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"Do you always carry that calendar in your pocket?" "...Yes."
#the second bribe one.... where was he keeping that.... he's in his underwear...#(....does he store stuff in his fez or.... anyway.)#stan pines#stanley pines#stan being a magician vs ford being a sci fi mage#should make a ford equivalent cos mr 'good thing i'm wearing my belt with infinite string' and#'yes i carried a super dangerous infinity die everywhere in my jacket'#speaking of his expression in the last pic always makes me lose it#i sure hope i didn't forget anything#the ndas are more specific to the ep but god its funny if he just has a bunch on person for random situations#a point and click game with the bros would be great cos you'll open their inventory and#be baffled by all the junk crammed in their pockets#the third thing in that deleted scene of stan being searched is his wallet btw#the implication that he only uses walkie talkies and had to give other ones to the rest of the mystery shack fam
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I wish we would celebrate sanitation workers, postal service workers, and public transit drivers/transportation workers. They do so much for us.
#i'm sure i'm forgetting someone here but i want to get this thought down#max says things tag#leaving this rebloggable i think. behave
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Blood Blossom Au: Baby's First Commissioner Meeting :)
TL:DR This Post: Danny (orphan) gets poisoned with blood blossom extract by Vlad. He runs away from him and ends up under the care of one Pre-Robin Battinson Batman! Starry is loudly pushing her batdad agenda.
(Also known as "Late At Night, When The Nightingale Sings" on my ao3!)
This was a fun rough idea I've been sitting on for weeks, thinking about how Commissioner Gordon and Nightingale's first meeting might go.
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Commissioner Gordon likes to think that he's adjusting to the new normal of Gotham very well, -- the new normal being grown men running around dressed like bats, in military-grade strength body armor, committing acts of vigilantism, -- and slowly, little by little, he was no longer being surprised when this new normal pops up out of the shadows like the world's most terrifying daisy. His shaving lifespan thanks him for it.
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The kid is a surprise though.
Granted, he seemed to be a surprise to the Bat too.
There's been a string of murders lately, -- which, in Gotham, is kind of like saying there's been another storm during monsoon season. And there's just been another; in some dilapidated building down in south Gotham, with the broken, boarded-up windows and mildew-crawling walls to match. The victim is a man in his thirties, multiple gunshot wounds to the chest, left in the center of the room for the blood to pool out around him.
The place is already secured when he arrives, the building swarmed with officers and the forensic detectives. The Bat emerges shortly after he does -- or, he might've been here the whole time, hiding someplace dark and shadowy. For his own sanity, Gordon doesn't think about it too hard.
The kid is a surprise, and he appears like a bolt of lightning.
He shows up in the middle of a conversation Gordon is having with the Bat.
A whistle, sharp and loud, slicing through the air, meant for open air rather than a confined space. Gordon's ears pierce and protest the sound, and the solemn, murmured chatter floating through the room abruptly cuts off like the swing of a gavel. As he turns towards the sound -- as they all do -- he swears, up and down, that he sees Batman's shoulders jump, just slightly.
At the source, perched on the window, is a boy. A boy in a gray-blue scarf and an oversized black hoodie, one that hangs off his frame and has ace bandages wrapped around the wrists in some attempt to cinch the sleeves. The hood is up, big like the rest of it, and threatens to swallow the upper half of the boy's face whole in the fabric. What upper half Gordon can see, is smeared with some kind of opaque, black face paint. He's holding onto the side of the frame with one hand, on his hip is a grappling hook. A familiar grappling hook.
Gordon has multiple questions, and his officers tense up.
Martinez puffs up, brows furrowing as his face shapes into a frown. Shoulders rolling back. "You can't be here, kid--"
The reaction is immediate, like a spark to gunpowder, the boy yanks his fingers from his mouth and his mouth twists into a scowl. Head snapping over to Officer Martinez, his hood manages to stay on but Gordon swears that as he bares his teeth, the glint makes them look sharper than they should be. His voice is rasp and quiet and harsh; snappish in its hissing; "Put a fuckin sock in it, Martinez. I'm not stayin."
Martinez reels back, and the boy immediately veers his attention off him. Like a switch, his demeanor drops. Despite half his face being covered, his mouth twists into a cringing, apologetic smile. Slanted and off-beat, embarrassed. It'd be disarming if this wasn't Gotham, and if he didn't just hiss at Martinez like he was about to bite his head off.
