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Ciara & Chris Brown for Roc-A-Wear’s “ I Will Not Lose “ Fashion Campaign — [ 2007 ]

IWNL was a fashion campaign designed with a movement in mind, it came with print magazine ads, video testimonials, and also held a video contest geared toward helping inner city youth as they could send in videos that defined what ‘ losing ‘ / not giving up meant to them and all proceeds were donated to the I Will Not Lose Foundation Charity. The campaign also featured other celebrities, models and individuals that have overcome trials and tribulations inspired by the story of Roc-A-Wear’s founder himself, Jay Z. [ x ]

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Posted 6/11/24 — Seeing him in that bandana is taking me waaay back to 2014 when he wore a red bandana at that Charity Flag football game that one time. I swear this year is giving me so much 2014 deja vu in general, but in a good fun and more refined way… As for the song, I really don’t care for it ( based off the snippet ) but Chris looks good so I wanted to gif the video and put it on my blog.

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 AMIRI Fall/Winter ’24-’25 Runway Show

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Jealousy 1.18

Put It Up - Chris Brown Ft. Rihanna

Advice - Kehlani

See Through - Chris Brown

Rock Bottom - Pleasure P Ft. Lil Wayne

Kiss It Better - Rihanna

Stuck N The Middle

July•

Dana

The sun sat perfectly on the horizon of the ocean, all the while everyone sat on the deck just enjoying the view. The light warm winds were perfect all day. Music played from the radio adding to the calming vibe. I got a tan, as so did Cari seeing her bikini line when she moved it a bit off her shoulder.

The turkey bacon sandwiches Cassie had made for lunch were the most delicious I had ever had. It mentally made me note on why Cari was such a good cook. She may not have always got along with her mother, but she picked up a good few traits.

Cooper and Cari played cards with Clay and it seemed every moment Calen got a chance, he eye raped me in only the cover up showing my bikini.

The funny thing is he did it so trained, like he's done it before. It had to be one of his secrets of using those seducing brown piercing eyes of his. My libido was on one hundred percent because of his lustful stares.

"So Dana, do you date like Cari here that I didn't even know had a boyfriend." Cassie spoke up making the comfortable vibe shift a bit.

"Um, yes I-"

"Calen, why can't you keep your big ass mouth shut?" Cari yelled over the wind that picked up a bit on the boat.

"Man, you the one acting like she wasn't going to find out anyways. Should of brought the nigga." Calen laughed making Cooper join in.

"Yo, stop talking about my nigga like that, he cool." Cooper tried defending Bryson. I just shook my head since I still hadn't been able to answer Cassie's question.

"Can y'all please stop saying that derogatory language please." Cassie asked looking over at Calen and Cooper. With with a smile she looked back my way waiting for her answer.

"To answer your question Cassie, yeah I do. Women." I answered honestly, feeling Calen's eyes grill me all humor gone.

"Oh alright, I don't discriminate with that. Just as long as you let me know you're trying to date my daughter or not." Cassie laughed.

"Oh no, Cari and I are like sisters." I smiled, even though I've thought about it in the past. That is until Calen Rodriguez sat next to me in a club one night.

"More like your son." Calen muttered making my heart drop. Cari snickered.

"What was that Calen?" Cassie asked from across the boat.

"Nothing, I'm just talking to myself." He blinked his squinty eyes at me, letting me know he was high and trying to be an ass.

"Well, we should be heading back before it gets too dark. I am wore out." Clay announced standing to his feet.

"Yeah, I'll go up with you babe." Cassie offered standing with him, they departed to the upper deck.

Cari and Cooper seized playing cards, while Calen took something white from behind his ear. Taking a little black lighter out of his shorts pocket, he lit the spliff taking a pull.

It never amazed me more with anyone else than it did when he smoked, he made it look so sexy. Catching me stare at him, he turned his head to the side winking at me.

Fighting the smile that wanted to come upon my lips I stood with Cari, needing to get as far from him as I could on this boat.

"Ready to change out of these bathing suits?" She asked while I nodded. We went down to the lower deck, I entered into the room where I had left my clothes earlier. Slowly I changed back into my white shirt and black shorts that stopped at the space of my upper thighs.

Pulling my hair into a messy bun, I couldn't wait to take a shower. Opening the door again, I was glad that Calen wasn't surprisingly standing outside the room waiting for me like earlier.

I could feel the boat starting to move again, letting me know we were going back to land. My first boat experience wasn't all that bad and I wouldn't mind doing it again. Mostly because I knew how to swim thanks to Calen now.

It infatuated me at how many firsts I had experienced with him that I never thought I would. Somewhere inside me, I knew there would be more. But before there would be, I needed to tell him and ask of my curiousness on what took place while we were apart.

It mattered to me, and if he was done with lying about something that should be small, he would have no problem with telling me. Thinking about him holding that gun still made me shiver.

Staying quiet would be done, as much as I wanted him. He still needed to know how much of a wreck he made me. I couldn't just forget the pain, it was still there.

Once docked everyone started taking things back to the house, I being last out the cabin behind Cari I grabbed my book bag. My arm was pulled instantly back into the cabin once everyone was off.

It was Calen.

"There's lights that lead to the guesthouse on the sand, come tonight."

"I don't know." I sighed looking up at him, he did a small conniving smile stretching his freckles a bit exiting out the boat.

