#2023 is my artsy year

[theprincesslibrary]

doing eyes from @DoodleTraffic course

First full pages, not all of it good, but I still want to document the process.

[steine-druff]

.... where did the moon go?

[dontvap0rdawave]

Merry New Years, or whatever, go crazy

[lemon-pilled]

yknow what i may as well do one of these before the clock hits new years for me

comparing my janurary art to my december art im surprised by the improvement ngl

[summersofsalt]

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[artsy--shipper]

I posted 268 times in 2022

25 posts created (9%)

243 posts reblogged (91%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@artsy--shipper

@artsy-dreamer

@reishichi

@cece-0708

I tagged 268 of my posts in 2022

#fav - 168 posts

#bnha - 136 posts

#ml - 50 posts

#kamijirou - 29 posts

#artsy talks - 24 posts

#izuocha - 23 posts

#todomomo - 19 posts

#not ship - 17 posts

#ladynoir - 15 posts

#my hero academia - 13 posts

Longest Tag: 111 characters

#very very good ships all of them 🥰🥰🥰 i’ll never understand how anyone could actually hate any of the sides??

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

So I heard there was a demand for more Awamomo fluff? 👀

13 notes - Posted January 27, 2022

#4

wait did I seriously never post this

15 notes - Posted October 31, 2022

#3

24 notes - Posted February 2, 2022

#2

...all right, you know what, I’m gonna say it 

Kacchako is... 

KacchaCUTE 

And I think they should... 

KacchaKISS 

that is all, I’ll be taking my leave now XD

55 notes - Posted June 19, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Kacchako? Kacchako 👍

64 notes - Posted August 31, 2022

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[withered-rose-unbreakable-lotus]

Masterpost: Visual Kei movies & other types jrockers were involved

So, it came to my attention some of you want to watch more visual kei movies so I thought of listing what I know, in case you've missed any of those. Please feel free to add anything I've missed with reblogs or in the comments.

Thank you @kirk-goes-to-gallifrey for the three movie links! ^^ And thank you @waretamado for helping with the titles of Plastic Tree's movies! Btw most of the vkei only movies must still be available on YT guys, however not all of them will be on HD.

Visual Kei movies:

Seth et Holth (1993) (Hide) YT link (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vx_laJCEpew)

Moon Child (2003) (Gackt & Hyde)

Verte Aile/Bel Air (1997) (Malice Mizer) YT link (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vdd58pTaK8A)

Bara no Konrei/Bridal of the Rose (2001) (Malice Mizer) YT link (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tr1d_cFRnxs)

BeatRock☆Love (2009) (Takeru ex.SuG)

Number Six (2006) (Alice Nine)

Yuku Pura Kuru Pura... Edokawa Puranpo no 「Ougon otoko」~「Visual bako no bijo」 (Plastic Tree) YT link (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=81Bb-3L4l2E)

Yuku Pura Kuru Pura... Edokawa Puranpo no 「Onan tokage」~「Bishounen wo kuu bijo」 (Plastic Tree) YT link (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wAha6vDCE0Q)

Yuku Pura Kuru Pura...Edokawa Puranpo no「Angura Kaijin」~「Remon no bijo」 (Plastic Tree) YT link (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pzt3ai5LSXc)

Ascendead Master (2009) (Versailles)

Onegai Kanaete (2011) (Versailles)

Oresama (2004) (Miyavi) YT link (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NcBvKQfVKNM)

Soundtrack (2002) (Sugizo) (I don't know if it's a vkei movie but since the theme appears to be music-oriented, I put it here)

Non Visual Kei movies jrockers acted in:

Kagen no Tsuki (2004) (this is a live action of a manga) (Hyde)

There is a movie that Takeru of SuG had played in for only a couple of scenes that was his first ever role, but I forget the name. I remember sth about "blue generation" or sth. If sb remembers it, please put it in the comments. Most people might remember the scene with the fluffy coat, him with blond hair turning to the protagonist with a menacing look, from the distance.

