#I'm so fucking dramatic nearing the end lmaooo

[will-o-wips]

One of these days... I will figure out how tumblr works (finally) and make actual posts y'know. (Currently the only thing I'm struggling with is figuring out how to like, make links that don't take up the entire page, but rather are hidden with words. Can you do that on the mobile app? Or do I need to use my laptop and NO HTML knowledge whatsoever to try and get it? If anybody who knows sees this [frankly barely a handful of people, I know] please educate me I will actually thank you so much.) I will write and refuse to not write.

Out of everything I've been doing lately, me finishing a bunch of stuff from my Genshin WIP checklist is like my proudest moment ever. The wordcount and green coloured boxes are increasing exponentially. This means, however, I gotta make a masterpost of all of my Genshin fics once I actually do finish that enormous checklist in my spreadsheet. I think that me pinning that post will label me as either a madman or a traitor lmaooo, since I am not playing Genshin anymore nor will I ever return, but I think also making an introduction post with more links would be handy for that. That way I can categorize the fandoms I have written for, and what my interests are ig.

(side-tangent: I still don't entirely get how sideblogs work? Like I've made one and deleted it after I saw that it was not allowing me to detach this blog from that one, but like... is it useful for anything else? Like genuinely some people have sideblogs that seem so unrelated to their main blog and I'm worried that maybe I'm just horribly incompetent with technology atp. I should look up "how to tumblr" tutorials on youtube or somewhere man. Wikihow my next best friend, huh.)

This is more of a personal account anyway, but I'd like to think I could end up making some friends via tumblr only, rather than sit around in discord servers hoping for the best. Maybe participation in fandom is also gonna be good? I'd like to be a part of this thing that I'd never really had a chance to explore fully because I'd been too socially awkward to be anything more than a ghost when I was younger.

I wanna write. I wanna see whether people like my writing, whether it resonates; whether I can do justice to the work that inspired me to write it. I wanna have discussions with people about things.

It's such a large and exciting world out there, and I wanna see it. I wanna see it even if I end up flying too close to the sun and sink into the depths of oblivion.

At least then, I'd have seen it.

[vole-mon-amour]

6x01.

Well, you ARE gay, lol.

NO FUCKING WAY???? I did not expect to see Ben anywhere near this show, lol. The 'real' Mac is kind of more badass than this one, lmaooo.

This is a comedy actually. Like, yeah, they reversed the age when irl Joan is younger and Mac is older. And in both cases it's like they're their toys to play with which is awful. But the way it's portrayed, with long pauses and dramatic effects. This is both hilarious and ridiculous.

Anyway, give me this tape for real because look at those hands.

SCREAMING. Yeah, this is a comedy.

lmaooo

Joan turning Harley, lol.

When antis tell me i'm a freak for shipping something they find unacceptable. Cheers, bro, I'll drink to that. She's such a mood.

Another queen. Women, especially when furious. <3

This episode keeps getting better and better. Reminds me of, idk, season 3? 4? Don't remember, but the one where they portray a video game maybe? A Star Trek/Mass Effect related? Where they also used an image of a real person.

UPD: I googled. I'm talking about USS Callister

Show me another show that can pull this off. The fact that their reality CGI show is also gonna portray this. Joan teaming up with 'Joan'. Amazing.

They're girlfriends now. <3

You are out of your fucking mind. I fucking hate capitalism.

Why does it feel like it's a nod to The Social Network?

QUEEEN!!

SHOW ME ANOTHER SHOW LIKE THIS. Amazing. Gosh, it's been years since I watched BM & I didn't expect anything. I wasn't even thrilled about it bc the previous season was kind of meh, as long as I can remember? But this ep is niiiice.

Worth it. <3

THEY'RE GIRLFRIENDS NOW IRL

The music at the end, when Annie visits her, gets so uplifting, so promising. This episode is definitely more than I expected. Sure, the rewatch wouldn't leave me with such impression but still. It's worth watching at least once I think.

[tinysushimark]

Leather Jacket (NJM)

best friend au! swearing, consumption of alcohol, suggestive(?), fluff(?) idk man. (1.2k words)

"Ohooooooo." Jaemin shouted looking at you up and down. "Wow! So SEXYYYYYY!" He screamed again.

"What the fuck is wrong with you Jaemin?" You said fixing your hair.

His hands went up in the air slowly, fists closing and he started to dance like an idiot.

