#I could see that being useful in a shared inbox for multiple blogs

[thepatchycat]

hello, i found your blog via the inbox bug post and i just wanna say, your layout is Very Cutesies. hope youre having a good Day <3

Aw, thank you! I hope you’re having a good day too!

Fun fact: my inbox first gave you my badge and no secondary icon:

And then when I scrolled down and back up it gave you my icon as well:

I have not sent myself any asks, so I can only speculate on how that happened. Maybe by stealing from private replies? Anyway hi you are Me now.

[aces-and-angels]

seeing the influx of gfm campaigns on your dash may be overwhelming- the purpose of this post is to help others navigate through the many gfm links that are circulating here on this site- esp. those that find their way directly to you via your inbox. this advice is specific to tumblr- i cannot speak on other platforms (instagram, twitter, etc.) though some things i say may be applicable

disclaimer: i do not vet/verify any campaigns myself. i simply want people who are willing to engage with these types of posts to do so in a safe manner

read more below:

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what to do if you get a message from an account claiming to be 🇵🇸 in your inbox:

-> step 1: do not immediately dismiss it as spam

to quote one of nabulsi's posts:

"... you cannot generalise with Gazans if their tumblr blog is only a few days or a few hours old.

Gazans on tumblr are making accounts for the express purpose of spreading their fundraisers because it is spreading amongst Gazans that tumblr is a safe place to do so.

They could often be making multiple blogs and even remaking after staff flags them as spam. But don't blanket assume that Gazans are scammers if they're on a new tumblr blog with no pfp or content.

I agree that until a fundraiser is vetted you shouldn't reblog it in case it is someone dishonest taking advantage of the circumstances in Gaza. But you cannot do the opposite and immediately assume they're a scammer. I'm seeing people harass Gazans sometimes who genuinely are people who just don't know how to use tumblr and are falsely raising red flags because of it." (read full post here)

to sum it up: don't hit 'report' right away- marinate a lil and put on a detective hat

-> step 2: background check

the following are accounts that are known to vet/verify gfm campaigns here on tumblr. note- this is not a comprehensive list:

el-shab-hussein

nabulsi

90-ghost* (edit 8/4: recently announced that ahmed will no longer be vetting/verifying new campaigns)

ibtisams* (only has done it on situational basis; is not currently vetting new campaigns- read post here)

rubashabansblog (has been promoting other palestinians who lost their tumblr accounts; currently living under occupation)

heba-20 (unsure if heba takes request to vet others personally but is a reliable source for finding legitimate campaigns)

northgazaupdates

fairuzfan (says they are less active on tumblr these days/not currently vetting new campaigns but is a reliable source)

i recommend giving these individuals a follow if you haven't already as they provide far more information regarding all things 🇵🇸. they've all put in a lot of work to make the process i'm sharing with y'all as simple as possible. also please be respectful if you try reaching out to any of them. they are likely getting a high volume of asks and may not be able to respond to you quickly

important note: it has been recently announced that nabulsi + el-shab-hussein have stopped vetting new accounts for the time being and are only focusing on campaigns that have already been vetted. read their full statement here and here

to start- check out the person's account. this can be a hit or miss depending on how new the account is. however- you may notice that the person in question has stated that they have been vetted:

good signs so far- but better to be safe than sorry. next thing to do is search the username of the person who messaged you on tumblr. it's likely if you got a message like the one pictured above, others may have received one as well and did the digging for you:

if you can't find a clear answer with tumblr's illustrious search bar/want to confirm someone's claim that the campaign in question was already verified, the next thing to do is check one of the following:

el-shab-hussein's pinned post

el-shab-hussein/nabulsi's google sheet

imo, this process is far easier to do while on a laptop/desktop vs. mobile app. ctrl+f is your friend in this scenario as is the ability to click through multiple tabs. for el-shab-hussein's pinned post, i click through the multiple lists and see if any names match. in ruba's case, she was found under List of fundraisers for my direct contacts from Ghazzah & Sudan:

and for the google sheet- her campaign is no. 90 on the list:

tip: to narrow down your search even further- ctrl+f the title of the person's gfm campaign that they've linked on their tumblr account:

-> step 3: share your findings + follow that account

if everything checks out- ✨share le campaign✨ provide the link to it in your response to the ask + where it was verified. make it easier for the next person who gets a message to figure out that the gfm is real

following 🍉accounts is esp. important since the forces that be are keen on suppressing them at every turn. the more eyes on these accounts- the easier it'll be to determine the legitimacy of any new accounts they may need to make

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okay, but... scams 😬:

-> step 1: seek a master

people can be assholes- and anyone trying to make a profit off of an ongoing genocide can eat glass

anyways- the following are accounts that are known to identify scam posts on tumblr (again, not a comprehensive list. these are just the one's ive seen/most familiar with):

mangocheesecakes

kyra45

kyra45's pinned post contains a plethora of resources to help determine if a post/message is a scam- and not just in regards to 🇵🇸- key goes in on many types of scams. please refer to their guides (and be sure that you are reading the most recent version of key's posts)

-> step 2: if you see sumn, say sumn

we're human and sometimes things slip our radar. so if you ever see someone on here sharing a known scam, do 'em a solid and let them know about it regardless if you are mutuals or not

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final/misc. thoughts:

it's good practice to double check a campaign's verification with these tools for yourself regardless of how legitimate it looks. note that checking for a gfm's verification is not the same as verifying them. that work should be left to qualified individuals with experience in doing so. this is why it's bad to attempt things you are not qualified to tackle also- i think it's important to remember that transferring 💵 from a gfm campaign to those in need requires a lot of pieces to be perfectly set in place. if you see 🇵🇸 blogs linking alt. methods of raising funds (ex. p*ypal/k*fi) the reason could be that their gfms were frozen/suspended for a myriad of reasons. as always- check credible sources if you are unsure about a campaign you may come across notice how the spreadsheet provided here has over 100+ campaigns listed. generating a list that extensive requires hard work that is undoubtedly both physically and mentally straining to the individuals who are involved in making it. i've seen some accounts myself that have had to announce that they can no longer continue to vet campaigns because it has taken that much of a toll on their wellbeing. do not let their efforts go wasted

other resources:

some other places/grassroot organizations where you can find vetted campaigns:

operation olive branch (oob)

gazafunds

operation poppy flower (now also linked in oob's sheet)

operation watermelon

project watermelon

strawberry seeds collective

ottawa4palestine

camps breakerz crew

gofund(water)me(lons)

flowersfromfalasteen

[yevgenyyyy]

a sincere note about @/benjicotblckwood

Hi. I'm making this post to alert the hotd fandom about the utterly disturbing behavior of user @/benjicotblckwood (their other blogs: soulsbrne, cregnstark). Some of you might already be familiar with this blog and their posts, since they constantly spam the "cregan stark" and "tom taylor" tags with their inbox messages. Some of you might already have them blocked.

I've filtered and blocked all the tags and blogs that I could, but I've honestly had enough, and I feel obligated to make this post, as I believe it concerns all of us as a fandom. The way they choose to "conduct" themselves on this platform is abhorrent, showing an acute lack of respect and consideration for other users, and worst of all, for some of the actors - real human beings - involved in the show. They have already deleted many of the posts that I show and link below (I wonder why), but these are only a few drops in an ocean. I didn't even bother to scroll that far on their blog.

I want to preface this by saying: whether you choose to read this in full or not, I am begging you not to send them hate or to harass them in any way, shape, or form. That is NEITHER my intention nor my purpose. If you are angry, disgusted, etc., please, please, please just report and/or block them. Don't engage with them.

For the past few months, together with the anons and blogs they enable (and who enable them in return), they have repeatedly made incredibly disgusting and sexually explicit comments about Tom Taylor and Kieran Burton, tagging almost all of the posts with the actors' names and/or the characters they play, thus clogging the tags with shit like this (I suspect that they have since deleted some of the tags):

bonus: why was this post even tagged as Cregan Stark?

