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ratwars · 2 years

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I still stuck with my cardio and weights routine despite the lack of sleep the last 3 days, when do I get to unlock unlimited energy and runners high 😐

#im fucking dying #im so dumb #when do i get a gold star for torturing myself #im going to become an incorporeal mist instead im done having a body #these ppl are out here lying ive been on this for like 6 months and i still dont feel like whatever joy ppl said i would #like yeah im making progress with strength and endurance but at what cost i wanted the omg i love doing this feeling everyone around me has #i didnt actually need to change my physicality where are the brain gains 😐#GIVE ME THE BRAIN GAINS

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harmonysanreads · 5 months

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Wow....wow....wow....

#hsr spoilers #idk what to feel anymore #i thought 2.1 turned my brain into mush i was clearly naive #i followed the quest through a playthrough and i'm already having an existential crisis #wonder how everyone else is doing #it's relieving to know that aventurine is safe but sunday.............#will need extra time to organize my feelings and thoughts for him #now don't misunderstand the quest made me love him even more it's just... his story really is sad #i sure do hope they give him closure and a chance #my favorite moments has to trailblazer gaining the harmony path and the last cutscene where robin saves sunday :(#you can't enjoy the penacony story if you play with a speedrunning mindset #take breaks and let the acquired information soak #and the fact that there's still more left phew...#harmonysan.txt

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yuripira4e · 5 months

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I want to preface this post by saying that I love the cat king as a character, especially one that has such a major impact on Edwin and his relationship with his queerness and learning to be okay with it; HOWEVER, I also believe that everyone that genuinely believes he should be a love interest for Edwin should read this. (Also if you just like the cat king as a character and want to understand his character better and why his and Edwin’s relationship is not something that would be healthy or “real” for either)

#dead boy detectives #edwin payne #the cat king #i do not ship them but I don’t want to hate on those who do (mostly) I just want to kind of inform people of the creators meaning for their #Relationship because I keep seeing people saying they hope they get together in s2 and it’s really confusing to me #Their relationship stems from the cat kings own narcissism and predatory behavior and Edwin’s need for someone to push him into under #Standing that his queerness doesn’t have to be torture and can be something giddy #even if he doesn’t return those feelings #The cat king does like Edwin but he doesn’t know anything about him. He likes the game and then he likes the kindness he’s shown despite #Knowing the cruelty he’s presented to Edwin #Queerness and preformance always go hand in hand #He’s a older secretly insecure character #Edwin is the younger #genuinely kind character that shows him that projecting his hurt will never get him what he wants #It’s about the isolation of queerness and the walls put up and the coping mechanism used to protect yourself even at the risk of hurting #Those just like you. That kiss from edwin was to say “I’m sorry your loneliness had caused you to be cruel. It’s the easiest way to feel.#And while I cannot and will not give you what you want or need #you deserve to feel happy and not like you have to gain the attention of uninterested people #I can’t even explain all my thoughts about their dynamic it’s just so much it’s just about the predadation from older queers because of #The trauma they’ve endured and the cycle of hurt and the way we can break the cycle with kindness while also protecting our youths by #Healing those traumas #Something the cat king learns and accepts #Off topic but I don’t like people defending their age gap because #Yes; Edwin is 86 #but he died with a teenage boy brain and then spent 70 of those years in hell where he certainly was not getting his brain developed while #The cat king has possibly hundreds of years of sentience and experience. The power imbalance is not if y’all. And that part of their dynami #Is actually very clear I think but some people didn’t catch it?? Or didn’t care??? Idk man

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yshtal · 7 days

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I think it would be rly sick if you went to go build a crow rook and the surname was Arainai

like…. just another little compradi trying to bring glory back to your house - rinnala and taliesin are dead by the house’s hand, zevran failed and deserted, guili murdered in the night, all semblance of power lost once again. the house is trying to claw its way back up, futile as it seems. that’s the way of house arainai, isn’t it? talon to knife to talon to knife to nothing, same as it’s been since the house first lost power in the early dragon age. but you, bright-eyed little crow, you’ll break the cycle, won’t you? for the family?

