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[onehundredfallenpetals]

In another life, you and I...

My first piece for @rivalszine I'm happy to finally share this!!

[fluxweeed]

Hii, I just discovered your fics and am reading my way through them. Love, love, love the ones I’ve read so far.😊 I was just wondering what your favourite Draco is you’ve written, and what your fave Draco is in fics written by others? ☺️

ACK thank you!! what a question!! i've considered this v carefully and it turns out i have………a lot of thoughts. i will keep them under a cut so nobody is accosted with a full 700 words of my Draco Opinions 😂 so my quick answer is:

my fave draco i've written: the taste of țuică my fave draco ever: rookie moves by peu_a_peu

draco is an interesting one for me bc i don't really LIKE him? but i have sooo many feelings about him. really not sure i could summon the same fervour for harry, for example, who is my number one boy forever and always.

(i saw a thing once that said a pairing becomes ur otp when u relate to one of the characters and want to fuck the other one, and 🙈 i mean, i think you're supposed to relate to the gryffindor, aren't you. whoops.)

OKAY SO HERE'S THE UNHINGED DRACO MALFOY ESSAY BY FLUX W. EED.

listen. i love and respect people who are Refined Draco enjoyers. connoisseurs of redemption arcs. appreciators of majestic malfoy bone structure and ethereal grey eyes and soft windswept hair. fans of dracos who insult harry (with hidden affection) and who are a bit snobbish (in a rich, sexy way) but ultimately have realised the error of their teenage years and have become a better person. perhaps this draco has built a potions business and helps the aurors. perhaps he IS an auror. either way, he has a biting sense of humour, maybe, but he's a good guy.

unfortunately, the draco of my heart is a horrid mean little rat man.

i've never actually managed to write him the way i love him. i tried to aim for immoral bastardy in what's mine is yours but i got so caught up in trying to nail the feelsforbreakfast-style humour in the narrative that i ended up focusing much more on that and much less on writing genuine bastardhood.

i've written him as reserved and clever (in the four doors – this draco was written entirely for @jovialobservationanchor, who had a weak spot for closed-off academics with soft centres) and as a traumatised self-loathing mess (in two to lie and to some extent for lack of wanting and say no to this) and hopelessly sexually/emotionally horny for one harry james potter (in, um, most things) but i've never managed to capture the genuine cruel streak and flawed personality that is sooo so important to me.

WHICH IS WHY i picked țuică!draco for my favourite of the ones i've written. he's still a bit too emotionally intelligent to be Just Right, imo, but i think he's maybe the closest? he's unrepentantly rude to people. he's not attractive. and he has a streak of self-destructive fucked-upedness that is some form of wartime guilt, but certainly not a pretty one.

HOWEVER. rookie moves?? NAILED it. i adooored how genuinely fuckin MEAN he is, even tho he's an auror. i love love LOVED that he's kind of bad at his job in a way that's in complete opposition to how drarry!draco is often written these days:

The look on Malfoy’s face was not only troubling, Harry realized, but familiar. At once activated and dead behind the eyes, like an invasive species in an ecosystem that could not check it. It was the look of the meanest fucking teenager Harry had ever known, giving in to his urge to bully.

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What Malfoy wasn’t good with was people. Despite his repeated insistences that his upbringing had equipped him with impeccable manners and a facility with society intrigue, the truth was that he rubbed almost everyone the wrong way. He was, undeniably, annoying. Witnesses were put off by his snide, dismissive tone, and he didn’t know how to coax out information with curiosity, warmth, or strategic silence.

that's not to say unrepentant cunt draco is the only one for me!! i DO enjoy the classic redeemed drarry draco!! i love a quirky draco, à la wwpwcs or maya's drop dead gorgeous. gallaplacidia's draco is sooo painful for me to read (complimentary) that even though i adore her fics, i still haven't read them all bc i have to space them out, for my health. and i'm sure there are dozens more dracos that i'm forgetting how much i like – basically, as long as he isn't super suave, absolutely gorgeous and/or obviously tom felton, i'm on board.

[ikilledtvguygoddamnit]

kerdly is like boyf riends to me does this make any sense at all

[terrevfunkrib]

What if i..... went active on this account again..... haha jk jk.... unless......

[treecakes]

[ID from alt: a page of messy pencil sketches done on graph paper of yorishima from natsume’s book of friends /end ID]

peepaw <3

[arkhammaid]

I followed you for your Genshin fics, I got into Honkai Star Rail because of you and now I'm also into F1, so thank you for introducing me to new fandoms!

Could you recommend any F1 fic writers here on Tumblr?

hello anon! i'm so sorry it took me so long to answer this ask, but i really had to go through the list, since i read all kinds of stuff and i haven't gotten around to read all fics i planned to :// so the people tagged below write anything between smau's or written fics (sfw and nsfw!!), here or on ao3, so please check them out!! (very sorry for tagging so many people but i admire all of you and your works🫶)

@pucksandpower , @lorarri , @leclerc-s , @lovewithmary , @verstarppen , @astonmartinii , @f1version , @leclsrc , @lewisvinga , @arieslost , @mariahcarreyyy , @f1byjessie , @verstppism , @scuderiahoney , @serpenttines , @angsthology , @fangirl-dot-com , @foreveralbon , @drivestraight , @twslug , @planete777 , @sssilverstoned , @hemmingsleclerc , @monzamash , @velvetsainz , @chlerc , @landothemuppet , @landonfour , @landitolover , @norafaye , @nico-di-genova , @everythingne , @enchantecafe , @f0point5 , @solaireverie

[littleshopofhorrors-confessions]

Can we talk about Crystal, Chiffon, and Ronnette? I love seeing people's hcs for what's up with them but I feel like I don't see enough talk about them. Are they from the same planet as Audrey 2 and just in a different disguise? Are they psychic? Can they see the future but do nothing about it but sing? Are they just normal people constantly getting possessed by the narrative itself? Are they just guessing and really good at being right coincidentally?