"Why?" He asked with urgency slowing his feet a little to walk alongside me to the house.

"Because we have things to discuss." I told him, my eyes darted over to see his reaction. Remaining silent he had a confused look on his face.

"Like what?" He finally asked, "We already talked."

"Calen for one-"

"I'm done with you rejecting me, I'm not about to be so lenient this time." He growled clenching his jaw, still keeping his eyes towards the house.

"Calen-"

"No, why you denying us, tell me?" He cut me off again, I walked a little slower becoming aggravated with him. Like what happened to respecting my wishes?

Following behind him, he stopped blocking the way inside the back patio doors.

"Calen." I groaned, irritated by how he was acting. I really wanted to shower and get the saltwater off my body.

"What?" He asked clad in a thin white t shirt, his tattooed torso could be seen through it. Leaning against the door frame he acted like he was picking something off his arm.

"Move." I ordered wide eyed at him.

"Make me." He challenged, I smirked at him seeing Cassie standing behind him with a look of disapproval on her face.

"Calen Antoine-Ruiz Rodriguez, stop being rude and go get the rest of the stuff off the boat." She ordered as he just looked at me with an evil grin moving to go back to the boat. What the hell was up with him?

"I am so sorry, he has his moments where he's-"

"Bipolar, yeah I know he....I mean Cari told me." I blinked catching myself. Cassie smiled with a small nod. That was close.

"Yeah." She did a soft chuckle, not noticing I was screaming on the inside.

"I'm going to go hit the shower, thank you again for a beautiful day Ms. Rodriguez." I smiled at her beginning to move my feet, knowing I needed to get away before something I said messed up everything.

"Please call me Cassie, Dana. Plus it was a pleasure to go out on the water today it has been some time." She rubbed my arm beginning to walk in the kitchen. Probably to get dinner started I noticed Cassie liked to cook like all her children weren't grown.

Giving her one last nod I made my way to the stairs. Back to the guest room I finally was actually comfortable to sleep in. It made me see with Cassie just how much she missed everyone being all home together again.

I couldn't bring my drama here with me between Calen and I when she was just so happy. He was being weird anyways, I wish he would just chill out. It's like my bikini turned him into the cocky arrogant guy I first met months ago.

"Hey, I'll be in my room so just come over when you finish." Cari popped her head in my door that I hadn't locked.

"Okay, yeah." I nodded at her and she stared at me up and down.

"Did you take the pill?" She asked me.

"Yes, I took it." I sighed looking away from her searching with my eyes and hands for my pajamas. Didn't matter, Calen still wasn't getting none as long as I wasn't alone with him. I honestly didn't know what guards he would make come down without question if we were alone.

"Good, even though I would love to be an auntie." She laughed at me, I could feel myself blushing.

"Cari!" I yelled at her as she shut the door back. Having a kid with Calen, it never dawned upon me. But we had a lot to work on before we even get to the point of creating life.

After showering, I put on a black tshirt and some matching pajama shorts. My phone that Cari let me borrow until I got another vibrated on the bed while I brushed out my hair a bit. Picking it up, I saw it was a text. I didn't even give him this number, I don't know how he had it.

Calen: You still coming tonight????? (Sat, 8:31PM)

Putting my phone back down, I decided to ignore him. All he wanted was some ass and I wanted answers. Until he would give me what I wanted he wasn't getting shit from me, not this time.

Exiting out the guest room I smelled food in the hall, but decided not to go downstairs without Cari. My stomach roared from the smell and couldn't wait to go eat. Going to Cari's room, I opened the door to see her fully naked sitting on her bed having a video chat with Bryson.

"Oh my gosh!" I yelled closing the door back, they were so nasty. Standing in the hall with my back against the door, I could hear Cari laughing and I just shook my head.

"Are you done?" I asked after somewhat five minutes had went by.

"I am now." She answered like she was more relieved. Goodness my best friend was a freak with her boyfriend. Opening the door again, she had a sports bra on and boy shorts.

"Why didn't you have your door locked?" I asked closing it back once I stepped all the way in her room.

"Everyone usually knocks in this house." She told me going into her closet, her laptop on her bed was closed thankfully.

"Wow, my bad then." I spoke sarcastically sitting on her bed.

"So tell me what's up with you and Calen. Y'all beefing?" She asked coming back in her room with a shirt on, some shorts in her hand.

"He just for some reason thinks everything is suppose to go back to normal, after half explaining why he just left." I told her watching while she put one leg in after the other in her shorts.

"So he didn't he give you a full explanation, because Dana you were like a fucking ghost for the past three months." She told me, being the only real eye witness of the depression Calen put me through.

"Yep, didn't get the whole thing." I told her.

"Well why the fuck did he just up and leave?" She asked me in annoyance. To protect you, and the rest of your family from my crazy ass ex, or so he says.

"Shit that he had no control of, came into his life and he just had to leave." I spoke with half truths. Cari would probably just think I was lying if I told her the truth. It was just something that was incomprehensible unless you saw the truth.

I knew Calen didn't want his sister or any of his family to know the danger he felt he put them in, all over loving me. Shit I didn't even want them to know.

"That's what he won't tell you, what the shit was?" She asked sitting on the bed with me.

"Yeah, part of it." I did a half smile looking down at her bed.

"Well, he shouldn't get nothing until he tells you all. I know you already know what to do, so I won't say no more." She shrugged her shoulders, I did a quick nod with a shrug.

