#I am gunna tag this with hmmmm

[pupstim]

NGL I kinda wanna explore the thought of BBH dying and coming back different.

I don't want him to do it in canon because although it'd be interesting I feel like it might mess with his Grim Reaper lore, but it depends on how he wants to play it out.

But what I want to explore is him coming back, basically reset. It's Badboy from the beginning of the QSMP but that means no more Dapper or Pomme or anyone. He doesn't remember anyone, not the French, not the Brazilians, not any of the eggs. No one but maybe Foolish and of course Skeppy.

It completely disregards their history on the island but I wanna explore that. I am the biggest fan of coming back wrong. Except this really isn't him coming back wrong but just... the badboyhalo they knew is not coming back, he is dead and this new badboyhalo is him but also not because he doesn't have and of the history their Bad did. This Badboyhalo is starting back at day 1 while everyone else is on day 210 but he's wearing the face of their dead friend. He both simultaneously their friend but not.

Sometimes they'll look at him and see the Badboy and then they'll say or do something and for a split second they forget, because he's physically right there but then he doesn't respond how they expect and it's the grief all over again. They can't look at him. How many of them would get upset with Bad? How would they respond? Grief makes you behave different so I can see a lot of different characters acting differently. Maybe most of them just brush it off, thinking Bad just needs to remember, that their Badboy is in there somewhere and they just need to keep spending time with him and pushing him to remember.

And then how would Bad take it? He's a part time grim reaper, he's intimately familiar with death, with moving on and how this is suppose to go. I think he somehow knows that the Bad they knew is gone gone. He's not coming back but what does that mean for him? Is he a real badboyhalo? Was that other Badboy real? Does he get close to them? Or does he try to distance himself from them because technically these are not his friends or family. Does he try to pretend that he knows them? Does he try and pretend that he is the Badboyhalo they knew?

Just coming back wrong but not, instead just coming back different, coming back new when everyone else around you is worn down, when you yourself were worn down but now that's been erased. Erased and gone, not a trace to be found and how unfair that would be. All of that wear gone from you not a single evidence of it having happened, but everyone around you wear the marks and connection. How unfair would that be, how hard it would be to deal with Badboy. HRGH I really wanna write a story like this just because the concept is so interesting. He's coming back wrong and different but not. He's just not coming back as their badboyhalo but maybe thats worse than not coming back at all.

[hisknife]

rules: answer 30 questions and tag blogs you are contractually obligated to know better.

i was tagged by: @cdew heheheh

name/nickname: knife or gloom

gender: nb/genderfluid i’ll use any pronouns btw

star sign: aries

height: 5’1 (@ cyg how are u 5′7 omg)

time: 10:28 PM

birthday: HMMMM if you’ve looked through my AO3 i mentioned posting on my bday so.......

favorite bands: atm idk tbh i just keep listening to the same songs (bts still holds a special place in my heart but im not caught up with them HAHAHA)

song stuck in my head: LO$ER=LO♡ER — TXT

last movie: i can’t remember if it was spree (2020) or candyman (1992) all the days blend together

last show: i binged over the garden wall and got emotional

when did i create this blog: uh around the time i first started posting my michael fic......

what do i post: dbd related things, MIKAEL, and random horror movies OH and random cute/aesthetic shit hahaha

last thing googled: “google history” cause i wanted to see what i DID last look up HAHAHAH but it was kokushibo from demon slayer

other blogs: i HAD a main tumblr from when i was like 12 but it finally got flagged maybe 2 years for adult content so you cant even look it up anymore

do i get asks: sometimes 😳(feel free to say random shit to me tbh)

why i chose my url: i wanted to be michaelsknife or something but i think it was taken? i wanted something michael or dbd related but i ended up with hisknife HAHAHA o H i also wanted to use my ao3 name here but it was taken too

following: 26

followers: 40 (it was 41 before i started this but it was some bot so i BLOCKED hahaha)

average hours of sleep: either too much or not enough

lucky number: 27 used to be a reoccurring number in my life and then suddenly it wasn’t i like 0 and 6 tho but idk if theyre lucky

instruments: i used to play piano and then i was a percussionist in my high school and college band hahah, i also played flute one year for marching band LMAO

what am i wearing: house clothes heheh

dream job: idk lowkey just wanna publish a book or something one day, maybe by a writer for a visual novel

dream trip: mmmmm ive always wanted to go to japan or europe with my friends or even canada idk man i just wanna travel with friends hahaha

favorite song: idk what my current fave song is but my number 1 on repeat song on spotify is the ghost of you — mcr

last book read: probably vol. 5 of the way of the househusband

top three fictional universes: uH i love the steven universe universe HAHA, uhh uHH idk im trying to think of universes where i most likely wont die in 👀but im still gunna choose death note and fuck it dbd HAHAHA

people i tag: @sanguine--honey, @undeadgoblin, @hip-pouch and whoever wants to do this? just say i tagged you so i can see what you answered heheh

edit: wait this wasn’t even 30????????

[xxthejayagendaxx]

Tag Game!

I’ve been tagged by the incredible @frecklydork like,,,, weeks ago, but I am finally getting to this!!!! Thanks for tagging me I love answering stuff!

