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hinamie · 21 days

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spiraling

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk art #megumi fushiguro #fushiguro megumi #gojo satoru #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #the minute i realized how tg coded the composition n colours were i decided to turn it up to 11 #i was racking my brain trying 2 figure out how to get the layered tissue paper look tht i talked abt ishida's cover art having #cycled through all my usual layer modes n nothing ws Quite right #until wouldnt u know it . divide n subtract!!!!! i NEVER use divide or subtract bc theyre impossible #but fr this??? its like they were made for it oh my god #it makes the greys look translucent n all my textures pop in a way that makes them appear splotchy n Bruised #which ws the whole point thts the Look god i am so PLEASED #when the layer modes tht notoriously get No love finally find their niche <33 peace and love <333 #filing this away fr later i am going 2 have a lot of fun with this new information i think #im very happy w how the colours look n i dont think anything else wld have kept the right Mood #but i am always so >:/ when i have to use a palette tht forces me into giving megumi blue eyes #had to set aside th green eyed megu agenda fr the Aesthetic unfortunately #anyway i knew from the minute i saw it that i wanted to do smth involving the opening panel of 268 #bc that panel is S tier #i figured tht if nothing came 2 me i wld just redraw it as-is bc it's alr so good but as i ws sketching i was like #u know what u havent done in a while? art tht looks like u r going Insane #art tht makes ur family ask whether everything is ok #so i once again tucked megumi's knees up 2 his chest and apologized insincerely to him fr making the third megumi angst piece in a row #:)

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artilite · 5 months

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have a lion dance for these trying times ♥♥

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fallout-lou-begas · 23 days

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attention everybody: best ghoul finally got his due

#harland and ranger ghost have been my two 'would have been incredible companion' character picks forever #(the same mod author also made a similarly template-based mod for a ranger ghost companion--#--but unfortunately the ranger ghost companion that exists in my head [and i outlined a design for years ago]--#--has lived in my mind for so long that i can't help but be immeasurably disappointed by a mod that just uses a truly minimal template)#(nothing wrong with that i'm just left wanting more than the perfectly fine project scope can give me)#fallout new vegas #harland #mods #Youtube

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space-sheep08 · 10 days

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Actually so tired that people mainly focus on the bdsm when they talk about La Pianiste when we literally have this dynamic right here. Like, that's insane.

What if you were a little girl in her 40's who couldn't grow up because of your mother-wife who made you sleep in her bed and forced you to repress every sexual desires and thoughts of becoming your own person just to keep you close to her ? What if you fought back and yearned for dangerous things out of her reach ? But also, what if you let her because it's all you've ever known and been taught to want ?

#these two are so entangled with each other and in the roles they play #(mother and daughter. husband and wife. prodigal or ungrateful daughter. adoring or mocking mother)#that they cannot handle it when something else is thrown into the mix #There's no space left because they fill all the roles in each other's lives.#but at the same time they never give the other exactly what she wants #The fights never last. Erika will never live up to her mother's ambitions. And her mother will never give her any form of affection which #might satiate her hunger for love. And so on.#They are deeply imperfect- Love and Despise each other but they could never bear the thought of being separated #When I read the part in the book where Erika talks to Walter for the first time and all she wants is to go back into her mother's womb...#you can't make that shi up #when people talk about toxic yuri that's what they could mean but unfortunately we live in a society #gradually learning to accept the person I'm becoming who would've been burned at the stake by my younger self <3 #been having so much thoughts about this film once again. And I know that nothing written here is new but I'm a little sad no one really #talks about this relationship online since it's really the heart of the story for me #Of course everything happening with Walter is important. But none of that would be there without the mother-daughter situation #la pianiste #the piano teacher #haneke #sheep stuffs #isabelle huppert #also I'd kinda get it if it was another film and it made people too uncomfortable to talk about it. but I mean this is literally La Pianist

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cobaltfluff · 2 months

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what is his deal ???

