#ALSO /S WE'RE BOTH GOOD SIBLINGS I CARE U

[egipci]

respectfully i think the other anon is smoking crack. theres no WAY john would lay a finger on deanna if she was both a girl AND the baby. i tend to agree with you that likelihood of consummation goes j/d as is > j/younger dean > j/oldest daughter deanna (although this and younger still-a-boy dean are maybe on relatively even footing actually...) > j/youngest child deanna. would be really interested hearing what you were thinking re "worse" sibling order making it easier to consummate though!

oh man, I think it might be you and I who are smoking crack, dear anon <3 I've seen the idea that it would be easier for John to fuck Deanna thrown around about a bunch of times, and every time I'm left scratching my head. Not to straw-man anyone's take, but the sense I get is "Deanna performs "wifely/feminine" emotional and domestic labor + John feels entitled to that labor + John is straight = John feels entitled to and expects sex from Deanna." Which is so intuitively false to me, in addition to being incredibly bleak (bleaker than the old son-fucking at least). To be clear, I'm not saying J/Deanna would never happen--- it's just not "easier" in any meaningful sense, and in fact the gender difference would make John much more cautious about crossing any lines (even, and maybe especially, if both of them really, really want to.) But I don't know! Maybe we're the minority here. "John/Deanna is easier" believers, call in and explain yourselves!

Re: why would John/younger!Deanna be easier to consummate? I agree with you that it would still be less likely than if it were just Dean but younger. But, on the whole, I think the world in which Dean is younger is an even more dangerous world, in the vulnerability-to-emotional-incest sense, in the same way that I think a Mary Lives AU would be more dangerous, or even an Only Child Dean AU, and the main difference between these worlds and canon would be the role Sam plays and how their obligations towards Sam play out. The ageswap world I'm interested in basically only switches around their birth order, while keeping to their personalities and their mytharc roles as closely as possible. Canon!John is remarkably lucky in that the brother entrusted with all the adult responsibilities takes it on the chin and doesn't complain. Switching Dean's and Sam's ages doesn't mean that John can simply raise a Dean who just happens to be called Sam and a rebellious younger son called Dean.

(Disclaimer due here, since you can't assume a good faith interpretation around these parts lol: Dean did the best he could being a pseudo-parental figure to Sam while being a child himself. His parentification is not his fault, he couldn't just try *harder* to make it stop. Sam resisting parentification also doesn't make him a worse brother/person. etc. etc.)

With that out of the way, let's say in this world Lucifer/Sam is the older child who is given the responsibility to care for his younger sibling(s), he's drafted into Dad's war (like Lucifer is entrusted with the key to the darkness's cage, etc. etc), he loves his dad and he loves his baby brother so very much, but he also vocally resents and resists his parentification. And let's say, like canon!Sam seems to (early on) victim-blame Dean/find him weak for his dogged loyalty to their dad, a small part of Sam's frustration regarding being forced into a parenting role is taken out on Dean. Again, Sam loves his brother, he still squarely blames their dad, but this is more of an unconscious frustration and a confusion that comes from feeling so different from your siblings in crucial ways (ahem... totally not speaking from personal experience here). You could imagine this Sam trying as best as he could to do well by his brother, but he's not the guy performing all the emotional labor for John. He's watching out for Dean, he's trying to do well in school because he's trying to get the fuck out (perhaps hoping to take Dean with him), he's going on the hunts, patching his dad up, but he's not the hand-on-the-shoulder-telling-Dad-it's-okay type. There's a lot of emotional distance there, and crucially, actual major obligations that Sam is not performing, or not performing as dutifully as John would like. This Sam is very different from canon!Sam in that canon!Sam's daddy issues stem in large part from exclusion from the John-Dean unit. Yes, he was expected to hunt, but it seems that he started significantly later than Dean did. Even when his misconception that John was disappointed in him is resolved, the real issue that remains is that he felt like an outsider, and not by choice. Older!Sam actually gives John reason to be disappointed because he has a responsibility towards Dean.

Now enter a very, very eager younger son who's 1. super infatuated with his dad (in the most innocent sense), 2. doesn't have the same breadth of responsibility as his older brother, but who still 3. gets the intimacy of being the emotional support system for his dad, in contrast to bad older brother Sam who's not doing enough (John's assessment, not mine). Dean really loves his brother, but I think the emotional distance that's between them pre-canon remains here in this world, and in part it's caused by Sam's rebelling. And while canon!Dean is (quietly) resentful about his parentification, younger!Dean doesn't have an equivalent concern.