Cari was so understanding, and she already half knew how her brother was so she could understand what I was going through with him. His mysteriousness and charm.

"Only thing I will say, is I can tell he still is in love with you so be careful." She warned me, "I've never seen an in-love-Calen, and he has it bad for you Dana."

"Thanks Car." I smiled at her, made me wonder if her mother noticed too.

"Anytime." She smiled back, "Sorry about the video chat thing."

"Let's just go eat and not even talk about that please." I laughed standing up off her bed, she followed suit.

"Okay." She laughed turning the lights off in her room, and we headed downstairs to eat. I was certain after all the shit I've been through, I could take Calen. I hoped.

~

Calen

Leaning up against the railing of the patio outside, I pulled from my blunt wondering what the fuck was taking her so long to respond back to my text. Letting the purple kush leave my lungs, I closed my eyes feeling so wound up.

I needed her touch, the smell of her on me, I wanted it all. No matter what I've done since being here the itch just wouldn't go away. Didn't know how much longer I could hold out.

"Calen, what did you do?" My mothers voice came from behind. Fuck.

"What are you talking about ma?" I asked not looking back towards her.

"I talked to Zeus." She told me.

"That's nice, how's my uncle doing?" I asked nonchalantly. Old ass just couldn't keep his mouth closed about our business.

"Calen, tell me what the fuck happened that you needed weaponry from my brother." She seethed, making me glad I was somewhat past my usual high.

"A problem, that I took care of." I told her, turning towards her she gave me a cold hard stare of ice, "Nothing for you to worry about."

"Bullshit, tell me right now." She demanded, "Who helped you take care of this problem?"

"Mother, everything is alright." I tried persuading her.

"Ahora mismo!" She screeched at me.

"Family, in New York." I huffed putting out my blunt, I was hungry and done talking about this.

"The Latin Kings, you're back with them now aren't you?" She asked me, heart break in her eyes, "They are not your family."

"No ma." I groaned in irritation, "Come on I'm hungry can we go eat?"

"They always want a debt repaid for something, yes you are!" She yelled while I walked past her, she grabbed my arm stopping me.

"I don't want to lose you to that fuckin' gang Calen." She told me in anger.

"You're not." I told her, pulling her into a hug she held me tightly. Closing my eyes, I didn't think she would let our talk the other day go. But honestly I didn't care about none of that shit right now.

When I eventually got back to the states I would have to link back up with Lupe. But for now my only focus was Dana, and I needed her. I went into the dirty of my past life to have her here with me, and I'll be damned if I let her slip through my fingers again.

She was the only link that would keep me from sinking back into that life, and she needed to know that. I just needed the chance to get her alone.

~

Dana

Everyone sat around the table in the kitchen eating burgers and hot dogs along with barbecued chicken that Clay put on his grill for dinner. It was all delicious, including the salad that Cassie prepared. I was glad she didn't have to do as much cooking.

The table was cherry every now and then, but the only non cherry part was Calen's absence from the table. No one spoke on it and I felt somewhat responsible. After dinner, Clay and Cassie said their goodnights.

Cari and I headed back into her room just to chill and probably watch a movie or something. There was a knock at her door before Cooper popped his head inside.

"See, Cooper knocked." Cari laughed and I gave her the middle finger.

"Nope, I have a boyfriend for that," She smirked at my hand, "He's just so far away." Cari complained in a whine laying on her side.

"Ew, um, if ma and dad ask I went out okay?" He muttered, having both of us sit up from his words.

"Where you going?" Cari asked, exactly the question in my mind. This nigga was trying to sneak off to probably go see a female.

"To a party, if y'all must know, and no y'all can't come." He told us, Cari scoffed at him.

"Bullshit we going nigga, where the hell the party even at?" She asked.

"The Hernandez estate." He huffed shaking his head.

"Wait, the twins are having their summer party tonite?" Cari asked. Twins?

"Cari, come on I'm already late." Cooper complained watching her get out of bed skipping to her closet.

"Cooper it is only ten thirty, you aren't missing shit." She yelled walking back out of her closet with an outfit she looked down at me, "You in the mood for partying?"

"It's been a while since I've had a-"

"It's settled we going!" She shouted, "Cooper don't you try and leave either or ma and pa will know you took the boat."

"Fuck man, this is why I don't tell y'all shit." He grumbled at us, and we laughed at him as he shut the bedroom door back.

"Let's get ready shall we?" She smiled pulling me up from my seat on the bed.

When Cari was talking about the boat I thought she meant the yacht but I was wrong, there was another small boat that we took. In the night it went fast down the coast. I wondered why they didn't tell Calen anything but he probably didn't want to go.

Coming to a small dock, it was the back of a huge, and I mean huge estate. Bodies danced back and forth while music blasted from speakers on the pool deck.

Some girls only walked around in bikinis while others were fully dressed. I was glad I kept it simple with my outfit. Cari took my hand leading me with Cooper in front deeper towards the house.

"Who are all these people?" I shouted to Cari over the music.

"Only the rich kids of the island that are somebody's really." She told me, her smile was an elite one. It dawned on me that the Rodriguez family must had a high reputation if Cooper was invited here.

"What's up nigga!" Cooper yelled embracing some guy who had pretty light brown eyes.

"Coop! Was good and I see you brought Cari, it's always good to see you hun." The pretty browned eyed guy spoke, then his eyes shifted to me.

