'S INCREDIBLE

he also said "who would have thought Viktor would become such a sex symbol?" and I wanted to scream- he has no idea! this man does not know what fans are doing to Viktor's cervix sdfghjk

I started off by showing him the Jayvik ita bag I put together for the con & I told him it DID NOT contain all the Jayvik merch I own. he was seriously impressed, not at my ita bag but at how many people have made merch of Jayce & Viktor & Jayvik, so well done Jayvik artists! :')

he was like "this is amazing. where did you get all these?" he was so impressed by everyone's work- I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH.

I started telling him about how I've been collecting Jayvik merch since 2022 and he wanted to know more, so I explained how I watched Arcane s1 in Jan 2022 and I said "and then Jayvik took over my life" and he just listened to me, and appreciated how much they mean to me :')

so then he wanted to know my reaction to s2 and I was like "are you kidding? I woke up every Saturday at 7am with Netflix ready to watch the new act drop at 8am" and he was smiling and laughing and fucking fangirling over my dedication lmao

he wanted to know my reaction to Jayce & Viktor's ending and I explained how I had not expected it at all. I know enough league lore that I thought Jayce and Viktor would fight and Jayce would remain in Piltover and Viktor would go back to Zaun, and they'd remain enemies-

so to get them deciding to choose each other and finish it together, I just cried like a baby. Harry was gushing the entire time I spoke, and when I mentioned Jayce and Viktor choosing each other, he was like "and the hug!!!!" 😭💖

he literally was fujoing out with me, it was kinda insane how happy he was to sit there and listen to me talk about Jayvik sdjfgsjfg- one of us! one of us!

next I decided to give him gifts. I gave him this patch made by Fi-Fi as a gift from them and he was so impressed and he was like "thank you Fi-Fi!" 😭💖

as a gift from me, I gave him my Jayvik sticker (which I made in 2022 lol) but he was like "you made this?!" and I was like "yeah, I drew it" and he replied "wow! it's so professional!" I still cannot believe he said that about my art and I'm just a silly little guy!!!! 😭💖

so by this point I was stressing tf out bc I'd already been talking to him for SO LONG, his queue was huge & going around the corner, and I still had so much to show him sdfghjkl

next I showed him my Jayvik plushies by inkalope and he was fucking obsessed. he really loved the Viktor one 😭💖 I was almost scared he wasn't going to give it back to me hahaha

when we took a photo with them, I asked which one he wanted to hold and he was like "definitely Viktor" lmaoooo :') just look at his face!!! he was so happy 😭💖

so now one of the members of staff was getting stressed with me and was like "what do you have to sign???" and I was like "one more thing" and I showed Harry the trans Viktor flag, also by inkalope

now.... Harry read it "Viktor is transgender" and then he said "oh, Viktor is trans everything" let's just say... I lost my mind!!!! so Viktor trans masc, trans femme, all the genders and all of them trans confirmed?! sdfghjkl

so now the member of staff was getting real pissed off with me sdhgffsjfg- they were like (in a much more stern tone) "what are you getting signed???" and I was like "yes, I have paid for 3 signatures" sdfghjkjhgfd

first I asked Harry to sign this gorgeous print I got from jadedlyco last year. he agreed that the artwork is beautiful :')

I can't believe he wrote "thank you for everything" like, I feel he really appreciated everything I showed him and gave to him and talked to him about 😭😭😭💖

I also can't believe he wrote "fan no.1" bc I was the first in the queue sjfgsjhf- I told him he was definitely gonna get me in trouble with other Viktor fans lmaoooooo

second I asked him to sign my copy of the Jayvik zine from 2022- he IMMEDIATELY started flicking through it and was like "wow" - again, he was just in awe of all the creative work of the Jayvik fandom

I think if we'd had more time, he would have liked to look through it properly, but the member of con staff was really keen for us to hurry up by this point

I did explain I was in the zine...but the spicy section that's digital only, and the member of staff was like "oh, maybe you can look that up later?" (I think they cheered up) & Harry was like "yeah" sdgjfgshf??? anyway, glad he appreciates the Jayvik smut we're creating too lmao

OH ALSO- I couldn't decide where to ask him to sign it and he said "I don't want to sign the front because I don't want to ruin the beautiful art on the front cover" bless him!!!! 😭😭😭💖

he happily wrote the "only you" quote for me and I also explained that the zine raised thousands for Ukraine relief and he was amazed and in awe at that too!!! it's so sweet how amazed he is by everything the fandom creates and what we're able to achieve, like raising money 💖

thirdly, I asked Harry to sign one of his prints for one of my besties. they wanted the "Jaybe, or Jaybe not..." quote and Harry was like "yeaaaah" - I love that he's a guy that's not afraid to get silly with us fans!!!! :')

finally, I had my two selfies with him- I just love his expressions! he was so happy & I was so glad that I was the first person he met, & was able to start off his day with lots of laughter & smiles 💖 then I scurried away and tried to compose myself so Lydia could meet him lol

I will post about Harry's Q&A in another thread as this one is getting pretty long, but I'll finish off this one by talking about meeting him for the professional photo op!

we had to be fast- there were a lot of people who wanted a photo with him, and still people who hadn't met him at his table AND he had to leave early!!! it was a mad rush, but I was prepared...

I WILL BE CLEAR- if he had said "no, I can't hold either" I would have respected his decision. I don't want people in arcanetwt to spread lies that we 'forced' him into this. I gave him a choice between 2, but if he'd said 'no' I would have been fine with that

BUT- when he saw the "Jayvik? we ship it!" sign, he was like "we have to use this one, it's so funny" and that's how our photo came to be :')

and before I had to run off, I asked if I could have a hug and he said "of course" and I GOT TO HUG HARRY LLOYD???!!!! then I did have to run and I said how it had been so great meeting him that day! I'm sure he said "same to you" but I was running on so much adrenaline sdgjfgsh

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Fredas, Morning Star 03, 2025

(Friday, January 01, 2025)

Dream interpretation first, as always.

