#I'm so annoyed lol fucking uterus.

[pomfiores]

✌🏾 i hate ERs ✌🏾

[sauntering-down]

it's Monday and i did not wake up in a good mood, so i cheered myself up by rereading that time i experienced the first book in the New Jedi Order EU Star Wars series and liveblogged it to @cassiopixie. yes, that's the book where Chewie dies. no, she did not warn me. in case you want to experience the Nonsense™ for yourself...

well, i'm just diving into Vector Prime with absolutely no knowledge of the larger EU, so we'll see what happens

can't believe that run-on got published

…in what universe would Threepio's voice be considered "melodious" Leia. honey. are you okay. blink once for yes and twice for no.

if Mara's eyes sparkle or twinkle one more time i'm gonna riot

Mary: I was suddenly slammed with the memory of how there's a whole side plot in the EU with Luke falling in love with a Force Ghost who possesses another body and is from the planet CHAD me: ...what the unholy fuck

jfc i hope "Wurth Skidder" isn't a name because it's a fecking terrible one

hm, getting the impression Nomnom might be a bit of a douchebag yeah, he and his buddies just stoned a pit full of droids to death

tell me what's wrong with this, Mary. prove you're better than whoever edited this novel. also they're all young, in case you forgot. in case you forgot Danni is a young woman… she's young.

ah yes, he happily removes his disguise and surveys his "ornamental disfigurements" like a split eyelid and torn mouth, because that's totally a normal thing to do

THEY FUCKING COMMUNICATE THROUGH LUMPS WITH EYES THAT THEY STROKE A LOT MARY I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS

the thing turns itself inside-out and resembles the head of the dude he's talking to. what. the. fuck!

ah yes, recreational organ transplants, my favorite activity

this Wookiee's name is Triebakk and i s2g i keep reading it as Trebek so this Wookiee is Alex Trebek, the beloved host of Jeopardy gets really funny when the dude howls in protest imagine someone getting a Jeopardy question wrong and Alex Trebek just screaming wordlessly at them

politics are boring. i hope Jacen goes full Darth Brayden on them soon and stabs somebody

me: how much younger is he than the twins? Mary: Like…three years younger, I think??? Mary: So obviously he's not a baby, but a BABY all the same me: the wiki says a year and a half lol. so he'd be between 14 and 15, since the twins are 16… me: not QUITE a baby. a senior baby, perhaps. (aka the reason Anakin Solo is referred to as 'Senior Baby' frequently for the rest of this thing)

this story is going to be an ordeal

okay yeah Anakin's 15 and fucked up the Falcon by trying some flashy flying lmao gosh i love reading about characters who don't, you know, get off on MUTILATING THEMSELVES

HAH Anakin insults the Falcon and Chewie threatens to bite the kid's lightsaber in half. this is why the sequels sucked. none of this tomfoolery.

Lando invented an asteroid-dodging game that's only MODERATELY dangerous and somehow i'm not surprised at all

Mary: God do these guys ever RELAX and NOT TORTURE EACH OTHER

me: that'd be a no Mary: I…are we just reading carefully disguised hentai? me: very possibly

Mara's sick, the ~mysterious illness~ aka what's probably like mutated YV sperm or something, these sick fucks, is attacking her uterus and she's afraid she won't be able to have children… got some news for ya, lady you'll have a Ben eventually. he's MUCH better than the one we have now, i'm sure…

Jacen's in a Mood so he goes to annoy his little brother, a relatable sentiment

oh god Jacen is in top "i'm older and i know best so let me lecture you" form

YES THEY'RE GONNA LIGHTSABER BATTLE FUCK EACH OTHER UP a proper non-masochistic beatdown fuck yeah

Han's still fixing the Falcon and in the process gets annoyed at Chewie and zaps him in the ass with a live wire. i think this is flirting.

HAN AND LEIA ARE STILL DEEPLY IN LOVE SO FUCK YOU SEQUELS

point in this book's favor, Leia occasionally feels a little jealous of Mara's mentor-student relationship with Jaina, but overall the two of them get along REALLY well and it's just nice to see. no bitchiness or nonsense. good female friendship.

Yomin Carr, sabotaging a ship: ew ew ew i have to touch this filthy technology with my pure mutilated Yuuzhan Vong hands

i'm glad you're my copilot on this adventure. i think otherwise i would've quit right around the time the sadomasochistic rituals started…

k we're starting off at a dock on a planet called Reecee. i initially read that as Reeeee and wondered why anyone needed that many Es

Lando: hugs Han Lando: hugs Leia LONGER Han: >:||||| Lando: gives Mara the ULTIMATE HUG Luke: hell yeah my wife totally deserves this

this rando Jedi named Kyp has the top time when it comes to racing through the asteroid belt and Jaina reeeeeally wants to beat him lol Jacen crashes Anakin does better and then faceplants into a giant asteroid Jaina finally crashes after 27 minutes, more than doubling Kyp's time Anakin hasn't come back so i'm just gonna assume he's still floating around out there until i'm told otherwise