And then Sam leaves! He must leave, and Dean must stay. If we're trying to keep it as close to canon as possible, Sam goes to college at 18, 19. Maybe 20. Dean is 14. 16 at most. Think back to 2x3 and Dean telling Gordon about his experience hunting with his dad alone at 16, the wonder and the secrecy and the weird intimate claustrophobia of their world-of-two, except Sam isn't waiting in the car. Sam left. His leaving is what basically shoves them into that world. Dean doesn't get the no-hunting/extra-protective Dad benefits (if you could call them benefits) of being the younger sibling. In that sense, he's pretty much still canon!Dean, way too involved with his dad's life from a super young age. He just gets to be the perfect obedient son in contrast to Sam. The betrayal of Sam leaving feels much worse because Dean and John actually relied on him to no small degree, and that in itself is the inverse of their canon bond as Sam's co-parents.

Do these conditions automatically mean J/Deanna would be easier? I'm not sure. There is always the (ooc) extreme grooming take. Old creepy man with a fourteen year old girl alone on the road takes advantage of her, no other witnesses etc etc. But of course that's not my take. But I think you can fiddle with their internal dials just enough to up all the canon-feeling emotions and anxieties that make J/D possible in the first place, blur protectiveness and control just enough to make John slightly less scrupulous. Maybe.

[storytimewithnova]

Dollhouse Angst

Summary:

Before we start TRIGGER WARNING MENTIONS ABUSE MENTIONS ALCHOL MENTIONS DRUGS MENTIONS SUICIDE IF YOU ARE NOT COMFOTABLE OR YOU ARE UNDERAGE I SUGGEST NOT READING MY STORIES BECAUSE THEIR 18+ STILL HERE DON’T SAY I DID WARN YOU

This story focus on sho more because yaku is always with his bf so he doesn’t see whats going on its just one day he happened to be home and saw

Notes:

Before i start yaku and hinata are siblings in this AU twins to be exact Depending what weird timeline i am doing at that moment sho is Biologically female although they Identity as Non binary and can pull off both male and female looks Also Depending on what weird timeline i am doing Sho is normally A miya sibling A triplet to be exact but i do like to switch things up so you won't get bored That is it for my authors notes you have seen the warnings read at your own risk

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Like I said at the beginning this story focus on sho more because yaku is always with his bf so he doesn’t see whats going on its just one day he happened to be home and saw 

Sho:🎶Hey girl, open the walls, play with your dolls We'll be a perfect family🎶

Sho’s pov

Ha perfect my ass see that is what i always hear how perfect my family is now here’s the sad truth we are not as picture perfect as people think even our bfs 

Kuroo captain of mine and my twins team and my bf Daishou Captain and outside hitter of Nohebi Don’t they see through us 

See when we go home from school or our bfs that when the façade drops and and the real us appear 

Sho:🎶When you walk away, it's when we really play You don't hear me when I say, Mom, please wake up Dad's with a slut, and your daughter is smoking cannabis🎶

Sho’s pov 

Welcome to the harsh reality of my family my mom is a alcoholic my dad is a whore and i’m an addict the only one not affected is my twin my little brother because he spends most if his time with his bf and he knows little to nothing about this 

Sho:🎶No one never listens, this wallpaper glistens Don't let them see what goes down in the kitchen🎶

Sho’s pov 

Then again no one is going to listen they will say you are being paranoid oh look she is high again so she is telling tails

Out of pov 

Ding dong

Sho's thoughts💭Crap mom is spark our mori is at his bf its just me 

I went to open the door its my bf Suguru

Sho:Babe what brings you here 

I ask not fully opening the door

Sho’s thoughts:💭there i go faking another smile

Daishou:Sho i came to see you i got a call from Kenma saying you skipped again are you ill hurt 

Sho:Babe I’m fine *keeps checking watch*

Daishou:Sunshine you have been checking your watch constantly 

Shit he is calling me out

Sho:H-have I?

I i saw my dad was coming and i said to daishou

Sho: love i will go to school tomorrow and i will pop round to see you if it stops you from worrying

Daishou:It will

 suguru kissed me and said

Daishou: i will hold you to that i love you sunshine 

Sho:Its a promise love you too

i kissed back and he walked off just as dad was pulling in

Sho:🎶Places, places, get in your places Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces🎶

Sho’s Pov 

back to acting god i hate this i want to end this end me i guess apart of me is glad my baby sister didn’t make it in to this family in to this world even I don’t want her seeing what a shit show of a family we are 

Sho:🎶Picture, picture, smile for the picture Pose with your brother, won't you be a good Twin sister? Everyone thinks that we're perfect Please don't let them look through the curtain🎶

Sho’s pov 

fake smiles check i wrap my arms around my twin fact is I don’t care what happens to me but no one hurts my twin yes i maybe playing the born first card but IDGAF

Sho:🎶 D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E I see things that nobody else sees🎶

Yaku:🎶 (D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E I see things that nobody else sees)🎶

From here on their bfs are slowing going to get a look in to what happens to their other halfs when sho actidently left the group call open 

