#I STARTED THINKING ABT IT IN THE SHOWER LMAOOOO

[w4yn31ngm00n]

Long sorta rant post abt the irene dimension stuff, sorry :3

i think that the irene dimension's whole "one year=one minute" concept is so cool sometimes, because its not like jess forgot about leap years or anything, she actually calculated that shit ! one second in the irene dimension = ~6.08737 days in the overworld [365.2422 days divided by the 60 seconds it takes for a year to pass], the max amount of leap years possible in the 15 years that everyone was gone wouldve been what, 4, if the year they went in was a leap year ? [meaning that it wouldve had to be before february 29th that they went in if we want it to be 4 extra leap year days. this is also omitting the whole "its not a leap year if its divisible by 100, but it is if its divisible by 400" idea that apparently exists, so lets just pretend this all definitely happened in the odd middle of a century]. thats an extra 3 days if you suppose that the year they went in wasn't a leap year, so supposedly they couldve been in the irene dimension for ~5,478.633 days total, aka EXACTLY 15 years. so if we consider the day they went into the irene dimension as being exactly 15 years in the past from the day they emerged, i think that puts us on a timeline where the day of the war between phoenix drop and scaleswind had to have been [at the earliest] march 1st of a year divisible by 4 ? idk i think its funny if it was exactly 15 years of a gap, like imagine the remaining villagers commemorating the day 15 years ago that their lord and several others disappeared, ONLY FOR HER TO SHOW UP THE EXACT SAME AS SHE WAS THEN. obviously it doesnt have to be exact, just a thought that kinda gives a base for a day of the years that the war and return were on, or at least it could eliminate january and february from the timeline.

separate thought, but not really:

how long was zoey in the irene dimension ??? like she only left once laurance and aphmau left. the time difference between when she appeared and when they left during the episode was about 43 seconds total, so considering each second in the irene dimension being around 6.08737 days long, she could've been in there for at least 261.75691 DAYS. A LITTLE MORE THAN 8 AND A HALF MONTHS. THATS SO LONG ??? LIKE DID DANTE AND THE OTHERS EVER QUESTION HOW LONG SHE WAS GONE ??? like imagine the absolute TERROR from malachi and levin once they realize that their only mother figure left has been gone for that long ?? obviously its not probably exactly that long that she was gone, but still, its a long time for those 2 to be left alone with no parental figure [besides maybe dante] to guide them through leading a dying village. if we think that the return date of aph and the others was on march 1st, the [probably] earliest possible anniversary of their disappearance and the war on phoenix drop, that means zoey probably disappeared to the irene dimension sometime in mid-late june of the year before.

also. that means that since aph said a few days before garroth's return that it had only been a few months since they got out of the irene dimension, zoey was honestly probably in there longer than the extended time that garroth was alone with zane [depending on your definition of "a few"]. damn.

ANYWAYS SORRY THAT WAS LONG BUT I THINK THE LITTLE DETAILS AND IMPLICATIONS OF THE IRENE DIMENSION'S TIME DIFFERENCE IS REALLY INTERESTING also it raises a lot of questions for me abt the nether's sense of time. but thats a whole different thing to get into ==|:-3

[tfw-no-tennis]

return of hunty

soooo we’re back!! with some really old recaps that ive been too lazy to polish and publish. so, eps 29-32

so i have no idea wtf all that talk abt pores was but i guess gon and killua can do nen now. cool!

they rlly like, figured all that shit out in a few hours huh. these fuckgin nen prodigies hvbajkshdfbjskf

time to wade thru hisokas nasty vibes again

this felt like a video game and gon and killua tried to face a boss but were sent on a sidequest first lmao 

smh just let gon punch you hisoka. then you can leave hopefully

wow some busted bitches are tryin to start shit w/the boys. i can tell these fools are gonna get rekkt 

oh goody gon is gonna fight spinny guy. he looks like that claw guy from s1 of mp100

i hate that they wont stop talking abt this guys ‘tops’ hvbahdfbjskjf

theres a lot of like. strategy and shit going on

oooh gon hiding his presence just like he did when tracking hisoka! you little prodigy you

