#I LOVE THIS DARN SHOW UGHHH

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GUYSSSS IM THINKING ABOUT HAZBIN AND TICKLES WHO ELSE WANTS TO CHAT ABT IT 💗💗 INBOX IS OPEN!!! ILL MAKE HCS POSSIBLY AND ID ALSO LOVEEEE TO HEAR WHATEVER TICKLE HEADCANONS YOU ALL HAVE!!!

HAZBIN TK COMMUNITY RISE UPPPP HEHEHE

here are some of my favs: VOX ummm also ANGEL <3, Alastor, Charlie, Husk, Vaggie, Velvette, perhaps even Sir Pentious and probably more in forgetting feel free to ask!!

[pikorizzes]

Hello~! ＼(^_^)／

So today! I'll show my Lenmiku/Mikulen One-shot that i wrote </3! Hope yall enjoy it...!

Let me do some introduction plspls Lenku, highschool + valentine's day oneshot?!?!?! :

Kagamine Len: A boy who's around of 170 cm (5'7), has very spiky and soft blonde hair. 2nd year student. Younger twin. Cold-blooded Tsundere. 16 y.o

Kagamine Rin: A girl who's around of 165 cm (5'5) has a short blonde hair, shorter hair than len's hair. Also wears hair clips. 2nd year student. Older twin. Hot-headed Tsundere. 16 y.o

Utatane-Senpai (Utatane Piko): A boy who's around of 175 cm (5'9) has longer white-grayish hair. Has mis-matched eyes, 3rd year student. Kuudere. 17 y.o

Hatsune Miku: A girl who's around of 172 cm (5'8), known with her popularity and Piko being her guardian. Deredere. 17 y.o

From oldest to youngest:

MIKU

PIKO

RIN

LEN

It was a rainy day at school, the person looked at the rain. It was heavy, sighing. While looking at the bad weather, the person would fix hair. After all, he wanted to be a good-looking but cold guy in front of her.. His beautiful bluetonic eyes, turned to his classmates. He saw his older twin sister, Rin talking with a senpai. Utatane-senpai, He tried to overhear their conversation.

"Oi-!" Rin pouted at the boy, "Where are you going?!" Rin pulled Utatane-Senpai's ear. Causing the white haired boy gasp,

"Today is V-Valentine's day....You silly..!" Rin replied, "So what---?" Utatane-senpai replied, sighing. Causing Rin to explode within her head.

"Idiot!" Rin slapped the boy, a bit of frustrated, "I....I made chocolate... Based on cats....Ughhh!!!" Rin crossed her arms, "You are really not-so caring cold boy, aren't you?" Rin laughed and tried to mess Piko's hair.

As he watched them indifferently, he thought of her giving him a chocolate box. Though he knew that it was impossible... After all, he was popular with some girls but his popularity can't really beat on her's....Yes, it was Miku. Hatsune Miku. Len had a huge interest in her, not just because of her looks or anything, her personality was the thing he was mesmerized of....

Past.... January 23rd

"Nee, Len-?" Miku said his name, the water-green haired girl smiled with a blush at her face, giggling. Len would sigh, acting very strict and robotic around the girl. Though in reality...His heart was pumping the blood heavily.

"What you want, Hatsune?" Len sighed, keeping his cool status to Miku,

"Just call me as Miku! Not Hastune y'know? Darn it...Len, we are childhood friends remember?" Miku replied. Their beautiful eyes came cross. Miku giggled more and put a random sticker to his face saying 'I love bananas'

"W...What have you done-?" Len asked, there was a small water puddle. He'd see the sticker, looking a bit indifferent to his face. Then he'd turn to Miku, Miku would laugh and say:

"Wwwhaat~?" She said playfully, "Didn't the Mr. I'm very cool guy like his sticker?" Miku looked at him, slightly narrowing her eyes...She smiled at him with showing her teeth. She'd bit her nail which she looked very attractive. Len sighed,

"Ffffineee..." He'd groan, "I really love the sticker you put on my face...It looks so cool Mickey-chan.... I would wear it everyday." Len sounded like he wasn't even that interested in her. He also groaned while saying the sentence. However, the girl didn't care what image that he gave to her. She'd hug his arm while giggling.

"Waaaa~!!! You really love it!!!! I know that expression of yours!!!" Miku giggled, blushing so badly yet her cheeks also got tired of smiling too much...

"H-Hey! Stop this for instant!!" Len yelled at Miku, blushing a bit...Though he didn't want to show Miku...

Now, February 14rd..

Len felt awful for not really showing his true side to Miku, as he thought of her. He placed his hands to the desk, making them into a fist. He was trying to think.... What could he do...? He knew that Valentine's day was supposed to have girls giving chocolate to guys. Len somehow had an idea....! He decided to mess with his bento with Rins in order to give the best 'Valentine Day' suprise to the girl. Then he messed with his twin's backpack....He found the cute pink bento box of Rin's. He saw the cutely designed octopus shaped sausages, eggs with bored faces and some onigiri to balance...He smirked and opened his own box as well, he saw Sashimi, Tamago with narutomaki... He sighed, no wonder why his mother didn't make cute meals for him but to Rin. No matter what it is, Len decided to combine all the bento with Rin's. As if he was creating a new bento. He emptified Rin's bento... Putting all the food to his. Before he closed his sister's lunchbox. He put a note , saying sorry...

As he was trying to put Rin's Bentobox. He dropped it, catching his sister's attention.

"Len-?" Rin looked at him. And saw the bento box of hers. His completely full with food. And she even saw her food on his bento. Rin had a face of disbelief and anger. Len was slightly scared because we all know that how Rin can be angry.... Rin started to walk towards him. Len quickly closed the bento and quickly rushed from table to table.

"YOU ARE SO DEAD, LITTLE BROTHER-!!" Rin replied and started to throw books at him.

"S-SORRY---" Len hesitated and kept running, then with all of his speed . He disappeared from the class 2-C. Rin was about to chase him...But Piko stopped her, showing the note at Rin's bento.

"Here, look at this one. Please." Piko replied to the girl and handed the note...

Dear, My sister Rin

Today is Valentine's Day. You know that...Well, I saw you giving a box of chocolate for Utatane-senpai. I felt my heart sank...You know whom I have a huge, deep crush on....Miku-san. Well, might be shocking. But i indeed love her and see her as the one....Even though how I treat her awfully...I feel a huge connection with her. Sometimes, because of her reckless actions towards me . I want to throw my head to the wall. I love her not just because of her famous but her personality and her beauty that shines my not even shining sun...I'm so sorry for emptifiying your bento...Today seems so crucial for me...Because I'm about to ask Miku out...So please, don't be mad at me...I want to impress Miku like how you did impress Utatane-senpai...And for tomorrow...I'll do anything that you want. Dressing me as a woman or even make your dreams come true...

Your dearest younger twin brother, Len

Rin looked at Piko, smirking. "Did you hear that...~?" She giggled, she had some ideas...

"Hm-?"

"LEN WILL BE MY SLAVE FOR TOMORROW AHGAGAHAGAHA-" Rin said and rolled herself to the ground. Laughing. Piko sighed and rolled his eyes.

"He should stop calling me as 'Utatane-senpai' , I already gave him the permission of calling me as 'Piko-san' " Piko sighed again and touched a piece of hair at his head. Rin realized that Piko wasn't even giving an attention towards her.

"Oi, do you even listen to me-?"

"Huh?"

