#I’m bad at bideo James

[max--phillips]

Man my sibling has introduced me to a bunch of minecraft mods and like. How do I go back to vanilla Minecraft now? First it was just mystical agriculture, refined storage, and a touch of mekanism, but I’m starting to dabble in create which has thus far been extremely intimidating to me. It still kind of is but mystical agriculture is giving me so many items I need to automate the output or I’m going to lose my mind

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again 12/7/21

tuesday again no problem will be taking next week off. also a reminder that if information is in a trailer or back-of-book blurb i do not consider it a spoiler.

also also i am a smidge superstitious about posting these on a day that is not actually tuesday but i’m going to be extremely fucking busy tomorrow and i want to go to bed now and i do not trust the post scheduler

listening dirty little animals by bones uk from n/etflix’s ar/cane

this is one of my favorite bands and i’m so glad they’re getting some of that sweet sweet n/etflix/riot money. however, this feels more “produced” or like, tumble-ground smooth? and clubby than the rest of their stuff and i’m not sure if i love it. there’s some sort of digital fuzz happening instead of their natural pack-a-day voices. while i like the drop into the third repetition of the chorus (lyrics below, around 2:35) very much, that kind of strobing blippy electronica is not present of much of their other work. it’s a good song! it’s fun to listen to! im being a bitchy old lady about it!

Slide, shake your bones out if you wanna ride Throw your head back, make you feel alive The kind of bad that make you feel good, good God, the kinda wrong that make you feel right The little death that make you feel alive The kinda shouldn't that mean that you should, should, should

reading sometimes you only roll around to a book your friend recommended in fuckin mid-2017 or some shit through sheer chance bc the library happened to have it available. anyway i’m reading a book that seems tailor made for me, Wool by Howard Howey. ebooks aren’t photogenic here’s a pretty cover fuck this is gonna be huge

almost did not continue with this book! starts out with a Dead Wife Guy! but i sat there and thought “my dear friend @morrak would never rec me some shit like this” and forged onward. anyway it faked me out with the Dead Wife Guy and we’re following just the crankiest lady mechanic with a misplaced sense of duty instead. i am a smidge under a third of the way through and kind of rationing it out for myself

this is a weird tangent but i have at times been accused of being mysterious/inscrutable/Hard To Get To Know. this does baffle me while also making me feel a little bit like a secret agent, bc while that is true for stuff about my personal life and/or my tragic backstory, my likes and dislikes are quite clear (i think). i am a weak and simple woman, and i am not immune to a butch mechanic lady.

like yes, it did take me four years to pick this book up but morrak absolutely figured me out inside of like. two months

watching good evening. riot games would like you to forget that they have numerous ongoing lawsuits, and are one of the worst places to work period, anywhere, let alone the extremely toxic workplace culture of bideo james. now let’s talk about their show on n/etflix, a/rcane, which unfortunately i liked the visuals of a great deal.

i have never played this game and i never will bc i respect myself too much to get into esports so i went into this totally blind.

anyway The Series gave me a satisfying amount of worldbuilding. i was very willing to suspend my disbelief within the framework they gave me. always a slut for an airship. love an undercity, love urban magic, love steampunk art noveau. there’s a certain quality to the design here, and something about the brushstrokes, that is very Ah! Video Games! and translates well to full-budget animation without looking like cutscenes. you’ll know what i mean when you see it. i think it will be very hard to properly review this show without comparisons to d/ishonored and b/ioshock (particularly infinite).

i have some thoughts about chronic pain, addiction, deformity as morality, disability, prosthetics, and quality of life as depicted in this cartoon. i feel i am being perhaps too measured when i say “well real life societies fucking suck at this too.” i have a lot of thoughts and feelings about this aspect of the show, but because several of them hit very close to home, i am going to end this section on: viktor did nothing wrong and i would have done the same things in his position.

when i write these up, i don’t like falling into the (very easy) trap of just listing “representation FAIL” type shit. however! i do not love how the criminal underworld is nearly all non-human or non-white. i especially do not love that the one powerful black nation we see are warmongerers intent on securing new weapons tech. i think possibly the league lore is just Like That bc, again, video games are bad. i also do not think this is a good excuse. r/iot has done essentially nothing to curb the worst parts of their fanbase, but at some point they will need to improve or die as a company and a franchise.