gon breaking his arm again :( buddy please

well rip the dream i guess, youll get em next time gon 

killua scolding gon for being reckless and stuff...just say you were worried abt him gayboy 

that promise thread is weirdly cute 

killua being like ok wing if you dont teach us nen we’re gonna go out and do it anyways so yeah. hes so rude and blunt i love him 

meanwhile, KURAPIKA!!!!!!!!!!! i missed u omg

kp wya. this place looks sketchy

ah, kurapika has to learn nen too now 

whos this guy. is he gonna teach kurapika nen 

YEP TOTALLY 

why do i feel like we’re not gonna see leorio at all during this....my man i miss u too

ah, lovely timeskip lol

gon is so bouncy. baby boy ily and your scary improbable healing time

killua calling gon weird....you guys are BOTH weird ok 

damn so hisoka has lost fights before, wild 

or guess not, if he just didnt show up lmaooo what a bastard man 

how funny would it be if this random guy defeated hisoka before gon could even fight him lmaoo

welp guess gon isnt gonna watch the match. im sure killua can fill him in

killua rlly just snuck into this dudes room huh

kastro: [teleports behind killua] NOTHING PERSONAL, KID

killua asking for an autograph lmao u aint slick boi 

hmmm i wonder if these two will fight later on 

then again i dont think this arc is that long so??? whats even gonna happen here??? is it just gonna be the gon vs hisoka fight that the OP has been promising this whole time???

kastro v hisoka go

YESSSS get punched hisoka. so good

FUCK HIM UP KASTRO.

i doubt thisll last but its good rn

LIMBS R FLYING....this is WILD bro. hisoka is so smug ughhhh i wanna punch him too 

damn this bitch knows clone jitsu 

ultimate attack time! i feel like the other shoe is abt to drop and hisoka is abt to fuck kastro up 

THIS BITCH RLLY OUT HERE DOING A MAGIC SHOW HUH. jesus hisoka ur just...the worst

now hisoka has ZERO arms lord jesus

he really his kastro w/his own severed arm. god

kastro: what the fuck is happening right now

me: YEAH DUDE TELL ME ABOUT IT

aw man there goes kastro. rip you dramatic bishie legend, you never stood a chance 

OOOOH cool lady who are you. her powers are kinda creepy but also cool. is she like, a doctor??? 

how does hisoka know her i wonder. shes cool tho i like her already

wow hisokas powers are weird. thats pretty on par tho 

OH? PHANTOM TROUPE??? so machi is in the phantom troupe...oh boy now im conflicted abt liking her 

AND HISOKAS IN THE PHANTOM TROUPE???? lmao ok then! i guessed that he knew them somehow but i didnt think he was a member...that doesnt seem like his MO 

killua: that was wild. anyways lets train

please punch hisoka right out of the story gon

OH GOD OH LORD H*SOKA SHOWER SCENE I DONT WANT THIS AT ALLLLLL

ruth and i were literally just screaming throughout this whole thing. absolutely horrifying

OH JK I GUESS HISOKA IS JUST PRETENDING TO BE IN THE TROUPE. fuckgin typical lmaoooo

i do wonder why tho, like what are his motivations to pretend to be in the troupe...connections? money? convenience? just sowing chaos? guess we’ll see, cause im assuming hisokas going to yorknew to meet w/them

i wanna set hisoka on fire w/my mind. get him OUTTA HERE 

also its so fucked up seeing hisoka w/out makeup and w/his hair down UGH I HATE IT he should NOT look ‘normal’ ever he should always look like the clown that he is 

anyways thats it for now! and im temporarily suspending the predictions corner segment since i was too lazy to add it when i actually watched these eps, so now i have no idea what my predictions were. alas

[flying-elliska]

S3 Rewatch - Episode 3 - Vendredi 21h36 - “Pas forcément une meuf”