"Yeah, they caught me before I could sneak away." Cooper muttered to the guy.

"Hello Chance, good to see you again. This is just my friend Dana." Cari introduced me to the tall skinny guy that must have been the host of the huge party.

"Pleasures all mine. Caliente." He spoke taking my right hand he kissed the back of it with warm lips.

"Um, yeah nice to meet you." I spoke with a light chuckle at him, slipping my hand out his grip.

"Oh and from the U.K. Well, well, you have definitely out did yourself Coop." Chance smiled with pretty white teeth at me.

"Yeah, anyways where's the fuckin' drinks man?" Cooper asked.

"Yeah, follow me. You ladies want a drink?" Chance asked us and Cari nodded along with me in unison.

"Follow me." He nodded, walking through the crowds of bodies enjoying themselves.

~

Calen

Laying on my bed, I stared up at the ceiling wishing she would just answer her phone. Tapping my hand on my knee, I tried to just call Dana but her phone just kept ringing. She was seriously just ignoring my ass.

"Fuck." I groaned sitting up in my bed. I scanned through my endless thread of messages on my phone and saw one from Coop I must have ignored.

Coop: going to the Hernandez party, know you might not go with the funk yo ass been in. but it would mean a lot if your ass showed up. (Sat, 10:45PM)

That was thirty minutes ago, and I didn't really want to go. My ass wasn't in the mood for partying I wanted to be laid up with my girl.

Being desperate, I called Cari's phone just to see if Dana was just sleep or some shit. It rung like three times before her ass answered. Immediately I heard loud ass music in the background.

"Hello?" She answered sounding confused.

"Cari, where the hell you at?" I asked and she laughed in my ear. Some nerve she got.

"Calen you are not my dad, what the hell you want?" She asked me, and I was already getting annoyed with her.

"You at the Hernandez party?" I asked her hoping she was anywhere else.

"Yeah and I'm not alone." She spoke sing songy, "Need to get your shit together Calen."

Then she hung up, in my face.

Get my shit together huh?

Guess I'm going to a party.

~

Dana

I sat on a stool by the huge bar with Cari that looked like it belonged in a club. Wrapping my lips on a cup of sex on the beach, it made my front lobe fuzzy way too soon. It was my first cup and I probably had about three more sips in it.

"Want another babe?" Cari asked me and i cheesed nodding at her. She chuckled at my tipsy ass before turning towards the bar, telling the bad female that was making drinks for another order.

"This wasn't a bad idea, even though Cooper was against it." I mumbled in her ear since the music was more louder in the section of the estate we were in than outside.

"Nah, it wasn't. But anyways, Cooper was nothing compared to how Calen will react." She laughed making me confused.

"What you mean?" I asked her, how would Calen would know we were here.

"His party pooping ass called me like ten minutes ago, he's probably not going anywhere anyways." Cari shrugged sipping from a clear straw in her glass.

She was right, I wasn't going to let the fear of Calen coming trying to start some shit get to me. Just enjoy myself like how I should. I was on vacation dammit.

Some guy came out of nowhere drunk as hell obviously and walked right into me with his drink. It was like I didn't even have time to react.

"Shit!" I groaned standing up out the stool, what mad it worse was the twins; Chance and his brother Chris was standing by us talking to Cari and Cooper.

The coincidence that they had names starting with a C also was weird, but I paid it no mind.

"Oh, well damn ain't you wearing your drink." Some girl laughed, I felt so embarrassed.

"Where's the bathroom?!" I yelled, ignoring Cari trying to wipe me with napkins.

"Um, you can use the one upstairs, third door on the right." Chance told me with a smile like he was trying to stifle his laugh.

Everyone was on the liq, and probably wouldn't remember this but it didn't make me feel any less humiliated. Storming off I went upstairs and by the time I got up there, automatically forgot what door Chance told me.

"Fuck." I mumbled, leaning up against the wall in the barely lit hallway. My flip flops padded gently on the hardwood floors, and I tried the first door. But it was just a linen closet, with only sheets and blankets.

"Oh my gosh!" I groaned going to the next door and taken aback, no horrified, embarrassed more by what I saw.

In the lightly lit room, a very tall light brown skinned guy stood, getting head from two different females. My mouth formed a huge O in embarrassment, his low sleepy eyes made eye contact with mine, not one hint of shock on his face.

"I am so sorry." I yelled immediately closing the door back, leaning against it with my back. Calming my heart I leaned up off the door going to the next finding the bathroom finally.

Closing the door behind me, I got a towel sitting on the toilet. The one exclusive high society party of this island and I was soon to be the laughing stock of it. I dabbed the wet spot on my shirt a few more times, looking myself in the mirror.

"You're supposed to be having fun Dana." I breathed and looked over myself once more. Being satisfied with my shirt and whole look I decided to exit the bathroom.

Opening the door I was met with those sleepy eyes again on the tall guy, who I walked in on. Shit, he's going to banish me from the house.

"Um...." I didn't know what to say looking up at him, he blew smoke from his full lips just staring down at me a dark look in his eyes.

"Do you need to use the bathroom or something?" I asked him and he shook his head at me.

"No." He spoke, "Never seen you before around here."

"Oh, yeah I'm not from here." I nodded sounding like an idiot.

"That's obvious." He muttered taking a pull from his blunt, "Who you here with?"

