[Vampire Knight] If I'm to be reborn, I'll find you (again, again, again) - PROLOGUE: 'til death due us part - [1/4]
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Summary: What happens when the brightest star in a binary system ceases to exist?
It's no secret that Kuran Yuuki was the apple of Kuran Kaname's eye. But few truly realised the depths of darkness he would plunge into for her. Even fewer saw the madman behind that intricately made mask of sanity.
Note: I really wanted to explore a world where Yuuki dies (especially since I like her so much haha) before the whole parent metal furnace incident but it ended up more like a story about grief and mourning. Mostly because I was influenced by Miyashita Yuu's cover of "Condolences, and Then Life Goes On". It's a very sombre but beautiful cover. I feel like a world where Yuuki dies first would affect the vampires greatly, especially since she was so integral in many of his decisions.
This is also on ao3, if you prefer reading on ao3 instead.
Pairings featured: Yuuki/Kaname
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"Kana—me…" It's a minor miracle that she can even speak as clearly as now—the wounds she’d sustained would’ve been enough to immediately kill a lesser vampire. Even now, Yuuki struggles to breathe; each breath coming out in raspy, short intervals. She knows there is no saving for her, and Yuuki thinks that, from his slightly trembling hands to the anguish in his eyes (Those eyes which had always, always been gentle and kind to her), Kaname knows it too.
Who knew her life would be cut so short? Slowly, painfully reaching out, Kuran Yuuki cups her lover’s cheek, drawing him closer.
“I…love…you…” She whispers, putting all her energy into this one final proclamation of love.
(She hopes that he will forgive her, for leaving him so soon, when she’d finally decided to stay.
She hopes that one day, Kaname will find peace after her death.
She hopes that, if reincarnation truly exists, they’ll find each other again.)
Yuuki smiles—radiant, bright like the sun.
And shatters.
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Are you okay? You reblogged "fuck college I'm becoming a trout" five times in a row...
Losing my mind
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bro thoughts on heartbreak? what is up with that? what to do when it happens? is moving on even real or are we all forever loving every person we ever loved in the past for all eternity and just pretending we forgot about them? is the guilt ever over? how to know if im a bad person? whose to say? what can ibuprofen even do???
i dont think ive ever been heartbroken if im being honest... both romantically and platonically? which is kinda sad in its own right because sometimes i feel as though i havent gotten to experience the entire spectrum of emotions yet... its part of why i can be pretty naive sometimes lol
i think the closest thing to heartbreak ive ever felt was being sad over my youth... i just miss being carefree and only worrying about when the next pokemon game was coming out... i miss the innocence and i suppose im heartbroken over that
but i think when it comes to "person" heartbreak... i dont think its really about loving every person we've ever loved forever. i think for the most part, the people we miss from our pasts have already become different people in the present. what we miss are the memories we've shared, and people grow so quickly that we're ever-evolving into different humans. you dont have to pretend to forget them. memories are memories, and ive always tried to appreciate them like paintings. beautiful to look at, but to yearn to be a part of it? possible sometimes, but i like to keep my distance.
and does heartbreak always have to end in guilt? i think ending/losing relationships doesnt necessarily involve one person being the "bad" guy... i think relationships will eventually end one way or another. either death or time will make everything reach its end, so dont worry too much about being the bad guy.
ibuprofen is an nsaid for physical pain im afraid... but i suppose heartbreak can sometimes feel like that. maybe have a chocolate milk instead. or hug a friend/partner that you currently have. heartbreak is all about the past... all we can do now is appreciate the present for what it is
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Checked my AO3 stats and when I look at my 10 fics with the biggest word count out of 52 works a good chunk of them are for MML. I am normal I promise
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i'm so sorry guys i will not be able to touch the botw astor mod again (or any type of looking into modding botw) since i am very very busy with school rn i am barely making time for my own small projects that are somewhat portfolio-able and i can't do that with a botw mod since all the copyright and stuff and since i can't say i own anything i work on in the game and what i CAN edit is still very limited and the game is too wide ranged
i know i said i would finish it someday eventually but i think i would only get busier and busier i don't think i'll ever be able to get back into it or wrap it up properly even. am so sorry
but
i DO HOPE i'll be able to work on an exile vilify animation (which would probably take place after a few years from now at least IF i'm even able to make time for such a big project) which WOULD be portfolio-able since i would need to model and stage pretty much everything from the ground up myself
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my spotify wrapped playlist is literally just silk sonic, rocky horror, mcr, gerard, smashing pumpkins, radiohead, sufjan, encanto, and the 7 songs i looped in april
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