Paracelcus' Homonculus (2015) (this is an artsy film based off a photographer's exhibition) (Takeru of SuG)

Midori: the Camellia girl (2016) (live action of a manga) (Takeru of SuG)

Bunraku (2010) (Gackt)

Akumu-chan (2014) (Gackt)

Karanukan (2018) (Gackt)

Tonde Saitama 1 (2019) & 2 (2023) (Gackt)

Moshimo Tokugawa Ieyasu ga Sori Daijin ni Nattara (2024) (Gackt)

Furin Kazan (2007) (Gackt)

Mr. Brain (2009) (it must have been 1 episode or 2) (Gackt)

Tempest (2011) (Gackt)

Sengoku Basara (2012) (Gackt)

Time Spiral (2014) (Gackt)

BLEACH (2018) (live action) (Miyavi)

Hell Dogs (2022) (Miyavi)

Familia (2023) (Miyavi)

Maleficent: Mistress of Evil (2019) (Miyavi)

Kate (2021) (Miyavi)

Stray (2019) (Miyavi)

Unbroken (2014) (Miyavi)

There's a movie with either gangs or bands that Chiyu of SuG played after the disband. Papiko, shed your light cause I don't remember the title.

30-thirty (2000) Hakuei

Other

REPO! The Genetic Opera (2008) (Yoshiki was involved with the music production of this film. Personally I learnt it years after I'd watched it)

Death Trance (2005) (It features many Dir en Grey songs in its soundtracks)

Hamlet (1998) (A rock opera version of the famous play, by Penicillin) YT link (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hljXGPsUU1Q)

I hope you can find anything you like and enjoy!

[nilufleur]

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VARIOUS TOKYOREV  +  TATTOO HEADCANONS  PT2

( mitsuya - keisuke - hakkai )

part 1

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# TAKASHI

- mitsuya likes the art of tattoo, still he doesn't prefer loud and visible tattoos on himself. that's why they're usually small and on the more concealed parts of his skin

- his tattoos are personal to him that's why he doesn't like exposing them ( he's a little shy about it)

-  he loves floral designs. they look delicate to him and he would get one tatted on his chest

- most likely sketched most of his tattoo designs himself

- he got all his tattoos at a young age probably like before he hit 20. the main reason for that is cause he dealt with body issues a lot during that time. didn't get any tats after like 20-21

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# KEISUKE

- kei got his tattoos mostly against his own will

- nahoya and kazutora kept on insisting a lot and eventually kei agreed (so they'd stop annoying him) after he got his first tat he swore he'd never get another one again because 'it hurted like a bitch and its poinltess anyway'

- he did get a few other ones. separately, on different occasions

- kazutora gave him a tattoo

- has his mom's birth year tatted somewhere on his arm or chest

- overall he doesn't have that many tattoos unlike his friends maybe like 4-5 mostly on his arms and chest and maybe back too

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# HAKKAI

- small, minimalistic and artsy

- big fan of colored ink tats, think they give it a more personalised and unique look

- his tattoos don't really have a meaning he just got them cause they're pretty

- he preffers small tattoos since he's also a model

- doesn't get them all separately, he usually thinks it through asks yuzuha and then decides which designs he wants

- takes yuzuha with him everytime, he also wanted takashi to try tattooing him since its 'the same thing as sketching his designs' (it's not) mitsuya refused of course

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[sundove88]

Mutual Appreciation Post of 2023

This year has been a great one for me on Tumblr, especially since I have hit a lot of milestones this year.

Not only did I graduate high school, become an adult, start my own business with help from my family, and start exercising a lot more, but I also decided to make a difference and help comfort those in need of help despite all of the drama, craziness, and conflict that’s happened this year.

With that said and done, here are some of the many mutuals I would like to recognize this year.

@kayssweetdreams @thehyperrequiem @thetropicalfairy @jettthespeeddemon @artisticangel @sam-rexian @rosemary-posts-random-crap @lovelyteng @crystallinedreamsfinelypowdered @kindabizarretbh @artsy-jandi @localanimeidiot @nightcovefox @tsuchristmas @gamegem92 @finleyforevermore @shadowqueen402 @alex-frostwalker @pennyadodumuss @mochihugss @stardustshimmer @busy-dadzawa-fish @plasticoceanpearl @drdeadcase93 @lunartearrose @ultimatestellar @microwaved-toast @spinomaster17 @hiddenobject-fanblog @glamrockstardustcookie @luigifan00001 @somethingcoolerinsummer @stormrider824 @mechaking789 @autisticfoxgirl333 @potatogirlll @gerbelx2000-blog @cheezecirno @thunder-jolt @mybrainissquishy @di3dtry1ng @thedarkcrystopilisempire @gemwing2010 @julieczyras @a-little-ray-of-fantasy @huepazu

And so many more! Even if I didn’t tag you, that doesn’t mean I don’t hear you!

