Hey birch! Quick ask for your writing on POF. What do you like the most about your Kurloz and Gamzee? If you could pick a few favorite things or traits from the versions of them you created, what do you think those would be? It's ok if you skip, I just got curious. I love your epic clown sagaaa 🥰🥰
!!! :Oc oh huh! My favorite traits are almost always the ones that create friction--some of those are neutral but create drama and some of them are outright negative, lol. Short answer, PoF Gamzee's a reckless coward and PoF Kurloz is incredibly dangerous and proud over top of a deep well of insecurity. Long answer.....under the cut, lol.
The Gamzee I write is, and I say this with authorial love and tbh no moral judgment, kind of a coward. He's not scared of the same stuff as most of us would be, he's good at combat and he likes pain, but also he's hugely, deeply afraid--of lots of stuff, but especially being left behind, and that drives a ton of his characterization.
Being left/abandoned is a pretty returning theme for a reason! From the very first chapter, when Gamzee's internal monologue is basically, "Well, time for the thing that made me happy to Go Away again. Hopefully if I'm good and I wait well enough, it'll eventually come back." He's been captured on his first mission, is his family going to leave him to die? Karkat's cocooning, is he ever coming back? Kurloz is poisoned and the family is turning on him as a suspect, are they done with him forever? He's the lynchpin of the Cult of Flesh's heresy, are his gods going to turn their faces away from him?
And when he feels like he has been abandoned, he goes through cycles of rage and then retreating from the rage, because being angry is holy but being angry is bad and drives people away, but being angry feels right, but-- It drives him to be overly obliging, trying not to drive people away, and it pushes him to be vicious when somebody seems to be interfering with his grasp on the things he values. It makes him a very sweet guy who'd do just about anything for the people he cares about, and it makes him clingy and dependent and blindly devoted, and prone to lashing out when he feels like they don't care about him as much as he cares about them!
I identify with a lot of that as an author, but I also just feel like it dovetails pretty neatly into the scant amounts of canon characterization we get for Gamzee, so I find it very compelling to read/write!
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As far as Kurloz goes, what I like most about him as a character is probably like...his pride? And (especially because this is a kinky sex fic) the shame that goes along with that.
On a very surface level, the concept of the Grand Highblood as a grumpy, proud old guy who's getting reluctantly dragged in the direction of a still terrible but less hemoist society is very funny to me. Make up a bigoted old man and then force him to knuckle under repeatedly to the people he's bigoted against. But also on a more-plot-less-humor level, a character who's made himself a very strict code of "this is what's expected of me and I will fulfill it no matter what it does to me" is RIPE for drama. Especially when the plot of the story is then giving that character something that suddenly he finds he values at least as much as that code and pride, and making him struggle with that.
The counterpoint to that being; it's fun to set up a character as a proud, badass, dangerous son of a bitch, and then give the POV/the readers a shot straight into the shit that he's hiding behind that "I'm untouchable, don't fuck with me" pride. Sadism, especially as extreme as I've written into Kurloz, can be an intimidating thing! On the surface it's part of the mask, part of the scary persona--but it's really compelling and interesting to me to then sidestep that mask and go into the roiling mess of sexual shame and religious guilt and uncertainty and self-loathing. MAN I love writing the Brother Immortal scenes, you guys.
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Best FromSoft game, rated by the number of fuckable characters and creatures?
dear fuck, you really aren't making this easy for me, are you? fine, fine, fine. out of the left field then - the answer is dark souls 1. it's not one i've interacted with as much, or engage with as much, but fuck okay, lets look at the bosses. you didn't ask for this, but since you've opened this can of worms let me give you specific details. its ds1 smash or pass edition
asylum demon - pass. just not it, plus literally the first boss, so pretty weak. could at least be a bit more impressive and lethal, very meh.
bell gargoyle - hard smash. look at him, he's armored, he's sexy, he's got a fanged maw and a very long tail. we loved something humanoid but cursed and fucked-up looking.