To further demonstrate that they do not see Tom Taylor as a real person but rather as an object to hypersexualise, they read and reblogged rpf (real person fanfiction) of him:

They have repeatedly stated that they comment on every instagram and tiktok post from Tom Taylor and Kieran Burton, asking them for their heights (and fuck knows what else). They themselves referred to this as harassment, which it very much is.

what DO you say on twitter, benjicotblckwood?

They constantly post clips and videos of Tom Taylor, where he is, who he is with, and what he is up to, often adding their own speculations and gross comments. This is literally cyberstalking. They even keep the things that he himself ends up deleting. (the post below is about a song Tom Taylor made and deleted)

Here are links to some deleted posts that contained some of their invasive and disgusting comments about Tom Taylor, his body, etc.:

https://www.tumblr.com/benjicotblckwood/758616703482675200/tom-is-over-6-feet-tall-and-hes-got-a-fat-juicy

https://www.tumblr.com/benjicotblckwood/758022883677192192/thomas-joseph-taylor-bradshaw-please-let-me-hit

https://www.tumblr.com/benjicotblckwood/758270274319810560/i-wish-that-truck-stop-employee-would-fuck-me-in?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/benjicotblckwood/758267144930738176/i-love-and-hate-that-tom-is-so-mysterious-like-i?source=share [they talked about "gatekeeping" and not wanting to "share" Tom Taylor in this one, 'cause.... you know... he's not a real person, obviously]

They also zoomed in on Harry Collett's underwear:

https://www.tumblr.com/benjicotblckwood/758272062982930432/the-fact-that-you-zoomed-in-and-enhanced-the?source=share [deleted post]

https://www.tumblr.com/benjicotblckwood/758267589006884864/like-there-is-absolutely-no-way-harry-had-boxers?source=share [deleted post]

I assume, because they constantly appear in the tags with questionable content (I'm being polite), they have been getting called out by multiple people (admittedly, not in a constructive way aka via anon hate). They got incredibly defensive (used buzzfeed and others doing similar things as excuses), acted like they didn't know what they were being called out for, and eventually deleted most of the posts. Don't get it twisted. These aren't jokes. This isn't what fandoms are. This isn't what fandoms are for. This isn't about a "handful" of "jokes" from today or yesterday. This is about dozens and dozens of posts (many of them incredibly disgusting and invasive) about real human beings, made over months and months, every single day.

Finally, I arrive at the reason why I'm making this post. They used the g*nocide in G*za to deflect from the shitshow on their blog. This isn't even performative activism. It's pure evil, in what I can only assume is an attempt to portray themselves as a good person who still has morals and empathy. As far as I'm aware, they have never ONCE shared a post, a fundraiser, anything about the topic on tumblr. But they chose this day, after responding to and deleting posts calling them out for their repulsive behavior online. This is beyond vile. This is fucking unacceptable.

I will conclude by reiterating what I wrote earlier: Please do not send them hate. Please do not harass them in any way, shape, or form. Please just report and/or block them.

[omens-for-ophelia]

I love your art so much! You always manage to convey such depth of feeling, and the genuine affection you feel for these characters shines through. Your art always feels like being wrapped in a warm hug, and your blog feels like a welcoming and safe space. Thank you for sharing it with us.

If you are still open to art prompts, I'd love to see something with hair care/hands in hair -- could be washing, brushing, finger combing, braiding, twining. You depict hair so beautifully and this form of intimacy always makes me melt.

hellooo! sorry it took me so long to get to this prompt! i was banking it for a while and seemed like the perfect time 🥰

really glad you like the piece, your reblogs are always so sweet! i wasnt able to tag you in the main post so wanted to reply here at last and say thankyou! 🫂

addition: when i first got this ask in my inbox i came back to it multiple times to remind myself why i make art. thank you for saying such wonderful things!!!! im extremely thankful and feel very lucky🫂🫂🫂🫂

[writingquestionsanswered]

How can I avoid plot armor? I love the way my wip is going but it's starting to look like everyhting could be solved easily if a character just told the truth of what's going on. I can't really take that truth away from this character because then it messes up their whole goal and motives. I can't change anything else because it's crucial to the plot, but I don't want to weaken my writing with this plot armor. Help please

Conflict Could Be Solved if Character Told the Truth

This actually isn't "plot armor," so let's start there. :)

"Plot armor" is a term that refers to when a main character is able to survive serious injury or death in a way that is implausible and convenient, particularly when it happens multiple times. In other words, it is as though the character is wearing "armor" that protects them from the dangers of the plot. An example of plot armor would be: a character who is unscathed after a deadly battle with armed enemies, escapes a space station moments before it explodes, survives a horrific fall with only minor injuries, tries to disarm an alien weapon with know knowledge of how it works and succeeds, is able to safely land a crashing alien spaceship despite having no piloting knowledge or experience.

It sounds like what's happening instead is that you haven't come up with plausible reasons for why this character is hiding the truth. How you fix this will depend on who knows what in your story. If the character is simply hiding the truth from other characters, but the reader is able to know about it, it's much easier to deal with because all you need is the plausible reason/s why they're not telling the truth. However, if the truth is also being hidden from the reader, you need to set up those plausible reasons in subtle ways... in ways that don't make it too obvious that there are secrets being kept, but in ways the reader will remember when the truth is revealed--so they can look back and understand why those secrets were kept. In other words, you'll probably want to read up on using subtext in your story. Google "spotlight on subtext Jami gold" because there's a really good guest blog there by one of the ladies who does the Emotion Thesaurus books, which gives you different pointers on how you can build that subtext into your story. In other words, the ways you can subtly hint that secrets are being kept and why.

I hope that helps!

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[victoriousfidelity]

anonymous asked: why aren't u using an Asian FC for Sig if she's MCU-based and Vanir?

first things first - i know that @hollustu answered a similar question the same day that this was sent to me; this has been in my inbox for quite a while, but i wanted to be able to take the time to answer it properly. and, a brief disclaimer before i do that: i'm white. while i can speak to my own headcanons and lore for these characters, it isn't my place to speak on actual representation within the mcu, nor would i attempt to; i'll always do my best to amplify the voices of poc within the fandom in that regard, rather than adding my own where it isn't wanted.

i could just say that my sigyn is both mcu and myth based, so mcu-only logic doesn't apply to her, but i don't think that answer would really satisfy either of us so you're getting something of a lore dump from me instead. this is what happens when recovering historians have special interests: we do research.

i appreciate that you're probably asking this because the main vanir character featured in the mcu is hogun, who is played by tadanobu asano (who is japanese). the part of vanaheim, and the majority of the people there, which we see in thor: the dark world is also heavily inspired by various asian cultures (the art book confirms this, and it also mentions mayan and early christian cultures being used as well). but that's the thing: what we see in tdw is part of an entire world (realm / planet / choose your own description). we meet one named character, and unnamed extras, who are from that one part of the world which is being shown to us.

in my personal lore for sigyn, her people, and her home - which i've been developing since before tdw was released, but that's not really the point, i'm just old - vanaheim is as diverse as we see asgard to be. canonically the vanir 'share many physical traits with the asgardians' and are 'similar to human beings'; the idea that all vanir are analogous to a single race of people from earth just doesn't make sense to me. yes, the art book also talks about designing the vanir shown in tdw and how they drew from asian cultures in doing so, but again: in my interpretation, these are the people native to this part of vanaheim.

there's also the fact that there are allusions within the mcu itself to vanir culture being more diverse than you're assuming it to be - the first which comes to mind is frigga's comment that she was 'raised by witches', which is a direct reference to her comic counterpart, who is from vanaheim.

i can understand why you'd have concerns about sigyn being whitewashed if your only context for the vanir is the small about of their world that we see within the mcu, but as i think i've detailed pretty clearly above i don't believe that to be representative of the whole realm, or all of its people. and maybe i'd feel a little less weird about this message if you hadn't sent something similar to another sigyn blog, too.

there are so many different versions of sigyn, because she's not a canon character in the mcu, and we know very little about her in the myths. all the different versions of her i've seen are unique and diverse and wonderful; everyone has built up their own backstories and lore for her, and most of us use entirely different faceclaims for her too. in my experience, people who write sigyn are each other's biggest cheerleaders because we all recognise that we share our love for her as a character, and love seeing the way other people have brought her to life. sending anons to try and cause drama doesn't fit with that. i hope you're satisfied by my answer, but i also hope you'll consider just coming and chatting to someone about your concerns in the future, rather than sending abrupt anons to multiple blogs trying to call them out for something.

