#I don't condone toxic behavior or people irl

[nerdy-talks]

Do u read webcomics? If so any recommendations? I need new stuff to read so I’m asking around lol thnx!

I do, lovely anon! ^u^

My top three favorite webcomics/manwha are Killing Stalking, Bloody Sweet, and Dreaming Freedom.

I actually just started reading Dreaming Freedom a few days ago. And I'm hooked! Maybe it's just me ... but every time I look at Siyun's adorable face, I can't stop myself from imagining Yandere!Solomon (from Obey Me! obviously lol)

I am simping HARD for this man! And not just because he's beautiful... I am seriously in love with his entire personality! I tore down the red flags and raced towards Siyun without looking back lol

There's also the fact that Siyun is a lowkey(?) Yandere, which is a major selling point for me. Honestly... He reminds me of an overprotective puppy dog, which is actually a huge compliment even though it may not sound like it

Not to mention the fact that I ALWAYS have a thing for characters with tragic/sad backstories, especially characters that have white hair at one point or another (for some unknown reason... it usually just works out that way xD )

Plus Siyun says things like this :

Oof! My heart!~ 💙

Next : I was extremely happy to find out that Bloody Sweet is getting a physical release. And you can bet I picked up Volume One the first chance I got!

Naerim is super relatable, and Fetechou is beyond adorable. He can have my blood anytime >:3

I've only read Bloody Sweet once before online, and as far as I can recall.... Fetechou also has a very tragic past.

He also says things like this ~ :

Oof!! *clutches my chest* My heart!!! 💙

Fetechou's heterochromatic eyes and lil' fangs are everything. And I ADORE his personality <3

Then there's Killing Stalking. Not exactly a wholesome, heartwarming story by any means. It's actually loaded with plenty of potentially triggering content. But I still love it.

Killing Stalking is another manhwa that I was sooooo surprised to hear was getting a physical release. I'm all caught up (three volumes have been released so far), and I cannot wait to finally own the entire series! ^^

To be fair, I was rooting for YoonBum the entire time. I wanted the absolute best for him. I wanted him to get a happy ending. YoonBum deserved someone who could give him a stable, loving, nurturing home filled with patience, acceptance, and understanding. Someone who could shower him with positive affection, boost his confidence, and give him a sense of self worth in the best ways possible.

Sangwoo, on the other hand... I have mixed feelings about him lol

I really do feel bad for him. But thinking in a realistic sense.... Sangwoo's personality would keep me on eggshells, I don't know how I would be able to comfortably manage a situation like that.

Although, when he comes off with lines like this :

Bad enough you shatter legs, but then you have to go and mess with my heart and mind too?! 💙

Not gonna lie.... I'd rather stay with YoonBum. At least I'd be able to trust him better and rest easier near him haha xD

Anyway! Judging from my picks and these characters, can you see the overwhelming desperation that resides within me to receive any form of genuine intimacy and the crushing desire to feel truly needed due to being deprived of such things for so long? Because it's there! Just look closely and you'll definitely see it! Hahaha! Haha...ha.... T^T

[deq22rawf]

' Why are you like this? '

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featured characters — zhongli, childe.

character x yandere!reader

warnings : yandere behavior, toxic relationship, manipulation, minor character death, cursing. (i do not condone yandere behavior irl)

notes : I AM SO SORRY EVERYONE, I WAS SO CAUGHT UP IN NY STUDIES I FORGIT TO WRITE

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ZHONGLI —

This man is smart, but you managed to outsmart that he was still with you in 6 years

When he figured out that he was being manipulated by you, he was saddened by it.

Do you even love him? Are all the years he's been with you, fake?

He confronted you about it,

and you were not happy

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"Y/N." He set down the teacup, looking directly in your eyes sternly. You suddenly stopped talking, the air felt tense and think as you kept drinking.

"I think it's time." Time? What does he mean time? Time for what? Time to go out? What does he mean?

"Time for?.."

"It's time for us to part ways." He said with a stone cold face, you were in disbelief, he was going to leave you? Everything you've done for him was for nothing? Every single dead body you've killed him was in vain?

