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T17-02

Here we go. -- Those words were ca. written before 8.56 W, during last evening, as we started the Save As/creation process for this file, now J17-02.doc, the current monthly chapter-file of my ongoing Journal. The date, and current time, are:

2017./2/1 A 8.59 W, and we turn soon to the persisting housekeeping chores of copying the sealed J-orig version of last month’s file to become the current working version of it in the Journal folder. Seemingly done at 9.14 W.

At 8.35 W, I have the thought that I need more local T-readers, and not so many like Loky and Bivvy, and maybe Zippa, they whom I can’t readily interview. I would like to ask Loky if he has gotten started reading, and if not, is it purely his ca. own, local problems, and not problems of getting into Tumblr, etc.

I would like to ask the local people if they have read the introduction and taken a goodly sample of about one of the monthly files – then I think they would be in a position to say about various issues, like does the whole thing put them off, does it seem crazy, does it seem ill-advised, does it seem hopelessly self-fixated, inwardly directed. Or maybe it seems fascinatingly multi-layered, SO many things going on at once, dizzying, and, in ways, hard to read – hard to read at a thorough, scholarly level. 8.42 After 9.02, is it perhaps fun and amusing to read at a light, skipping & dipping level?

Fairly soon after 9.49 we need to shift to give primary emphasis to starting and keeping going the Les Mis disk-ripping process, to have the box of disks ready to go back to BPL Friday.

On we go at 10.22, with enuf of the snow swept away, leaving me a bit tired, and a bit more draggy and uninterested than I was before – inflated mood, energy, etc., are nowhere to be seen. Is this what we would call M0, feeling just fine but not ca. significantly fine? No, it’s more like a D0.2 level.

At 10.40, try to rally our collective strength, set a goal, and figure out what L Mis disks we have already ripped, and where we need to pick up the game, to resume. Disk 43 needed at 10.42 – can we stay upright long enuf to find it? Whew, we made it at 10.47. And that disk is spinning, but it was a tad close. #43 was even out of the sleeve/sock thing – what a concept.

PJ Pocket 3x5 of 1/4, initial draining at 11.07, finally ready for such

V #1. W 5.24 – CA - & FUTURE WORD CHOICE -- That is, before xygy 11.09, I think I meant that I should maybe amend the Abrv entry for ca., to say that the word choice that it precedes might not be at all the word choice that I might settle on in the future, with more reflection – and time.

Well, at 12.26, the Pipe Fairy has certainly got her work cut out for her today, to get me to a Fully Restored State. Lunch helped, and some more from a scant 15’ lie-down, punctuated with ever so many flashes of dream-like fresh, unfamiliar, dream-like scenes – just ping/bang, and gone.

Before cleaning up at 8.47, we, at / 3 58 \ said / CONGRATS \ to that Pipe Fairy, SHE DID IT – see below. And at / 4 25 \ we saw a / CHAIR WASTE \ of time in helping a tiny bit and listening a lot to the problems.

All the available L Mis disks are ripped at 4.28 – how to check that all are done that I can do?

The relevant text at 4.31 of Zippa’s card is: We are coasting along. Zippo stopped taking courses at Yale. Whatever you write, we will be delighted to praise and read. Bob Laudauer blah, blah. Be in touch. Our best wished to you and your family. Very warmly, Zippo & Zippa.

At 4.46, I wish my feet would warm up better from the outing – then I would feel quite completely restored indeed. It was ingratiating after all to get around a full-loop walk, and better still to sit and smoke in my good corner, low on tobac with portion-run a-coming.

Well, before 7.26, still feeling quite good going toward my nap bed, I lay down, with a 15’ Timer session and hopes for a shorter nap and longer work time. But I finally got up with 36; 55.19 on the SW; so much for such dreams. We shall ca. improve. The dishes call, or their mistress, at 7.29.

I am back and resting at 8.40 mainly with my good friend, not Jack, but sol, after a dish session made particularly long and onerous by the delicious pot roast cuisine, thru which I sailed with rapid, precise movements, which went on and on and on, in great number. Let us see what routine cleaning still needs to be done above.

It seems ship-shape at 8.59 – a week ago, in the throes of EOM work, what would I have fancied doing now, more than alias-editing? Oh yes, J-Book-Lunch round-up. Heat the coffee, and get started. W

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. R

2017/2/2 A 9.16 R – well, that round-up did not go particularly well. After a fairly good start, it bogged down on the complexity of trying to ca. match scripts, and we quite ca. 9.35. Then the possibly-anticipated TV-bailout for TV tape, this didn’t happen either, the Ch. 2 Aurora show being pretty good after all.