"Len will be my slave tomorrow! I can't wait to dress you and him as gi-"

"Thanks to the roll that you showed. I saw your panties' color...It's striped orange..."

"YOU PERVER-"

Now with Len, after losing a track of Rin chasing him. He panted. He was tired of running as his breath was cutting down and down. The boy sighed and sat to the ground. Then he saw Miku with a random boy... He felt awful despite the fact that he didn't really show with his face expression. He would hear the conversation.

"He-Hello Mi-Miku!" The random boy said, blushing with the gut he has. Len's eyes widen as he heard more.

"Hello Yakeru-san~!" Miku replied to the boy. Smiling as usual. Miku somehow had an ability to make people blush.

"M-Miku....!" The boy named Yakeru knelt down, giving his hand to Miku. "W-Will you marry with me?!"

As Len heard this, he wanted to get up and punch that guy but he knew that he didn't want to enter to the detention classes so he kept himself cool and whatsoever... Miku laughed at Yakeru's confession.

"S-Sorry for laughing really!" Miku giggled and looked at that boy, "But we are at highschool...You dummy! We can't get married or something...!"

"PLEASE MIKU JUST GRAB MY HAND AND-" Then Miku akwardly laughed as another girl dragged Yakeru. It seems that it must have been Yakeru's girlfriend...

Wow...He did really cheat on her...." Miku thought and she slightly turned her head and saw Len...Which she was actually belonging for.... "LeeeeEEEENNn~!!!" Miku yelled to the boy. And she started to run so that she could sit next to him. Len gasped and hid the bento box... As Miku approached to him, she slowly kneel down and smiled:

"Why are sitting at the ground, Len-kun?" Miku asked, Len looked at her. Again indifferently. "Well... I...I like sitting at the ground and watch the clouds form some new shapes like this feather shaped cloud." Len pointed to the cloud, Miku was amazed because it really looked like a feather...Miku looked at Len,

"You're really amazing....! Len!" Miku replied sat next to him. Len looked at her. Smiling in front of her for the first time, Miku looked at him and screamed. Len was shocked.

"Oh my god! You actually smiled-!" Miku said wanting to hug him. Though her actions were prevented by Len as he didn't want the girl to touch him. "Shut this instantly!!!"

After the huge conflict that happened with Miku and Len. Miku realized what today is...

"Today's Valentine's day...Huh," Miku replied, tucking a part of her hair to her ear. Len nod and sighed, Miku smiled at him softly.

"Soo.... Did you give any chocolate to girls? Len," Miku replied and Len poked her nose with his right hand.

"Idiot. Valentine's day is supposed to have girls giving chocolate or other stuff t-to guys." Len sighed, slightly sounding a bit of angry. But Miku patted his head.

"But that doesn't mean that man can't give presents to their beloved!" Miku giggled, "Well. I didn't really buy a chocolate to the guy i really love...Because....Uhm." Miku hid her face with her hair. Blushing.

"I don't think he will be satisfied..I have a belief that he will be more satisfied if I just kissed him..." Miku giggled and looked at him, kinda looking hurt.

"Eh? Len-?"

"Y...Yeah?" Len hesitated, looking at her.

"You seem...Hurt." Miku stopped hiding her face with her beautiful hair. The girl was scared and worried for him, she touched his cheek. Causing Len to heat up.

"H-Hey... I'm fine...!" Len replied, softly taking Miku's hand from his cheek and he handed the bento box to her. Blushing, "Y...You probably forgot eating s-something...W...Well! This is uhm...My valentine's day gift...F...For..." Len shivered and looked at her deeply, "For you!"

Len opened the bento box of his. It was full of his and Rin's food. Miku was shocked, "W...Well.. Wh...What do you think...?" Len asked to to the girl. Miku hugged him and kissed his cheek.

"Thank y..You. Len," The girl replied. Smiling and took the bento box. Grabbing the bambu chopsticks. Miku grabbed a Sashimi and looked at the boy.

"Wh-Why are you letting me to take the first bite..."

Len asked , hesitating. Miku sighed:

"Len. You are the guy that I belong for...I like you, I love you. Seeing this bento..." Miku looked at the bento. "Makes me happy. No matter what effort you put in this meal. I would always want to the maker's first bite."

Len blushed and was touched by her words and he gladly took the Sashimi to his mouth. After chewing. He gulped.

"Miku....I-I love you too...I know that this may not be the perfect gift for a popular girl like you but i-"

Miku shut him down with her hand and the way she looked at him was promising.

"For me, anything that has been made by you might be the perfect gift for me...Len-kun..."

And with that...Miku enjoyed her food and kissed the boy afterwards...

I HOPE YALL LOVED IT <333

[fanwarrior321]

Langa's Broken Board

langa is always so eager to get as close as possible to reki, even when something is wrong gosh hes so whipped for him

the way langa's first reaction to finding out his board couldn't be "fixed" was to curl up in a ball is so precious and sad at the same time. but reki's little side eye at him here has me laughing

ughhh langa is just so genuinely sad here it breaks my heart, and the fact that his whole "losing reki" thing was so big to him that he explicitly mentions it here is such a milestone for this show since none of these people know how to finish their gosh darn sentences

exhibit frickin one. how hard was it to keep going there langa, huh?? huh???!?!?

and reki's transition from shock to his little fond smile is everything and I love it. he's over here like "so we were BOTH miserable without each other, huh". but you couldn't have made him try to finish the sentence reki? you didn't want to follow up on that??! for the fans!

this. this right here. reki meeting langa at his level, not forcing him to come up to him and talk about it, but reki bending down to reassure langa is amazing and speaks volumes about reki. this moment was so soft I love it all

THE WAY THEY LOOK AT EACH OTHER PART 30459423874983

[pandjseetheworld]

Mystic, CT

We pulled up to Mystic, CT around noon and just in time for Aunt Annette and Uncle Brad to get back from a bike ride with Brad’s first cousin Brad and his wife Pam who were also visiting. Pamela Anderson to be exact!! No, not the same Pam Anderson we’ve seen running down the beach in Bay Watch but she’s still pretty darn cool.

After introductions we all hung out ate some snacks and then headed on another bike ride around their little down of Noank. Uncle Brad showed us all the cool houses he worked on and gave us some history of the town! Their town is super quaint and slow but very relaxing. When we got home Uncle Brad took out a big paper bag with 3 HUGE lobsters in it as I chucked some corn. These lobsters were 6lbs and probably some of the largest lobster I have ever seen. That night we feasted on their deck over looking the water and Pearce properly tried lobster. Our lobster was even better paired with the mojito’s Pearce made with home grown mint. MMMMMMmmmmmm What an evening!

The next day we woke up and headed to the older steam cider mill in the United States. This mill is only open on certain months of the year, when the apples are in season, so we lucked out with our timing. We had fresh apple donuts, apple fritters, bought apple pie, and apple spider wine! It was another wonderful sign that Fall is around the corner, my favorite season! When we finished with our cider tour we went home to change up and prepare for our boat tour.