"Sorry." He whispers, voice deceptively polite and softer now. Gordon has to strain his ears to hear him. "I was looking for him."
He points his finger towards-- Gordon? No, Gordon follows the direction, and finds himself looking at -- the Bat.
The Bat, who always looks stiff as a pole, now looks even stiffer. Somehow. Well, the explains the grappling hook attached to the boy's waist.
"What are you doing here?" The Bat says, gruff and unable to completely smother the stumble of surprise in his tone.
The boy still holds a sheepish smile, and slips off the window ledge. His feet hit the creaky boards with a near-silent thud, the Batman finds his feet and rapidly begins crossing the room.
Gordon notes the slight tremble in the boy's legs as he straightens. He adjusts his scarf, which droops close to his knees now that he's standing, and slings a backpack -- how long has had that? -- off his shoulders. When the Bat reaches his side, he does as he always does, and looms over the boy like a spectre. A threatening mass of shadows cloaked in all-consuming black. Standing next to him, the boy looks teeny in comparison.
The Bat is a man who terrifies even the most hardened criminals, Gordon has seen grown men shiver in fear at the mention of his name. And yet when the boy looks up at him, he doesn't even flinch.
Instead, his sheepish smile melts away like ice under the sun, holding only traces of his previous embarrassment. It remains as a shadow on his face, a small upturn at the corners of his mouth. The boy pushes his hood back just enough to reveal glinting, ice-flint eyes surrounded in tar-black face paint. He holds the backpack up with one arm. "You forgot this."
#I have never seen Batman (2022) so really I'm just using battinson and crew as templates for my fic. but hey what else is new lol#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc fic#dpxdc au#dp x dc au#dpxdc fanfic#i dont know shit about detective work or true crime so forgive me for any bad terminology or incorrect procedure for how these things work#just a fun rough idea for how i imagined gordon's first meeting with nightingale goes LMAO. im sticking to the idea that danny doesn't#officially join the field for a *while* due to more than just health reasons. so his first appearances are brief and usually to give B smth#danny: im only here as express delivery for vader's little brother over there. yall stay safe tho.#bruce: *kill bill sirens bass-boosted* ohmygodwhatishedoinghere#batman: how did you get here... | danny: you have so many spare grappling hooks it was pr easy to just grab one and go#also danny is whispering on purpose because he doesn't have his ghost form to fall back on as a secret identity. so he *is* actually taking#extra steps to keep his identity safe. and people usually sound different when they're whispering. he also has personal beef with#office martinez despite the fact that they've never met. Danny's HEARD of his ass. he hATES his ass.#Martinez: *to batman* freak | danny: im going to Bite Him. | batman (reluctantly): hmr. please don't. | danny: im going for his shins#Martinez and Nightingale have this whole thing going on between the two of them. danny WILL slap a sticky note on Martinez's back that says#'asshole' on it and its the one spot square on his spine that martinez can't reach.#someone: why are you beefing with like. an actual 12 year old | martinez: HE'S A LITTLE RAT. THAT'S WHY. he's here to torment me#battinson: *did you grapple the whole way here* | danny: yah. it was kinda fun. i would've gotten here faster but i kept having to stop#battinson: *hnnn* im driving you back | danny:.. are you sure? | battinson already pulling him out of the room: y e s#i've been thinking about this for literally WEEKS. what did bruce forget? good question! i'll figure that out if or when i get to this#danny has Issues behind the word freak so its like a mini beserker button for him regardless of who the word is aimed at lol. lmao#martinez calls batman a freak once while nightingale is within range and its just the doom ost as danny simply Disappears from sight#like oops. you are now. In Danger. rip couldn't be me.#blood blossom au
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while i'm clearing out my miscellaneous art files, here's babs' corpse w/ ianthe in the driver's seat
#tlt#my art#i drew this right after nona came out.#for the unenlightened: the way my art process works is i just open a big campus and doodle random stuff on it#and occasionally i decide one thing is gonna become a finished piece#the other stuff just hangs out on the wip folder and i forget about it#until i have so many wip canvases that my storage can't handle it and i have to delete them#but before i do so i go through and open them all to make sure i'm not accidentally deleting something good#i say this as if i clear them out often. i dont which is why it is a nightmare in there and my computer is going on strike.
