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saym0-0 · 26 days

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i love mechs x tma aus and i love jmart but i dont love jonny x martin,,, the dynamic is just so slightly off,, like,,,,,, i cant articulate it its just wrong 2 me,,,,,,,, okay actually the tags r vital to this one read those

#like jonny and jon r so different #aus where its jonny pretending to be jon are fun #but it just feels dishonest when he nd martin get together yk #because 'jon' is an act. its not his real personality #also i dont think jonny would let himself (or at least admit to himself) fall in love with a mortal #a fun but fucked up way to take it though would be to #yk have jonny be entirely dishonest abt it #'sure this jon character can have a boyfriend!' then immediately drops him at the first convinience #angst potential through the ROOF #but him actually like. liking him and also letting himself like him feels wrong yk #IDK im crazy im insane idk what im talking about #the mechanisms #the mechs #tma #saymbles #jonny d'ville #the magnus archives #mechs x tma au

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nathanialhowe · 7 months

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that line of astarions where hes like "oh dont pout because you're not getting your sweet, cuddly astarion. i can't be the person you want me to be" in act 3 makes me go crazy wtf

#its so tastey ....... how are people mad abt his ascended ending its so narratively yummy ... leaving the cycles of abuse unbroken #is kind of epicc sometimes #like i got that on venlis playthru which was 80 hrs of hope and love and seeing the best in people so it was very thematically appropriate #idk it was kewl and felt like a callout for ppl who think growth is linear and all that. not even like astarion tries to be a good person #usually cus he heel-drags and resents altruism but with patience he can come to care about the player character in exquisite ways #i dont even remember what this was triggered by i think venli was talking to the gur and told him he had to help their kids or whatever LOL #hes just crazy hes like im biting and killing you for trying to see the good in me hows about i become worse #personal #delete #but also what he says to dark urge when you resist for the last time and its like 'you see? you dont have to be what someone made you to be #exquisite ... . ...#but also victory absolutely ascended him and it was fun and yummy and also narratively satisfying to see him go insane LOL #bg3 spoilers #just to be safe

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sileagen · 10 months

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woke up with this song stuck in my head xoxo

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giverofempathy · 8 months

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besties i'm in a Situation and idk what to do

#salisha speaks #lets start by saying that my and my gf broke up #the long distance shit was just Not working #i hate hate hate it i miss her but it is what it is #i was lonely and feeling insane so i downloaded a dating app and i was confused abt my sexuality #so i also put it on men and i matched with a guy #and it was like fun and shit but then i got stressed so i told him im a lesbian and he ghosted me #then in the meantime i deleted and redownloaded the dating app bc im just crazy like that x #and then we matched again 😭 and now were talking again #and he explained why he didnt reply and like i get it #but now im just so confused bc like i kind of like him but also i dont and idk if bi or a lesbian and im so SICK OF ITTTT #and all my friends are telling me to drop him bc im like. gay gay 😭 and like yah but also idk #im so CONFUSEDDDD #on the one hand i wanna block him and never think about him again #but then again why dont i just try it out and see what happens...#what do yall think i should do i feel genuinely insane

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justareallyboredfangirl · 5 days

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am i the only one who sees the word “delulu” and fucking snarls lmao ?

#you wanna say crazy or insane? sure whatever. not great but neither are really accepted as medical/psych terms anymore #but delusional?? thats a disgnosis. thats a symptom.#idk #it feels like its in thr exact same vein of ppl saying ‘my work station has to be neat or it sets off my OCD’#youre particular. not disabled.#idk. its just something about ‘delulu’ in particular that i just fucking hate #maybe its the cutesie wubbification of it ‘teehehee so delulu🤪’#imma start asking ppl ‘whats that mean?’ and when they say delusional im launching into it istg #just fucking stop taking psychological terms and symptoms and putting them in your casual slang talk #its fucking disrespectful #and for some reason ‘delulu’ in particular has absolutely taken off

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wizardofgoodfortune · 8 months

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yall im feeling new blorbos coming with this show called The Bear.