capra demon - very hard smash. ngl, half the reason this game is top choice. honestly, i really fuck with a skull head aesthetic, and look at him, he's jacked, he has a tail, he looks like a beast in the sack, he has two huge cleavers. everything that stands for the bell gargoyle stands for him
ceaseless discharge - pass. it would just be a bit complicated, and the lava looks like it would not be so fun. insane bonus points for his name tho, and so hey, bringing him up is a good excuse to show this meme
centipede demon - smash. honestly, not sure how it would work, but this guy actually has thicc thighs so like fuck it, why not
chaos witch quelaag - smash. look what do i have to say? she's gorgeous, she's a confident woman doing her own thing. i won't judge someone for what they've got going on in their pants. i already said smash for a centipede, so whats a few less legs? we dig it.
crossbreed priscila - pass. look she's basically just a regular lady. sure she's pretty, and has cute horns but like. pretty girls exist everywhere. nothing special, she's probably the wifu of like six million horny dark souls fans
dark sun gwyndolin - smash. very eerie, very unsettling, amazing tentacle game, messed up head with some sort of terrifying helmet. we love it.
demon firesage - pass. basically the asylum demon again, but now with the inconvenience of the ceaseless discharge. not worth.
four kings - hard smash. look tenshi you know my opinions about suits of armour. it's sexy. he's sexy. knives are sexy. he has sexy horns.
gaping dragon - smash. just- look. look. okay eldritch shit is very interesting, and dragons are very interesting and just- i don't need to explain myself, moving on
great grey wolf sif - pass. literally just a wolf.
gwyn lord of cinder - pass. on the one hand, very sexy armour and sword. on the other hand... sort of mummified old guy. i'm not so much into that 'fuck that old man' life. maybe if it was just his armour as a sentient suit....
iron golem - smash. bit interesting in terms of size, but look hey. gotta sexualise that suit of armour, am i right? it'd be an incredible blow to my rep if i passed on it
moonlight butterfly - hard smash. look at it, its gorgeous. so fucking pretty, what the hell. i feel like it would be very gentle with you. it'd be a very sensual experience.
nito - smash. literally just a pile of bones in a trenchcoat but like. idk that has some charm. could be interesting. why not
ornstein and smough - as a pair or individually? becase i'm still recovering from reading vow by [insert name when i can fact check when ao3 is back up] like two years ago, and that fic made me hate smough's guts. if smough has to be involved then pass, if ornstein alone then fuck hard smash. his armour is so sexy are you kidding?
pinwheel - pass. its just... eh. eh.
seath the scaleless - smash. almost a pass, bc he sounds like a bit of an asshole, but also man he's very pretty. and he's a dragon. always bonus points for being a dragon. very fuckable
stray demon - pass. look how many times do i have to say that i'm not super into the asulym demon? it doesn't matter how much he reskins, its still him.
taurus demon - hard smash. look at those horns. look at those shoulders. we can appreciate a terrifying only vaguely humanoid looking monster okay? okay?
bed of chaos - pass. look i know i've said smash to some pretty wild eldritch shit on this list, but again, the fire. also, basically a tree? the name is sort of compelling through, so very on the fence about this one. call it a maybe.
anyway i hope this is what you wanted tenshi. don't worry, i'm going to get you back just as bad
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I'm asexual so most of anything I would do to anyone would feel like a science experiment from me. I wouldn't get aroused most likely. At least I don't think I would. The other person would be more like a specimen and I'm controlling/observing the experiment. I can feel aroused, have orgasms, and all that. I just don't really seek it out. For some reason, I have a r*pe kink whether the soft and gentle type where someone shushes my crying with their hand over my mouth as they rock gently into me or the more violent type where they leave bruises that last years.
YES:
Spanking: Only if it's harsh. Playful spanking exists but I don't really like it personally. Maybe it's the autism but I need more.