I hope that you all know that I am more than grateful in my heart to have met you, and I hope that we can talk more in the future!

Go ahead and reblog this, and tag your mutuals to show how much you care about them going into 2024!

I want you all to see that you’re indeed special in your own ways, and that it’s never too late to make a change for the better. :)

[nighttimeoracle]

𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟹

Were you brimming with curiosity for knowing how Venus would reward you next year? Not anymore.

Take a deep breath, look at the images above and choose the one which sparks hope in you.

I will post at least two other pick-a-cards this month, addressing your finances and challenges for 2023. Keep on the look out, gals.

Tips are accepted here.

𝙿𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝟷

You probably entered 2023 with hopes of finding true love and/or getting over your former crush, but you would be unable to leave a situationship that went on hiatus behind or get over a certain person quickly. You might feel stuck with thoughts of your past lover and like there's no one of interest paying attention to you. Good news, you will go out in a few dates with the passing months, and you will be meeting new people that could turn into new friends and good dating experiences, but your heart is missing the spark of passion around these new people. You might get mad at the thought you went heartless and would spit on the name of the last person you hit it off with yet nothing came out of it. You might get in this state of melancholy, almost giving up on finding love this new year... Honey, I swear everything is going to be ok. You got the 10 of cups in this spread, and if you know anything about Tarot, then you may recognize this card as good news and real love knocking at your door. That situationship/person I spoke at the beginning? They're coming back to you, baby. They needed some time to clear their thoughts and understand how much they wanted this connection to become something tangible. I'm not making excuses for this person whom honestly has poor communication skills, but they were/are definitely not ok. This person would crawl back to you after many sleepless nights and shedded tears, but their living hell is not over yet. I can't tell what they are undergoing, but you would see them looking like a wet dog that was lost for hours (instead of weeks/months) in a rainy night and you would totally pity them and let them in. You could've thought your feelings for this person died in their absence, but having them under your shelter and sitting next to each other, it would feel like the time defrosted itself and those mutual feelings were back again. You will feel overwhelmed by this whole ordeal and wonder why it's happening to you. Your person doesn't look like they can answer you either. You are reconciling out of the blue and you will be able to understand each other better this time. If one of you ever felt "invisible" to the other, not the case anymore. It's going to take some time before you can stablish a serious relationship with them, but do not lose faith. You and this person share one destiny and many surprises awaits you both ahead.

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𝙿𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝟸

Congratulations, this one is a sweetheart. This new romance is a blessing in disguise that you wasn't expecting to receive. Literally, "evolved love" is what I heard. This person is going to make your palms sweat and you would find yourself going quiet in their presence. You might not even be the shy type; that's your new person! They are usually reserved but would feel comfortable around you to strike flowing conversation and even share a soulful experience with you (looks like the artsy type to me). But you? Your confidence left home for taking your dog on a walk and forgot to notice you early. You would be standing there quietly smiling like a fool at your beautiful crush whom is getting heated about explaining something, but never losing their composure. They have a fable character and unconcerned nature; they almost look detached, but this person is passionate about their friendships and they would greatly appreciate your company that happens to feel soothing and refreshing to them. At this time your confidence is home already and it came back with reinforcements, which would encourage you to take solid steps towards this person. In the past, you might not think of taking this course of action without long contemplation, but this person not only inspire you love, but they also make you want to take some risks. Your fingers would tinkle with the desire to touch their skin, specially to lay a hand on the back of their neck as gazing at their lazy yet sensual eyes; they exude sex appeal and you can't help but feeling horny only after some minutes have passed in their presence (this person is going to have you all wrapped around their finger and you will not be oblivious to this reality). You're going to sleep together countless times and the sensations are going to be fantastic. They are a giver and like to take their time with pleasuring their partner and only after they saw their lover had been enough stimulated, then they would start focusing on their own pleasure. I know this person sounds like a dream and you're going to feel like you're with someone you genuinely like and oh they like you back too!! But you might not get into a relationship soon-ish. At least not this year. This person is not deceiving you by treating you in a special way and spending their only free time by your side, but they might hold some information to themselves until they feel you two are in a secure ground like the fact they're committed to a bigger cause, like an upcoming student exchange abroad or this person might actually live far from your city and meeting in person for you two might get into a real challenge. A sacrifice must be done if you want to be together as an official couple.