No, you are not letting him go. You're not letting him go after all the trouble you had to go through just to protect him from these "monsters".

"You're joking right?" You say happily, his face remained the same. "You're joking, right?.." You asked again, his face remained still.

"I'm not joking Y/N, this— no, our matter is serious. Our contract ends here." He stood up, but you grabbed him by his wrist before he walked away.

"No. You're not leaving. You're not leaving after all I've done just to protect you." Your face was tainted with anger, he wasn't going to leave that easily. No, he was going to stay with you, forever and ever.

"Let me g—"

"NO! YOU'RE GOING TO FUCKING STAY HERE WITH ME! DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?! YOU'RE MINE! MINE, MINE, MINE!" He somehow releases himself from your grasp, backing into a corner. You slowly walked towards him, stroking his face gently as his eyes were filled with fear.

"I promise 'Li, You'll love me so much you'll never try to leave me again." You chuckle as you started to dig your nails into his face, making it bleed a little.

"And that's a promise I will keep forever."

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CHILDE —

Childe was the perfect man, he has the brains, he has the looks and he has the wealth!

He was perfect, and nobody would want him to leave right?

They were an idiot, a brainless motherfucker if they left Childe.

But what if he tried to leave you?

Oh, he wouldn't leave you, silly!

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"Ajax~

You said, playing with a knife on your hands as the house was completely dark, Childe was hiding as he tried not to make any sound.

"Why would you try to leave? I thought you loved me? But oh well, you can't hide forever."

You said, giggling as Childe calmed hinself down as he saw an exit, an open window, but he knew better not to enter that window or else, he'll stay with you forever.

He recounted of what happened minutes ago.

"Y/N.. I— We need to talk, about our relationship."

Childe said, you turned to look at him, putting the bookmark in your book as you set down your reading glasses.

"What exactly is wrong about our relationship, Ajax?"

You said, putting a leg on your other one as you smirked.

"I feel like you're being manipulative and toxic towards me, you keep pointing the blame at me and—"

"Oh? I'm the problem? You're the one who's makimg these false accusations at me, you keep lying to people about me being manipulative." You said. "You're fucking with another person, am I right? You're trying to replace me?"

"What? I've never even—" You cut him off. "No, no, no, you don't have the right to talk, Ajax. You don't have the right to fucking talk back to me. You fucked another person behind my back, and I let you? How stupid of me." You said, standing up to pick up a knife.

"And I'm afraid your little sex toy, is dead."

You said, using your foot to open the lower cupboard as a body fell out, he didn't know who it was but you've got it all wrong.

"Listen, Y/N. I— I never cheated on you." He said, his heart racing as you closed the lights, giggling. "Let's play a game, called.. hide and seek." You said.

"Goodluck!"

You chuckled.

As he recounted, your hot breath hit his neck as you enveloped his torso with your hands.

"Found you."

You chuckled, he tried to push you away but you just ended up chaining him to the basement, laughing maniacally as you did so.

"You'll stay here forever!!"

You said, giggling as you shut the door, leaving him there.

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authors note — this was a draft i didn't finish since 2022 LMAO, also leave me request on which character i should do next (even though i have upcoming fics, 💔

[darkxwolf17]

i remember following you at some point when you were arguing with this one proshipper, and at the time i was well... on your side. but lately, i've started thinking.. what's the point of all this discourse?? like... even then, there's a difference between proshipping and comshipping (proshipping- ship and let ship; block and move on) (comship -"complex" shipping; what proshipping in the md and other fandoms are usually confused with) so.. i feel like i've been adopting the proshipping mentality, though i wouldn't call myself a comshipper :] i know you're probably not going to answer this, but what's your full, honest opinion on the pro/anti ship discourse?

EDIT: Proshippers DO NOT INTERACT with this post i dont want you here get out

Hello, thank you for this ask, my opinion on the whole debate is actually more complex than what might be seen. Despite me being very much anti-proship (which I'll get to what that means later), I actually do not consider myself anti-fiction (though some proshippers may disagree with me and call me a "puriteen" or whatever).