Aunt Annette and Uncle Brad have dreamed of buying a fancy boat to take overnight sailing trips and they finally found the one they’ve longed for. They got the boat in April and have been fixing it up for their month long journey back to Florida. Aunt Annette is learning to be the co-captain and Brad’s right hand woman so when we got to the boat she was in charge of practicing getting the lines on and off the boat for our little trip around the area. Our first stop was Ford’s where we ordered and ate another delicious meal on the boat. With full bellies we continued our tour around the area. Brad and Annette would share their knowledge about the boats and places we passed. It’s a whole different world there and I kind of love it!! When we got back from our boat tour we all grabbed a glass of wine and headed into the water. It was such a lovely evening to watch the colors change on the water! It was another perfect evening, we really lucked out!! And of course, we finished our incredible day with some homemade scallop linguine!! Ughhh! I think one of my favorite parts about visiting my Aunt and Uncle is that you eat sooooo well!

It was a fabulous stay at the Noank house with everyone. My aunt and uncle’s hospitality is unreal! We truly are so blessed to have such a welcoming and amazing family!

[sohin-ace]

Jonathan - The Date

This is cross-posted from Wattpad and available on AO3.

Enjoy~

You and Jonathan were currently out in the city together. Your older sibling asked you to bring a list of groceries back home.

You naturally asked your boyfriend to come with you, and of course, he happily accepted to tag along.

So you were both on a shopping date, goofing around mostly, and almost forgetting half of what you were supposed to bring back.

Everything became instantly more pleasant and fun when Jonathan was with you. Even the most boring or troublesome of tasks became colorful and memorable when he came.

Right now, you completed half of your list and it was still fairly early, which was quite impressive for you.

"Let's go to the market, then we'll take a well deserved break at a café, what do you think?" You proposed as you started to get a little bit tired and hungry from walking all day.

"Sure, Y/N, let's go!"

You both entered the market place that was bustling with people. Expected since it was a Saturday morning. But the more you walked, the busier it became.

It started to be hard to walk side by side and, short as you were, Jonathan was scared to lose you in the crowd.

"Y/N take my hand!" he offered his huge hand to you and you grabbed it for dear life.

His hand was warm and comforting over yours. You tried to stay as close to him as possible. When it started to get too difficult to stay entertwined with the boy, Jonathan pulled you in front of him and wrapped one arm around you from behind, locking you against his strong chest.

You blushed at the bold move, but relaxed against him and you both walked through the mass of people way more efficiently.

When you finally arrived at the merchant you were looking for, you picked up what you needed, paid and put everything in your basket with a satisfied grin on your face.

"Here, it must be heavy, let me carry it for you." Jonathan proposed, like the proper gentleman that he was.

"O-oh it's fine Jojo, don't worry!" You reassured the male, but he still took the basket from your hands regardless of your protests and the merchant couldn't help their giggle.

"What a nice gallant young man you found yourself there, miss. I wish you two the best~."

You blushed a deep red at the remark and Jonathan thanked them with a big smile as you both went on your way.

"So Y/N, what would you like to eat? I'm so hungry I could eat anything, so you can choose whatever you'd like."

"Hmmm... Do you want to see my uncle's bakery? He makes the best sandwiches in the whole city!" Jonathan couldn't help but chuckle at how cute you were when your eyes lit up.

He loved how you were such a big foodie sometimes. Small as you were, at least compared to him, you sure liked to eat a lot, especially baked goods. And so you lead him eagerly by the arm towards your uncle's awaiting bakery.

You introduced Jonathan to your uncle and the interactions between them were pretty wholesome, you thought.

"Don't you dare hurt my niece or I'll come for ya, got it big boy?!" Jonathan nodded frantically, sweating bullets. "Good! Would you like some cheese bread? They're fresh outta' the oven!" He grinned towards the male, completely changing his tone and Jonathan deadpanned as you giggled.

You stayed inside the warm bakery and talked over some tea and eventually lost track of time. You quickly went out the shop to finish off your mission after eating and thanked your uncle.

"We're almost finished, Jojo, stay with me!" you tried to encourage your boyfriend whose soul was currently leaving his body.

He should have toned down on the cheese bread, but it was so delicious. He was so full he could barely walk now, how did you do it?

"Ughhh... Y/N, please... Slow down..." He groaned holding his full belly, like a pregnant woman.

A few more hours later you were finally done and you were both strolling back to where your car was waiting. You were tired from walking so much, but you were happy and satisfied.

"I had fun today, Jojo. Thank you for accompagnying me." You said gratefully, walking beside him at a slow, relaxed pace.

"Of course, anything for you, my Y/N. I had a great day too, let's date like this more often." He spoke with a soft look in his blue eyes and love laced in his voice.

Your heart skipped a beat and your face flushed. This boy made you melt with the simplest things. Too embarrassed to say anything, you hugged his arm and hid your face.

The dark haired male instantly moved his arm from your grasp to wrap it around you so you would hug his chest instead, which you did. He chuckled and you kept walking like this until you saw your coachman waiting down the street.

"Oh, Sebastian!" You waved at him and jogged towards the vehicle, as he must have been waiting for a while now.

Both you and Jonathan climbed in and you were finally on the way back home. Good thing you lived close to one another.

The sun was already setting down, leaving only its last golden rays shine through the twilit sky. The Joestar heir stared at the beautiful scenery, mesmerized, until he felt a weight on his shoulder.

He turned his head only to find you, fallen asleep on him. You must have been more tired than what you seemed.

He snaked his arm around your waist to secure you from the car's jerks, and went back to staring at the scenery.

He subconsciously brushed his fingers up and down your arm, thinking about how lucky he was to have such a cute, caring girlfriend when everyone else left him for his brother, Dio.

His train of thoughts was stopped when he saw your house in the distance. The coachman finally parked and stopped the horses.

"Milady L/N. We have arrived." He called out as he climbed down andopened the door, waiting for you to descend.

Jonathan then leaned over close to you and carressed your peaceful face with his knuckles.

"Hey Y/N wake up, we're home." He softly purred, effectively waking you up.

You opened your eyes to see the beautiful blue ones of your lover smiling at you. What a bliss it was, to see him first thing upon waking up. You rubbed your eyes and sat up straight groggily.

"Oh.. I fell asleep, how embarassing." You muttered hoarsely to yourself, but Jonathan definitely heard you and chuckled.

"It's okay my love," he cupped your cheeks and wiped the corner of your mouth with his thumb. "You can fall asleep all you want when I'm here."

You blushed and your breath hitched at his sweet words. You looked down and grabbed his hands before he ushered you to follow him. He got out and climbed down the tall carriage with no difficulty, then waited for you to help you down.

You gripped your frilly dress, careful not to stumble on it and descended one step, grabbing Jonathan's extended hand, but as soon as you did, your knees gave up on you and you lost balance.

"Aah!!" You yelped and Jonathan instantly caught you in his arms, wrapping them around your waist as you wrapped yours around his neck, holding onto him for dear life.

"Milady L/N! Are you alright?" Your coachman gasped with concern.

Jonathan gently held you there for a moment. He smiled at Sebastian, mouthing him that everything was okay and that he could go and the man sighed in relief, complying.

When you came down from your shock, you leaned away a bit to look down at Jonathan's face, who was looking right back at you and you gasped.

"J-jojo! I must be heavy! Put me down before you hurt your back!" He chuckled charmingly, fighting the urge to kiss your cute lips.

"Not at all, my darling, it's like holding a tiny cat."

You both giggled together and you leaned in to rub your nose against his in an eskimo-kiss. He blushed warmly at your gesture, which he found absolutely and insanely adorable, but was not exactly what he was hoping for.

Too shy to voice his desire, he coulf only stare at you lovingly when you leaned back, a beautiful smile gracing your face. He decided to put you back down onto the ground before your divine beauty so close to him could break him.