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𝙿𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝟹

If it is not going to be your slut era, I don't know what it is, lol. You're going to act more carefree and get in touch with your feminine side (in case you're a man or woman with prominent yang energy, then you're going be more alluring to others. Your pheromones are going through the roof 😂), therefore you will be more receptive as in getting favor of others and attracting new suitors because of your nurturing yet confident aura. 2023 is the year for getting a glow-up for so many of you, but I also see some of you were already hot but needed some time to adjust into your new skin and the pandemic's fin in order to shake the awkwardness left by the quarantine off. You're going to be invited to some parties and minor public events by your friends. For some of you it represents getting out of your shell, but for most it's a regular thing and you're going to meet lots of new people this year and your group of friends might slipt into two. Sounds idyllic since you would have one suitor per group. The first one has prominent feminine energy, so they may as well be a woman or a man with delicate features and an easy-to-spot mole besides or under one of their eyes. This person is slim, long, and graceful. I would like to say they look like a cat, but "creature of the sea" is what I feel more inclined to say instead. They don't talk much or rather needs some time for opening up, but this person is clever and has good manners. They are slow paced when it comes to dating, though. You might lose your patience before they come clean about their feelings for you if you're the anxious type. Second suitor is the cheeky and straightforward type; silver-tongue and boy-ish looking. They know what they want and that's your body, baby. It is the typical bad boy/girl and fun loving person. You might feel more attracted to them because of their fierce personality, but it's one risky bet since no one can predict whether this person might develop deep feelings for you and settled down for a relationship, plus don't let first suitor gets wind of it as they are more than the eye meets. Creature of the sea, remember? They are fierce in an different sense. They're self righteous and take romance seriously, so they would take it personally if they discover you're seeing some else and their possessiveness would lead them to dump you (even if you weren't dating in the first place). Choose wisely, my wild little thing.

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[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for not having a job despite having time for it?

🍏🥝🍏🥝 <- to keep track of this when it posts,

My family really loves talking about me(20) when they think I'm not listening. I've heard them on multiple occasions say that I need a job and that I should just start working part-time while I'm going to college. The issue with that is that while other people can do both pretty decently, I dont feel like I'm capable of doing both part time and college without one of them suffering a lot because of the other.

My family is pretty financially stable, and the fees I owe never go over 900 dollars and sometimes I even make my own money off of commissions to help pay for things. I actually did have an actual job during my classes for a while filing things and remote video editing work (for the same job) but one of my family members worked with me there as my boss and I decided to quit after they decided to ask if my mom would've rather died than had me after I told him she called trans people abominations (I am trans, I'm only out to that family member and my brother). I haven't found a consistent thing to do to earn money since but I've been trying really hard to advertise my commissions since then.

The part where I feel really guilty though is the fact that I've been going to a community college for almost 3 years now (with my family supporting me money wise) and know I'm only going to come out with a one year certificate because of how fucked my schedule got in my first year. I didn't meet some prerequisites , and despite the course I wanted being a 2 year degree it was worth almost 80 credits, which felt insane as I went into it. 5 classes a term, some 5 minutes after the other, all based on pouring hours and hours into artsy projects (video, audio, 3d modelling, painting, 2d animation, ect...). I broke down within my third term after I started failing some of my classes. I was still trying for my 2 year degree up until 2023 where I decided that getting a certificate that was similar and getting a job after would probably be better for me at this point rather than spending ANOTHER 2 years struggling OR straight up giving up and dropping out with nothing.

I'm also home a lot when I'm not in class (I'm only taking 2-3 classes a term now). I do little things sometimes like take out the trash and pull dishes from out the washer and so on but it's all only when no one is home because the place where things generally need to be cleaned up is all in our very small kitchen AND the fact that I'm scared of them poking fun at me for "finally doing something for once" because it makes me feel terrible when they do. I end up chilling out in my room completing work and desperately finding work arounds for projects to only ever really need done in my room or on campus- generally anywhere that's not going to worry my grandma too much.