MAYBE I'D RATHER READ ABOUT JAINA BEING BADASS THAN PEOPLE GETTING CLEAVED OPEN WITH AXES, YOMIN CARR. EVER THOUGHT OF THAT

lmao Kyp's squadron leaves while blasting music through the loudspeakers and showing off their cool flying

okay, so far Jaina is all awesome all the time, Jacen won't quit philosophizing, and Anakin's the only one who acts like a normal teenager

Kyp's squad is called the Dozen-and-Two Avengers and ngl that does not roll off the tongue at all

OH BOY now Lando wants Han to go to Sernpidal, aka the next target of ol' Nomnom and Luke and Mara are going to the planet Yomin Carr just climate-changed to death Leia tells Han to take their least exciting Senior Baby son with him

and Kyp figures out a way to make it to Sernpidal. DON'T DO IT THE YUUZHAN VONG ARE GOING TO HAVE PAIN ORGIES THERE AND THEN DROP A MOON ON THE PLACE

sweet, it's Miko! he's going to be fed to a tentacle beast shortly, but hey, he's alive for now what with all the hentai and sadomasochism so far, i guess vore was next on the board

Nom Nom and Da'Gara: wow can't wait to mentally break this Jedi before we toss him to the tentacles!!! evil chuckling

every time Anakin and Chewie are in the same room, they pick on one another lol Chewie, you're like, 300 years old. stop stooping to a fifteen-year-old's level

welp, apparently in seven hours the moon's going to crash into the planet. THANKS NOM NOM

they've figured out SOMETHING is pulling the moon down. i can tell them right now it's disgusting because the YV thrive on that shit Anakin's gonna go find it while Han and Chewie evac as many people as they can… look at Senior Baby, finally getting to do something

god dammit Artoo you're supposed to lay off the rum i bet you haven't been going to your AA meetings again

me: this stuff would be really cool if it wasn't the fucking Yuuzhan Vong Mary: It would also be cool if it wasn't ONE WHOLE SENTENCE

#relatable

MARA SHANKS THIS BITCH FUCK YEAH press F to pay respects to Yomin Carr? I DON'T THINK SO

oooh, Miko's still alive! i guess they're torturing him by tricking his brain into thinking he's being repeatedly vored

Anakin Solo Has Two Dads

Chewie just fucking YEETS Anakin at Han lol

me: OH MY GOD WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK me: WHAAAAAT THE FUUUUUUUCK Mary: …I didn't want to tell you that this was the infamous book where Chewie dies, but… me: CHEWIE NOOOOOO .__.

like, okay, getting an entire moon to the face is a badass way to go, but OMG WAS THAT REALLY NECESSARY??????

now i feel bad for Senior Baby. he is baby. someone give him a hug

well, at least Anakin Gets Shit Done, rescuing the x-wing while they're being attacked by insects and he fries them with some electricity, which even Han is happy about. i am also happy because the last couple interactions between them were difficult to read lol

me: oh good, Jacen's not being a dick to Anakin about what happened to Chewie me: awwww Jaina is a good sister, hugging him and all Mary: They're good sibs me: too bad about that death and Sith thing

maybe you should lend Mara to your sons for a while, especially Senior Baby

let's EAT while reading about the fucking Yuuzhan Vong jerking off to pain

i have to revise my earlier prediction, i kinda love them all might be ride-or-die for Senior Baby, surprisingly. he's growing on me

Anakin: alright Jaina's the good pilot let's do some wild telepathic mind-joining shit so she can kick ass and take names through us! Jacen: welp, okay

we were deprived of Darth Aiden and got Darth Jaiden instead. tragedy.

anyway, the sibs do amazing for a bit, but then Anakin gets overloaded and loses the bond then i think he blasts off into hyperspace to escape the asteroids before he goes splat, but blacks out in the process nobody has ANY idea where he went, but Han and Leia go after him anyway. good luck dudes

meanwhile, Anakin's chilling out in dead space like "well, if my sibs are okay, that's cool, i don't mind dying. if they're dead, i'm gonna fucking riot"

Da'Gara: maybe i should be worried about the lack of communication from Yomin Carr? nah lol gonna focus on glory and shit instead

Han: WHERE did these idiot kids get their recklessness from????? Leia: wow. much wonder. very surprise.

Lando: the pilot was wearing a mask we think connected her to the ship, but nobody's tested it. Luke: aight hold on a second

oh thank GOD Han's stopped being a dick, actually hugs his poor kid

Jacen gets to put on the creepy YV living pain suit and creepy YV living breathing apparatus such fun

Miko… goes down taking two more YV with him. godspeed, dude

Jaina, Consummate Badass Pilot, catches the iceborer and skips off into hyperspace in one gorgeous movement

the war council convenes and pretty much decides they are SO fucked …so they're gonna like. evaporate as much moisture off the planet as possible, cool it down so the volcanoes quit working and the entire thing freezes. that doesn't sound right but i don't know enough about science to refute it

Senior Baby getting all excited about physics over here

…there are NINETEEN books in the NJO series how many different ways can you have the Yuuzhan Vong fetishizing pain and destroying entire planets

Mary: Thank you for letting me come with you on this wild ride hahaha me: no problem, my dude me: i will never ever touch anything from the EU ever again me: fucking Yuuzhan Vong Mary: Any EU book is better than Crystal Star, where Luke is sad because he can't feel the Force because a sun exploded near them, so he joins a cult that worships a giant golden blob me: that's just an average Wednesday afternoon for me