"Are you sure you are okay Y/N? You scared me right there." He asked as he held onto you tightly, scared you'd collapse again.

"I'm fine! Just a little dizzy haha!" You sheepishly laughed it off and scratched your cheek. "I must still be sleepy."

"Don't be so reckless when I'm not here, okay? What will I do if you get hurt?" He scolded you playfully and you showed him a surprised expression. How bold of him.

"Huh? You're one to talk! Mr. 'I-get-into-fights-with-anyone-especially-Dio'!"

He blushed and gasped loudly, offended by the truth, and you giggled at his defenseless reaction. Darn it, you were right!

You both walked slowly towards your house and his heart was beating faster and faster with each step. If he didn't do it now, he would regret it later.

He turned to face you and stopped in his tracks, taking a sudden breath. "...Please don't be upset by this."

You furrowed your brows in confusion. "By what?"

He didn't waste any more seconds and cupped your cheeks in his hands, leaning in for a chaste kiss, slow and lingering.

You melted into his delicate touch, you could tell he tried his best to be as gentle as possible, not wanting to be too rough and eager on you.

Your lips were so plush against his, and your scent was so addictive, he could only crave more of you. He was no enamored with you, there wasn't a single thing about you that wasn't absolutely delicious.

He reluctantly separated from you, scared to lose control if he kept it any longer.

"I'm sorry, I should have asked first, I just couldn't help it, I love you so much, it's hard to think straight..."

You smiled at his adorable shyness. You grabbed his hand and gently pressed your lips over the sensitive skin of his wrist. He shuddered and you looked back at him with hooded eyes.

"I'm yours, Jojo. You don't have to ask for anything, you can do whatever you want with me." You said kindly, but his face exploded in a crimson shade, taking your words the wrong way.

"Nooo no no Y/N! Don't say things like that!!" He gasped and put his hands on your shoulders as your eyes widened. "I may be nice but... I am still a man! Be careful with what you say!" He yelped in panick as you didn't seem to even realize what you were saying.

"Wha- but it's okay! I never ask you for permission when I touch you! So you can too..." You said as a matter of fact and he tried to argue without saying anything too brutal for your innocent mind.

"B-but... It's not the same! And you are a girl! Don't offer yourself so recklessly!" He shook his head vigorously. "And be careful around men, alright?"

Confused at his sudden worry you patted his cheek and smiled. "You are the only man I see anyway, so don't worry."

He sighed in relief and decided to end the conversation there. "Come here."

He opened his strong arms out to you and you wrapped your smaller ones around him, both appreciating each other's warmth.

"Thank you again for the date, Jojo."

He only squeezed you tighter in response.

Jonathan  🤝🏼 Abdul

Saving your girlfriend in the crowd.

[daebakoreandrama]

Drama: Tempted (2018) Starring: Woo Do Hwan, Joy, Mun Ka Young, Kim Min Jae

I enjoyed this drama more than I expected. There were some funny moments, some cute moments, and some really dramatic moments. All in all, I think they really balanced each other out.

Rating: ★★★★☆

Now let’s dive into a few of my favorite scenes:

1) When Shi Hyun kept trying to catch the cherry blossoms: I loved this particular part of the scene between them because he was so hopeful. You could tell that he was just trying to hold onto the last bit of hope that he would find his true love. But a petal never falls in his hand and it breaks your heart a little because it makes you wonder how the drama ends. Next time cherry blossoms fall, I’m gonna try this out. Let’s hope I catch a petal.

2) Tae Hee pinching Shi Hyun’s cheeks: She does this multiple times throughout the drama and it’s so funny because all he can say is “it hurts!!!” I don’t blame him (hahha). I particularly loved this scene because it shows just how comfortable they are with each other, and how headstrong Tae Hee is. She isn’t afraid to show a dominant side to her relationship with him.

3) When they went away for a night: UGHHH this trip was so darn cute. And then when they stayed together at night too but was too scared to go in the room with her (hahahah) what a gentleman.

and multiple kisses on the face and hands. I’m melting.

and when she finds the stash of condoms that Se Joo put there. FUNNIEST MOMENT IN THE DRAMA.

 4) Their break up after Tae Hee finds out Shi Hyun played her:

YOU CAN SEE THE GUILT AND PAIN IN SHI HYUN’s FACE. Looking at him cry just made my heart hurt because we as the audience know that he actually liked her (bet aside). HE FELL FOR HER AND SHE BROKE HIS HEART— AFTER HE BROKE HER HEART AS WELL. Such a vicious loop. This is why you should be genuine with your heart. Don’t play unnecessary games with other peoples’ feelings.

(i can’t find a gif. i’m truly sad)

5) When Se Joo told Tae Hee about the bet: This isn’t one of my FAVORITE MOMENTS, but can we just talk about what an asssssss Se Joo was to show her this. I definitely think he should’ve let Shi Hyun spill the beans himself. He was just a petty friend at this moment and let’s be honest, it’s all because he hadn’t matured yet.

6) The Ending Scene made me cry :(

I think the ending was so nice. Not only did I like seeing Se Joo all grown up and mature, running a sushi place. But we see Shi Hyun running an art gallery/place to look at constellations. It was like a perfect mixture of what he loves (art), what they both loved together (looking at stars/constellations), and then what Eun Tae Hee loved (architecture/buildings).

And yeah a lot of people wanted the ending to have a kiss– in fact, they said it’d be better with a kiss. But I think the way it ended shows that their relationship was more than just lust for each other. They were truly best friends who haven’t seen each other in such a long time that a hug sufficed.

[askthetotallynotcampcamp]

jaspvid for the s o u l

michael: oak aye

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Jasper: *first day working at the camp 😳😳* *vIbES near the entrance lmao*

David: GOOOOOOD MORNING JASPER! READY FOR YOUR FIRST DAY?

Jasper: Totally!! Is the camp still the same as when we were younger?

David: yup! Obviously different kids, they can get crazy so be prepared!

Jasper: Oh jeez, okay.

The b u s: *i am alive*

David: ah! They're here, oh you're gonna love them Jas!

Max: *walks off the bus* who the hell is that?!

Nerris: yeah I've never seen him before! Hello sir I dont know!

David: well kids, this is your new counselor, Jasper!

Jasper: Hi kids-! I hope I can make your summer great!!

Neil: *😒😒*

Harrison: Oh cool! A new person to show my magic to!

Space kid: howdy do Jasper!

Max: okay just another person to make fun of!

-all the kids are in the mess haul now-

David: I told you to be prepared! Dont let max get to you, hes always like that

Jasper: he’s just a little, uh, insulting. kinda rude, I can handle it though! Don’t worry about it

David: alrighty!

-time skip bc I'm lazy-

David: *getting ready for sleep time* do do dooooo

Jasper: ughhh, I do not understand how you deal with those kids all day *😔*

David: I've gotten used to them, maxes words hurt sometimes but I'm fine with it. And you dont have to work here ya know, if it isnt fun for you

Jasper: I wanna work here because I miss being with you all the time, homeslice- I’ll get used to it eventually

David: awe that's sweet, but you can always tell me if you want to leave because this place can stress you out! Now you, should get some sleep mister

Jasper: *😳😳😳* ah yeah, you too homie *bed time bro*

David: goodnighttttt!

Jasper: goodnight-

Time: smellbert day time

The camp: i am going to burn down

David: OH GOSH THE CAMP!