[myenemies]

no literally what you said: where the fuck is there stalking happening. he has friends of ours following him, and every time he posts something outrageously false...it is shared with us, and we then see it. and his blog is public too. like if he truly believes you to be stalking, then install one of those ip tracker things and get proof of it?? you have 0 time for that anyways, today you were out drinking with your coworkers, i know this because i was in vc with you

i know he, or his friends, are checking your blog, which is why you're getting dumb anons in the first place, so i will say this: what the fuck is wrong with you for comparing us to a cult?! what sane person does that to anyone. i'm personally very hurt by it because i had genuinely considered him a friend of mine...until he lied to my face about saying he'll talk to you and resolve things. then you showed me screenshots of him lashing out at you too which appalled me so much and he tried to act like the situation was fine with me while i was at the vet putting my cat down and could barely react to shit like come on!!!

sorry for the paragraphs keppy i am so tired of him villainizing you. i love youm i will come to defend your honor anytime

no literally. like. "block evading" i logged onto my prev account to tell him to stop riding my dick after getting multiple anons. like idk man it says a lot that youve been left to rattle off lies & sat back and let your friends be horseflies in my inbox. i may be vagueing you & gloating but you literally actively refuse peoples help & stab them in the back so yeah man i kinda hope your life is shit until you learn how to treat people better

maybe try not being a two-faced suckup and manipulator and your lies wont bite you in the ass, man. ive been minding my business & my life & occasionally hearing ab your chronically online self-isolated posts because you do nothing else with your life than be spiteful and refuse to change

anyways. every vague lie he posts & every anon i get is just more evidence to me that thistle is not the bigger person here!

[ticklishraspberries]

tl;dr - Please read content creator’s information - their pinned posts, bios, carrds, whatever, and start actually respecting their boundaries. If there’s anything that I or others can do to make this info more accessible or easy to understand, please let me know.

Okay, you know this is serious because Razz is actually using capital letters /lh. But seriously, I hate being a dick on here, but the genuine lack of etiquette and kindness towards fic writers has been getting on my nerves for years, and my annoyance has hit another peak. Rather than going off on the people who sent me the specific messages that triggered this, I’m just going to delete the asks and make this post instead.

If you want to send a writer a prompt, please, I’m like actually begging, take a minute to read their information. My pinned post has a link to my carrd, is that not clear enough or easily accessible? /gen like if it isn’t easy I will find a new solution, I want this to be mutually beneficial. I get less asks that make me want to rip my hair out, you don’t get snarky replies to your prompts, LOL.

Some writers have a pinned post, a link to a fandoms list, a carrd, etc...Is it actually that complicated to just check that someone likes the fandom you are asking for before you send them a prompt? I received an ask asking for a fic between two characters that I have never even heard of before, and I still can’t figure out what the source material is. I cannot write for fandoms I’m not familiar with, and I will not write for fandoms I don’t specifically list as something I’m comfortable writing.

Also, maybe I should put my fandoms list and boundaries on the same page? Because the amount of people that still ask for things that I have stated multiple times make me uncomfortable (parent/child tickling, bellybutton-focused stuff, “cheer-up” tickling, etc) is honestly insane, like I’m not sure if my boundaries aren’t clear enough or if people just don’t care.

It’s really discouraging to open my inbox and see it full of people who have no respect or regard for my rules. And oftentimes it will be followed by “I love you/your blog/fics” and, I’m sorry if this is mean, but I don’t believe the compliments when they are coming from someone who can’t even be bothered to check if I’ve watched a TV show or not.

Of course, whether or not I write something is not going to depend 100% on the fact that you ask for a pairing that I like or that you’re polite, but if you’re rude or ask me for a fandom I’m not familiar with, I’m not even going to publish those asks anymore, I’m just deleting them because I don’t want to argue with people. Plus, this isn’t just a writer’s issue, I see it happen to artists, too.

If there is anything that I can do to make my fandoms, rules, boundaries. etc. more clear and accessible, PLEASE let me know /gen. It is so discouraging and irritating for me and I’m sure that people who are innocently just making a mistake feel upset when I get frustrated with them, and I don’t want that to happen at all. I want this to be a fun, safe space for all of us, and a place where we can share ideas and be creative. I just think we could use a little more cooperation and kindness when it comes to interacting with content creators.

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GUIDELINES:

please keep in mind that this is a 16+ blog. i of course do not have the ability to monitor and check the ages of all who follow me but if i find out you are under 16 and are interacting with my NSFW content, i will block you. my blog being 16+ cannot be enforced, it's more of a recommendation because of the sort of content i post. if you are under 16 you can still follow me but please be warned and again if i see you interacting with my content that is meant for older audiences, i will block you.

before requesting/sending any asks, etc. please make sure to read through the following guidelines! this blog is mainly battlestar galactica (2003), wednesday (netflix) and stranger things (netflix) themed. check out characters i write for here!

ASKS/PROMPTS

1. my inbox is usually open for everyone. if you want to have a chat, have questions, have fanfic requests, etc. feel free to send them (but please be respectful as you do! i will not respond to rude or disrespectful pms).

2. please do not trauma dump in my inbox or in comments of any of my posts. basically, ask before trauma dumping on my account or to me directly.

3. just a general rule of thumb, be respectful and nice. anyone who uses hateful/offensive language will not be tolerated and be blocked!

4. if you so desire to want to send me fanfic prompts in asks, please limit it to only one prompt per ask, it makes it easier for me to keep track of.

5. i do take requests for drabbles, aesthetics/moodboards, one shots, playlists, and even whole fanfics! that being said, i may not necessarily do all of them, just simply take them into consideration and only go through with them if i really like them and could see myself being able to complete it!

6. please be patient and don't spam/request the same thing multiple times! i will block people who spam my inbox or asks, especially if it's the same thing every time. i have a life outside of tumblr and so i will get to responses, etc. when i have time.

7. don't be creepy or weird in the sense of asking for pictures of me or any really personal information, etc. that i don't have public on this account. (with the exception of if we're friends/i consider you a friend). i am over 18 but that doesn't mean asking for personal things or making any sexualized comments about me or anything of that sort is okay. i will block you if you do anything i've mentioned here.

8. i will add more rules as i see fit. for now, these are my rules and if you plan to follow my account i expect you to respect them.

thank you, i hope you enjoy your time here and the content i have to offer.

[azsazz]

On the topic of creating the side blog:

I might have misunderstood what you were proposing, but I’ve understood it as you would create a side blog to post requests you’ve gotten, or ideas for fics that you’ve had, so that other writers could read them and potentially write them and tag or reblog the completed work to show where it came from?

On that basis (sorry if I’ve gotten it wrong🫠), just as a writer myself, it kind of feels like you’d be monopolising fic ideas? This might totally be me being too negative and pessimistic so tell me if you feel that way (I’m really so sorry if I sound like that), but you’re a big account already, and plagiarism is still a pretty serious issue even online, so there might be an instance where a smaller blog or something would be accused of copying your idea and then get blamed for that?