"Um, Cooper and Cari." I told him, like he knew who that was. Probably didn't even live here. He analyzed me once in confusion.

"Rodriguez." I continued and then he did a slow nod.

"Oh...he's back then." The guy spoke confusing me.

"Whose back?" I asked him, he leaned back on the opposite wall from me. A door down the hall opened, and the two females that I walked in earlier with the guy went down the hall.

"I'm August." He spoke to me pulling my attention back on him, "Hernandez."

"Dana, Ross." I smiled and he cracked one too. It was beautiful, I forgot a moment that I was in an awkward moment with him a while ago.

"Nice to meet you Dana." He spoke taking another pull from his blunt, "You smoke?"

"Oh, nah I drink. But someone spilled their drink on me thinking I wear it too." I spoke in annoyance, August did a small chuckle.

"Sorry about my rude guests, you want another outfit to change into?" He asked me, I had to admit it surprised me.

"Oh no, I'm fine. Being in your house is enough for me, it's beautiful by the way." I told him in honesty.

"Thank you, and I like your voice it's beautiful too." He told me, "Nah, more like sexy."

"Uh, thank you." I could feel myself blushing in front of this guy that was more than intimidating in his own way. He was handsome I had to admit.

"Dana!" A familiar voice yelled from down the hall, I turned towards the sound along with August. Calen walked down the hall quickly looking me up and down then put his sights on August.

"Hernandez." Calen muttered lowly towards August, he took another pull from his blunt staring back at Calen.

"Rodriguez." August spoke squinting his eyes at him.

"Dana, it's time to go, now." Calen told me still looking at August, they must have a very bad history.

"You're serious right now? All I was doing was using the bathroom." I huffed looking up at him, he was doing too much.

"Well are you done?" He asked looking down at me.

"Yeah." I breathed, feeling him grab my hand, and I waved bye at August. He nodded at me with a wave of his own, watching us walk off.

~

Calen never let my hand go even when we got to outside of the estate, he chirped an all black car. It was a BMW that I didn't even think came out yet.

"I'm not ready to leave yet." I told him, he looked angry at me clenching his jaw. He looked sexy when he was mad. Maybe it was the liquor in me, but I didn't even realize how long I had even been talking to August.

It seemed like it had only been barely five minutes. But it was longer than that, probably why Calen came upstairs looking for me.

"Dana, please get in the car or I'll make you." He threatened me. How dare he?

"Are you serious right now, I'll just go find Cari and leave with her." I told him beginning to walk away, and I was swept off my feet after only two steps. His Armani cologne invaded my nostrils deeply making me weaker than usual to fight him off.

"Calen!" I yelled while he put me in his car, he closed the door. Locked it with his key button every time I tried to unlock the door.

Getting in the drivers side, he pushed started the car driving off from the estate. I folded my arms over my chest, angry that he was trying to treat me like a child or something.

"So you're kidnapping me now, very mature." I scrunched my eyebrows in anger.

"I've been calling your damn phone all night, why you ignoring me?" He asked, thinking his question justified his actions obviously.

Low key his bold act did turn me on as much as I wanted to be mad at him.

"Until you were ready to just talk about stuff, I didn't want to hear nothing else." I told him, looking over he had his free hand holding his chin.

"We've talked Dana, I just wanted to-"

"Have sex, yeah I'm sure." I cut him off looking away from him.

He scoffed having me looking back over at him, "Believe me I want to do more than that to your ass."

"Calen!" I yelled not believing he was trying to joke around right now.

"What? I'm at least being honest, your ass act like you don't want me but I know better."

He drove down the road, turning on the overhead light to look for something.

"Don't try and tell me what I want." I spoke looking in his face and he smoothly made eye contact with me doing a squint of his eyes.

"Stop fronting with me Dana." He spoke softly, my heart skipped a beat as we kept eye contact, I looked away from him.

"That's what the fuck I thought."

"Swear you make me sick." I huffed looking away from him while he turned off the overhead light putting his spliff between his lips.

"I don't understand, how we got here." He muttered lighting a spliff, I looked over at him.

"You stopped loving me, that's how!" I yelled at him, taking another pull he put his blunt out, parking the car on the side of the road. Letting down his window he blew the smoke and turned towards me.

"I've never stopped fuckin' loving you!" He yelled at me clenching his jaw, "Everything I've done has been for you!"

"No, it's been for your family." I sniffled, "And I don't blame you for picking them over me I would've done the same."

"Fuck Dana, no, that's not how it is." He leaned closer to me, placing his right hand on my bare left thigh that my skirt didn't cover, "If you just give me the chance I'll tell you whatever you want, and you're all that matters to me."

"Well talk. Right now." I demanded in a softer tone looking over at him and I wish I hadn't. His brown eyes looked like fire staring me down. His warm right hand clenched my thigh gently.

"You switching our chains, that was strike one. I just felt my guards to respect what you want come down." He started, licking over his full pink lips slowly. It made me throb in hearing him bearing his thoughts, showing his sweet vulnerability.

His eyes analyzed me slowly, before he just moved the center down in the car so that he could move closer to me, this isn't going how I wanted in no way at all...but it just felt. Right.

"That fucking bikini was strike two, and then you rejected me in the boat..." He breathed moving his adam's apple while he talked and swallowed.

I couldn't talk, just get sucked up into him, fuck.