I was friends with this family who ran this restaurant. For the first half that I remember, I was sulky and upset for having been scared and tormented by someone else entirely. But the rest, I was trying desperately to save the matriarch from a god-given illness, by performing a ritual and pleading with the gods. I woke up before I succeeded.

I... don't know what this means per se. I can make a few solid guesses, that the former part is due to the haunting I'm enduring. But the part about the god-given illness? I... really don't know.

— ☆ —

My new tools arrived today! Safaa (Rumi oracle), Aileas (Imbolc oracle), Bao (Mahjong), and Lilian (Sibilla oracle). I've done some test readings with them today, and also did some with Nadia (G-Witch).

I made sure to thank Hermaeus Mora for all of this. As always, I deeply appreciate the work It puts in for me and this part of my practice that I am utterly Feral about.

I opened some free reading slots for Nadia/G-Witch. Quite a few people took up slots which I'm really happy about, but I feel a bit bad I can't do it all same-day delivery, but then again, I need to be kinder to myself and not be a little butt to myself. I think as of writing this I'm done for the night, I'm physically tired and maybe a bit spiritually tired? I dunno, I'm not very good at listening to myself, but Hermaeus Mora and Lucifer both are asking me to at least take a break before returning to it. So I will. I'll heed them, maybe eat some dessert or something. Watch some stuff.

I am proud of myself for saying "Thank you for your patience!" instead of "Sorry for the wait!" on my reading posts end blurb. I know it's small, but it's kind language like that that I deserve.

I did some personal Mahjong readings and plan on roping some friends into receiving some. If I wasn't so shy I'd reach out and ask a mutual or two if they want some, at least the mutuals I properly interact with.

I also made a taglist for this blog, visible from here. I'll update it daily as I need to. I like having taglists. It's something that used to be more popular on Tumblr back in the early 2010s of its life, when I used it the first time, and I haven't quite let go of that aspect.

I wanna write some TES related posts or queue more stuff up for that blog, but I dunno what to do. Maybe "worship" posts. How to worship them, with a section on subtle worship. I got the idea from someone else, but I don't know how many ideas I'll have for actually worship, despite doing it every day of my life.

I just feel very strongly about TES. I have a post in queue about Azurah's triple aspect/triple form as Human, Mer, and Khajiit and how it looks like the depiction of the Triple Goddess and what that can mean for Her worship; and another about Clavicus Vile likely being based somewhat off of the Christian idea of Lucifer.

TES means a lot to me. The Gods in it mean a lot to me. I would give up so much for them, but they would never ask me to do anything like that. Well. to an extreme, I mean. They do ask me to give stuff up to them, just nothing... "so much".

I should work on finishing Clavicus Vile's quick start so I can post it. I don't have to worry about Akatosh's, but Meridia's day is the 13th, and Haki's day is coming up on the 24th. I know I can churn these out at the speed of light if I just focus, but with ADHD, it doesn't always happen, lol. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself...

Speaking of the 13th, I need to... focus more on the actual cleansing rituals and everything. I know everyone (my spirit guides) is telling me to chill, to not speedrun it, but... I. y'know. I like to get things done. I don't like having a to-do list.

And also, as an aside, I added something to my parents list for myself for groceries (that I can use otherwise) and turns out it's not at the store so it has to be ordered online. Which is really good I did that, because otherwise I wouldn't have been able to find it when I needed it for my spells, which I really wanna do The Big Shadow Realm One on the new moon this month. To start the year with January's new year energy and the energy of the new moon. I also don't want to wait to perform it even longer.

There's really not much else for me to say today. No spellwork done or anything, just messing with decks, as ya do. So... well, it's not goodnight, I won't be in bed for another hot minute, but g'night.

[scary-lasagna]

So sorry to hear ignorant people are in the askbox- I swear people who say this kinda stuff really should just try writing. Just for a week. Ungrateful people really don't understand the energy, effort and research writers put in to their writing and characters. I'm so tired of readers taking writers and artists for granted ngl. Feel like the past years silent reading has gotten so much more prevalent too, and it just makes me sad.

Please know you and your work are seen, and appreciated, and make sure to take time for yourself ❤️ You have inherent value, even when you're not creating. -S

Thank you :)) I really appreciate you for this :]] It is hard, and it was even worse when I used to pump out 4 asks per day. It’s draining and constant writing and idea you have to put out, and you even have to make it sound good which is hard in itself no matter what you’re writing about.

I wanted to boost my queue number and I literally took my chromebook I got to use for school and sat in a Panera for about 4 hours just writing enough asks to last for a week or so.

Its definitely harder than it looks because of all the things you have to look out for, like pacing yourself from burnout, rereading, working your way around Tumblrs algorithm, and even deleting 2,000 words because they didn’t match the ask the way you wanted it to.

On top of silent reading, I feel like things like Char.ai have made a negative impact on the fanfiction scene as well.

[burning-academia-if]

Hello! I love the premise of your IF, and your writing is spectacular (Rook's backstory has me in SHAMBLES you don't understand) and I'm super excited for the next update, whenever that will be! On that note, I've got a question about making and promoting your own IF. I have my an idea that I've been working on, and I want to one day release my own IF with it, but I'm not sure how I would go about promoting it - I don't have a lot of time for writing, so I'm worried that I won't really be able to get it out there because I just don't post very often. How did you promote Burning Academia when you first got started? Do you have any tips for beginners like myself?