this show almost gets to the frantic teetering careening edge of “you’ve finally got what you wanted and have been working for all along, are you willing to do more to keep it? you’ve got the thing you wanted, but it doesn’t actually matter any more bc the world has kept turning while you were so focused on getting the thing you want. also, you can get everything you want, are you willing to pay the price?” i know and understand this is a silly little video game cartoon adaptation. i want more victories to be hollow and feel like ash in my mouth. i did not expect ANY victories to feel like ash in my mouth so honestly this show is doing leaps and bounds better than i expected re: basic political structure. 

anyway if you’re willing to sit though a bunch of cops, just a lot of Stuff regarding race and gender dynamics i’m not qualified to talk about, a well-meaning (?) but heavy-handed portrayal of ptsd and schizophrenia (possibly? jinx has whatever mental illness will give her the most fun to animate flashbacks), in order to watch some very pretty animation in a cool city and get queerbaited while being stabbed in the heart with nesting father/daughter stories, this show is what it is. maybe it’s not for you. personally i’m fine with watching through it once, i don’t necessarily regret watching it but the disability stuff alone soured me quite a bit.

can people who’ve already watched this shout to me about silco bc i have Thoughts and Feelings

playing portal to empire https://aidanquinlan.net/empire/index.html this is neither a visual novel nor a walking sim. it’s sort of a meander through the back halls of capitalism. i got used to the ticker tape text display pretty quickly so if it’s really bugging you stick it out a bit? for me? you can pause it by hovering your mouse over the text

making too fucking busy this fall/cash is a smidge tight/didn’t want to trust things to the inconsistent mercies of the postal service and not have them get there in time, so this is the first december in a long long while where i’m not scrambling to get gifts done. feels weird. don’t like it.

[werewolfharrington]

Flower ask: also all of them. you get to suffer with me >:3€

oh darlin’ we’re in it now huh

Alisons: Sexuality?

homogay

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?

she/they | all gender will be shot on sight

Amaryllis: Birthday?

sept 23rd

Anemone: Favorite flower?

monkshood

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show?

stranger things or ghost adventures

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger?

like? distance? a couple miles probably

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes?

“We are such stuff as dreams are made on, and our little lifeIs rounded with a sleep.” William Shakespeare, The Tempest

Aubrieta: Favorite drink?

wild cherry capri sun

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

ima change that to ‘kiss the last person u thought abt kissing’ bc YES

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?

*jenna marbles voice* hell yeah!!

Baneberries: Favorite song?

waiting for the end - linkin park 

Basket of Gold: Describe your family.

chaos

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it?

i have too many to list !!! brandi, kasey, you, liz, ivy, nick , just to name a few!!

Begonia: Favorite color?

blue uwu

Bellflower: Favorite animal?

foxes !! and opossums

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?

night time babey

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be?

either a fox or an opossum or a raven, i think

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

i wanted to be a vet !!!

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?

theyre ok as long as theyre not screaming and/or mine

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?

i don’t liike vomit bc. nastey (trauma i think) and i don’t like old ppl well. i dunno why? they’re just so old and fragile and helpless and sometimes they’re really mean and idk i think it’s like something to do w death or something LMAO idk. also i just hate the idea of becoming old and having to rely on other people ?? hhh

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood.

i was bullied a lot

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth?  

realistically? probably playing dead by daylight with my girlfriend ADFSGRHYUTR

Buttercup: Relationship Status?

happily taken 

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go?

ireland, scotland, alaska, greece

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?

whenever my friends or family tells me they love me but esp when u text me goodmorning or when we say our goodnights sorry im gay haha

Canna: Do you have any tattoos?  

i have. uuuuhh 6

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?  

no!!! i want some tho :(

California Poppy: Height?  

i think im like. 5′5 or something? give or take an inch ?

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?

oh absolutely. my house is haunted as we speak

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?  

bmth hoodie and pajama pants w foxes all over them. i just woke up lol

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?

yeah i always keep one on in the bathroom

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?  

my sister bc she came home from college yesterday

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed?

ask me in like. a little over a month from now ;)

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font?

FONT??? the animal crossing font

Columbine: Are you tired?

oh absolutely

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to?

thanksgiving, christmas, seeing my gf, magfest

Coneflower: Dream job?

idk if it’s a job but i just wanna own like. a ranch that takes in all sorts of animals and takes care of them

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert?

introvert 

Crocus: Have you ever been in love?

ooooh yeah

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?

i mean. depends on what they want/need. distance wise? i’d travel the known universe for u  

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it?

he was a plaid teddy bear his name was Stanley!!!! i miss him :( but now i have Little Moon God as my favourite stuffed animal 

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?

Libro

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?