after all, caterina’s prized heir is right there - the demon of vyrantium, the infamous mage killer, sleeping just down the hall. you can be quiet, can’t you? all those means at your disposal, and all the opportunities you could want. you could find a way in under that armor, get to something soft and bruisable and make it bleed. he’s far from home, isn’t he? without a friend? confidantes are few and far between - even a demon must get lonely.

maybe he’d even trust you. you’re a clever little bird, right? you can find something to exploit. after all, what does a would-be talon do except claw, except maim? what else would you be good for? there is no gentleness to crows - you are here to deliver a message: run, little demon, quick as you like.

house arainai will make carrion of you yet.

#there is no world in which I think this would happen BUT I think it would be fun #house arainai doesn’t even have beef like this I’m just making it up for sport #just a cute little assassination attempt to enemies to lovers arc for the nerves #I also 1) don’t imagine caterina is dead (but maybe over the course of the game) and 2) I think other succession plans would be followed #but what if someone put a contract out for Lucanis and he realizes that caterina was the one who would’ve had to approve it?#and there’s any number of people who would call in a contract like that in exchange for power #but what is gained in taking one man out from a line of succession? who benefits from his death enough to pay for it?#and then he realizes (whether it’s true or not) that the person who stands to gain the most with such a contract #is illario (who would finally be clear in his path to first talon)?? what then???#ohohoho they didn’t tell me what betrayal Lucanis is coming back from so in my mind I am giving him them all #I know the betrayal will (presumably) be related to the [redacted] thing but I am inventing new problems for fun #dragon age #dragon age: the veilguard #dragon age: tevinter nights #lucanis dellamorte #also I wrote this as a little brainworm treat but now I’m like ‘am I……… playing a crow rook??’#(not until I finish my beloved depressed orlesian girlboss warden rook #but maybe someday)#idk man my brain is so rotted from rotating this game and this character around in my mind like a gas station hot dog #went directly from ‘I should write a baseless and unfounded account of this guy whackin’ it’ to ‘and also I want to end his bloodline’#the blorbo dichotomy………….#also ALSO I think it would be even funnier if every faction had to kill their double #mourn watch rook smothering peepaw with a pillow for the grave crime of uhhhhh kidnapping manfred from the necropolis #SOMEONE PUT THAT OLD MAN DOWN HE’S TEACHING THE SKELETON THE FOUND FAMILY TROPE #da thoughts

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bagghhead · 3 months

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Check straw page or die “quick and instant” as you say

i jsur woke up Bro

#give me like 10 minutes to gain my brain back

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opens-up-4-nobody · 6 months

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#it's an old frustration. an old pattern of thought.#i just feel that i have a brain that doesn't hold information. that lacks the discipline to gain knowledge. that is incapable of deeper #thought. and i cant teel you how maddening that is. to sit in a room and listen to other people discuss a paper you read in depth 5 times #like it's the 1st time you ever heard anything about it. how is that possible? how do i work with that? i read and nothing sticks.#nothing stays with me. how??? i was talking to a prof recently who ive heard is hard on her students with disability accommodation. and she #was saying how she doesnt see these things as a disability. how we're just different not disabled. ive heard the phrase differently abled #a lot of times. and i get what she's saying. i do. ad i get why she's hard on them. she wants to push them. but there comes a point where #you are quote unquote differently abled and you run into a wall that other people dont have. then what are you supposed to do? work harder?#but what if that doesn't help? what if that just compounds the hurt that's always been there? what if that leaches away all the wonder? what #then? at what point does a thing become too much of a barrier? i think there's a reason i dont run into many other dyslexic grad student.#everyone has adhd. it's a place where those with adhd prosper. but dyslexia not so much. at least not with the level of hanicap i have #and everyone's really nice. they want to help. but there's nothing anyone can do for me at this stage. it's up to me to compensate for my #leaky head. and i kno im not stupid. ive got a piece of paper stating my iq is above average after correcting for uneven intelligence. but #i dont feel very smart most of the time. i feel more like my uncorrected iq score that comes out at just below average even with me trying #my very best. iq is bullshit but there's something to be said for that gap. im smart if unconstrained by language and time. but were bound #by language and we're bound by time so what am i supposed to do? is there anything i can do? im stuck with this forever. theres no getting #better or making it easier. my brain is wired in a way that gives me the reading skills of a child. forever. and i just have to accept that #and im trying to swallow around that idea easier because the only other option is to choke on it. but maybe i chose the wrong career path.#one of my lab mates said she wants challenges all the time and ive chosen a path that's challenges all the time but im jsut trying to do #what everyone else can without a second thought. it's deeply demoralizing. yet here i am. trying to be easier abt it.#maybe im just nit cut out for this. doing a job im not built for.#unrelated