[werewolfrevenge]

Some writing just figure out how I want hypotonic insanity caleon to be :P also Casey is nonbinary and uses any pronouns so I switch between the way I refer to their pronouns in this lol

Leon sat next to Casey on the concrete and sighed softly “….i feel like I just got a Pap smear done” he remarked before wiping some blood from his nose that stupid purple dragon punk almost bashed his nose in. Casey giggles loudly leaning against his golf bag “That good, or bad?” The vigilante teased, Leon shot a glare over at Casey “you ever had a good feelings after a Pap smear?” Casey laughed before pausing “Oh okay. Just makin' sure, I wouldn't know, never been to a gynecologist.” The blacked hair vigilante mumbled softly

“EVERYONE WITH A UTERUS NEEDS TO GET A PAP SMEAR CASEY!” Leon shouted “you need to see a doctor! You…..have you heard of cervix cancer?” Casey snickered waving off Leon’s worries completely “ohhhh Whatevah, I'm fine. I don't need a doctor to tell me that. I think I'd know if there was somethin' wrong down there cause it's my body right?” Leon rubbed his temples in frustration “One of these days you’re gonna get a uti I swear to Christ! Jones your supposed to go to the gyno every year?” “I drink a lot of pineapple juice, so I don't think I'm gonna have a uti anytime soon. That helps right? Or is it oranges? I dunno.” Casey shrugged rubbed the back of their head

Leon blinked in disbelief “I think pineapple juice is something else……” Casey chuckled in response “oh What is it for then wise guy? Enlighten me.” “Fuck if I know” Leon replied back snappily he groaned as his shell cell went off “oh great” Casey raises an eyebrow getting slightly annoyed by Leon’s dismissal of their questions “So what is it? Pineapple helps with something. What is it huh?”

Leon covered Casey’s mouth with his hand “hush! April’s calling” Casey takes a deep breath and tries to hold in her laughter but can't, as she bursts out laughing uncontrollably and begins kicking her feet in the air. Leon rolled his eyes to the high heavens “Jones quit it before I punt you all the way over to Jersey!” Leon hissed in an annoyed tone before April on the other line immediately decided to hang up.

Casey giggles and sticks her tongue out “What what if I doooooon't stop? What are ya gonna' do then?” Casey taunted keeping her tongue stuck out to annoy Leon on purpose though it sorta hurt her tongue piercing at the same time, Leon huffed in frustration “Oh shut the fuck up jones” Leon replied with another roll of his eyes his noses scrunching up in annoyance. Casey grinned at at him in amusement before making finger guns and shooting the finger guns at him. “Oh whatever nicoleeeeeee.” Leon scoffed softly as he leaned in close enough to kiss maybe the kiss would finally happen “ey cool it jones don’t need the whole block hearing you spewing out my middle name!” Casey's heart started to race at the thought of kissing him, as he leaned forward a little bit his lips slightly apart, waiting for Leon to respond and give him that kiss they've been dreaming of for months.

Leon pulled away and got off the ground “see ya around jones I gotta go help don with a science thing” Casey sits there, a bit stunned by his sudden move to get up and leave, her heart beating rapidly and her lips still slightly apart in confusion and disappointment. “...See ya.” Leon looked back and gave a huge smile to Casey “come over to my place for dinner sometime jones I have some killer recipes I know more than just paranormal stuff!” Casey blushes as the words hit her, her heart beating even faster and her heart skipping a beat, giving a nervous smile “..Sure, that'd be... nice.”

[lilyundertaker]

April bullies day 12 - Mommy! part 1

Pairing: bully!Ran x reader;

Genre: TokRev AU, smut, one-shot;

Warnings: 18+, dub-con, physical abuse, blood, mnetions of stillbirth (not really tho), pregnancy (mentioned), lactation kink, titty sucking, mommy kink, vaginal penetration, creampie;

Synopsis: Ran and Rindou are surviving through getting other students lunch money as they have been orphaned and are living with a drunkard uncle. You are their new potential money bag, as you, a transfer student, have rich parents. Finding out some truth about you, Ran decides to make you their mommy.

Note: Don't ask me how I came up with something as sick as this, I'm still trying to figure it out myself LOL.

You thought that the transfer to Roppongi academy would be a blessing, taking into account that recently you’ve had a pregnancy, which was unfortunately unsuccessful as your child died in the first hour after birth. You were still experiencing the aftermath of your pregnancy, the most annoying being the fact that you were still producing milk like crazy, despite not even having a child anymore.

The new place seemed ok so far as your classmates seemed nice enough, that is until a person known as Ran entered the classroom like a king and sat on the teacher’s table. “I hear we have new meat in this class!” he shouted. “So where is the fucking newbie?” he demanded looking all around the classroom, trying to pinpoint the odd one out.

All of your classmates suddenly looked your way, making Ran release an evil giggle. “What an addition to this shithole.” He said in a fake-amazed tone, inching closer to you. “I guess no one has told you that as soon as you enter the school, you’re supposed to hand me in the weekly payment.” You shivered from the whispers that landed to your right ear and nearly jumping out of your skin as his arm touched your shoulder. The next thing what happened was his fist connecting with your belly and you nearly throwing up all of your breakfast. “That ought to be your lesson!” and it sure was.