I get that is a ‘what if’ sort of problem, but personally I’d feel a little hard done by if you just started posting all these ideas you had and kind of ‘claiming the rights to them’?

Anyway, I’d like to emphasise this isn’t supposed to come off as antagonising or even mean but it’s difficult to convey tone through asks? It really is just to offer a different viewpoint, so obviously feel totally free to delete or ignore this :)

I really love your fics and specifically the way you write (that Cassian a/b/o one sent me to heaven multiple times—like I’d brushed my teeth, changed into my pyjamas and fully settled into bed then put off sleep because I was like ‘I have to read this and I have to read this now’) 💙💙💙

Hello hello!

So, the idea came about when i posted that rhys thing. people were asking me to write it and then i was thinking what if i didn't want to but someone else did? and i realized that there are a lot of asks/reqs that i may not have the time to do or don't resonate with, so putting the ideas out there for anyone to use

no one has to tag the blog if they write anything (i just thought it would be fun to read the fics if someone used something but its truly not needed in order to utilize what i'm proposing), and it will be open for everyone to share ideas and send requests if they want anyone to write the idea! but, based on some of the polls, i wouldn't be posting the asks in my inbox, only ones that come to the other blog.

i've seen many writers write the same types of stories already and i don't see it as a problem but maybe some do? it wasn't meant as something i could monopolize on, and i'm sorry if you viewed it that way, in my head i thought people would maybe enjoy it if they're a new writer and having trouble with ideas of if someone has sent the same request to multiple people or if they just want to see their fic written

i think your feelings are absolutely valid, and i appreciate you bringing them up and being so kind about it! 💙 I enjoy that this is a space where we can have these kinds of conversations!

[scoobydoodean]

I am reblogging this, and I want people to know when I do so, that for a long time, I have considered Bear a friend. He's been a follower of mine for a long time and actually has his own tag on my blog #thee number one benny stan to hold all of the lovely things he's sent to me over the last year when I started formally tagging things. I was tagged in and frequently reblogged his art over the last year, which I have always thought was lovely and unique (and have told him so).

Over the last year, I became increasingly aware that a lot of people do not know Bear as a person who occasionally pops into their inbox to spread love and positivity—which is what I have always known Bear for—as a sweet, lovely, creative person.

When the anon mail from some benny stans started happening, I did not believe that he would send people such terrible things. My experience with him had always been positive, and he came to me a few times when Courtney was getting anons he thought could be misconstrued as being from him (though no one, including me, ever implicated him in any way), and told me it wasn't him. I believed him. My way of making sense of the harassment Courtney was being sent that seemed so deeply connected to Benny and recent posts Bear had made (despite no one ever saying that) was that perhaps someone who disliked both of them was sending the messages, and then DM-ing both of them about it to stir up drama as some sick little game.

Courtney and I discussed this. Bear and I discussed this. I urged Bear to protect his mental health by not going to Courtney's blog to see messages that filled him with anxiety (and frustration over the lack of shared interest in Benny and deanbenny). It has been perpetually clear that despite being blocked, he often goes onto Courtney's blog and then gets upset about hate messages being sent to Courtney about Benny, and how Courtney responds to them. Courtney has never once named him in connection to any of these messages, and people sending Courtney ugly things about Benny OR about Bear is not Courtney's fault.

ETA:

Over the last few months, I have grown sadder and sadder as I faced more evidence (despite the fact that absolutely no one tried to prove it to me) that Bear is the one who sends a lot of the ugly messages Courtney has received (including suicide bait). I genuinely did not want to believe this was the case.

However, I have seen vagueposts that happened too close together, timestamped before Courtney receieved hate mail about Benny AND a few minutes after they responded to it. I've become aware of a lot of stories that have saddened me that show a particular pattern. I will leave most of those for other people to share or not share.

I also reached out to someone recently about negative experiences connected to Bear that I had heard about, and harassment that resulted from blocking him for some unpleasant behavior. I've been asked not to be too specific to protect their identity. I also want to add that Bear was a follower of theirs prior to this, and they'd had friendly interactions:

He came back after being blocked and harassed me from multiple accounts (one of them had anons that had been sent calling people racists. [I say] anons because the account was empty). The first one was an "apology"—typical, "I'm sorry that you felt bad, but I didn't do anything wrong". Other anons were hate mail, name calling, yada yada. [...] Note that since this started I thought it was best (from a cursory glance at his blog) that I never utter a word to him. well then I took some measures in hopes that would stop him without me having to contact him. He called me a racist and said that I used the term "harassment" to make him look like a thug, and then he started DMing my mutuals sending them [posts he made about me]. When people started unfollowing him, he deleted [everything he's said] [...] Then he made a post apologizing [...] to anyone but me. Days passed and he kept vagueing me, saying I was the worst person alive, love bombing and following MY mutuals and talking shit in DMs that I was racist and a terf [...] Basically, he's been playing the victim while implementing every single abusive tactic under the sun to the point that a couple of mutuals unfollowed me I think because of him? There's no way for me to know but they're mutuals now so I assume that was the cause. [...] He keeps stalking everyone I follow leaving comments, likes etc etc. I'm so tired 😩

Here, I would also like to cosign Courtney's warning on this. Do NOT harass anyone over this. Do NOT send anyone ugly messages. I will eat you alive.

I don't want to start drama and I don't expect you to respond to this but I think you deserve to know what's being said about you. tumblr. com/transfagbenny/738678589192552448/and-id-appreciate-if-we-stopped-using-the-terms

i actually am going to address this because this person has been lying about what's been going on for months and they've apparently been harassing other people for months if not years, so. it's time to put an end to this.

before i start though i want to make it abundantly clear that if you take this as an opportunity to do anything other than block this person, then you are trash. do not send him messages. do not tag him in things. do not harass him in any way. leave him alone. if you need to block, do so and then move on. hate mail and harassment is disgusting behavior and i don't want to be surrounded by anybody who engages in it. and if you do it on my behalf, i think you are worthless and i want nothing to do with you.

so, this is what happened: back in february of 2023, an anon asked me if i had any opinions that would get me canceled with the dean girlies. i replied, "oh now we’re talking!! hmmmm let’s see. i don’t care about benny at all. deanbenny does nothing for me. deanbenny is dust. it is dust. drowley rights forever" and i did not tag it because i'm not an asshole. bear then sent me a message that at the time i thought was funny/cute because his url reflected that he was obviously a huge benny fan. we had a very cordial exchange. everything was good. we chatted a little bit about how neat it would've been if benny had been played by a black actor and how the racism problem with gordon would've been fixed if gordon had been played by a white actor. not all of our conversation is visible anymore (and i also don't think all of it was on this post anyway) because i've since blocked him so his replies no longer show up on my posts. the point is: everything was fine. it was a good tumblr exchange. he continued to follow me. i did not follow him then or at any point.

the problem is that he kept coming onto my posts and into my inbox to try to make things about benny. that is not okay. i had already said that benny was a character (and deanbenny a ship) that i was not interested in. to me, this is an obvious boundary i've established that he repeatedly crossed. it's not an egregious violation, obviously. more than anything it's annoying. what he should've done, if benny was that important to him, was unfollow me and move on. but he didn't and i indulged him for awhile but at a certain point i thought, "okay maybe if i stop indulging him, he'll take the hint." so i stopped responding. he did not take the hint. he got worse and he even started commenting on things that he couldn't make about benny, just to willfully misinterpret things i said and taking them completely out of context. unfortunately, i don't have receipts for any of this because at the time i didn't know it was going to become an actual problem (however I have since learned that this is an established pattern of behavior he engages in, so you can probably find examples on other people's blogs).

