she says he won't let her get a dog, which is fine, because they're in an apartment, and that's the kind of thing people say about their partners. he won't let me get a dog. and you're at a dinner party and you tilt your head a little to the side just like that dog he won't let her get, because is this the thing that's going to upset you? you don't know every corner of their relationship, she could be joking, they could have had so many healthy conversations about the dog, right, and maybe she's not letting herself get the dog because of money and time and whatever. but, like, she did say let
and she wants to move away from his hometown and he wants to stay and then he tells you with a wink and a conspiratorial stage whisper don't worry i'll convince her and she laughs about it - so clearly this is something they laugh about. but you do just stand there and stare at him like what the fuck, man. you can't say what you want to say which is why do you get the final say on everything because they're both obviously aware of the other person's stance on this and have obviously had private conversations about it and what are you going to do about it except make a scene and then he'll be mad at you and call you one of those bitches behind your back and she'll cut you off, which is a loss that doesn't feel worth it just because he makes you a little skeeved out every 3rd comment
and they both agree he just isn't the type to get flowers which is fine because everyone shows love differently, and are you really gonna judge someone based on their sense of individual relationship responsibility? maybe he's constantly cleaning her car and writing her poems and making her furniture or something. maybe she doesn't even like flowers and this is perfect, actually. and no you couldn't date him, obviously, ew; but like, she tells you she's happy. you almost send her a tiktok that says don't be 25 and the cool girl that doesn't need anything, you'll hate not getting flowers at 30, but that's like, starting drama & you shouldn't start drama needlessly.
and you're a little older than her but not so much older you can pull the whole trust me on this one babe thing and besides that wouldn't have worked anyway (when does it ever) and besides you have trauma so you and your therapist both agree that you're always looking for a problem even when there isn't one. and you tell yourself that just because you see them for 15 minutes every month does not mean you can identify every single red flag based on a single shitty half-joking(?) comment
and besides, what are you going to do? she says i actually wanted another stand mixer but thankfully he stops me when i'm about to spend too much money and you're standing there like are you okay? is this normal? is this just something people say? and again - what are you going to do?
to your therapist you try to language it - it's not, like, any of my business. but sometimes, doesn't it feel like - you should do something. there's got to be something, right? you've tried dropping little hints but they sail right through and you've tried having a single serious conversation and she got upset because why does it matter to you, yes it's different but we're happy, it doesn't need to make sense to you and you're like. really unwilling to push a boundary about it anymore; because the truth is that you know logically it shouldn't matter to you, as long as both parties are happy.
and besides, you've been wrong before. it's just... like, every time you see them both, something else happens, some kind of shiver down your spine like do you even hear each other when you talk. it's their strange, bickering orbit. just the way he's on his phone through dinner or watching sports instead of helping in the kitchen or, fuck, another one of these little throwaway comments he makes about we'll see about that, babe. she laughs when he calls her passions stupid shit and meanwhile she gets him tickets to see the knicks and he tells you well at least she's smart about something and still! it's none of your business.
you say get the dog anyway and she laughs. like, this is is you being funny. and not you saying - no really. get the dog. get the dog and get out of here. pack up and start running.
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im sure no one is thinking of this but i think we should be friends with each other and world peace and love and warm bread and hugs and art and and petting animals and be outside and tell each other it's going to be okay. i'd also like everyone to be really cool with the questionable character edits i have saved in my phone
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Mmmmight be making a team to help run the Stareater au! As we've come to a realisation how slow the story would be told without help (we both artists...so writing definitely ain't our strong suit) but I'm Determined!!! to tell the story in its entirety
we already have some very talented artist friends willing to draw episodes covers occasionally! And also help with stuff like proof reading!
And I do still want to do most of the heavy lifting with the au as it don't wanna put any stress on others ..buttt I do need help with writing and sorta have to bite the bullet and ask for help haha
But writers are where we need the most help currently
Thing is I wouldn't know the first thing about how to find ppl willing to help with writing. I also wanna make sure I'm organised and know at least some skill when it comes to running a collaborative project like this, to avoid any stress, because that's honestly my biggest fear to stress people out like I have been :') cos we're also we're doing all this for free and purely as a self indulgent project
HM so ..if you got any advice on how to find writers or run a team! Tell meee
For now I'll focus on ...uni work considering I'm also doing that on the side HAH
But yeah! ..also ep 5 as soon as I have the time to finalise it!
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I know they were setting up "Toradeen on the rocks" during the FCBD issue, but cmon! We don't even know how they got together, and they're already breaking them up, that's bullshit!
Just... ugh, you know?
I'm like 99% sure they're gonna get back together and it's just the writers adding a bit of drama. And like, given their history, and Toralei's reputation, I don't think its' super uncalled for. In fact I think I would have been a bit put off if they didn't have some challenges in their relationship, they both have very strong personalities, and this is Clawdeen's first relationship. And they're 15 lol.
But like you said, there's no set up to their relationship, we don't even know how long they'd been dating, and next hing we know they're broken up?? It's weird as hell to have a whole pride comic, just to break them up off screen in the very next issue.
I have mixed feelings about Clawdeen's story arc seemingly revolving around relationship drama. I think there's more that could be done with her, but at the same time she's literally the only main ghoul never shown in a relationship in gen 1, so it's also kinda of a long time coming, and I'm psyched it's with Toralei instead of some random dude.
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Sabo shipped off to work on an oil rig, the ? Managing director? quartermaster?
Idk what jobs there are on oil rigs but whoever is in charge, a rough sea dog kindly in that isolated sort of way kind of man named Marco takes him in and tells him the rig shapes you, best, leave what it lures you alone
Which is fine, sabos no stranger to seeing beyond what one is supposed to but on the rig he hears voices and thats fine too because its not uncommon out at sea
Its also not uncommon to see nothing at all durinf the dark pitch black nights
What is uncommon is to see his husband sitting on the railings of the rusty salt eroded rig, radiant and with a smile that lances through his ribs because he misses him so much
Further uncommon is Ace died one summer that feels so fresh it couldve been yesterday, an aching wound from five years past
Sabo ran to the sea to escape him, Ace, fraught with the concept that sabo may forget him, chases after him
Cosmic psychological horror haunting by your deceased lover and seeking the comfort in the arms of the only other soul on deck— marco
Perhaps hes fucking crazy, Marco doesnt feel real either
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I was thinking and a lot of people don't seem to realize when us trans guys talk about how disheartening it is that people generally see us as a threat after certain points in our transition, we normally aren't talking about like. Random women on the street we don't know because ofc that's gonna happen (especially since many trans men and transmascs have those feelings of wariness towards men you don't know too. Most people do. But I digress)
Because at least in my experience it's exhaustion from being treated like a threat from people who were friends and people you're close to who knew you pre-transition or early in transition but you NOTICE the shift in how they treat you after they can't fully separate from seeing you as a man/masculine. And the way its so common for us to lose friends because they start to bully us and belittle us on the basis that we're now men so we "deserve it" and should "learn to put up with it then" after coming out. It's not some privileged "why random woman scared of me #mensrightsmatter #meninist :(" shit like people claim it is. It's literally just transphobia happening to us and us being like "dude what the fuck"
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