And we are dropped right in the middle of the action, sound like a bass drop after the buildup of the previous clip, after a brief shot of the lit up foyer from outside (lol so not discrete guys) with a little powerpoint zoom effect on the timestamp. It works to immediately immerse us in the wild feeling of the party - everyone dancing, the angles askew, the lights flashing and swirling. Three things. First, Arthur looks hella fly in his James Bond tux, class act, hope we see that side of him again in his season. Second, how good must it have felt for Imane to be able to wear her headscarf in school like she wants but can’t do bc of messed up laws ? Also - the girl dressed as a whole ass shower with curtain and ring is a f*cking Legend she should pop up in fics more. Like the level of extra - why a shower ? Who even does that ? did she ever think about how complicated it would be for her to get away if they got caught ? Nope, she did it all for the Drama. She heard ‘Infiltration’ theme (so like, being discrete and shit) and she went and got the most out there costume she could find. Respect. Also I saw someone in a penguin onesie lmaoooo. 

Basile wants to vomit and we really needed to know that, I guess. Alexia has such BDE casually dropping the whole ‘oh yeah that cute girl that looked at me flirtily is my ex, paws off and yeah i have much more game than you also bye’ at Basile. And the way she casually comes out to her boyfriend and orders him to get her a drink as soon as he gets weird. Because she acts as if she is entitled to a normal reaction (and she is!!!) and anything else is annoying. I love her. Her boyfriend doesn’t deserve her. The painted wall behind them looks so cool. Then another hilarious instance of Daphy freaking out over rules even if she’s basically the biggest rule breaker since she started this, Imane protecting Daphy from Basile being yikes, again being the friend who does the Most, and we cut to Chloé dissing the music. Lucas asks her if she listens to Jul (an extremely lame white French rapper) which is hilarious - it’s a ‘as if you’re any better’ covert dig. And then it turns out that she does listen to music Lucas likes and the best part ? He doesn’t even care. He wants nothing in common with her. He listens to dubstep now and he’s gonna like it even if it’s atrocious. He’d rather be with Eliott and listen to annoying music than to be without him (foreshadowing!!!!). He doesn’t give a shit about Chloé and her snobbish ways. Also there is a sun projected on the wall behind Lucas (symbolism !!!) Meanwhile Mika in his metallic silver suit and rainbow shirt is being super extra and kissing boys without a care in the world, and the way Chloé talks about him is dripping with condescension - ‘did he get the wrong party’ as if everyone is not being over the top anyway, or talking abt gay men as if they’re party accessories. Alexia correcting her feels fitting - Eliott in this clip is all about being mysterious and witholding so it’s okay he’s not the one doing that even if him correcting prejudice would have been awesome. I just don’t quite see Eliott standing up for himself in the way Even did. He’s always so much more nervous when it comes to talking. 

The music then goes “oh oh” as Eliott arrives, as if on cue. Like hiding-in-plain-sight camo for Lucas, the fact that the mask is actually blocking out his face physically is very fitting (beyond looking hot as fuck) - like Eliott’s tendency to actually disappear and hide when shit gets rough. Also sorry but Lucille looks gorgeous right there - they both do. The petty “salut, mec” - l e g e n d a r y. I remember how we all thought that Eliott was going to be super sad and down after Lucas shooting him down and there he is, all smoldering ! I love that he’s never doing the expected thing. He’s sensitive, yeah, but he can be hella bold too. Eliott doesn’t even respond to Chloé and challenges Lucas with his super expressive downright bedroom-y eyes. Lucas looks so pissed off and overwhelmed and done and turned on at the same time. Like how did Chloé not notice anything, she really is next-level oblivious. Bubbles are floating around them, I love that, works with the ‘brief bubble’ they find themselves in later. 

