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fakeoutbf · 4 months

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five stages of grief but it’s five stages of social anxiety

#walk with me #this morning i got a bouquet delivered to me at work randomly out of nowhere #the note basically said that i could count of the person even if for just some words of advice or a gesture that could make me laugh or mad #count on the person**#i immediately knew it’s from one of my coworkers and ngl i have a very charged?? relationship with them #in the sense that it’s very intense and we can be laughing joking and teasing or we can be really angry and pissed with each other #it can have very extreme emotions even if we just chill most of the time #idk why i think this whole year i’ve been leaning on them more?? and we started texting more often too #so we’ve been more properly friends lately #and for one i was SO EMBARRASSED for getting flowers bc my coworkers tease the shit out of everyone myself included and i’m not used to #gestures like that so obviously they were on my ass all day about it #and everyone asked about them and it’s EMBARRASSING to get that much attention #(me: i wanna be a singer / also me: can’t stand to be the center of attention)#anyway the person that sent them avoided me yesterday out of nowhere??? idk if they thought i was mad bc i didn’t reply to their texts all #weekend but i literally never reply to anyone and pms was a bitch and i just wanted to be alone #so they didn’t talk to me on monday i was mostly just working listening to music bc i was still emotional whatever #and today i did talk to my other coworkers bc it’s the day when my favorite coworker comes in and i talk to them a lot so i engaged more #and they were still ignoring me and then the flowers came in and we didn’t say a single word to each other today we just texted #they told me they sent them and that ‘they forgot’ what they sent and that it was just meant to be a nice gesture #and that bc they wanted to ‘surprise’ me and make me feel better bc i said i was sad at one point?? idek #i literally just want to tell them I HAD PMS ITS FINE I FEEL SUICIDAL ALL THE TIME and move on #bc now i’m second guessing everything they’re saying bc i thought we were friends and there’s no reason why friends can’t send each other #flowers or whatever but they’ve been avoiding me and then they keep answering my texts really weirdly and i always misinterpret flirting bc #i’m never outright romantic with anyone?? plus we’re FRIENDS i should have no reason to think that’s changed #but they’re being so weird and why get me FLOWERS??? idk get me a chocolate or a coffee i don’t NEED flowers #and then i said it was random to give me flowers out of nowhere and they’re like no it’s serious bro what’s serious??????#your feelings towards me?? or just your will to cheer me up???#if they don’t reply straight up in their next texts i’m gonna flat out say but it was a platonic gesture right???#so yeah i’m overthink getting flowers bc what’s the social code for that and what is one supposed to do when they get flowers from a friend #delivered to their joint workplace where everyone can see them and think they’re from a partner or something

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kaylazer · 5 months

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back on my bullshit (meeting men im in love with). Ben Schwartz is so kind and tall :-) I didn’t totally freeze like when I met the Jonas brothers but the selfies we took are blurry so 😔

(at least I have these bc I told sam to record the whole thing heheheh)

#also the show was great #I had to slap sam many times bc she was choking from laughter #ben schwartz #bro how did i forget my personal tag for ben #ben schwartz my beloved #me #also forgot me tag #editing tags after the fact to recount the entire experience #so we waited outside for about 10 minutes and I had no expectation of how long it usually takes for him to come out and take pictures #he comes out without a mask which is surprising to me and says ‘you guys wanna take some pictures?’#we all just kinda form a non sensical blob (there’s maybe like 10 ppl total) around him #Brandon Katie and Eugene hang back towards the stage door unsure if anyone wants to chat with them #I’m gushing over how tall and handsome Ben is to my sister who is ready to record our interaction once he gets to me #as I listen to him chatting with the other fans I can’t help but smile and say to my sibling ‘he’s so sweet’ every minute #he meets someone who has a cool sketchbook of the skits from the show that he wants to take a picture of #but they need to write their handle so he says he’ll talk with some others and get back to them #so he does and then later I see the girl ready to talk to him again off to the side #so I tell her ‘you can go ahead and finish talking to him”’ and she’s like ‘are you sure?’ and I’m like duh!#finally it’s my turn and he looks at me and says ‘hi I’m Ben’#yes Benjamin Joseph Schwartz I know #he sees me holding my phone and immediately sides steps to get into selfie mode as I ask him if he’ll sign my Jean Ralphio figure #he steps back to Be in front of me ‘yes of course!’#what insane media training he has #he says ‘I’ve seen this! this is the first one I’ve ever signed’#upon seeing the figure he says ‘it’s beautiful’ lol #he’s concerned that the sharpie I brought will not show up and I mention that it was probably a bad one to bring because it’s pastel #he signs and holds it up (as you can see in the first photo) to make sure it’s visible #he hands it back to me and I thank him and he says ‘do you want to take a picture?’#and I say ‘I would love to!’ and then I hold the Jean Ralphio figure and he looks to my sibling assuming she’s taking the picture #she’s like ‘no I’m just here for moral support!’