I've told my family that their teasing doesn't make me feel good but it just gets responded with "that's just how we show love!" when I know it doesn't have to be that way! My boyfriend teases me pretty often but the difference is that he actually listens to me when I tell him something he said didn't feel very good to me and we talk it through, and then he doesn't make that joke again or i feel better after knowing the context of it!!! A lot of my family members will bicker until another one ends up crying and it's horrible to watch how petty and bitter everyone can be.

Don't really know what else to write, AITA guys? I know I could be doing a lot more around the house instead of working but I'm scared of being touched (my aunt randomly spanked me as hard as she could one time last year) and scared of more mean comments being thrown my way. I already have a plan to leave this home and have been open about it to them, but I don't want to rush it if I don't have to and want to spend a few years saving money up so that I'm not in a horrible situation if things go awry.

What are these acronyms?

[iwillrememberyoumarathon]

I Will Remember You Fic Marathon 2023: Masterlist

Thank you to our amazing Buffy/Angel writers and artists for an event that exceeded all of our expectations! Here are the incredible 41 stories and 15 artworks that made up this year's revamped marathon:

Day 1: daughter by bonniesfire (@lalosalamcnca) Day 2: Yours, Always by @buffy-targaryen Day 3: Breaking Up Is Hard To Do by NicHawkins Day 4: After School Special by a2zmom Day 5: Insatiable by MadeInGold (@reallyreal-madeingold) Day 6: Isn’t It Lovely? (To Die At The Hand of The One You Love) by TemperanceCain Day 7: Amaranthine by Lalaith_Quetzalli (@lalaithquetzallicaresi) Day 8: Wake-Up Call by MamaBewear Day 9: Blush by @aboutafox Day 10: The kitchen won’t collapse if men are cooking! by Liana_Medea

Day 11: Alone by Lalaith_Quetzalli Day 12: The Monster Stomp by a2zmom Day 13: The Circle by KairosImprimatur (@kairosimperative) Day 14: love thy neighbour by bonniesfire (@lalosalamcnca) Day 15: Fool Me Twice by @oveliagirlhaditright Day 16: I Know Those Eyes/This Man Is Dead by Greensword101  Day 17: Of Prophecies and True Love’s Kiss by @ultramarineorchid Day 18: The Red Gate by @bluestarsandclouds Day 19: Overexcited by AmorousGreen (@calenlily) Day 20: Angelus’s Mercy: Part Two by MCorey1317 Day 21: Being Known by Kean (@keanherself) Day 22: Not Like Before by @buffy-targaryen Day 23: I Can’t Remember by MeTheMermaid (@casenpoint) Day 24: Side Mission by @taaroko Day 25: The Chosen Princess and the Shadow Knight by KairosImprimatur (@kairosimperative) Day 26: the girl and the ash by claddaghrings (@bangelism) Day 27: Our Little Family by twinkielove6 Day 28: Can It Be Right to Give What I Can Give? by @asoulofstars & blackdragonhellfire Day 29: An Aspect Of by GraceNM Day 30: Six Times Angel Lost Buffy And One Time He Didn’t by @aboutafox

Day 31: Two Hot Whiskeys by Liana_Medea Day 32: It's Just That I Stayed (Too Long) by @buffy-targaryen Day 33: Two Steps Back by a2zmom Day 34: Schism by KairosImprimatur (@kairosimperative) Day 35: Always by Lalaith_Quetzalli (@lalaithquetzallicaresi) Day 36: On Little Cat Feet by a2zmom Day 37: Freaky Things by @oveliagirlhaditright Day 38: Counterfeit Innocence by @calenlily Day 39: Reverence by Scribes1015 Day 40: Slayer, Interrupted (A Post-Reunion Trilogy Story) by MCorey1317 Day 41: In My Veins by @taaroko

Artworks

1. Sarah Michelle Gellar & David Boreanaz: Bangel stanning over the years. - gifset by @liam-summers 2. Buffy/Angel for “I Will Remember You” Month 2023 - video by @oveliagirlhaditright 3. Forever and Always - video by @bluestarsandclouds 4. She Promised - gif + wallpaper by @lalaithquetzallicaresi 5. Bangelus - Nine Inch Nails - gifset by @marie-moreaus 6. Moments - video by @bluestarsandclouds 7. Buffy and Angel art with chalk brushes - drawing by @kairosimperative 8. Bangel — I Will Remember You - gifset by @marie-moreaus 9. “So, no touching…” / “We stay in touch…” - photoedit by @oveliagirlhaditright 10. Buffy and Angel - Maybe If I Tell Myself Enough - video by @broke-me-into-pieces 11. Buffy and Angel - An Evening I Will Not Forget - video by @bluestarsandclouds 12. AtS 1.08 ♥ I Will Remember You - anniversary gifset by @liam-summers 13. “to live in this world you must be able to do three things…” - gifset by @lalosalamcnca 14. Buffy and Angelus in Innocence - digital painting by @artsying-ifer 15. buffy and angel | work song - video by @bangelism