#p4g #persona #art tag #unfortunately i have no new meme material as i havent played in months #still stuck at the end of may i think #but like... i have so little motivation to play #persona writing and mystery solving doesnt really mesh well lmao #idk maybe this guy is nothing but like #i laughed so damn hard when he said that line #like who do you think you are mate a velvet room attendant??#also the fact that the game tells you to solve a mystery so im paying extra attention to everything #only to find bits of writing REALLY stupid #like it's trying too hard to throw you a red herring or sth #i cant just sit back and watch the characters solve the mystery if they're being so blatantly stupid about it #i have half a mind to draw out all the bit i hate #like why tf did this guy have a voiced intro when this is clearly an old game where they probs only did the necessary stuff #it's probs unfair that im reading the meta as well but like... it's just right in my face i cant ignore it!!#anyway my yu has to take matters into his own hands #but can he even trust himself??? WHAT IF IT'S ME #lmao ded anyway idk guys guess i just have to play it out

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charlesemersonwinchesteriii · 1 year

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Medical log, stardate 18935.15. Once more have I seen the tailor go out in his lizard fashion—

#least funny way to make this joke BUT. look how much thought I put into that stardate!#Star Trek: Deep Space 9 #it would be so much easier to listen to the new audiodrama podcast of drac daily instead of reading but unfortunately #our dear solicitor will forever sound exactly like our dear doctor to me now because somehow it has become Hot Reptile Summer in my brain #and everything is melting together like changeling soup. and this is BEFORE the gomens s2 premiere. christ.#Dracula: How dare you touch him!! This man belongs to me!! I too can love!!!#me reading All That: omg just like in all my favorite ''Garak saves Julian from other Cardassians'' fanfics :3 #god I love how as far as I know there's literally nothing in canon to support any of our weird kinky #''claiming a mate by leaving a bite mark scar on their neck'' or any of that other fanon stuff for Cardassians #it's not like with the Klingon dicks or Vulcan pon farr. anybody could make up absolutely anything about Cardassians #and every single writer I've ever read has chosen shit like mating bites scent marking egg laying #and of course. glowing blue WAP with a built in strap. I fucking love you Deep Space 9 fandom there will never be another like you!!!!!!#Starky's Original Posts #Dracula Daily #COMPUTER. ERASE LOG.

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starleska · 3 months

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if no one else is going to draw selfship art with Siegfried then i guess it's up to me...😳🌹

#shut UP don't look at me 🙈🙈🙈#i just!!!! think he's very pretty is all!!!! and charming!!!!! and a deeply unhinged person!!! (which unfortunately means i'm obsessed)#fixation shook me so hard i didn't even have time to make a new YGO OC. this just had to be drawn #nothing wrong with living out your fairytale fantasy? 😖👉👈#siegfried von schroeder #zigfried von schroeder #yu-gi-oh!#yugioh #ygo #kaibacorp grand prix #selfship #oc x canon #starfried #starleskart

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figofswords · 8 months

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anybody remember the stephanie brown essay I was working on under a research grant fully last summer? yeah it’s not done yet it super needs to be done and I’ve been avoiding working on it for weeks. someone tell me to just do it already

#the problem is. actually there are several problems #1) I’ve been out of the Batman/dc comics phase for almost a year so I don’t care that much about the topic #2) I am fifteen pages in and have not touched it in months so I’ve completely lost my train of thought #3) I can’t just reread it because I hate first five pages or so and I know I need to change it but I was trying to finish before editing #so now my only solution is I need to open up a new doc and completely restructure the whole thing by splicing together the existing writing #so that I can figure out where the hell im going with this and make sure things fit together better #unfortunately that sounds fucking exhausting #but I told my mentor I would have an update for him by the end of the week and. well. it’s the end of the week #I have to present it in April. I have to write and submit an abstract in March #the school gave me $1500 for this stupid essay and if I don’t have anything to show for myself.#well. I don’t know they can’t take the money BACK but it’s not a good look #and also I would feel bad #I did the research!!! i interviewed comic writers even!!! I just haven’t finished WRITING IT DOWN #and I KNOOOOWW once I get started it’ll be fine once I’m going I’m going #but STARTING is hard because I feel like I have to finish it in one go which makes it so huge and daunting #I’m like. slamming my head into a wall. just write a couple sentences Jess something is better than nothing #just start it you don’t have to finish just START just MAKE the new DOC #I know!!!!! that is what my therapist would say!!!! Jess you’re trying to oneshot it bc of your dumb adhd brain!!!!#stop looking at it like that and making it scarier!!!#but even tho I know that logically I’m still like oh I should put away the dishes o should make bread #I should work on my six different art pieces I should do laundry i should play with the puppy I should go for a walk I sh