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aureatchi · 3 months

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idk who also watches/fan of kny here but I JUST FINISHED EP 7 OF THE CURRENT SEASON IT’S ALL SADNESS FROM HERE :’) infinity castle arc i’m so scared </3

#₊˚ ಇ reverie rambles #i don’t talk ab it tht much considering i’m mostly a bsd blog but kny has such a special place in my heart #don’t b surprised if i start writing for it anytime soon djsjjwj #(spoilers btw) THE LAST EP. OMG i love ufotable i love how they played muzan’s entrance into the outro tht was so sick #& acc i have sm more to say so if u like kny too pls feel free to drop by my inbox i wanna talk ab it !!

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beezybuzzn · 4 months

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Uhh Rouge x Ursula🦑🦇

#fighting every fiber of my being to not make this an au cuz I alreayd have one I’m working on.#I don’t wanna be working on 2 different aus #(says me who has 10-20 aus from other games)#I’m surprised that I was able to make this cuz my art block is literally beating my ass along with testing.#*IF* I make this an au I’ll draw amy next.#Kinda stuck if I should make it sonadow or sonamy… both is good both is good.#sonic the hedgehog #rouge the bat #sonic fanart

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cuteniaarts · 6 months

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Behold, my latest and most enamouring new obsession:

Malina, Lady of the Chief of the Northern Water Tribe. As if Red Lotus child OCs weren’t niche enough

#my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #lok malina #still feel like that’s too vague of a tag but I can’t come up with anything better for now #and yeah. she has completely stolen by heart and I don’t know how to feel about that #don’t think I ever was this attracted to my own art before #to be fair the design isn’t mine. it’s very heavily based on something nina drew back in 2021 #because I did not have the energy or creativity to come up with my own thing #but the art is all mine and I genuinely adore it. super proud of myself which is a rare occurrence #anyways. kat and I spent three days digging this niche lower and lower and now have a he #*hell of a lot of lore about this basically nonexistent character #for lore about a lady from the North Pole a lot of it is rather hot… to the point my cheeks are burning non stop #I would say I’d let her do anything she wants to me but in my very specific aroace-adjacent case it’s more like #I’d let her tell me to do anything she wants to her #if that makes any sense and I have not completely lost my goddamn mind yet #okay. enough yapping. back to the art itself #lazy background because I suck at those and am not currently attempting to learn them. I’ll probably do that over the summer #about time anyway. my characters have been placed against an off-white background for far. far too long #this is the first piece in just over a year that isn’t tagged with sotrl. which is kinda weird tbh #I’ve been drawing my OCs almost exclusively for nearly 5 years so it is genuinely surprise I’m branching out #*surprising #less branching out and more diving from one hole into another but y’know #anyway. in my personal and very correct opinion she turned out absolutely gorgeous #her servants are way too lucky and unalaq is way too much of an idiot. no offence to vaatu but he could never beat out this #and I also have Kat’s personal and very correct opinion to back up my own. two against the void. once again we’re winning #I wanna draw her a lot more bc she has completely possessed my brain. I just wish character interactions were easier to draw 😭#I’ll figure it out. just need to fight my visualisation issues for a proper idea. brb #okay I’m almost at the tag limit so. in summary:#she 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵

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axegrl · 9 months

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I love having this weird cutesy vibe going on but it’s very obvious there’s something wrong with me.