I think we wrote entire dissertations about their remake of the ‘Call Your Girlfriend” moment - how much longer it was and felt like an entire conversation. It left me so wired and breathless after I saw it. Eliott’s little “okay we can play that game” smug smirk, open mouthed kiss, jumping in sync with Lucille, both of them looking so cool together like college kids do to high schoolers, all easy grace and racy confidence, and those neon rings around their necks like fallen haloes - whereas Lucas looks like he’s just bumbling around and smashing his face on Chloé’s clumsily out of sheer nerves and annoyance and jealousy. Lucas staring angrily at Eliott who seems absorbed in kissing Lucille and having fun without him for a moment. And then. And then. We can see Eliott pivot and the white of his eyes as they open towards Lucas. He’s staring back ! This is the first moment that we, and Lucas, unequivocally know he wants him back. It’s a culmination of three frustrating weeks of them running after and dancing around each other. But finally, there is absolutely zero misinterpretation possible. And after that, the kissing slows down, it feels like they’re both floating, and as they close their eyes - Lucas especially - we just know that they’re picturing kissing each other instead. Like for a moment, they’re caught in a trance together, in this moment of confirmation, of stolen bliss, of revelation. And bam ! Lights back on and it’s extra brutal compared to OG because it’s not just a random cut, it’s the janitor and they’re in actual danger of being found out, it adds to the ‘caught in the act’ tension. Brilliant, absolutely brilliant.

 And then they run, and they find each other. Eliott just grinning and thriving in the general chaos is so funny. Another reason why the forbidden party thing is awesome - in the panic, their first reflex is to look for each other, and that is very revelatory of their priorities, but it also gives them the freedom to leave together unnoticed. Eliott walking Lucas home gives us those romcom sweetheart vibes. and it’s so. obvious. subtletly whomst ? Lucas keeps having to make the choice of following Eliott - and I love that Eliott is giving him these choices, it’s a way for him to progressively ease into choosing Eliott entirely. 

Canal St-Martin ! I’ve been there ! It’s very cute and romantic ! Then we have the conversation of absolutely Unsubtle Fishing.  I love that they keep giving each other outs -  to protect each other and their own hearts, to make it easy so they can deny if they need to (so it’s serious with this gf ? so you it’s really hot between you and this Chloé - lol Eliott you know it’s not - ? so you don’t want to be in a couple ? ) and just. NOT. TAKING. THEM. And being like no Chloé is too much it’s annoying, no my couple with Lucille is coming to an end, no bitch it’s you I want !!!!! It’s that reciprocal dance they do, Lucas tentatively coming out of his shell, Eliott giving him time but also making it easier for him (and more enthralling lol). But I did NOT expect Eliott to come out like that. Like ! I was in the tram when I watched this lol (I was still not aware of the importance of Vendredis back then) and. i. just yelped out loud like a moron lmaooo. I wanted to cheer him on like he was a football player that just scored. It’s just such bi/pan goals in particular to come out like that, so nonchalantly, because you’re so easily assumed to be straight and it’s kind of a pleasure to turn ppl’s expectations around, but it demands a certain level of confidence. I love how the music rises and it goes in a second from ‘friends hanging together all casual like’ to ‘yeah they want to jump each other’s bones’. Daaaaamn Manon. 

This clip is just so thrilling. Last Vendredi was the wonder of discovery but all very uncertain - this is confirmation that the special someone likes you back, and it’s such a high, they transcribe it so wellllllll. 

Previous clip. 

[httpdabi]

omggg i forgor to reply 💀was finishing up a lil sumn in mspaint while im away ( in case ur curious its a gengar w a knife lmaoo https://img.guildedcdn.com/ContentMedia/e36ae3505123b9537ca8aaae3d151b0a-Full.webp?w=453&h= 41) NYWAYS thatss sooo vallidd worstie reality is as shit as is SOOO writing out daydreams bout ur fave bein completley obsessed w u are soo fuckin cathartic PLUS man the thought of dabi bein just a liiitttle pathetic over u is just realll delicious AND OMFG YEA U DID MAKE ME MORE OBSESSED W HIM AFTER UR FIC RUN AWAY I WENT BACK TO THE MANGA N SCREENSHOTTED A SHITTON OF DABI PANELS 🤣🤣 also uhh im kinda shy abt showing myself but if i start posting ill let u know NYWAY YEA NO I LOVE U MUUUCHHH MORE TAKE IT 💌💘💝💓💕💓❣💞❣💞💗💔💗 🔫

