"too in love to think straight,all alone or so it seemed, but there was strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams"
I was just walking and listening to TTPD and though I often find myself thinking about Wilmon to like 99% of songs (the brain rot will never cease). So Long, London had me all up in my feels thinking about Simon at the end of 3x05.
I kept calm and carried the weight of the rift
Pulled him in tighter each time he was drifting away
My spine split from carrying us up the hill
and
And you say I abandoned the ship
But I was going down with it
My white knuckle dying grip
like EURGH.
If anyone knows of any fics that have used this song for inspo please send them my way.
I always thought Simon would be the one who would have wished he’d never met Wille, because he’s shown that through his actions in several times in season 1 and 2, (and I’m sure he has), that’s why I thought we would see Simon actually saying it, expressing it with words as well, but when I watched this scene I couldn’t believe it was Wille the one saying it, Wille, the guy who’s never denied his feelings for Simon, he’s always thinking about Simon and his love for him, his actions are mostly driven by his love for Simon, so that’s why I think this line was even more heartbreaking coming from him.
And I can’t help but thinking: his pain was so strong he regretted everything that happened, he regretted all this happy moments with Simon because sometimes it’s better to stay in the dark and living in that comfort zone, even if staying there was slowly destroying you.