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months

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#im back from a week with my dad at home and at the lake #it was really nice to b home for a while but now im a mess lol #bc it really makes me wanna move back to Appalachia and not do another semester out here #and also this was our 1st trip to the lake without my mom being there. she loved the lake. she grew up on the water and was named after an #island. she died before she could use our new jetski. which my dad bought for her and she would have loved #and i stood in her sandles bc my dad keeps them out by the fireplace and my toes fit almost exactly into the impressions of her feet #and i came come with another bag full of her clothes. and i feel bad for my dad being all alone in that big house #i mean hes got the dogs but theyre 7 and 8 and theyre big boys so they probably dont have all that long left. itll be so sad when they die.#there was a moment where i was talking to the dogs and he said i sounded exactly like my mom. which was kinda intentional #on my part bc i say a lot of things bc she would say them. stolen phrases and intonations. pieces of things ive taken.#its still weird that she's just gone forever. the time in the hospital feels like it was some horrible nightmare.#and now shes never gonna kno where we end up. she's left rooms full of half tumbled rocks and half sorted photos and half organized #classroom supplies. the outlines of a person that will slowly be stitched out of existance as time moves on until theres nothing left and #the memories are gone. its just sad is all. especially bc she didnt deserve it. no one does but expecally not her.#but unfortunately life isnt about getting what you deserve. its chaos and coincidence all the way down.#unrelated

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marshmallowgoop · 11 months

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Repostober Day 30 | October 30, 2008

The first episode of Wakfu premiered October 30, 2008! These are a few Wakfu pieces I drew in 2011.

#repostober #wakfu #goop draws #at least i *think* the grougaloragran and chibi was drawn in 2011... it wasn't dated unfortunately ^^; but 2011 would make sense #sadly i was so disappointed by the season 2 finale that i kind of never really looked back at wakfu #but it's got more seasons now and an english dub with some big-name actors? haha idk maybe i should give it a chance again #it's not like i even fully understood the finale anyway--i watched it raw in french on the france 3 site when it aired and idk french ^^;#sad that apparently there's nothing new about nora? 'islands of wakfu' really got to me evidently...#and while a lot of the anatomy is super whack on these pieces i am proud of myself for attempting a bg in that one with nora and the tofu!

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tenrose · 4 months

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I hate living in this world.

#misc #negativity tw #first off i had an argument with a colleague at work #we had to move places for the millionth time in this stupid open space #which already annoyed me #but this guy came at bargained like he always do while i said nothing because it's not like we chooae #and he always does that for actual work because and idk at first i made a snarky comment about now that he got what he wanted he better be #ready to work instead of hiding when somebody ask him to do his job #and he told me he didn't understand the remark #and my hot temper that makes me snap every five years took over #i bet he has by now complaining aboutme like he does about everything #anyway i take hours to calm down (not calm after 4 hours)#I'm also pissed at me cause i can't get emotional without shaking stupidly which makes me look like an hysterical person (i mean sadly i am)#also if there has to have an explanation once my anger is gone tomorrow i will be back on social anxiety mode which is gonna make it worse #all of this reminded me that i need to find a new job for ten thousand reasons #but unfortunately all employers are shit and actually i don't even know what i want to do #and as usual i have no energy for anything because i am still a major piece of shit #then i wanted to relax #made the mistake to open Instagram because I'm also stupid #and i know i don't often talk about politics and stuff #but it's really draining me #i barely or read news just enough to be aware #and honestly its exhausting but I dont want to complain cause Im in a privileged position where i have the chance to be able to 'shut off'#and yes my country and especially this government is sickening me #and like its people too #and also insta is full of pride posts #and i am stupid to read the homophobic and transphobic comments #and genuinely these people alongside racist and islamophobic people really scare the hell out of me #hopefully i don't engage but i shouldn't read anything at all tbh #speaking of pride im spiralling because even tho i kinda identify as aro i feel like a freak and i have nobody to tell me im not

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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Why not hunt down some fun fanfics to read while you rest your wrists?

unfortunately i have hunted too enthusiastically and drained the area's natural resources

#i have like... three tabs open for some dc fics that im not in the mood for rn #but as for welcome home? i am patiently waiting for updates and also regularly refresh the page for new ones #ive read all the ones that reach my (unfortunately) specific and sorta high standards #i regret to admit that im a bit uhhhh picky about what fanfics i read? perhaps even stringent?#so basically when i say 'oh theres nothing for me to read woe is me'#i am saying that in front of a pile of hundreds of fics that i have either lightly poked or completely brushed past #rambles from the bog #although i Have considered re-reading this one absolute Banger of a snufmin fic...#maybe i Will do that...#thank you for the nudge anon im opening a new tab as i type #im prepared for it to hurt me again. intensely. im 100% going to cry at some point tonight when i finish it

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aviangrian · 5 months

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thank god chappell roan didn’t release good luck babe in summer 22!