AAAAA I LOVELOVELOVEEEEEE YOUR GENGAR OMG LOOK AT THAT LITTLE KNIFE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ah just imagine having him as your partner, and when you say attack, instead of throwing a shadow ball, he starts chasing them with a knife lmaoooo TOP TIER POKEMON💜💜💜

We live in a fucked up world, so I think it’s cool how we find comfort in each other’s work.. reading and writing stuff only to escape some reality haha

Omg yessss, Dabi placing you first before anyone else is just dkdhissjiiedj like fuck family, fuck friends, fuck anyone on this world.. you need me ? Gotchaaa doll 🥹🥹

AHHHHHHH I AM SOOOOO HAPPY TO HEAR THIS, I AM SSOOO FUCKING GLAD YOU LIKED HIM THAT MUCH OFJFJJDJDIJSJDJ🥹🥹🥹💜💜💜💜

omg babyyyyy nooo, don’t be shyyyyy I will shower your blog with so much loveeee, empty, full, doesn’t matter, I already love it 😭😭😭😭

BISH NO, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I WOULD EVEN SHARE MY LAST CIGARETTE WITH YOU WTF 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[queenofthefaces]

rules: copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, and when you are done tag up to 10 people and also tag  the person who tagged you… and most importantly, have fun!

tagged by @jewpacabruhs

A - age: 17

B - biggest fear: uhhhhh having my parents find out some the shit i do on the internet probably? lmao but seriously probably like,,,,never finding love or a place in the world and just scrambling in a void of stress and loneliness until i die

C - current time: 4:17

D - drink you last had: the coke i took from the house of the person i’m dogsitting for

E - every day starts with: trying not to go back to sleep, grabbing my phone to mindlessly scroll for abt 2-3 hours, then getting up to shower

F - favorite song: uhh i dont really have fave songs ahsjdkfl but i really like gaga’s judas, adina howard freak like me, and fall out boy church

G - ghosts, are they real: yeah, ive never had an encounter but i think ppl got like, souls or smth that can stick around

H - hometown: dont really have one?? i was a military kid i moved around a fuck ton lol

I - in love with: fuckign idk the phone destroyer game? uhh these dogs im dogsitting? my new drawing tablet?

J - jealous of: i dont really get jealous tbh?? uhhh im jealous of ppl who have friends that arent MOVING

K - killed someone: not irl obviously lmaoooooo

L - last time you cried: we were on vacation and i was kinda unintentionally rude/blunt and my parents were embarrassed and my mom ended up yelling at me until i cried lmaoo it sucked bc i like RARELY cry

M - middle name: julianna, it’s derived from my great grandmothers name

N - number of siblings: i uhh only count 1

O - one wish: to finally date someone?? i dont think romantic love will like ~fix me~ or make my life better im just constantly craving the ability to BE romantic and im also horny hhhh

P - person you last called/texted: my mom texted me that she’s gonna come pick me up after shes done eating and i texted back “k” lol

Q - question(s) you’re always asked: prob things related to how “smart” i am?

R - reasons to smile: when ur playing w a dog and she stops to look back and make sure ur still following her, comments on ur fic, talking to ur friends and mutuals, finding new music from a band u like

S - song last sang: the icarly theme song w my sister lmaoooo

U - underwear color: UHHHH N/A

V - vacation destination: we’re goin to florida in a bit to visit family 

W - worst habit: im a bitch and i tend to be rude and blunt oops, i also talk over ppl, i tend to snap at ppl when im frustrated

X - x-rays you’ve had: other than my teeth none i dont think

Y- your favorite food: idk tbh rn im really feelin cotton candy blizzards from dairy queen

Z - zodiac sign: gemini

uhhhhhhh idk who to taggg so if u want to do this jus like,,,,,do it for me and tag me and ill add ur name to this post to make it look like i tagged u in the first place ahjdkflg im tired ajsdkfl

[shytiff]

Small Oct Wins

1 - DL, its bts week on fallon 🥰🥰also chuseok, which means content >>>, cicil dk ikk, rapat sponsor and talked and raged with regen abt mpi and manhwa lmao, group call shiko