Now at 9.25 we need to drain a ca. newly-arrived Slip, portion the tobacco and with that resolve a crises of ca. raggedy toilet paper supply, and load WM recharged batteries; then we can start that round-up again, right?

Slip, all-blank of 2017-OH, for 1/31 T, drain at 9.51

V a. 9.40 – cal log 2/9 -- On ca. wall calendar, the lunch. BELLS X

V b. 11.38 – poop #2

X c. W 2.23 – pee #1, prep 11; 2/1. 3E jet lag? Long awake, it seems. But no audio – yet. Scant snow. Do pills.

V d. 5.07 – pee #2; doing whipping – now do drops. Cut KK back down to 15’ – MPE is too full.

V e. 7.01 – up, & pee #3! VG! Real close.

f. 7.19 – RKO – second guess) -- At 9.56, add brow beat) XXXX

V g. 7.29 – poop

V h. R 1.22– pee #1; I dreamed of doing the whipping – pills, & do it now?

V i. 4.33 – pee #2; drops; no audio

V j. 6.08 – pee? #3, c later, 2 up. Start audio.

At 9.58, with the draining ca. crudely done, next priority is tobac, right? That done at 10.56 with bed made and ca. working pocket paper solution; Capote NF, and WM to come also. Landing? No, at 11.06 in nearly top form, we will attempt to break thru that fog barrier to J-Book productive methods.

Okay, at 11.22, I give up – what’s next? I need a better - or at least clearer - concept. Landing, yes – T God for easy work. Mostly done at 11.31 – scan a ca. shrink book for BPL return. After 11.41, I should capture the ID data for these pretty-good two books, especially if we assume I will return them before running thru the Marc D drill. 7.20 – Back to Normal, by Enrico Gnaulati, and Making Us Crazy by Herb Kutchins et al.

At 12.16 we feel somewhat refreshed, maybe restored, from a 13’ natural-enuf nap, featuring some scenes, not so many as recently, seemingly strung together by some sort of a social scheme or school or something.

At 7.23, I feel little motivated to write about the day, maybe after dishes.

Only a little better at 8.32; earlier we succeeded in clearing all the IXp screens and starting it over, but finding / Google still stuck \ defaulting to show a Glen Beck query; somehow gone later. / Take another Favorite? \ Maybe such still to be done. In the Pepys Wiki reading, before / 7 28 \ it was written that he wrote a / Million words \ in the / Pepys \ diaries – I will beat that, in ca. 1,000 pages? Only if I have 1,000 words per page, right? 8.37

Where’s that easy work, at 8.29? Why so tired? Too little nap? I don’t think so. Too little mood? Well, do something for the day. It saw a loop walk, fine enuf, and a good but cold smoke in that corner again, returning to put on the full smoking-suit, and drape the scarves too. Cleanup was not completed, contributing some easy work, at least.

With UP cleanup done, and nothing like the strength to resume e/m collecting, can I get up the energy to vacuum the floor? Try TV tape – it will put me to sleep? Try reading some Capote. R

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. U

2017./1/2/5 A 11.33 U – note here a very significant gap of two days, two days spent in hell, or closer thereto than I can remember in a long time. I thought some of Jim Donohue’s flu lament about no longer being frightened, that he might live.

At 11.36, let us begin, here at the dining room table, fortified with hot coffee, to try after an interruption till 11.45, being lunch time, to try to carefully ca. unwind the draining, and more carefully still, the landing. From these we hope to reconstruct a careful picture of the the onset of this affliction, and its. possible. cure. - maybe it IS sciatic nerve pressure. Quit at 1148, moderately exhausted, typing terribly – and leaving it all for 3rd shift to clean up. Done at 8.42 W – with great team work.

Now, at 4.24 with some talent borrowed from the lovely and talented third shift, maybe we can creep either into cleaning up the mess above, or preferably starting that Draining.