it got so annoying, though, that i very carefully broached the subject in a private server with people i trusted. without naming any names or using any incriminating language (i.e. not specifically referencing benny), i basically said that there was someone being annoying about a specific character on my posts and i wasn't sure what to do about it. immediately, a handful of people replied with some variation of "the benny stan? he's been doing that to me too." i do have receipts of this (and an entire server to back me up) but i hope you can all understand why i'm not going to provide those or name names (or ask anyone to get involved publicly). the point is, it became apparent that i wasn't the only one and this was a pattern of behavior. i also learned during that conversation that bear has a history of harassing people and calling someone racist or a transphobe if they block him.

at that point, i decided not to rock the boat. i would just continue to ignore him and maybe he would get bored and move on. well that obviously didn't happen. he kept doing it and as a fun added bonus, he started to make vague posts about me. the thing is i don't actually care if he vagueblogs about me. it's his blog. he can do whatever he wants. it's none of my business. i mean i personally think he should've just unfollowed but, again, his blog, his choice. it is annoying that every single time he would do it, someone would send me a link or a screenshot of him doing it, but that's not really his fault. so, again, i just ignored it.

this is where we get to the incident in question. after a private discussion among a small group of friends, i posted this obviously joke poll at the insistence of @letterstothedevil, a tumblr user who has given me permission to include her in this.

the original message about the poll:

the permission:

now EYE think it's abundantly clear that the poll was a joke amongst friends, but maybe it wasn't, and i'm not going to fault anyone for not magically knowing that. i am, however, totally willing to fault someone for being a gigantic asshole. bear commented on the post and i, admittedly, gave a somewhat dismissive response because at that point i was so tired of him being willfully obtuse and twisting every little thing i said that i just didn't want to bother. he then went and made a series of not-at-all-vague posts calling me racist and claiming that i simply do not care about the racism in the show and it's obvious because i've never ever discussed it on my blog (which is a hilarious lie given that i'd specifically discussed it on my blog with him). at that point, there was no reason not to block him. he was already doing the thing that i didn't want to deal with. so i did. and i thought that would be the end of it.

again, i was wrong.

i then started to get anon messages daily about benny and deanbenny and how i'm racist for not liking benny, etc. this was harassment that EYE was on the receiving end of. nobody else was a victim of the messages i was being sent. they were sent to me and it is not my job to make sure other people are protected from the harassment that i am experiencing. i'm pointing this out for two reasons: 1. because i did try to protect bear from it for awhile anyway. i knew that people would assume it was him and at the time i was still giving him the benefit of the doubt, if for no other reason than the fact that i didn't think he could send me messages since i blocked him. and 2. because when i did finally start to respond to some of the messages, bear acted like he was somehow the victim in all of this (and continues to act that way to this day).

i don't know if bear had (or currently has) anything to do with any of the messages i get (which, thankfully, have slowed considerably). what i do know is that at no point during any of this happening did he stop looking at my blog and vagueblogging about me.

when i finally did answer a few of the messages, bear had a bit of a meltdown about it. i know this because he used a separate account that i hadn't know existed to message me and because he talked to one of my friends about it. (i'm not going to name that person but if they want to get involved publicly of their own accord, that's up to them lol). i'm also not going to share screenshots of what bear said to me because he explicitly asked me not to (it's also the reason i'm not sharing screenshots of the numerous receipts i have of the things he's said and lied about on his blog but, unless he's deleted any of them, you can go and find the posts yourselves.) what i am going to share is that in the message he sent to me, he flat out lied about his behavior. he told me he hadn't been vague-blogging about me, that he would never ever do that about anyone, and that he would certainly never harass someone (all things that i have receipts of him doing).

it took me awhile to respond to this message because i was still trying to be gracious about the whole situation. i recognize that he is much younger than i am and i think it's important for me, as a full blown adult, to take that into account. i had a private discussion with a few trusted friends about how to handle this because it was important to me to not let him off the hook for his behavior and for lying just because he's young. this is what i ended up saying:

his response was to double-down on his lies (while, hilariously, vague-blogging about me and the whole thing) and then go into victim mode about something so completely unrelated and far-fetched that i decided i simply wanted nothing to do with him ever. (this is when he asked me not to share screenshots, so i won't, but this is me saying that i have ALL of the receipts, bear, so if you continue to lie, you will not like what happens.) i blocked his alternate account and tried to ignore him.

the harassment continued. again, i have no idea if he was actually part of it. the vagueblogging continued. he started to do it to other people he associated with me. many of them blocked him because of his behavior. i continued to answer some of the hate i received, continued to ignore and/or block most of it. it got so bad that i was sent seizure bait on more than one occasion, one time bad enough that i actually ended up going to the ER. there are receipts of all of this, too. you can see on my blog the messages i've been sent. i think at one point i even shared a snapshot of what my inbox looked like. i've shared privately with friends (who can confirm if they want to, but no pressure) screenshots of the kinds of messages i get that i don't respond to. the point is, that for a period of months, i was relentlessly harassed. and at no point during this time did i say anything to or about bear (or anyone else). the most i've done is respond to messages that have been sent to me. i've largely sat quietly while this thing happened to me and bear continued to make posts about me and act like he is somehow a victim in this. he's assumed things about me and my identity. he's violated boundaries i've set. he will not let this go. and i'm not the only one he's doing it to.

i'm so fucking tired of it. leave me alone. leave my blog alone. leave my friends alone. leave any and all of the people who have blocked you for your own inappropriate and obnoxious behavior alone. that's it. that's the end. none of this would be happening if you would just respect other people's boundaries. i don't want you on my blog. i do not want to interact with you. i don't want anything to do with you. that's it. the end.

[queerprayers]

I've emerged from a depressive episode and some busy weeks to about 50 new asks so I just wanted to update y'all and share some thoughts! I'm so grateful that so many of you have reached out and I'm gonna work hard this week to answer as many as I can while I have free time and am more stable. Please don't let this discourage you from sending new asks, though—I'll add you to the list, just know it might be a bit. I also want you to know that if you sent a prayer request, I did read it and you've been in my prayers, I just haven't publicly acknowledged it. Here are some recent assorted thoughts that I'm just now putting into words:

I don't tend to post about current events on this blog, partially because it often takes me a while to put thoughts into words and I don't want to publish hasty opinions and unthought-out reactions, and partially because I don't want to be a news source. There are better (and faster) writers and more qualified people out there than me to do that work. I trust and hope that all of you are reading/learning, praying, and doing justice work without me posting about every issue that affects us. If you don't see me address a topic, it's not because I'm unaware of it, don't have an opinion on it, or am not praying and working.

That said, I am working on a resource/reading list regarding abortion, because it's something I've thought and learned about a lot recently, and it's a topic that I've changed my opinion on multiple times. Obviously, the Roe v. Wade decision in the US has brought this topic back into local discussion, and I think other people could also benefit from the research I've done. (Spoiler alert: I have a very complicated relationship with abortion itself but an uncomplicated opinion on the laws themselves/state regulation.)

As I work up the courage/energy to work on my lengthy Google Doc of unanswered asks, I know that I will not always understand the situation and cannot always be knowledgeable or politic or correct but by God I will be earnest and honest and put in work and pray that Love is present as I put my thoughts into the world. I've been having a lot of feelings about how people bare their souls in my inbox and the fact that I could affect them in so many ways, including causing real harm.

I had a pretty life-changing moment recently and I think being forgiven, truly forgiven, is one of the most holy experiences there is. Not the "they're not mad at you anymore and you're polite to each other" forgiveness—the "you messed up, and it won't affect our future because you are forgiven, and you get another chance because I love you, and I love you because you are human" kind of forgiveness. I haven't processed the gift I've been given yet.

Helping lead worship the morning after a relapse is like… I belong here, no matter what I've done or been through. Even if my voice breaks while chanting. That this body you have broken may rejoice.

