Lord, I need you. I can not do this on my own. Without you, I am dead in a grave. Without you, I am nothing. I am not worthy of you, Lord. I am a sinner who wants to sin no more, but I am weak. I fall on my face without you time and time again. Forgive me for my sins and my failings, Lord, and help me deny the dead me. Please live in me and use me to serve you. I am nothing if dead, and without you, I am dead.
Thank you, Lord, for all that you do. Thank you for knocking on my door. Thank you for taking my pain. Thank you for listening when no one else would, understanding when no one else did. Thank you for the life you have given me. But most importantly, God, thank you for being you. For being so good and so loving and so forgiving. I love you.
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I’m the luckiest, most fortunate girl ever… truly
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Thank You for blessing me with my own and allowing me to hold it down. I truly appreciate the goddess I’m becoming. I’m actually grateful You’re the only one I have to depend on. It’s impossible for You to disappoint me. I’m so proud to be YOURS, chosen and different. Thank You for setting me apart. Thank You eternally for the BIG magic , ambition and dreams You put in my heart. I never want to be like them, Lord. Neverrrrrr. Please keep me close. You are so so so GOOD to me. You’ve raised my standards of things I’ll tolerate from people. I’d rather be alone because Your Presence feels like home. You gift me nonstop, I’m so spoiled because of You. I’ll do whatever I can to repay Your immense mercy &grace. Amen.
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I was reading/listening to a Bible plan on the you version app.
It mentioned God + X = enjoyment and X = Sin.
God + x = enjoyment is so true. Removing the x and just having God is what I pray to happen soon. I’m easy to indulge in people, places and things which I think of as sin. The flesh is sin, the world is sin. God has given me the desires of my heart and unfortunately I am now realizing as I message this is sin. Since I was a child I always just did what I wanted to. Stay out all hours of the night, having multiple little boyfriends and crushes on girls, you name it I had access. As I got older I tried to submit to the world’s ideas and it made me feel like a slave. Fast forward I’m officially 33 and I remember asking God at age 29 for sin and I received something extremely supernatural that day/night. My life changed dramatically. Sin is the wages of death and I remember I kept saying “I am not of this world, I am not of this flesh”. I felt disconnected from this realm. I felt free finally. When I was at the hospital my blood pressure was 60/30. The guy who checked it asked me if I was dead and I said maybe and we laughed. Ever since that day/night. I knew God was with me. Was listening to me. Letting me know I can do no wrong because I don’t want anything 😌 asking for sin is asking for forgiveness.
Let me elaborate what that means. If God + sin = enjoyment. Sin is bound to perish, it’s not sustainable. So once I die it will be God - sin = forgiveness. My sins will die with this body. All I ever did wrong will be no longer. It will finally just be God. That’s it that’s all. Just God 😊. I am so blessed to have witnessed such a wonderful presence. I would’ve never known love if I never asked God for something that will fixate on destroying me like it’s been trying to and yet. God never left my side.
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why is religious Christmas imagery all so joyful and pleasant? where is the inherent horror of the birth of Christ? A mother is handed her newborn child, wailing and innocent. Her hands come away sticky. Red. Simply by giving her son life she has already killed him. He is doomed from the beginning. Her love will not save him from suffering. Because the thing cradled in her arms is not a baby, it is a sacrifice: born amongst the other bleating animals whose blood will one day be spilled in the name of what demands it. the night is silent with anticipation. Mary, did you know? That your womb was also a grave?
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