Slip of 1/21-22 for 2/2 R, at 4.30, draining wins; Landing starts 2.50 T.

a. 7.18 – poop, hard, 1 from brek. Table, & bed – no lower BELLS X xxx MPE ~folder? -- Such can’t be made, if MPE is found after 2.51 T 2/7?

b. 7.40 – from bed – Check Fox25! Also, check 62.4 on TV-T – Star Gate-- -- break for TV T check and 60M stuff xxxx

X c. 8.28 – Capote book is in Bath Room? Read for BPL trip -- back at 4.47

V d. 8.36 – poop #2

V e. P 11.44 – prep

V f. F l.07 – pee #1; cold, covered -- I think this meant that before 3.21 T, that I had felt cold, sitting on the pot draining the lizard, and covered my shoulders, and perhaps head, with my bath towel; rarely done, and maybe the first sign of malaise.

V g. 3.31 – pee #2, rushed

X h. 6.22 – pee #3; do drops, pills later, SOME whipping Note fwd & khuol?

V i. 6.38 – left only done; sounds like DPR. -- To stop with only one eye dripped is rare indeed, and maybe pathological. 3.24 T

V j. 7.03 – up – pee? Beat to the sox – strange -- First REAL sign of pathology, and very definite. There was no soreness in hip, or shoulder? 3.26

V k. 7.32 – poop – dead tired -- Screamingly bad that such fatigue continued into the early day – a real sign of trouble. I continued dead tired, but I think not sore, all day, moving the target of morning bike ride to PM, and then being driven to barber, in preparation for hockey party. With barber, I was indeed jolly enuf, if listless, and we went on to the hockey dinner. There I was zombie-sque, sitting alone at table with all others standing and talking up a storm, and my eyes dropping shut, in spite of my beer. I ate but little, and gave Don’s treasured Sharon mere mumbling, and presently we came home, on a timely basis. 3.38 T

V l. S 12.34 – pee? (#1) can’t get comfy – move to love seat -- Pain was not yet specific to hip and shoulder? I can’t at 3.39 T remember any earlier pain, sciatic or otherwise. My early summary was, not borne out here, that I had somehow fallen into a pathologically deep sleep, on my right side, mediated perhaps by the excess or insufficiency of some neurotransmitter, and lain still so long as to cause sciatic nerve damage. If the shift were at 4 AM to the floor 1 love seat, such a scheme would compute. 3.45 T

One slip drained, and I’m exhausted – shift to some easier work. Or love seat? 6.59 – that won, easy.

6.56 – get ^RL start date Work up cleaning, in fatigue, waiting for soup and super bowl scoring. U

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. M

2017/2/6 P 4.31 M – now well into the afternoon, but with some cleanup/catchup things done like a load of wash, and mobility improving, particularly over last night, maybe we can manage to stagger thru this still-hellish fog of pain and discomfort, and get back to this huge-seeming drain/etc. process. But first let us finish the Eclipse file-loading process started earlier, with the poor mpe still among the missing, maybe I am indeed going to research and order a Clip Zip Sport, even if it is used and factory reconditioned. There are so many goodies I would like to have back. 4.36

Well, the effort to click the Computer icon, and get the Eclipse load control, this at 4.52 has caused very strange unresponsiveness, but since looping is not involved, we will let it sit and think about it, while we get back to THIS. 5/.15 – maybe a Restart IS needed.

Slip of 1/14-15 for 2/4 S, drain at 4.57, typing painfully

V a. S 2.27 – pee finally – not quick enuf. Lo-U – signif – shuttle back upstairs. -- I was, before resuming landing at 3.55 T, somewhat comfortable in the un-flat love seat/recliner; the Lo-U was maybe significant of distorted mood disruption of biological function, but it seems a stretch now. Upstairs I was not comfortable.

V b. 3.42 – pee? No? V Shift AM. -- Draining resumed, before 8.12. Landing continued at 3.59 T; the Shift AM thing may have meant that later in this early morning I resolved to shift back down.

V c. 5.05 – pee? V Stay down? -- Yes, supporting above, at 4.01 T.

V d. 7.54 – pee, #3? Getting some rest – return to bed/seat. -- Meaning, I guess at 4.02 T, try to get more rest STILL after 7.54 and well after usual rising and active time.

V e. 8.54 – poop? X back to bevtxx – -- This may have been: return to try to get more rest still, before 4.05 T.

X f. <10.01 – poop, Alli crerxx

X g. ~~~~~~~ - see 3x5 -- NF at 8.10 M. Still NF 8.04 T – I think it was nothing but a pee entry, that will turn up.

Well, at 7.52 we guess that Restart is the appropriate course.

And, at 8.04, it is done, pretty smoothly and rapidly.

8.15 – with only half this slip drained, take a major break – set up to take CTC, I guess, and try that Eclipse load again.