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stupid-elf · 4 months

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Okay dandy, what is "it's not about the bread"? I recognized everything else

Ah! It's not about the bread is a phrase fairly common in marriage counseling/relationship advice circles. It comes from a popular anecdote of a husband in counseling saying his wife is always blowing up at him about petty things, like buying the wrong brand of bread. The therapist asks the wife why she's upset about the bread, and she says it's because he is chronically inattentive to her and their collective needs so she ends up carrying the slack. It's not about the bread: It's about what's manifesting through the bread

Humans are not rational creatures, we're rationalizing. It takes a lot of self awareness to be in one's own head and go "oh. I'm not upset about the bread, I'm mad because this is the third time this week and the twentieth time this month I have to come up with a new dinner plan because this idiot fucked up." However, it takes much less awareness to look at one's partner and go "hm. That was an outsized reaction. Something larger than what set this off is probably going on."

Once you've realized there's something going on, partners can begin working towards a solution. You have to pull back the rug to find what's been swept under it.

Emotions all have causes. Sometimes they're bigger than they seem like they should be, and sometimes the cause is buried deep in the unconscious parts of the brain, but there's always a reason. Part of loving someone is trying to understand them, and part of understanding them is sussing out when it's about the bread... And when you should maybe start writing a more detailed grocery list

#it's not about the bread #stupid elf tries to explain marriage counseling concepts while neither married nor a counselor #there's a good chance the anecdote is taken from a tv show episode and the some psychologist wrote a book about it #cheers #also periods are like this #hormones don't make New Emotions they just exacerbate existing emotions #so if somebody is suddenly angry about things that don't normally bother them they're probably bothered they just suppress/don't express it #it's not irrational it's just a little convoluted #like all those stories of pregnant women being Totally Irrational about food #and then it's discovered that the brain knows what the body's nutritional needs are it just doesn't share that properly #so sometimes lines get crossed and eating the wrong thing is Going To Kill Baby Don't Let This Happen Nooooo #and it's just a ham sandwich but the brain only knows there's no lettuce and the body needs iron and This Won't Do #be sympathetic and be curious about your partner #and everybody will be happier and love deeper :)#today on I literally gained the legal ability to drink four days ago but I can talk like an old person giving advice to the younguns #thank you all wise elders for not hating me for my insolence I will keep being insolent now