Personally, I am in the opinion that the original meaning of dead dove and all that is something i can get behind. Before anyone calls me a proshipper, (I'm not and never will be), let me specify I said the *original* definition. This definition being "okay, there are some things that can be romanticized in fiction that shouldn't be romanticized ever in the real world." By this, I'm mainly meaning toxic relationships (I joke about toxic yuri, and it's because there are some ships that Are toxic i do genuinely enjoy, ie Voll), as well as some other kinks (that I won't get into because this is a safe for work blog that minors follow) that cannot be performed in real life. Fiction is a place to explore these things, and I am fully in support of using it as an outlet for the bizarre and weird.

My issue with proshipping is that, despite what many may claim, nowadays it really is just a fancy word for enjoying drawn csem. I don't care if it's "just fiction." Remember that thing i said earlier about how there are some things that can be romanticized in fiction? Well, children are not and never will be one of them. It is never okay, in ANY universe, to sexualize a child. I will stand by that firmly.

Other things i do not condone being romanticized in fiction is incest, or literal animals. Incest because it's a real thing that is traumatizing just like child abuse, and animals because, well, I hate zoophiles. "But Marven!" you may say. "You're a furry, doesn't your community have a good chunk who draw furry nsfw?" Well, to that I say there is a huge, huge difference between sexualizing an anthropomorphic walking talking consenting creature that is essentially just a human with fur, and a literal dog on four legs. If you can't see the difference between those two, that's your problem.

"But what about trauma? Shouldn't victims be able to express themselves through art?" Why, yes! of course. However, there is a difference between drawing vent art privately in closed circles and posting erotic material featuring children with the intent to arouse publicly. I am in full support of trauma survivors using any method to cope, but forming communities dedicated to drawing and getting off to images of children is not a way to cope. It's illegal! And normalizing terrible behavior, repeating a cycle of abuse.

So yeah, tldr; There are some things in fiction that can be romanticized that shouldn't be romanticized irl. There is some merit to a "Dead dove" label. However, if you do end up calling yourself a proshipper, just know that you will be grouping yourself with some very, very nasty people.

I hope I could be of some help, best of luck to you anon and I urge you, as someone who nearly fell down the proshipping pipeline, to please understand what kinds of people that community holds.

[fireworkss-exe]

i so agree with your stance on pro-anti stuff. crazy how on this hellsite "stop romanticizing incest + pedophilia" is analogous with being a puritan imho theres a way you can write those kinds of stories, but making it seem cute and sappy is not one of them

my thoughts exactly. it's not a black and white situation, and I'm so tired of people being like "if you don't think I should write about a pedophilic relationship that's presented in a positive light, you're a puritan!" or, on the flip side, "if you enjoy a story about a toxic relationship presented in a realistic light because you like the characters' story and dynamic, you're condoning irl abuse!"

it's not one or the other. you can be against purity culture while still calling out predatory behavior.

[peachy-deaths]

masterlist/rules:

howdy! I've made this blog to post/write my yandere story ideas for {austin} Elvis, y'all are free to request headcanons and one-shots, there's just a few things:

• the reader will be written gender natural with they/them unless requested otherwise.

• i won't write full nsfw {but i will hint towards it} or anything like sh/ed/etc. if a request makes me uncomfortable -obviously- I'm not gonna write it.

• right now I mostly feel like writing yandere Elvis but I'm willing to turn it down and just do like possessive for anyone who wants a little hint of it.

• I'm writing for Austin butler as Elvis and I'm treating it as a fictional character, non of my writing is intended to reflect/portray/disrespect any irl people in anyways nor does it reflect my personal opinions or beliefs. I do not condone any toxic behaviors I write, my writing is purely for fictional entertainment.

anywho that's pretty much it for the 'rules', if there's anything you're uncertain abt don't be afraid to ask! and the more details in the request, the better!!

masterlist:

basic yandere headcanons

you belong to me

lovesick blues

everything about you: soft yandere

[imagine-a-life-like-this]

So I’m reading conversations with friends by Sally Rooney that also deals with an affair and now I can’t stop thinking about sugar and spice!!! I obvs don’t condone this behavior irl but as a work of fiction it’s just so deliciously toxic aljslals anyways, I’m very excited to see how you would write it!!

