#i dunno if i should tag this as qsmp

[pupstim]

NGL I kinda wanna explore the thought of BBH dying and coming back different.

I don't want him to do it in canon because although it'd be interesting I feel like it might mess with his Grim Reaper lore, but it depends on how he wants to play it out.

But what I want to explore is him coming back, basically reset. It's Badboy from the beginning of the QSMP but that means no more Dapper or Pomme or anyone. He doesn't remember anyone, not the French, not the Brazilians, not any of the eggs. No one but maybe Foolish and of course Skeppy.

It completely disregards their history on the island but I wanna explore that. I am the biggest fan of coming back wrong. Except this really isn't him coming back wrong but just... the badboyhalo they knew is not coming back, he is dead and this new badboyhalo is him but also not because he doesn't have and of the history their Bad did. This Badboyhalo is starting back at day 1 while everyone else is on day 210 but he's wearing the face of their dead friend. He both simultaneously their friend but not.

Sometimes they'll look at him and see the Badboy and then they'll say or do something and for a split second they forget, because he's physically right there but then he doesn't respond how they expect and it's the grief all over again. They can't look at him. How many of them would get upset with Bad? How would they respond? Grief makes you behave different so I can see a lot of different characters acting differently. Maybe most of them just brush it off, thinking Bad just needs to remember, that their Badboy is in there somewhere and they just need to keep spending time with him and pushing him to remember.

And then how would Bad take it? He's a part time grim reaper, he's intimately familiar with death, with moving on and how this is suppose to go. I think he somehow knows that the Bad they knew is gone gone. He's not coming back but what does that mean for him? Is he a real badboyhalo? Was that other Badboy real? Does he get close to them? Or does he try to distance himself from them because technically these are not his friends or family. Does he try to pretend that he knows them? Does he try and pretend that he is the Badboyhalo they knew?

Just coming back wrong but not, instead just coming back different, coming back new when everyone else around you is worn down, when you yourself were worn down but now that's been erased. Erased and gone, not a trace to be found and how unfair that would be. All of that wear gone from you not a single evidence of it having happened, but everyone around you wear the marks and connection. How unfair would that be, how hard it would be to deal with Badboy. HRGH I really wanna write a story like this just because the concept is so interesting. He's coming back wrong and different but not. He's just not coming back as their badboyhalo but maybe thats worse than not coming back at all.

[annimator]

Not gay and feliz

Not gay and triste

But a secret third thing (Gay and really fucking tired)

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QSMP messy lore summary - Day 65

As a reminder I write these for a friend and drop them on here with little to no editing. May contain mistakes, personal opinons, or be out of order. Enter at your own risk and all that.

The start of the day was pretty calm! Foolish logged on to learn that Bad had set up the scavenger hunt for the pritzas he had wanted (he says pritza. I don't know what else to tell you. It's a pizza) and waited for Leo to be up to start. The two had a lot of fun doing it even if it was pretty easy and overall it was just adorable. 10/10 Foolish Leo moments.

   Tazercraft duo logs on to see that Quackity took Richarlyson and while there was notes left for Cellbit and Forever there wasn't for them. They often feel like the forgotten dads of the Brazilians even tho they love Richarlyson and it's :(((

Lore can't wait forever tho, and Forever logs on (lmao) to hear about it too. He interprets such as Quackity kidnapping Richarlyson and plans on working to get him back. He sees Cellbit is in the federation base under the wall thanks to the map and goes to stalk him once he's out. 

Cellbit wakes up in the same Federation hospital that Max did after getting attacked by the code, noting that the federation saved his life. As they leave, he insists he wants to join the federation and Cucurucho indulges this. He asks Cellbit to gather information on some of the new members that Cucurucho did on day 1. Cellbit agrees, not knowing that Forever is spying on them. Also the federation is building something in the wall apparently! 

 Cellbit gathers everyone in the Favela to apologize for being in a silly funky mood yesterday, sorry but he's fine he swears! He just thinks they shouldn't leave the island and maybe they should help the federation! No one, not even the French, are buying his shit. He tries to subtly ask some of the French the questions Cucurucho gave him and Etoiles is just NOT having it lmao. He presses Cellbit who lies and says he has a book with information on everyone on the island. Etoiles also has like 10 jobs apparently. (detective, soccer player, half of the French daft punk, adventurer, akdbsknd god he's funny) 

Forever and Cellbit have a conversation that is badly translated AGAIN but Cellbit doubles down on taking Richarlyson from Forever and says the Order means nothing to him and the federation is right. 

 I have to leave around here so things are fuzzy but! Cellbit talks to Roier who has been through a bad betrayal on the island and agrees to stay by Cellbit's side no matter what. My ship keeps winning. Cellbit ends his stream by letting notes from his document scroll through on stream, revealing that THIS IS A PLAN!! It's not going how he originally planned it, but the commercial and the lying (which did hurt a bit? I think?) gave him a good excuse to 'betray' the others. The Richarlyson court case gives him a chance to publically reveal anything he learns in front of the whole server, and if they hurt him, he gets to be a martyr for the Order. He believes that revealing it to stream this way stops the Federation from learning about it (he believes that maybe the Federation can watch streams) and it seems to have worked! The update accounts, who canonically are part of the QSMP census bureau, have made no comment on his plan :) 

 Forever meets up with Baghera and Bad individually. Baghera doesn't trust Cellbit and stands by Forever's side 100% (my FAVORITE siblings on this server I stg) and Bad seems conflicted, still wanting to believe this is a plan, but stands by Forever 100% as well. When Richarlyson's "kidnapping' is brought up, Bad explains he saw them last night and kept an eye on where they went so could possibly get them close. 