Summer is nearing its midpoint (at least in this hemisphere) and the woods here are full of life. My petcare work means I'm often with dogs out there. I'm finding grace—I hope you have somewhere like that.

Okay, that's all for now.

<3 Johanna

[bunny-rambles]

Hey friend, I just saw some of your other asks and I wanted to chat with you. As a writer on this platform, I empathize with your struggles. The fine balance of making things and sharing your thoughts is delicate, and I very rarely post anything personal because I've learned they don't get seen as much - which is fine, that's why you make friends who can and will listen :)

As for the posts, I wish you could see how incredible you are for even making content!! It takes bravery to do it once, and courage to do it again. With the Fandom getting wider and less active, it's going to be dead space out there but it doesn't mean you aren't a worthy writer.

(I've learned over the last year doing this, you have to set some personal markers to reach. If I get 100 notes on a single character post, I'm stoked! (It doesn't always happen, trust me some of my favorite works have 45 notes on them) and if I get 200 notes on a multiple character post I'm pumped!) I've had to retrain my brain this way but, honestly, it makes me feel better about myself.

AND, instead of the numbers I go back and read old works and say, "wowo, I've improved so much!" (I'm here to make stuff yes, but I also want to get better at what I love - don't let writing become something you hate. Don't let low note counts dictate your worth. You are making something wonderful! trust in yourself and eventually you won't mind what your post looks like because you'll be working on the next one that's even better!

I know it's hard out there, being a content creator can feel lonely, so don't hesitate to reach out. You are more than your blog, live your life and use this as a place to get better at your craft !!

Rooting for you!!

- hazel

I have reread this, and reread this, until I couldn’t cry anymore because I bursted into tears when I read this for the first time. Truthfully, I didn’t want to respond, just keep it safely in my inbox so I can read it when I’m feeling at my worst, but that wouldn’t be fair.

Thank you so much, Hazel. When you put things into perspective, I actually feel a lot better about things. You are absolutely right, there is dead space now for most creators within this fandom, and I always forget that. I mainly forget when I see creators still getting an insane amount of notes.

Another thing you were right about, I got caught up in the numbers, and that was the one thing I really didn’t want when I started this account in the first place. Writing is something I’m passionate about, something I cherish and use to convey my emotions that I keep locked up. I should’ve never focused on the attention it got, but when you’re in this community, unfortunately it sometimes becomes inevitable to compare yourself to other works.

I actually do set little goals !! If it gets past 50 notes, I usually consider it a success and I’m very happy about it usually. I should stick to it but sometimes I just let my head get the better of me. I’m working on it,,,

It’s strange though, one of my favourites I’ve written was a piece for albedo that’s barely passed 80 notes, and it stayed on 30 notes for a good four months. I think I wrote that so well and I really liked how i did it but it’s gotten the least attention. Some of my least favourites have the most notes. So I understand not getting past the goals. But maybe I should take your advice and just hope I write better for the next time.

It’s surreal to see you telling me that you’re rooting for me, when I was inspired to start this whole thing from you and your kindness. You’re truly an exceptional human being and I hope i continue to grow closer to you. Sorry for never reaching out, I’m just incredibly nervous/shy around mutuals in fear of annoying them - I’ll try and work on that too.

Again, thank you. So much. This really cheered me up after this awful week I’ve had <33

[writingquestionsanswered]

Hi! I'm a beginning writer who have recently started to write in English. I am not satisfied about my works in general, I use to abandoned 4/5 fics before writing another one that could satisfy me. I don't know If you already answered this, but could you please give me some advices for becoming more confident in writing in a foreign language? Could you give also any advice to enrich that language's vocabulary? Sorry for my terrible English and thank you for your reply! Love your blog. ❤️

Tips for Learning to Write in a Second Language

1 - Read books in that language - Reading books is the best way to learn how to write them, and it's also a great way to learn how to write them in a language other than your own. When you immerse yourself in a story being told in that language, you immerse yourself in grammar, vocabulary, writing mechanics, and more.

2 - Watch TV and movies in that language - Watching TV shows and movies in the second language is another great way to immerse yourself in the language. Not only can you get a feel for how the language sounds, but you can also pick up on things like cadence, timing, verbal quirks, and other things that are important to dialogue.

3 - Use a language app to improve your skills - If you're able to, try downloading a language app and use it to help improve your skills. Mastering everyday use of the language can help build a solid foundation for less common use.

4 - Find a language native vritique partner - Writing friends are worth their weight in gold, especially if you're writing in a second language and can find writing friends who are native speakers of the language you want to write in. Not only can you pick things up from them and their writing, you can ask them questions when you're confused about things, and they can read through your writing to point out any inconsistencies and mistakes in your use of the language.

5 - Use an editing program - Language editing apps and programs like Hemingway Editor, ProWriting Aid, Autocrit, Stilus, and others can be helpful in making sure your writing is correct--however I wouldn't rely on a program like that exclusively. Some of these programs cover multiple languages, and then different languages also have their own similar apps and programs.

I hope that helps!

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losing sight of you (p.h)

My work is NOT to be transferred, translated, reposted or copied to any other sites without my permission. That is plagiarism. But you can re-blog the heck out of it on here :)

paring(s): pope x maybank!reader

summary:  JJ takes y/n out to the grocery store only to run into the one person they least expected. Now JJ is faced with a choice to make. (part four in losing sight of you)

warning: slight angst

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"I can't clean it if I can't see." The girl huff, clearly annoyed, but JJ ignored it.

Ricky has been coming for the past six weeks, helping her and teaching JJ how to get y/n to be more independent. Right after the accident, the siblings relationship was borderline toxic. Y/n was like a parasite, sucking JJ's goodness and love right out of him. So Ricky explained to the two about setting boundaries and respecting boundaries. Y/n was making headway. Some days were better than others.

"It doesn't have to be perfect, I want you to use the dish soap and sponge to get the crusted food." He wanted to scream at her sometimes. Tell her she's being a self-centered brat. But he knew that would crush her to feel he turned on her. He hasn't but if she felt any anger towards her, JJ feared all this work would be for nothing.

"I don't want it all over me." JJ wouldn't allow no for an answer.

"Y/n. I want you to do this. You need to at least try." Put your foot down, Ricky's words replayed in his mind. With love, you know she can be sensitive and now that she can't see you, she'll focus on the tone of voice. "It's up to you if want to try, if not, I won't read to you before bed."

"You're treating me like a child." She carefully set down the plate.

"Because you are choosing to act like one." JJ snapped. He stopped himself just short of asking what would pope say? But no one mentioned him around her. His text flooded her inbox, untouched and unanswered. Ricky taught her how to make calls and send / receive text. It was up to her what she told pope.

"Fine. I'll try." She huffed again. JJ silently thanked her and announced him leaving the room. Y/n learned how to navigate to house fairly well, along with a few shops downtown. She's been acquainted with the wreck a few times, but getting out of the house was exhausting so it didn't happen more than once a week.

—

Pope's scanned over the text. The way it started with 'pope'. No good morning or sweet I miss you. What else could he expect after weeks of no contact. He stopped reaching out after four or five. Maybe a drunk text of how much it hurt to be ignored like this. Even when there was only friendship between them, she always got back to him. Now he wishes she would have continued ignoring him. It would hurt way less than the truth.

He read it over multiple times, comparing it to previous messages before. What once was full of love and light, now hung with dullness and bitter pain.

Oh y/n. His heart cried out. How could you do this to me? To us? We love each other. Pope stopped. Well did. Now it's just me. Y/n might have fallen for someone else while he was away, but he would never. His feelings for y/n started when they were young, but it was hard to navigate due to the fact she shared blood with his best friend. They finally started to explore a relationship and his feelings grew. But now it was all thrown in his face.

The pain seized his heart, his eyes landing on a letter from his school. It was his notice that a position opened up in Outer banks. He would be returning home within the week to shadow the local coroner.