[onlyzhuyilong]

Zhu YiLong in two years: *makes over a billion at the box office with Mo San Mei. Wins a Golden Rooster Award. Makes 3+ billion at the box office the following year with He Fei. Debuts his artsy crime noir Film as Ma Zhe at Cannes Film Festival that is nominated for Un Certain Regard Award, then it plays at different festivals around the world - proceeds to make 300 million at the domestic box office alone. Had three films air in total in 2023 & super well.*

…

My Silly Brain: *sometimes misses the times when he made dramas*

[allwaswell16]

All the One Direction fics I read and enjoyed in June 2023. You can listen to my podcast to hear me talk about each of these fics as well as an overview of what was posted on ao3 including the fics on this month’s fic roundup which you can find here! Please let the writers know if you liked the fics by leaving kudos and comments! Happy reading!

Fanfictional Podcast #51 |  ko-fi | fic recs

—Louis/Harry—

🩷 Teach me how to love by @perfectdagger

(E, 70k, one night stand) The one in which Harry is bad at sex and Louis spreads it all over town and to make up for it, decides to help him with no agenda of getting anything from it, but in the end, he ends up getting more than he bargained for.

🩷 My Other Half Was You by @lululawrence

(NR, 35k, small town au) Four years, seven months, and sixteen days after the day that changed everything, Louis turns a corner and literally runs into the man who just might change it all again.

🩷 Bitter Ends Turn Sweet by @allwaswell16

(E, 30k, songfic) It had been four years since Harry first heard the song his ex wrote about him and far longer since they broke up. He forgave Louis long ago, and now his life was focused on his career, his family, and especially his son, Max. But Louis was back in Chicago, after all this time, and he’s not an easy man to ignore.

🩷 Cowboy Like Me by Rearviewdreamer / @all-these-larrythings

(M, 29k, thief au) Going legit and starting over in a small town was supposed to solve all of Harry’s problems. That was until a string of robberies in wealthy towns brings him face-to-face with his rogue ex-partner and their dicey, unresolved past.

🩷 Every Lover's Got A Little Dagger In Their Hand by ishiplouis / @pocketsunshineharry

(E, 22k, enemies to lovers) Does the attraction between two complete opposites really exist, or is it just a myth?

🩷 It Will Always Be You by @phdmama

(E, 15k, older Larry) If you had told Louis Tomlinson a year ago that he would be celebrating his birthday by kissing the man who is the love of his life on a Church Street park bench in Burlington VT as the snow drifted softly down, he would have told you that you were extremely imaginative. 

🩷 You Light Up the Path by QuickedWeen / @becomeawendybird

(T, 12k, mermaid au) Louis Tomlinson left his home in Doncaster as a young man with the intent of making enough money to send it back home to his family and support them however he could. Harry, or so he likes to be called, is the myth and legend himself known as the Staithes Mermaid. 

🩷 The Revelation by @creamcoffeelou

(E, 8k, cult au) Harry feels his edges start to unravel. He can’t find where he ends and where Louis begins.  Part 3 of The Risen

🩷 Lacy Little Secret by hazzahtomlinson / @itsnotreal

(E, 6k, bachelor party) Harry learned a very valuable lesson that day: always check to make sure it’s the right car before getting in.

🩷 the embers are new by @nouies

(NR, 3k, fantasy) Louis is a dragon vet whose life is changed after a long trip.

🩷 DIY Orgasm by red_PANdaaa28 / @red-pandaaa

(E, 3k, Grindr) Harry takes artsy nudes, Louis receives one and they both get to come.

🩷 Next in Line by @jaerie

(E, 3k, a/b/o)  It wasn’t fair that nobody was doing anything about such behaviour. Harry couldn’t ban all alphas from his shows, but he could make omega only sections.

