#Kamden Hilliard

[whisperthatruns]

The reasonable man carries a reasonable wallet , the wallet frequently monied . The reasonable man’s reasonable wallet contains a reasonable bus pass . Now---if you are , say , staying in that body of yours , & the reasonable man finds that body of yours an unreasonable ambulant , does he say that ...

                      a) You don’t look ...                       b) I’m not into ...                       c) Get those hands where I can buy ’em or I’ll shoot !

Kamden Ishmael Hilliard, from “SELF . E .”, MissSettl (Nightboat Books, 2022)

[taylornapolsky]

& eff you’re trying hard not to hurt anyone

but yourself & yourself is super shit @ it

than i , 2 , have been beating back the green

with you , allalong , furrowed round joy’s means .

I am so here ! So here to hav you here ! H!appy

how I am 2 tellya , about Happiness . Eff you

haven’t yet heard of happiness it’s only bc

Kamden Hilliard — “GROWING CONCERN”

[lifeinpoetry]

What danger cost 2 much    patron saint / of patrón? Pain 2 paper alchemy?

Kamden Hilliard, from “Ride W Favor,” published in Poem-a-Day

[natbrut]

Issue 9 is finally here.

We are super proud of this incredible collection. A lot of work, blood, sweat, and literal tears have gone into this issue. We can't wait for you to read it. Issue 9 features art, edited by Ximena Alejandra Izquierdo Ugaz and Danielle Wright; fiction, edited by RL Goldberg; poetry, edited by Jennifer Soong; and creative nonfiction, edited by Laura Bullard.

Inside you'll also find Another Closet, a folio of work by survivors and members of the LGBTQIA+ community grappling with addiction and substance misuse, edited by Kayla AE and Laura Bullard.

[bibliomancyoracle]

what we’ve got here is a failure 2 substantiate. 2 put our back into the elbow grease.

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from “DEAR DIARY, BEIN' A LIL' BITCH ABT IT” by 

[jaxntp-poetry]

August 2016: Apogee Journal publishes 2 poems by Jax NTP

 Table of Contents: Poetry

Manuel Arturo Abreu, 3 poems Fatimah Asghar, 9 of Disks Quenton Baker, Self-Portrait by Quenton Baker Robert Balun, Ritual Aaron Coleman, Elegy For Apogee Shira Erlichman, Ode to Lithium #-18: Postscript to Mania Marwa Helal, of ritual Kamden Hilliard, SUGAR / SICK Saretta Morgan, from Auto-Index Jax NTP, 2 poems Soraya Shalforoosh, You would have been seventy-seven today Claire Schwartz, testimony, from the sidewalk beneath them Nikki Wallschlaeger, This Body Keeps the Keys

https://apogeejournal.org/issues/issue-07/ https://apogeejournal.org/mission/

“Apogee is a journal of literature and art that engages with identity politics, including but not limited to: race, gender, sexuality, class, ability, and intersectional identities. We are a biannual publication featuring fiction, nonfiction, poetry, and visual art. Our goals are twofold: to publish fresh work that interrogates the status quo, and to provide a platform for underrepresented voices, prioritizing artists and writers of color. In The word “apogee” denotes the point in an object’s orbit that is farthest from the center. Our mission combines literary aesthetic with political activism. We believe that by elevating underrepresented literary voices we can effect real change: change in readers’ attitudes, change in writers’ positions in literature, and broader change in society.The composition of our staff upholds Apogee’s value of diversity, and includes writers, teachers, and nonprofit workers who are deeply passionate about issues of identity and social justice.”

History

“In 2011, a group of writers of color and international students in Columbia’s graduate writing program created Apogee as a space to pay tribute to oppressed identities in a literary landscape dominated by white, cis-heteronormative, patriarchal voices. For more than five years, Apogee Journal operated independently, as a biannual print journal. Alongside the print journal is an active online hub, Perigee, which features original content, editorials, interviews, and much more. In 2018 Apogee Journal began to transition towards an all-online presence with occasional print projects, with the hope of creating more accessible ongoing conversations between our creative content and the community surrounding this work.”

https://apogeejournal.org/mission/

[csuclass]

Fall 2020 Publications

Department of English | Poetry Center

In October 2020, the CSU Poetry Center released three new volumes of poetry.