Thanks in advance!

Firstly, thanks for playing! Secondly, I'm not sure I'm the best person to ask about marketing since tumblr/the IF community ultimately did 99% of the work lol. With that being said though, here's some general advice!

Take time on your intro post. This is everyone's first introduction to your IF, and it's what net me most of my followers in the beginning. While there's a general layout to IF intros, I personally still went back and looked through all the IFs I follow to see what bits and bobs I wanted to add and what I didn't.

Be honest. If making an IF is a hobby or you don't have time, you can add a disclaimer if you want. Honestly, I think it's less about frequency and more about consistency. Pick a day where you have some time and answer asks, and don't feel pressured to answer every ask, especially if you're busy.

Also, be clear about the kinds of asks you will and won't answer. This is less a marketing thing and more for your own sake kind of thing lol. If you don't have a lot time to write the IF, then you certainly don't have the time to write prompts/scenarios.

Anyway, if you are worried about frequency of posting, set up a queue! Fill it with art/quotes/photos and tag them as inspo/aesthetic/characters/etc. This way the blog is still 'active' without you needing to be present all the time.

Circling back to the intro post: tag it properly. I jam packed mine with every tag I could think of, and I think that's part of why it got around so quickly (as well as the major IF blogs reblogging it as well).

While I'm not sure what you're thinking of using (Twine/Choicescript/Ink/etc), you'll have different options on how to market. For example, choicescript has their own forums where you can post a thread for your WIP or Itch.io has devlogs. Use them. While I don't update frequently on my itch, I do like to cross post certain things (the 1k follower short stories, for example, I put on itch. Updates are an obvious one). I pretty much copy and paste from tumblr to itch, just so people who don't follow my tumblr are informed to what's going on. I personally only use tumblr for BA, so if you wanted to try other social media then obviously do some research. I personally wouldn't use more then 2 socials max though, because it can get pretty overwhelming.

Finally, be part of the community! I know I'm personally not the best at this due to my own online anxieties lol, but just reblogging things your interested in and supporting others is always appreciated! I know this sounds obvious but after lurking in the IF community for years and being in the VN world, you'd be surprised by how many people just...don't?? Anyway, I personally love when other writers show excitement for other IFs, so I like to express that, too. It's also just giving back to the community you're a part of.

[chyrstis]

Last WIP of the year day!

I was all set to have this for Wednesday, but as always there’s always a small delay. It’s all for the best, though, b/c that let me go ahead with posting this before the new year’s in. And let me just send out right now every single positive writing and creating vibe I can muster, b/c this past year has been the worst kind of test, and here’s hoping that we have much better things ahead.

Tagged by the very excellent set of people here! Thank you! <3: @aceghosts @unlikelynick @shallow-gravy @fadedjacket @proudspires @faithchel and @scarlettkat86

Tagging: @writerofblocks @twistedsinews @cobb-vanthss @amistrio @tommymillers @softmillers @foofygoldfish @ma-sulevin @redroci @geronimo-11 @raisinghellinotherworlds @siribear @risenlucifer @princess-underthemountain @ofravensandgenesis @sapphicvalhallas @guileandgall @painterofhorizons @baeogorath @lilwritingraven @sneaky-apostate @outranks @weekend-writer @ofravensandgenesis and @themysteriouslou, but no obligation intended at all! Especially if you’ve been tagged recently, or just want a break.

First off, if you’re guessing it’s the Trap fic, it’s totally the Trap fic. I've got roughly two chapters of this down, but really need to start digging into the later ones soon.

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“-ty? Copy.”

Hana nearly dropped it in her rush to answer. “I’m here, Grace. Everything okay?”

“Been looking for you, and didn’t know you’d stepped out.”

“Yeah, I….” Guilt hit right at that moment, because the least she could’ve done was left some kind of message for them. “Decided to lend a hand to a group passing through, but I’m on my way back. You miss me already?”

It was hard to tell if it was static or not, but the scoff that came through put the worst grin on her face.

“I’ll take that as a yes.”

“Watch the roads, and don’t slow down. It’s too quiet.”

“I hear you. Be there soon, promise. Just make sure that-”

That's when she saw the white van. The same kind that she knew the cult was using to bring people in. She’d been a few clicks behind when it emerged from a side road, turning sharply as it took a place in front of her; no thought to her or the people in the back, and felt her grip tighten on the wheel.

“Just don’t head off without me, okay?” she asked, her choice already made for her, and tossed the radio into the passenger seat.

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I might also be back on my No Cult AU nonsense too, so here’s a little more from the entry that just keeps on growing. Seriously, I have 6.3K here and it’s not done yet, help Sharky’s at the compound to help, and runs into the mystery woman he met weeks back at John’s, and well. This conversation might be going better than hoped. :’)

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Sharky sighed as a chuckle slipped out. “Good times.”

“Good?” That shocked a laugh out of her. “I’d love to hear your definition of an awful time.”

“Well, lot of it comes from what you get out of it. I’ve been to places that sucked. Had no beer, no tunes, and not a single lady willing to boogie in sight, but you stop and think. What do you have? What is working here?”

He stopped, pretending to mull it over, and shit, that actually earned him a giggle.

“Just sit there breaking all of that down. Putting two and two together to make five, whip up some real Boshaw Magic, and then…boom. Put that into motion. Don’t think anyone’s having an awful time after that.”

“I don’t think I’d be having an awful one either.”

Smiling up at him, Selena tilted her head. Maybe even gave him a look he could’ve chalked up to being checked out even, and nerves set in with a vengeance.