The next day you brought in the weekly payment and hoped to be done with it, but the Haitani’s sure as hell weren’t done with you. You see, the Haitani brothers were like stray dogs fighting for scraps, orphaned at the age of 13 (for Ran) and 12 (for Rin) and forced to live with an alcoholic for an uncle. They were abused and starved, so the only way to fill their bellies was whether by stealing or beating up students for their money. The latter was always easier. You, still being a newbie, knew nothing of Haitani’s. In fact, you were the stark opposite of them – having your own apartment and rich parents that were doing more work oversees than being at home, so it wasn’t really difficult for you to live alone.

Money became the reason why the Haitanis would always pick on you, as you had more money than anyone else in the school. Other students sometimes gave up your hiding spots, thus saving their lunch money, whilst you were beaten up for hiding.

On one occasion you didn’t even bother to pick any money with you since the brothers would take it away from you anyways, but that proved to be a huge mistake as the brothers beat you up so hard that you began to bleed from your uterus. The sharp pain in your belly made you pass out and Rin sensing the danger thought to flee, whilst Ran insisted of getting you to the nurses office, fearing you might bleed out (he’s a guy with his ‘guy logic’).

The nurse explained that you are suffering the aftermath of a not-so successful pregnancy and you were still producing milk. That sentence alone made Ran’s mouth water. She was not only a money bag but a walking fridge. Ran volunteered to stay there until you wake, lock up the place and get you home safely, so that the nurse could catch her bus in time.

As soon as she was out of sight Ran lifted your shirt, his eyes sparkling upon seeing the wet spots on your bra. He tore it open from the front and gave your left nipple a lick, testing whether you’d wake up from the contact. Once your stillness was confirmed he latched his mouth to your breast and began sucking out the milk like a newborn. His eyes were closed, and he was enjoying every sip of it, loving the sweet taste of it. Ran felt his pants getting too tight for him as well, but at this moment it was more important to feed. He had already forgotten what a mother’s love felt like, how a mother’s soft touch felt like, how a mother’s moan…wait, his mother didn’t moan. Ran lifted his gaze seeing that you were still out cold, but you were unconsciously feeling the pleasure he gave you. “Fuck, mommy!”. He began sucking from the other breast, the milking flowing out of it even more than from the other.

Ran was nearly finished when all of a sudden you woke up. You were ready to scream with all your might, but the guy swiftly blocked it with his palm. “Don’t scream or you’ll be unconscious for a week!” an empty threat that worked perfectly, knowing how much valuable it would be to have you around.

He finally got to his erection, freeing his cock from it’s binds and lazily pulling down your trousers. Ran ordered you to get on your hands and knees and he entered you with full force, nearly knocking you off the bed. “Oh fuck mommy, who would’ve known that sucking your tits would make you this wet.” He exclaimed and ploughed into your whole without mercy, moaning out as loud as he could, knowing that the building was nearly deserted.

What Ran wasn’t aware of was his brother watching some parts of the scene, gripping his shirt with his teeth to block out his grunts of pleasure and pumping his cock as fast as he could.

Ran squeezed your breast, massaging them as some milk was still dripping out. It felt like ages since anyone had been fucking you and it would be a big fat lie if you’d say that you didn’t enjoy this. Ran’s cock skillfully abused your g-spot, making you gasp and moan from every contact with it. He had made you forget where you were as you also began to moan out shamelessly.

In a few thrusts run came inside of you and rubbed his right hand on your sensitive pearl to force an orgasm out of you as well.

He rearranged his clothing and helped you out with yours since you still felt some pain in your belly and the pleasure from your recent high. By the time Ran was locking up the nurse’s office, Rindou was already gone, rushing home flustered from the scene he had just witnessed. He didn’t get to finish as well so he was eager to masturbate his frustration out as soon as possible.

You’re gonna be such a good mommy for us, Ran thought as he accompanied you to your house.

[papirouge]

Those "edgy" pro choicers are definitely super annoying 😑. It's becoming harder not to out myself as pro life on main lmao. "Fetuses are parasites anyway, they deserve to be punished by death for getting in MY uterus without MY consent" fuck you lol. If you absolutely didn't want to get pregnant, birth control or abstinence is a thing. It's like most pro choicers forget that pregnancy is a normal consequence of heterosexual sex. Yeah you also consent to pregnancy if you let a man ejaculate in your vagina / if you ejaculate in a woman's vagina. Even birth control isn't 100% effective so you should always expect pregnancy if you have heterosexual sex. They act so surprise and almost traumatized when it happens. I just don't get it. Are they that dumb ??? That brainwashed ? What a sad world we live in.

FACTS✅

I think that's the most infuriating thing with pro choice feminist : they'll be like "women are so powerful we can do everything!!!💪♀️" but when it's about pregnancy? "oh but I'm so weak uwu my body [that's literally made to host babies] is not going to bear with it and I am sooo going to die because of it uwu". Notice they're hellbent on using US data for pregnancy death to project their pathological bias against abortion when other developed countries with a better healthcare system than the US (which isn't difficult bc American healthcare system is trash) pregnancy death rates are almost NONEXISTENT. In my country (France) they're below 1%. So pregnancy death isn't a pregnancy issue, it's a HEALTHCARE issue. But abortioners conveniently move the goalpost for their ideology.