Mr hinata: Shona you useless shit where are you 

Sho:Yes dad 

Mr hinata: get more drinks your mom has drunk almost everything

Sho:*sigh* fine what about you you going to your side hoe again leave me and Mori to deal with mom like you always do 

*Slap*

Sho:Hit me all you want dad but face it you and mom have messed this family up you’re a whore she and Alcohlic and unbeknown to you i’m an addict the only one with somewhat chance of a normal life is Mori he could get out of here or are you waiting to screw him up too

In the chat

Yaku:Sis What the hell

Daishou:My gf’s an addict 

Kuroo:I-I don’t know what to say 

Sho suddenly spoke

Sho:🎶 Hey girl, look at my mom, she's got it going on Ha, you're blinded by her jewelry When you turn your back she pulls out a flask And forgets his infidelity Uh-oh, she's coming to the attic, plastic Go back to being plastic🎶

Kuroo:So lets unpack what she just said people look at you mother but don’t see the real her when she thinks no one is watching she drinks to forget your dad is sleeping around and when sho says go back to being plastic she means fake 

Yaku:The thing is love i hardly knew any of this till a few days ago

Sho:🎶 No one never listens, this wallpaper glistens One day they'll see what goes down in the kitchen🎶

What they can see sho doing at this moment was scary to them to sat the least they saw her with a bottle of pills looked like antidepressants and she just took a hand full

Daishou:Sunshine wtf?

Yaku:Sis?!

Sho:🎶 Places, places, get in your places Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces Everyone thinks that we're perfect Please don't let them look through the curtain🎶

She slowly started to close her eyes

Yaku:🎶 Picture, picture, smile for the picture Pose with your brother, won't you be a good twin sister? Everyone thinks that we're perfect Please don't let them look through the curtains🎶

Daishou was calling the cops and amblance 

Yaku:🎶 D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E I see things that nobody else sees (D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E I see things that nobody else sees)🎶

Sho slowly went pale 

Yaku:Sis?!

Daishou:Sunshine?!

Kuroo: Chibi chan

Yaku:🎶 Hey girl (hey girl, hey girl, hey girl, hey girl) Hey girl, open your walls, play with your dolls We'll be a perfect family🎶

She was on her way to the hospital daishou insisted he would go with the parents denying everything Kuroo was screen recording the whole time gave it to the police

This next bit is in the volleygays everyone else was going to 

Learn not everything was as perfect so much hid behind sho’s smile 

Yaku:🎶 Places, places, get in your places Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces Everyone thinks that we're perfect Please don't let them look through the curtains🎶

Kuroo:We know now 

Everyone???

Yaku: 🎶 Picture, picture, smile for the picture Pose with your brother, won't you be a good twin sister? Everyone thinks that we're perfect Please don't let them look through the curtains🎶

Daishou:Its okay Mori san i am with her 

Yaku:🎶 D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E I see things that nobody else sees (D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E I see things that nobody else sees)🎶

See my family is not so picture perfect as people think my dads a whore my mom is a drunk sho is doing drugs as a coping method not just from my parents but from you lot gossiping and talking shit this is not helping her   

Kuroo:Mori is right she felt like she had some expections you wanted her to live up to you were pushing her when she had shit in her own life going on and she got so tied she has commiting before 

Everyone was silent ….

Month maybe two sho did wake up to her twin brother crying him telling her what happened and her first thoughts were i’m free she turns back as much as i wants to be she knows she won’t be free not truly but right now she can be as for her parents they are serving long time in jail people learnt not to judge a book by its cover and people should not be judged based off rumours

They always checked in on sho as she was getting help for her addiction

Yaku:I’m proud of you sis

Sho:Thanks 

Yaku:See you tonight 

Sho:Bye Mori 

Everyone became more open and honest after Sho and Mori’s family drama

[gay-salt-amber]

Good morning from where I am! I have a request and 3 headcanon to give you:

As a thanks for your headcanons I have a headcanon to gift you (and 3 coupons for fanart/headcanons/writing prompts of your choosing),

Every Next Gen.'s bedroom has colors everywhere. Even the ones who might fall in a gothic/emo phase. All thanks to the parents pride flags and their own as well as their parents' dorms and their's. In the poly house holds it's chaos with colors since it'd be even MORE colors of LGBT and dorms pride.

Second headcanon would be they all love the song Villain by PattyCake Productions and I can see if either A) NRC becomes Co-Ed, or B) They do a girls school and a boys school mix up one day they'd sing this song or a song inspired by it during the VDC performances, Vil honestly crying when seeing his kids performing their all with their friends

Third headcanon is when they're a bit older (like 10 or 13 depending on when they were born/adopted) the parents would show them their overblots through pictures by MC (which they were mildly annoyed they had pictures of), and they were nervous hardcore when it came to this until-

"Whoa! Dad, You look so cool!"