“That’s uh…that’s good. Hate to show you anything but a good one, and I think I’d uh, try pretty hard to avoid that. The whole having a bad time part, not the good time. ‘Cause you-you, uh-“. Looking over at her, his mouth went dry. “You seem nice, and deserve a whole hell of a lot of nice things too.”

“It’s sweet of you to say.”

“It’s true.” He swiped off his cap, and ran a hand through his hair. “And…not that it’d all be an awful time, but I could uh, show you a few places. Let you see which’re all right, which are better than that, and then you could…see which you wouldn’t mind-”

Another woman bounded up to them, giving Selena a hug while the rest of his response fizzled out completely.

[rockingrobin69]

Hey I just wanted to let you know that I absolutely love love love the way you write. Like it reminds me of why the world is so amazing and when Im done reading it's like the world has shifted to be a little brighter a little happier. Like its absolutely amazing the pace and adjectives and vibe like everything is so wonderful and tender and the relations you make between characters and objects and colours and scents is so vibrant. I'm new to Tumblr so still getting used to the whole reblog stuff but I wish we had a spam reblog button cause it would be really useful here. Anyway have a wonderful day. Thanks for putting ur writing out into the world.

Hi new friend, thank you so so much for this extremely kind message! I can't really tell you how much it means to me that you read my stories, that you find brightness in them - truly can't, it's pure magic. More than I could've asked for.

Have to admit I don't know what spam reblogging would entail (tumblr is as far as I go, social-media wise), but every reblog of an artwork is always appreciated (by every artist I've ever met!) Personally I always see every comment/tag added to reblogs, and they always make my day - thank you for that too!

I'm not the biggest expert, but if you have any questions about tumblr and our little corner of it, please feel free to reach out!

I'd like to give you a little gift back for your loveliness. So here goes, from a draft for flufftober (never posted):

This. Laundry and bins and the stupid leak and mold in the bathroom ceiling and dust, always so much dust, gathering and gathering. Cooking (and cooking and cooking. Breakfasts and lunches, treats for Ted and the gang, teas and suppers and midnight snacks. And Harry’s sweet tooth, and Ted’s allergies, and Molly-fricking-Weasley’s sacred recipes one can not veer from under pain of death! And all of it, all of it). Dentists and hoovering (dust again!) and throwing Harry’s tattered clothes when he wasn’t looking, getting him new boxers, damn it, without holes, fancy that. Did you know you have to clean inside the kettle? Did you know avocados are all liars, that cauliflower goes bad so fast, that some markers don’t come off the walls? Did you know you have to know all that, that no one tells you, that you have to notice and pay attention somehow to all of it, all the time?

Well, maybe you did. Draco didn’t. Doesn’t really know it still, even having lived it for years. Still surprised at how much he doesn’t know. At how hectic and breathless and quick it all is, how you have to stay on your toes, try to anticipate and fail miserably. How failing miserably can still be so sweet, how all of this is the life he couldn’t imagine, wouldn’t know how to dream up. Endlessly annoying and always surprising and so full of love he could choke. Write it down, please, dear diary: Draco Malfoy was a total sop in the most mundane of Mondays, with his head pounding and the to-do list chockful of endless chores. Taking Harry’s hand in the queue, sighing into the third cup of coffee. His life. Exhausting and nonstop and entirely his.

[matan4il]

Hey Alice 💜 first of all, I wanted to say congratulations on your milestone and you deserve it big time and more love and support. You are one of my favorite bloggers and one of few people that I value their opinions and thoughts on sort of things. You are surely giving us the biggest joy and happiness and hope to our buddie fandom 💜. Like you literally got my special tag for you and for your contact and that's something really rare for me to do that.

And then I red your post about fandom and disabilities. I'm literally crying at the moment when I'm writing this ask. Because all I want to do right now is find you and hug you so tightly and tell you that you are the greatest person I ever met. You are giving so much out of your heart and I can feel it through your words and actions. And if anyone is blaming your disability for being any less good friend or even make you feel like this way is not your friend and shouldn't be.

And it's kind of funny, because I honestly feel like I'm more surrounded by friends here than irl or in the other social media. I guess for the same reason that you mentioned on your post. And I guess I just feel more connected with people that living abroad or I feel like I have this kind of American mentality. I always thought in the other life I was American. Anyway, maybe I also don't have to show myself or share something about my life. And as for friends, I feel like I'm being matters to them as in some of them are starting a conversation with me first when in the real life nobody talk to me unless I do the first move and it makes me feel tired and I'm so happy for being here. But the fandom and especially this app take so much time out of my life and there real life stuff that is more important to do. So I'm really trying to manage that. And yes sometimes it gives me anxiety when I think about possibly that I'm may hurting someone out there. There is a lot of people that I used to have a conversation with them and now not anymore and it not necessarily means that I don't like them or got offended by them, it's just life you know.

And I think the best way for me to show my mutuals that I still care about them even if we don't talk much in private is through reblogs and sending asks. And I really hope that they know that.

I love you so much and I will always be there for you. I know in my heart that I feel that the same way as I do. Because I can see how much effort you put on your replys and your answers. Seriously every time I get a message from you, my heart explodes with love and joy.