2 - DL, finished 4 dk ikk wow!!, read dear door sampe ujung

3 - DL, symptoms ipd WHILE trying to losten to resus cairan fkdigital and i failed to listen to fkdigital lmao in the beginning they talked abt different fluids, my kompre is in Nov!! Can take a slight breath of air. Cicil kompre

4 - DL, symptoms, ordered krispy face (tasted so so), started reading sign, its so hilarious but the antagonist just doesnt make sense. too dysfunctional

5 - DL, ea simulation (got cushing syndrome, yay us for rosc!), forgot my scrub pants so i borrowed from indah, the way back homd (PP motor) was hooot, cicil banifidi, talked with ara for 1,5 hrs abt mental health and past traumas lmaoo

6 - DL, cicil geri, read raise ga wa tanin ii

7 - formatif geri, originally meant to go to puri with atikah to get seirockya, but its closed. So we walked to lippo, got genki sushi takeaway, walked to carrefour where we parked, and on the way back atikah had this sudden idea of eating @ taman 45. So we did. We reminisced old memories while eating rice bowls and sushi at park. Sounded pretty great except its taman 45 lmaoooo. Took a nap at atikahs place and then i went back. Tried matcha cookie by Chips Chat Lexley, its too crumbly :(( the taste was so so

8 - was sooo drained i dunno why. Slept and lazed around until 11-ish after i managed to shower and eat. Rip stamina. DL. Formatif with stella manda, dr asti and dr fuady. Digorenggg. the dark chocolate cookie tasted quite good. Finally a cookie that did not fail

9 - helped ical and ara for simul kompre, e, DL, played among us with candra and solid, paused the game to do formatif ea lmao. i need to studyy aaa

10 - DL, my body felt tooo drained from 1 (one) exercise lol. Symptoms. Ordered mujigae and janjiw caramel latte 1L because 10 10 promo. lazed all afternoon. planned to run because it’s cloudy but wacana is life. Watched MOTS On:E with racheel. Gladi resik nemo. Saw hakken cosplay’s IG live. among us. i was an impostor with cibe (participant: 10) and i somehow won lmaoo. edited 2 pld article so i finally caught up! just need to wait some more articles from reporter

11 - DL, symptoms, wasted my time rereading vampire knight for the n-th time

12 - DL, QA KMKP, read banifidi while drinking janjiw caramel latte and on god coffee rly helps me to focus and not get sleepy, talked with ara abt her session with dr jiemi (emotion vs cognition)

13 - DL, there’s no class today uye, drank caramel latte janjiw at 11am and yall i somehow became productive. finished reading banifidi, 2Padi. 

14 - Became captain at simul today, kasus HPP, i forgot to put O2 wtf :((((, bought 2 1-L package from sbux dm after school, and with +15k you get green tea frappe so i sat there for a bit for DT, felt a bit better (like im a normal functioning person???? like i dont feel sluggish). cicil IKK, passed lvl 4 DL

15 - DL, nemo as 2nd operator, vanilla latte nyom, thats all folks unfortunately

16 - DL, theres no schedule today, woke up at 10 am, vanilla latte and cicil PT, cicil IKK (only did a bit today), among us and i was the impostor 4 times lmaoo

17 - symptoms, in the soop 7, e, read on/off its too hilarious!! Finished 1 sitasi kompre

18 - last in the soop ep :(, e, DL, tugas kasus harian geri

19 - DL, the table i bought has arrived!, cicil IKK, joined ukmppd course, started at 18:30, its now 22:36,  still 14 questions to go... 