"Snake hair?? Wicked!"

"But look at my dad, he has coral growing on him and he looks so pretty!"

"If we're talking pretty look at my daddy!"

They all sighed somewhat relieved when their kids began going all fan gushing over them. Riddle even took some pride when Leona's kid said he looked like a bad ass from a horror game. ^^

And request; I've been listening to Heartbreak Honeymoon by Mad Tsai so here's the prompt. . . One of them gets their heart broken, wither it's a break up or rejection or a friend asking a crush out depending, what would the families and the friend gang's reaction be to comforting / knowing this?

This one got me thinking! I really like the 3rd headcanon it has a lot of potential for a comic like thing or a fanfic, they'd both work very well! But they are all fantastic u-u Anyway onto your request

Jamil x Kalim

This was the only time Jamil has seen Kalim actually pissed. Like "I am gonna commit a murder" pissed and Kalim was more pissed then Jamil which just hammered that point home

When their kid first told them about the break up/rejection Kalim did one of those laughs you do when your mad at something, he tried to understand both sides but turns out the other person was shitty sooo yeah that persons gonna be shitting enough bricks to build a city when Jamikali is done with them

I swear Kalim will be going off on the partner, Jamil would let out a sigh and go, "Lets just go get lunch, he's gonna be at this for a while." Then they leave and when they come back Kalim has this guy backed into a corner

Lots of pampering afterwards

The asshole prolly also has to deal with Najma wanting to kick their ass (Not any of Kalim's family tho I feel like they cut ties with them for the most part)

They don't have any personal experience with break-ups tho, Kalim did get a lot of love confessions over the years but hes always just said, "Y'know, that's sweet but... Jamil is... Jamil." And Jamil just never had interest in anyone else

They try their best tho :D

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Ruggie x Leona

So y'know how midwestern-ers do that knee slap when they're about to leave a place?

Leona does that, stands up and goes, "Ruggie! Be prepared to bail me out of jail!" then walks out the door with Ruggie trying to catch up

Not to stop him, no no! That'd be idiotic! No, Ruggie is gonna join him

Ruggie actually has some experience helping with breakups since he had to help some people with that back in the slums cuz they thought he was their therapist at that point

Leona on the other hand doesn't, he gives his kid(s) an awkward pat on the back says, "Don't worry your partner was an asshole" and goes on his way. Not because he doesn't care cuz he does! He just doesn't have any god damn way knowledge on how to show it

Since Leoruggie adopted multiple kids (like 3) the kids siblings are also there to comfort and fight the person who DARED to hurt their sibling

Leona will also buy a bunch of ice cream in his kids favorite flavor and leave a note on the container like, "Here's some comfort food-Leona p.s. Ruggie, if you want any of the ice-cream, there's another container behind it for you, this ones for *kid name*."

Overall I would say they know what they're doing :D

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Vil x Rook

Rook will prolly see the kid crying, get a bottle of wine with 3 wine glasses and go, "I know you're underage but, if you round *age* it could be equal to *drinking age* so you'll be fine, we're turning on bad romance movies and relaxing, mon bel enfant."

They go have a spa day the next day. Hair, nails, facials, the whole nine yards

Vil's idea of getting back at an ex is being so beautiful that they'll be blinded away and regret that they'll NEVER get you back

Somehow word gets out to uncle Epel and he is NOT happy about it and goes to do some ass kicking

I feel like they'd be the type of parents with the partners number also in their phone incase anything happened and after the break-up Vil straight up blocks them but Rook keeps the number, changes the nickname to "trou du cul 😊" and pesters them every now and then

Vil calls up the model agency he works at and asks if they can have the kid do some photos with their kids new partner (lets just assume they get another one) and put them all over just so the ex can see them

I'd be careful if I were you if you'd even think of breaking Rookvil's kids heart cuz Rook is a very good hunter and Vil has popularity to cancel you everywhere and also h e e l s

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Riddle x Floyd x Cater

We all know how Floyd can have a lot of mood swings so uh, good luck to that partner

Riddle had to really consider what to say since the one time this conversation happened with his mother she just turned away and said, "I told you so" But Riddle knew that wasn't right

Cater helps him... Then goes to help Floyd murder that ex

Riddle actually stays behind from this murder party and helps comfort them, rubbing the kids back while they cry, telling them its ok, putting on movies, etc.

Cater and Floyd come back with Chinese food and ice cream

Cater cancels the ex on Magicam

Floyd takes them to karaoke at the lounge (They opened up a non NRC location after college) to let their kid sing out their feelings, its a nice bonding experience

A lot of Fallout Boy is sung that night

I feel like the kid would hide in their room for like half a day and Riddle would drag you out saying, "Kid, I love you and I am not letting you live in your room for the week. We're doing self care today."