Please know that you are so much loved by so many people 💖 you are the voice for everyone who believes in buddie 💙❤

I love you so much 💜💜💜

Sending you lots of hugs and kisses 😘🤗

My beloved Yelena! *heeearts*

Sending so many hugs your way! Thank you so much for the congratulations, for all the kind words, and for replying to the post about disabilities in fandom. Yes, absolutely I feel the same, I am always sending tons of love and hugs your way! And I love your tag for me, whenever I see it, I immediately cheer up, no matter how rough my day might happen to be. One day, I’m sure we will meet and hug each other in real life! And I’m glad you’ve found fandom as a means of dealing with how difficult it can be, to make friends despite our disabilities, but I’m even happier you’re not neglecting real life matters, because as one of my docs once said to me, “We always eventually pay for neglect.” I absolutely feel you about the reblogs, it feels like a form of showing love and keeping a line of communication open no matter what else is going on with us. And it’s also just kind? I know that even when I had to stay away from Tumblr for a long period of time, just knowing my queue is still reblogging posts, that I am still somehow supporting people even in my absence, was a small positive I def held onto. And I am so happy to know you appreciate how much I put into everything I make for the fandom, every ask I answer... I hope you know we (’coz I KNOW I’m not just speaking for myself) appreciate you, too! Love you tons, darling! xoxox

(I got an influx of asks, I WILL answer all of them, but it might take me a moment. If anyone wants to check whether I've already answered theirs or just to read my replies, here's my ask tag. Thank you! xoxox)

[holdmyhopeinyourhands]

Tumblr Tag Game

Haven't done a tag game in forever but I'm trying to get back into it so here we go. @querencva thank you for tagging me sweetie *kisses*

1. Why did you choose your url?

I put my hopes in the hands of psg and they consistently crushed it into dust. Now they're just holding it hostage and I can't get it back.

2. Any side blogs?

One. But it's so vastly different from this sports blog it's not even funny. If my followers there met my followers here it would be pure chaos.

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

Since 2018? I think? Not really sure.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

Nop.

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

Being a football fan as a woman was a bit lonely? At the beginning I just wanted to be around for a year. Get all my pent of football frustration and giddiness out there and then bow out but I met some amazing people here. Made some wonderful friends and then I got into f1 and well, I think joining tumblr was one of the best decisions I made. No regrets. It's been fun. But yeah, I started it because being a football fan and a woman in a group of friends were the girls didn't care about football and the guys didn't take my opinions seriously was quite lonely.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

Neymar made me fall in love with football again when I almost forgot the true beauty of the sport. His chaotic, brilliant talent gave football back to me.

7. Why did you choose your header?

It's Pierre like.... why wouldn't I? That's the love of my life. I would stab a Neymar for him. Just saying.

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

Hmmmm, I think (funnily enough) it's an Umbrella academy post lmao. Which has literally nothing to do with my blog anymore XD

This one But I'm not 100% sure. There might be a fic out there that has more notes. Also an Umbrella academy post.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

No clue. But around 300+ maybe. Some have left tumblr now, others might have unfollowed me over time and some I haven't interacted with for months *shrug* but the ones I talk to often are around 50+ I think.

10. How many followers do you have?

2,170 (but pretty sure this includes my sideblog too???)

11. How many people do you follow?

926

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

Yes, of course. All the time. And it tends to piss people off which is the goal and always makes my day. You're on tumblr why shouldn't you make a shit post. If you haven't. Live a little. Go on. I promise it's fun.

13. How often do you use tumblr a day?

What is this, an interrogation! I refuse to answer this on the grounds that I feel ashamed.

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

Yes. A lot. Against racists mostly. I have no clue how they find me, why they follow me and why they then decide to argue with me but somehow I just attract them like moth to flame I guess. It's exhausting. But hey, that's what the block button is for right.

15. How do you feel about the ‘you need to reblog’ posts?

Hmmmm. Conflicted? I think reblogging is important but I also don't think harassing people to reblog when they clearly don't feel comfortable doing so is stupid. So live and let live. Of course it still sucks when you make original content and the reblogs are sparse compared to the likes but that's just life and we all deal. It's healthier that way.

16. Do you like tag games?

I used to? Then I left tumblr for a while after a depressive episode, came back and I just haven't done them a lot ever since.

17. you think is tumblr famous?

No clue. But y'all are famous in my heart and you have no idea how cool it is whenever you follow me back like dfkjbkdfjbkd friends!!!!!

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

Nop. But starry-eyed admiration? Yes. Yes for sure.

20. Tags!

Tagging: @bronzefeder, @whatdidwejustdo, @kingkyks, @coffeebreakcreations, @astraycharacter, @welldonebaku, @tuchel-appreciator, @guyefox and anyone else that want to do it because if I tag you all we'll be here all day!!!!!

[bbq-hawks-wings]

Art reposting etiquette

I see art theft happen a lot, and whether or not it's true or has just been happening more frequently in the circles I follow I can't help but at least feel like it's becoming more and more of a problem.

To be clear, "reposting" is downloading art from a website that you did not make or own, and uploading it as a separate post, regardless of where and how it's presented - with notable exception of header and profile pictures assuming they are not trying to imitate the artist. Not all art theft is reposting, but all improper reposting is art theft.

As cut and dry as "stop art theft it's bad, don't repost art" posts make it sound, there are several benevolent reasons people may want to repost such as:

Believing they are spreading the artist's influence around the internet

Adding intrigue or a visual aid to a fanfiction

Sharing some neat art they thought was really cool

Just to name a few

Assuming the best in people, these are not necessarily bad reasons and DON'T MAKE PEOPLE BAD, but many often don't understand there's a dark side to the reposting issue.

People who may want more art may be unable to find the original creator

People may not realize that the artist makes rent with the very artwork you're enjoying and they may be looking at stolen premium content meant to put food on the table

People take art and further edit it so that it becomes even harder to trace back to the original

Malicious websites and bots find popular fanart and illegally use it to produce bootleg merch. This has a double-whammy effect when someone sees the merch IRL when out and about and wants it because it's cool art of their favorite character but don't realize the artist is actively being robbed.

