like im sure its been written a thousand times already but im still not over nine asking rose about leaving and her telling him 'you wouldn't' without even considering it was an option for her. because he would if she asked him to, actually. and that's exactly why he sends her away anyway.
because people like her-- people who don't consider running to save themselves-- need to be saved and protected. because nine was thinking about it, he's the one who brought it up, after all. about how fruitless and destructive trying to stop the daleks would be, how little time they had, how everything that happened to satellite five was his fault. how, the last time he encountered the dalek army, it all played out exactly the same way things are going now.
but. he stays. and sends rose away. and when she comes back to save it all in exactly the way she shouldn't have, he gladly takes the burden from her. he saves her again, like he always will, and in doing so, she saves him from himself. from repeating his mistakes. they save each other, like they always do.
xlabxratsx asked: does your muse like it when someone spends a lot of money on them? (@ Adriana)
Money is a... CURIOUS subject for 17M-RFT29 in that it is both a non-factor in her life, yet something that, somewhere, deep down, she still manages to RECOGNIZE and APPRECIATE the meaning behind. Though, further observations will be needed before we can confirm such a hypothesis. In all her time on the island, Adriana has only let a RARE FEW in, and FEWER STILL have shown any want, willingness or propensity to STAY. Not that anyone could blame them, given her, ahem, EXPLOSIVE TEMPERAMENT. Being around 17M-RFT29 is like being around a grenade with a random timer. A rather literal and visceral game of HOT POTATO. No one quite knows WHEN the penny will drop, but it WILL drop, and Adriana will incinerate every last flammable material she can set her eyes on. All in the name of giving warmth to Lily, that voice in her head that ETERNALLY CRAVES the fire. But we're getting off-topic. Let's digress:
So far, we have only observed a SINGLE INSTANCE of Adriana receiving a material gift from another subject: 18M-RFT34. In one survival game, 18M-RFT34 displayed a remarkable sense of empathy toward 17M-RFT29. While, yes, she REPEATEDLY referred to 17M-RFT29 as a RAVING LUNATIC, she also engaged in several (seemingly successful) attempts to converse with that little girl that no one but Adriana has ever seen. And at one point stitched together personal garments for both Adriana and Bernice. Come to think of it, 17M-RFT29 actually FAILED to recognize or appreciate Mai's gesture at the time of giving, but her demeanor certainly SHIFTED shortly thereafter. She claimed Lily wasn't so cold, and eventually thanked Mai for the garment and even invited her to talk to Lily. Again, a rarity.
Hmm... So was it the GIFT or the COMPANY Adriana treasured? Hopefully we'll get a chance to further observe her and Mai in the future. And, who knows, maybe if we could lead 17M-RFT29 to a subject such as 19M-RFT39 or 17M-RFT31, they may just be reasonable (and rich) enough to help us gather the data we need. For now, we can conclude one thing: 17M-RFT29 wants for NOTHING except for her sister. Her parents' riches FAILED to purchase Adriana's happiness in the aftermath of her sister's tragic demise. But Adriana does NOT turn away gifts given in good will. And either these gifts, or the companions offering them up, are in some way working to alleviate the ASHEN TENSION pressuring her mind to BREAK. Do with this information as you will.
(WARNING: Take care when researching this particular aspect of the subject. After 18M-RFT34's death at the hands of 15M-RFT16, 17M-RFT29 suffered a psychotic meltdown the likes we've feared ever since we let her loose on the island. Had 15M-RFT16 not swiftly exterminated her, she may have very well burned the entire island to its last cinders. These games are not ones we can play lightly.)
What are you doing? You said you've helped me so much because I saved your life 4 years ago. I know, stopping Her Highness from getting married will definitely cause you trouble. That's not what I meant. There's too much at stake. I can't turn the tide myself. So I'm asking you to return my favor.
If the wind turns, fighting a squall, allow the ground to find its brutal way to me, I feel lighter than I have in so much time, I've crossed the border line of weightless, one deep breath out from the sky I've reached a rarer height now that I can confirm, all our weight is just a burden offered to us by the world, and though I burn how could I fall?When I am lifted by every word you say to me, if anything could fall at all, it's the world and it falls away from me, you have me floatin' like a feather on the sea, while you're as heavy as the world that you hold your hands beneath, once I had wondered what was holdin' up the ground, I can see that all along, love, it was you all the way down, even now, I am sky-bound, if you need to, darling, lean your weight to me, we'll float away, but if we fall I only pray, don't fall away from me, I do not have wings, love, I never will, soarin' over a world you are carryin', if these heights should bring my fall, let me be your own, Icarian, carrion, if the wind turns, if I hit a squall allow the ground to find its brutal way to me, if I should fall, on that day I only pray, don't fall away from me