#Mays soapbox

[vase-of-lilies]

PSA for readers who don't like something

I recently posted a very long story called "Her Fallen Angel." This is apart of a very DARK collection of stories I have created, and almost all of the stories I have posted so far involve some kind of sexual assault or act of violence. Just like I do for every story, I put warnings on them and I disclose what is going to be in that story such as Rape, Non-consent/dubious content, and other graphic descriptions of violence. I also added a pairing I (now) realize not very many people like. That is Wanda x Bucky. I am not sure why, as they are just fictional characters in a fictional world, with fictional feelings and a fictional love life. Maybe.... maybe its about how Wanda is a bit overpowered and it doesn't make sense for just a strong super-soldier man to be together with a sorceress.

But fun fact fuckers : This story is F I C T I O N. ITS MADE UP.

I certainly DO NOT CONDONE the actions that I write about. This is merely a coping mechanism from some extremely traumatic events that happened when I was a child and throughout my teen years. I obviously do not wish any of this on anyone, and these stories are purely that: A story. So if you chose to not read the warnings (which are plastered right at the top of the page) and continue to read the story, that is on you, not me. You don't have to like it, but don't be like these people:

I am not doxxing them, as you can go to that story and see their comments for yourself. *Edit: I blocked them both so their replies disappeared. Yeah, she said she "liked the story" but should have stopped there. I am assuming that was just to "soften the blow" of the "eww icky bucky part". As for the other comment, yes. @/Cakechan123 you could have easily ignored this story. As could ANYONE who read the warnings and didn't like something.

Yes there is rape and sexual assault in my story. But writing it gives me the control to make it a happy ending by killing the pursuer, gaining powers and escaping, or even just a slight change in behavior in the pursuer as a sliver of hope that it could have happened in my experience.

But leaving comments like this because you didn't like something is just bad taste.

As a writer, I am of course open to constructive criticism. But BS like this will not be appreciated.

For the people who liked the story, I am very happy you did and I thank you for not only leaving a NICE comment but reblogging it as well! I love your POSITIVE feedback, and your nice comments and encouragement mean the world to me!!

Us dark storytellers have been harassed, berated, shamed, and mocked for too long. I’ve stood by and comforted a lot of folks but I have had enough of this shit. Leave us the fuck alone if you don’t like what we write! Once again:

If you see something you DO NOT LIKE then simply DO NOT READ.

[saintaviator]

some stuff.. la..

[glaciergore]

so I've been considering two things: crozier's contempt for hickey as a reflection of his own shame, and a privilege of rank being your distance from the violence you enact.

hickey is an unrepentant shamelessness to crozier's guilt. he's the overt brutality of british imperialism to crozier's acceptable, 'civilised' face.

crozier looks upon him with disgust for that, yet is complicit in the same system, enacting similar violence but with the luxury of having people to do it for him.

silna's kidnapping exemplifies this. bringing her aboard was also crozier's (and fitzy's) idea, and it still would've been kidnapping in all but name. sending a party of armed military officers to bring in a lone, local woman (or anyone, for that matter) is itself a dynamic of violence and coercion, regardless of actual inflicted physical violence.

hickey organising his small, unauthorised party, of which he is a member, reflects an inequality in power manifesting as proximity to violence (i.e., boots-on-the-ground vs. command from high). in other words, hickey's comparative lack of power means he must bloody his own hands, unlike crozier.

thus, the difference between the violence crozier and hickey each enact (or plan to) is in presentation, not effect.

crozier neither flogs hickey himself nor ties the noose around his neck. there's a whole system at his command, as captain, to enact hierarchically-sanctioned violence on his behalf, often in very public ways.

meanwhile, hickey accompanies the kidnapping party in-person and kills irving with his own hands, out of sight (not by gunshot, but stabbing and suffocation — especially brutal and hands-on).

although this precipitates the murder of the netsilik family, even that is proxied through hodgson, so I'd argue the only real crozier-like power hickey ever gets is post-mutiny. in particular, when the mutineers kidnap crozier on his authority, without his presence. then, he reverts back to hands-on violence when attacking sol, whom he knows is planning on turning back (a symbol of his newfound authority slipping).

this reinforces a relationship between power/authority and the distance (by extension, comfort) you receive from your violence.

that's reflected in other scenes, such as crozier massaging fitzy's throat to euthanise him while hickey must take a knife to gibson: one of these acts is more overtly violent than the other, but they serve the same fundamental purpose.

the way crozier and hickey are framed, largely as foils, repeatedly draws attention to a disparity between their acts of violence. but, ultimately, both men are using tools at their disposal for survival and personal gain — except their rank and class differential provides them access to different tools.

hickey is the natural end result of the system crozier's complicit in (more than complicit; he commands it, on a small-scale system like an expedition).

therefore, when crozier looks at hickey, he is confronted with the overt and undeniable colonial violence underlying his own orders or mere presence in the arctic. 'you hold yourself to a standard of man you are not nor should ever have tried to be...' it's important that they're both on the floor in that scene — that hickey invites crozier to sit. you're as good as your 'worst' man, and they're talking on the same level.

and that's just it: 'I forgive all of them but you,' crozier says, placing total blame on hickey as again a 'devious seducer' of his men. that neglects how any power hickey scrapes derives from his ability to organise existing sentiments amongst them. they hardly murder the netsilik family on his whim; he ignites their existing hostility, prejudice, and need to project blame for their circumstances.

