Highschool AU got me churning out ideasds (not pictured here but I think Bedman AKA Romeo and A.B.A would have intellectual debates they tryna outsmart each other)
MS paint aa4 doodles part 10 where i was real excited to say we are out of serenade but actually it turns out i made so many doodles during this session that it went over tumblrs image limit soo.
FUCK!!! I MISSED WHEN WE GOT 1738 ROBOOTYLINGS. FUCK IT. ANYWAYS 😇😇😇😇 YIPPIEE ANOTHER SUBSCRIBER MILESTONE!!! for this subscriber special hm.... i would like to share an asset of mai yaif (sorry for being concieted... ill pay for it when i weigh my heart against a feather in da future) vote what youd like lol
Sorry if you’ve answered this before but how did you learn to draw? I love your style so so much and am super interested to hear how you developed it!
I used to check out those how to draw books from the school library in elementary school to learn how to draw Archie comics characters, and then took art classes as an elective in high school. deviantart for tutorials when I didn’t know how to draw something, town public library for finding books on color theory, etc. I carried (and still do) a sketchbook around in case I saw cool knickknacks or trees and wanted to remember it because I didn’t have a cellphone with a camera until I was, like, twenty lmao. eventually it just kind of culminated into a style!
I’m ngl to you all contemplating not going to heart doctor and just like putting my sister in therapy too but I’m still trying to find one. Also i am just scared of spending more if i go to the doctors 😭
it is painful to learn the "normal" ways that people reasonably around my age were motivated to do things their parents wanted, ie chores or getting good grades in school. this is a pain that has built over time because, seeing it around me as a kid, i could reason that maybe every single one of my friends were just spoiled. but, eerily, every time it seems the topic of motivating children comes up in whatever conversation is bringing it up, it seems like. and it still feels presumptuous to say. but most people as children were rewarded for good behavior. the one i was most envious of as a child was that multiple of my friends got paid money for getting As, and it was actually very shocking to me to find out that that is at least kind of a little more universal than i really really was sure it was not, but that's not the big thing that causes me pause now. generally, it seems, children are rewarded in some way for doing things their parents ask of them. writing and then stepping back and reading such a sentence makes me feel like an alien trying to puzzle out the function of the human pancreas lmfao but i dont know. in the wider conversations where this happens to come up, describing these motivators is never the point, which is maybe part of the difficulty for me. it's really hard to process that not everyone was doing what their parents said to do out of cold pure fear for their life. there's so many things it turns out other kids were getting. stickers and movie tickets and candy and praise and love. i am so sad.
I’m really looking forward to Aemond’s deteriorating relationship with his mother next season. Since claiming Vhagar and losing his eye. Aemond’s sort of molded himself into this perfect son and prince who Should be his mother’s favorite child but despite this, it’s the Problem Child, Aegon who Alicent frets over the most. Sometimes it’s the child who causes the most grief that winds up being the most loved, even if they’re not the most liked as a person.
Despite resenting his brother, Aemond has had to cede to him as his elder and the son his mother will always be the most concerned with for his entire life. Though it hurts, this pill has been made easier to swallow with the knowledge that he and his brother and mother form a faction against the truly inferior side of the family— Rhaenyra and her children. Aemond can accept being less important than Aegon so long as he and his mother have a common enemy. This is strongly affirmed for him in the landmark moment of his childhood where Alicent viciously defends him at Driftmark.
Now, after Lucerys’ death, Alicent sees her younger son in a light she had never seen him in before. She is horrified by him and cannot forgive him for how he has harmed Rhaenyra and endangered their entire family by triggering a war. Moreover, Alicent’s talk of making peace with Rhaenyra even after B&C comes as a complete betrayal to Aemond. The assurance he had that his mother would always choose him other the Enemy has been shattered. His entire naive worldview has been upheaved and he will build his new one around being a murderer without mercy and without need for his mother’s support. I don’t think Alicent, in her grief for Rhaenyra, Aegon, and Helaena, will have the emotional capacity to see through Aemond’s fragile projected image, and this will only distance the mother and son further.
This decision by the show is, I think, going to explain many of Aemond’s rather ummmm idiotic decisions in the book, such as not returning to KL to rescue his mother despite seemingly having every reason to.