#I’m just so tired of the state of the world and I’m so tired of feeling unsafe every day

[lisbeth-kk]

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Today's prompt is: secret

The Luckiest Girl in the World (chapter 11)

Summary: Uncle Myc has his eyes everywhere. Even at Rosie's school.

Eleven Years Old

From time to time, uncle Myc picked me up from school in one of his black town cars. The questions were endless the days after, and I found it increasingly difficult to answer them truthfully. By now I knew that my uncle’s business was of a delicate and important nature. In my eyes, he knew everything my parents didn’t, and he obviously had eyes everywhere. Also, in my school it turned out…

I rarely visited him at home. When he picked me up, there were three possible destinations we’d arrive at. Baker Street, a café to have something sweet, or like in this case, his office at the Diogenes Club.

I greeted George, the man at the front desk, in sign language. The first time I did it, I was a bit disappointed that uncle Myc didn’t seem the least bit surprised by this. 

One of my classmates was deaf, so each week we learned new words. My uncle obviously knew this, because he remarked on my progress when we were safe inside his spacious office.

“You know everything, don’t you?” I said, which he assured me he didn’t. 

“I just prefer to keep a keen eye on things,” he offered.

“And sticking your long nose into matters that aren’t your concern!” I heard Papa murmur in my mind.

A chuckle escaped me, and he cocked an inquisitory eyebrow at me.

“Don’t tell me my brother has taken up telepathy,” uncle Myc said dryly, which made me snort.

“Papa doing anything paranormal related?” I asked incredulously. “Are we speaking of Sherlock Holmes, or do you have another sibling?”

I’d never seen my uncle like that. He was shaken, looked ashen, but was rescued by a knock on the door. Tea had arrived.

***

During tea, my uncle asked me about school, my progress in mathematics, science, biology, history, English and geography. He never asked about my friends or teachers. Other people than his family never seemed to interest him much, though he did sometimes inquire about Greg Lestrade.

“Something is bothering you, Rosamund,” uncle stated. “How can I be of assistance?”

I didn’t even blink at this. I might have a few years ago, but I was used to his and Papa’s “knowledge” when their loved ones struggled or had a problem that needed solving.

“Intrusive questions from classmates and other pupils,” I sighed. “Not my friends. They understand that I’m uncomfortable about answering everything about Papa’s and your work, but the others…I’m tired of coming up with constantly “new facts” you know.”

“Indeed,” uncle agreed. “I have something for you to help with that. It’ll be our little…secret.”

He walked over to a large cupboard and retrieved a black box. Inside were several files with suggestions to what I could answer my peers, without giving away any government or personal secrets. (Not that I knew any of the former…)

“Brilliant!” I exclaimed while I leafed through the sheets.

“You do realise that you are saying that out loud,” uncle Myc chided, but the satisfied smile and his pink cheeks gave him away.

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[glade-constellation]

I keep thinking about the lore implications of there being an Eclipse in the living world and an Eclipse in Purgatory. Like, to me, this is the clearest confirmation we have that the Eclipse we currently have in the show is not the Eclipse that was killed in Solar’s dimension. Unless the purgatory Eclipse was the original Eclipse, but I kind of doubt that due to the fact of Solar Flare’s presence. This means the living Eclipse is 100% just a copy.

I mean, this pretty much has already been confirmed by a lot of characters, including Ruin and Eclipse himself. But every time it gets reaffirmed, I just feel more sad about the situation. His treatment by Moon after he came back, and from Lunar up until they had that talk in the atrium. Even his treatment from Sun. I can’t blame any of them for how they acted, they are justified in what they did, but it’s just sad. It’s clear to us from an audience perspective that this Eclipse, while having Eclipse’s memories, wasn’t actually our Eclipse. His memories were much like Bloodmoon’s when they were brought back by Ruin. “Memories” taken from the show, second hand clips that may have shown what happened but had no feeling attached. It’s even explained that his coding is taken from Solar’s, and was rewritten to be more like Eclipse. He was quite literally made to act the way he acted. None of what he was doing was of his own free will. He even explains this in the episode where he kidnaps Ruin. He knew everything he was currently doing wasn’t something he would have done had he been in control of himself.

It is Eclipse, by design, but it’s not the one who died.

That Eclipse is still chasing the unachievable in a sort of purgatory state. He is still stuck on gaining a sense of justice he will never get. Even after his death, where he explained how tired he was, he continues to seek his vengeance.

This whole situation is just sad. The Eclipse we knew from the beginning of the show will never actually get to heal from his trauma. The living Eclipse may be getting the redemption arc we’ve been asking for, but honestly, it doesn’t feel like a proper redemption. If the person being redeemed didn’t actually do the wrong, does it count as redemption? He has the memories, but he didn’t actually perform the actions. The Eclipse in purgatory did.