You're not the first woman to tell me she's afraid to come as pro life on main because pro choicers can be rabid hysterical. Lowkey I think that's because deep down they know killing a baby is wrong so they'll cope with rootless ideology & emotionalism to justify it.

Surprisingly, a handful of radical feminist aligned women are pro life, but they're too scared to face radfem backlash, who also are a whole brand of hysteria and ideological inconsistency.

You're absolutely right about how pregnancy doesn't happen out of a vacuum and that heterosexuality is made for procreation. Abortionists trying to argue "consenting to sex isn't consenting to pregnancy" make as much sense as someone stating they want to go rafting in a river without getting wet.... Pure ideology removed from reality.

I once made a post asking why was that the same people who grasped that no one was entitled to sex were still freaking out whenever when abstinence was brought up as a valid way to avoid unwanted pregnancy. And radfem -as usual- acted sassy but...were unable to tell where my post was wrong ; because it wasn't. You can't in the same time argue sex isn't a right (to call out rape culture or TRA thinking "superstraights" owe them sex), and then act like bringing up "abstinence" was an attack against (female) sexuality. Why being so defensive about access to sex? Especially since no one is forcing anyone to NOT have sex ; just telling that it is a possibility. And yet that simple possibility makes radfem uncomfortable. Probably bc they're more sex crazed as they're willing to accept they are? Something they're somehow hellbent to input to men, and not women.

[applejongho]

2020, a year that will live in infamy. This list, some book series' or standalones that will live rent free in my heart for the next three and a half years.

Books that Got Me Through 2020 (so you can read them in 2021)

The Infernal Devices Series - Cassandra Clare

part of the enormous shadowhunter series (the mortal instruments, for example, and you don't have to read it first but you can)

literally??? the best fuckin love triangle to exist?? ever??

like seriously I don't like love triangles but I'd murder for this one

wonderfully developed characters

WONDERFULLY DEVELOPED CHARACTERS

off the rails badass demon fighting pretty black haired boy

gentle and kind (half) chinese violinist that I would jump off of a building for that also fights demons

shapeshifting bibliophile girl that's trying to protect and simultaneously figure out her family bc her dad is probably a demon

like magic? fighting demons? vampires? warlocks? 19th century london? ANGST??? yeah read this

I don't cry over books but I cried over the epilogue of the third book

The Cruel Prince Series - Holly Black

are you a hoe for enemies to lovers?

if yes then this series will make you their bitch

literally the BEST angry female character I've read ever

like she's not annoying or overly brash or dark or angsty, she just living in a world that hates her while being the badass queen she is

and the prince

OH he's a joy to read

he's a lil bitch and I love him (read: dramatic bitch)

he's also a fairy (and she's not)

and basically says he hates her during make out sessions so

one of my favorite dynamics... ever

and some of the descriptions and words... *chef's kiss* I still think about them even today

a bit of lgbtq representation (bi girl that dates a girl) but not the main focus

I think I ate up the first book in two days which is insane for me

The Poppy War Series - R.F. Kuang

this author is literally a sadist bc none of the characters make it out happy

fjjdkddk besides that: imagine imperialist Japan and yu-gi-oh and combine them together

like literally the humans start controlling the gods it's metal af

heavy as hell series that has implied rape and implied massacre, but the majority of the series is a war so that's a little expected

it's not classified as YA, it's adult, and is based on true events of the sino-japanese war

main character is also extremely badass, she literally destoys her uterus after getting a period for the first time bc she hated the pain

that alone should compel you

would recommend if you like getting slammed into walls

also! the first part of the book is a lot like harry potter (students going to a school to train for a hypothetical war if it ever came) but then the second half and the rest of the books is Actually The War, It's Here Now, Suffer

there's also a character that's basically draco malfoy but 10000x sexier and I should mention that I was a slut for draco for about a year of my life so that says a lot

and the author is a POC!

The Southern Book Club's Guide to Slaying Vampires - Grady Hendrix

a group of housewives that essentially everyone thinks are dumb af and incapable of anything besides giving birth and raising children fight an immortal, bloodthirsty, and generally dick vampire

honestly I've seen reviews saying this book is kinda sexist (author is a white man) but as a woman I didn't see any problems? Idk

I read it via an audiobook and I think it would be kinda dry to read as a physical book bc it's sorta slow in the beginning

but then the second half is A Ride™

a rly unorthodox book! and I enjoyed it

also heavy themes such as rape and (overt) sexism (the setting is the south in the 90s)

but just a good book to read if you like seeing the underdog prevail

and the description and the depiction of the vampire is v unique, he's not your typical vampire, he's like,,,

an immortal god that drinks blood

yeah

The Dark Artifices Series - Cassandra Clare

another cc book series lol

same premise as the other one: fantasy creatures and demon hunters except it's modern day

there is SO much lgbtq+ representation (imo, I think it was done well. other people think otherwise tho)

like a black trans woman opening up about her struggles of transitioning, which isn't something I see a lot (ig I don't read enough books abt trans people? or the fantasy genre doesn't have enough of them)

fairies fairies fairies fairies

there's also a crap ton of characters bc the main character's family is enormous

and they're all developed SO WELL

LIKE FR THE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT YES

a dumptruck load of angst and ✨forbidden romance✨ that's almost as big as my ass

honestly this is one of those series' that you don't even realize you've finished it until you've shut the cover of the final book and you're zapped back to reality