Working in Yellowstone is something I’ll never forget

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?

well. hmm. i was gonna say flying to yellowstone but maybe driving to north carolina by myself bc driving long distances alone to places i haven’t been before gives me hella anxiety (i’m better now)

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)? 

i don’t pay rent in this house to listen to their opinions lmao. 

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to?

you, i think, when we said goodnight last night!!! EDIT: you this morning!!

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?

being bad at dead by daylight

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?

dead by daylight

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month?

(little over a month now but uhhh) GOT A UH ......GIRL.....FRIEND ...... GOT TO VISIT GIRLFRIEND ........ and got the windshield finally replaced in my car 

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?

i dont know! so far ive laid in bed now im at my computer answering this. not too bad. my shift is only 4 hours today. 

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?

for the most part, i’m pretty content, yeah

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?

MOVE OUT 

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life?

my friends, my mom, my sisters, my girlfriend, my bastard dog

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed?

metal   

Hellebore: How do you show affection?

what does this mean. physically, i’m very affectionate, i just. don’t show it alot bc anxiety/i overthink. that and i constantly tell ppl i love them and what they mean to me 

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?

whoever is reading this

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day.

wake up next 2 a cute girl. take way too long to get up. go climb mountain w cute girl. vibe on mountain w cute girl. go to waffle house 2gether. gome home and vibe. play video games or watch a movies/tv w cute girl.  

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?  

i like to make art or play bideo jame

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them?

oh gosh i dunno. the ones i’ve known the longest are kasey and brandi, and i’ve known them both around/over a decade i think. we met in middle/highschool!

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?

you, ivy, liz

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have?

so many 

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

idk man but i remember when you said u had a crush on me and then i posted a selfie and u were like ‘OH NO SHE’S CUTE” and like ??? idk i think that was definitely the first compliment to ever shock me LMAO 

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself?

6.9/10

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

my tattoos

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself? 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kGGViLwHEUk

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?

i liked to play zombies ate my neighbors on the sega genesis !!!!

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid?

eliza !!!! we lost touch a few years after i moved away :(

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?

ima be real everything makes me feel guilty

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?  

aaaaaa the whole abi/moon incident 

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name?

my name is fox. it means i like foxes

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it.

northern virginia babey !!!! that place fucking sucks!!! but everyone who lives up there thinks they’re hot shit. 

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?

i had a bunkbed and i think the walls were pink 

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?  

😬 i’m just gonna say i’m much happier now and i’m coping with life and shit a lot better  

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom.

she’s sweet and funny and i love her so much!! she always does the Most for everyone, sometimes to the point where she isn’t concerned abt herself and i see where i get it from. but yeah my mom is great, my dad doesn’t deserve her 

Onions: Tell about your dad.  

source of a lot of trauma and why i have so many issues regarding men. i don’t wanna talk about him anymore LOL he doesn’t deserve the attention

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents.

my dad’s mom is becoming senile and i think she’s racist and queerphobic. my mom’s parents disowned her a few years ago so we don’t talk to them anymore 

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable?

i dunno. i don’t try to remember my birthdays. whenever i can go to busch gardens for my birthday i usually have a lot of fun there. 

Peony: What was your first job?

if you don’t wanna count working w my mom as a florist, target was my first job back in 2016. i found my name tag the other day , actually

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?

WELL, i know you followed me on here first. and then twitter?? but we didn’t really start talking until stranger things 3 came out (thank u stranger things) PHYSICALLY, we didn’t meet until fursonacon (haha. i remember when u texted me that u got to the hotel and i came down to help n i saw u unloading yr car and it was then that my brain was like OH NOOOOOOOO and my heart was like OH YEEEEAAAAAAAH) 

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?

physical, mental, or emotional? i play a video game or listen to loud music

Pink: Where is home?[

somewhere in appalachia i can feel it in my stupid soul 

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change? 

idk man i’m pretty content w where i’m at now so 

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them.

chester bennington 

Primrose: Describe your ideal life.

i have a waife and we have many great pets and we live in a log cabin in the mountains or in a nice victorian in a small town or something IDK but we’re happy and that’s all that matters 

Rhodendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child?

God

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life?

my mom, me best friends, my girlfriend

Rose: What’s your favorite sound?

my girlfriend’s laugh because it’s THE cutest shit and then when she giggles??? oh my heart 

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory?

oct 23rd, 2005, we brought Fat Boy Zack home !!!!

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory?

July 22nd, 2016. i was 2200 miles away

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?  

to be holding my girlfriend >:(

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things?

hhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?

those i hold dear

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?

enough, i guess? 