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forcing myself to like procreate (conclusion: weird!!!!)
second pic based on this ref!
#caitvi#arcane lol#caitlyn kiramman#vi arcane#i keep forgetting to post things ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#my art#fanart#violyn#piltover's finest#<- sorry league fans i hate this ship name#i'm sure you understand
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I heard Luke is afraid of shots.
Distraction puzzle to the rescue!
+wanted to make a more end credits-esque version
#Of course he's out getting his flu shot with Layton and not his parents lmao#Luke's off shoulder suspenders? belts? anyway those things are my fave part of his design and I ALWAYS FORGET TO DRAW THEM#drawing natalia is surprisingly fun tho#i wonder if the matchsticks read as matchsticks cause I'm not sure how to draw them#professor layton#luke triton#pl natalia#professor layton unwound future#unwound future#my art#missed luke lunes cause i had to travel; just imagine it's monday still
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idk if this is a hot take but I don't think Armin is friendly. I think people find him generally off-putting. Like, people think he looks sweet, but also find him strange; for the topics that interest him, the way he didn't stray far from Eren (& Mikasa) socially, and his general demeanor.
I think that as Armin established himself more as he grew up, he developed better interpersonal skills that compliment his rhetorical prowess. I think he's the type of person who sees value in life and in minimizing harm. He offers kindness to his friends and understanding to all. But I don't see him as particularly "friendly"



#cl thoughts#this is just my perception of the character#and everyone is allowed their own interpretation!#all of ema are off-putting idc#I'm also of course projecting a little#I forget socializing is a thing I should do#simply does not occur#so while I have similar values and way of operating to Armin I'm not received as friendly#also y'know how ppl are often revolted when neurodivergent ppl get super enthusiastic about something?#that's the reaction I see many having toward armin#though others (like eren) will find it inspiring#armin arlert#aot#snk#armin analysis#attack on titan#shingeki no kyojin#uhhh i'll tag ships too#eremin#aruani#they'll have opinions I'm sure#armin meta
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blessed be (lorscher bienensegen) | telling the bees (wiþ ymbe)
"Bees" [remixed, abridged], Claudia Emerson // "Letter to Someone Living Fifty Years from Now" [remixed. abridged], Matthew Olzmann // "Letter to my Great, Great Grandchild" [remixed, abridged], J.P. Grasser | Len Redkole, Nina Weiss, Brian Babineau, Christian Peterson, Mitchell Leff, Dave Isaac, Megan DeRuchie
#liv in the replies#if i were insane there would be an appendix to this called telling the bees however i finished this at 3am yesterday its nearly midnight &#my cutoff is when my ahl asg stream cuts. GOD by now i should know when i save a poem like hmm. not applicable but god it'd be perfect#THAT'S A CURSE. DON'T PUT IT IN THE DOCUMENT. DON'T SAVE IT. FORGET YOU READ IT. IT'S A CURSE!! <- things i should've told myself when i#went to read bees was already like 👀 &then the first line was FUCKING CLAUDE!!!!! anyway. sorry also this is like. insanely long but ALSO#regarding mf claude. the first picture is a leftover from the claude edit i made years ago so that feels GREAT and BEAUTIFUL & also for me#as ever y'all will be getting a full breakdown. starting with what i regularly have a breakdown about every time i see it which is joelle's#james 1:12 tattoo which if u use the king james version (gay) is blessed is he who perseveres under trial because having stood the test he#will receive the crown of life the lord has promised to those who love him. which i always go blessed is he who perseveres // for those who#love him. and that's joel. ignoring him getting it then getting sent down on his birthday IGNORING IT. also we know the frosty/maple leafs#hahaha fuck the flyers lore right? good. that's morgan and his dad also bc i love a baby picture & it was perfect. also the dave isaac pic#next was in an article talking about morgan 'stung' by draft camp. shut UP. i have an alt for tells him with claude and ALSO hate the#elephant w/phil bc myesie u fuckin leaf-eater (giraffe) but i love the composition of that jake shot & had to use it (it was also almost#tells him) with thylacine jakey frog nolan also raff the extinct whale bc i needed him here. if my editing on incapable of joy is bad no on#tell me i did some SHENANIGANS to put morgan in there & color-pick/alter his jersey. new skill. i think euphoria is one of my favorite for#the sake of pride night but ALSO that polaroid kills me very time &they're so stoners contemplate the universe but ALSO i love transcendenc#so that whole three photo string i think is my favorite. and i was in looking at these like listen okay it's okay there are only so many#photos in the world. you can repeat from others you've seen before. except ALSO there's so many of these freaks together do you separate#and every time i was like there can't be more there was more. don't ask the number of back-ups for the sweetest blossom/pinch/ruffle sets#okay also the ready to be stung one was a surprise favorite fit for me because i love that line but wasn't sure how to convey it? so it's o#i think with how morgan's face is and the almost of it all. yes joel hardest trier is in there purely for me i do have an alt but. how coul#u doubt him. insert sasha's tweet abt how much joel loves philly but all his quotes have been abt being excited for morgan to have a fresh#start. AND NOT EVEN TWO MINUTES IN CALGARY AND YOU'RE STILL INSEPARABLE god i literally googled frost farabee calgary to find the last#blessed [because. heard but not seen you know of everyone traded but you went together. not seen. (which ties into the terrible appendix)]#and IT DIDN'T EVEN TAKE ME TWO MINUTES TO FIND THAT!!! WHAT DO YOU MEANNN anyway. sorry again it's so long & also i will be vanishing a wee#& a half after posting [redacted] is kicking my ass & im doing [redacted fun things WAIT ACTUALLY U CAN KNOW ONE i'm seeing hippo campus]#morgan frost#joel farabee#philadelphia flyers#calgary flames
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Day 19: AU
Naga & researcher AU! Medicine expert Marcille is doing research on naga venom because it may have properties that could innovate pharmaceutics and could helo work towards immortality... My thought was that it causes paralysis in a way that keeps cells in stasis but idfk. So researcher Marcille Donato has to find a friendly enough naga gentlefolk to study and harvest venom from… Cue Chilchuck "I am sooo mean and dangerous, fear me or I'll do you in -proceeds to not do anything even when she sticks around and starts being clingy-" He had to grow harder and tougher it's a harsh world out there but he's a real nice guy… Just... Shouty... Marcille like "Actually I don't think you'll kill me if I stay here for some time to take field notes" and he gives up on denying it.
Pushing Marcille's "I want to study him like a petri dish" towards Chilchuck to the most literal I can

Maybe nagas have a short lifespan… Maybe to make venom strains the body and they have a faster metabolism. So it's kinda, the hope for her goals that he creates is also what kills him faster…? Like, harvesting the venom puts stress on the body because then it hastens to make more venom. And Marcille has to let her research about the far future of her friends go to instead enjoy her present with them...
Ok that's story info but design wise I also have to say, when I got to spontaneously choose how to color him I went with a Brazilian Rainbow Boa's patterns! Simply because I am biased and have one as pet. Are they venomous? ..... No. Do they have a fast metabolism? Snakes generally don't. Do they live in deserty places? A jungle actually. Did you know they are pretty close relatives to anacondas, they swim, burrow in the ground AND climb trees ☝️ They have really cool moon & star patterns lowkey and a nice kinda gold color, AND they're iridescent!!!! And those motifs always go so so hard with marchil It did send me spiralling though, like… A cornsnake or some plain brown snake would work really well for him, or a sand boa. And then I was thinking about his daughters and what species his wife should be and— black snakes often have really nice iridescence too, seriously look up black boas or indigo snakes, and now I'm thinking about Chil shining as some theme, like Marcille being like "noo you may not see it but you have plenty of qualities, you're a diamond in the rough"… Even if between the two of them Marcille is more diamond-like as far as he's concerned… The world looks so much more colorful when it's being reflected through her.