Six of Crows Series - Leigh Bardugo

oh

my god

this series is honestly everything I ever wanted into a book

physically and mentally disabled characters? yep

diverse characters of color? yep

lgbtq diversity? yes ma'am!

interesting and exciting plotline? i n d e e d

six loveable main characters that could probably murder me in my sleep! fuck yeah

plotline is basically a heist novel and these characters have to do this near impossible mission in order to get glory

oh and they all wanna kill each other

two of them wanna fuck but also fucking hate each other and I love that for them

not a romance heavy book tho, but the romance (as a subplot) that is there is 10000/10 y'know

if you're in a book slump I recommend this to awaken you from your drought bc this quenched my thirst and I'm thirsty af

happy reading!!!

[marshmallow-phd]

You know I'm not really into zodiacs stuff, but, Suho It's one of my ultimate bias and he's a gemini, exactly like my boyfriend.

On their own way, they are really alike. My boyfriend it's really funny and LOOVE dad jokes and puns. Sometimes he's really silly, but I guess I like it (hihi). On the other hand, he's annoingly responsable and really faithfull. Sometimes he's one of the sweetest person's that I have meet, but sometimes, he annoys the fuck out of me (so much, that I want to kill him sometimes). But I guess I can't help it, he's the most smart and cult guy that I ever have meet (If I don't like the person's personallity, I can't be fully atracted to her).

I guess I could go well with JB maybe, he seems really mature and responsabile, but at the same time dorky, I like it. I think that maybe, you are looking for a gemini guy. He's going to make you fall so hard for him, but at the same time are going to make you want to kill him because he's playing with your head.

Anyway, I ALSO feel my periods cramps on my back. Once, my grandma said she used to have cramps like that too and this type of cramps are the closest to the labor birth pain. 😑

💙 Anon

I honestly never really think about zodiacs. Its not my thing, but that’s honestly kind of funny lol. But my mind is kind of blown because I literally dreamed about JB last night.... I NEVER dream about JB! It was a crazy dream based on one of my favorite books (which honestly makes no sense because its a Romeo & Juliet retelling/reincarnation and neither of us are Italian). 

When I say that I am ready to fall in love, I mean it! But I’ll still wait patiently because right now, kind of hard to meet anyone. Hopefully 2021 won’t be too rude. 

I did read somewhere that cramps that occur in the lower back are basically “practice contractions” for your uterus and I was just like... great! I get to practice childbirth almost every month! Wonderful! (its honestly not too bad and usually only on the first day. I’m already feeling better today!)

💕

[justasouthernlady]

50 questions tag

Yah this will take a while but I love it and @katdefbeom who tagged me for this mess. 💚

1. What takes up too much of your time?

(Honesty hour?) Worrying, reading

2. What makes your day better?

Coffee / working out / sunshine

3.whats the best thing that happened to you today?

I got to see one of my sweet pals and chat with her over desserts

4.what fictional place would you like to go to?

I'm going to agree with @katdefbeom howls moving castle universe or Hogwarts for me.

5. Are you good at giving advice?

I dunno? I guess? You tell me! People say I am.. so yes?

6.do you have any mental illnesses?

Yup! Social anxiety and general anxiety.

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?

Nope!

8. What musician inspired you the most?

To do what? Overall? Ahhh dolly Parton cos she gives no fucks and JB from got7 cos like damn boy can write a song.

9. Have you ever fallen in love?

Yes, all the time hahaha

10.whats your dream date?

Book shopping and then reading the newly bought books in a cafe, possibly holding hands while reading or just our legs / feet are touching.

11. What do others notice about you?

I have no idea. I'm nice and have good teeth? I don't feel v noticable lol.

12. What's an annoying habit you have?

I pick at my fingers when I'm nervous or anxious, and I bounce my right leg a lot.

13. Do you still talk to your first love?

Lol no. He was emotionally manipulative and a huge flaccid penis so no.

14. How many ex's do you have?

4.

15. How many songs are in your playlist?

Which one? My biggest playlist has like 500 songs in it, my shortest one has 10. But over all I'm sure it's like 7,000 songs.

16. What instruments can you play?

Flute, piano (kinda piano)

17. Who do you have the most pictures of?

I have pictures of paintings and statues from museums lol. But ahhh probs chanyeol.

18. Where would you like to go before you die?

Japan. China. South Korea. Singapore (in that order I think)

19. What's your zodiac?

LIBRA

20.do you relate to it?

Yaaaaas. A fancy bitch who loves love and tries to balance shit out. ME AF.

21. What is happiness to you?

Good Coffee, someone I love, friends, family, a good perfume.

22. Are you going through anything right now?

When aren't I going through something???

23. What's the worst decision you ever made.

Deciding to be a clingy bitch. Also getting into a serious relationship when I didn't know who the fuck I was (I was 18 like WOW girl no!)

24. What's your favourite store?

Urban outfitters and muji. Your girl is in both all the time.