"Y/N is gonna get some tonight! Ohooooooo! She won't annoy me! Ohooooooo." Jaemin continued saying in a weird tone.

"Who are you going out with though?"

"I told you."

"No you didn't." Jaemin stopped dancing, confusion clear on his face. Your mouth formed a small oh remembering that you told your female best friend and not Jaemin.

"I told Em-"

"You didn't tell me! SEE I TOLD YOU!" Jaemin stomped his foot and pouted.

"Mark. I'm going out with Mark."

"Looking that fancy for Mark Lee?"

You raised your eyebrows at him a small smirk forming on your lips. "Why you jealous?"

"Jealous? Me?" Jaemins eyes went wide and then he laughed. "What are you even thinking you chipmunk?" He rolled on your bed and you just stared at him.

"WHY WOULD I BE JEALOUS LMAOOO!" he screamed while laughing.

You turned around focusing on your lashes.

"But Mark hyung of all people?"

You snickered. "He's my wingman, why would i ever go out with him?"

"I dont know, he looks good."

"You look good, that doesn't mean I'll date you."

"Mark hyung is your type."

"Jeon Jungkook is my type."

"Jaehyun hyung did say he'd set you up."

"Wouldn't date someone that perfect." You smacked your lips together, letting the Lip balm and lipstick blend well.

"Date Jisung."

"No, thank you. Won't date a kid." You grabbed your bag and stuffed your essentials in it.

"Mark hyung is the worst person to be a wingman."

You put your lip balm in the purse and looked up at him, as he sat on the bed in his white t-shirt and black pajamas.

"I asked you, you said no."

"I wouldn't! EVER! say no to a place with free booze." He stood on the bed, dramatic actions an obvious.

"No free booze."

"No free Na Jaemin."

"You don't even drink that much."

"Free booze is still free."

"Fine. I'll buy you booze." You stared at him.

"Bad idea." Jaemin said and got up from the bed. "Do you have a pair of my clothes?"

"Yes, through the closet in the right, small blue bag." You smiled, you knew that if you said you'd buy him Everything he needed for a party, he'd come along and you already kind of knew that Mark wasn't the best wingman.

He couldn't even talk straight to you if you dressed up a little and he didn't like talking to people in general. The last time he was your wingman you ended up asking him to make out with you because he hadn't set you up with anyone, but on the other hand you didn't want to put him through emotional trauma so you let him be.

Jaemin walked out in a white t-shirt and Jeans on, searching for his spare leather jacket in your room. When he put it on he looked like an entirely different person, he combed through his hair with his hands and smiled at you, your heart skipping a beat. You stared at him and he winked at you making a silly face to get your attention. "How do I look?" Jaemin asked. "If you put in a little effort you arent that bad are you?" You said picking up random things from here and there so that your attention wasn't solely on him.

"Am I dreaming? Why did my heart skip a beat? It's probably because it's been ages since I've seen Jaemin with his hair pushed back." You thought to yourself. Jaemin did look good with his hair pushed back but when he was with you his hair usually covered his eyes slightly. You couldn't accept the fact that you found him attractive and made your thoughts fade slowly.

At the party, Mark gladly knew people and had introduced you to quite a few men that you hadn't met before but unconsciously your eyes would end up on Jaemin who sat alone in a corner with his rum and coke, slowly sipping it and looking around. He had a slight smile on his face when Mark approched him, the guy in front of you was uttering some bullshit about the flower fragrances and you couldn't care less.

"So i think the bees are important." The guy in front of you said, He was talking about bees, great. "Hey, um it was nice talking to you." You smiled at him and tapped on his shoulder. "Why dont you stay and we can talk more." The guy said. "Look, you're talking about bees and honestly, i dont know shit about them. I'm not interested in you." You walked away your heels clinking the floor of the rooftop as you reached the two men in the booth and sat down.

"Mark get me a drink." You said making yourself comfortable and snatching Mark's jacket to cover your legs.

"Why aren't you talking to that guy?"

"He's talking about bees and some save the earth, i dont know." You groaned, Jaemin let out a snort. You glared at him but he continued snorting.

"Bees? seriously?"

"Mark set me up! Don't laugh at me." You said and turned to Mark. "Oppa please get me a drink." You pouted at him and his face morphed into disgust as he got up with your glass.