20 - DL, qa discussion with group, bought some plastic shoe boxes online, its cheap and it is great, bcs my shoes used to sit there in plastic bags, organized some stuff in my room for a bit!! my metal rack looks less messy yay. dk ikk, les

21 - Started my day early (finished shower by 7:30), DL, finished 1 ltm ikk and 1 sitasi PT, JK went live in youtube with his long hair and undercut, and literally afterwards YG came on vlive playing guitar. Its a good day indeed :”) its cloudy today, just a perfect shared to listen to youtube’s lofi study playlist. Barely paid attention in today's les, i rly need to reread the forensic one

22 - DL, formatted qa docx, looong qa zoom, read the dops form, tidied up my stuff for tomorrow and while waiting for les the dumbass me didnt realize that the mic is on and i muttered "masker n95..." lmaoooo. Paid attention in les. Took a shower while leaving the zoom (q&a sesh) and turns out its finished at 22:45. Yalll the tutors dedication though

23 - simul, waited around a bit, bought halo bowl from grab since im at school all day, tried chicken pesto. made me feel full, tasted like a typical "healthy food", not too oily. OK in the afternoon, did not get dops (not surprised), was today years old when i found out you can park motorbike beside gedung putih. Went home while listening to kuliah guru besar. Passed out in the 2nd part of les (bedah). That adds more of my course debt lmao

24 - Im trying out habitica now so DL documentations will be moved theree, trying to add the habit of reading quran. watched in the soop behind and dalbang, watched the social dilemma halfway (message: careful of being the social media’s product), ate nayam, slept again and woke up at 5 pm, made status anes, les (the freshest ive been so far. maybe because its saturday night, there’s only about 25+ participating until the end from the usual 50+)

25 - woke up early and showered, slept again, ate breakfast at 12 pm with banana and 2 brownies i need sugaar, reviewed forensics (les), made half of ltm ikk wow im kind of proud, submitted asinkronus, eval nemo

26 - icu and simul, the way back home was pleasantly cloudy, slept and woke for les, read anti PT and oh my assisant since i cant sleep during the night

27 - did ikk ppt, read TO SOLID answers (i got 65 and i feel sooo stupid, but the grade somehow changed to 66 which means pass), slepttt during the afternoon, dk ikk was pending bcs dr Indri was still doing surgery at 18:00. Les

28 - Felt like doing nothing. Watched the latest dalbang, PT briefing, dk ikk, les. Thats it omgggg my time keeps flying away

29 - Started my day early (6:30am) since i slept all the time :):):)), finished 1 ltm ikk, tried truffle belly, the nanban one. good enough and the rice is not too much which is nice. i dont rly know how the truffle oil’s supposed to smell (ive tried tubo before but i still have no idea). chose wahana choice for MPI (bismillah!!), finished reviewing TO SOLID 1, les

30 - it took me a whole day to read 1 (one) sitasi PT but im still proud nonetheless, how did time flyyyy tf. You’d think that this 5 day “holiday” i would learn a lot for kompre (haven’t started) and quickly checked off my to do list. for les i pulled the table near my bed so i was half listening half reading Private Lesson while laying down lmao

31 - checked 2 acads to do (i feel like when i do things in advance there will be stuff that make me go "ah tau gt nanti aja"), bingeing romee strijd's YouTube and its miracle i dont feel like shit after watching it (they literally go do amsterdam from sg to put their bags and then theyll go to miami?!), afternoon nap coz i cqnt bring myself to study kompre, cicil kompre bismillah.docx, last day of les (im not strong enough to follow until the end, bailed halfway), read a bit of blood link lmao, WTF ITS NOV 15 MINS FROM NOW :((( (writing this after sheetmasking, its 23:42) still not prepared for ukmppd kompre God Help Me

And thats it for Oct! I feel like there were some terrible mood phases, some ok ones, and those rare days when im up and about and refreshed and feel like doing things (most days im a sloth). Hope to do (and feel) better in Nov

[chaisoo]

(1) cAMARA SJXSKDL i need to tell you the dream i had w chany and the rest of the boys but ya know he was the main. dude (may i call you dude? my apologies in advance) I swear I cried the entire dream I don’t even know why I guess I was emotional or somethin Idk (this is gonna be long gurl so I’m sorry) okay so it started out that I was walking towards a van the boys were supposed to ride in and when I opened the door yeol was with a female

(dskjflkajd okay so since this dream is SO LONG I decided to put the rest under the cut lmaoooo. It’s great lol you guys should really give it a read)

(2) and let’s just say the tempature was v hot lmao so as one can imagine they were surprise @ my c*ckblocking lmao so I just apologized quickly and ran for my life. While I ran some of the boys were exiting the building they were in to get to the van and go home. Chen sees me running so he goes after me and asks if I was okay cause I looked weird plus I never ran so Ijust said yeah so instead of questioning my answer he decided he’d ask me later and also asked if he could ride w me instead. 