Pet snake pics just because under spoilers, she's called Mooncake and she has never done anything wrong ever in her life (except being a serial plant murderer)




She's shy. She also loves hollow logs <3 Snug nooks and crannies including using a layer of dirt as a weighted blanket. Return to earthworm
#Dungeon meshi#dunmeshi fanart#marchil#chilchuck tims#marcille donato#dunmeshi au#Marchil march 2025#Marcille giving african wild dog energy here#Hey..... what if....... bacteria marchil au....... Is Chilchuck Venom-like w researcher marcille or are they both amoebas? Yes#Your family shines <33333#brazilian rainbow boa#Gdbdg being a marchil shipper really is just pushing her to hype up her romantic rival and his *perfect family* half the time#Aromantic selfshipper behavior... or just a rlly rlly self-unaware girl gbdgd tfw when the thing comes true and hm not so nice anymore...#marchil shipper experience is being: YEAHHH RECONCILE WOOHOO PEACE AND LOVE!!#AND: reconciling? Ooooof ummm good luck with that i'm sure that'll go really really well haha… yeah……#Gbdgd anyways. All that to say unlike rabbitstoat au or bug au this was one where i didn't know if he had his divorce backstory or not#Yk marchil is kinda..... isabella bird manga energy. A lil bit. If Marcille was more into anthropology than anxiety about mortality#Here tho i love thinking about Marcille slipping more and more into forgetting she's here for the venom and studying chil for the funsies#No mr Tims I totally need to note every part of your life history for my research this is important
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honestly??? i still dont know what to do with the idea that there might be a bunch of clone fords out there???? it honestly makes me so unhinged??????
#i'm guessing that they'd be.... hamster like consider how the sev'ral timez clones turned out#gravity falls#ford pines#stanford pines#but honestly if this becomes a thing#then that means stan is the only one without a duplicates story lmao#stan: ....huh. never thought you'd be a deadbeat dad at the age of 18#ford: i'm disowning you.#(something something ford seeing versions of himself lacking any type of agency at all#.....probably would be further convinced that hes cursed somehow tbh :///)#.....oh hey theyd probably can settle the whole 'are they identical or fraternal' debate by having a clone with 5 fingers lmao#altho... how fast do they develop in the tubes#would they appear to be the same age as the stan twins anyway lol#(....would the artists forget that their hair wouldnt floof upwards cos thats a portal incident thing lol)#also is ford's stripe of white hair considered to be a side effect of his metal plate surgery#its a lot paler than stan's hair colour im pretty sure#would the clone fords be hyperobnoxious considering the doc hyping up their talents???#they wouldnt have ford's crippling insecurities and they wouldnt have a stan to help ground them#but they probably wouldnt have ford's fascination with weirdness either#how many other clones are there in general?????#(also rip mabel and the girls not really solving the whole 'that boy band producer is#just gonna keep making more trapped clones to replace em' problem)#truly the ethical problems of this kids tv show skgdgkhfhk#......everyone's reaction to a clone stan really would be 'tHIS IS WHAT YOU SOUND LIKE IF YA DIDNT SMOKE???'#guy who clearly started smoking when he was like 13 lmao
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Scheduling this for Sunday morning as a reminder to myself to NOT FORGET TO USE MY FUCKING PORTENT DURING DND TODAY. Feel free to yell at me about it if you want me to help me not grumble at myself later for whiffing a roll that I could've passed.
#megs plays dnd#I'm sure I will end up forgetting it anyway. considering I have seventeen thousand things to keep track of for amana.#absolute ancient bastard of a fungus
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pins by CopperMarmalade
#coppermarmalade#transparent by me#buttons#pins#badges#smiley face#ugh.#you do you#don't forget...#good things are coming#full moon#world peace#sure. fine. whatever.#bee kind#kindness counts#i'm done.#no.#transparent pngs#pngs#pin pngs
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Have you considered selling merch? Some stickers pins or patches of the boys would go hard
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#I get asked about merch sometimes and yes it's something I think about every now and then#but I'm not sure how that would go#small businesses are a lot of work#I'm forgetful and get overwhelmed really really easily#I'm a socially awkward introvert so I reckon I'd have challenging time on the customer service side of things#but it's not a hard no maybe I manage to get gutsy enough in the future who knows#would honestly love to design some stickers pins or patches#been considering it for a few years already weh#answered#anonymous#I'm worried people would be put off by the Finnish shipping fees. our postage rates are pretty high unfortunately#and not to get too deep into it but I also have some internal ideological rules about what kind of objects I want to put out into the world#it'd have to be good stuff I don't want to sell people anything that would become junk in five years if I can avoid it
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just some thoughts
I had been recently sucked into Dp x Dc fandom which i love, but I sort of have problem imagining the Danny Phantom world existing alongside modern DC probably because i've only ever watched movies, unless it's Vivisection fic, dimensional travel or Cryptid!Batman.
