#academiario speaks

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wtf i literally just booked a flight 2 days ago and now the same exact flight is a lot cheaper smh -_-

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rant: y’all i’m a freshman pre-nursing and i’m barely surviving college. idk but i honestly didn’t expect freshman year to be so hard, i’m seriously considering majoring in math, statistics or engineering instead

the only thing i found fun so far in college was when we dissected sheep brain and eye for my a&p1 class but besides that idk anymore. it’s so hard to compete with other nursing applicants too bc a lot of them have a lot of experience already and took a bunch of science college classes already, a few of my a&p1 classmates show up to class wearing scrubs too. and i’m 19 and my only science classes so far is chemistry and a&p1.

i’ve wanted this for so long but idk if i can/should keep going. my school’s nursing program is expecting mostly A’s and i already have a C on english last semester. i don’t even know if any school would want me now, especially since i don’t think i’ll get A’s this semester.

[academiario]

merry christmas everyone!! 🎅🏼🎁🎉🎄let’s change into our christmas pajamas, make hot cocoa with whipped cream and cute little marshmallows, and blast some christmas music. we’ll finally feast on some good noche buena food, and open our presents!! whether you celebrate christmas eve and open presents at midnight, or celebrate on christmas day and open presents in the morning, i’m wishing you a very very merry christmas!! if you don’t celebrate, i’m wishing you a lovely holidays. <3

[academiario]

help me out, i’m having an academic crisis. should i:

1. stay in the US as a pre nursing student.

i have to take an pre nursing exam to get into a nursing school

i have to apply to multiple schools (highly competitive, i don’t qualify for my current school for next semester)

the pre requisites take 2 years minimum (i’m on year 2 now), excluding the actual nursing school.

it’s likely that i won’t graduate within 4 or even 5 years. even with a “2-year” degree from a community college

the pre requisites take forever and each school is asking for different ones

then, i’ll take the nclex exam, if i pass i will become a registered nurse in the US.

i can only afford public college so i go to a commuter school, and live with my family, never lived alone

or

2. go back to the philippines for nursing school.

but i literally have to start over

all my peers are on their 3rd year of college while i basically “wasted” years of my life. (bc i took a gap year plus had to take pre requisite classes before i even officially “start” college)

it’s guaranteed i will graduate within 4 years.

lots of hands on learning where students meet and handle patients as early as 2nd year?

i’ll take the board exam, if i pass i will become a registered nurse in the philippines.

and take the nclex exam, if i pass i will become a registered nurse in the US.

i will live alone there (my parents and siblings in the US)

i’ve wanted a “regular college experience” my entire life (living in alone in a dorm/apartment, having a uniform, etc) but now that i actually have the chance again, i don’t even know if i still want it anymore.

and i’ve cried every single day for a year when we first moved to the US, praying that i could go back and continue the life that i had and wanted. i lost control over my life, so i grew to resent my mom bc she didn’t allow me to finish high school in the philippines with my friends, didn’t allow me to stay for college despite knowing that i’ve been dreaming of it since i was a kid. but now i’m numb and i don’t have any strong opinions about this anymore. that’s why i’m asking strangers for opinions about this (fresh eyes ig lol).

[academiario]

how do people have time to go to college parties every week? like genuinely i want to know the answer. it’s the second week of the semester and i can barely keep up. when does college start becoming fun bc i’m just tired tbh and i’m only a freshman 😭

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college rant: got damn i didn’t know getting into a nursing program in usa is so difficult. i really should have gone to the philippines, i would’ve been on my 3rd year of nursing if i did. i literally go to a community college rn with a 3.62 gpa and the prenursing advisor just told me i won’t get in since they’re asking for 3.65 gpa???!!! a community college is literally asking for perfect students?? actual real nurses aren’t even perfect wth

[academiario]

i just found out there’s a soup fandom this is the best thing ever, i love soup <3

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happy new year everyone! since its the new year, i’ll be doing a “things I’m grateful for the past year” post. so that future me can look back and read it. and ig so other people, even just one person, will hopefully be inspired to do the same and reflect on the past year, and appreciate/realize how important the little things in life are.