Did it work before 8.32, did I it fail? Maybe time will tell. Too tired to drain, maybe to ca. repair.

Ugh, at 9.32 that repairing, of lousy typing, seems to be all done, and I am not at all up the harder work of Landing. Have I earlier noted the absence of the Friedman folk song book? I want it now, re the Nama M sideo song, re fish in the sea, etc. M

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. T

2017/2/7 A 10.07 T – Niceties with one hand is currently my top speed - right hand is still very awkward esp re reaching for backspace key.

The clouds of hellish pain continue, or some part thereof, at 10.02. Alas, I must inform Kurt and Ron of my infirmity and NG re mtgs.

Done at 11.19, and more, some, but with difficulty. We can struggle up to the TV Titan?

Done, enuf, 1 day, before 2.38; being of passably sound body but of kind of dopey mind, maybe just from too much chair-time, we seem competent to struggle up to start the Landing, and evaluation.

Well, all of that, before 8.06, went way better than I would have hoped – as I said in the midst of it, my hip must surely be getting better, and my overall state of health – but my shoulder seems to be getting worse. In several stages, I got thru all the Landing above, and well too – I thought as I sent it to Arthur, and to Don, but didn’t say just that.

Slip of 1/14-15 for 2/4 S, resume draining at 9.15 T

V h. <3.42 – all pills, drops done – sans swish -- This would be 3.42 PM.

V i. 4.41 – BDC up, & UP -- Meaning, before 8.35 W, that this computer was moved up from the cellar, and gotten running – on this dining room table.

Cease draining at 9.21 – just too painful. Resume draining P 3.15 F – ca. in place.

V j. ~ 8.50 – F2 – pee – preo? Dried urine is hard, & very granular? -- Not seen again, before 3.19 F.

V k. 11.59 – prep, down

V l. U 3.01 – pee #1

Slip of 2/1 for 2/5 U, drain at 3.22 F

V a. 5.30 – pee #3? -- Plausibly #2 – 3.24 F.

b. 6.56 – I came up to -- try again later, after 4.03 F. xxxxx

V c. 7.24 – moved to DR table, wholesale, after poop, pre coffee, lots of gas, long term. -- This gas was so persistent before 4.07 F as to seem pathological, and significantly so.

V d. 11.13 – we can drain, etc?

V e. 11.31 – poop #2, F_2_

V f. 4.22 – party off, some recovery? Pipe a help? -- There is no indication, seen from 4.12 F, that the short-ish pipe experience did a thing to help, let alone restore me.

V g. 10.16 – prep

X h. 10.57 – shift down (W) xx moyingxx some.

7X – I should be doing Landings up here 11.34 2/26 U.

Slip of 1/31 for 2/6 M, drain at 5.05, struggling onward

V a. 12.57 – pee #1, rushed; walking much better? Dreaming of smoking in living room

b. 1.16 – 2 from bed – check T-mails, -- That is, 2.35 U, can xxxx T-readers reach me via e/m to [email protected]?

c. search for clip zip sport, & ask re ^linear skip speed - & PC xxxx

V d. 2.51 – pee #3? Rushed again; try F2?

X e. 3.47 - it didn’t work, pee :

V f. 5.44 – pee #4? Pretty comfortable on F1 -- This, before 8.21 F, was in the recliner?

V g. 7.01 – up, pee? Quite asleep; fetch WM, etc., from F0.

V h. 10.21 – poop #2? X

V i. 12.01 – poop? V hard

After 8.33, we can squeeze out another Slip?

Slip of 2/2 for 2/6 M; Drain at 9.24., maybe

V a. P 2.39 – Roll over; catch up? BELLS X

9.31 F – maybe NOT.

Let us endeavor, at 1.53 2/11 S, to continue draining, here in place.

V b. T 12.34 – pee #1 – prep 11? F2 F2 TV was disasterousxx, pain is widexx.

V c. 1.26 – pee #2 – W small, M suggested? >0, & dry-mouth is suggestive of dehydration.

V d. 2.58 – pee #3 – M up, W down, dry-mouth continuing.

V e. 4.11 – pee #4 – hold the H2O, mouth not dry.

V f. 5.46 - #5, surely a record. Mania is indeed suggested, from improved health.

V g. 6.58 – poop? X up just a bit early.

V h. 7.23 – poop

V i. 10.18 – poop #2

after a good rest at 3.00, and deserved, try to drain what is maybe the last slip to belong in this Place.