crozier is still deluded that his men are somehow fundamentally good ('you're clean, goodsir, even as your hand is forced by swine'). accepting otherwise would require him to recognise that any colonialist presence is itself an inherent act of violence against the native populations of a given place.

only towards the end of the narrative (and his personal arc) does crozier finally commit hands-on colonial violence: he kills tuunbaq. even if tuunbaq was already choking, the reason why was a colonial presence. he at last takes accountability for that, renounces his life, rank, identity almost as punishment, or guilty self-exile.

crozier is dead and gone.

summarised: crozier and hickey both engage in colonialist violence, but crozier's rank affords him distance from it. hickey's existence forces him to confront the violence he embodies by just being present as part of a colonising force, and that contributes to his severe punishment of and contempt for hickey.

aka... self-recognition through the other (derogatory)?

[shipoftheseusofficial]

I NEED people to realize that Severance is a beautifully shot show!! I feel like people miss this when they're just seeing square gifs of the characters in business suits... The actual show has a wide aspect ratio and everything in the frame - the shot composition, lighting, color grading, even the blocking of the characters - is SO carefully considered.

Not to spiral too much but I feel like the more AI infiltrates our everyday consciousness, the more crucial it is to appreciate and to be able to identify the human creative elements in the art we encounter. The craftspeople who make this show are making really intentional visual choices that enhance the story and the sense of drama that we feel watching it! TV shows are made by artists and they are putting their ideas into the frame on purpose in order to communicate with you, the viewer! <3

[ladyoftheharbour]

more cover art for the folk album i’ll never release

[goodold-fashionedloverblog]

on today’s episode of A Certain Queen Member Being Too Polite For His Own Good, we have Brian essentially apologizing for being straight

From a 2003 Brian’s Soapbox Post I stumbled upon while looking for something else entirely

[isfjmel-phleg]

Do I really want to get into fights with Wikipedia about why Colin Craven, at least as portrayed in the book, does not belong on the list of fictional victims of Munchausen by proxy?

No. But also yes.

What is it with the internet and diagnosing this child with the weirdest, most sensationalized things.

[meowrimo]

happy first of july my friendz !! may the summer sunshine kiss all over your faces & your days be filled with warm, gentle breezes. take a deep breath, relax your shoulders, and be ready to embrace all the goodness that will come your way this month !! 🤍

even if things don’t feel so good right now, i really hope that you can find some peace and happiness in the little things — sometimes it’s all we have so we must cherish them ! :3

[aeriondripflame]

some measure of “been dead since the beginning” with jon snow. the boy borne of a king protected and shrouded by his mother’s blood. the boy hidden in the snow living without the knowledge that he was hiding at all. the boy who was never meant to live.

[honeydots]

🍯FLASH COMMS!🍯

for today and tomorrow I'll be doing a discounted flash sale on my chibi noodle style~ 1 character per request, for $7.00!!

🧡ko-fi🧡

[jobean12-blog]

Wishing you the best and all the love and cheering you on with classes! You’ve got this!❤️❤️❤️love and hugs! ❤️

Hi everyone,

I want to say thank you to every single one of you who have stuck with me as I rebuilt this blog when it shit itself, and for being there from the beginning! (This is not a goodbye post I promise lol!) until further notice, I will be going on a hiatus because of the work load more college classes are bringing to me. Im not sure when I’ll be on again, but I will be back! I love each and every one of you, and I can’t wait to come back on here to finish some of these requests and other projects. Thank you again for everything, and until next time!

Love,

May 💕

Tagging some people just to spread the word a bit:)

@bucksangel @the-queen-of-hell-666 @navybrat817 @jobean12-blog @darkficsyouneveraskedfor

[lesbian-navia]

just making a little status update to explain why i prob won’t post very often in the future

i’m getting burnt out with genshin again and i’m really disappointed by the natlan characters being so pale, like i’m not surprised but it really puts me off, like how sumeru did when it first dropped. ofc, i’ve been playing since 1.0 so i doubt i’ll quit, but i’ve been barely playing lately because of this lol

i have a couple drafts i might post soon but yeah. that’s why. thank u everyone who followed and liked any of my silly posts !! i appreciate all of you:)

[delurkr]

Headcanon: when the older Clarke kids were young, the Lambert house wasn't a historical preservation, it was just that really old dilapidated house nearby that the kids used to play in (because irresponsible midcentury parents gonna be irresponsible midcentury parents. James probably gave the walls a few kicks and declared it safe). They used to catch fireflies in the yard.

[ladyoftheharbour]

realized i achieved my goal of being unemployed for less than a month yay

[luanna801]

lmfaooooo why would you willingly go into the untamed fandom gat out

I LOVE this ask, tbh. Instead of anon hate, it's so concerned and protective! Anon support! You're the kind of person we need more of in the world, anon.

That said, this mostly just makes me giggle. At this point I'm an old hat at fandom drama and I promise you I'm probably impervious to whatever nonsense the Untamed fandom has to offer. And as of now, I mostly haven't even been tagging my MDZS/Untamed posts, so I'm unlikely to draw much attention from them anyway.

[fishandshesmygills]

except for the theory that regina and janis were dating but people started to suspect so regina threw janis under the bus. this i accept as truth. HOWEVER. i am team janis forever