"Then seeing you talking to some other dude in the hall set me on fire, and I'm sorry for how I acted." He apologized in a soft tone, I felt his hand move further between my inner thighs.

"Calen." I groaned in frustration and want fearing for this to happen, he had me where I didn't need to be with him, we hadn't even talked yet.

"What?" He asked, his hand moving further he kept eye contact with me while cars passed us on the street.

"Can you please.." I breathed grabbing his tattooed diamond chained wrist feeling his fingertips reach the cloth of my panties.

"Stop?" He asked in a whispering purr, "Why when you know you don't fuckin' want me to baby?"

"Because we need to talk." I gasped taking in his fingers, after so long back where they were supposed to be.

"But, you dripping for me Dae." He whispered biting his bottom lip, his fingers slid left to right on my sensitive nub.

In little circles he rubbed up and down my center leaning more on my side of the car. Using his free hand he gripped my right thigh pulling my legs towards his side of the car.

"No, we need to-"

"We don't need to talk about shit." He looked into my eyes, throwing my shoes out the window pulling my hips closer to him. My head laid on the passenger seat I closed my eyes knowing I wasn't going to win, his soft hand gripped my body like I was his most prized possession.

Pushing my skirt up he ripped my panties in one swift move, I heard them tear slowly seeing he threw them out the car too. Then he kissed my left inner thigh with such gentle ease.

I gasped as he began to blow on me, reaching up his hand he moved my shirt up moving my bra out the way. Slowly his fingertips began to play with my left nipple.

"I fuckin' love you Dana, and I want you." Was his last words before he dived into my pearl like it had been centuries.

Slurping, sucking, moaning and groaning is all he put me through in eternal bliss his mouth made love to me, and he wasn't finished there.

"I don't want you to come like this, baby let me..." He trailed off softly grabbing my hips he stopped before I hit my peak, pulling me on top of him.

"Calen, we can't I-"

He pressed his mouth softly to mine kissing slow letting me taste myself, plunging his tongue down my throat. Tasting like sugar I indulged in his lips pulling away so I can breathe. Going for the sensitive spot on the right side of my neck next he bit, only to softly glide against the spot putting a hickie.

"Not like this, I don't want to lose my virginity like this!" I yelled at him, he had my nerves and emotions all over the place.

"Dana-"

"Just, lets go back to the house Calen. Now!" I yelled, glad he had stopped his attack on me before it went too far. I moved back over to my side of the car, feeling like an idiot that I went back on my word and promise to myself.

Fuck.

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There was a solid knot below the pit of my stomach that Calen placed desperately wanting to be released as we sat in his car in the garage of his parents house for the past almost three minutes not moving since he killed the ignition, complete silence.

Every part of my being wanted him just as bad I knew he wanted me after so long, but there was also a part of me that knew he held secrets past Erin that he was withholding from telling me. I was torn, and in need at the same time. To say I was frustrated with myself as well as him was an understatement. In the end the truth was undeniable I was in love with this man, despite it all and we needed to move forward not back.

"I'm going to take a shower...and then meet you at your guesthouse so we can talk." I muttered out lowly feeling how shaky my voice felt.

Hiding my face behind my hair from being fluffed and sweated out by Calen's passionate attack only thirty minutes ago, I could side eye him and see he slowly looked over at me.

"And whatever else will happen." Is all he said making my heart beat race faster than it already was.

"Calen." I spoke in a swift warning tone looking his way and regretting it just because of how submissive he looked through his eyes.

"You and I both know what we need to communicate better and release this unbearable tension I know you feel Dana." He lowly said taking his spliff from behind his left ear slowly lighting, his eyes gazed down at my bare legs shown from the short skirt I had on.

"Be in denial or try to be," He blew smoke, "But the way you're currently rubbing your thighs together further lets me know everything I need to."

I looked down instantly at my legs realizing I was absentmindedly doing just what he said making me immediately stop, "Shut up, stop talking like that or I'm going to my room and not discuss what we need to."

"Not going to help, your body and mind can't even think about sleep right now along with mines not being able to." Calen opened his car door turning his back to me as he slid his legs out of his side.

"Look, I don't need-" I opened my car door stepping out closing it behind me to walk towards the front of the car.

Already standing out of his car Calen stood in front of it, his spliff gone, "Are you about to say you don't need me?"

Looking up into his barely light pink eyes, I was taken aback by his presence, "No Cae, that's not..."

Raising his left hand he used only the tip of his middle finger with one gold diamond encrusted ring on it to the spot in my lower stomach, "It's right there."

Fighting through the satisfying touch of his finger against my skin without moaning out I bit my bottom lip keeping our eye contact, "I can't stand you, you know that?"

Stepping closer while lowering his hand that smirk I fell for every time, spread across his soft looking lips, "Come."

"I have to-"

Bending down to grip my hips he picked me up to place my body across his right shoulder, "Calen put me down!"

Not listening to me as he kept walking out the garage I heard the sounds of the calming waves crashing on the beach in the distance.

"Nope." He finally spoke after gently placing me to the sand on the beach, making me turn to see we were at the beach house.

It was literally another house, making me wonder why he wanted to spend more time here than in the house with his parents in not seeing them in so long. Was it because of me since we got here?

A smile was on Calen's face as he watched me look around at my surroundings in knowing he was trying to get me here for awhile.

"I could just run back to the house right now." I rose an eyebrow at him.

