Man I'm in no rush to make the decision or anything, but a lot of the time lately, I've come to think that I don't believe I am in a place in my life where I can - for the long run - provide the lovebirds with a long term home that provides them with the life I think they deserve. I provide a good one, and definitely one better than either of them had in the past - but I know there are people with a more stable life style, more space, and what not that could probably give them a better life than I can.
The issue is, finding a new home for a parrot that is actually GOOD and honest about it and not just planning to use them for breeding or re-sale is horrifying. As far as I'm concerned, while I am not happy with the quality of life I can currently provide for them, I am also aware I am probably a better and safer option than most people I could probably find to potentially rehome them to - and I would rather give them a "below what they deserve and could have" life than risk having them thrown back into the hell that is being in the pet trade or owned by someone who can't care for them.
They're fine and happy and all and there aren't any *issues*, but I do know things I would like to be able to provide them that I simply can't at the moment or necessarily can in any relative soon future.
And it honestly just upsets me how hostile and dangerous the pet trade is for parrots. I'm also not going to pretend we don't have trauma relating to the pet trade as well and I'm just ":/"
Cause I love these lesbian lovebirds, I really do and I want the best for them. If I knew I could find them a home that could do better than me, I would pay someone to adopt them. The issue is though, lovebirds are probably one of the most common "breeder" birds and a non-negligible part of me would rather die than see them thrown into that life.
I choose to not think about it too much cause its not a current issue I have to make, and the truth is - I'm just being a mother hen about my birds cause again, there isn't anything *wrong* and there isn't an issue, I just... ya know, want the best for them and currently, I think I am the best for them.
I just honestly really wish I wasn't cause I know I could be doing a lot better and it's honestly just sad.
Maybe I should stop making fun of American Football fans for being overly invested into guys kicking around a ball, because after watching the Dutch Grand Prix 2023 I think I understand.