#IT HURTS A LOT

[daily-ethoslab]

could we get etho with jellie? please?

here's just a jellie <3

[ritz-writes]

every now and again ill remember seeing the good omens 2 finale for the first time. i remember getting to episode 5 and going "they wont kiss. i want them to, but they wont. but even if i think theres a chance im still gonna say they wont cuz then ill be excited when they do"

then we got to those last 10 mintues of episode 6. and my heart was shattering and i was crying and i was so so hurt. and then i hear "we could have been us." and i thought this is it. hes gonna leave or aziraphale is gonna try and fix this. one of those. this is the finale. here we go

and then i hear the music

god the fucking music. aziraphale looks away, crowley starts to step forward, and the music swells. and ive watched enough media to know what that means, what that entails

and im thinking "no. its not possible." and then crowley is moving forward and im think "is this actually happening? are we actually getting this?" and then im thinking "wait, not like this, please, not like this."

and then they kiss. and i literally scream. im excited im happy im hurt im aching im grieving im celebrating. they kissed!! they kissed!!!

and then they pull away and i see aziraphales expression and i can say is

"we got it, but at what cost"

i think about this a lot

[trenchcoat-gecko]

I hope yall will be patient with me rn. I know I havent drawn anything new recently and I’ve stopped the daily fic updates that I’d been doing. I lost my cat yesterday. This week has been hard

[luwha]

I… don’t feel excited about being an artist anymore. At least not until this shitstorm that is AI settles, for better or for worse.

Don’t get me wrong, I will draw with all I have. I will strive to be better still. I want to deliver a nice commission that means a lot for me and you. I love what I do. I won’t do different, that’s how I was built.

Just… how do I put it. As a child I always wanted to have ANYTHING worth putting on ArtStation or deviantart, I always wanted to make the wonderfully beautiful art those creators did, I look up to them and will do until I die. I, of course wanted a seat at industry, but it’s just as far fetched as a child who wants to be an astronaut. It’s hard and ain’t for everyone.

No matter the resolution, AI is here to stay, for worse cuz there’s no better on it. Now, that distant dream of ever reaching industry… is gone. Not that I gave up, just impossible. Just.. gone. I barely had a chance before, now it’s over. I’ll never ever have a chance.

I have a style and I do know I lack a bunch of fundamentals, because I am and still am self taught. I struggle to retain knowledge and read because ADD and that doesn’t make me the most reliable, but I do overcompensate being as consistent as a computer can be, working as intensely as a factory worker. I draw fast, at least. I crank a commission every 3 days, because work is my PASSION, I LOVE doing it.

But now it’s not enough and will not ever be. Those people and companies no longer need people to try, to learn. For book covers, card games, propaganda and everything that I aimed for, gone. They no longer need me, they didn’t need before.

I will draw until I die. It’s all I can do. I love it and god, I wish I had a better future. That all of us artists had a better future.

I won’t stop, but I am grieving a bit what I dreamt for so long.

[ghostofashina]

i woke up today like,,, i got so many things to do:) will publish a delulu oneshot:) will keep with my current drawing:) will play videogames:)

and then my body said

you got one, and only one, thing. and it's dengue.

[none-ofthisnonsense]

re : this

you’re like the person who gets it the most i think

❤️

[wassuppeeps]

My stomach seems to be trying to claw it’s way out of my body 🙂🙂

Or something is trying to claw it’s way out of my stomach…

[pint-o-beans]

I hate this fucking hospital still in the waiting room after 2.5 hours

[teartra]

Babel Major Spoilers

This scene shattered my heart and broke my world

Fuck Letty

[roninsomnia]

my hand is itchy and it wont go away :(

[crisscross-inksauce]

Me, a hardcore Ladynoir fan of 7 years, watching the first “no-contest” canon kiss be not only Marichat, but the most tender, loving, soulful, romantic thing I’ve ever seen

I’ve never been more bitter

*Insert kid crying with machete gif, you know the one*

[cartooncadet666]

Due to personal reasons and finally able to recover, I am officially removing Alabaster from the Love Interest board that Skeebo has and Kiki will also be removed from Blinded AU. The female ghost and Chibi will also be removed but not for the same reasons, I really don't think I should include them anymore.

Blinded AU will stay discontinued and will be restored into Rebellion AU once my fic drafts are published.

That being said, Blinded AU will restart its concept entirely, this is a vent in a way, because the person I made the au with was someone who I didn't know was very bad until I saw their true colors and several other friends of mine they made uncomfortable. And they didn't stop because they didn't care. So I'm cutting myself off from them completely and restarting the au because I don't want to be uncomfortable with myself anymore.

The old plot will stay the same (Skeebo being executed and the Netherworld being enraged by Pac-World) but the only thing changing will be the later darkness this new au has.

Thank you guys for staying this long with me and I apologize for my lack of posting, lots of shocking and hurtful things happened recently and it's still taking me a while to recover from writer's and art block.

[omglaurashutup]

have you ever been prevented from loving to your fullest potential?

[most-dorkiest-hydrapple]

Tip: If get-outside-nekomatsu has wounded anyone, and she is aware of this fact, she will have an aneurysm if not given a source of affection within 10 minutes.

[ethernalium]

yo, I'm dealing with sciatic pain these times and I want to know if y'all have a few tips and exercises for this, message everywhere I just want to deal with this with less pain and this is super affecting my life

[guinea-pig16]

yall ever try to cut off a friend you never talk to and then they come back asking why you kicked them from the gcs and now youre having to do a long drawn out process of explaining why and the things that theyve done and it really hurts them AND you because you still love and care for them but you cant keep letting yourself be hurt by them?

just me? ):