A look of thought came to his handsome face as he squinted a bit down at the ground before looking back up at me with a serious look in his eyes, "Just how far you think you'd get away from me?"

"I'll lock my door." I threaten him and he smiled at me.

"You don't think I have keys to every room in this estate Dana?" He asked innocently.

"Yeah right if you did you would've been-"

"I was trying to respect your boundaries, but it's obvious that I don't need any of those keys love, when I have..." He trailed off walking back towards me raising a hand to my chest he poked his pointer finger against my heart, "The key to this one."

"Calen." I whispered breathlessly, "I-"

"You can shower here and, we can talk. I don't have any underwear for you though." He lowered his hands taking steps back away from me not keeping his eye sight off.

"That's not funny." I muttered walking after him into the patio of the back of the house.

Calen handed me one of his newly white crisp t-shirts that looked like it never been worn out of a dresser in the obvious master bedroom, "I'll be outside waiting."

"Whatever." I grabbed the shirt from him going into the bathroom I closed the door behind me locking it even though Calen told me he was respecting my boundaries I didn't believe him anymore.

I raised the shirt he gave me to my nose and it smelled like him, relaxing my body in ways in awhile it hadn't. A forgotten yearning that I stashed deep inside myself, to not feel ever again and there it was. Making me slowly wide open all over again within seconds. After undressing I stepped under the shower head letting it drench me head first I closed my eyes. My mind roamed on only him despite everything he was everything to me. No matter how much I scrubbed the sand, grime and sweat off my skin, the electric current connected to Calen wouldn't go away with them. The more I tried to stall before exiting out the bathroom the more it became stronger within me for some reason.

"Shit." I sighed turning the water off after another fifteen minutes.

Exiting out the bathroom after drying off and putting on Calen's shirt I was taken off guard seeing candles lit everywhere and the smell of a vanilla crème roaming throughout the room.

The smell of the fresh white rose petals sprawled all over the bed made my heart drop in how sweet the scene in the bedroom looked now, I looked to my left seeing Calen leaning up against the patio open way looking out at the ocean in only black gym shorts.

"Calen." I spoke out to him, slowly he turned around with a face of anxiousness.

"Hey." He scratched the back of his head with his hand like he was nervous.

"You did this?" I asked crossing my arms over my chest.

"Um, yeah." He chuckled lowly, "Your shower was okay?"

"Yeah." I shook my head.

"Dana, look I know you have things you're curious about and I get it okay. But I can't lose you, I need you." Calen walked towards me grabbing both my hands, "I hope you can forgive my actions in the car."

"Right..." I muttered. Like how could I not after that passionate attack in the car as much as I acted like I was mad, only he would ever be aloud to do that.

"Do you?" He asked letting go of my hands, dropping his arms by his sides.

"Yes, I do. But Calen, there's things I want to know. That I know you're not telling me beyond Erin." I spoke seeing him flinch a little in saying her name.

"Tomorrow, I'll tell you whatever you want to know." He relinquished with a nod.

"But not right now?" I shook my head at him.

"Because you're standing in my bedroom wearing only one of my t-shirts. I don't want to talk about that right now." He honestly told me biting his bottom lip, his brown eyes turning full on passion mode.

I took a deep sigh rolling my eyes looking away from him, "All this talk I'd think you'd went ahead and continue your attack by now."

"Is that permission?" Calen asked looking a little more focused on me, raising his hands to my wet hair his fingertips rubbing against my scalp.

"Uh..." I couldn't talk, the feeling of his fingertips massaging my entire head slowly while staring in my eyes with a sensual glare.

"You're so fuckin' sexy when I make you not able to speak." He whispered standing closer to me, his lips grazed mine as I closed my eyes becoming lost in his touch on me.

Stopping his hands he dropped them both to take one of mines leading me to the bed in the room, "Come on."

Sitting down at the foot of the bed, Calen pulled me to stand in between his legs by my hands until my knees touched it.

Looking down at him I snug my bottom lip between my teeth slowly as he let my hands go, placing them on my hips gripping gently, "Cae."

"I love you." He expressed sincerely looking up at me, "And I'll always do anything to protect you Dana, all of you."

"Trying to make me turn into a red tomato with all this sweet nothing talk?" I asked smiling down at him.

"It's not just talk, I'm being real Dae." He pulled my body closer till his mouth was against my stomach as he looked up at me.

"I know." I sighed slowly trying to believe every word of him, knowing that I didn't know the whole picture but trusted that with little steps he'd let me see.

I let him pull me more into him until I was straddling his lap, my arms wrapped around the back of his neck as he kissed up and down my neck giving sweet small sloppy kisses.

"I love you too." I whispered into his right ear gently.

In the next second he had me flipped over on the bed sprawled out on my back watching as he climbed to hover over me making me giggle.

"Yeah?" He asked lowly on my right cheek as his hands maneuvered against my breast still covered by his shirt.

"Mhm." I whimpered as he teased my nipples with his fingertips gently with patience I started to rub my thighs against each other without thinking about it.

"Na uh," He whispered smiling on my neck using one of his hands to push my legs apart and lay in between them.

"Cae..." I groaned lowly wanting to release badly now.

"Hmm?" He laid flat on top of me pecking my lips, "I feel like tying you up so you can't try and do my work for me."

"What?" I mumbled with a smile against his lips as he kissed me again.

"You want me baby?" He asked me like it was the opposite of what I wanted.

"Yes," I answered, "Are you going to make love to me now?"

Calen looked into my eyes with a surprise, "I don't have any condoms."

I looked back up at him with the same expression. 'All this and he wasn't planning on having sex with me?'

"I was going to wait on that until you were sure." He spoke kissing my forehead, "I just wanted you under me, to hold you."

"You're so sweet you know that?" I asked biting inside my jaw, wanting him even more.

"I just..." Calen placed his forehead against mine closing his eyes.

"I took a pill." I told him meekly making his eyes shoot back open.

"You've been plotting this the whole time." He spoke with a conniving smirk on his lips, the charming pierce of his eyes with a look of mischief.

"No I wasn't I just-" Stopping my words from leaving my mouth, I suddenly gasped feeling Calen sinking his pointer and middle finger of his right hand deeply inside me.

Raising my right hand to grip his side I moaned out biting my bottom lip, "Shit."

"I want you fully ready and relaxed for me, I don't want to hurt you." Calen spoke in my ear seductively.

"It isn't my first time, I've-" I tried to tell him but he hushed me quickly pecking my lips.

"It's your first time with me." He calmly and confidently looked over my whole face as he said it with no hint of any cockiness in the statement.

I smiled closing my eyes feeling him pull my shirt up to peel off my body, next taking his shorts off then laying back on top of me rubbing a hand through my wild hair that was half dry by now.

"Sure?" He asked once again leaning his forehead against mine closing his eyes.

"Yes." I breathed feeling myself open more and more once the word left my lips.

Slowly sinking his tip in first I gasped deeply, holding his back with my fingernails of my hands.

"Tell me if it's too much." Calen spoke as he moved his hips to move further.

It didn't hurt at all, with how gentle he was feeling his skin on mine, meshed as one all those nights crying myself to sleep with the absence of his embrace felt like distant dreams now.

"I'm okay." I moaned out as I felt my hymen fully give way and giving Calen reassurance to continue making love to me effortlessly.

"There's so many things I know you want to know, and I wanted to wait until you were ready to give yourself fully to me Mi Amor. Now that you have I'm ready Dana." Calen spoke on my skin as he passionately swayed his hips against me, each stroke of them giving a new wave of foreign pleasure.

"Calen." I bit his neck as he went deeper without warning and because he could the corner of my eyes pricked with tears.

"Every moment we were apart, all I could think about was getting back to you soon and each fantasy started with these, again, again, and again." He spoke breathlessly kissing my lips bringing me to a layer of euphoria I didn't know my body could feel.

"Baby, I missed you so much." I groaned against his lip.

"Those random flowers were from me." Calen whispered in my ear.

"What?" I mumbled against his neck feeling myself tremble against him, the knot inside me starting to come undone as he unthreaded it, precise movement with his body.

Calen chuckled against my cheek before raising his head to push his lips against my forehead softly, "Yep."

Without any warning he rolled off of me to lay on his back, his glossy chest of sweat heaved evenly up and down as he breathed deeply. A new hole that didn't feel whole was within me now with being disconnected I looked over at him with confusion grabbing his arm with my hand to make him open his eyes and look over at me.

"Why did you stop?" I asked and a smile cracked on his face.

"It's been awhile and you..." He trailed off, "Feel amazing."

Leaning up I climbed to sit on top of him looking down into his flushed face, "Were you with anyone else?"

Calen looked up at me, face full of sweat confused leaning up on his elbows, "No, why you asking that?"

"Because you're wanted by a lot of women, you probably didn't even notice how many female eyes were watching us on the way out of the party tonight." I told him.

"I only want you, and that's what I was there for in the first place." Calen explained, his expression becoming sincere.

Leaning closer to him I kissed his lips sliding back down his manhood as far as I could possibly go whimpering on his lips.

"Fuck," He groaned as I moved my hips against him and he gripped my hips tight leaning back on the bed.

"This is mine?" I asked him biting my top lip.

"Yes." He breathed closing his eyes with a face full of submission to my movements just slow, yet fast enough for him to match my rhythm, "As you are mine."

He gripped my chain around my neck holding the charm that spelled out my name, gripping the clasp to swap our chains as I continued to ride him.

Without a second thought he rose his body up for me to lay back on my back as he assaulted my universe passionately gripping both my hands as we both came fully undone.

"Dana, come for me." He spoke on my trembling lips as his strokes came faster and faster.

"Shit Calen." I cried out gripping his hands as we slowly both let go, crashing as the waves outside on the beach continued as well.

For awhile we just laid in bed snuggling each other trying to come to terms in what happened in the past hours, and relieved just to be back under each other. I felt like I was floating on a cloud as he continuously drew small little circles with his pointer finger in the center of my palm of my right hand, right cheek of his face laying on my bare stomach.

"Even if you had of not took anything and still wanted this..." Calen trailed off closing his eyes.

"What are you saying right now?" I asked rubbing the back of his head with my left hand staring up at the ceiling.

"That I've always been careful when it's come to sex, my father sat me down at thirteen and let me know because of who I was to be. But you just made me not give a fuck and not mind in honestly having my lil soldiers inside you right now." Calen expressed laying his hand on top of mine resting in until our fingers were intertwined.

The coming hours I knew would really show where our relationship lay for the future, as of right now I was just happy to have him back.