Gods, it's still crazy that just a few days ago, I saw word you had passed away. I had been such a big fan growing up that the time I came back to listening to The GazettE again, you were gone..
I remembered my cousin showing me the first music video of The GazettE. It was "The Invisible Wall," and I remember how hard that song hit. The bass, the lyrics, the sound, all of it just hit the core of my soul and knew they were the band for me. We created a Facebook page. Had usernames and everything. I can't remember what mine was, but it was something along the lines of 'Reita's Girl' or something close.
I remember doing research on the band. Looking at each member individually and together. That's when I noticed the song "Shivers" was an outtro to Black Bulter, which was an anime I watched before I even knew The GazettE. The opening hit just as hard as the other songs my cousin shared with me, and since then, I was a fan or thought I was.
At some point they had left my mind as life had gotten complicated and now have returned when I started listening to Kpop which I know is different but if it wasn't for this little kpop era to come in I probably wouldn't have had heard about Reita's death or anything about The GazettE as reading comments from here on Tumblr to tiktok found out they were having a comeback which felt like a perfect time to get into them again... I just don't know how it will feel to not see Reita around... He was my favorite... I'm gonna miss him... he was such a good bassist that I'm not sure anyone could replace him. He was one of a kind. Rest in peace, my little rockstar... may we see you again in heaven..
[Music is a very big part of my life and I’m MOSTLY INCAPABLE of writing without music, so I just thought I’d share what I am listening to while writing this]
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I still don't know how to express myself as I am still in denial and I spent the whole of last night crying.
If BTS is the band I am engaged to, so to say, and ARASHI was the one I almost married, The GazzettE is my First Love.
Even as I got into ARASHI, and now BTS, I never stopped liking them, and it was never a question of stopping or moving on, in my heart, they were already up there in legendary status with Queen, and now BTS, meaning; FOREVER LOVED.
So, I think I'll keep being in denial, for a while, which is the only reason how I am able to write this, to be honest, I'm writing it at work, in the midst of the noise of my colleagues so I don't have to concentrate too much, because
how can you be gone?
I still don't understand, and I am most certainly not yet ready to say rest in peace, not yet, not all, but I guess I can say goodbye?
So for now I will still think of you like the last time I saw you, during this miracle concert, I was able to attend thanks to my colleagues, who gifted me the ticket for my birthday; this was my first EVER concert.
Wasn't in a big location, but it meant the world to me.