Alen Hamza's Twice There Was a Country, which Brenda Hillman selected to win our recent competition for a first book of poetry, has been called "a brilliant debut" by Jericho Brown. It "explores Hamza's identity as a Bosnian refugee attempting, and equally resisting, to assimilate to the cultural politics of the United States," in the words of Paisley Rekdal.

Shelley Feller's Dream Boat is a "linguistic triumph that is [Feller's] foray into extending the conversation that Hart Crane began in the last century," according to L. Lamar Wilson, and is "teeming with emergent queer life, post-life, and glorious, grotesque effulgence" (Tim Jones-Yelvington).

Daniel Borzutzky described Lauren Shapiro's Arena as a "poignant and stunning achievement" in which "atrocity, bureaucracy, history, and spectacle merge to form a performance that we are unable to look away from." Suzanne Buffam says, "[Shapiro's] poems register a collective alarm in which private grief and global dread converge 'at the pace of adrenaline.'"

An online book launch for these three titles drew viewers from around the world, and we look forward to sharing these books with readers, writers, and teachers of poetry everywhere. Special thanks are due to Poetry Center director Caryl Pagel, who has shipped over 1,000 books from her home since the start of the pandemic.

Nearing its sixtieth year, the CSU Poetry Center continues to publish three to five books a year of poetry, essays, and translations and sell our 200+ title backlist. It runs one to three annual contests (receiving 600–1000+ manuscripts a year), as well as offering open reading periods for poetry in translation, and occasionally publishing solicited book projects, most recently Cleveland-based avant-garde poet Russell Atkins's selected volume World'd Too Much. The center has launched a new digital space (exclamationsgauntlet.com) to feature commentary on poetry, poetics, innovative literature, and small press publishing, with textual, visual, and/or video content appearing weekly.

While the pandemic has altered the center's formats and daily operations, it’s thrilled to have still been able to welcome the new Anisfield-Wolf Fellow in Writing and Publishing, Kamden Hilliard, who will be with us through spring 2022. The NEOMFA Writers at Work Colloquium continued to have events that included conversations with the writers Brandon Shimoda and Cyrée Jarelle Johnson.

[ap-apt]

Best American Essays, Best of the Net, and Pushcart Prize

Congratulations to Sonja Condit, Salem Dockery, Kirstin Ethridge, Krysten Hill, Patricia Jacaban Miranda, and Joanna Ruocco, our Pushcart Prize nominees for 2017; as well as Yusuf DeLorenzo, Caitlin Dwyer, Kirstin Ethridge, Kamden Hilliard, Emily Jaeger, Ben Kline, Colin Rafferty, Kelly R. Samuels, Suzannah Russ Spaar, and Terrell Jamal Terry, our nominees for this year's Best of the Net award!

Last week, we heard from our contributor Michael Nagel, who asked if we’d heard that his essay “Beached Whales,” which we’d published last summer, was included among the notable essays in this year’s Best American Essays? We hadn’t heard! And it was featured on LongReads! It was an exciting hour or two. Then I checked our site stats and saw we’d also had referring traffic from the fine crew at…

[whisperthatruns]

The Tetsuo Harano Tunnels Are Colonial Infrastructure !

This road takes me home , this road is a bypass , & this road is under construction . Thus , the lane ahead closes ; narrows in 1 mouth & out the other .

The US military made it thru the mountain w blasting bellies full of fluff piece & infrastructure bc the US Military put their objects where your objects is . bc the US Military say wine is coffee-life & in-between the heart is a lonely house hunter , where we settled on freezing all the head(s) . Something about stock , but I’ve grown sick eating         eating         eating                the dead.

