me a kanye fan and my bsf whos a swiftie having our mother and father go through a divorce and then our father becomes a n#zi and starts saying the most absurd shit ever 😔
This might sound really corny, but literally my all-time favorite hobby is thinking. Like I could do it for hours without getting tired. I love thinking so much that I do it all day without even realizing it most of the time. When I'm eating, I'm thinking. When I'm walking, im thinking. When I'm sleeping, I'm dreaming, and thinking in the dream. I just can't get enough of it. I'd have to say the one and only problem with thinking though is the fact that I can never actually think myself, only ever have the illusion of doing so. I can observe the person who is thinking, but me the "observer" can truly never do the thinking of the thoughts. If I think about it, it makes sense ig because I can recognize some type of awareness or space in-between this thought and the next. Just sucks though. Since I've now come to this realization I can't enjoy my favorite all-time hobby of obsessing and worrying anymore. I only have space in my awareness for positive, more mindful thinking that, in result, gives me the life and experiences I've always dreamt of. Manifestation is such a drag sometimes ugh. (sarcasm)
lmao I just remembered that immediately after graduating high school I wrote a satirical review of life of pablo for the zine I wrote at (the premise being that it was based on the genius lyrics page and like. the first 10 seconds of each song, or whatever the preview button had: recall that this was around tidal's rise to prominence) and essentially delivered it as a stand-up bit at the zine reading we did like a month later. this being in the same era as when I would recite john mulaney bits on command for friends. and then I realize well perhaps I have always, at my core, been a bit of a richie tozier myself
but uri is the alternative ego of me, or my second self. uri is the sweet, funny, attention seeker 24/7, and always depends on people.
while Vivi is the exact opposite of everything that uri has.
even my profile theme is so diff now vs then. the theme back then is bright, bright colors, even my posts are so positive, and I didn't write smut back then, and I always, ALWAYS post Spotify lyrics cause I was in my sadgirl posting era.