Reposting art makes it harder for the artist to track down the thief and take legal action as well as actively funnels traffic away from their business. By and large it should always be assumed that reposting for any reason is damaging to the artist's wellbeing; and frankly, if you don't care you're actively hurting someone, it makes you the asshole, not me for calling you out.

But, that isn't to say reposting is NEVER allowed, but ONLY UNDER EXTREMELY SPECIFIC CIRCUMSTANCES. That's the point of this post.

Before you can decide if you should even attempt to repost art, check these things first:

If it says directly on the art "do not repost" don't waste your time. They are not going to make an exception for you.

Check to see if the art is already on the platform you're planning to upload to (especially here on Tumblr). Often, artists make it a point to put their work in very specific locations for their own reasons. They may not want their work on your website at all and you need to respect that.

Gain the artist's explicit permission after explaining where you want to repost their work, which work you want to repost, and why with how you plan to credit them. If you gain permission, keep a copy of the conversation for your own protection. If you do not gain permission, don't repost at all.

If you gain permission to repost art, these things are an absolute necessity:

Mention of the artist's name

THEIR main platform of choice

link to the original piece used

It would likely look something like this:

Artwork uploaded with express permission by @[artist] on [website], found here - (hyperlinked to original piece)

Bonus information to include:

Additional social media handles of the artist

Link to the artist's Patreon and/or Ko-Fi if available

Link to artist's store if available

Hyperlinking the image itself so other users can just click it to find the work/artist

Remember reposting should be about the artist, NOT YOU. You didn't create the work, and even if you supported them via Patreon it still doesn't belong to you, nor are you entitled to it. A commission you personally paid for is the only piece of work of that artist's creation you are ever entitled to unless otherwise stated in a contract when you bought it.

To continue to cover my bases I'm going to address some stances that may pop up about the issue:

"I didn't know reposting was that bad!"

It's okay. That's why I made this post. In general, as a supportive fan and consumer you should try to learn how artists are rewarded for their work on different platforms. YouTube is different from Instagram is different from Facebook is different from Tumblr. Learn which best ways to support your favorite artists in the ways that are most beneficial to them, even if all they ask for is respect and a little appreciation. And do take down any art you may have reposted. It can continue to do damage by remaining up, but removing it almost always mitigates any future harm and genuinely helps. Now you know better and can be better moving forward!

"I can't get ahold of the artist for permission."

Don't repost it then. Remember, at the end of the day reposting is only good for the reposter in fake internet points or actual money/intellectual property stolen but always tangibly hurts the artist. It sucks, but they have a right to determine where and how their hard work is displayed.

"Whatever, I'll do what I want. Lol"

Enjoy your takedown. Hey, artists, did you know you can find each website's terms of service and figure out how to submit a report with the offending post and user, and they're usually good about getting it down within days?! Look for "misappropriation" that's your ticket! 😊

But seriously, repeat offenders can get permanently banned from sites and even sued for actual real-world money and damages over your precious fake internet points. It actually pays to not be an ass!

"But I just want to support the artist and reposting is so easy!"

You know what's even easier?

It's literally only one or two clicks to support the artist or tell them how much you love their work! Most other platforms make supporting content creators just as easy, and some platforms even PAY the creators based on them or enable them to grasp opportunities to be paid!

"But I don't want to bog down my followers with a huge reblog dump of one person's stuff."

Put it in queue to space it out, then.

"I don't have money to support the artist so I repost instead to give them exposure."

Time and time again it's been proven that reposting actively funnels money AWAY from them. You don't have to monetarily support them with much. Buy one thing from their store or give them $1 on Ko-Fi. If you can't even do that, tell them you love their stuff and shout to the rooftops where someone else can pay them; but don't make it harder for them to get paid. Too many artists "die of exposure."

"Why do you even care?"

I AM an artist. I currently support artists with real money monthly because I love their work. I only ever make money off my own art on commissions, and that relies on people being able to find me. I'm not even the one supporting my two children, husband, pet, and medical expenses with only this option to pay for it, and you bet your butt I still would be pissed if I ever found out my art had been misappropriated. Some people do this to SURVIVE and I want to see that those who do have as little unnecessary struggle with it as possible.

"It's fanart/fan content put on the internet for free I can do whatever I want with it!"

At least in North America the law says you can't. Did you know that the way laws are currently written, if someone takes a picture of you and finds a way to make money off that photo they don't owe you a dime? They hold the copyright to it. When art is displayed publicly, that copyright is not surrendered and is automatically afforded to the artist by virtue of it being their specific expression and work. By being their work, they can actually sue you for stealing their property.

Ask Disney, they're really good at it.

And to close this out I want to say one more thing: the internet has changed a LOT in the time I started browsing from the early 2000's. Rules are different, cultures are different, and for younger people especially you may not understand how some have had to (and still do) fight tooth and nail over this internet space and still make it.

If you didn't know all this, THAT'S OKAY! You're learning, and the internet is more or less a wild west right now. That means it's equal opportunity to be a killing field or a place we can lift up and support each other. Reposting is just one corner of the bad things that can come of it, but now you know how to help and even start reversing the damage.

Learn about how people who upload free content make money. When you find misappropriated work, report them to the site and try to inform the artist - don't even acknowledge the thief, just slap a ticket on them and move on. Teach others how and why reposting is bad and what they can do to help.

If you love free content, show respect and protect it. Otherwise, artists will have to put it behind a paywall and that content you loved will disappear over time. Respect will get you a much greater return than entitlement.

[jjksblackgf]

hey, there

I'm officially back!