-after they fix the camp bc I'm lazy and tired-

David: *collapses against a tree* now that, that was a workout

Jasper: *collapses nexts to mr tree* is that how it’s like everyday?

Neil: *a p p r o a c h e s*

David: yeah basically *jumps up* hello Neil!

Neil: Hey can I show you something I’ve been working on? *is neil*

David: ah yes of course! *grabs Jaspers hand and walks over*

Jasper: *😳😳😳😳*

Neil: Okay, so, this is my science stuff, and this right here is a calculator

David: very...interesting! Right Jasper!

Jasper: I like the uh, bottles?

Neil: The test tubes?

David: *tries not to laugh*

Jasper: I mean- I guess? I don’t know, I never did science

Neil: Literally everyone knows what a test tube is-!

David: oh come on Neil cut him some slack, hes not all about science

Neil: david, literally everyone knows what a test tube is!

David: well Jasper isnt everyone! Keep up the good work! *walks back to the cabin*

Jasper: *taps david’s shoulder 😗✌️* hey hey hey, quick question

David: hm? *turns around* yeah Jasper?

Jasper: Can I talk to you alone for a hot sec

David: yeah of course! What's up buddy pal

Jasper: uh, so, since I was a kid i thought you were super cool-?

David: wow really?! Youre really.. what's the word you use..radical!

Jasper: Wow thanks! Anyway, I was thinking and like- I like you??

David: well duh, we're best friends!

Jasper: yeah, but, like-like you homie

David: *very red* oh gosh- i- um-

Jasper: *😳😳😳* uh- yeah-

David: a-are you sure? Out of a-all people?

Jasper: *nodnodnodnod*

David: well uh- lucky for you- *kisses his cheek😳😳😳*

Jasper: *😳😳😳😳* oh dang-

David: *smiles at him*

Gwen: well that was lovely

Jasper: Wow gwen okay

David: oh h-hi Gwen..*v red*

Jasper: *😳😳😳😳*

Gwen: I saw the whole thing, it was WAY better than trash tv

David: well is this good for your trash tv? *kisses Jasperteehee*

Jasper: *is a red*

Gwen: *:0* Oh damn!!

David: oh wait I actually did that-

Jasper: jesus- *lmao covers his face or some shit*

Gwen: 👏👏👏

David: okay uh toodaloo! Bye! *runs to the cabin*

Jasper: uh, i’m gonna go too-! *fOLLOW*

Max: they're so gonna makeout

David: *in the bathroom* WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME

Jasper: *kNocKs oN tHe dOoR* uhh, davey are you okay?

David: AH! oh Jasper, hello! Uh yes I am completely fine why would something be wrong what

Jasper: you ran away really fast, are you sure you’re okay-?

David: yes of course! *comes pit of the bathroom and is like face to face w/ jasper bc he was standing right outside of the door??*

Jasper: *😳👉👈* *s smooch*

David: *😳😳😳😳😳😳*

Jasper: i’m uh, sorry *😔👉👈*

David: nononono it's okay! *hug*

Jasper: *hug 😔👉👈*

David: hey, you okay? *ruffles his hair and laughs*

Jasper: *:) 👉👈* of course!

David: that's great! *smiles at him*

Jasper: we should uh, leave and see what the kiddos are up to *walks out backwards???*

David: okay! *kicks the door open* owie

Jasper: oh dang are you okay-

Nikki: What SPICY DRAMA happened??!

David: nikki what do you mean??

Nikki: Max said you were gonna make out!

David: nothing happened! *😳*

Jasper: *holds onto david’s arm or smth lmao oop*

Nikki: hmmmm

David: nikki nothing- uh- nothing happened!

Max: Likely story DAVID!

David: fine, what do you think happened?

Max: you two made out or some gross shit and then you came out like nothing happened!

David: well you are incorrect!

Jasper: very incorrect!

Nikki: Oh damn it!

David: well anyways, since it's getting to sunset now, its campfire time! *skips over to the benches*

Jasper: come on children!! *follow*

Children: kk *follow*

Max: jasper I seriously dont understand how youre in love with HIM

David: *making a fire*

Jasper: I mean, he’s really nice, Max- I’m sure you’ll feel the same way about someone eventually

Max: pft- yeah, no

David: *stands up* okay and we are ready for action!

Jasper: oh come ON max, stop being so heartless *walks over to the f i r e*

David: *sits down on a log and puts on his sweatshirt* (I LOVE DAVID WEARING A SWEATSHIRT)

Jasper: *sits next to d a v i d* oh dang, are you cold?

David: eh, it's just summer night air

Jasper: yeah but i wanted an excuse to do this *puts his arm around david 😳*

David: *goes wide eyed 😳😳*

Jasper: *forehead smooch 😳😳*

David: *hides in his sweatshirt😳* Jasper not in front of the campers!-

Jasper: Oh dang i’m so sorry *n not*

David: *rests his head on his shoulder* hmph

Jasper: oh no, am i in trouble now? *hug teehee*

David: *shakes his head no*

Jasper: cool cool cool *😘😘😘*

Gwen: *👀👀👀*

David: *sleep*

Gwen: I think you need to go tuck your boy in

Jasper: Righto, Gwen make sure nothing burns down *picks up mr tree mans and cArRiEs hIm To tHe CabIn wOwIe*

David: huh..oh hi jasperrrr

Jasper: hola *drops mr tree mans onto his bed lmao rekt* you fell asleep

David: oh sorry *laughs tiredly?? Is that a thing??*

Jasper: go to sleep, you sound tired *forehead smooch 😳😳*

David: *pulls him down to....hug him duh*

Jasper: oh dang- *hug hug hug*

David: what? I love youuuuu (he ain't gonna remember this-)

Jasper: *😳😳😳* shoot- i love you too homie *s sits on the bed or smth*

David: *sits up and hugs him* thank you for working here, now I get to see your adorable face everyday

Jasper: jeez- calm down- *😳😳😳*

David: I'm just saying! *smiles at him*

Jasper: *😌😌* okay go to sleep now- it’s late, homeslice

David: okay *kisses him* goodnight *:)*

Jasper: goodnight weirdo *escape*

-morning-

David: *wakes up and sits up* best sleep I've ever had

Jasper: *uhh already out watching el children*

David: *gets dressed and walks outside* GOOOOOD MORNING JASPER

Jasper: hello hello, how did you sleep?

David: very good actually! I just dont remember anything from the camp fire

Jasper: oh great, you were hella tired last night man

Nikki: *f fire*

David: GOSH DARN NIKKI NOT AGAIN WITH THE FIRE!- *runs*

Jasper: *ahaha just vibes honestly lmao* righto children, who wants to go do something cool

Max: what do you consider cool

Jasper: dunno, what do YOU consider cool?

Max: I dont know that's why I'm asking you!

Space kid: how are babies made

Jasper: okay, we’re not going over that today- what if we uh, go to spooky island and find cool stuff

Nerris: david said we arent allowed over there!

David: I heard my name! Wassup

Jasper: we’re going to spooky island because i almost died there so we are allowed

David: *:0* ooooo adventures okay! Boat time! *walks to the boats*

Jasper: alrighty everyone get in groups of threes to go in the bOaTs and then don’t get lost

David: *gets in the boat in front of thy jasper* is Gwen coming?

Jasper: I don’t think so-

Space Kid: *is on their bOaT now because he asked how babies were made*

David: *starts paddling the boat* weeeeeeee

Jasper: *lmao also pAdDlInG*

Space Kid: David how are babies made?