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rant: i wish i wasn’t autistic. everything is so hard and i have no idea what’s going on. why do i have to drive a manual while everyone else gets to drive an automatic. i need instructions in life. i want instructions in life. i’m tired of studying and copying normal people, it’s too complicated. there’s a lot of autistic people, people older than me, with more experience than me but where’s the normal people manual??? where?? i’m tired of figuring this out myself. i’m tired of talking. i wish it was acceptable to just, not talk. i wish i could just use sign language to people but i don’t even know sign language. and i don’t even feel time so i’m always late to everything. and my parents don’t even know that i got diagnosed. and i’m not planning on telling them. my mom is starting to notice that i’m weird since i’m in my 20s now, i’m getting older and i still have a lot of stuffed animals.

am i overthinking this bc i recently got diagnosed or is life genuinely and significantly harder now compared to when i was a kid. i noticed that it became gradually more difficult for me to act normal, interact, and fit in with my age group. i haven’t talked to anyone, besides my family, for a long time now. i know i need to talk but it’s so difficult, what do i even talk about to people my age? i don’t know what i have in common with them. who do i even talk to? where do i find them? i literally don’t even have friends. every time i post something on my personal account it’s noticeable that i barely get any likes. i wish people didn’t and couldn’t notice that i’m different.

[academiario]

not to be a huge 🦠stem nerd💉 but omg. am i the only one who thinks blue scrubs (top and bottom) with white sleeves underneath is just *chefs kiss*. i saw a dude wearing one on the subway. and damn. it’s so attractive, they look amazing and they fit him so well. the quality of the material and the embroidery looks so amazing. one day i’ll wear one too i know it.

[academiario]

i kind of want to grow some grass. like from seeds. pet grass from seeds. and mow my little pet grass.

[academiario]

whoever made the music for the documentary “wild portugal” you deserve kindness, nurture, and love. you deserve everything you ever dreamed of. i hope you sleep comfortably, and may your pillows be always cold. you deserve to go to heaven. to whoever made the music and everyone who worked on the music, the orchestra and everyone else, i love you so much you deserve the world. god the music is absolutely heavenly

[academiario]

would you guys be interested in a cottagecore, hobbitcore, nature (sunset? etc), gardening themed tiktok and/or instagram account? idk reply with suggestions of what you want to see too if you want, also reply with some cool accounts with a similar theme if you know some so i could check them out <3

(not time sensitive! you can reply to this post even when it’s old since i’m still figuring it out lol)

[academiario]

i just watched spiderman no way home im sad

[academiario]

it’s always “dad: you’re spending too much money. i’m decreasing your credit limit” and never “do you want to go on a picnic” or “i got us broadway tickets” :/

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hi i’m back! my gap year is finally over!! it was a good break focusing on my mental health, though it was a bit boring and i actually felt jealous seeing people study, i’m so glad to be back at school again. i picked up a few hobbies this year, the main one is wildlife photography. i think i’ll try posting my photography stuff on this blog. i’ll tag everything ofc so mute the tag if photography isn’t your cup of tea.

also if i still haven’t replied back i’m so sorry. talking to (and messaging) people is hard. replying back to anyone feels too overwhelming to me but i promise i’m not angry or annoyed 😅. and i know i said feel free to message me on my studyblr intro post but i didn’t expect anyone to actually do it since i posted that when i only had like 30 followers when i just made this blog at the beginning of this year. also if your blog is empty i probably won’t reply if you reach out with just a “hey” since i don’t know if you’re a (p0rn)bot or not.

also apparently i’m ND, i got diagnosed with a couple of things but idk what i’ll do yet, idk what people do when they get diagnosed pretty late. accommodations in college maybe?

ty!!! ?idk what to say, half of it’s probably bots or inactive blogs lmao