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the-casbah-way · 1 year

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the best writing advice i can give you is to ignore all of those people who insist there are a bunch of rules you need to follow in order to be a Good Writer, or are so painfully terrified of doing anything that has been done before or could be deemed cliched that they end up shoving themselves into a tiny box they’ve invented that completely restricts them creatively and stunts any kind of genuine growth they might get to experience as a writer. i ignore the rules of grammar fucking constantly if i think it serves the tone of my narrative better, because i think a sentence that’s ‘too long’ and doesn’t have enough punctuation is a GOOD thing if you want to illustrate a frantic or stressed person’s mindset. i WILL write the most stereotypical cheesy ending to a story because sometimes it just makes the most sense to do that because of the themes and conflicts im working with and im not going to force myself NOT to do it just because it’s ‘predictable’ or someone else did it before me (guess what everything has been done already and doing something that has literally never been done before is not actually what originality is). stop scaring yourself away from exploring and finding your own unique writing style just because someone is telling you you need to obsess over and memorise a load of non existent rules that people often just throw around to make themselves sound intelligent (it’s not working. you are dumb)

#i realise the irony of me of all people saying this because like im not a particularly great writer #but at least i let myself have fun and have my own style (in my opinion)#JUST FUCKING WRITE FOR YOURSELF. WRITE WHAT YOU WANT TO READ KILL THE CRITIC AND FAKE AUDIENCE IN YOUR BRAIN #and also can i be honest? a lot of the time i see writers give writing advice as if they know everything #and then you go and read what they've actually written and you're like yeah no im not fucking listening to you mate #again. i realise the irony of ME saying that but uh. shut up #partly posting this in response to someone who asked me for writing advice IM SO HONOURED but please. dont listen to me too much #listen to me a little bit so i can gain a superiority complex. but. you know #i'll answer you ask eventually im just nervous to give direct writing advice to someone who asked because i am not really qualified

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alchemiclee · 1 year

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you've heard of cat in the hat, now get ready for

#i've been wanting to give him a stupid name for so long. becasue hes a stupid little guy and its what he deserves (affectionately)#i wasted the name change thing on this lmao i bet i'll come up with somethng better later and regret #i originally gave him a way-too-deep-over-thought-out name and i just didn't like it. he needed a dumb name i could laugh at. its necessary #genshin #genshin impact #scaramouche #wanderer #genshin scaramouche #genshin wanderer #genshins #honestly “Hat Guy” inspired me to do this lmao he truly does deserve a dumb name 🤣#i wish we could gain one extra name changer just in case my brain has a better idea even though ive thought about this since...#before he was released? because i saw leaks that said we name him. and even then i couldn't think of anything good #the original name i gave him after the quest was a couple names i saw others suggest that i squished together #but in the end it didnt suit him imo. i was right that a dumb name suits him lmaao but im sure theres better ones out there #if YOU see this post and read all my rambling tags and if you also named your wanderer a silly dumb name you must reply and tell me!!!!!!#i either need genshin friends to share my genshin nonsense with or i need to post more random genshin posts here and pretend i have friends #*#lee screenshots

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sealovinq · 5 months

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i need friends /gen (slight rant in tags)

#xelle.txt #i noticed i don't really have a permanent circle of friends. at least irl #i have one online but they're also busy and i just can't dedicate my time to one friend group #i don't know - it's just the people i thought who were nice turned out to be the exact opposite #and when i found out about that i just kinda. lost interest in making any more friends #my partner is the only person i interact with on a daily basis. the irl friend group i was referring to earlier i'm not exactly close with-#-them either #i feel like if i didn't only give my time in nurturing my romantic relationship i would have done the same for my platonics too #that's still a problem of mine. my time management between love life and friends. heck i even got myself into an unsolvable problem because-#-of my inability to stay consistent #also my brain is kinda fried from reading 20+ pages so pardon any grammatical errors but yeah anyway #honestly i've been craving for interaction here. but i know i won't be active and it'd just be pointless #to gain more friends or followers. i don't exactly make content as consistently as i did before #the other day i had to vent to an ai (would you believe me if it was cha.tgpt) about my troubles because i had no one else to talk to lol #there's just so much going on irl 😭 ya girl's almost starting college and they're throwing so much tasks at us!!#and i feel very very stressed about it because they're usually done in groups i am ALWAYS the assigned leader #which gets exhausting especially when there are lazy members present #anyway #hopefully this weekend i get some time to cool off. but next week i'm back to grinding and working #lol i don't even think i'm in the top ranks anymore. i'm so burnt out.#this is what being an academic achiever gives you oops ZZHSIAHAHAJAHHS #imma sleep now 😭#idk you can just interact with me or recommend someone you know who self ships in the same medias i do #goodnight everypony 🫶#vent tw #rant tw