I definitely don't condone cheating irl! It's such a shitty thing to do. But sugar daddy Minho falling in love with his sugar baby even though he's married has been plaguing my mind for months now and I needed to write it. Honestly wasn't sure if anyone else would be interested in such a toxic story and I'm so happy to hear that people are interested!!!!

I have a few chapters written and I am obsessed with it already 😂

[royalight]

An   Indie   RP   blog   for   a   heavily   hc'd   Princess   Sarah   of   Cornelia.     (SOP    influenced)

RULES   &   EXTRA   INFO   BELOW. 

Basic info. Mun alias, Fauna. She/her pronouns. 21+. Minors DNI. Don't be afraid to say hello. &lt;3.

Activity will vary. There will be days where I'm not around. IRL obligations and all that. Though I now feel it's fine to admit this, my activity increases or decreases by the reception. IF there isn't much interest in a blog (by others) I'll place the muse on the back burner. (even if I REALLY want t write the character) If people enjoy Sarah then she'll be around 'high' activity .. if not. Low. Just depends on how things play out!

2. There may be some text formatting. (spaces, colored text etc) but if you specifically have a hard time with reading replies like that, I'll happily default to basic small text! no biggie. I like to edit things but that doesn't mean I want to make things difficult for my rp partner.

3. No drama. Unless the circumstances are severe, I WON'T tolerate callouts. it's old, it's annoying, it ruins rpcs. I don't care if so and so was a toxic friend. Leave me out of it and don't cast judgements on me for not throwing hissyfits on the dash about someone 'problematic' we all have people we may have had falling outs with .... that doesn't mean we have to turn a whole rpc against them. *note* again ... this is in reference to pettiness .. NOT actual harmful behavior. I'd never condone the actions of someone actually dangerous. please don't get that confused &lt;3.

4. I've decided that if ... I haven't interacted with an individual (within three months) in any way, I'll likely soft block. It's nothing personal, I'm just not into 'admiring from afar' or ... I can tell when someone isn't actually interested. The exception to this is if someone is just very 'low activity'

5. I love spontaneous interactions, random banters! we don't HAVE to plot, but I mean. - I also enjoy that too. just know that any time is IC time for me!

6. I'm always down to plot a dynamic. Platonic / enemies / romance. (though I'm slowburn when it comes to ROMANTIC ships)

7. I have not played the first Final Fantasy, so my Sarah is mostly hc based and set more in SOP. I'm open to other fandoms / crossovers. OCS are welcome too ! anddd I think that's it ...for now. Rules may be updated if necessary.

(Psd credit, Jaynedits)

[netbug009]

“This relationship would be unhealthy in real life!”

[eskumii]

— ABOUT ME ✩⡱

› i go by kumi on this blog. i'm a twenty-one year old uni student (i cry myself to sleep every night :3). i am almost exclusively interested in writing & consuming yandere content.

› i'm half black + filipino (blasian). english is my native language (currently learning svenska: tack så mycket för att du läser!).

› a huge handheld console modding nerd. i love otome games (collarxmalice, varibari, code: realize, hakuoki, etc.), mmorpgs/jrpgs (persona series, final fantasy, blade & soul) + many other games like animal crossing, ace attorney, dark souls & skyrim! if u couldn't tell, i like everything sanrio !! ♩ ⁺ ┄ (☆﹏☆)

— RULES ✩⡱

› this is a yandere blog. i only write yandere au's!

› i advise minors to not interact. some of my content is not suitable for people under eighteen.

› i don't include extensive tw's and, naturally, yandere content can be very triggering (dub/non-con mostly). please be mature and understand that what i write is fiction and i do not condone this toxic & immoral behavior irl.