I’m not complaining about the writing. I’m very happy that we are getting a redemption arc for Eclipse in the first place. It’s just sad. The person that would have been helped heal during that process is dead, and the person in his place was forced into the situation.

Honestly, in my opinion, this situation explains “not everyone can be helped” much better than Bloodmoon’s story did. The only reason Eclipse is getting help now is because, in so many different aspects, he isn’t that person. That person is gone, and will never be able to be helped. Even when he had a chance to be helped, he pushed in away in favor of achieving his chance at revenge until it was too late for him to be saved. Even now, dead in the afterlife, he’s fighting for that chance.

In the end, I just have to hope that this Eclipse gets all the help the old Eclipse never got.

[coyotebrained]

You have to think things will get better, otherwise what is the point!!! You have to hold out hope that things will get better and then maybe one day things will feel safe and be cool and everything will be fine (at least as fine as it can be)

[mostlymaudlin]

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[shea-like-the-butter]

Thursday, April 6th 2023

Whatever helps me help you sleep every night away

[meatcatt]

Hey I just want to say sorry for the lack of art. I’m not doing so hot rn, hoping to come back after the semester ends which is soon ^^;

Thank you all for being patient and still enjoying the stuff I’ve already made!

[saintmouthed]

(emerging from a revision cave with a black eye and covered in blood) you should see the other guy

[floral-hex]

Denim jacket came in the other day. It’s a hefty boy. Heavy heavy. Sleeves are kind of long, but I have nefarious plans for them, so it should work out. Stocked up on supplies. Big bucket. Big bleach. Armful of fabric dyes in varying shades of black and yellow. It’s been in the 100°s here, and I already sweat like a swamp beast. Strictly fall & winter wear. Plenty of time to make something garish and gauche. It’s a good distraction. My life is falling apart. I need good distractions.

[bo0zey]

i’m a plague to everyone’s life i ever come in contact with

[novelconcepts]

I’m exhausted. I’ve had nonstop vivid dreams of the most insane cinematic quality for weeks. My mind will accept audiobooks and very little else. I’m in pure brain fog. Writing no longer exists as an option so long as all of this remains true.

But I also get to be one of like six people who still cares about my tiny show, so at least there’s that.

[chelseasdagger]

i think it’s SO fucking funny when people get so angry about shit like you act so superior and you block people, THEN talk shit about them it seems kinda cowardly honestly?? i’m so glad i’m an immature little bitch cause i’m not the one dragging people’s name through the dirt CKSKDKSK

[lyriumsings]

proing and conning making an IF and it’s like

pros: it’s content that caters to my interests that i wanna see, i can find other people who also like those things, as a long term goal it would be good for me to consistently work on a project im passionate about, i just want more friends 🥹

cons: most of my ros will probably be bipoc and therefore they will probably be: whitewashed, villainized, overly sexualized no matter the context etc, the IF community can be entitled, ngl it can also just be super white

the biggest pro: IM delusional and believe i’m never wrong esp when it comes to my opinions on my characters and world building so good luck to anyone who tries to make me feel anything other than that in terms of baseless accusations/demands

almost forgot the biggest con: coding lmaooo

[frogs-in3-hills]

funny to me that being queer is the “safe” minority the one that we feel most comfortable talking about and sharing our experiences with and getting angry about and saying we hate terfs and we hate homophobes and we hate exclusionists. but when people talk about racism and oppression and get angry and say i have to erase myself to be accepted and i don’t feel safe in my neighborhood and my people are dying and have been for decades, everyone turns a blind eye. and ohh okay, NOW we’re exhausted. NOW it’s too much. NOW there are too many horrible things happening in the world i can’t focus on them all at once. i don’t want to examine the ways i am playing a part in this. i don’t want to think about this anymore.

[totopopopo]

Also I haven’t been sleeping at all. Like my sleep schedule was relatively fucked up in college just bc it’s college but it was nowhere near what it was like in high school. I could actually sleep in college. I didn’t realize it was my meds BUUUT. I can’t sleep. I’ll try to go to bed at 12 and then I’ll still be awake at 5am. Or I’ll go to bed at 11pm and wake up at 11am and still feel so tired, like I hadn’t slept at all. I’ll sleep all day and still be tired. I took a nap this morning right after waking up and had the most god fucking awful dream that freaked me the fuck out and now I’m awake but I’m exhausted but I’m also wired and can’t sleep but I’m also bored but I’m also. Hghghghh

[allofuswantgwinam]

idk how we’ll ever have peace in this world when everyone just wants to retaliate with violence for everything. ‘It happened to me so I want revenge and idc if any innocent people get hurt/murdered in the process” I want fucking out lol of this world I am so serious

[whimsyprinx]

I’ve at very least given up on today