#IM SO tempted to go into the tags for it but we just started season 2 and i dont wanna get spoiled. but just know. It's Coming.#i apologize in advance for all the feelings coming once i finish the show im just.#Yea #its the kind of stuff i wanna be writing you know. its really Really great #i think if you know what the show is about and what the good times fic is about youd understand what im talking about #internally screaming.#im crazy. imCRAZY #im crazy imc razy #AIJHDJHGKHGKSHDKGHSKDGH IM CRAYZ IM CRAZY IM SINSANE IM SO INSANE #idk. sorry #wizardofgoodfortune #actually not really sorry. if uve been thinking about watching the bear for a while this is your sign to do it.#but also. uh #probably check content warnings for it before watching

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bangcakes · 19 days

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#still crazy to me that i live in a world where i can just ??? message him whenever i want n he replies ???#we've come such a long way its insane #like this time last year we hadnt even messaged unless it was thru like. the class dc server JDJDJDJDJDJ #actually like a year ago yesterday he blew my fuckin mind bc i was walkin from the parking lot to class n he was just standing there #waiting for me ???????? it blew my fuckin mind bc at that point id given up on him right. i was like ok no way this guys into me but JDJDJDJ #i was super early for the test n he said he had to go put something away in his car n he happened to see me n we talked all the way to #the exam and all b4 JDJDJSSJNSNS #our relationship is so weird. like just so weird #i feel like we gravitate toward each other its..... idek JDNNDDNNDNZ #this has never happened to me b4. like usually i talk to the guy n its like o .... actually ur not what i imagined djdjsjsjs #but this guy #... so annoying bc he gets better every time n we've known each other for over a year now #idk i just.... ive talked about it b4 but our similarities are insane. and like the way we kept bumping into each other ????#idk its so weird JDJDZJJZJZJS #i think its mutual i really do. i think its just gonna take awhile to make a move. idk if its gonna be me or him but...#yeah im not really worried anymore #personal

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hella1975 · 9 months

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my mum: you've been doing really good lately. every part of your life is really stable and you seem genuinely happy, it's great to see :)

me, who's felt like ive been going actually crazy bananas insane for months now: yeah haha

#sometimes i forget that 'being in total control of my emotions at all times' isn't just my cringe lore & is actually something im good at #like wdym my MUM said this. girl im experiencing horrors over here!#i got really offended by it? ilke i just smiled at her and agreed but inside i was like HELLOOOOO CAN ANYONE HEAR MEEEE #i just genuinely feel like i am so detached from myself and im entirely manipulative and i micromanage every facet of my personality #and change it day-to-day person-to-person and not in the Normal Human Way but in a crazy insane I Am Manipulating People Way #& it's a CONSCIOUS thing & like. idk who the real me is idk if there is a real me idk if id like her if i saw her idk if im a good person #but i look like im doing fine. i seem really stable and happy atm according to the person who knows me better than anyone #like that's the extent of my control on myself. even my mum cant tell. HUH #idk i feel like im being dramatic bc last week and this week ive definitely been feeling a lot better #and like maybe i was just having some sort of months-long episode but that doesnt negate the fact that while i was IN it no one could tell #not even the closest people to me that see me every day in the same house where im most vulnerable could tell #that's like. worrying surely. maybe. i think. whatever im just saying shit at this point #i always do this tho i go 'i fundamentally base my self-worth on how little i share vulnerability with people #and it's been a constant part of my personality since childhood that i dont talk about my feelings' and then i get SO pissed off #when people dont realise im going through shit. like girl what did you THINK was gonna happen. look inwards #hella goes home

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0809sysblings · 3 months

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idk why I'm posting this here but it's fine because I can do whatever I want. sorry I think I'm having an enneagram type 1 moment. it's not mental illness, it's because of my enneagram type! can't help being a Gemini Enneagram Type 1

also I keep using the amulet's powers so I've been being hit with the after effects. such power deranges a man /ref