Remember when I said it would take me weeks to get back? lol It's been literally 7 days

First, I want to start by saying how much I appreciate the support you guys gave me, and to say thank you for the 'stay well' wishes. I loved reading it, and I'll remember every single one of them <3

If you want an explanation about what led me to take a hiatus, I'll leave one below the cut 🥰

So let me tell you what's next for this blog.

1. I'll scrap a couple of WIP's that I have (namely dámelo dos, papi and baller). They were good pieces of content, but my heart isn't in it, so they're out.

2. I'll focus on writing serialized material (like my lines series, eating you out series, etc), I like writing series much more than I like writing one shots.

3. In between the stories that I'll post, I'll give you guys some writing prompts that you can request. I'll release one prompt list later today, it's Valentine's themed 😁

4. I'll also focus a little more on visual content and social media au's *cof cof* blossoming *cof cof*

And that's all for now. Luv ya 💞

If you want to snoop below the cut, feel free to 😉 k, bye

Those of you that have been following me for a while, you know my tendency to self-sabotage, and that's exacly what happened.

I started to not like the things I was writing, and instead of scrapping that material to allow me to write things I actually wanted to, I insisted on finishing what I'd started.

That turned into a domino effect. I burnout super quick because I was spending my time in things that i didn't want to do. I have some triggers around doing things I don't want, which made me have a mental breakdown.

So I decided to take a few weeks off to cool down and sort out my thoughts. I really thought I was going to be out of here untill March, but thank God for the therapy that I've been doing for the past couple of years, because the I got my shit together in 48 hours.

The rest of the days I was itching to get back in here, but I decided I needed a break. And then, I made some goals for myself.

1. only write things that you feel like writing.

It sounds silly, I know, but really, having this in mind has taken a huge weight off my shoulders. That meant saying goodbye to projects that I didn't want to say goodbye to.

But being honest with you guys, I want people to like me so much, that what I was hanging onto was the potential validation that I would get from said projects.

So I need to put on my big girl pants and be the one validating myself, and learning how to love myself to the fullest, I can't let other people have that power over me, no matter how nice and good people they are.

2. log out of tumblr mobile and have a specific time to login into web

I'm getting so caught up in the need for validation that checking tumblr first thing in the morning has been my morning routine for months now.

And that's sad because it's not everyday that I have the amount of notes that I wish I had. That was leading me to think nobody liked me and nobody cared if i lived or di*d, and I need to understand that's not true. People do care about me, and they do want to see me be well and happy.

So I'll only be here to post and queue some stuff.

And that's all I have for today. Love y'all 💙

[xnovamore]

I posted 491 times in 2021

13 posts created (3%)

478 posts reblogged (97%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 36.8 posts.

I added 260 tags in 2021

#sam wilson - 71 posts

#sambucky - 57 posts

#tfatws - 35 posts

#art - 31 posts

#bucky barnes - 14 posts

#tfatws spoilers - 12 posts

#video - 11 posts

#sharon carter - 10 posts

#samsteve - 10 posts

#sarah wilson - 9 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#the problem with ino and sakura was that they gave them both shitty endings then went on to latter admit they could have been happy together

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Soo some people may remember back around this time in 2019 when I got surgery on my ovary and was offline for a while. Well this time I'm going to have the entire ovary taken out so I may be offline for 2 or so weeks. My queue will still run on @fairiesnova but my main @xnovamore, as well as @samwilsonsundays and @grayluweekends will be on hold. You can still tag those blogs in your content and I'll reblog them when I get back!

Thanks, Nova

29 notes • Posted 2021-04-07 01:08:25 GMT

#4

Every sunday I block at least 10+ blogs for spamming the Sam tag with posts/fics of other characters and every Sunday more and more crawl out of the woodwork. It makes it hard for us hard to support Sam content creators when we can't find them. Even now the first 10 or so most recent posts in #Sam Wilson have nothing to do with him. It hursts content creators when blogs like @samwilsonsundays can not find posts to highlight or boost because the tag is filled with other characters/shows/ships.

Just be respectful and do not tag Sam Wilson if your post is not about him.

32 notes • Posted 2021-07-19 00:33:35 GMT

#3

One thing I love about trailer nights is that for the next 48 hours or so we all take turns losing our minds about the same scenes

50 notes • Posted 2021-02-08 21:35:53 GMT

#2

One day were gonna have a conversation about all these "incorrect quotes" blogs filling Sam's tag to either paint him as aggressive, use him as a punchline, or use him to set up popular white ships.

Yall have gotten wayy to comfortable making him ooc and removing him of any agency in his own tag

102 notes • Posted 2021-01-27 02:47:35 GMT

#1

I really wish Bucky/Zemo/John Walker stans would think before posting in the Sam Wilson and/or Sarah Wilson tags. We do not go through Sam or Sarah's tag looking for appreciation posts or posts putting down everyone in favor for -insert white male here-. And let's be honest, the majority of people doing this do not actually care about Sam or Sarah, which is fine, just stop clogging up their tags. We had this problem with Sam tag for YEARS (used to be Steve/Bucky/Stucky/Tony stans doing it before tfatws) and even now after their show came out, and we have all this fresh content, its still a maze to try to find posts about them in their own tags. And don't even get me started on all these racist "hot takes" that yall keep putting in their tags then getting upset when you get backlash.

I guess you put posts in #sam wilson or #sarah wilson because your looking to gain more traction, but I can promise you those of us going through Sam or Sarah's tag are not there looking for Bucky or Zemo or John or Stucky. Were looking for Sam and Sarah and we can not find them because yall use their tags as your own personal dump space for your fav white men. I'm sure you can find fellow like-minded people who also love those characters outside of Sam and Sarah's tags. Its time the read the room here and stop clogging the tags of the limited amount of poc we get in the mcu in favor for characters that will always receive more attention from the white fandom.