David: uh well- *😳*

Space Kid: because neil told me that-

Jasper: okay okay okay let’s not talk about this today

Space kid: do you and jasper make babies?

David: NO *😳😳😳*

Jasper: *w heeze*

Space Kid: hmmmm, well do you want to make babies?

David: SPACE KID JUST STOP TALKING *😳😳😳😳*

Jasper: *literally sobbing* this is COMEDY

David: JASPER DONT ENCOURAGE HIM

Jasper: It’s so funny-!

David: uh-uh! Its embarrassing!

Space kid: you guys have definitely made babies

Jasper: *FIDNKSNSKSK* OH MY GOD *teeheehaw*

David: OKAY WOW LOOK WE'RE HERE *gets off the canoe*

Jasper: *escaped canoe* kk kids stay in your groups and find something cool

David: I guess space kid went with harrison and his group, so that's leave us alone *😳*

Jasper: *😳😳😳* *👀👀* *smooch 😳*

David: *😳😳😳* *kiss:)*

Jasper: *:)))*

Nikki: GUYS IT IS HAPPENING

David: NIKKI I SWEAR TO GOSH IF YOU DONT GO AWAY-

Jasper: *😳😳😳* Woah Davey chillax

Nikki: Everyone wanted to know!

David: well I think it's pretttttttty obvious that I am deeply in love with Jasper!

Jasper: 😳😳😳

Nikki: WOAHH!! Like my mom and Carl!!

Neil: nikki pleeeeeease dont bring that up

David: oh god-

Nikki: Why not! That was true love Neil!

Jasper: what even- who?

Neil: that was sex! Theres a difference Nikki!

David: their parents hooked up on parents day-

Jasper: *elbow nudge ;))* *LMAO WHEEZE JK JKING*

Nikki: There is no difference!

David: JASPER NO

Neil: they only did it for pleasure!!

Jasper: I was joking homie!

Nikki: oh REALLY? how would you know!!

Neil: beacuseeeeee that's why people do it nikki!

David: okay....homeskillet!

Nikki: have YOU ever done it!!!

Jasper: oh jesus- we should stop that before something bad happens

Neil: NIKKI I AM 11

David: yeah-

Jasper: *picks up nikki or some poopoo* Nikki, just listen to Neil on this one

Neil: THANK YOU

David: *giggles*

Nikki: this isn’t over NEIL

Jasper: okie dokie kids- Nikki you’re coming back with me because I don’t trust you with neil

Neil: NIKKI YOU LITERALLY EAT DIRT SO I DONT THINK YOU WOULD KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT SE-

David: OKAY ENOUGH OF THIS

Jasper: alrighty everyone we’re going back- david go back with neil

Nikki: *g rowels*

-when they get back-

David: *flops on to his bed* well that was a experience

Jasper: *s sits on david’s bed* oh god it sure was

David: *sits up and leans against the pillows* I haven't been that stressed in awhile-

Jasper: *😳😳👀* *smooch*

David: *smooch😳😳😳😳*

Jasper: *😳😳😳😳smooch*

David: *hug* hiiiii

Jasper: *hug 😳😳😳* hello hello

Dsvid: not to be that weird person but you are way better at kissing then I thought you would be- *giggles*

Jasper: *😳😳😳😳*

David: okay soryyyyyyyyyyy

Jasper: you’re so dorky

Space Kid: *knocks on the councelor cabins door*

David: ugh can we ever be alone! *opens the door* oh space kid! Why are you up?

space kid: i had a nightmare that space wasn’t real can i stay with you :(

Jasper: ughhhhhh

David: yes of course! *picks up him* where do you wanna sleep?

Space kid: uhhh in space

David: let me rephrase it, where do you want to sleep in the cabin?

[shes-claws-deep]

This isn’t a request or anything but ughhh I just fucking love your blog. It’s so gosh darn hard to find anything with dom readers that’s actually good!!! And yours is 👌👌👀 Not to mention the title of your blog 😫🙌🙌 Thank you so much for all you doo 💫💕💖💗

Thank you! I do try to bring good femdom content and show people that dom!readers can have their fun too. Hopefully, it inspires others to write femdom/dom!reader content as well :))

[tenacioussheepalpaca]

@xyloophones tagged me and !!! eeep :D okay! let’s do this!

rules: answer 30 questions and tag 10 people

# following: 272

# of followers: 30!! n like idk where yall came from but owow. (waves noodle arms of appreciation \o/ hiiii) :3 thank u n feel free to say hi! I’m always up for making friends :)

average hours of sleep: Pfft!! i’m terrible at this. If I’m stressed it’s maybe 4 hours minimum mandatory for functioning even if i can’t force my brain to turn off very well, but on weekends it’s more like 8-ishh?? Weekdays tho sometimes it’s 2 or maybe 6 you just never know... help.,,, no one should’ve let me become an adult

lucky number: 2

instruments: violin (love it. it’s a great stress reliever and fun way to annoy the neighbors. no I do not feel like sherlock when i play at random hours. who said that? yea yea okay so maybe I do a lil bit...)

what are you wearing: black button down, maroon scarf and some slacks. still in work clothes and can’t wait to put on some pajamas n eat some spaghetti for dinner

dream job: English teacher in foreign country ✨

dream trip: RUSSIA!!! GOTTA GO SOMEDAY! Learned the language n everything and for some reason it’s had a special place in my heart since high school. darn visa process n paperwork. maybe this summer?? 

birthday: Mid October :) Right after the leaves change colors. Imma be 23 this year yipes!

height: 5’6”

gender/pronouns: she/her

other blogs: started 2 but don’t have time for them regularly just yet. gotta get settled in my job more but it’s in the works! got one based on my thesis project that’s got me super jazzed and I think it’ll be pretty cool. This one is mainly for stuff I really like/enjoy :)

nicknames: nope, never had one but I’d like to think one day I may earn one.

star sign: Libra??? this never made sense to me but there you have it? i am a confused. but also kinda like the fortune cookie-esque advice I get related to this. 

time: 8:04p woo! procrastinating somethin awful so internet here i come!!

favorite bands: AAAACKKK?? everything??? honestly my fav music ranges from classical orchestral scores to hard punk rock to grunge to pop to club and rap and 1940s swing bands and classic 1980s and nightcore and acapella covers???? soo? I’m literally the worst person to pick for DJ bc it’ll be aAALLllll over the place...

favorite artist: i LOVE pretty much anything in watercolor or impressionist style or related to my fandoms but def the fav has to be Degas bc, yeah his art inspired me soo much growing up and i had posters of his paintings clipped out of my calendars to hang up around my room for the longest time

favorite tumblr artist: OH MY GOSH SO MANY PLS DONT MAKE ME LIST THEM

song stuck in your head: “Can’t go on without you” by Kaleo, “You’re not there” by Lukas Grahm and “Friends” by Marshmello and Anne Marie (bouncing among the three but there’s ALWAYS a song going in my head...)

last movie you watched: Megamind!! just can’t help but rewatch. good memories. i know almost all the lines by heart n it reminds me of family

last show you watched: Violet Evergarden!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGHHH YES I love this show so much right now and it is my new obsession <3 reminds me a lot of Saber from the Fate series and I love where it’s going storywise :D!!!!

why did you make your blog: ummm????? I didn’t know how tumblr worked so I just? kinda?? signed up?? and started finding stuff i liked? just out of curiosity so idk what i want it to be really?