Favorite Colors: Purple!!! I LOVE purple. Lavander and Royal purple are my absolute faves, and I love to pair that with green! Neon and brighter shades of green specifically. Orange is also starting to grow on me... for reasons... gay reasons... 

Last song I listened to: Oh hmmmm, I was just in the car but I can’t think of what the last song was. The last song I was listening to that I remember in the car was uuuuuh When I was Your Man by Bruno Mars. 

Favorite Musicians: Oh god oh fuck... I gotta say Mariana’s Trench, because its the first one that comes to mind and the band I know I love ALL the albums for. I also really love 3 Days Grace but it makes me depressed now if I listen to them for too long even though I LOVE their music. 

Last TV Show I Watched: Hmmmm, fuck despite quarentine I haven’t really watched anything.... I Guess Steven Universe Future because I watched the finale, andI am still emotional about it. 

Favorite TV Show: Fuuuuuuuck there are so many. I guess Steven Universe, becuase it means a lot to me. I also love She-Ra even though Im behind a season. Oh and RWBY, DUH, so many... so many pretty.... pretty people.... 

Favorite OC?: .... Why must you make me choose between my children??? I have SO MANY. Im gunna stick to characters from my own original works to narrow it down, but I guess Riley McGuire from my story The Riley McGuire project! They’re a nonbinary wizard and some day I’ll post about it. I also love Basudev Anan from the same story! A sweet trans boy who is just so sweet. 

Sweet, Savory or Spicy?: Sweet and Savory! I cannot, CANNOT handle spice AT ALL. I am a pasty white bitch man. But if I have too much sweet or too much savory I end up craving the other so...

Sparkling water, Coffee, or Tea?: Coffee and Tea, depends on my mood and if its too late to have caffeine, since I drink fruit tea with no caffein, but I love coffee... but it has to be light and sweet, and I love berry teas. 

Pets?: We have 2 dogs and 2 cats! We have A White Golden Retriver named Marshamallow, a German Shepherd names Alfie, an orange cat named Raffi and a fat cat name Etsy! I love hem all so much ;w;

This was so fun!! I’ll go ahead and tag @jelly-bracelets , @selfshippingalien , and uuuuh idk who else because I know Keri tagged Summer so really anyone else who wants to do it!

[moononastring]

Tagging Game: Throne of Glass

Rules: Answer the questions below, add one of your own. Tag people!

Tagged by the lovely @rhysand-vs-rowan  || 

1. Which Throne of Glass book is your favourite and why?

That is a difficult question BUT I really loved Queen of Shadows. So much went down and we saw so much of the characters we love. Aelin + Lys friendship, Aelin + Aedion reunion, Roawelin reunion!!

2. What character is your favourite?

God damn, that’s even harder.  If I had to really narrow it down, it would be Aedion and Elide.

3. What character is your least favourite? (don’t choose a villain, that’s too easy)

Hmmmm. Darrow. I’m with him that he shouldn’t just give Aelin free reign when she’s been gone forever and popped up out of no where but he didn’t have to be such a dick about it.

4. Who is your favourite villain and why?

Arobynn. He was such a well-written character omg. You hated his fucken guts but he’s such a good villain.

5. Who do you think will die in Throne of Glass 7?

The better question is, who isn’t going to die in TOG7 (I am guaranteed to die tbh). Like Krissy said, I think Gavriel and Fenrys are gunna go (sob), I think Asterin is also very likely. Aedion possibly. Lysandra. Literally there is no guarantee. I wish Sarah would just give us a damn number so we can be prepared.

6. Would you rather be a magic wielder or be a witch and fly with wyverns?

Magic Wielder! That’s where the fun is at :)

7. What continent/kingdom would you like to live in? Why?

The  Southern Continent! Everything about the way it was sounds like a very pretty and pleasant place to live!

8. Think of your favourite character. If you had one day to spend with them, what would you do?

Omg...can Aedion and I go on fun dates please!! That date ends with us cuddling in bed...and other stuff ;)

9. Which character do you identify with the most?

Krissy, I love the way you describe Elide because hella mood  “This is fucked up and I know it’s fucked up, but I’m going to fuck everyone up as payback.”

Also Gavriel, because I too, deal with people that annoy the shit out of me constantly (but I still love them anyways, sometimes) and spend a lot of my day letting out long-suffering sighs. 

10. What is your favourite scene?

In QOS: Rowaelin reunion, when Aelin rescues Aedion, and Aelin & Manon’s fight. 

11. What are your guesses on what the final book will be called?

I have no idea. But “A Song of Fire and Ice” just to be funny.

12. What do you think will be Dorian’s reaction to Chaol being married?

He’s going to be so excited and happy for him but hella offended he missed the wedding.

 13. What character from earlier books are you looking forward to seeing again? (Krissy’s question)

I want to know what the fuck Nox is up to and why he’s so important lmao.

My question: What’s one thing you really hope SJM includes in the final book?

Tagging: @queen-archeron @highladyfxyre @illyrianrhys @lady-therion @wingsofanillyrian @court-of-abs  @howtotameyourillyrian (if you’ve already done it just ignore haha)