not that i don't love modern iterations of Batman, but in my opinion if there is a Batman in DP world it would be Adam West's Batman. the 1960's Batman and Robin aesthetic just fits the DP world. Like, Batman 66 is the Batman native in DP world. I'm not sure how many think this way also or if the Fact that Adam West's Batman was the first Batman I 'met' as a kid thus have a soft spot for him. But honestly, it's West's version that I imagine that would Parent the hell out of Danny and do a good job at it. like it's campy but fun, cartoon logic in certain things, everthing is neatly labeled like the Bat-calendar in the batcave. Another possible Batman is the Wayne Family Adventure. I just can't think of any other version of Batman that will NOT make Danny go "Not Today Fruitloop!".
on another note, it's possible I'm just not finding the right Batman comics. Ancients knows, it's a bit intimidating jumping into DC comics without a guide and people that i could ask can be Assholes about it. like so many variations, AU and story lines. at least the shows and animations are a bit straight forward, but comics arent.
#dpxdc#dc x dp#Adam West's Batman#It's weird that i used to watch things as they aired and feed on fanfics that I'm not sure what canon anymore#if you read Fanfic exclusively enough you kinda forget canon#going back rewatching old shows sometimes shocks me#I'm like Who da F@cK are you?!#Is this Canon Info or Am I remembering Fanfic?
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finished the eps so here's some zombies lore and tidbits from the re-animated series:
bonzo and willa have the same shoe size (10 3/4 in men's and 12 3/4 in women's)
bucky loves cool frogs and hates all dogs (except for barky)
willa has been wearing the same boots every day because she became the alpha of their pack while wearing them (they are now destroyed)
bree runs the lost and found department and addison is her secretary
seabrook high has a drama department, a marching band, a water polo team, and a clown club
there are zed, addison, and eliza clones living in a neighboring town
there are alien-specific classes led by a computer robot in the mothership
zed has physical cards with drawings of him and eliza that act as "best friend cards"
bonzo was born on january 28th in 2007
zed and addison regularly use whiteboards to plan stuff
zed has a habit of smooth-talking his way out of and into things (including, but not limited to, getting extra food from lunch ladies, convincing eliza and addie to do things with/for him, and convincing a possessed dae to hold off on destroying the world)
there is a sentient blob that attends seabrook high
bonzo works at bree's family's diner which is called grammykin's griddle
wyatt's a february pisces and eliza is a virgo
the werewolves celebrate numerous meat-themed holidays like porksgiving, beefapalooza, and vealentine's day
werewolves also have a great meat hunt that involves one werewolf being picked to hunt an unchecked apex predator in the woods and bring it back for the pack to eat
there are now zombie dogs due to another soda incident
principal lee has a sister who is pregnant (or has a very young baby)
wynter has an uncle named uncle wolfchowski
zed's favorite color is decomp green with light saturation
coach used to be best friends with the solstice slasher that haunts the woods
zombie strength can hold back a moving car
there are many pet sitting services in seabrook (some names include waggedy ann's, be on all four seasons, and harry poopins)
eliza created their universe's version of tik tok called shrimp tok
addison can't wink
moonstone necklaces were first created by a werewolf named wilhelmina lykenlolly
werewolves and sasquatches are century long enemies
eliza and wyatt are vegetarians
zed, wyatt, bree, and eliza play dungeons and dragons together and zed runs the campaign (zoey now also plays with them by the end of the episode)
aliens hatch out of spotted eggs and have a hatch-uation
a-spen is mothership's favorite alien
part 2 part 3
#probably forgot some things but i kept forgetting that i was making this as i was watching#i don't know just how canon all of this is because i'm pretty sure this takes place in whole nother dimension#BUT i'm making this list so obviously i don't care that much#i unfortunately do not remember every episode these came from most yes all no#i love love love this series#zed necrodopolis#addison wells#bonzo zambi#willa lykensen#wyatt lykensen#eliza zambi#wynter barkowitz#bonzo zombies#bree zombies#zombies bree#bucky buchanan#a-spen#principal lee#dae zombies#zombies dae#zoey necrodopolis#zombies#disney zombies#zombies re animated#zombies the re animated series#zombies: the re animated series#coach zombies#i added very young baby because you can still have baby shower after the baby is born but most don't obvi
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regret
so. literally seven years ago, I started a 'series of firsts' style fluff-fic(let collection) for Malec/Shadowhunters... and I think part of why I got stuck on it in particular (even beyond the not writing much for the last couple years) is because it is in fact supposed to be in chronological order following the show and I had hit a point where I needed a... not!fluff chapter, and I kept trying to just... skip the sad and write more fluff for the fluff fic.