Slip of 1/30 for 2/8 W #1; drain at 3.16 S 2/11

V a. 12.19 – pee #1, F1, rushed BELLS X

V b. 1.21 – pee #2 – rushed, some; W badly small – signif of M? Or 0 pills?

V c. 2.46 - pee #3 -- Struggling onward at 3.55 S

d. 4.04 – pee #4; walking ever so well, starting to get horny! G: XXXX Gen. Rodetsky parade music

e. G: sciatic recovery XXXX

V f. 5.46. – pee #5? 2 from bed/chair – flag pole, ____ earlier dream vivid & elaborate re flag pole function up hill & car on top; #2 was re ~spider web against a surface.

V g. 7.31 – pee; c later, shower needed. T

Dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. W

2117/2/8 P 5.03 W – THANK God for work as easy to do as these Niceties.

At P 8.28, maybe we can struggle thru this stuff. At / 2 10 \ we were off the call to Arthur, very warm and supportive, some constructive, and VG, he posed the question, had I ever had a zombie-sque, seemingly depressive session before, like that at the Stockyards \ I thought tentatively no at the time, and more solidly so now. / Ever before \ No. We are, at 8.33, much too tired to Drain, right? Picking about above, maybe. Hopefully there’s some good scratching.

Well, before 8.45, there was moderate of such, and it all seems clean now; time to quite for TV? Bad news – another hour. Some Recliner Time might set me up for draining? W

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. R

2017./2/9 P 4.28 R – Struggling back for any sort of relief.

If I looked hard, I could find some aspect of ill health that is a little better today, at 4.05 PM? Or am I worse, sliding down off of a little bit of an Arthur-induced mood bump? None of it so you would notice. The night’s Slip stuff is interesting – and complex? Let us drain it here; and herewith, returning soon to drain the next-oldest slip above, in chronological place – thus maybe being nice to the text-historians of that possible future.

Slip of 2/7 for 2/8 W #2, drain at 4.15

V a. P 10.12 2 pills, & Aleve, down BELLS X

V b. R? V 1.39 pee #1, bit late

V c. 1.37? Pee #2

Hip is almost all better? Earlier – don’t lower the leg rest.

V d. 2.21 – pee;

X e. 2.48 – pee. The 1.37 was correct; 1.37 was 12.37? 2.48 was a bit late

V f. 3.39 - pee? Sit, for a change – pills finally pulling in? Mania passing? No? Blow nose again.

At 5.02 of 2/14 T. , I guess it as is appropriate to continue draining here.

Slip of 2/6 for 2/9? V, drain at 7.41

V a. 5.01 – pee. X above, BELLS X

V b. 7.01 – pee

c. 7.09 – copy out Bernhard’s tribute, & E’s XXXX

V d. 3.3 7.32 – poop

X e. P 2.39 – poop #2, normalcy returns -- Balk at 7.53

V f. F 1.31 – pee #1 – pills 10; rushed, seat pinched again? Quite carlxx

V g. shifted sofa à seat -- Trying again 5.19 2/17 F.

h. 2.42 – pee? V #2, get out Drypads. XXXX

X i. ISDN – Update thing is all exhausted?

V j. the old 3.30 drill is returning? Not really; rather strange thing this is

V k. 9.42 – poop – terrible time – fallen pxx – 2.

Slip of 1/23 for 2/10 F, try at 8.22 F to struggle further ahead, 1 hand

Va. 10.27 – earlier – worst morning ever? BELLS X

V b. P 11.06 – prep; try no pills -- Back 4.12 3/16 S.

V c. 11.58 – pee #1. X quick start, still a hit rushed; W small; pills needed? Standing -- Struggling on at 5.24 S

V d. MPE is down in recliner? -- Struggling forward at 3.25 2/19 U.

V e. S 1.04 – pee #2, quick enuf now to get a seat, the preferred posture.

V f. 3.04 – pee #3 rushed but OK Coming out of a dream of a great copper-headed girl.

g. 4.06 – pee? V EM à JR re SM jokes both leg & arm are worse XXXX

V h. 6.09 – pee; poop? Rushed; hit RKO

V i. 6.21 – NG! Sat! Mood is up? Not legs?