🩷 Just a little taste by @lunarheslwt

(G, 3k, vampire au) Harry is a vampire that comes home one night, grappling with the darkness that comes with being one.

🩷 The Early Show by LadyLondonderry / @londonfoginacup

(G, 2k, uni radio show) The thing about Harry is that Louis has never been sure if he doesn’t like hybrids, or if he doesn’t like Louis. Either way, it’s unfortunate that they apparently are both equally late.

🩷 Ahead in the Count by @kingsofeverything

(E, 2k, baseball au) Louis’s been a catcher in the minor leagues for more than a decade and he’s never known a pitcher to touch his junk more often than he touches the baseball.

🩷 I Hear the Wind, It's Whispering My Name by Anonymous

(M, 2k, ghost fic) She’d also allowed herself to think of the woman every time she had a bit of me time over the next week. But then the woman had returned.

🩷 Imagination into Reality by @tommokat

(E, 1k, girl direction) It’s more than just physical, it’s years and years of attraction and pining and something that tastes like love. 

🩷 All This Time by @allwaswell16

(T, 1k, flower shop au) Louis Tomlinson had been best friends with flower shop owner Gemma Styles for years. It wasn't until she suggested he date her alpha brother that he ever thought of Harry that way. Maybe it wasn't such a bad idea...

—Rare Pairs—

🩷 Pageant Material by LadyAJ_13 / @ladyaj-13

(G, 6k, Zayn/Louis) the Zouis teen beauty pageant AU.

🩷 Cool Kids Never Have The Time by wordsnnotes / @quelsentiment

(T, 6k, Zayn/Louis) Zayn auditions to join a band and makes a bad first impression on their bassist.

🩷 you wanna be on top? by @disgruntledkittenface

(NR, 6k, Zayn/Louis) Zayn’s experience as a contestant on America’s Next Top Model left her more than a little traumatized. She thinks she knows what to expect when she lets herself be talked into making an appearance on the show a couple of years later. Louis manages to surprise her.

[redvelvetpdf]

so. it's been a year. more than a year, in fact, but i met most of you this year, so let's take it as a year.

all of you, all of my mutuals, you guys have helped me so, so, SO much this past year. i've gone through some shit, but you guys have helped me get past it. you've supported me, and every time i felt alone, i remember you. because you're like me, you're my brethren.

thank you so much for all you've done. i'm sorry if i forgot to respond, i'm sorry if we lost touch, but please know i love you. if you messaged me or sent me an ask once, i love you. if you still talk to me, i love you. if you gave me advice or sent a reply to an ask game, i love you.

i love you all so much. you mean a lot to me. that's all i can say.

please, please take care of yourselves. you've made others' lives so much better, and i value you. you are important.

happy new year, have a great 2023 <3

(tags aren't working, so i'll try to put them in replies. but if you see this, you know it refers to you. i'm sorry if i forgot to tag you, but you're just as important to me

replies aren't working either. i'll just pin this. love u)

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[mappingthemoon]

For the past several years (can’t remember if this attitude predates the pandemic), I’ve been kinda “meh”/side-eye re: New Year’s Resolutions. I am a very goal-oriented person and feel existentially unmoored when I don’t have something that I’m working toward, be it a class, a trip, a concert, a zine or other artsy project. But I also tend to have very unrealistic expectations, namely of how much time it will actually take me to complete tasks and how much energy I will still possess after I get home from work every day. So I don’t want to put all this abstract pressure on myself for the new year and then get burned by my, idk, ENORMOUSLY OVERWHELMING CAPACITY FOR HOPES AND DREAMS (or inability to accept reality or whatever, I guess, depending on your viewpoint lol).

Last year, I got a faculty librarian job and I was able to finally quit doing part-time transcription work, a (second) job I’d held for over 11 years. I thought the sudden influx of “free time” would result in a flood of creative projects in 2023, but I didn’t get nearly as much done (or started) as I’d hoped. My new job duties brought increased stress – I supervise someone now and received zero training for this so I’m having to figure out all this soft skills work relationship stuff on my own, I’m one of only two special collections catalogers in a large academic institution and ofc our backlog is a million miles long, I have to deal with so many more dang emails and meetings as a faculty person than I did as a staff, our institution is grossly underfunded and understaffed and people keep leaving bc our wages are comparatively Bad; many of my colleagues and I are burnt out af. SO ANYWAY due to all that, instead of blossoming into a creative powerhouse now that I have only one day-job, I instead found myself sinking into the couch after work, watching youtube on the big tv screen and transforming into a sad amorphous blob.

