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sofarsogoodsowhat · 1 year

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two y/o stick n poke finally looks cool >:)

#I KNOW JTS PATCHY. AND I ONLY GOT THE LAST WORD AND HALF A LETTER IN THE SECOND WORD FILLED IN #BUT IM TIRED AND MY HEAD HURTS. ANYWAY #I AM SO SO SO SO SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS RECORD #anyway oh my fucking GOD aside from the patchiness im so fucking happy with how this came out. most of my shit i freehand on myself and hope #for the best LOL #if i need to i’ll draw an outline in my sketchbook first to practice and get it right but coloring i just go in balls swinging and figure it #out as im going. i can sort of paint and i used to actually color my drawings so i DO have an idea of what im doing #but anyway yeah so what i did here was pull out the record and just kinda bullshit the blood off of that #IT WAS SOOOOOOOO SO FUN TO DO I HAD SUCH A GOOD TIME WITH THIS ONE LIKE GOING IN BETWEEN THE LETTERS AND THE LITTLE SPOTS ON THE OUTSIDE #i need to finish designing shit for my mom :( need to do something on someone else or i will die

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lunarharp · 3 months

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What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this.#wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it...#some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself...#maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts.#orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little.#certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'.#i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

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thermodynamic-comedian · 2 months

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listen. i do not ever want anything bad to happen to lena kelley. however i do want her to, at some point, be in so much distress that someone has to comfort her. do you understand.

#and i want that someone to be alice. DO YOU UNDERSTAND.#if i speak...#ive been calling them alina #in my head #which i think is cute #what if our names combined into a real first name...and we were both girls....#anyways yeah.#save me alina hurt/comfort...alina hurt/comfort save me....#i want lena to collapse into alice's arms and cry about how she's been so tired. so scared. so alone. for all these years.#about how many people she's watched die right in front of her eyes. people she cared about.#about how she knows alice and sam and gwen and colin and celia aren't save either.#and that she's so scared she'll one day have to watch them die too #i want alice to try to crack jokes. to try to lighten the mood a little.#but eventually she gives up and just. holds lena close to her. as close as possible.#and she promises that she'll be here. always.#that others might leave but she'll stay.#a comforting constant.#AUGH IM SO UNWELL ABOUT THEM #tmagp #the magnus protocol #lena kelley

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mr-stottlemonk · 3 months

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made a timeline for monk tv for the folks cause it makes no sense sometimes.

[more in the tags]

[update: stottlemeyer's timeline found here]

#tried my best #math really churned itself out here #fic writing resources ahoy #feel free to use <3 #monk 2002 #monk 2002 timeline #this only counts adrian's age #i got tired of plotting a fic and going “errr wait when does this happen and does this thing im mentioning fit with this period of time???”#esp now that im going crazy about pre-series monk ideas #monk wiki says stottlemeyer is 17 YEARS OLDER THAN MONK #im just??? wot???#how can... that makes no sense. how can stottlemeyer be 81 and the head of security for some rich ass guy in mr. monk's last case? it dont #add up at all. ive always headcanoned that stottlemeyer is like 6-9 years older than monk #what were the writers thinking these ages are wacky #trudy is 4 years younger than monk too.#if we follow how she died when she was 34 #and theyd been married for 7 years... that makes her 27 but like. they met in uni. what age were they then???#monk def had to be 23-24 when he met trudy. which makes her 20 :“)#its whack man. making sense of this makes my head hurt #anyway im here to stop all that suffering #here we go #A BETTER TIMELINE #ill update with stottlemeyer's own age timeline soon :>

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tiredstressedemotionalmess · 27 days

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me when i get sleepy: oh my fuckisbg god no one understands me like ryan ross does and also i love my best friend more than breathing

#also applies to me when i have a migraine #and also me every second of every dya but its. its an amplified wmotion when im tired or my head hurts #anyways did you all know how much i love my best friend?? because this us extremely important information that you all Must be aware of

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soldier-poet-king · 9 months

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Stop over spiritualizing everything as a "battle" against the "forces of evil" or I am going to beat you with my fists, and unlike the nebulous authority and power you attribute to demons, I can assure you my fists are very present and actively intent on stopping this rhetoric

#franposting #this is unfair of me perhaps but also I'm so. goddamn tired of this shit #kaddison drop the full ulis prayer of compassion bc i sure af need to adapt it to my own life #also like #fuck off the entire concept of church militant or spiritual warfare #it aint a battle folks. its a done deal. its won. be joyful. love deeply.#stop it with fearmongering and cowardice and guilt tripping oh my GOODNESS #everyday is more devout and apparently that means more radical #i am. so so soooo tired #anyway its the universalist in me!!!!#also stop attributing evil to outside forces like #nah babes that shit is from YOU. we choose evil. we have the capacity for such goodness and such evil inside us #thats sin! its not some big scary battle #except with yourself maybe.#i will never ever forgive what the west post reformation has done to the concept of the devil #MANICHAENISM 2.0???#get that shit outta here. its about internal struggle. regardless of what we want to say about the source of it all #fundamentally. we have to look ourselves in the mirror and ask who we are goinf to be and how we are going to act #YES IM TIRED AND CRANKY AND WEEPY AND MY HEAD HURTS. WHAT ABOUT IT

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gifti3 · 2 months

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I was trying to do a little catch up in nightbringer

I finished lesson 20 and they like joke(?) about moving to the human world and staying at the MCs home if they cant stay in the devildom

And i just wanna seriously consider the logistics of MC trying to house 7 other people

Most of us are probably living with other people (who may not be okay with sharing a space with so many strangers suddenly) and/or dont have a giant sized place

And this is assuming the mc is staying at a house and not an apartment....

#obey me nightbringer #dont think anyone will last a day in this situation.#realistically theyre all gonna probably have to share 1 room right....#2 if we r lucky #at my home we have an extra bedroom and a living room #and the extra room technically belongs to my grandpa when he visits from ghana so...#id be like....yall gotta come up with some human identities and find jobs so you can move into a different place #im not trying to abandon them in the human world of course #especially mammon for several reasons #but yea....#and outside of living arrangements mc would have to teach them to live in this damn world #and navigate new social norms urghh #my head hurts thinking about it #like “noooo u cant fuckin threaten people so flippantly when they piss u off unless u wanna make my life more difficult!!”#ik they could take ppl in fight sure but god #what if they get arrested #ugh sorry my mind is just going towards all the worst case scenarios lol #anyways im gonna try to start next lesson but im already getting tired of playing these rhythm games sigh

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givemebackmypills · 6 months

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#meeeeeeeeeeeee #I've been listening to aurora's live shows on repeat for five hours...love herrrrr #I needed to read two books by tomorrow (I did it!) but I'm so tired and my head hurts again.........#I write about my headaches so often sorryyyy hahahahaha #also i want to open comission but im sooooo scared (I've been saying that for a year now)#anyway!!!!!!!!!!#we have a lot of snow outside and that's the only thing I'm happy about right now #i love snow so muchhhh + I like to draw snow #I drew this after I played ep 5 lis2

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thebirdandhersong · 7 months

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personally I don't like this ish (pointing to my emotions) and if I could remove one very specific one I am struggling with at the moment, that would be SOOOOOO very convenient and helpful, Lord

#you know that thing where it's like hope is hemophilia you bleed and you bleed and you bleed #yeah well i'd like to stop bleeding already there's literally nothing there's literally NOTHING i'm working with!!!!#alright im tired so i WILL talk and then will delete this tomorrow but. i love this boy so much and it is personally Killing me #it is also deeply embarrassing the extent that i care about him and how silly my behaviour has been as a result #i literally cooked for half the dorm because i wanted to make food for him. like girl whyyyyy #do i need to go down to breakfast at 7:30am every single day? no. do i go because i know he's always there before his class? yeah #do i worry about him and wonder about him and ask him about his day pretty much every day? also yes #it has been SUCH a mess of sticky notes and asking about what he needs prayer for and buying the same brand of cookies because i know #they're his favourite and simply losing my MINDDDD which is so silly because i KNOW he ***** ******* ****#he literally TOLD me about this. the door is already CLOSED. WHY must the delusional voice in my head harp on in this way!!!!#alsooooo i hear his voice in the hall and my heart literally starts to hurt it is SO bad #there's way more than this but that's all i'm willing to admit because even when tired i at least have some sense of wanting to preserve #my dignity. anyway #the waiting room chapter

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annnise · 4 months

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I dont wanna go to work todayyyyyyyyyy i havent gotten decent sleep in a few days and ive been working a weekend of hell (doubles) again and my boss at the greater-of-the-two-evils jobs is about to fire me and im the only one scheduled as server today and i wanna fucking aufhdhhdhwhfhshdhwhhwhdhshwhsududhhsh

#mmy post #everything hurts so much!! my head kills!!!!#someone should give me all the rest of the money i need to move out so that i can just skip town and not stress about it #but also No this is important job experience and im learning skills i need in the industry and im also hopefully gonna learn how to #stand up for myself one day and #augh im just so tired #AND MY PAY IS SHIT!! (:#anyway i will catch you guys (speaking to an empty room) later. if not earlier. if i dont quit on the spot #i hope he fires me actually #maybe not fires me but like. just leaves me off the schedule until i put in my two weeks #that would be so slay and cool #also im seriously contemplating taking in a water bottle with a bit of white rum #i dont know if it would help but. maybw #maybe just maybe #okay BYE

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piplupod · 18 days

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re: prev post, just an anecdote of my family's bs

i remember when i was trying to have a conversation w my family, esp my brother, a while back (last year) about the prev post's topic, and ohhh my fucking god. it was one of the worst convos I've ever had with them. my brother was whining about how difficult it was to not be racist and to know what qualifies as racist and what's "okay to say" etc (along with ableism, but racism was the main point of that convo at that point), so I said he just needed to go searching out some musicians and podcasters and streamers of colour and you'd pretty quickly diversify your media intake and pick up good habits and good viewpoints just through that one simple action. it's like,,, really not that hard to find POC to subscribe to/follow if you do a simple look-around in your usual spaces u spend time in on the internet.

and he said, and I quote, "i'm going to be honest, i just don't care enough to do that" and yet he had just been whining about how hard it is to not be racist and how he was stressed because people kept telling him he was being racist,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, head in my hands !!!!!! he went on to explain just how little he actually cared and how it seemed like too much work to him even though he'd literally just been complaining to me for like 20 full minutes about how he was so stressed and didn't like people telling him he was racist.

like i know what he wanted to hear was "its okay if ur racist, im sure ur just doing ur best :)" but i'm not going to fucking say that to him. even if it would make me safer in this hell house, i am not going to fucking affirm anyone's comfort in being racist.

#this family drives me nuts. i lost all respect for my brother that day ngl #and he has gone on to be continually racist and brush off anything i've brought up in family conversations about racism #like that one youtuber that he and another brother love so much that is white and bastardizing an indigenous spirit for profit #he got so fucking mad when i said the words ''white saviourism'' fdsjjkl i saw smth in him just snap when i said that about the youtuber #and then he uses ''tribal savages'' in his DnD campaigns and i'm just....... so tired. having to listen to him excitedly explain his-#-new campaign that he came up with and he's yet again using the tribal savage horrific stereotypes #and if i say shit about that then i get yelled at by the rest of the family and made to feel like im oversensitive and crazy #anyways. wah wah poor me etc. im sure this is somewhat normal and nowhere near the difficulties other ppl face #i just rly hate trying to slooowly teach them and suggest the tiniest steps towards being less racist and they get so fucking angry at me #im still smarting over yesterday bc i had to hold my tongue through a lot of shit and i feel awful about it #i want to teach them so they aren't going thru the world hurting ppl but i have to weigh my safety against it #and tbh they are not receptive anyways so i'd just be throwing away my safety for no real progress w them #but i feel like i have to try idk !!!! if i don't try then nobody in this family has any real hope of improving !!!#god knows theyre not going to take the initiative themselves. thats been proven repeatedly over my goddamn lifetime #sigh. head in my hands. tearing my hair out. etc etc etc #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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dreamcast-official · 4 months

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huh.

#eli.txt #idk i think ive been slowly forgiving my sister for how deeply hurt i felt when she moved out bc now I Get It. like I Get It #when she moved out i was. 9. and in my head i thought she had left because of me. because i wasnt the easiest kid in the world and i know-#-she had a hard time dealing with me when we were alone. we're so far apart in age we couldnt connect for most of my life. and in my head #that was the reason she left home. bc of me. bc she was tired of *me.*#i know now thats not true. and i understand now why she had to leave because if she felt the way im feeling then goddamn im glad she got ou #this feeling SUCKS. nd like #yeah this probably has to do with my father's daughter and the fact that she refused to even meet me until our dad died.#it took my dad dying for my sister to even be in the same room as me. that really messed with me as a kid. like it REALLY did.#so when my sister left home i just kinda went. oh okay neither of my sisters want anything to do with me! i will be alone forever! got it!#AND I KNOW NOW THATS NOT TRUE ON EITHER OF THEIR ENDS. I DONT HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP W MY DADS DAUGHTER AND I PROBABLY NEVER WILL #BUT I DONT HOLD ANYTHING AGAINST HER ANYMORE BC GOD HER MOTHER WAS AWFUL AND I GET WHY SHE DIDNT WANT TO MEET ME BC OF EVERYTHING #BUT LIKE. THAT MESSED ME UP AND I JUST STRAIGHT UP ASSUMED BOTH MY SISTERS HATED ME FOR SO LONG.#AND NOW THAT I ALSO FEEL LIKE I NEED TO LEAVE I CAN SEE SO CLEARLY. MY SISTER NEVER HATED ME I WAS NEVER THE REASON SHE LEFT.#I CAN LET GO OF HOW HURT I FELT BECAUSE I ALSO NEED TO LEAVE #god i dont wanna hurt my mom though.#dont think i could leave her completely alone in this apartment. i dont think i can do that.#anyway. hi tumblr did you like todays oversharing episode

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moomoorare · 3 months

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I'm so mentally drained dude I feel like a dry plant BURNED by sunlight

#fell asleep two hours tonight and im still tired #for my mental weelbeing im gonna actually go out to buy something good to eat some comfort foods or something ifk #*idk #and the stretch will maybe help its also sunny it cant hurt #i need all the comfort i can get #my head hurts so much too #i will try to take a nap after im back #i have a complicated relationship with food #i love food. and im not really picky. except. i eat only for the flavour #i need something to be flavorful otherwise if its bland my body will outright reject it #cannot physically bring myself to eat bland foods #and its not even like they have to be seasoned #i love eating fruit and veggies with no additions or salt jusy saright up carrots tomatos and cabbage #but also. for pasta for example. or meat. or anything really .#idk.#anyway i just need food.#because goddamn. ive been having one mesl per day too with how bad my sleeping schedule has been #rare rambling

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feline-evil · 3 months

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Just dawned on me that i am a homeschool dropout and that this is kind of a fundamentally hilarious combination of words to be

#jay talkin #diversity loss local man can't sleep cuz hes just angry and upset abt the state of so many things #and he cant get his brain to shut off or shut down or shhh for five mins #to be able to start to rest AND. to make matters worse. he wrenched his shoulder bad today #and now it hurts ow ow ow ow ow ow #anyway i started flunking maths when i was a teen and then shortly after we gave up on #all formal education so i have a 16yr olds education at best hachacha cha aint that a fun fact #i never did solve those first long division books. ah well.#need 2 just like....manifest images of nathan explosion in my head 2 help me calm down. help me nathan explosion. hep #its 4am please let me sleep im so tired haha

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poems-of-a-lover · 1 year

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i took a break and ate and now im. ill. i do not feel well jfhskjdf but i have soooo so so much to do. ugh. i need to be put down.

#im jus gtksajhfkjsdhgksjhgk im so tired #like its hard to focus and stay motivated and i just wanna sleep #i need to just be put down actually! that would fix me!#ive been doing so much these past few days and im tired and im not feeling well and my bones hurt and i just wanna bite things #anyway. im ill in the head.#kinda vent ig???

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tortademaracuya · 1 year

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"Today I will finish the concept art for this character and digitallize these 3 background sketches and the UI and if I have time left the start screen and my presentation" girl you spent the entire day fighting for your life trying to finish the base for the character. Sit down.

#AAAAAAAGGGGGGG IM SO BEHIND #im gonna make the backgrounds sketchy for now but i guess i will do them the next few days...#im concentrating on finishing this character sheet and the start screen today since its very simple #and hopefully i WILL do all the presentation and UI tomorrow...#my head hurts and im so tired but if i touch a bed again im never getting up. im tired all the time anyways #and if i stop working then i will just start thinking about the fact i have to do a presentation in front of +40 people and die #i really need to practice :(#also because im an idiot i want to draw ALL the slides instead of using google images. because i hate life #someone give me coffeeeeee and a energy drink whatever i need to wake the fuck up and concentrate #haunted.txt #at least Helena looks good but i cant help but second guess #also at least she doesnt have as many textures as Magali. i can rest a little #<- idiot that draws all textures by hand instead of using a template or smth #what bothers me more about the presentation is i want someone to practice with but :) i dont want anyone to laugh at me :)#im like this close to snapping

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