#IM EMPTIONALLY VULNERABLE

[gothgamergfs]

LONG TIME NO AKORINKO POST ANYWAY BON APE FUCKIN TITE HOLY FUCKKKKKKKKKKK

[violentdevotion]

there's smth dizzying about stars in stardust glowing when they're at their happiest and how this makes them powerful at the most extreme but mostly it just leaves them more vulnerable. like yvaine literally walks around with her heart on her sleeve and every moment she spent with tristan put her at risk of having her heart literally eaten but the vulnerability of it?? She couldn't hide how she felt to anyone, no matter how much she wanted and she STILL had to confess her feelings to tristan (albeit when he's a mouse and she thinks he can't hear her which is a whole other thing) there's just something about the inability to control how your feelings are expressed and yeah that makes you a little more vulnerable and make others a little more inclined to hurt you but when you let yourself it's literally life saving

[borathae]

SIBI GRTT CHH!! FIRST I DIDNT EXPECT HER TO TAKE THAT LONG TO GET 'Ballet shoes' HINT😂

Imim you pwick 😂😂 SHE DID START OUT WID A SOFTER APPROACH TOWARDS SOMEONE WHO KILLED HER😂

THE JM×OC SEQUENCE... HM INTERESTING... IDK WHAT TO TRUST OR NOT BUT IM JUST ENJOYING THE CHEMISTRY

FINALLY WE GOT TO SEE ANOTHER SIDE OF JM APART FROM BEING A DICK N IDK IF I TRUST THIS SIDE BUT ITS FUN ALSSOOO THE WAY HE ASKED HER BEFORE KISSING!!! BRO WHERE DID THE CONSENT GO BEFORE KILLING???🙃

OK JIMINS JUSTIFICATION FOR HIS PERVERTED NATURE MADE A LOTTTT OF SENSE TO ME FOR FIRST 5 SECS I WAS LIKE NOT THAT BIG OF A DICK HAS SOME BRAINS N THEN I WAS LIKE WAIT A MIN.... HOW EXACTLY IS THIS MAKING SENSE🙂

ALSO HIM EXPLAINING THAT IT WAS NJ NOT HIM BY SAYING HE WONT WEAR A MASK TO HURT HER HAHAHAHAHA BURNNNN

THE ENTIRE SCENE OF JM×OC MEET UP WAS IN SHORT SWEET... LIKE 2 CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS MEETING UP AFTER A FIGHT... JM THROWING FITS N ALL... N THAT VULNERABLE MOMENT OF TALKING ABOUT "the whispers" N THE "pinky promise" HMMM NICEEE

you stink OBVIOUSLY WAS GONNA HAPPEN... THE SECOND HALF OF THE CH IS ABOUT SOOO MUCH IDK HOW TO CONTEMPLATE N REACH A CONCLUSION ... I FEEL ITS TOO EARLY TO SAY ANYTHING... YG WAS DEF RIGHT ABOUT NOT MEETING JM N TELLING HIM THE ENTIRE PLAN... JK IS RIGHT CUZ HE DESERVES HIS REVENGE N SO DOES SJ!!! HS WAS BEING A SWEETHEART BUT HE WAS DISSAPOINTED TOO N TOTALLY EXPECTED

BUT

THEY HV ALL LOST SOMEONE N NOW THEY R READY TO MAKE HER GO THROUGH THE SAME... THO WE KNOW SHIT ABOUT ANYBODYS TRUTH RIGHT NOW... WE DONT KNOW WHERE OC COMES FROM N ALL ITS JUST... AAAHHH I HOPE THINGS WORK OUT.

ALSO I TOOK IT PERSONALLY WHEN SHE DIDNT SIT ON YG LAP WHEN HE OFFERED. AT THIS POINT I SHIP THEM TOO MUCH N THAT IS CUZ I REALLY FEEL SAFE AS A READER WHEN SHE S WID YG... NO DRAMA NO SAFETY ISSUES NO EMPTIONAL TROUBLE... JUST PURE ADORATION N CARE N IDK MAYBE A LIL LOVE??? UGH.