He might not hate y/n or believe he could never love someone else again, but neither could he move back there, live in the same vicinity as her, and have to watch her look into another person's eyes with the same look he longed for.

—

"Oh, y/n." JJ's voice grew closer. "John B is here."

"How are you doing, goober?" His voice seemed deeper than she remember. He was gentle and kind, sti to this day.

"JJ made some eggs and then we're running to the store. Him and Ricky are trying to teach me to remember where everything is." Everyone could sense the upbeat tone. It wasn't as hard anymore. She still sat around most of the day, but now y/n accepted the company of her close friends. It was a step in the right direction. There had been moments when she almost seemed back to normal. From the giggles to the was she played with the ends of her hair.

"Sounds like you got a full day. Mind if I keep you company while he's getting it ready?"

"I don't mind at all. Please sit." And he did. Sometimes they would just sit in silence. Y/n hated feeling alone and now she relied on others to be her eyes. It was her own twisted fate at this point, but she tried to focus on the good things.

"Are you still wearing that stupid hat?" He chuckled.

"Always, but..." he trailed off before slipping it onto her head. "Looks better on you."

"So JJ was telling me, Ricky is teaching you to use your phone." The girl patted her pockets, looking for it.

"Watch this, bandana boy. Text John B." The phone spoke back asking for the message. "Hello."

The message was sent and John B received it a few seconds later. "That's amazing." John B sent a message back to her, curious to see it.

"Incoming message from John B, 'now you have no reason not to tell me good night.' Would you like to respond?"

The girl just grinned. "I'll try. I prefer calling though. Its easier and I don't have to think much."

"Well, I'd love to hear your voice more. Really miss having you on the hsm or at the chateau."

A small smile appears on her lips. "I'm not sure I'll ever be ready for a day on the boat, but I promise one day I'll make it to your humble abode."

"Perfect." He wanted to give her a big hug, but refrained. "I know you can get to the kitchen by yourself, but can I offer you an arm for some assistance."

"Lead the way." She gently wrapped around his arm. It was in moments like this she thought of pope. It was hard to keep the image of what it would be like to allow him to lead her. But her pride numbed her to the pain. She didn't need him. Just put him from your mind. He wouldn't want you if he knew. So just stop.

—

The last stop was the grocery store. Y/n was quite acquainted with area. Comfortable if you asked JJ. She could recognize the voices of the workers. They went there at the same time, same day of the week.

"Did you put fruit on the list?" His sister asked.

"Fruit?"

"Yes, you said the other stuff went bad. I've been craving apples."

"We can grab some. Do you remember your step count?"

"Yes. I'm by the chips. It's five steps left from the end of the aisle, then four  left."

Jj chuckled. "Close enough." He took a spot next to her as she felt to see if the apples were ripe enough. It was when JJ handed his sister the last of the batch he saw him. Nothing could have prepared JJ for the sight of none other than Pope Heyward. Looking like a man in a dream, he swiftly moved towards them. Y/n was focused intently on the fruit, she didn't need any assistance.

JJ couldn't form a sentence as he approached. The friends eyes focused on y/n discovering the truth for the first time. His emotions were heavily guarded, most likely for his own heart. JJ could only think about what his sister did to push Pope away.  His face changed as he saw y/n's movements change.

JJ was thankful no one else was around to witness the interaction as Pope stepped with feet of the girl, staring into her. Y/n only stared through him, completely oblivious to Pope's presence.

"We're gonna have to keep the red apples from the green. That way I don't get them confused."  Y/n didn't hear a response and tried to remain calm. Don't give people a reason to stare.

"JJ? JJ." She took a deep breathe holding back panic. "Did you leave me?"

The uncertainty and distress broke through JJ's brain. "Sorry I was thinking. You didn't tell you wanted red apples as well."

"You're telling me, these are all green. You let me grab green ones?" JJ heard the exhaustion in her voice.

"No. I'm just kidding." He awkwardly chuckled. "You have six of each."

"Is everything alright?"

"Yes. So are you happy with the apples?" The sister nodded. "How about you go and purchase the apples, yeah? Just like I taught you. And I'll be behind you for the rest of the items."

"Don't go to far." Y/n called out as she unfolded her cane. The young girl wasn't a fan of pulling it out, but she's learning to rely on it when JJ stepped away.

Pope just stared as she walked away. "When JJ?"

"Nearly three months ago." There is no one else. Pope made the connection. She cut him off because of the blindness. There is no other man. His mind filled with everything he wanted to say but couldn't.

"Is it permanent?" JJ nodded. Pope kept his eyes on his friend. The hurt was radiating off of pope, it was as if JJ experienced receiving the news all over again. He could see the same feeling he had in popes eyes.

"I have to talk to her."

"No, pope. Come by the house after she's asleep. We'll talk then." Pope opened his mouth to protest, but JJ cut him off. "It won't work like that Pope. She's come a far way and I won't put it all at risk. Tonight. Eight-o'clock."

With that JJ walked towards his sister, pretending as if nothing happened. He would be his normal, cheerful self for y/n's sake.

—

Pope shook as he waited for JJ to answer the door. His heart laid in two inside him. Y/n lied to him, made him feel like shit, but he knew it was all for her pride. She was a maybank for god's sake. They don't take hand outs and they sure as hell would never ask for help. It hurt. It really did.

"Pope. It's good to see you again." He pulled him into a hug.

"Wish it was under different circumstances, but it's good to see it too."

"Ricky just left, he's-" JJ was cut off by the soft patter of feet. Both boys turned their head towards the sound. Y/n was walking with a hand brushing the wall to help guide her. JJ casted a glance to Pope, but his friend only had eyes for Y/n. Nothing could break the connection. They both were staring at the girl when she missed her footing and tumbled to the ground.

Pope went to rush to her side so quick, JJ stepped in front to stop him. "Are you alright, y/n?" Her brother questioned.

"Yes."

"Do you need help?"

"No." Her answer was short and direct. "Are you alone?"

"No."

"Male or female?" Her hands went to go smooth her pajamas.

"Male."

"Am I properly covered?"

JJ sadly smiled. He could never imagine what it would be like to rely on others. "Yes. I thought you were going to bed."

"Forgot my water." Pope did his best to stay quiet, restraining himself to not reach out and spook her. In fact, she gave no regards to anyone else in the room besides JJ.

"I'll grab it for you." He lightly jogged to the kitchen to grab the bottle. Then he gently placed in in her hands, sending her of to bed with a hug.

"Good night, JJ." She hummed. "I love you."

"I love you, too." Once again, Pope is left speechless. With all the compassion JJ could muster, he led Pope to the living room to begin the hardest conversation

—

Tears brimmed both of the boys eyes as the relived the past few months. Catching up over few beers, contemplating their actions, more so where y/n was involved.

"If only I was there. Now Luke is off somewhere living it up while I'm playing the parent. I'm glad he is gone and I wouldn't trade it for the world. But things should never have turned out this way." JJ sighed taking a sip.

"You couldn't have known. That's just like saying, maybe if I didn't take the work-learning program, I could have been here to go with her. If it still happened, maybe she wouldn't have pushed me away and-" Pope just shrugged.

"We wanted to tell you, but she flipped anytime your name was mentioned. None of dare. What did she tell you?"

Pope's heart clenched thinking about it. "That she met someone else. That she hated me for leaving her."

"I'm sorry. We should have let you know." The conversation calmed down. "What are you doing back in obx? Wasn't expecting you until late spring."

"They transferred me. A slot opened up here and I took it on a whim. Not that I really had a choice."

"I'm glad your back. The others will be too."

Pope shifted to look at him. "Do you think y/n would be glad to know I'm back?"

JJ huffed in thought. "What if we didn't give her choice?" His friend looked confused. "You still good with the high school curriculum?"

"Where are you going with this?"