what do you post: AVERYTHINGGGG!! If you’re here. You get a taste of my fandom feels and random musings and a lil bit of everything else... soo hehehe. I mostly talk in tags too so an actual post is pretty rare... :) 

last thing you googled: Rupert’s drops exploding bc a fic mentioned it and honestly who doesn’t like exploding glass??

ao3: :) one of these days I’ll figure that out too.... but rn, nope.

do you ever get asks: nope! but feel free! i’m pretty unreachable during weekdays but I’d be happy to get back to ya on the weekends :D

how did you get the idea for your url: autogenerated bc i’m a derp and couldn’t think of something and this sounded interesting and a lot like the family jokes we’ve got going at home soo ye. I’mma make it mine. :)

favorite food: Apple pie

last book you read: akdlfjd does fan fic count???? (it absolutely does btw and I have several going rn) last physical book i read was Blood Lure by Nevada Barr which i lifted from a youth hostel book exchange about 5 months ago. I don’t really have room for physical books with my current living situation but I love them SOO muCH. they are my precious.

top 3 fictional universes: Lorein Legacies,  Edge of tomorrow, and DC comics bc of my batboys <3 :3 (I fall in love with so many stories this was Really hard to choose so there you have it!!!)

Woot woot!! We made it yall! Didn’t think 30 questions would be that long, but here we are :D 

Ya don’t have to do this if you don’t want to but i’m tagging: @screamingatanemptyroom @cherrymaphanji @crazybowtielover @darkstarsshinetoo @magicdreamsandmusic

[somberthoughtsseldomeffort]

Going through all my text quotes and you can see when i slowly fall out of love.. hahah  I literally haven’t been this happy in the longest time ever. I haven’t written in my book since the feelings were mutual. He makes me so happy without even trying and its the lamest feeling in the entire world. It sucks that it only took him 2 years to finally admit to liking me, or that it took me 5 months of talking to him for me to realize that i liked him back. He wasnt exactly my type, but darling did he steal my affection in a heartbeat. Finally, someone who liked me for me and not for what i can offer, someone who would rather just watch netflix with me in bed than do something like go out on an expensive date. Someone who will just hold me in his arms while im having a bad day and just reassure me that everything will be fine. It just sucks that you have to be leaving tomorrow and that i dont even get to see you leave. I really, really like you.    And i think ill tell you that before you go, and it will be the lamest thing that i have ever done in my 18 years of life. Cause darling, you are the only exception. -Feb 14th,2014  I remember I wrote this poem about not being able to take a place in the scoreboard of affection. Well look at me now, in first place with a really sweet guy. - Mar 7th,2014 I am so conflicted with what I want to do with this “relationship”. I know for a fact I’m thinking too hard about it and it’s driving me practically insane. And this is probably I stay away from relationships all together or why I stray away from ties with people in general. I really like him and I am aware of it now, I want to get to know him more and just see if we’re just as compatible as I’d like us to be. I don’t want to push my ideals on him or his on me cause that’s not the type of relationship that I am looking for. I have the utmost respect towards military wives or girlfriends. I can’t even handle bootcamp yet alone the rest of his life… Do I escape while I can or do I stay because I enjoy his company. - Mar 18th,2014

You know what I hate the most? I hate that I brought him into a room I sleep in. I let him linger in a place I spend all of my time in. There isn’t a second that goes by where I am not reminded of his existence. I can’t lay in my bed with peace of mind like I used to be able to. Fuck - Mar 20th.2014  10 more days till Gerik comes back, 10 more days till everything is sorted out. 10 more days til ughhh,, idk . Gosh darn it i miss him -  May 13th,2014 It will seriously be the most fucked up thing if you notice me now. I was hanging around you since my sophomore year of high school and liked you for a while. But now that we’re in college and i have found myself in a obscure relationship you wanna come down and be like “ hey these are my views on relationships and they match yours, wow, you are like totally the type of girl im looking for why didnt i notice this sooner.” I will dick slap you so hard its going to leave an imprint on your face.- May 15th,2014

i am beyond myself, honestly with this whole significant other thing. Feelings really shouldnt be this difficult to figure out. I mean they are MY feelings i should be able to tell what they want. A hug would be nice right now even a pat on the head or something. I feel so uneasy honestly . - Nov 4th,2014 

And he left, and this time between us was honestly nothing more than that. I knew i needed to end things with Gerik, but honestly I did not expect it to hurt this much. I dont need a man in my life who’s idea of a joke would be to say hes going to hit on other girls including my friends and then cal me sensitive after i get upset. I dont need a man in my life who will let me get hit and be okay with it even if he thought we were “playing”. I dont need a man who wont be clear on what he wants to do with me and what we are after a year has passed. I do not need someone who will let me be sad and not really talk to me about it. I do not need someone who will let me be all emotionally scorn day in and day out and tell me to “get over it”. I do like Gerik though. I liked the way hed laugh at my jokes and how he would only be ticklish in one spot. Id like the way hed hug me and made me feel like being in his arms were where i would be the safest. I liked it when he would do all these things and not al all. I hate that he is in the Marines. Im happy i did not give him my virginity and that we did not emotionally connect with one another otherwise  this would have been harder than it is right now. But i swear to God if anyone ever says that I, “never cared” or that “shes a bitch for breaking up with you” fuck you. Cause i would have never stayed for a year and not tried to make things work. I should not have to justify why i was not happy with someone. I liked gerik, but i could not like him more than this. For this relationship was not a healthy one. - Jan 2nd,2015

if you really think that I broke up with him because of you and not out of my own happiness than you are crazy. - Jan 3rd,2015

So here is the ordeal, as most may not care or be concerned about my love life, I am torn between sticking with whats available and waiting for something better. I literally spent a year and some days with a boy who i honestly wasnt sure if he liked me or need me. Or wanted to like someone and needed someone. I ended with someone i missed but knew wasnt good for me. Then I was turned to a wonderful boy who, quicker than most, basically professed and undying admiration  with me and literally wanted everything that i offered. He unfortunately is active military and I have lost total communication with him. I am not sure how he is doing or if his interest in me died. Then i meet this older guy, i actually met him on new years this year but i didnt really think much of him, but apparently he thought something of me. Then he added me on facebook and then we started talking and then we met again in person at a show and then again and my best friends birthday. We, i gues you could say, kinda hooked up but not really. (i am 100% still a virgin…) And i am not sure if i want to advacne with this guy. He is a very nice and respectable guy . he would not do anything that i was not comfortable with. He is kind and considerate. But he honestly is not someone i could see myself with in the far future but then again i just met him. And I still kind of like the boy who i lost contact with. I am single and young I have a lot of choices in life but i dont think i make the right ones. Ughhhhhh relationships with people suck honestly…. help what the hell do i do?! -Mar 8th,2015 

This would just be my freaking luck, He would come back. He would come back when I was literally to give up all hope of him. I pray and hope he remembers me but at the same time i hope that he doesnt approch me and doesnt make my life that much harder. I cant choose and i dont like having options. I dont like having to think about who i would be better off with or who i actually like. I can stand being so indecisive. At the same time I miss him so much… UGggggggHHHH - Apr 25,2015 

I cant wait till novemember, Im going to be planning a trip to california to see my boyfriend. I know im pretty excited for something that is going to happen like 4 months from now. But itd be the only vacation id have fro a while. Ill get to spoil his hass and take him to six flags and I get to do lame couple things. What i really want to do is get thous leather engraved bracelets. That would make me the happiest soul. Haha and I also get to look forward to the Marine Corps Ball, I never got to go to prom so its kinda like the same thing right?? I can not wait, so excited.  - Jul 22,2015 

It kinda terrifies me in a way how much of a minor change I noticed in me. And im talking into terms as far as my relationship goes with Gerik. Its not a bad change its actually pretty good to be honest. I feel a lot more peaceful and its kinda sad that I was not able to reach this level of happiness by myself. The only reason it probably took me so long to like someone was because I felt like I should love myself first. I still admit to not loving myself but im sure a lot of people share that common problem.