Bad and Forever do manage to find Richarlyson, who explains he's not kidnapped and wants to be here. However, Quackity is cringefail as usual and didn't even make a good safehouse for Richarlyson. Forever tries to convince him to at least stay with the Tazercraft duo and Richarlyson talks to Pac and Mike offstream. It's thought that he's staying with them :) 

Finally, Bad and Dapper show off their sick new base that they're making from a huge old dungeon that they found. I'm convinced this man doesn't sleep. (Unironically Dapper seemed worried bc Bad was up basically until Dapper woke up after leaving the night before. These two...)

Forever has teased on Twitter that he found something big and will be talking about it today!

[winged-wolf-s-collection-of-arts]

Come and Trick or Treat! Open all year :] tags updated Nov. 28

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Howdy!!! Pronouns —> she/he/they (no preference)

Wolfy (wolf character I doodle sometimes) is my blog mascot. Unreliable sleep schedule/forgetful/message notifs don’t show up- so if you need me uhhhh keep yelling until I notice? Hdfjhfg..

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Kiley and co stuff (commonwealth): little wastrels

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Unimportant ramblings v

Time stamp: Jul 15? Heeeeey. Hello. So I did take a break from art till like last week, but uh, the health has been a roller coaster-

I kinda cleaned the whole house compulsively multiple times. I dunno what to say about that. Went from the compulsion to be Always Drawing to Always Doing Chores, so it wasn’t really a break? It felt amazing for a little while, but I am so stressed inside ahagfhkhdf. Anywayssssss.

I realized that promising to do the art requests Later is just me returning to old behavior, like just... keeping it on the line so I /nobody gets a direct answer *when* it will be done. That makes my brain think it’s in the clear while the other artists are worried and unsure what’d happen. Andddd even though I did have the motivation to do animated group projects for a little while, a small thing completely knocked me into dropping everything else.

I know I *could* try to join more projects or do more requests, I’m not in a safe headspace where I wouldn’t be set off, and nobody should risk their project’s deadline for that-

TLDR I’m going to Try and fix things up on my end and stop myself from joining anything (that depends on Every artists effort). Even if I feel alright *now* I know there’s a lot of risk for *later*- just don’t let me in anything big and important even if I ask, please- for at least a year-

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Gonna Try Ink Demonth this year- I’ll limit myself and not do something too detailed again hsdkfjzhk.

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Timestamp: August 17

[cackles evilly] Ink Demonth Ink Demothhhhh- this is the furthest I’ve ever gotten in an art prompt month ever! ...even though I’m technically not on theme (Fallout instead of Batim). Trying to pace myself by alternating between a simple and detailed style. Hrrrh the yeehawgust prompts (cowboy theme!) look so cool but I won’t double up- but I will try to participate in the September AI-less-Whump month. (gore and dark subjects! I’ll tag everything properly of course.)

Also I’ve come to a realization- A dream of mine has been becoming famous for my art/animations, but uh- One, it isn’t realistic, and Two, posts getting like 200 notes freaks me out cfjhxfgh- Well, doing stuff for friends and others is just as cool. Y’all are awesome ^w^

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Timestamp: Aughust ninteen

Wait actually I don’t need a reason to block people. I don’t need to tell you either. It’s been getting a bit too chummy around here (reference)

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Timestamp: September 4

I didn’t finish the art month, but I got to day twenty! That’s pretty good. I’ll finish it up this month. I also gotta work on some ref sheet, finish a birthday gift, andddd clear the askbox.

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Timestamp: September 29

Oeghhhh.... too many ideas, not enough time. So many comic ideas. And I gotta tamp down my love of angst dvhkdfbnsf, make sure it makes sense first!! Decided to keep the aus separate. Normal Game Stuff is happening in the Badlands mainland, uh, I don’t know what ending we’d go with but anyways. ....hm. Maybe there’s no sosu and the factions are not making any progress. But probably’d lean towards Institute ending if I had to choose now.

Hm. Well. Maybe I did not think. Uh well in the other au Kiley’s with the Minutemen, and Nate’s with the BoS, so... well I’m not sure how this is gonna go- I’ll keep drawing memes till I think of something cool.

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Timestamp: October 24

Well uhhhh. I dropped the October art challenge pretty quick, unfortunately. I’ll continue in December maybe? I said I’d do a few days of Halltober, and I don’t want to go back on what I said.

I keep continuing and dropping the au stuff, but that just proves I can continue a project! Maybe!! Maybe. It’ssss a comedy, so uh I’m not worried about making a Deep Story or anything. It’ll be fiiiiine. Just little slice of life stuff.

I wwwwwill get caught up on requests and gifts-