Kamden Ishmael Hilliard, MissSettl (Nightboat Books, 2022)

[biglucks]

Kamden Hilliard

 CREATINE STORY

thinks / thing & already thot language thinks  therefore is a field which is both

FIELD                              THE THING THAT IS FIELD ABSENCE OF FIELD                              ANTI‐FIELD                           feat. MANY KIND GRASSES

being made in their image they think anything &             woosh no field nor baby’s breath nor wht ppl laughing while eating salad

tho / i / made in their image / am an action / affirmation of space outside the thing

oooo / the thing?

the thing? the thing is the thing / only & 4nvr moar / the thing is equidistant  / moderately priced / middle claspt / & passing its classes / the thing is @school & so gud / 2 want the thing is a feeling bigger than G‐d / ‘s paltry nigger finger / but oh / forgot 2 mention lol / the thing would luvvv 2 do brunch next weekend / wonders eff yr bringing Tony / oh the thing luvz yr Tony / yr boy‐of‐the‐month‐club / always there 2 bring the bleak 2 bay / similarly / the thing itselves / which is a tree in which there are 3 blk boiz / Tony / a strong proponent of the thing / is gr8 @rapejokes / & is hoping yu get home safe / & wld rlly lyk 2 kno

y yr FAM, THE dn't go camp ing. or eff yu wanna borrow his Up dike. yu dn't. but will take his Vonnegut or Delillo. wants 2 kno y no Diplo? / dem&s 2 kno y / when he says chariot / yu sing / swing low

Kamden Hilliard goes by Kam and is an Editor at Jellyfish Magazine. They got good vibes from The Ucross Foundation, The NFAA, The Davidson Institute, VSC, and Callaloo. The author of two chapbooks: DISTRESS TOLERANCE (Magic Helicopter Press, 2016) and PERCEIVED DISTANCE FROM IMPACT (Black Lawrence Press, 2017), Kam stays busy. Find their work in The Black Warrior Review, Lambda Literary Review, Redivider, and other sunspots.

[taylornapolsky]

Sometimes these damages are delivered only to save ,

only to teach , only to demonstrate how love comes back in , always ,

to where it always was , bit by bit.

Kamden Ishmael Hilliard — “Growing Concern”

[lifeinpoetry]

Language isn’t so much political but            awarded with pain

— Kamden Hilliard, from “EDUCATIONAL HISTORY [self-report],” published in Puerto del Sol

[ap-apt]

I Feel Most Black by Kamden Hilliard

"Wen still life w negro / spiritual w blown woof Wen Ms. Nakata wanted / 2 kno what i preferred how my lines fit Black? or / African American?" -- I Feel Most Black by Kamden Hilliard

after Zora Neale Hurston   Wen ashen Wen wundrin thru color W my witch name Wen wildin out w my wishful drinking Wen sayin bangbang! Wen still life w negro spiritual w blown woof Wen Ms. Nakata wanted 2 kno what i preferred how my lines fit Black? or African American? or Wen while reading Makes Me Wanna Holler Wen sumhow they knew i knew how 2 run      a train Wen from any cartesian plane i go 2…

[magichelicopter]

Hey look at that: a great interview with Kam Hilliard about their chapbook DISTRESS TOLERANCE over at William Woolfitt's Speaking of Marvels!

"What’s your chapbook about?

Apocalypse / the end of things / the bad things— and how to deal with them. The world is not implicitly shitty, of course, but right now it is: racism / colorism / homophobia. Due to the lasting effects of colonial and imperial projects, we are left with some seriously dark views of the world. I think of this chappie as an attempt to move through the gluck of the world without annihilation."

[whisperthatruns]

Why I Hate Sarah McLaughlin

lets see some abused animals again

really    see em   get all throat lump

fuck the ASPCA[SSHOLES]   i dont want

anything to be saved            let the world be terroristed

so theres something to sift:           shiv of light

and terror which terror?   if nothing explodes everything is exploited

but the thing      with bonerubble:     burnt blonde and shatter   and leftover

there is always something   dying among the dead

there is something to save there are more words      to need

so how about some  rib breathing cats and dogs fought

what about malnutrition and mutilation?

what im trying to say:  what hope is there for salvation

if we are built     to make it?

and does anyone want it?      think of the bored firemen

longing for a cat splayed through a tree

consider the dog catcher forty old englishes into

a useless friday morning swinging an empty

net at the setting moon

Kamden Ishmael Hilliard (Specter, 2014)

[therumpus]

As a survivor of sexual assault, I am curious about post-damage. Not trauma, exactly, but the things that happen once damage ceases. This does, hopefully, parlay into trauma, but often it does not. It’s often a bad scar. The body heals as the body heals, but the brain? The soul? The credit score? The heart? I don’t quite know.

The Saturday Rumpus Interview: Kamden Hilliard.