› i will write adult characters according to their canon age and others will be aged-up should i specify so. if you have a problem with that, kindly block me.

› my dms and asks are always open. feel free to message me any time but please refrain from asking personal questions.

: ̗̀➛ what i will write:

nsfw when i feel like it. fem!reader only. platonic yandere(s). angst, anything taboo/dark. age gaps. love triangles/harem. specific physical/character attributes (chubby!reader, shy!reader etc.). i'm generally open to any topic but please message me if you're unsure.

: ̗̀➛ what i will not write:

male/gn!reader. yuri/yaoi. character x character, oc(s). gross nsfw stuff like scat, vomit, or gore kinks.

— REQUESTS ✩⡱ [status: open]

: ̗̀➛ anime i will write for (for now):

naruto, hunterxhunter, demon slayer, attack on titan, jujutsu kaisen, boku no hero academia, hajime no ippo

› i tend to have commitment issues when it comes to writing, so if you do request from me, please be patient. i am a full-time uni student who does this for fun. please don't harass me if i am unable to fulfill your request when you want.

› character request limit is 2 to 3. i will mostly be doing lengthy headcanons and one-shots.

› i'm tired of boring yandere prompts. give me something crazy or weird, i don't care. as long as it's interesting, i'll write for it.

› have some manners. saying "please" and "thank you," or leaving a nice comment goes a long way.

˗ˏˋ ꒰ that's all, thank yew so much for reading this far. ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗

[imagine-your-love-story]

Thank you for encouraging a safe space on Tumblr. It might seem like basic courtesy to leave people be, leave them their comfort and creative freedom, but apparently it's not. As someone who has very questionable self ship poly dynamics, it's.. nice not being scared of seeing "Don't interact if this- dont interact if that" and then in danger of harrassment.

Please keep spreading these vibes of comfort and love - you're a great person whom we need a lot more of in the world wide web

You're very welcome, lovely! :) :) :)

Hoo boy. I have...soooo many thoughts on like....ALL of this. And this post is gonna get LONG because I've opened the can of worms and I'm lettin' it all out :P

The amount of bullying and negativity I've seen in the selfshipping community lately is very painful and disappointing to watch. Tumblr and fandom has always been somewhat of a cesspool but I had hoped that selfshipping was a little better.

I'm not seeing a positive community on a large scale right now.

There are some people who are shining little stars out there of course! But there's more hate being spread around than I can stomach.

I've spent Y E A R S researching and unlearning and pushing back against the psychological and emotional effects of manipulative behaviors like: blame, guilt, shame, and harassment.

I absolutely 100000% believe you can speak to people civilly and state your reasons why you think their behavior is damaging. Without telling them, "You are wrong. You are a bad person." Or otherwise making them feel shitty about themselves.

And I also believe that you CAN allow that person to say, "I don't agree with what you're saying" and you can still have normal interactions with that person without immediately shunning them and labeling them as a terrible person.

People BLOSSOM when they are showered in love, acceptance, and understanding. People are MUCH more willing to listen and heed what you have to say when you give them SPACE to see your point of view (or disagree with you and still accept them).

This culture on social media where people jump STRAIGHT to, "You're a HORRIBLE person because you do something I disagree with!" is, frankly, horrifying and a little disgusting.

Does this mean I condone negative and damaging behaviors?

No. Absolutely not.

But there seems to be this loss of perspective on what is considered "negative and damaging behaviors".

1. It's fiction. Fiction has NEVER been "clean". It's a place of freedom to discuss EVERYTHING.

2. You don't have to feel comfortable with everything being discussed in fiction. I'm not. If I don't like a self-shipper's content because it hits some trigger buttons for me...I don't follow their blog. Because that's my boundary and I have every right to it.

Do I send them messages saying, "You're a toxic person!"

Nope.

Do I comment on their ship that they love and say, "This makes me uncomfortable!"

Nope.

It's not my business.

Also: it’s fiction and there are MUCH bigger problems that require my energy than whether or not I should correct someone’s fictional ship.