25. (HALFWAY!) what's your opinion on abortion.

A woman has the right to choose, that's a decision her and her doctor need to make on whether it's right for her. My stance is "no uterus no opinion"

26. Do you keep a bucket list?

No that shit would make me anxious lol

27. Do you have a favourite album?

Not that I can think of

28. What do you want for your birthday?

Cake and books

29. What are most peoples first impression of you?

I DUNNOOOO I dont ask cos I dont want to know. But probably quiet, nice, labrador face? Too many feelings?

30. What age do you seem according to most people?

Most people think I'm like anywhere from 19-22. I look like a baby uuugghhhh. But I'm def the responsible friend and will take care of you lol.

31. Where do you keep your phone when you're sleeping?

Next to me?

32. What word do you say the most?

Probs "FUUUUCK" Or "V"

33. What's the oldest age you'd date?

32.

34. What's the youngest age you'd date?

21? Probs not though really, boys be dumb.

35. What job / career do most people say would suit you?

Kindergarten teacher or an art historian.

36. What's your favourite music genre?

Kpop as of rn

37. If you could live in any country in the world where would it be?

Ahhh Canada? Close enough to home but with universal healthcare

38. What is your current favourite song?

Too many to think of just one ahhh PASS.

39. How long have you had this blog for?

9 years.

40. What are you excited for?

Ateez concert

41. Are you a better talker or listener?

I do both very well 😂

42. What is the last productive thing you did?

Mail boxes

43. What do you want for Christmas?

Someone special hahaha

44. What class do you get the best grades in?

History

45. On a scale of 1-10 how do you feel right now?

Ahhhhhhh solid 4.5 outta ten

46. What can you see yourself doing in 10 years?

God I have no idea. I'll probs have kids? And a cute dog and like a proper job? Who knows

47. When did you get your first heartbreak?

17.

48. At what age do you wanna be married?

PRESSURE. No idea. Before I'm 40 sounds good.

49. What career did you want to have as a child?

Ballerina, Veterinarian.

50. What do you crave right now?

Cant tell you, it's a secret secret.

I'll tag: @gyomies @sundropsoo @into-the-kpop-void @jongin-be-my-jagi and anyone else who feels like it 💕💕💕

[lucymarion]

better off unlocked

so i was taking a shower earlier and then i realized that i was going to turn 19 this year. and it's so weird and scary because i still feel like i'm 17. i know thats just a 2 year gap but still, 19 is too near to 20 which is like an official adult age ??? and some people get married at 20 and they build homes and pop babies out of their bodies and and some of them are living on their own and they have a job and theyre still in school like sometimes i just feel like i will be a useless adult kase feeling ko nahuhuli ako :(

and dont get me wrong i am still young I Know That 19 is 46 years from 65 which is retirement age so i still have time to save up and work my ass off to pamper my old 65 ass in the future (if ever im gonna live that long) but then.,.,.,. responsibilities...

i have decided to never get married. like sobrang sure ko na na hanggang dates lang siguro kaya ko or baka nga kahit talking stage hindi ko magawa kasi you'll have to talk to them and idk meet their expectations and make efforts to keep up with their pace and be patient and actually express your love to them like pano kung im having a depressive week and i dont want to talk to anyone??? i cant just shut them out and schedule kung kailan ko sila kakausapin and I Gotta Talk To Them... so they could understand and we 'solve' My probalem together....... no

so yeah no marriage is not on my todo list anymore. making is super mahirap na nga eh :/

anywho yes turning 19 is a very weird concept to me because its like a ????? stage like am i still in pedia or am i a full fledged adult now? i still dont have a passport or any offical government id is that fine? i dont have a job rn is that weird???

maybe id look back to these posts when im 30 then im just gonna laugh at how whiny i sound LOL fuck you 30 year old me you gotta remember how much you sturggled while growing up

growing up is weird its really fucking weird one moment youre hanging out with your friends sa may table malapit sa cavana tapos 50 years lates youll be attending their funeral. then you'll say their children and their spouses and you'll just feel weird like wow. you really lived a full life birth to death thats fucking amazing and weird and scary

but like why am i thinking about this?? i just noticed how weird i am whenever age comes up i get all sad and fucking nostalgic like ???? shut the fuck uo maybe?????

this perdev teacher i have is so so so so good he just hits the right spot whenever he stops sharing his screen and just talks to us and asks us questions. nagtanong siya last session namin if ano bang nakikita namin sa sarili namin in the future. one of my classmates said na doctor daw siya tapos may asawa't anak siya. that's pretty hardcore for a high school student and i really admired how brave they are for seeking their other half while practicing medicine like????? sobrang hands down.

then syempre got me thinking ano bang nakikita ko sakin and i shit you not it always ends up the same. im always alone in my imaginations like ,, so im a nurse. working in the er because thats where i wanna always work. and then i do my job and then i go home. sometimes i think about an apartment. maybe 1 bedroom and then its just me. then sometimes naman i have my own house. homeowner ako minsan pero magisa parin ako just with a bigger house and more bathrooms. sometimes i think of adopting a child if i wont be using my uterus. then raise her as my own and pamper her and guide her kung san man siya pupunta sa buhay niya. tapos id watch her grow and get mad at me and maybe she'll cook for me and introduce me to her partner and watch her get married. then maybe id pass in a hospice kasi she will be too busy to remember me over her own family. id die happy nonetheless lol :D but then it just always ends the same always the same finale always the same ending always alone always just me

anywho i gotta stop whining this is just very annoying thinking is a sickness i think as a society we should just stop thinking and just go with the flow of life

i started watching the x-files yesterday!!! i wil be very honest i am really satisfied with this show but my mind ks very tired now so i will nnot expand this thought fuether

my brain js getting sleepy now and my fingers cant type properly now

good night

[tamiddyinyourcity]

11:40pm.