Cater will buy a shirt that says, "Bad Bitch" on it

Riddle would just be standing there, head in hands and not being sure if he should scold Cater or laugh

I feel like they would have a little trail and error but at the end of the day they're all doing their best :D

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They're not much, just lil snippets but I like them anyway :D I hope you do too!-Amber

[just-another-miserable-prick]

Aight, we're doing this. It's headcanon time.

This is engines 1-6. This is all Sodor High School AU canon btw.

Thomas Gail:

Freshman. Tiny gremlin child. Full of energy and straight up refuses to shut the fuck up. No, he physically can't shut the fuck up. Prankster #1. Much like James, he's very over the top, but instead of his looks, I mean his pranks. Like, this little bitch wrote a whOLE ASS FUCKING MUSICAL for an APRIL FOOL'S PRANK. FOR REAL. (I'll make a post about that whole mess, it's the best fucking thing) Protects Percy with his l i f e.

Edward Belwett:

Senior. Braincell #1 of 2 of the entire Steam Team. Extremely farsighted but simply does not realise that it's a problem. Poor guy just thinks everyone sees the world like he does. (I dare you to try and change my fucking mind, also @zellezel, I'm stealing this, thank you very much) The caring dad friend and the team's designated therapist. Guy's got Rapunzel hair (as in floor length) and only James is allowed to touch it. Why? Let's just say the story involves fire. If you manage to piss him off, good fucking luck. Trans king.

Henry Holt:

Junior. Braincell #2 of 2 of the Steam Team. Very kind, gentle and anxious introvert. Absolutely fucked mentally AND physically (thank his mother- or rather birthgiver for that one) While he is a pacifist, he's known for having lost his cool a grand total of 2 times. (One of these involved Edward) Legend has it he threw a chair once. No one knows the truth though, except for the witnesses. I'd advise everyone to just stay on his good side for their own sake.

Gordon Rask:

Junior. HOO BOI, man be f u c k e d beyond belief. 6th of 8 siblings, parents are divorced, dad's an alcoholic, lord knows where mom went ("no hard feelings tho, good for her" says our local mess of a highschool junior), most of his siblings already booked it, life really went: "Welp- What could go wrong? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯" *dumps entire content of the Trauma Truck™ on this one guy*. So damn jealous of Scott and thinks or rather hopes that people don't notice. They notice, don't worry. ("I do the exact same thing he does and he gets all the recognition?! What about me?? What am I doing wrong?!") No wonder he's got such a bad temper.

James Bragg:

(This may or may not be me projecting my own issues onto this bitch) Sophomore. Almost homeless, as in his house, or rather what's left of it, could collapse literally any minute- (which it does at one point-) he tries to cover up his misery in public by acting like he's a vain, self-absorbed little sassy twink, and it seems to do the job. For now at least. When he's in private or alone with someone (aHeM, Gordon-) he's a m e s s in pretty much any way you can think of.

Percy Klein:

Freshman. Thomas' adopted brother and tries to be a voice of reason when Thomas is about to do something stupid (or illegal cuz Thomas w o u l d). Normally fails to stop his brother from committing his silly acts of mischief but hey, at least he's trying. Precious baby. If you somehow manage to anger him, he'll cuss you out in fluent German. Then it's over for you. He might as well be summoning a demon for all I know ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (<- this coming from someone who studies german. I hate that fucking nightmare of a language.)

Ships? OH HELL YEAH!

To preface, these are just my preferences. If you ship something else, go ahead. As long as it's not like- Inc*st, p*dop*ilia, you know- disgusting shit. Or anything that involves Spencer. This is a Spencer hate blog. ANYWAY

Henry X Edward:

yes yeS YES Y E S- Yea this is my OTP, I fucking love these two, they are my life force and I want them to be my dads- in my mind it's the "slightly more social introvert X anxious mess of an introvert" dynamic and it's the cutest fucking thing. Edward confessed first, on Valentine's day! :D

Gordon X James:

Two fucked up guys looked at one another one day and thought "I could… try to fix him?". That's literally it and I love them. Like they're both absolutely fucked up to no end so they're really the only ones who understand the other's struggles and could help without making shit even worse. Love that they both have someone there for them :D.

Thomas and Percy are brothers in this AU ^^ I know I said it before but I'll say it again.

Thanks to @zellezel for inspiring me to finally write this thing :)

[waynewifey]

Fading away. —

Pairing: Jason Grace x Roman!DaughterofPluto!Reader

Sumary: after moths of over working, a colapse makes you get into a coma and reflect on your feelings.

Warnings: coma, angst, Pluto as a caring dad, fluff at the end.

Words: +-3k.

A/N: This is my first Percy Jackson Franchise fanfiction, so take it easy on me. This is also my biggest and favourite one. I hope you like this! My requests are always open.

(Y/N) (L/N) had a good reason to hate Jason Grace. How could she not? Jason was so annoying, self centred, selfish, stubborn and worse of all? He dated Piper McLean. Piper was great, (Y/N) knew that and they seemed happy together. But, still, he chose Piper, not (Y/N), his girlfriend back at Camp Jupiter, who he totally forgot about. How come Percy remembered Annabeth but Jason wouldn't remember (Y/N)? And when he recovered his memory, he chose Piper. But she also loved him still, and seeing him hurt like a bullet going straight through her heart. She decided to spend a year at Half-Blood Camp to stay with her half-brother Nico Di Angelo when Gaea were defeated. She thought she could manage to see him almost every day, but she couldn't. So she started doing anything to get her mind occupied. Going on meaningless quests, travelling to New York randomly, volunteering for literally any service in the camp and barely sleeping — because sleeping meant dreams.

"It doesn't have to be like that, (Y/N)." Her brother gave her another shot of Nectar. The sunlight that entered Hades' cabin was leaving slowly as they talked, (Y/N) leaned on her bed watching her fingertips become solid again.

"I'll learn how to do it right and I promise I won't push myself too much, but I can't stop practicing." She avoided eye contact with Nico, feeling ashamed of herself. After all, she was supposed to be the one taking care of him, since she was older. She came back from a "quest" for her father, that was staying a weekend on the Underworld. She started using Shadow Travel to get there. The problem? She had no idea how hard it was, and she almost died every time. He sighted.

"I'm not talking about Shadow Travel. You should talk to Jason and sort this out. You're almost killing yourself everyday doing the craziest stuff just to keep your mind off him. He already broke up with Piper, what's stopping you now? I'm your brother and it pains me to see you suffering, I won't just sit and watch while you literally desapear." He got up and walked to the door. The (h/c) girl forced a smile so he believed she was fine. Nico left the cabin.

After hours reflecting and thinking, she heard the trumpets that announced the convocation to a game of Capture the Flag. Since she was feeling better, she changed her clothes and walked outside. The teams were: cabins 1, 4, 5, 9, 12, 14, 18, 21, 23, 27, 28, 29 vs. cabins 2, 6, 7, 10, 11, 13, 15, 16, 20, 24, 25, 26. They started the game. (Y/N) had to protect the boundary with a kid from Hipnos' cabin while a group attacked the opponent's flag and another protected their territory and their flag. Everything was going as planned, she hadn't seen anyone yet. Out of the sudden, she saw a blond guy running in their direction with a sword. Oh hell no, Jason Grace wouldn't attack her like that. But he did.

"What the hell?!" She screamed, reacting to the blade flying in her direction. Her teammate was asleep. She defended herself with her own sword and counterattacked. He invested against her leg, trying to make her fall. Her instincts took place, she jumped, attacked again and they started a meaningless battle. Jason looked the same as always. He was almost the same Jason that used to take her on cute dates in New Rome. But he fought like a greek. And that was when it hit her, he changed. The mixture of love and hate made her loose her senses for a bit, giving Jason the lead. He focused on her leg but hesitated to hit it, giving her time to get back on the fight. She knocked him to the floor, her foot on his chest and her blade on his neck, when she heard footsteps approaching quickly. Of course. It was a trap. She turned around and saw a son of Hebe holding her team's flag running, followed by two daughters of Hephaestus. She grabbed a knife from her belt and threw it to his leg, hitting exactly where she wanted. She then grabbed Jason's blade and Shadow Travelled. For a moment everything was fine, while she drowned into darkness, but then she couldn't get out. She saw her father's face mixed in the dark. He raised his hand and touched her face, than she was back at the forest. Realising not even a second had gone through, she attacked the — injured — boy and the two gigantic girls at the same time. She wasn't really expecting to defeat them, just trying to win some time so, hopefully, someone would come help her. The boy dropped the flag and got a small sword. The two girls had hammers... oh. The three of them attacked at the same time and she protected herself with Jason's sword, which flew away. She was out of hopes when a figure appeared beside her and started fighting them.

"What are you doing here?! You're not supposed to help me, we're enemies, remember?" She said, fighting Hebe's son.

"I guess you're welcome then." Jason replied smiling, fighting the hammers-girls. (Y/N) sighted in annoyance. Seconds later, her teammates came running from the enemies' territory with a flag and the three-people group surrendered. Everyone started screaming and celebrating. (Y/N)'s head hurt with the noise and she looked to her brother, feeling numb.

"Hey, can we talk?" Jason said, getting in front of her with a big smile. He was proud of himself for helping her? Of course he was. He was going to take all the credit for her team's win. The anger rose inside of her burning everything. She furrowed her eyebrows and with the last energy that remained in her body, she tried to Shadow Travel for the perhaps hundredth time that day.