Go save the ocean.

Go save the rainforest.

Go save the planet you live and breath on.

Fiction should not be making you angry enough to send hate mail to someone else. Full stop. That should never ever be a priority.

3. Some people engage in selfshipping "negative behaviors" as a way to cope with their trauma. We have no idea what a person has been through and we have no right to tell them that they should stop what they're doing when we do not know where they are on their journey of healing.

It hurts my heart so, so much when I receive messages from selfshippers like you, dear anon, who are TERRIFIED to share their love stories with their characters because they're afraid of being labeled/attacked/harassed by the community.

That's the community letting you down. That should NOT be happening and I'm so sorry you're feeling that way, lovely.

The ENTIRE point of selfshipping was to ESCAPE the people who criticized for shipping yourself with a character that you love. The foundation of selfshipping is that ANYTHING is possible!!! You are limitless!!!

And now people are policing what you can do??? That's...that completely obliterates the point of selfshipping. That's WHY we escaped to our own community!

I don't know if this video is available outside of the U.S., but I highly recommend, the Crappy Childhood Fairy's Youtube video on Cancel Culture. It's a great listen when you're navigating the emotional turmoil of social media culture.

So, if you're still reading after ALL OF THAT :P here are some key points about this blog and my philosophy when it comes to selfshipping:

This blog will always be a judgment free zone

Of course I have opinions! Of course we may disagree on something! But I won't judge you for it. You're allowed to do your own thang! ;)

I will never have a DNI.

If I feel an interaction is crossing into territory that isn't appropriate or acceptable, I'll say so. And if that doesn't work, I'll block and report. But I will never have a DNI on this blog.

Yes, I am an adult. So if minors don't feel comfortable following my blog, it's okay if they don't! I understand!

But I don't have a problem talking with minors because they are human beings and they may need support. I worked in Youth Services at a library for over two years. I know sometimes kids just want someone to talk about cool books and movies with and I'm 100% down for that 24/7 :)

Because this blog is all-ages friendly, I will never post 18+ content because - just like IRL - I make sure that I am mindful of the people around me. I may post some suggestive content that is tagged, but I try not to get too explicit.

I also don’t really think a DNI is necessary for me personally. Of course if I feel threatened by someone, I won’t interact with that person. But if a shipper is into content that I don’t like???? I don’t feel the need to say, “I will never interact with you!” That’s....exhausting. Besides, there are plenty of other things we can chat about! :)

I will always share f/os.

I know some people don't like to share and that's their boundary they can draw if they want to (no shade here!), but I've found that if I don't share, it's a very lonely experience. So I always share and I’m happy to interact if we have the same f/o :)

DMs are always open if you need a shoulder to lean on

If you need to dump or vent or whatever, my DMs will always be open so you can chat! It can feel weird, and maybe you'll feel bad because you won't know what to say!!!

That's okay :)

Even if all you want to do is vent and never reply, I'm happy to listen and offer any words of encouragement and support you need to hear! :)

[flycway]

anonymous Sorry, didn’t mean to sound accusatory. I guess I’m anxious because you seem like a cool person but I have bad experiences with call out culture and I guess I was trying to be sly and determine if you condoned the harassment of irl people (over fiction only, not for like actual predatory behaviors irl or ooc or the like) or not without revealing that myself. I’ve had nasty people made call outs for me all because I said I do not condone harassment so I’m kinda skittish like that. That’s not meant to be an excuse, though, so sorry again that I spooked you.

oh fr , pls know i don't hold this against you ; we both jumped the gun !! i'm not offended , you're just testing waters , seeing how real i am with shit . valid af , ok ? yeah , i'm not appropriating anything i swear on my mama , i just like the idea of letting a character slowly develop independence &&. strength to break out of such a relationship , yk , personal growth . for instance , viento's dad &&. him are a toxic relationship that barbatos is slowly helping him find his own self worth &&. strength to stand on his own without the support of his parents .

fr tho , we're cool , i'm rly relieved you were straight forward with me ! i'd still love to write with you if you're down for that .