#milgran't #type 1 momence #btw as a prefacw this is not directed at anyone here. this is just. a thing. that is everywhere.#ok. anyway.#the....... Exotification of DID/OSDD-1... is always so annoying.#and like. i get it. i understand. its probably a difficult thing for many ppl to actually comprehend as a real human experience #which brings me to the main point of this Pussy-Rant (ranting in tags bc im a pussy)#i think. the main reasom its So Exotified. is. '''''''MPD''''''''#serioisky that name has done. so much fucking damage its insane. absolute wack shit #anyway yeah. like. the concept of it being Multiple People In One Body/Brain... when like... that's.. not really whats going on..#like if youre a system and that's how you understand your system to be. then power to you. i dont care do literally whatever #its just. i think CDDs would be a LOT easier for people to understand if--#--it was not looked at as the Multiple People Disorder. but instead as the Fucking Extreme Compartmentalization Disorder #idk its just annoying seein ppl (who are probably very well meaning!) talk about the disorder i experience as if its bizarre and fantastical #~look wooooowwww this is something that can happen to the brain due to The Most Unreal And Most Traumatic Events!! crazy right?~#i am going to get the Evil Alter out here so he can beat you to death.#like yeah its fucking. sad and fucked up what has to happen to develop a CDD. and that should be acknowledged.#and many systems Have had to go through experiences that a lot of ppl can only fathom as being able to happen in fiction.#but.... its just so isolating and makes me feel Capital C Crazy 🥴#dear lord ive just been so irritable and frustrated lately... obligatory apologies.#ah. i think i suddenly figured out why this in particular triggers me so much.#god damn it it's always the fucking trauma huh!#<- spent basically all of elementary school and middle school feeling like there was a giant sign over my head that said--#--''this poor soul went through something so tragic! how awful to think that something that serious could happen to just a little kid!''#its the ''hey can you stop treating me as something helpless that needs to be fixed and just treat me like A Fucking Person'' feelings #but see this disorder is just so beautiful because in a week i may be wanting ppl to see me as a suffering freak who needs to be fixed #or hell even fucking tomorrow. who knows not me #.. ok im actually genuinely afraid talkimg about this is going to lead to her gettinf triggered out KDJSNKDJSNJD so im gonna. stop.

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strwbrymlkshake · 1 year

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Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt.#well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

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waytoomanyocstocount · 4 months

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Am I the only one that completely fangirls out(platonically ofc) when someone who I enjoy seeing here on Tumblr even acknowledges the fact I exist?

#please tell me im not the only one #btw im talking about hye/vanilla #if ur seeing this hiiii #idk how you even noticed me but im so glad you did #im definitely so normal and not completely insane/j #why am i like this #this is what brainrot does to you #brainrot is crazy yall

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lanciilatte · 1 year

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bot is the perfect embodiment of s3 bevause I have so many swaying thoughts on the entire. WUHHUH WUAH..W,W..

#IDK BRO!!!! parental instincts arc yeah but cabby literally was a big part of the reason bot questioned the things You did to them so #‘cold in a way that I used to be/I feel sorry for her’ IS A LINE I WOULDVE GONE CRAZY FOR #IF IT WERENT FOR #IDK I THINK YOU WERE A BIT WORSE WHEN CREATING A FACSIMILE driven by emotional attachment Yes but but BUT #LIKE YOURE STILL KINDA DOING COLD THINGS DUE TO YOUR APPROACH TO PROBLEMS SS AND IT MESSED UP A REAL PERSONS WHOLE BRAIN #cabby last time i checked did Not #NOT PITTING THEM AGAINST EACH OTHER thye are my two favourites I just UAAQGHHH THIS WOULD BE SO GOOD #FOR NARRATIVE but I just don’t see the bot plotline the way it’s. being talked about / resolved #IM TAKING IT VERY SERIOUSLY I THOUGHT IT WAS. COOOLLLL THAT TT AND FAN REPEATED THEIR MISTAKE BUT A LOT WORSE BECAUSE THEY CARE ABT #EACH OTHER SO MUCH like LKKE THATS A WIN THATS. COOL TO EXPLORE #and how that made both of them stronger and capable of doing things cabby couldn’t imagine (power of friendrship etc)#but like strong enough to do something super Bad too especially while getting emotional about it #like so bad that cabby’s cold approach to finding out what’s upwith bot. was justified because SOMETHING RLY BAD WAS UP!!!#UMMM IDK IDK what does the class think Dot dot (insane about it #pdl #jic

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zlovestea · 1 year

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I’ll probably delete this right after but I must confess…