Slip of 1/28-29 for 2/11 S, drain at 8.22 2/20

V a. 6.43 – 2/2 V RL – near done OUT BELLS X

V b. 7.21 – 2/13 early out – ½ hr, or 2 ½? -- Continuing 3.56 2/12, not well

V c. <7.46 – poop - hard, pre coffee

V d. 11.42 – poop? #2

V e. <3.17 – pee – not nearly quick enuf

V f. 8.54 – 2 pills taken

V g. 10.30 – prep

V h. U 1.29 – pee #1, awfully rushed, but OK, & dry. Swaying? 2-Pt. walk - NG? W = 3 hr’s, fine.

X i. 2.49 – pee #2, dropped W is OK? It seemed I went back to sleep, Shapgxx, a bit? Earlier sleep on left side was great. D: call all Swithsxx

V j. 4.31 – pee #3, bit rushed, OK, finally sit – hardly sleeping – try some Rush, Know that what (NG) CTC is on.

V k. 4.28 – mood is continuing fine – call it up?

V l. 5.29 – 2/4 KG – out V

Slip of 1/27 for 2/12 U, next? At 11.33 2/22 W.

V a. 6.46 – false poop – bad trip. BELLS X

V b. 7.06 – poop? (W) Coffee

V c.7.43 – 10/19 later out V

X d. 8.11 – poop haze

V e. P 11.14 – prep, & 2 pills 10 P, etc. -- Struggling at 10.11 2/23.

V f. M 12.48 – pee #1, some rushed to sit noxx

V g. Sleeping swell on side – some dreams of bastion world shakyxx – sent and from stretch to crutchxx.

V h. 3.31 – pee - #2 – bottle, #1. Messy (W) drips. More shakiness. Nose couldn’t blow clear – snuflyxx clean nose?

V i. 4.18 10/20 16.28 HC out

Slip of 2/3 for 2/13 M #1, struggle to drain at 11.36 2/23

V a. 4.23 – xx 0207 11 24 - - rpfxx at 9-38 10.39 debetxx out BELLS X

V b. 5.36 – up, pee? V Drink slow Sway

V c. 6.45 – 2/3 12.00 cut

V d. 6.51 – pee; fatted, outxx

V e. 7.37 – poop? X

V f. 8.01 – poop -- struggling on 7.46 2/23

V g. 9.34 – pee, another, after ½ hr. heavy sleep

V h. 11.03 – 2 from sofa – Paul Ehrlich, shit in a boot G:

V i. 11.52 – Dr. Lisa Golding for 2.45

Slip of 2/10 for 2/13 M #2, drain at 7.57 2/23

V a. M P 11.14 pills, prep

V b. T 1.24 – back OK roll higidsxx over

V c. 2.23 – pee #2. Bottle NSH, roll over V -- Scratching forward 11.09 2/24.

V d. 4.24 – pee #3, more NSH

V e. 6.12 – pee #3. OK, doing better.

V f. 7.01 – up – quite asleep, dreaming of a soccer kick, pee

V g. 7.42 – poop – pre-coffee – almost normal.

V h. 10.42 – shower – 2 koksxx, Least DMA class …xx

V i. 11.43 – poop? #2 Reminiscent of better times.

V j. 2.31 Trxx/6 RL out – another chore done

V k. 11.14 – F1, bring hat, wrong PJ top, pills 10, prep 10.30

Slip of 2/11-12 W, for 2/15, next, I hope at 1.33 2/24

V a. 1.21– pee #1, bit rushed to F1 sink, OK, open later F2 sitxx BELLS X

V b. 2.47 – pee #2, bottle #1, OK; leg NG

V c. 3.47 – pee #3 V Try V a little luchxx.

V d. 5.37 – pee; fetched WM & headset.

V e. 6.44 – just sunrise peeping, post pee, some troubling

V f. 7.34 – exhausted post poop & brek.

V g. 8.17 – old cry, mama come … => depr. -- That is, before 5.02 2/24, this very early memory, of 2 or 3 years old, of calling repeatedly for my mother to come wipe my butt, and her so slowly responding, now suggests depression, maybe dysthymia. This would have been in TX.

V h. 4.48 – 10/28 X 2/3 2/3 2/6 10/9 1/20

V i. R 12.41 pee #2, bottle, OK!

V j. 1.26 – pee #2; finally the right P3xx top, & 3x5 loaded

V k. 2.44 – pee #3, ~overusxx terribly

V l. 4.32 – pee #4

V m. 6.39 – pee? V sitting up lay tenexx -- Struggling back 11.10 2/26

V n. 7.16 – terribly lame

Slip of 2/9 for 2/16 R, drain at 11.14 2/26 U.