(3) The thing is in the beggining I walked to the van looking 4 one of the boys so I could vent bc I was feeling super crappy but instead I found myself with the god of fire just tryna get some lmao. The car ride was kind of silent so I turned the radio to ignore my thoughts. When the radio goes on the saddest fricking song starts playing (미안해 by jonghyun) so I just burst into tears and chen tries to calm me down

(4) We made it to their house/apartment idk and chen immediately left the car bc if it was okay w me he wanted to look for clothes so he could stay w me so I wouldn’t be lonely im cry I lvoe him shjd I stayed in the car because I knew if someone asked me if I was okay I’d probably just cry again so I just waited in the car instead. Minutes after we arrived so did the boys (chany, baek, hunnie &xiumin)

(5) While I waited 4 jongdae, chanyeol gets in the back sit and starts apologizing for what happened and how he never meant that to happen but things got out of hand. The thing is apparently we were close and he noticed how my vibe was different today so he asked if I was okay

(6) The car was silent after his question and when I dedcide to answer him and tell him how I actually felt baekhyun just busts the passenger door open and sehun joins chanyeol in the back so the air just felt awkward and baek goes “did we interrupt somethin?” chanyeol was abt to say yea but I said no and quickly exited the car. When I left baek was like “I think we interrupted them.” chanyeol just gave him a look.

(7) When I entered the house/apt kyungsoo & xiumin tried greeting me but instead I ran to the bathroom bc I was going to cry so I locked myself in and they start knocking “aryn. Aryn. Are u okay?” so I sat in the toilet and cried and I hear someone go “aryn? Aryn? This is suho! What are u guys talking abt?” when I notice I’m not alone suho popS his head from the shower curtain and I swear he screamed but like a whisper

(8) And then he asks if I could hand him the towel and his clothes and I do but we haven’t really seen our faces so when he finished he opens the curtain and asks me if I could turn around so he can look at me and I just move my head like a no but asks me again and says “please look at me” (he was sO GENTLE IM sFHJVSKCDFBF

(9) So I turned around and he asks me “did they hurt you? which one? I will end them!!” and when I respond it wasn’t them I was just sad he calms down and opens the door and all of the boys were starring w concerned faces and I couldn’t bring myself to look at any of them so I was going to leave

(10) But chen said it started to rain and the rain was v heavy and it would be bad to drive in my condition so suho insisted I should stay and if I didm’t want to and the heavy rain calmed then someone can accompany me when I leave

(11) then I felt someone hug me and it qas yixing (I lov him and trust him w my heart) so after this everyone settled in their rooms except chanyeol and sehun so I went to jongin;s since he was already sleepin when I got there and he woke up when he felt me lay in bed so hee asks me if I was okay and we cuddled and we both fell asleep but I woke up

(12) and didn’t wanted to disturb him so I left the room and went to the living room. I gues chanyeol was waiting for me cause he approched me really fast and w a calm and concerned voice asked if we could talk so he again and he sat beside me and looked at me. His face was glowy and warm but he looked worried so I spoke and said “I’m just not sure okay” so with a confused face he asked notsure about what? And

(13) I sswear I called him dude and went like I DON’T KNOW IF I LIKE YOU OKAY aND HIS FACE WAS PRICELESS AND ASGHDJKSF somebody woke me up :-( 

ldkfhldkfh I CANNOTTTT! This is so great oldshfdkljskh cuddly Jongin and protective Chen/Suho?? I’m really dying. But I feel like that’s totally something that would happen to Chanyeol like have someone walk in on him and someone else lmaooooo with his luck! anyway, I can’t believe you said “god of fire just tryna get some” I’m really screaming sddakjfksjdh this entire thing is hilarious man I wish I had dreams like that