[startledstars]

It's really sad that you've convinced yourself to accept evil because God will better you for it. You can believe in God and believe that he wouldn't want evil to happen to you or anyone else. That's a problem with Christianity though. A lot of religious, cult peoples have a "by all means, even evil, necessary for the greater good" mentality and that's not okay. I'm so sorry you believe your god is abusing you and that you're okay with it. Life or the universe is both good and bad, not god. The trials in life aren't there to benefit you, it's there so when you get through it, you'll grow and learn and prevent it from happening to someone else, not be blessed as an individual. A supreme being of love doesn't dole out pain or evil. Someone who loves you wouldn't hurt you with such abuse that you call it evil. You need to believe this in your life, not in just some spiritual way. Please don't ever justify evil for a cause for good. Please. No one deserves that.

Hi anon,

First of all, thank you for this question. I can honestly see how my previous post can make me sound like a battered, self-deluded housewife trying to justify a miserable situation. Just a few months ago, if someone said what I said today, I would sincerely pity them too.

I actually agree with 90% of your message, and the 10% is a misunderstanding: I’m not being abused by anyone right now, least of all God. I don’t think anyone deserves to be abused. I do not accept evil. I despise it. And while I don’t think God wants people to suffer evil, if you look at the world, you see that He allows just that.

You can’t believe in an all-powerful God who can change or prevent or reverse any situation instantly, and pretend that he doesn’t have absolute power over evil too. God has power over evil, but there are times when He lets evil run its course. The question is, why?

You also said:

“The trials in life aren’t there to benefit you . They’re there so you can help other once you get through them.”

I agree with the second part of the statement, but disagree with the first. The trials in life, even the most horrible suffering, are used by God to benefit you, too. I’ve experienced these benefits firsthand.

(If there is a single thing that God doesn’t use to benefit you personally in the long run, as in eternity, can you say he’s 100% good? Even one exception means He falls short of that 100%. This sounds really extreme, but it’s a great thought exercise.)

And you’re right in saying that God does not ‘will’ evil. That’s why I said that he ‘allowed’ me to be abused by evil people. In other words, he gave me to other people with free will and wicked intentions. He allowed their will, instead of imposing his own, because this is one way God gives freedom to his creations.

I have been abused over and over again, for years on end. These evil people were actually the ones closest to me; my parents, one grandparent, and a parade of so-called ‘friends’ who never really treated me like a human being. The abuse started when I was under 4 years old. Every single one of my abusers have tried to convince me that their abuse was actually an expression of love, and I believed them, even while they relentlessly tried to snuff out my will to live.

(Anyone who’s been abused and is coming out of it will understand how the abuser does this and what effect it has on you. It is a horrible thing.)

While the abuse was taking place, I didn’t know it was evil, and I did not know they were evil. This world teaches us to not believe that evil exists, or that evil is somehow exclusive to genocidal dictators. The world teaches us that abusers aren’t evil; they’re victims of their own twisted psychology, and can be ‘fixed’ with the correct treatment.

This may be true, but the reason evil people become evil is because even if they are aware of their shortcomings, they’d rather project their dysfunction than take any responsibility for fixing themselves. Evil people actively refuse to change for the better, and are only interested in dragging other people down. They are incapable of love, though they can imitate it well enough.

So, how can God give a child into the hands of people like this, and still be considered ‘good?’

I can only speak to my experience, but due to the length and extent of my entanglement with evil people, I can:

Say with confidence that evil exists, and if there’s such great evil in this world, there must be a greater good.

Recognize potentially problematic individuals and avoid them

Recognize the potential for evil within myself, and work to prevent myself from becoming abusive. (Even as a ‘victim’ I had developed abusive tendencies. I am not innocent. This is Another Fucking Pill.)

Cut off toxic relationships without a single glance backwards; I have not been abused by anyone for months now, on any level, and if someone tries to cross a line, I assert myself firmly and confidently. Most victims of abuse either become abusers, or fall prey to other abusers. I avoided both these traps.