V a. 7.37 – right arm terrible BELLS X

V b. 9.32 – wake, & pee, post ~(1/2 hr. sleep, under towel, (W) dream of 8 yr. sex, + 2 days, dashing the more, & say better fantasy. -- I hope, before 11.23 U, Pepys had better success with his fair copies.

V c. 10.29 – awake, & pee, from XCL sleep – surprisingly -- Struggling ahead at 10.06 2/27, with Landings surprisingly done.

Here at 4.27 of 2/27 M we give up the effort to get all the Slips caught up and unloaded, here or below, before the EOM closing. We have nine plus Slips that want draining, seeming to get harder and harder to read. May we drain some of the most recent stuff below close to the point of currency? Probably not, 4.31 M.

8 31 -- from F. / Crump \ / 10 43 \ Done Undone -- Meaning that, before 4.33 of 2/27 M, on an earlier Friday evening, we got something done, a draining maybe, and we were undone, with fatigue.

At 8.04, I should be well-rested, and ready to work, having been out cold on sofa for 1 ¼ hr’s. Continue draining above, I guess.

8 35 \ Before 2.16 F, / EXCREBLE \ was a reference to how I felt, and functioned, not to how I was typing? Below, we DID get the slip pick done, and a little more - and trundled off to bed.

Before 9.21, that was typing, right? I can pick a next slip for draining? F

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2017/2/10 P 2.14 F – after what was noted at the worst morning ever, we a getting a pretty good afternoon?

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2017/2/11 A 8.12 S – We can’t even do a day breaker now? No, it ain’t right; try again soon.

At 11.13 we will attempt to redress a horrible wound – the loss of a considerable amount of very slowly and painfully prose gained just above, lost in a bobbled Doc 1 file handling.

The major thing that said prose had to say, before 11.21, was that that worst morning centered around falling trying all kinds of ways to get out of the recliner, and winding up like that now-famous guy in the TV ad calling saying help, I’ve fallen walking in the park and can’t up. The winning move of many excruciatingly tried was Liz giving me about 20 pounds of ca. hand-grip.

With the cube tap finally brought from the cellar and installed at 11.37 giving better desk light use, good for draining, let us try to find a candidate slip to work above.

With seemingly only two slips left to drain at 4.30, return to Cokie’s spinning chair for more Rush therapy.

That therapy chair indeed works good, and did before 8.52, but not as good as me whacked out for ca. 1 ½ hr’s on the sofa after supper. Cokie will come over tomorrow to work the snow thrower. Mpeb for ca clearing is back by the sofa? Fetched before 9.09. Cleaned some at 9.21. CLEAN ABOVE. Working awkwardly with one hand, we seem to have finished that EASY stuff must soon start the harder Landing. 9.44 S

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2017/2/12 P 4.55 U – Maybe a recovery day, so me, for both of us – we slept and slept. I found a working position with my left side on the sofa with my back firmly cossetted, and knees just simply drawn up, resting on the table. Energy will continue into the evening? Just a bit of cleaning to do here at 4.49, with crackers delayed.

Bottles --- This before 4.05 T was the idea to bring up big and little bottles for drink or drain, an idea proving in somewhat slowly. U

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At 2/14 3.49 PM T, having again cleaned up thhe of chores, I asked myself, what‘s good to do, or some such thing – oh yes, the Journal. A superficial glance got the reaction Good Lord, what happened to Monday? Soon I got the answer, driven by Cokie for to Dr. Lisa Golding for Wellisch, pretty time consuming, but yielding icing advice, continued Aleve, and visit later to Dr. Leo Troy, Pro Sports, for maybe shoulder shot of cortisone, or more modern equivalent.

Today has gone on before 3.54 as a day seen thru a view of pain, and trouble. But being able slowly to catch up with chores.

Jolly tired at 7.57. T

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2017./2/15 A 11 23 W – can we ease over into Rush cleaning, before 4.39? No way; far too tired. Not a chance.

8 .03 – CHANCE.

8 11 – done and refilled – hard. W

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2017/2/16 P 4.18 R - Hard

Gluster -- is a town, before 8.02 2/21 T, creeping about, that I decided is al log like Glouster, buy / Muddier \

4 52

Restart could be svc fix qq -- Still good 8.04 T.