She fell into the darkness while feeling her body desapear quickly. Her heart was very accelerated but then it stopped. She saw herself at the barks of Lete's river. I'm dead., she thought. The desperation started taking over. She remembered the face of all her friends. Her siblings, Hazel and Nico. Her mother. Her best friend Reyna. Camp Jupiter. New Rome. The Lar Vitellius. Lares? Lares! Maybe she could go back as a ghost! She would at least see her friends again.

"Didn't expect to see you this soon." A voice said with humor. She turned around, as always enlighten by her father's presence. But his face was sad. Not the everyday-sad-Pluto, but the my-daughter-just-died-sad-Pluto.

"Am I d-... dead?" The anxiety forbid her from crying in front of her father. The one she never knew and once she did, she didn't want to disappoint him.

"Yes and no. You see, my darling, there are things more powerful then death. Right now, your physical being is exhausted from travelling through darkness and light — which I told you not to, but we'll talk about this later, you have a decision to make. You're body is surrendering to Death out of hopelessness. But your soul, on the other hand, still fights for the heart beating in your chest. And your conscious, the controller of both body and soul, has to decide which one of them you'll support right now. As Lord of the Death that's all I can say to you. But as your father, I would like to say that we have a room for you in the castle, if you'd like that. And also, I feel obligated to show you what is happening on Earth." When he finished his words, an image formed in the air, sort of an Iris message, but no one saw them. (Y/N) saw herself laying on the grass, surrounded by some campers, Nico and Jason.

She was watching them from above. Jason put two fingers on her neck, trying to feel her pulse. She — the one in the Underworld — gasped as the blond boy whispered 'nothing'. She glanced at her father, who had a pained expression as he stared at Nico freaking out. Her brother had his hands on her chest and was murmuring something in greek. Then, he opened his eyes, filled with tears of desperation, and glanced at Jason, who didn't look any better. She wanted to scream and go back to up there, but her voice wouldn't come out of her throat.

"Half of her is already gone." Nico struggled to say. Everyone around gasped. "I can't Shadow Travel with her, it- it would k-kill the other half..."

"Let's take her to the Infirmary. Everything's gonna be fine. She'll be okay." Will Solace had appeared in the crowd and kneed down to take (Y/N) in the arms, being helped by the other two. As they walked, (Y/N) held herself in her arms, sobbing. She didn't want to die, not like that. The image faded away and Pluto hugged her. He never did that before. She left out all her emotions through the cry. Her father caressed her back and gently kissed the top of her head.

"Now you see, my child, what those on Earth are going through. You have a family up there. And if you'd ask me, Jason Grace is a good person, even being a son of my brother. You have a choice, so make it wisely." Pluto said, not backing away from the hug. She nodded and he immediately knew what her choice was. "You know I'd love to have you here with me, but I'd love even more to see you happy. Don't be reckless. And listen to your brother. You don't have to worry to come see me, I'll make sure to visit you during your recovery." As he said that, a white door appeared out of nowhere. "Here's your carpool." The girl started to walk to the door, when she heard Pluto say: "(Y/N) I lo-... Good luck." She smiled to him and went through into the door. It felt like eons in the nothingness. She felt so much pain all over her body. Then she gained conscience. She didn't knew how long it had passed. She also couldn't open her eyes or say anything, but she knew she was laying down something comfortable, a bed, perhaps. But she could hear perfectly well.

"... and I'm so sorry you had to die for me to gain the courage to say this. Please come back to us... Come back to me. Nico barely leaves this room and nor do I, Will had to force him to go eat. It's not the same without you, (Y/N/N), it really isn't." Jason's words gave her the urge to cry, but she couldn't. It was like her body had shutdown completely. She felt his warm hands on her cold ones and after that, a door was opened. Footsteps. Only one person. Jason didn't move. Someone sat down next to them.

"Dad- I mean, Hades said she will be okay." It was Nico's voice. He sounded extremely tired.

"Didn't he say that last month?" Grace was annoyed, but he didn't stop holding her hand.

"I know, I wish I could do more... I'm... I'm sorry Jason." The blond sighted.

"I should be the one to be saying that. I know there's nothing else to do. I'm sorry for putting the blame on you. It's just- if we've talked before, nothing of this would have happened. If only I was brave enough..." (Y/N) felt weak and her consciousness was back at nothing again. When she heard something again, it looked like a lot of time had passed by, but she wasn't sure at all. Jason's voice was happy as he told her his plans to the future.

"I realised you would like to work with me training the legion. You're obviously skilled and the payment is quite good. And I've heard they are planning to build a village here as well, but I don't know if you-..." Every time she tried to stay conscious, she felt weaker. 'Rest', her father's voice said inside of her head, so she let herself.

