#Flash foward our trip to Macedonia
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God I have so many revelations about myself
Like the time I didn't like yolks in eggs at all? And than started eating only the solid ones? And that I still just hate the runny ones?
It wasn't the taste. It was the fucking texture change.
Like boiled egg whites are like hard jelly in texture than yolks are crumbly, and definitely not jelly like. And runny ones are. Just bad.
#How hadn't my parents noticed that?#You have two autistic children#Well I am probably autistic considering the stuff I had to put up with my entire life#Just to discover those are not normal#Or well. As normal as I thought#I thought everyone was tired and had a 'head ache' after going to the shops#Apparently that was overstimulation#Now I wanna know how many times I was like 'oh I have a head ache :/' when in actuality I was over stimulated#Also not me looking at people around me and going 'I don't trust you because of your vibe'#I know it's probably pattern recognition and countless times I've been faced with fake people#But it still amazes me how right I can be about people#Like I've been sitting next to that one girl in our towns orchestra#She had a rancid vibe but I was nice and she seemed nice so who cares#Flash foward our trip to Macedonia#Turns out she's really mean and rude! To everyone!#Pattern recognition is probably gonna safe my ass in many situations like those#Well if I listen to it#autism#neurodivergent#Oh god I just remebered counting days I've been down in middle school#Bc more than 2 weeks is concerning and might be a sigh of depression#So I was like 'brain please make some dopamine without me giving you shit'#And idk if I forced it to do that or did it actually stopped for a while near two week or it was my bad maths#But me feeling down never exceed the 2 weeks mark#So I was like#I might experience a lot of symptoms of depression#But it's not depression bc I haven't been feeling down for long enough#i mean im not complaining#I don't think I did have depression bc I would most likely still have it#Although my psychologist did ask me if I wanna get that tested
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