222 notes • Posted 2021-04-27 15:03:59 GMT

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[emgoesmed]

Thanks for the tag, @do-no-harm-hopefully

1. Why did you choose your URL?

I wanted to make a blog about my journey to a career in medicine, and it's vague so it will still apply if I keep using this blog as a physician. "Em" is a nickname of mine, I would feel weird having my full name in my URL.

2. Any side blogs?

Nope.

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

Since 2014, I think. I had a personal blog for memes, which is now deactivated. Then I had a studyblr sideblog in 2016? but I deactivated that too. I started this blog in 2018.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

Nope. I love scrolling through the different studyblr and medblr tags and liking posts, but I rarely reblog stuff. I really appreciate the content that everyone puts out but I like that my blog is just my own thoughts, pictures, and posts.

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

Copying & pasting from my intro post 3 years ago (I had to scroll way back in the archive for this one, folks):

Over the last couple years I’ve found it to be a much more inclusive and academically positive community than I originally expected.

I want to get more involved and interact with all of you lovely people, which is difficult to do when i’m using a side blog.

There are a lot of cool resources and people from all over the globe who are studying medicine which I think is awesome.

This blog is kind of an electronic timeline for me since I’m not a traditional student who is applying to go to med school straight out of undergrad. I have ended up taking a somewhat roundabout route, and it’s a fun way to document, which I’d like to keep up in medical school when I get there.

6. Why did you choose your icon?

Coffee is a very stereotypical studyblr picture to post, but whatever. I remember this was a delicious cappuccino from a cafe I really like, I was wearing my favorite nailpolish and a comfy old sweater, and I think the photo just has calm vibes.

7. Why did you choose your header?

It's the same as my icon.

8. What is your post with the most notes?

This post. I think it resonated with a lot of people who are uncertain about coming out of lockdown and what "a return to normal" means, given the huge sociopolitical upheaval and conflicting messages about how "the pandemic is over" when there continue to be highly uneven vaccination rates and unequal access to healthcare both within countries and around the globe.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

I don't keep track, but it's really great to virtually cheer everyone on as they pursue their interests and figure things out.

10. How many followers do you have?

1,208 as of this morning.

11. How many people do you follow?

118. It's kind of arbitrary and I think a bunch of those are inactive. I should follow more people.

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

Not on this account.

13. How often do you use tumblr each day?

Too much, honestly, but less than other apps. I recently got a book from the library called "How To Break Up With Your Phone" because I am definitely addicted and the pandemic made my screen usage worse.

14. Did you have a fight/argument with a blog once? Who won?

No, I haven't.

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

I'm not 100% sure what this refers to, but the phrase is ridiculous.

16. Do you like tag games?

This is the first one I've participated in, I think. It's fun!

17. Do you like ask games?

I've never done an ask game before but they sound fun to me!

18. Which of your tumblr mutuals do you think is famous?

I have no idea. I like that tumblr doesn't put follower counts front-and-center, although obviously there are still "popular" blogs and parasocial relationships on the website. I do have some real-life friends who are microinfluencers, for example 200k+ followers on TikTok or 100k+ subscribers on YouTube.

19. Do you have a crush on a tumblr mutual?

Nah, but I do want to be friends with all of them! I've only ever had 2 crushes in my 26 years on this earth, and those were people I knew in real life.

20. Tagging (if you want!)

@lattesandlearning @future-doctor-r and anyone who wants to!! I don't know who to tag lol

[imtheinvisiblequeen]

Thanks for the tags my lovely @onabouteverything ! I ended up just putting them together on one post here.

Tag Game 1

Why did you choose your url?

I couldn't think of something creative that involved Queen so I took a lyric from one of their songs and changed a word to queen

Any side blogs?

this is my side blog! my main is @whatmarisays

How long have you been on Tumblr?

I've been here for 9 years

Do you have a queue tag?

Had one but I honestly don't use it anymore

Why did you start your blog in the first place?

well this one I started because I didn't want to flood people who followed me on my main with all the queen/borhap stuff

Why did you choose your icon?

Ben Hardy is handsome af and he looks so good as Roger Taylor

Why did you choose your header?

I wanted a space theme background because Brian is an astrophysicist and because I thought it would look cool to combine both outer space and Queen.

What's your post with the most notes?

I think it was one that involved BoRhap screenshots but im not too sure

How many mutuals do you have?

Quite a few. Just know that if I follow you from @/whatmarisays, then I consider us mutuals.

How many followers do you have?

272 I think. I don't know where they all came from but I appreciate and love every single one.

How many people do you follow?

Lots of amazing wonderful people

Have you ever made a shitpost?

Not to my recollection haha

How often do you use Tumblr each day?

Yep, log in a few times a day although not as active as I used to be - its me taking a small break for now

Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

No, I dont think so. If there was I was never made aware of it. Hopefully I never will get into an argument/fight though.

How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

I usually avoid them. I'll read them but thats about it.

Do you like tag games?

Love them! Don't hesitate to tag me in them.

Do you like ask games?

Yes! I love answering questions and what not! Feel free to do these if they're on my blog

Which of your Tumblr mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

all of them

Do you have a crush on a mutual?

No not really.

Tag Game 2

Pic crew link

Tag Game 3

Self-isolation tag game!

Rules: the last photo/gif of a celebrity/character that you saved is your isolation buddy

I have Taron Egerton haha he could be a really great and fun isolation buddy