GOOD AT 5 09 R

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2017/2/ A F 9.02 – we might actually get something done today? Maybe. 10.6 – maybe not. Veil of pain

3 17

Next Sunday

minlib

3 47

Lydia Uday

4 08

Just can’t do zip

5 12

Try

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2017./2/18 A 11.17 U – more trouble

4.08 – walking better? S

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2017/2/19 P 3.00 U – no church, one only to Lydia’s talk, with recorder, a but at least we are indeed walking better, and best o of all, I can sleep like a log on the big bed, with my arm at least in temporary honeymoon. We can creep further ahead above? S

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2017/2/20 P 4.35 M – can we even creep in to another day’s record?

Or, at 8.13, advance an inch? M

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2017/2/21 A 2.50 T – record early start? Above, yes, only 1 inch – this record showing that I did NOT sleep all evening before trying the bed – NG.

9.22 – ready for doctor.

3.39 – maybe real help.

7.53 – doing disappointingly. Clean above a bit. T

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2017/2/22 A 10.43 W – Doing some get better? Try above.

4.36 – some progress made. Puzzle – does ca. fresh L Mis box have uncopied disks? Re book due and unrenewable. Disks 1-29 dup? Disk 29 seems heard; we are done? W

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2017/2/23 A 10.04 R – struggle on ahead; surely a bit healthier.

3.23 – hanging in? R

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2017/2/24 A 6.48 F – Hanging, yes. And, what has happened to mood, and its variation? I have settled into some sort of M0 state, toughing out the pain and the difficulties of bad health? 11.06 – try to Drain. F

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2017./2/25 A 11.19 S – Strange night to drain, directly, here.

Slip of 2/21 for 2/24 F, drain at 11.21

V a. P 1.48- poop #2 BELLS X

V b. S 12.36 – pee #1, can’t get arm comfy

V c. 3.19 – pee, after much dreaming of ~Jimmy Church, on sofa, after shift from recliner, up, NG, try bed? -- Not, before 4.08, the J Church of CTC, but a leader? In a gathering of M/D’s, early dreaming of two cans of cement. The folk kneeled in a row, maybe a circle, getting instruction or something.

V d. 4.51 – gas – pee? V dreams of assembly on hill top, & my levitation as proof -- Of my ability? 4.13

V e. Try bed? Shoulder says no, sofa.

V f. 5.54 – pee? Sofa OK. -- All I can do to land it, at 4.16.

V g. 7.09 – Pee, up, what a strange night - drain it. -- Done at 3.47.

At 4.17, resume draining far above. S

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2017./2/26 A 11.03 U –EOM near-th, and have we ever been in such bad shape for such? Slurp the old draining over into the new month’s file, I suppose. Liz is off to church, where maybe I should somehow have gone, and scooped up the blessings, for 2/14, and from 3 healing stations.

3.21 – Scraping along doing Landings above. M

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2017./2/27 A 8.30 M – We can do better than scrape today? Continue the Landings. At 4.27, we have above packed in the effort to catch up the Draining-s. M

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2017./2/28 A 11.11 T – Can we possibly drain the most recent Slip, as some sort of month closing gesture? Maybe, done right here.

Slip off 2/23 for 2/26 U, drain at 11.14, so tired of being tired.

V a. P 3.08 – poop - #2? Rushed, F2, back to left hand wipe-up. BELLS

V b. 3.18 – no poop!

V c. 11.54 pee, 3 -- That, before 11.20, being three pills?

V d. M 1.01 – pee, c later

V e. 3.39 - pee

V f. 5.38 – pee – too much drainingxx

V g. 5.43 – poop, early

V h. 7.09 – pee – up late, enjoying ~dreaming, candiaxx?

V h. 1.59 – poop #2

V i. 1.21 – pee, post sexy dreams. Try.

V j. 3.14 – pi time! Pee, post dream of asking H U pres Bill Purcell for name of a book about concept of finishing the BA degree.

Thank God, at 2.16, I have finished draining the slip! A Herculean task! Now, to Land it. Done at 3.09, but SO tedious, and difficult, and painful – stop writing the Slip Stuff? No, don’t drain the slips, just let them accumulate, going toward a better day, a better time? With Trump on TV tonight, go on toward closing this poor puppy out? Glance at the 3-x’ies.

Okay at 3.48; stagger onward, toward Closing. T

2017/2/28 P 3.56 T – This is the working, on-going copy of J17-02, in the Journal folder.

2017/3/1 P 4.09 W – this page 23 of output for a 22-day month, scant – but understandable, I guess.

2017/3/3 A 10.20 F – herewith we start the Tumblr-izing of the file.

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