When you were alone with Jaemin you found yourself staring at him and admiring his features. The slight curve where his eyes ended, his hair which was pushed back and then your eyes settled on his lips. You stared at them for a while before they curved into a slight smile, his hand caressing your head.

"Jaemin?"

"Hm?" His hands went back into their place, grabbing a hold of his glass once again, you carefully watched as the glass came in contact with his lips, slowly gulping the liquid. His neck tensed and relaxed, probably from the heat in the rum. "What?"

"I wanna find something out." He turned to you, eyes fixated on yours. "What do you wanna find out?"

"Earlier, when you were getting ready my heart skipped a beat. I thought it was because i hadn't seen you in pushed back hair in a while."

"And?"

"It's still skipping beats, so i wanna find out how close i can get to you to make me think you're my dumb best friend again."

"One way to find out." His hand slowly got rid of the jacket on your lap, hands slowly gliding on your thigh. You pulled his hand and he moved closer to you, his breath fanning your neck, the sweet smell of rum lingered near your nose as you moved even more closer to him, lips almost touching.

A smirk formed on Jaemin's face and he smashed his lips against yours, your hands found his hair and pulled at them, you climbed his lap and kissed him back with the same urgency.

He pulled back and looked at you, trying to catch his breath. "You think it was the pushed back hair then?"

You breathed in, "Yeah definitely." You chuckled.

"Guess I'm pushing my hair back everyday from now on then."

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[blackrupee]

Wow your life sounds complicated right now I'm sorry for that. So you aren't gonna have any managers what the fuck? And OH MY GOD I hate when people come in to eat so close to close!!!! ( I work @ zaxbys) if someone is acting passive aggressive I would act even more passive aggressive- make that bitch regret it- regarding the 2 guys: 2 guys is better than no guys:))) wish the first one didn't pressure you though. How did the 2nd one hurt you? - and I care so don't worry about boring me

hi hello would you like to read a novel on my life thanks i talk too much (tldrs at end)

nah like.. we had been managing with a general manager and 3 assistant managers even though we really need 4 so as not to overwork anyone. we recently hired a new one from a corporate arbys (we’re franchised) and two just quit. like i mentioned, theyre not coming back even though the original plan was that their new jobs would be only temporary (6 weeks). sooooo now we have a general manager who only works weekday day shifts, one assistant manager who is relatively new (she had been working at this place for a while but was promoted to manager 6ish months ago) and another who is brand new but still has some experience. they said theyre looking to promote from within initially, but they might have to hire outside people if no suitable potential manager is picked. id love to get manager pay and its not like managers do anything hard so id be WILLING to be a manager..like the whole reason why i got trained on backline was because we have such a big turnover rate with backline people since it fucking SUCKS and i was wanting to be helpful and flexible. so like. thats what i offerred. but one assistant manager was like “lmao all youd do is swear at the customers” and im like bitch when have i ever?? i talk shit about them all the time but ive only sworn IN FRONT OF a customer twice and neither time was it directed at them. but i mean im sitting on a small handful of customer complaints so its not like the gm would even consider me probably. idk dude. i can be nice if you pay me to be nice. but i get paid to do food and do it fast……….so

but yeah literallyyyyyyyyy i have no idea how people can be so??? inconsiderate???? and they dont??? care??? im learning that my contant frustration with people in my personal interactions is due to a disconnect between what i value in  expectations and what actually happens. like. when i go somewhere i already KNOW what i want, so i say it quickly and competently. i preface a lot of my interactions with people im requesting food or services from with “i’m sorry but…”. i phrase things as “could i get” as opposed to “get me” or “i want” which sound HELLA rude tbh. id always have my money ready at the window or the register, im always trying to pay attention and not miss anything or just….be rude in any way bc i know fast food fucking sucks. i know some of the people i interact with probably hate their job as much as i do and i want to be the smallest burden i can be. and it seems like nearly no one else has these same values???? and i dont understand how people can just??? be? so? inconsiderate?

also yes bitch im the queen of passive aggression. literally the night before i was working a short shift and my friend was closing frontline and this bitch was closing drivethrough. i just got the okay to clock out and i was like “bye! have a beautiful night! just know that i love you so much and ive everything ive ever said has always been fake until this point! never meant anything ive ever said until now especially if your name starts with k or ends with ristin (drivethrough girl/the one whos being so difficult is named kristin) but just know that i love you!” and basically being really dramatic and extra as satire.