BUT! One reason I am risking feeling slightly more hopeful about 2024 is that this year, I am scheduled to have two out of four credit card loans paid off! (I had five but already paid one off this year too :D) This will put like… nearly $400 back into my pocket each month. I hate complaining about my money situation bc I do make what would be a decent living wage for my ~lifestyle~ (2 very frugal working adults, no kids in the home), but nearly 25% of my income goes to debt (not including mortgage lol). (The reason I am carrying so much debt is because I didn’t make anything even remotely close to a living wage for the entirety of my working life until I got the librarian job last year and I had to use credit cards for things like groceries and travelling home for funerals and then I’d transfer the credit card balance onto a loan and then I’d be like “okay, as long as we have no more emergencies for 18 months, we’ll be good,” and then there’d be another emergency and I’d have to borrow more money again 🇺🇸) So the TL;DR is I strongly suspect that when I have a bit more of a financial cushion and don’t have to deprive myself of most material pleasures (such as the occasional deli sandwich or vinyl record! I have simple desires!) and white-knuckle it through the last week of every month, I might be a bit less exhausted and stressed out on a daily basis?

So based on that completely speculative hope, here are my goals/resolutions for 2024:

Start a monthly one-pager photozine (my intention is for this to be a simple project to keep me active in the zine community and more ~intentional~ with my photography). Finish writing Moonshot #3 (Summer 2024) and #4 (Fall 2024). Start outlining (at least) Phases of the Moon #7. Maybe: Think abt starting a new art/literary comp zine. [I used to do tons of comp zines when I was younger and I’ve been revisiting them in my zine digitization/archiving project and feeling inspired!! Love bringing a variety of people together to collectively work on an amazing goal! ♈]

Do something analog with photography – maybe cyanotypes? [I’m despondent that I’ve been dragging an enlarger around for over 10 years but still haven’t built a home darkroom. This can still happen someday, but in the meantime, I know there are other analog photographic processes I can do without a full darkroom!] I also want to get back into photographing concerts. [I was a little disappointed that my Quintron pics {still forthcoming sry} didn’t turn out fantastic but it was my own damn fault for falling out of practice with my DSLR, and also forgetting to turn on autofocus lmao.] AND, I think it would be fairly easy to turn my bedroom into a camera obscura, which would be TOTALLY AWESOME and SWEET.

Redesign my website/portfolio: selenographer.info. Try to actually post some newsletters once in a while?

Finish at least one cross-stitch!

Leave the house more often for social activities?????

Better daily health routine [I already do this stuff, but I’m not always consistent]: Meditate & do yoga, preferably in the morning. Teeth care at least twice a day [sry if it’s TMI gross but brushing before bed was never part of my childhood and it has been a constant struggle to solidify this habit as an adult, ugh] and actually use the dang waterpik & electric toothbrush that I bought. Wear the sleep apnea device every night. [This thing works. But I fucking hate wearing it and I skip nights which makes me feel like a big dummy since I borrowed an additional $3000 to treat this problem.] STOP TAKING GOODY’S POWDER. [This should follow if I am consistent in wearing the apnea device bc I won’t get morning headaches if I am not waking up in a state of oxygen deprivation!]

Buy a new bed! [We got one of those cheapo internet mattresses in 2018 and man is it killing me. If I ever won the lottery the first thing I would do is completely redesign the bedroom into the ideal sleep environment.] Also need to buy 1 or 2 new bookcases bc I now have 3 storage bins full of unshelved books and it makes me anxious.

Work-related goals: Reclaim as much time as possible from the workweek. Try to have at least a half-day of work-from-home time per week. Actually use the professional development time I am privileged to have as faculty! Try to detach from the stressful sense of urgency other people (inexplicably) bring to the table and don’t let that shit get to you. Figure out a better way to handle emails? [My current modes are either complete avoidance so I can hyperfocus on a task, or checking my email every 30-60 mins and spiralling into the distraction zone for hours.] Hopefully take another class at Rare Book School. Help with more outreach events (aka teaching people about ZINES! :D)

GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY <3