#03/15/2023

[sonch]

hey girl :/ I'm sorry but your boyfriend got stabbed by his best friend.... yeah he was too excited and annoying about the infamous ceaser stabbing party on tumblr so his best friend just couldn't take it anymore and brutally murdered him :// yeah sorry

[finelyagedlemons]

commission i did recently for a good friend of mine for their monitor backgrounds!

[missouririver]

wink

[eahostudiogallery]

Art Gets Around

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Bernie Vyzga

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Shizuo Fujimoro - Night Train

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Joop Polder

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high tide ride

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Michiel Schrijver

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Albrecht Dürer

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Jacksonville turbine interchange

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René Elstner - Geometry of Transport

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Vilhelm Bjerke-Petersen - Underground with Rails and Figures, 1931

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Edward Hopper - American Locomotive, 1944

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Wei Dong - Going Away

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[dailysudeikis]

JASON SUDEIKIS at the Today show - March 15, 2023.

[peribot]

lonely girl, you are my world!

[vhscorp]

Tu es mon seul refuge…

V. H. SCORP

[nicydraws]

Zombie Miku - Timelapse version

Design based on DECO*27 - Zombies feat. Hatsune Miku

[glimmerofawesome]

Guess which play was the penalty.

[rkntg]

[elicatkin]

[missouririver]

[eggmeralda]

imagine if i went back to that era where i just post a bunch of numbers like 4 times a day

[unsentnotes]

what does it mean to you, to be loved?

15 March 2023 at 7:41 pm

Devising q for Ash.

To me, to be loved is to feel safe. To feel safety and warmth in their presence, to have trust and be at ease. To be able to be vulnerable, to be able to expose these sides of yourself that are fragile.

I feel many types of love quite often, from many people that surround me and people from afar. I'm a person that is loved by family, friends, lovers and acquaintances, or so i've heard.

One thing i personally know is that i give out a lot of love, Im quite friendly, very affectionate and i have a lot of care for those people around me. I'm glad I have this nature, my father calls me too soft because of it, but i think it's a reflection of how i'd want to be treated as. I wish for everyone to have a good time in my presence. Whenever i meet a friend of a friend, and introduce myself, they always have a lot of positive words that they've heard about me. "i love jen yeah! she's really nice and cool."

To feel and experience love is a truly beautiful feeling, and it is so very different each time.

My father doesn't show affection at all, his "love language" is doing things; gift giving and acts of service. He never has told me that he's proud of me or that he loves me, but i can tell in the way he saves my photos and achievements onto his computer in folders. The day after an argument, and he's been grocery shopping, i can tell when he's sorry and he loves me bc of the mango sitting at the bottom of the fridge. He doesn't like mango. We have a strange and difficult relationship, my dad and I, we bicker a lot and generally don't agree on a lot of things. But I know I am loved by the little things he goes out of his way to do for me, like buying lactose free milk despite thinking it's a load of bullshit.

My best friend Hannah, we barely talk online, but when we're both going home, and we're 10 minutes away from each other, we meet and it's like we're kids again. We don't have to talk or to chat or converse or update each other everyday, i know she's proud of me no matter what i do, as i am so utterly proud and happy for her in everything she does. I feel her love through her unwavering and continuous support for me, always.

Adam. He did love me, so much, though that love emerged from what i could give him and the love and hope i provided for him. He loved me so much he was planning to marry me. He loved me so much that he was terrified of me ever leaving his side, which isn't a healthy mindset i know, but he didn't understand what he was doing. Adam saw me as someone that could save him and help him through anything, his trust and vulnerability he allowed me to have is soemthing i never took for granted. His love was very strong but his heart was very fragile, so so delicate. I know he loved me because he didn't want to die because of me. It can be interpreted in many unhealthy selfish ways, but he did truly love me.

They say a mother's love is the strongest unconditional love out there. I agree wholeheartedly. For almost 10 years, my mum's heart has been aching and hurting, desperate to see me and hold me in her arms again. To hold her daughter and to see her in the flesh, to kiss her and to catch up and live the rest of her life with her. I know my mother loves me. There isn't any more i need to explain. She loves me so fiercely and unconditionally more than anyone on this earth.

Tommy. This person appeared in my life in such a specific time that allowed this love to blossom and bloom and eventually weep and decay. Tommy allowed me to be free, they had so much trust and faith in me and they had so much positive energy. They truly understood my situationship and my past relationship and allowed me to explore this newfound freedom, to explore it with them. It was the first time I was allowed to be truthful, to start a new slate with no insecurities or barriers. For the first time, i could be vulnerable and be curious and to learn without being reprimanded or scorned for my "failures". I was in the process of a rebirth of my own self, a life and sense of self without Adam, and Tommy was there to hold my hand through it. The love and care i have for this person is almost indescribable, because i am so utterly grateful for everything they have done and introduced me to. They have allowed me to become who i am today, continuously supporting me in everything i did, hyping me up and being so proud and happy with all of my achievements- big or small. I needed that more than anything in that time period, im very lucky to have known this person, and i am humbled that i could even be a part of their life as prevalent as i was. I know wholeheartedly that i was loved, and continue to be loved in their own way; just no longer romantically.

Robbie. My darling darling Robbie. When i said that love is beautiful and comes in many different shapes and forms, he really made me realise this. He's so,,, real. So human and so organic?

[dailysudeikis]

JASON SUDEIKIS at the Ted Lasso season 3 panel - March 15, 2023.