GREAT CH THO... YG ENDING SCENE OF AGREEING TO TRYING TO SAVE TH🥰

GREAATT CHHH -The Yelling Anon

OK JIMINS JUSTIFICATION FOR HIS PERVERTED NATURE MADE A LOTTTT OF SENSE TO ME FOR FIRST 5 SECS I WAS LIKE NOT THAT BIG OF A DICK HAS SOME BRAINS N THEN I WAS LIKE WAIT A MIN.... HOW EXACTLY IS THIS MAKING SENSE

BECAUSE IT REALLY DOES MAKE SENSE. WHAT IF VAMPIRISM TURNED HIM THAT WAY? WHAT IF HE DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO BE A VAMPIRE AND WAS TURNED AGAINST HIS WILL? WHAT IF HE DOESN'T EVEN ENJOY ALL THE STUFF HE IS DOING BUT HE HAS TO BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT BEING A VAMPIRE IS ABOUT? WHAT IF HE IS GLUTTON OR RIPPER AND HE CAN'T EVEN HELP ACTING THE WAY HE DOES??

LIKE 2 CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS MEETING UP AFTER A FIGHT

YES OMFG I GOT THOSE VIBES TOO omgmg

THEY HV ALL LOST SOMEONE N NOW THEY R READY TO MAKE HER GO THROUGH THE SAME

okay no omfg that makes them sound like the enjoy hurting OC which they don't. They are defnitely not ready to make OC feel the same pain they went through and they are definitely very conflicted as well because you know, they don't wanna put their very good friend through the pain of losing someone. But gfdi Kim Taehyung is one annoying bastard in their eyes, let alone Jimin and Namjoon those two are just pure evil in their eyes. So their motivation 100% doesn't originate from them wanting OC to experience the same pain they went through, on the contrary they are filled with great regret that they have to hurt someone who was once special to her.

ALSO I TOOK IT PERSONALLY WHEN SHE DIDNT SIT ON YG LAP WHEN HE OFFERED.

SAME HAHAHAH I WOULD HAVE BEEN ON THERE SO FAST LMAOAOOA

AT THIS POINT I SHIP THEM TOO MUCH N THAT IS CUZ I REALLY FEEL SAFE AS A READER WHEN SHE S WID YG

yes yes yes me too!! I ship them so much!! hahaha I know I wrote the story but I still ship them like omgmg please :(

[jrbalufbfnzl]

Today 02.21

My ideal self wouldve done nothing differently. Maybe train the dpgs more. I didnt felt anxiety or stress i managed to w1kr up early and i spent a day in the countryside. It felt good.

A third person wouldve feel happy that i spent a day like this plus i didnt smoke

I woke up and spent the day outside ran played w the dogs

I felt happy and no anxiety or stress

I ate a few biscuits 3 or 4 pieces of pineapple,1/4th of pancake, homemade pasta with tomatoesand fish but it was too much3 for me to finish 1nd i drank champagn3 and wine.

I drink more water lately than before and im truing to keep it th1t way. Ill try tomorrow to achieve my usual routine + going to the hospital to have my exams done.

I felt more enclined to have phydical proximity with my boyfriend today 1ne 1 little bit yestersay but i wonder if im completely emptionally distant from him. I wonder if its the only thing making me able to have tolerance towards him. He has a way to be irritating when someone irritates him. Some kind of littlenvengeance to feel better and to be in control of the suffering he feels. Maybe its a way for him to feel less vulnerable. And the more we try to be reasonable the more he pushes so he reaches the edge. So i figured ill plau the same game or blatantly ignore him when hes like that

[a-gluttonous-abomination]

Let your guard down it will be fine

Open up

Tell me how you feel

Show your emptions

Thats what I want

Yea. ...

Then why since then have i and done what ive been scared to and all the fears are shedding light

Im tired

I tried

I still am

To hold true and my words

No matter how much it hurts and vulnerable i made myself...

Still trying for you..

...

Im tired

Im trying...