#only problem is ppl genuinely can’t fathom that I’m not a sub..#literally have had ppl in my life be surprised when I say that I kinda don’t like subbing #awww but you look so cute OKAY AND??#doesn’t help that I’m also.. 5’1 #more love for small doms & doms who don’t. look dom ig. please i just wanna feel included 🙏#mine

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redhotarsenic · 12 days

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Need to either disable reblogs or delete the art I drew for cosplayer man I’m sick of seeing it in my notifications

#every time I see him i wanna rip his head off #ugh #before you ask I blocked him on here two months ago after shit went down on a discord call between him and my friend #fucker laughed at him for crying. makes me sick to my stomach.#I’m sure he wants me to let that shit go but he can go fuck himself #dude had the gall to be surprised I was insanely pissed at him for that shit #like literally half the shit that cosplayer man is going through wouldn’t be fuckin happening if he’d pull his head out of his ass #and change his behavior #because several people have told him ‘hey the way you’re behaving sucks dick stop please’#and he either downplays it or uses the ‘I’m pragmatic teehee’ excuse #which! clearly being ‘pragmatic’ isn’t fuckin working if you keep running into issues #what’s that saying? if you smell shit everywhere you walk check under your shoes? that’s what this is #dude ALSO had the balls to whine at me about my friend’s partner calling him out on his shit too which is WILD #was either the same day I told him I was done with his ass or the day after #which I have screenshots of because I don’t trust him to not delete shit so he can cover his ass #if he catches wind of this shit that is

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yourqueenb · 11 months

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I think Dirty Little Secrets is interesting so far. And I’m surprised I haven’t seen more about it. It feels different than PB’s usual in some ways

#choices dls #choices dirty little secrets #choices #choices stories you play #playchoices #yeah it seems like they’re still gonna lean heavily on smut #that’s no surprise #but at least the LI has a little allure to him #and we’re not fucking cheating for once 🙄#I’m sure the HOA bitch won’t be too different from their usual antagonists either #she def gives Vanessa from MoTY vibes #but I like the messiness of having a book centered around a neighborhood #I wanna know all the tea lol #and I want our neighbors gossiping about us and the LI #and obviously I’m especially intrigued by Sadie saying he killed his wife #the mystery aspect makes all of this even more interesting #so yeah overall we’ll see how PB handles it #hopefully they learned from the mistakes they made in MoTY with Vanessa and the PTA #and hopefully they don’t drop the ball on the mystery like they usually do #which is honestly very likely since they have a tendency to ignore plot in favor of smut 🤦🏽‍♀️#either way though I’m tentatively optimistic #choices app

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radioactiveswampmonsters · 5 months

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Florida trip went well! For the actual purposes, my mom’s birthday, yeah no it went really great, it was wonderful

For my whole anxiety leading up to all of it, it went better than expected! The people I was most worried about didn’t say or do anything, but more than that I was able to have some candid conversations with my mom about trans stuff which was really nice, and I told my aunt I started hrt! She was the first person (outside immediate family) I came out to forever ago (cause her daughter, my cousin, also came as trans before I did) so I knew it would be totally fine, but still her reaction and support was still so kind and nice ❤️

#Dorian is on t #my mom and great aunt were both surprised to find out I’d have to take t my whole life #which was fine! I’m glad they’re comfortable talking and asking my questions about this #my aunt (different aunt lol) did say something that I Think About now tho #I mentioned I started hrt (i said it in conjunction with bragging about zab and how great they are and I love them)#and she said yeah I wondered - I didn’t wanna ask cause it’s your business what you wanna share but I was curious cause I noticed changes #and like she’s fine! I appreciate her very much #but now I’m curious if anyone else DID notice as well but just didn’t say anything??#which is also fine like I’m more than okay with that. I didn’t wanna deal with comments from People #but I Think About It

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curlyhairedprince · 1 year

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#i just wanna say #i have literally not seen a single person who was like oh yeah that stream is a good idea and worth the money #like ofc I’m in my bubble but still #bit surprised by that actually

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exopelagic · 8 months

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honk shoo.