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[eeblouissant]

current favourite Dorothy’s for no reason in particular <333 just feel like Dorothy posting before bed <333333 srs going to explode her with my mind one day omg

[mymau]

currently frolicking through a flower field with aine🫶

[suspicious-number-of-skeletons]

Man I really do make my own problems.

I said two things that were stupid in the span of 2 days with the same group of people. And we aren’t meeting in call again till this friday. I’m so worried they won’t want to talk to me anymore because of it.

It’s so hard to stop and think when I’m talking with people irl and it’s making me endlessly anxious. Was that too far? Was that taken as a joke like I meant it? Do they even remember that? Should I apologize anyway and remind them of the issue? Do they hate me? What if they’re just waiting for the right moment to cut it all off and leave me to myself again?

They’re my friends, they wouldn’t just avoid the issue because we’re friends. But what if they would? It’s happened before. I want to ask but I don’t know how I would even BEGIN to word it.

I wish this social shit was easier like everyone else makes it out to be

[honeynclove]

sometimes I block ppl and for literally no reason????

[hivepixels]

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[nomore-roominhell]

I watched Dawn of The Dead (1978) again and I just had to write something about Roger and Peter. Peter's feelings for Roger can be read as romantic or platonic, I wrote this with both in mind.

Warning- major character death!

This fic is based on a song btw (the blue text is lyrics)

"You never knew how much I really liked you"

The past was the past and there was no changing it. No matter how Peter ached for Roger, he was gone.

Peter had never been an emotional man, usually maintaining a stoic composure, but Roger was his best friend. They hadn't even known eachother that long, only meeting a few weeks or so ago when all the chaos began, but Roger hadn't left Peter's side since. They had become practically inseparable, until one of those ghouls tore them from eachother.

Even if Roger was still breathing, he was gone.

Peter should have stopped him. He should have told Roger not to go back for his bag. He should have, but he didn't. He had assumed Roger would be fine. He had only realised his mistake once it was too late. Peter couldn't help but feel this was all his fault.

"Because I never even told you"

Peter listened to Roger's breathing, reassurance he was still alive.

Roger had gotten more forgetful and confused as the infection ravaged his senses, Peter was getting used to it at this point, so why did it still hurt when Roger seemed to not sense Peter next to him? Calling out for him, and growing more agitated the longer it took Peter to respond.

"I'm right here"

Roger calmed almost immediately.

The smaller man leaned against Peter's shoulder, saying something about how he was going to "try not to come back" and Peter almost wished that were true.

He didn't speak after that. They sat in silence together. Roger brought a shaky hand up to rest against Peter's chest, looking up at him. Peter looked back at him, trying to hold on to the fading life in those eyes. Roger didn't have long.

Peter gently held the hand resting against him. He didn't let go even after Roger stopped moving.

Roger, who was once so full of life, was gone and Peter swore he could feel a little part of himself die as Roger stilled.

Peter never told Roger how much he loved him. He never would.

"Oh, and I meant to"

[ikeprincest]

I'm like 50% sure someone blocked this blog

I'm not mad, I'm actually here to warn anyone else: If you wanna block me, make sure I'm blocked on all your sideblogs too!! I'm not talking whole separate accounts, but apparently (for some reason) sideblogs on your account have separate block lists

Block me if you want, but block responsibly >:3 It'd be bad if you didn't want me around but I rbed a thing not knowing it was yours right?

(I'd tag the person I think blocked me... If they didn't block me, lol)

[es-quest]

Do you remember anything?

You do, you'd rather not but you do.

Why are you back here? What happened? Did it kick you out? You look down, there's no blood on you. You can feel the weight of your knife again on your belt. (You really want to throw it away.) And you're also fairly certain the world is going to end again.

That's...that's not what's supposed to happen is it?

You search for the salamander, but you can't see him. Even though everything looks exactly the same.

Except...

While some of the Nothing flowers are still scattered around you spy some roses growing too. Though not in bushes, there just coming out of the ground on their own.

Weird.

[cookies-hetaoni]

Let me make one thing clear.

I am a 27 year old adult who got out of the Hetalia fandom shortly after releasing my version of HetaOni. It's been SEVEN years that I haven't accessed any memories related to this, and I suddenly decided to remake this game on a whim.

Yes, a whim. So, obviously, I don't remember much about it at all.

And like I mentioned, I am an adult whose only source of income is selling my art.

I own this blog. Many people followed me because they liked my art more than they did the game. I see NOTHING wrong in offering my commissions to the people who follow me here.

Yes. OFFERING. I'm not shoving my commissions down anyone's throat and forcing them to buy from me just because I'm working on hetaoni.

I'll say it once more. This blog is mine. I'll post whatever I want in it. If you're not happy, ask me to tag. If you're still unhappy, then fucking unfollow me. Block me. Stay away from me. But don't come over here telling me what and how to do things.

You don't own this blog. I created my own version of HetaOni. I am going to recreate that same version to the best of my abilities.

On a whim. Because I want to. That is all.

Not because I thought it could be profitable. Not because I had second intentions. Not because I want to take advantage of the fact that my version is one of the only playable versions of hetaoni.

But because I felt like it. Period.

Whether I share my commission info here or not is completely unrelated.

That said, I will continue working on the game. I have disabled anons and will block any stupid hater from here on out.

But be warned. If this shit goes on for too long and I get too stressed out I'm dropping this project. Because I am a 27 year old adult who can't waste any time with dumb Internet kiddos. (Or worse, people as old or even older than me who are so extremely pissed about the fact that I need to make a living for myself).

Are we clear? God, I fucking hope so.