Yes Thasmin is my OTP, but i have another OTP that ive loved ever since thirteen’s era came out and it’s a freaking Crack Ship that started off as a joke and I’m actually obsessed with it

Clara x Yaz

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maniaparty · 10 months

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i have so many juliya comics in my mind i need to not forget them

#dont read this if you dont want spoilers. ->#umm ones a cruliya shoppingthing cuz ithink hed be super curious abt how crucy wants 2 change how she looks #umm. the obvious juliue talking about The Room situation. and also it bugging him 4 no reason #julikaua talkingabout grass (THIS SOUNDS SO STUPID BUT IPROMISE ITS INSANE)#the fireflies one... (smiles)#ummm....... sorry youguys get to hear the ramblings of an insane man #julimari gender one too. that ones. (sniffles)#OH MY GOD.HOW COULD I FORGET THE MOZYAT ONE #that one scares me but i see it so well #also one of juliya calling gsc over and over just because its cute i love his weird friendship w/ the girls there #eurmmmm.... what elsOH RIGHT. OF COURSE #iwanted to do one where hes thinking about his life now compared 2 when he was under surveillance and itd be nice for him to leave a final m #message 2 mozyat since it cn't really do that. idk #im crazy. Im crazy idek if ill make any of these

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mister13eyond · 1 year

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Personal

#i always feel like a crazy person when i talk about relationships #because when i describe them im like 'yeah relationships are a series of choices and decisions about how you want to define things and what #-you want or need out of a relationship and how you balance each other's emotional needs and what priorities you choose to focus on'#which is the most like. sterile pragmatic unromantic view of anything in the world I'm sure #and makes it sound like i don't think feelings are part of it #but actually i am FULL of feelings i am fucking CONSUMED by love my heart is full of glitter and rose petals i am completely overcome by-#affection CONSTANTLY i think about how much i love my partners and i go kind of insane like WOW IM LOVED AND I LOVE? I AM KNOWN AND SEEN BY #THESE PEOPLE? I ALLOW THEM TO SEE TRUTHS ABOUT MYSELF I KEEP TUCKED AWAY FROM EVERYONE ELSE IN THE WORLD? BEING LOVED IS AMAZING?#but then like.#at the same time #I'm also like 'yeah idk dude we're in love by choice not by chance'#I DON'T KNOW I'M THE SAPPIEST PRAGMATIC BITCH ON THE PLANET #im just very gay and very lucky to have people who choose to share however much of their lives with me thanks for coming to my ted talk #personal #tmi

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nomaishuttle · 7 months

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sry im like willing myself to get up and brush my teeth and all that but im literally like Maybe i should finally actually listen to tbi. as in the bifrost incident not traumatic brain injury which it would be insane if there was a mechs album named traumatic brain injury.

#i legit never listened to it idk why i think i got scared n then yk and blah blah blah and yada yada and my granny died and yeah.so yeah #basically i need 2 listen and also i sort of just need to listen to every mechs album bc idk that ive fully listened to either of the ttbt.#<- i know a few of the stand outs but i havent fully listened basically.... and i miss the mechs so bad rn its crazy. i think they would #killing eachother over mild disagreements #i say that like its a hc im pretty sure thats canon i think its awesome. if iiii was an immortal space pirate whos only exists #to power the narrative and i was on a ship with like 7 other immortal space pirates who only exist to power the narrative.#well 1 me and those guys would be having the most insane sex possible crazy shit guns would ABSOLUTELY be involved we would #be fucking in the airlock opening the doors just for laffs itd be fucking wild shit. second of all yes wed kill eachother at least once a #day r u crazy andf itd be awesome. id make a to do list of every single death i could imagine and id do each at least 10 times and itd be #crazy !! wah wah immortality 1. seems fun 2. they die eventually 3. legit whenever they want they can just kill themselves and not exist fo #an hour tell me that isnt my dream world i dare you.#also ik ive exclusively talked abt the crew members which is kind of one of my pet peeves bc they legit arent the focus #but im nostalgic for them and rest assured the albums make me craaaaazyyy #mdni #minors dni #sorry i forgot what i said about the guns and whatnot #nsft #a2t #covering all the bases here

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