I may have a stroke and die if I keep this up. Not entirely my own fault, though.

Thursday, April 2nd of 2020.

So before 10am tomorrow, I must:

Clean all the breadcrumbs or napkins from my bed

......

I thought the list was longer.

I must be putting too many loads onto myself.

I signed up for one too many free online courses when I hardly have an easy time getting out of bed in the mornings. (Since I stay up too late, and feel guilt over not being productive past 2am, lol.)

Had several rude awakenings recently, both the day my mom came into my room to announce she was moving out, and today when my mom burst in before noon to get a head start on throwing shit out. (YOU CAN'T JUST BURST INTO MY ROOM SUPER EARLY THE DAY BEFORE YOU TOLD ME YOU WOULD COME, MOTHER.)

And she did other annoying shit, but all I can say is, "She's a stupid fucking control freak that gets off on feeling like she has some power over me."

What a bitch. :)

Anyway, it's 11:57pm.

I'm mainly trying to figure out how to balance cleaning, helping Eli out, doing my coursework without instantly dropping out due to exhaustion and just a weak attention span these days... and more.

Niggas annoy me.

I'll just take things slow......

For now, just spray the bed and shake out those crumbs. Whatever I can't control, I don't need to worry about.

And if that fuckass slut decides to go through my drawers or dump shit everywhere, then it will solidify me moving the absolute fuck out. :)

She better not act a fucking clown. My violent thoughts are coming back, and a lot of things have my nerves up. So the nihilistic urge to break the smug jaw off of that yellowbone hoe's face with a club is always in the back of my head, and every action she takes to go out of her way to spite me brings me closee to turning fantasy into a reality.

With that said, I've been watching too many "Kill Count" videos.

Plus, the documentary Tiger King was also kinda shocking. I didn't expect the scene where a guy planned a murder, or the woman who fed her husband to the tigers....

I should avoid "pro-revenge-murder" content, till I reach a happier headspace.

.......

I shouldn't worry so much.

So much has me on edge. How much I've spent on food delivery. The bumfuck economy. The government. And seeing how boring talk shows are when they are just nationwide streamed skype calls.

Yikes. :)

But, manifesting great shit:

My mother's actions do not affect me, hurt me, or harm me.

My mother's treatment is a projection od her own insecurities.

Life is full of light and abundance.

I desire fresh fruit and peaceful spaces in my household for me to reside in, safely and comfortably.

I desire walls lined with my artwork, scripts, and photographs to inspire me every single day of my life.

I desire lit candles, incense, and perfume to make my room the amazingly radiant space I'd desire for myself.

Clean walls, fresh smells, and good sleep is ahead of me.

God bless and amen.

That does help me feel better.

.....

I just felt a specific uterus cramp.

Has that much time passed already? Dear gosh....

Also, I'm listening to BMO!

I'm not sad! Or, not until I told myself, "Oh look!!!! You're listening to the Break Me Off song!! And not thinking about that time you cried watching Uncut Gems since you still wanted to fu--" Do I need to write the rest? Yall can find that for yourself.

I miss him a little, but not so much these days. Just the little things, like how his eyes flashed blue when he looked at me from the corner of his eye, or the smirk/grin he did when he was open about feeling happy, and genuinely wanted to express it.

Where did I put those earrings he gave me? The abalone shell ones. I don't think of him, they're just a sweet story to remember, and I like that he got them for me.

He's probably doing fine.

I don't feel the need to comment on how to feel about that.

Anyways.

....

12:30am.

I'm still unsure of how Rowan sees me.

He's cute as hell but like..... I don't know, fam.

I'm pretty damn bad at the whole "distance yourself from people you're not sure even like you" shit.

Hell, why else do you think I kept seeing my ex? If it was as easy as blocking a number or getting a painting back, a bitch would've been happy, yknow? And boy, look at how that bit me hard in the ass.

Whatever.

......

I just enjoy the fellow's company.

I think he usually messages me first when he thinks I'm awake, just to check in. He knows this quarantine shit is particularly bad.

A pretty nice dude. Too bad the UK is ridiculously far. I would've BEEN cuffed if that weren't the case.

Oh well.

12:37am. I better go to sleep soon.

Also, I may or may not curse out Patrick #1. I'm a lot more hotheaded lately? Some of it is just a classic case of These Bitches Are Idiotic, and other times its My Ego Is Hurt And Anger Covers Up The Wounds.

Also, Azalea is a whore. If you're reading this, whore, drink some fucking water and take a few laps every time you consider reading my page again. Do some healthy shit, dumb whore.

Anyways, I am tired and easily angered recently.

Gonna force myself to sleep soon.

High stress you know?

Peace out.