Trying something new, seeing if anyone would like to help me get a vehicle anything would help. I'm just stuck at a dead end job barely able to pay my bills a month, I know its a struggle for everyone atm n this is a long shot but I have been without a vehicle for almost a year n its so hard to get to Dr's appointments n grocery store's... Thank u in advance #thestruggleisreal #broke #anythinghelps #donate #pleasehelp #thankyou #cashapp #cashappme #givealittle #alldonationswelcome #singlelesbian #lezbehonest #lesbian #lesbiansofmichigan #singlelife #lesbiansofinstgram #lesbiansofig #singlelesbiansofinstagram #singlelesbiansofmichigan #girlswholikegirls #girlswhokissgirls #gaypride #michigan #michigander #mittenstate #puremichigan #michigan #lansingmichigan https://www.instagram.com/p/CkUIjl8JCBL/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
The last few days (weeks honestly) have been very rough on me.
A few weeks ago I ended up in the ER because of abdominal pain and found out I had gallstones. After an ultrasound and an MRI they finally let me know yesterday they want to remove it, so I'll be scheduled for surgery.
Then a few days ago I had some bleeding like I was having my period. The issue there is I have not had a period in 14 years because of a procedure I had. So obviously freaked out I went to the Dr and I've been scheduled for some further tests. It could be that because I was under 40 when I had the ablation done in the first place that the uterus cells have grown back. Which I wasn't told could happen..
Either way I've been struggling with pain and emotions and feeling overwhelmed. Up until the gallbladder thing I had been feeling really good and was very happy and proud with my progress since my gastric surgery, I've lost 117lbs (53kg) total and I went from only being able to walk for about 5 minutes to walking multiple miles a day and doing yoga.
All of this has me feeling like I'm back peddling and I'm trying not to be discouraged but it is hard. These type of things on top of my ever present chronic illnesses is just wearing me down.
You know how hard I tried to get a cute picture with him? Then when he finally walks away I decided a nice picture with the tree would suffice for an updated insta photo... IMMEDIATELY as I pressed the button to snap the photo he trots right through. Bro. #catmom #thestruggleisreal https://www.instagram.com/p/CmIcLQ3oXDh/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
*The Struggle is Real, but the Struggle is Worth it* Original text art of a quote from one of my favourite people 🖤🧡 Anyone interested in a print of this let me know!! . #art #artist #instaart #calligraphy #textart #thestruggleisreal #love #atart #commissionsopen #bujo https://www.instagram.com/p/CqYBbEloMcq/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
Husband is going away for the weekend to watch a football game with a friend... The kids have other plans! 🤣 I laugh, but it is a bit daunting. The smallest one is furious that Daddy's going away, and has been expressing that frustration rather dramatically! 😬 #nicetry #funny #parentingmoments #parentingstruggles #thestruggleisreal #attachment #attachmentdisorder #attachmentparenting #parenting #parentingsos #parenthumour #parenthood #family #famille #familie #familia #adoptivefamily #adoptiveparents #adoptionbuiltus #adoption #adoptionmonth #adoptionawareness #adoptionawarenessmonth #therapeuticparenting https://www.instagram.com/p/CjckleUMqy-/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
Just spent 20 minutes trying to explain to my cat that the red dot is not, in fact, a tiny demon trapped inside my phone screen. Turns out, even with a degree in Feline Psychology, some things remain a mystery.
Your thoughts are intrusively firing off the things you need you need to do while simultaneously forgetting every thing you've listed n then getting upset for forgetting. You are now frustrated, so you put some tv or music on in the background to help you relax. The music or tv is barely at a 10 but its too loud so you lower it to a 2 but now it's too quiet n your thoughts are too loud so you turn it to a 6 and now you're overstimulated because the tv/music are now fighting for control n you're low key getting anxious so you drop it to a 4 n its quiet enough to not be overstimulated but loud enough for your brain to jump on the vibe and finally ktfo. All of which probably took you about an hour?
The tires squealed as I jerked the wheel. The slick pavement of the interstate fought against my instinct. Left…no right. Metal crushed loudly and for a moment, time stood still on that dark, rainy highway. “I don’t want to die.”
In the rear view mirror I saw death and it was a spotlight on the fact that I didn’t want to die. Not today. I’m not ready yet. Nevertheless, I’ve heard that voice…
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I can’t believe it’s been nearly a month since my last personal post. Time has just been flying by between school and work and trying to maintain my mental health. Today started week four of my current class (University 103: Student Success). It is 10:30 at night currently, and I just finished turning in two assignments I had that were overdue and I also got…