Got crazy in calll again and was forced to make this
Anywyas i was like “hahah what would my mc react like?” And then realized they’d be like omg at the amount of money, accept it, and then still call Ais 10 minutes later
Oh this character is kind of pathetic as a joke, for the sillies? Well actually according to me he’s got a sad backstory that makes his actions make sense. Haha little man cries easily maybe there’s a reason for that and I’m the one who’s gonna make it up.
Thinking about panic room/cage parallels and making myself ill. Because Bobby and Dean don’t force Sam in there. They trick him.
And obviously we know Michael beat the shit out of Lucifer, he tells us that, but do you think that how getting thrown in the Cage actually worked was that after all of that, Michael/God said, “It’s okay, come here, we can talk, you can help us understand,” the same way that Bobby & Dean lure Sam in with the idea that they’re going to need to stop some demon problem for the Apocalypse. And then, when Lucifer did come, when for one final moment he let himself think that this was over and someone was listening to him and however he’d fucked up could be forgiven, he turned around and was told, “This is for your own good.” Before they looked him away for centuries.
I’ve tried to take a step back to stop being frustrated over such things but sometimes it really hits me in the face how much the fandom switched Crowley’s and Aziraphale’s personalities.
So many posts where I go… actually that’s the other way around, the fuck you watched 🤔
suddenly feeling like I’m not good enough and i don’t belong anywhere and the people in my life will eventually grow tired of me and my constant need for validation and deem me unworthy of their love despite all evidence that they love me and want me to be in their lives
as i’ve been watching the sopranos i’ve been thinking a lot about how someone could watch this show and find tony to be an aspirational character and obviously the answer is in the way he’s framed. i think when you compare him to the rest of the big three peak tv antiheroes (don draper and walter white) he’s technically the most evil and i also think he’s the one who’s painted in the most sympathetic light, clearly evident in the way everyone around him is either a total baffoon or made to look one by the narrative. to me this is a classic case of the people writing a show misplacing its themes and ideas. in contrast, don is technically the least evil (i’ve said before those other two kill people don just cheats) but i think he’s framed the most critically. ofc you do feel sympathy for him, but i think he’s largely an aspirational figure to audiences because of the lie he’s constructed that is his life. audiences want to be him because he’s handsome rich brilliant and charming but don’t realize or care that all sits on top of his empty soul like oil on water. so that one is definitely on them.
I have posted this before but this deleted scene is literally everything to me and I hold it so close to my heart you have no idea
Like. He’s such a great guy it actually makes me sick. It’s like. Everything he does is so genuine and sweet and it’s just. He’s so soft spoken here it makes me dizzy. He’s so gentle and caring and UGH. My cheeks are red I am screaming into my pillow I am crying and kicking my feet. He’s so perfect he’s literally my everything.
every time my dad yells even if he’s just “raising” his voice to call one of my brothers over to him i flinch and my heart rate speeds up n my stomach drops n churns n i feel sick n if i think abt it too much like i am now my eyes sting just slightly like something inside me wants to cry from fear even tho i’m many many feet away safe inside my room alone w the door shut i still feel so so unsafe and it takes many many minutes and moments for me to calm down again i really hate this reaction i’m 22 years old why am i still responding like this trigger as if i’m a child i’m an adult he can’t yell at me anymore in fact he’s not even yelling AT me he’s yelling at someone else but still i jump n i feel my pulse pounding in my ears n temples i wish i would just stop being such a baby i wish i was stronger i don’t want to be afraid of people anymore
I was really sitting here like “2023 is the best year I’ve had in a long time in terms of ‘not trying to kill me’, I haven’t gotten sick once” and then I remembered the fucking catastrophic knee dislocation that’s had me limping since May