Some time...? A long time...? She didn't knew. But the next time she heard, she was way stronger. She waited until then, so she could stay longer and try to understand her emotions. She heard almost an entire day. Her friends entered and left cabin 13 — she found out that she was there. Some of them talked "to" her, some just sat there in silence. When alone, Nico talked a lot about Will Solace. (Y/N) smiled mentally. Then Jason entered. She could already recognise the sound he made walking. He sat beside her bed and held her hand, as usual.

"Hello, princess. You look better." She reunited all the strength she had storage and sent it all to her right hand. She softly squeezed Jason's hand, for a small portion of second, trying to say 'hi'. She felt exhausted. He gasped.

"She just squeezed my hand!" He screamed, laughing. Nico jumped out of his bed, laughing as well. They both stared at her, waiting for more. "You're there, right? I knew you were! It's been long months, but you're getting better. Don't work too hard. We'll see each other soon, don't worry." He kissed her forehead. After that, it was easy for her to let go and dive into her sleep again.

She was slowly getting better. She noticed her comas were smaller now, and she got stronger every time. She started communicating by squeezing people's hand. One time for 'yes' and two times for 'no'. But it still was exhausting. She met with her father a couple times through dreams, but it never lasted long. She was sick of it. She wanted to jump out of the bed and run through all the camp. She was alone with Jason, as he talked about the last time he went to Camp Jupiter, telling every change. She slowly forced herself to open her eyes. It wasn't for too long, just enough for her to see the big smile he had while talking, her favourite blond hair and how he gesticulated while speaking. By that time, her feelings were completely lined. She declined her childishness and stubbornness to accept the fact that she obviously loved him. Her lips were able to form a small smile. He hadn't noticed her yet. I can do this, she thought.

"J." She whispered for the first time in five months. Her eyes were already closed again. He gasped.

"Did you just say J? That's me! I'm here, i'm right here, love. Can you hear me?" She squeezed his hand one time. Yes. He chortled. "You're so strong. I miss you so much." He started softly crying. She squeezed his hand two times. No. Don't cry, she wanted to say. "Alright, 's fine, 's fine. Gods, you're coming back. I bet Aphrodite is watching us closely." He chuckled but suddenly stopped. "I forgot we haven't talked about that yet, i'm sorry. I don't wanna be intrusive, you know. It's just, by what Nico has told me, well, you still liked me." She squeezed two times. "That's... that's great, love. But don't worry about that just yet. You should take some rest now, my love."

Five days. She had woken up every single one of them, but only listening. No squeezes, no talking, no looking. Just storing strength. She knew she was close to fully waking up. She was already able to keep track of the days. It was a Sunday, the day she received the most visits. It should be morning, because she only heard Nico's snorting. She slowly opened her eyes. The same place. Different clothes. She wondered who had changed them. Perhaps Will did. She systematically moved her arms, pushing herself to sit. Her back was laying at wall. She took a deep breath. It was going fine. She wanted to wake Nico up, but she decided to wait to see if she would be able to actually stay awake. About an hour later, Nico woke up by himself. He yawned and turned to her bed. She looked at him with a big smile. He jumped out of bed.

"Holy shit, (Y/N)! You're up! How- Wait! I need to- Wait! Don't fall asleep, I'll be right back!" She blinked slowly to sign 'ok'. He was back moments running later with a bunch of teenagers in pyjamas. They all froze at the door, staring at her. Hazel, Frank, Annabeth, Percy, Jason and even Piper. Hazel was the first one to wake up from the trance. She ran to her sister and hugged (Y/N).

"Ouch." She managed to say, reacting to the tight hug that made her head hurt.

"Right, sorry! I forgot. Wait, you speak!" Hazel answered and laughed. All of the others joined in, amazed by her friend, and started talking, telling everything she had missed. (Y/N) couldn't speed properly, only a few words like 'hi', 'ow', 'miss' and 'food'. Later that day, Will came to check on her. He said everything looked just fine, but that she should rest.

"Hey." Zeus' son said, once they were alone.

"Hi."

"Gods, it's so good to finally hear you again. I've talked to myself for a long time." They giggled softly. (Y/N) wasn't showing any signs of it, but that day had been extremely tiring. Her entire body hurt but she couldn't give up just yet.

"I... heard." She whispered. "A bit." Her eyes tried to close but she opened them wide, fighting her own nature. Jason noticed that.

"Hey, no need to over do it.” He brushed her cheek with his thumb.

"Sleep... here." She begged, placing her hand beside her. He froze for a moment, embarrassed. And then, with a rubor across his face, he sat on the bed beside her. She laid her head on his chest and quickly fell asleep.

“Go to sleep, love. We have all the time in the world.”