#but yeah sleepy.#i have so much to do these next few days I’m gonna die #meanwhile I just wanna see my friends #the good thing is that some of the busy things involve seeing my friends but goddamn why are almost all of them hard #also YES I’m going to be dumb and gay again bc a) why shouldn’t I b) nobody can stop me #I’m being dumb and gay again.#now seen The Guy twice since I’ve been back and he’s very cool #still feel like I’m being insane god idk what I’m doing #I hope he comes tomorrow bc he can’t make the meeting which means he won’t be on committee which sucks bc he did want to #OH but I did mean to tell him there was one role he could go for and have a good shot at that I think he’d be good for #only problem is if he doesn’t come tomorrow I can’t tell him in time bc I don’t have any way to message him other than email #(which feels slightly creepy bc I only know it bc secretary and he’s never explicitly said his surname so it’s just inferred from the list)#idk. the thing that gets me is we are very much friends now. like early stages of friends but we keep talking at hockey #and importantly he keeps coming To Me which keeps surprising me bc he does it more than any of my other friends #but I guess I’m also coming to him kinda a lot too. self awareness falls when around cute boy you get how it is #god it’s so unfair why is he like this #I finished getting my skates off before he did yesterday which gave me a very good opportunity to Look while he was talking #and have it not be weird and he’s just very pretty. he’s got a rlly nice nose #i always feel insane pointing out noses it’s the Draw speaking bc I use noses as a focal point and they’re fun to draw #tbh it’s unlikely I will say someone does Not have a nice nose but idk let me have this. it would be fun to draw is maybe what I mean #and I hadn’t noticed before bc the like bridge? and uhh like. base? idk nose words but they don’t match #the bridge is super long and on the thin side w a bump like mine but the like bottom is much rounder and wider and I don’t see that mix much #he also just has rlly nice hair it’s super curly and he’s in that like weird light brown purgatory where it’s all different colours #like it’s mostly light brown but some bits look rlly dark and some especially at the ends is like almost blonde and it changes w the light #god he also keeps doing this dumb fucking thing where he’s trying to skate while squatting all the way and it’s ridiculous #he looks like a spider folding in on itself and the worst part is he can fucking do it #he’s gotten so good at skating recently and I have a feeling he lives somewhere with an ice rink bc I’m sure he’s better than he was novembr #yeah I also got to just stand and watch him play yesterday and it’s so incredibly horribly unfair #anyway I’m too fucking gay and I will not let him escape me again tomorrow I Will get his instagram or smth bc I swear this man #luke.txt

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scottishstoner · 1 year

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Was a lovely day/night ☀️✨❤️‍🔥 which is rare but it’s been great weather last week and this for here lol didn’t have money today or a chance to go hiking buttt I did sit in the back garden of my flat at a table and drew/painted, listened to music & watched stuff on my laptop, played with my dog (I made him a spot with a few couch pillows wrapped in a quilt cover next to me by the table and brought him water and snacks out lol) so I done that for hours and smoked weed and drew finished my Grace and Frankie drawing:)) 🎨 with watercolour pencils and pens (I need to buy new paint soon lol). I got high:)) 💨 it was nice ❤️‍🔥 wearing that big spaceship hat coz I couldn’t find my cap and my scalp burns easily so I took my mums huge hat, ironic I call her mothership and it looks like a bloody spaceship 🛸😂 lol anyway had a nice night, would rather go hiking again, but seeing this guy I’m seeing this week again,. Can’t stop thinking about our hike and picnic it was lovely :)) we keep texting he’s great