Strengthen my faith and relationship. When there’s an abusive/controlling person trying to ‘get me’ (anyone with a job will understand) I pray to God to remove this person from my life. He does, every. Single. Time. Because He also doesn’t want me to fall prey to anyone ever again; He’s already let me see what happens if I trust the wrong people.

Recognize ‘good’ people too and build relationships with them. Because many people are good, have the right intentions, and don’t need you to make excuses for their shitty behavior because they behave just fine on their own.

Appreciate the healing power of God. If God allows you to suffer, he will use that suffering to make you wiser and more powerful, then carry you out of the fire and make you brand new; better for the pain, but also like the pain never touched you in the first place. If you met me irl, you would never guess that I’d ever struggled as much as I did. This goes for appearance too; stress should age people rapidly, but I actually look much younger than I should, untouched by the burden of all these years. He did that.

Ok this answer has gotten so long and there’s so much more to say even though I mostly agree with you anyways lol. Also thanks for the comment on ‘cult mentality,’ because once again, you’re right, and that deserves it’s own post. I believe that all cults are Satanic, and Satan tries to imitate God. To imitate God, you need to really, really understand how God works. So Satan knows that only God uses evil for good, which is why cults employ this mentality; it’s another way the devil mocks the creator. It’s another lie, but to lie, you have to know the truth first. Hope that makes sense; cults can’t use evil the same way God can.

Tl:dr evil is never justified, but if God allows evil, it is because that evil is a ‘channel’ for greater good, like the labor pains to bring a child into the world. I do not condone evil, and people should never knowingly hurt others or let themselves be hurt. But if it happened, God allowed it. And if God allowed it, it’s for a good reason.

Thanks again for the message and for sharing your perspective. I hope this gives some food for thought, because that’s what you’ve done for me. Merry (late) Christmas and hope you have a great 2021 :)

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I don't mind jealous Shane but I think some people take the hc way too far. That was a scripted, staged scenario. It doesn't mean it doesn't reflect anything he does irl but I'm anxious about people taking that as "Oh well because he's jealous that must also mean he's an obsessive creep" because that's what people in fandoms do. The problem with fandoms isn't the shipping, the fanfics, fanart, it's the way they warp people's personalities and force you to act like that's the reality of things.

Yeah, that’s a real fear. I do get concerned about that, about people thinking that Shane is some obsessive creep. I also get worried because Shane tends to be seen as the “weirdo” one of the pair. There are so many fics out there that even do the combo jealous serial killer Shane. Which, to be honest, no one who writes those fics know anything about 1. serial killers, 2 mental illness, 3. investigation/the law. Also, an abundance of these fics can and will change how people view Shane and Ryan irl. They might have just read a serial killer Shane fic, then watch a new episode of bfu, and “dig up evidence” that Shane is “possessive” or “jealous” or “exhibiting behaviors like in the fic!!!!” I only really start to get nervous when people have like a breakdown of the episode and point out every little thing that they do, and somehow relate all these things back to their “crazy theory!!!” that Shane is a jealous boyfriend, or that Shane is a serial killer. 

Maybe you couldn’t tell, but I hate the serial killer au, and how people treat Shane’s personality.

Like when I say jealous Shane, I mean jealous like- everyday jealous/frustrated. On a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being obsessed psycho, I’d like my jealous Shane to be about a 2 or 3. That is the realm of normal jealous feelings/behaviors. 

I think it’s important to display these normal emotions and behaviors in fanfiction- especially because many of the people who read fanfictions don’t read books, so they are like craving representation and validation, and if every fic has sunshine angels that do nothing wrong in it and demonize real people feelings like jealousy, anger, bitterness- then they’re going to start to think that those things are toxic/that they’re somehow wrong for having emotions...

but at the same time, condoning hyper-obsessive/jealous behavior is a no-no, IF someone has that in a fic, it shouldn’t be a positive thing/fetishized/etc. it should be worked through...

wow this answer is a mess. it’s 2:30am and i have a lot of feelings. i hope this makes sense?