    He doesnt let me be sad by myself and I really cant seem to lie to him. I sure dont tell him everything yea, but if her were to ask id say everything. I dont know he makes me happy and probably upsets me the most at the same time. I feel like hes too good to be true cause I’ve never met someone who has been as patient with me as he has been. I may doubt him from time to times cause sometimes i just dont believe someone could actually like me. Cause lets be honest. Im a pretty shitty person inside and out. But he never fails to reassure me in many ways. Hes a wonderful boyfriend and I cant wait to see him in November. Idk I just feel like he made me a lot more forgiving and kinder to myself. I would usually sulk about a lot of things but he makes them minor i dont know how to explain it but hes a great guy. - Aug 8th,2015 

My boyfriend is simple, and a lot of boys and girls are these days. I for one and not one of them. Im like a rubics cube that someone switched the stickers on. He’s the type of person who says things once meaning if he really misses me and wants to explain it he will only tell me once. Thats all he thinks he needs to say. But in my head I feel like if I am not reminded that I am wanted and loved I’ll feel like he doesnt like me anymore. I dont know yes I need affection but I also dont want to be smothered. I dont know. Im just kinda irritated with myself in all honesty. Just because he doest tell me everyday that he still loves me as much as he wants to make me think he does, i start to think he doesnt fancy me anymore. I just feel life I annoy him so much with how needy I am. I just dont date well.  A lot of the times i feel like i like him so much more than he likes me idk. Im a hopeless cause.  - Aug 19th,2015 

I feel like he’s slowly getting tired of me. Maybe I’m getting tired of myself I don’t know. But whatever this feeling is I don’t like it - Aug 22nd,2015 

I am always stuck between wanting Gerik to get enough sleep for work and also wanting to be selfish and talk to him all night. It really sucks that my first relationship is long distance. Im usually pretty level headed till I hang out with friends and end up being a third wheel. I love how excited I get when I see him but I also get really sad when I haven’t had enough of him. Does that make sense? I’m literally counting down the days till the next time I get to see him and they feel like forever. I just want to hug him like really just feel the warmth and the security his arms give me. I’m being really extra tonight cause he had to be awake at 7am and I only got to take to him for about 30 minutes. That sounds like a lot but I’m a needy person who wants his attention. I miss him so much :( - Oct 27th,2015 

Its annoying, well I guess in annoying. Its like I always want to be honest with the way I feel. I just can’t do it all the time. Okay, so when you’re upset or start getting upset there is something making you feel that way. My problem is, if I’m being too sensitive or if I am justified for being upset. At times I catch myself getting upset for things that are either out of my control or out of the other parties control. So I keep it to myself its not their problem. However when it comes to Gerik I feel like I over react all the time and I can’t tell if I’m just a fucking baby or I’m right to be angry. I think I annoy him all the time and that he doesn’t really care about the things I say or do. I don’t know, ugh. Like yesterday night we were talking and usually we pause during conversation cause we don’t really have much to say so he hung up assuming I was asleep I called him back and he was answered kinda sounding pissed off and he was like “what!” And I asked him if that was me or him, that hung up, and he said that it was him and kinda asked why I called him back and groaned about it. So yeah I got upset and I said “I get it you’re tired I’ll hang up now it’s fine, good night. ” he stopped me from hanging up and he was like “what’s wrong, its okay if we still talk.” I said not everything is fine good night. But he insisted it was okay but it kinda got awkward so i just told him to hang up. I don’t know so I kinda just stopped talking to him to collect my thoughts idk. - Nov 2,2015 

Honestly, leaving San Diego was the hardest thing that I did. I have no idea what came over me but I didn’t want to leave. I didn’t want to leave my boyfriend , I didn’t want him to get up that morning to get ready for duty. As I was saying goodbye I literally started to cry and I kept on crying an hour into my drive to Vegas. I didn’t let him see my tears cause I’m a G, but they were sure there when he wasn’t looking. He leaves me all the time and I never cried. The two years of if I’ll see him or he’s only here for 2 days then gone for 5 months. I never once cried beside that one time. I love him so, so, much and its kinda scary. He tells me his room still smells like me when he goes in there. Its so funny cause all I did was sleep in his bed. But it makes me sorta happy. I really should have stole one of his shirts. God, I miss him so much. I didn’t know I’m such a baby. Ha. - Nov 17th,2015 

Let me be the first one to tell you how much better I feel as a person now that I am no longer with Gerik. You know, it took me a while to realize that he really wasn’t the one for me. It took me almost 2 years and some odd months. I had to stop making up excuses for him. The excuses that this is his first relationship and that he doesn’t understand me as a person and that he’ll learn with time ya know? Well he never did, no matter if I cried to him or if I talked to him. In the end it’s just be that I’m the crazy one or that it’s my fault. Never once did I remember him taking the blame for anything. Not that it was always his fault but the fact that he’d never own up to it when it was. I felt like I was just used sexually he’d only ever put any effort when he thought we were gonna do “something” later on in the night. I always felt that he only was with me because I was the only thing available to him. He never really took the time to get to know me as a person he knew what everyone else knew the basics. I never felt genuinely loved in my relationship with him. I convinced myself over and over again that I was loved. I’m just really sad that I had to experience the things that I did to just realize that he wasn’t the one I needed to wake up to everyday ya know? I tell everyone that I want to get over what Edwin did to me but I get really scared. I still get scared when someone gets in the same position he did to me. I start to feel dirty. I start to get flash backs and start to get defensive. I know that gerik would never force himself on me or anything but when he got on top of me like that I started to freak out. I yelled and got so defensive and the fact that he didn’t get off right away scared the shit out of me. I don’t know man. It just really felt like he didn’t care for me man. So now I want to talk about Ramon, he’s such a sweet heart. I know that I won’t be dating him anytime soon I’m still recovering but he’s such an amazing person. And let me state that no, I did not leave gerik for Ramon. I left gerik for me and myself only. I am my own person and I can do whatever I feel is right for me. But Ramon actually listens to what I have to say and what I have on my mind and understands me emotionally. And that’s all that I have been looking for my whole life. I hope this isn’t just my distraction and that this is something that is good for me. The only thing I worry about is how we will mix as people. To me he’s really nice and cool but outside of that he might be hard to get along with. Ya know? He’s a thug, and active gang member. So I hope I’m not mixing with the wrong crowd but I will stay true to myself all the way. I like Ramon for Ramon, and will not labels change my opinion. I just know he gets me in ways I wish other people did. Almost like serigo understood me but in a goofy way and that’s my favorite part. Ughhhh so that’s where I am in life right now. I’m just going to concentrate on doing me. And loving myself more. And Ramon is a great distraction from feeling lonely. A real good one. - April 16th,2016 

And now i am with my amazing boyfriend for about 1 year, yeah we hit major bumps in the road but now were just growing <3