i guess for context the whole reason she decided to be mad at me was the other night when she was drunk and was like “do you even likeeeeeee meeee i feel like you hateeeee meeee wahh wahh wahhhh” even though im like…..yes bitch i enjoy your company? i joke/use hyperbole/satire/irony/whatever a lot but like occasionally id be like “ey yo you know its all jokes right u know i love u right” just to ensure that she knows but she fucking. ignores it all. i feel like she so desperately WANTS me to hate her and tbh i got fucking sick and tired of hearing her complain all the time about this shit! i fucking hate repeating myself! so sure. if you want me to hate you so fucking much there. i hate you. i fucking hate you so fucking much. like is that what you want to hear? is that validating? are you fucking happy?

its so fucking frustrating

but i will not be held accountable for her decision to be upset. because thats what it is. she wants to be upset, and she wants me to be responsible for it when its literally not my responsibility. i am absolutely not going to stand for this shit like i kind of want to say its emotional abuse lmaooo but im just so fucking sick of it. 

everyone knows that i take chicken tenders and turnovers that would be thrown out at the end of the night and she was closing frontline yesterday and made a point to throw out the turnovers right next to me without asking if i wanted any/leaving any for me. i mean i completely expected her to be that petty of a bitch so it was kind of funny tbhonestly. also im p sure she unfollowed me here lmaoo

with regards to the guys and this paragraph could get a bit tmi/nsfw: yeah the first one kind of sucked but i feel like a little bit of the New Person Nerves have worn down so id do better if we were to hookup again. because like i totally would love to have fucked him but…..anxiety. he was hot tho. like 10/10 body and ass holy shit. plus he complimented me on my ass eating so (assuming that was genuine and not a vapid ego boost haha paranoia am i right) hopefully he comes back for seconds. 

second guy ive had a longish history with. started talking to him at the beginning of last fall semester and we hooked up kinda regularly for about a month. things fell apart, we both understood that we wouldn’t be good dating wise but still enjoyed meaningless cuddles. whatever. it got to a point where he would only hit me up like once every month and a half or so and towards like january-ish he hits me up again. so im like nice cool lets chill. im getting ready for this but my phone is in the other room. while im doing this he drove by my place to pick me up (since he was on his way back from nashville), didnt get a response to an “im here” text (bc i was busy and tbh not expecting him to do that), and left. he lives within like walking distance tho so im like “?? sorry i was busy are you still out or should i walk over?“ and he texts me like “sorry hold up a thing just happened” and im like…….okay. so im just.. waiting around for him. periodically texting like “hey are we good for tonight and whats going on?” because like there was some drama with his friend? hes like.. apologizing and shit but this goes on for an hour. BUT. the ENTIRE time he’s dealing with this friend problem or whatever he’s literally on grindr. and at the end of this hour im like in full blown paranoia panic mode and i literally text him something mentioning this and he BLOCKS ME ON GRINDR so im like ??????!!!!??? and i text him (all while saying “not to be crazy or paranoid bc im probably coming off that way but like could i get an answer or something??”) AND HE LITERALLY SAYS HE DELETED HIS GRINDR. but thats a LIE because i have a secondary account to see like……if guys are still on grindr/if a thing with a guy might turn into something more like if i see he’s not on grindr as much?? thats prob incredibly stalkerish and probably really creepy but hey. thats me. so i KNOW he lied to me but i cant really say “hey ur a liar” without disclosing this weird creepy stalker part of me (funnily enough this isnt the first time a guy has lied to me and i caught it with my secondary account! so it proves to have some function use in the end. not totally crazy). so. yeah. that was the incident. after this i dont trust him at all, and i still dont, but i had it in my mind to like somehow get him to fall in love with me just so i could break his heart for doing this? never really worked out. so now im at the point where im like….eh he’s a piece of shit and i hate him but ill cuddle with him bc it feels good

back to nsfw/tmi: the sex was okay. he’s weird about people being near his like….dick and stuff because he was raped and i totally get it bc i was too but he was comfortable enough for me to finger him and my finger still hurts from where he clenched when he came lmaoooooo. was totally hot tho. and i got to east his ass so im like eyyyyyyyy. its been so long since ive eaten ass so having it two consecutive nights in a row has been cathartic.

tldr; we have 2 assisant managers and a gm rn. looking for more

tldr; bitch. same.

tldr; bitch. same.

tldr; he’s a liar