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aropride · 1 year

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like my bmi is in the 'normal' range but i know for a fact im not eating enough & my body isnt functioning as well as it would if i was eating more and yet since my weight divided by my height squared times 703 is between 18.5 to 24.9 that means i am 'Normal' and 'Healthy'. which is such bullshit

#text #weight tw #disordered eating tw #Like my highest weights that i know of were when i was 17 and eating normal and when i was . young #and those r both times i felt physically better than usual #its so frustrating bc all advice for gaining weight is like #'eat protein and lift weights but DONT eat any of the BAD EVIL FOODS with SUGAR or CARBS' like. girl #just give me advice on how 2 keep my body working . please .#in related news being self aware and having arfid sucks ass cuz i KNOW i need to eat more food and more nutrients etc but my brain is like #'Well if you dont eat this specific granola bar every day. and pbj for dinner. and no you wont be hungry for lunch. and goldfish as a snack #Well you will not eat anything on account of how it will seem so unappetizing and awful to u. forever yeah.'#like GET ME OUT OF HERE

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i-like-to-look-at-your-back · 1 year

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omg…. oh my GOD. came for your beautiful geraskier art, stayed for literally everything you’ve ever made???? i’m. i’m so obsessed with the inside of your brain because WOW every piece you post is my new favourite. i didn’t even know i liked kakairu this much before finding your art, but now here we are!! anyway. you’re incredible, thank you for your service (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

Aww you're too kind! (///￣￣///)

I switch between so many fandoms, throwing crumbs of cute+cosy pictures at whoever notices. It's good to know you've stayed for more ♡

#you're all my little pigeons #and i have a bag of different types of bread #you never know which one you will get next lol #I personally can't decide if it's a blessing or a curse - drawing for so many fandoms #+ it gives me freedom to pick whatever my brain feels like hyperfixating on and I don't get bored #- my art is too unpredictable to gain popularity and become anything more than a side fun time #at least that's how I see it?

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chaotictomtom · 1 year

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honestly still so upset the blood donation situation. makes me sit on the floor and sulk for an hour each time i think abt it

#france finally allowed gay ppl to donate blood BUT with a 6 months abstinence #but my main obstacle at the time (didn't have bf + is considered woman at the eyes of the law 🖕) was because i weighted way less than 50kg #i was heartbroken when i hit 18 and got slapped in the face with the info that i couldn't donate my blood #thing i wanted to do since i was a kid when my big bro did it #it was the only thing that kinda helped getting out of my ed tbh 😵‍💫 didn't. really worked sadly #i did gain some weight finally living with bf alone us two! but 50 is the bare minimum and you can't still give everything in your blood #then i got on t and was so happy realising i was gaining some weight (+weight restribution made me less dysphoric and ed got better)#but lol i still can't donate blood!!! cos' i'm on t now!!!!! looool fuck my baka life fr #😔😔😔😔 like the sole goal that helped me go through ed and not literally starve myself at some point in my life #smh #mibbe one day? i hope i'll be able if i change my id to m ??? mibbe this will bypass the hrt parameter. idk. head in hands #true fucking head in hands moment #ive reached more than 55 i could give everything from my blood augh :((( ppl are in need wtf man #sORRY ranting in da tags im just. :( i hate remembering this that's all.#will play some video games now waiting to get some cheezborgir........ keeping da brain busy

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ceoofmetagala · 2 years

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My favriote thing is that in dogman that he wnet thru the biggest fucking glowup ever and also became a malewife