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?

my girlfriend

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job?

it’s fucking BORING and TOO EASY and they don’t pay me ENOUGH but i can get away with so much shit there so ima still go, ima still go 

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?

all of the flannels currently in my possession

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.  

mountains, woods, forests, cabins, autumn, cryptic, occult, victorian, edwardian

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you?

if someone gets me a gift i’m legally required to execute them

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?

this 40hr workweek i got coming up 

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called?

i have not read in So Long

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?

Moved out away from here lol, we’ll see

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?

:/

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.

i’m a furry

that was SO LONG im sorry i also put you through that but THANK YOU ENJOY READING ILU

[congamensch-blog]

On Writers Block, 1 out of Oh Good God How Many Are There What The Hell You’ve Got A Problem Mate

Sorry if this gets a little rambly, but I'm having a spot of writer's block, and in my experience being unable to write on a subject you want to write about is best cured by writing on something else entirely, so I suppose this is my way of either killing the brain worms, or lighting a fire under my bew-tocks and putting said rear into gear.

Of course, I suppose I could be putting this stuff on someplace other than Facebook or Tumblr, but quite frankly there's only so much room in what's left of my brain that isn't VIDEO GAMES that the sight of another login screen will make me want to go on a killing spree. Since I have the eyesight of a bat who's taken a 3-month Sun Staring boot camp and the muscle mass of an anorexic earthworm on a hunger strike, that may take a while. Thankfully, I have carefully refrained from any computer-related stuff that isn't VIDEO GAMES, Facebook, Tumblr, VIDEO GAMES and BIDEO JAMES which certainly isn't video games mom, which means I have room in my brain to spare. Don't believe me? Give me 10 minutes' conversation, and I will show you the world- by which I mean I will show you a once beautiful, pristine paradise ruined by the ravages of Western colonialism and capitalism, mainly in the form of McDonalds.

I suppose it's not right to have this much vitriol during Ramadhan, but this IS the month to rid one's self of vice and sin, right? So there you go, Your Honour, that's what I'm doing. I just have a lot to get rid of, you know? Rome wasn't built in a day, and as someone who is AT LEAST 65% depraved Bacchanalian orgy by volume (if not weight), it's going to take a little work. Some may say my grasp of the body physic, history and mathematics might be a little off, to which I would like to remind all and sundry that I'm aiming to write fantasy (like, with dragons) for a living, and you really should have learned to expect this sort of thing by now. Really, I'm not one to blame victims, but this is all your fault, really.

All right, writer's block over, and the dread juices (that I'm actually legally allowed to speak to you about) are flowing. Here's to hoping I have something worthwhile to write, or at least something I'd be glad to have gotten out of my system when I reread my stuff tomorrow. Wish me luck- or failing that, wish whoever's bound to come after me has bad aim!

[silvadows]

tagged by @chaotype! ily.. you epic gamer

are you named after anyone? when i was still choosing a name for myself i went stupid and became kin w/ jade harley from [bad source] and i just. rlly liked the name jade so it stuck!! my last name isn't harley though snvjvsgxs

when was the last time you cried? few days ago. breakdowns suck :/

do you have kids? no i'm baby. but i plan to adopt one day!

do you use sarcasm a lot? not a lot bc i'm bad at using a sarcastic tone of voice.

what's the first thing you notice about people? if they're nice or not

what's your eye color? blue in dim light green in brighter light

scary movie or happy ending? happy ending. i'm too paranoid for scary movies :(

any special talents? i've been told i have nice art and i sing really well. i'm also good at hyperfixating on something for 3 days to 5 months and then getting severe burnout

where were you born? a hospital

what are your hobbies? playing bideo james and being gay as hell

do you have any pets? 3 cats 1 dog all babies

what sports do you play/have played? softball when i was tiny and i was forced to play basketball in middle school. i wasn't good at either

how tall are you? like 5'6 or something

favorite subject in school? it was art but i don't have it anymore bc i'm homeschooled

dream job? magical girl idk. any job that'll support me financially and doesn't make me dread going to work

i tag anyone who wants to do this ig?

[crowleplays]

Wheezes I'm gonna be online and talking and maybe streaming later??? If any of y'all are up for a drawstream I'll be working on Satare's reference, a design trade, and maybe some real quick shitty doodles/designs in my needle-hand style Or maybe a league game or two/GW2 raid if any of y'all play those (preferably mutuals only bc I'm Bad At Bideo James)