#i unfortunately had a homoerotic female friendship that ended abruptly and tragically #she was my best friend for YEARS like we met when we were 11 #i knew i was queer pretty early on but it’s so painfully obvious in hindsight how badly she was repressing everything #we fell asleep together she liked every guy i liked she was invested in every female situationship i had #like it was so painfully obvious what we were but we were just an undefined weird tension homoerotic pair of besties!#she always wanted to know every detail of my sex life w women refused to hear about the men i was w #she would hold me when we watched movies she wanted to do everything w me and she hated me after we graduated hs!#last conversation was on her birthday haven’t spoken to her once since #this song has sent me into a 3 day spiral session if you can’t tell 😭#never fully gotten over her but i see her post w her new friends at her school 6 hours away like cool cool okay #you’re going to ignore i ever existed instead of confronting your feelings okay! don’t know why she wants nothing to do w me anymore tho #crazy stuff it’s been a year and a half since we stopped being friends but i think about her a lot and i wonder if she thinks about me #i have 2 playlists about her she still follows me on spotify but she didn’t even wish me a happy birthday #at the end of the day i hope she figures everything out. you’re nothing more than his wife and all that #this song THIS SONG SHE WONT LEAVE MY MIND #probably delete later. we’ll see cause all my friends are sick of hearing me talk about her but i can’t stop she’s been in my mind since #this song dropped so thanks chappell 🥹🥹🫡

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welcometogrouchland · 6 months

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"lol they should make Steph spoiler again she's basically not even a Batgirl" look I'm not too jazzed about the current state of Batgirl lore either rn but if I have to suffer through another decade of terrible babsgirl content PLEASE AT LEAST LET ME HAVE BATGIRL STEPH, IF ONLY IN NAME

#ramblings of a lunatic #dc comics #stephanie brown #ideally we'd have no babsgirls and Steph and Cass co-existing as two different types of batgirls both together and separate #since even beyond personality the types of heroes they were- how they fought what they fought their thinking their approach etc-#-was all very different from each other #and in calling back to their respective eras as Batgirl we'd get a steph who feels more like batgirl and less like n52 spoiler #but unfortunately dc hates me and insists on shoving babs into a role better occupied by steph and cass #leaving neither girl to really be able to flourish as batgirl #< this was inspired by me seeing ppl. not quite gloating. that's mean. but they were celebrating-#-about some steph concept art (NEW STUFF WITH STEPH WOO) being labeled ''batgirl/spoiler''#like i don't think it's a reflection of story progression (bc it wouldn't be progression. it'd be regression. batgirl was forward for steph)#i think it's a reflection of the fact that editorial feels bullied and strong armed by fans into acknowledging steph (and cass) as batgirls #sips juice. anyway #i lowkey think it'd be cool to have steph and cass be batgirls in different cities. cass already had bludhaven let steph take a stab at it #if we're insistent on keeping babs in bludhaven then let her oracle for steph ala bg 2009 #it'd be neat! we could finally explore the tensions and parallels between dick and steph!#and you wouldn't have to remove steph from gotham either considering dicks there constantly too #you lose lich rally nothing and gain so much #but really I'm happy we get anything with steph considering she's only been getting cameos for nearly a year now #steph nation winning despite it all

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menlove · 1 year

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you are a dyke in the early/mid 2010s. that one episode of black mirror (san junipero), carmilla, the 100, orphan black, and unfortunately orange is the new black is all you have. there are so many white people. you are writing genderbends of popular male ships to make yourself feel something. you put on but i'm a cheerleader for the 10th time that year. you are in high school and you just changed your pronouns.

#IS THIS highly specific? yes. but also. it's real to me!#i miss carmilla every day tbh #inspired by the fact that i am finally sitting down to watch the new season of black mirror #but nothing will ever compare to san junipero it was everything to me #i will say for me w the 100 i wasnt even really into clarke and lexa im sorryyyyyy #i was too busy projecting some genders onto bellamy unfortunately

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sprnklersplashes · 2 months

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in honour of taylor performing nothing new x dear reader, please remember to check in on your friends who were deemed gifted and talented as children and who were told they were destined for great things but lost their spark somewhere along the way and are now lonely, anxious, depressed adults who never learned social skills as a child because they were too busy being perfect and are wondering where their potential went and searching for something, anything to fill the void inside them.

they need it.

#taylor swift #dear reader #nothing new #eras tour #this mashup would have either killed me dead or healed me #we'll never know unfortunately/#also: hi rory gilmore kinnies!

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