But I'm writing a vignette series for a melodrama. So. Melodrama has been written, of Alec Lightwood Overthinking Things but not being wrong, so how is he supposed to stop? (This takes place after s2e12, which is the disaster of a body swap episode, for anyone not so obsessed with the show as to know that off the top of their heads)
It is not the first time Alec has known that he’s not good enough for Magnus. He’s always known that, since the first time he laid eyes on him.
It is the first time that he thinks Magnus might agree with him.
Magnus said he wanted some space. Tonight (just tonight implied but not stated by the softness of his voice, the brush of his fingers against the seam of Alec’s sleeve) Magnus wanted some quiet.
So Alec left Magnus alone, and now he’s standing in his institute bathroom staring into the institute mirror gripping the white porcelain edges of an institute sink, trying to decide if that was right.
He doesn’t think it was, but he’s not sure if it’s the space that’s wrong, or the just for tonight.
He knows which he wants it to be, but that’s irrelevant.
Magnus likes to retreat when he’s hurt, but that doesn’t mean that’s good for him; Alec might not have known Magnus for long, but he recognizes a protective flinch when he sees it. And if that’s the case, then Alec should in fact head right back out and refuse to let Magnus hide and hold him tight until Magnus feels like he's himself again.
But Alec didn’t believe what Magnus said too many times already, he can’t…
He can’t go against Magnus’ request, not now that he finally made one. Always letting Alec set the pace, waiting for Alec to reach out, for Alec to act, to ask, and when he finally lets himself say what he wants?
It’s less of Alec, rather than more.
Smart of him, of course. Alec would never blame him for it, especially not after Azazel and Valentine and Alec failing him in every way it was possible to fail. There has always been a disparity between what Magnus deserves and what Alec is capable of offering; perhaps it is too large of one to ever be overcome.
Only he knows he wants to keep trying.
He also knows that staring at his mirror and overthinking things is his own protective flinch.
Magnus said he doesn’t know what he needs. Alec is mostly sure that’s true, that if Magnus knew that Alec caused more harm than could possibly be worth it he would say so — but only mostly. Magnus has been abandoned too many times to be the person leaving unless he’s sure.
Not even then, perhaps.
Alec has some idea of how many times Magnus forgave Camille, and she was cruel on purpose, unlike Alec who keeps twisting the knife entirely by accident.
If Magnus won’t do it, Alec will have to. He refuses to walk Magnus down a road to hell paved by his own so-called “good intentions”. He’ll stay away forever if that’s better for Magnus, regardless of how Alec feels about it, will feel about it, will always feel about Magnus. It’s only right, not letting Magnus suffer the consequences of trying to be involved with–
Alec stops himself there.
Anything he thinks to call himself, any self-assessment he can manage right now, will be more severe than anything Magnus would think, or say, or even accept if Alec tried to say it, so it won’t help him decide what to do.
He has to figure out how to help in a way that Magnus will accept, and if he leads with a list of all his failures, Magnus will be happy to try and make Alec feel better and aggressively avoid letting Alec try to help him.
Alec doesn’t need to feel better. Aldertree’s gone, Isabelle’s back, (Imogen’s difficult but familiar), and Jace is, while still fucked up, at least not trying to smother the parabatai bond so tightly that Alec feels like he’s being strangled in his sleep every night.
So.
Alec sighs, lets go of the sink, forces his shoulders to relax.
This is the first time that Magnus has said he needs space, but considering the politics of their lives, even now that Valentine’s in custody (especially now, considering everything Herondale did to Magnus in Valentine’s name), it probably won’t be the last.
Alec can’t override that, not just because he’s sad and guilty and young and stupid.
He just has to learn better.
He’s always had to be better than he is, he’s not sure why he thought things with Magnus might be different.
That’s not Magnus’ fault though, and he can’t let himself start to think about it in terms of hopes dashed or desires failed because then he will be upset at the only person who has never ever let him down, despite all Alec’s failures and stumbles.
He doesn’t deserve Magnus, of course he doesn’t, but that’s all right. It’s Magnus’ turn to make a choice, and he can have all the time and space he needs to do so.
Alec will wait.
He’ll wait forever, if he has to.
He’ll wait past forever, this life and the next; he’s already made his choice.
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