"She's falling behind with school. But what if she had some help. It would be a challenge, but you tutored me through my senior year."

"That's a stupid idea."

"Stupid things have good outcomes all the time." A sheepish grin formed on JJ's lips. "You could maybe teach her some of those bubble letters."

"Bubble letters?" Pope let out a laugh.

"The tiny bumps they taught us about way back. Why have I never thought about that. I always just read to her." JJ's eyes filled with wonder at the thought. What if she could read on her own? Wouldn't that be a sat.

Pope thought about it. "I'd do anything for her, JJ. You let me know when."

"I let you know in a few days. Ricky is going to stay with her tomorrow night so I'll be at the chateau. Wanna join?"

"Of course." Pope ended the night leaving with a heart full of hope. He was ready for whatever the future may hold.

(next part)

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[sageinacage]

Why I am leaving this blog

This is the truth as of why I'm abandoning my tumblr, @/sageinacage.

CW: swearing/harsher language; mentions of breaking boundaries, sexualization, bondage, non-con/tickle torture, kinks, toxicity, overall rly uncomfortable topics

TLDR at the bottom.

Before I start, I want to say that I’m not talking about everyone in this community. Not everyone is like this, but still a lot of people are, and unfortunately the negatives are louder than the positives.

Having this blog was quite an adventure. It definitely had its ups and downs, but I was quick to notice that it had a majority of downs instead of ups. As of now, I'm dreading being on this page.

I don't feel comfortable here anymore and it's incredibly hard for me to feel any sense of safety in this community, and I honestly feel personally ashamed to be in the MCYT tickle community with the bullshit me and others have seen and experienced.

People go around on anonymous and practically harass creators, I've seen so many rude anons get sent to myself, my friends, and people on my dash. People are also breaking CC's boundaries left and right, and no one will listen to anyone when it's spoken up about. I remember making a post stating that if you send anon hate then DNI, and I lost 4 followers. So disappointing. Actually after I took a screenshot of my boundary/trigger list and posted it, someone sent me an ask and did EXACTLY what was listed in my triggers. It went fully against my boundaries, and it caused me to feel scared whenever I get a notification in my inbox, because I’m scared that somebody is trying to purposely trigger me again; and I shouldn’t have to be on Tumblr with such paranoia as I’m experiencing.

Going onto the topic of the more weird and uncomfortable side of the community, I also remember I made a post a while ago saying "if you support putting minors in heavy bondage, then unfollow," and I lost 5+ followers. To put it bluntly, that’s fucking disgusting. For those people to admit for putting minors in a borderline NSFW situation, since heavy bondage is quite literally something that only happens in the kink world and there’s nothing wholesome or cute about it, and for them to admit to doing it, is fucking weird. Though, I’m thankful those people got off my blog.

I have literally seen someone post art of c!Ranboo in heavy restraints and it didn’t even look remotely fun or consensual. It was pictured, or at least my friends and I interpreted it, that he was being tickle tortured and it was non-con. Though, it’s to be expected when the art is a dark-lit room with an intense tickle machine with heavy bondage, with a blindfold and what looks he is genuinely struggling. What made me even more uncomfortable is that an adult drew it. Another person wrote a fic of c!Ranboo in a lot of bondage with the sign “tickle toy” attached to him. That’s fucking weird. That’s practically something that never gets condoned in a strictly SFW sense. The sad part is that others and I have seen a lot of this happening around.

I was actually informed that an artist the other day on another MCYT tickle server drew literal non-con tickle art of Technoblade (/srs). I was revolted. The worst part is, some people didn't even have an issue with it and reacted to the image with heart emojis. For someone to draw non-con in a completely SFW server filled with a bunch of minors is creepy and weird. Non-con isn't a fun thing, and so many people, including me, have horrible experiences related to it; and for someone to turn it into a "heehee fun tickle" situation is fucked up. For someone to even fantasize non-con as a tickle fantasy just makes me feel sick. There are a few fics like this I've seen as well, unfortunately.

Related to non-con things, I've actually gotten a request before asking me to write Schlatt literally tickle torturing Tubbo, and multiple asks that are similar to that; even when on my request rules it stated not to ask for things related to that. Anything with the word "torture" in it is not consensual, especially in the context it was in. I’ve probably had to delete around 5–8 asks in total from my inbox that were related to non-con or torturous things, even after I already stated in my rules I do not write that stuff.

Another thing I've seen is romantic-esque things written with CCs and then the creator slaps a "/p" onto it, and all of a sudden it's okay? Ranboo has even stated in a stream that he is uncomfortable with his IRL self being written/drawn cuddling his friends, and I see so many fics and concepts of IRL Ranboo cuddling in some way (which I've spoken out about before, but again, no one listened).

Moving on, I've probably met the most toxic people in this community than any others I've been apart of- and I've been apart of a lot, I've been on Tumblr on different blogs since I was 11. For some reason, so many people love to guilt trip here (both my friends and I have noticed and experienced a bunch of people doing it in this community), and the people who get called out for it avoid apologizing like the plague. A person in this community made me and a few others literally scared to say no and scared to advocate for our boundaries, because of how much we got guilt tripped. And no, no one received an apology. But still, people DEFENDED this person, even though me and other people spoke out and explained how this person hurt us. That’s so fucking upsetting. I automatically don’t feel safe in a community where people willingly associate with a literal manipulator and someone who hurt probably over 10 people in total (/srs).

Another thing I've noticed is that so many people seem entitled to something. For example, when I got practically harassed by anons for my discomforts/triggers, basically trying to squeeze out reasoning. No one needs to explain their boundaries/discomforts to you, and this community doesn't understand that from what I've experienced; after being harassed by multiple people on anonymous multiple times, all of which were because of personal reasons I was not obligated to share. No one should be able to say that they got harassed by people on anon for their OWN BOUNDARIES. ON 3 DIFFERENT OCCASIONS AS WELL.

Long story short, I can’t help my triggers. Each of my triggers has developed from trauma I’ve gone through or a bad experience, and I shouldn’t even have to defend myself for my triggers/discomforts if people were respectful and weren’t so fucking entitled for an explanation. So many people in this community can’t mind their own business, and I unfortunately had to learn that the hard way.

I've also seen people project onto IRL CCs. Those are real and breathing people. I understand doing it for comfort, but, the CCs have a literal character that people can project onto, but for some reason, people have to push their things onto real life people. I’ve seen someone headcannon IRL Tommy as trans. That's like the same as your friend "headcannoning" you, a real person, as a different sexuality that isn't what you identify with, and one you may not even be OK with being seen as, and without knowing if you're comfortable with it or not. It's weird.

There are more points I could bring up and more specific things I could state, but I think you got the gist of why I'm leaving. I don't feel comfortable being a member in a community which a lot of its members condone in this stuff.

This is the reason why I'm only active in the MCYT tickle community on Discord, because my server, "Mcytickles," actually respects CCs boundaries and is truly an SFW server, and people are respectful towards each other. It's the only safe space I have in this community anymore, so please do not join it if you exhibit any of these things on this post.

No, I will not be coming back, so please do not try to convince me to stay. I’ve been wanting to leave for about a month now, so this isn’t some impulsive decision. I’ve been in the MCYT tickle community since April, and these problems have always existed but have just gotten worse and more extreme, so I’m leaving for my own mental health and to protect myself from further harm than what I’ve already received.

TLDR: I am leaving this blog and the MCYT tickle community on Tumblr due to the many boundary breaking and unacceptable behaviors I've seen be exhibited, and it makes me not feel safe and comfortable to be here anymore.

I want to thank my mutuals, though. You were all awesome and such kind and loving people, and I’m happy to be your guys’ mutual. I want to thank those who were always so nice to me and hyping up my work, and those who were respectful to everyone and advocated for boundaries. Thank you so much for everything, moots <3 (/gen)