Slapping: Let's slap each other for fun but you can slap me seriously if you want.
Affectionate Cruelty: Sounds cute. I'm in.
Orgasm Denial, Control, Chastity: idk what all chastity involves but I like the idea of orgasm denial and control.
Edging: Both. This seems most interesting and I would especially like to observe/control this one. I don't really like the idea of having someone do this to me where I can't stop it - but I guess that the idea of cnc or nc.
Punishment: ! I like this idea because I tend to be a little strict with myself and sometimes with others. I tend to be exact.
Rules: Yes to rules in general and following them (or breaking them at times). I like following rules if I find them reasonable and when others abide as well. I prefer when things are ordered or structured.
Pain: Give and Take. I think I could give pain more easily than receive it since I feel pain strongly and I don't heal easily. Truly, bruises become like scars on me. I try to be careful. But giving bruises to others and watching them heal or not letting them heal? Yes.
Bondage: Giving and Receiving.
Knife Play: Sure. I'll let you be in the sequel.
Obedience. :')
Humiliation/Degradation: Possibly but I'm not sure how to humiliate. There are certain sub-groups I would love to humiliate/degrade (and punish) but I would need to learn how.
Somnophilia: This seems like something I would be into.
Rough Sex: Yes. But actually rough - not like those videos on p*rnhub where it's not enough. Commit to the act.
Being Babied: I do like this but more in the sense that I call kpop boys "best boys" and things like that. I'm not talking about pac!fiers and the extreme. I also b*by talk and color pages like Sanr!o, and my room is pastel pink but I feel like that's an autism thing. It's not something I sexualize or want sexualized.
Role Play, Switch, Size Difference, Overstimulation: Sure.
CNC: Yes, but real.
Sadomasochism, Manhandling, Facefucking: Yes… I think.
Master/Slave: At times. I have ADHD though so if I can't switch things up, we're going to have a difficult time.
Outdoor play: What was the point of me watching all those Russian r*pe videos if I can't freeze my body off in the cold Russian air?
Impact Play: Most likely. I guess this is why safewords are important.
Home Videos: We could make movies like Tarsem Singh.
Corruption: Let me corrupt you. I don't think you could corrupt me though I would take this bet.
Predator/Prey: I could like this, I think.
Tentacles, Monsters, Villain: Sure, why not?
Maybe, Confused, idc/idk, no, and the blank one underneath the cut:
MAYBE:
Exhibitionism: Maybe but not in a frustrating way where we're going to annoy others publicly. More like in a specified setting where people won't catch a glimpse of our asses unless they want to.
Body Worship: I don't really worship anything but it's something I would try once or twice to see how I feel about it.
Risky places: Like a church when no one's there or my priest kink during confession/penance? Sure. TBD.
Being a Brat: Sometimes but expect punishment - given/received. But I would not want to tame a brat. If someone was too bratty, I would just leave.
Marks & Bruises: Maybe on me. On you, yes.
Nipple play: Maybe. What is the point though? Is it only for pleasure?
Oral fixation: I'm not sure what this means. I wouldn't want someone fixated on me orally but I could see myself being at least temporarily fixated on someone else orally in the sense that all genitalia are different. I'd be like a little explorer.
Free Use: I'm debating this because I think it would be something I fight. You want sex with me during my solitary time? Would you also bathe a cat and not expect scratches?
Anal: Maybe…
Group Sex: hmm… I don't really like sex at all so this would be a challenge because it involves more people. Maybe if I'm drugged. Also, why isn't that on this list?
Caging/Confinement: Aaaah maybe. For how long? Do you want me to lose my mind?
Wax Play: idk because I feel pain more strongly than others.
Breath Play/Gags: Perhaps. Especially the hand over mouth bit.
Confused or IDK/IDC:
Ownership / Being kept as property/owned: I don't really understand this one.
Rope Bunny/Shibari: I could tie you up, I guess.
Primal Sex: What is this??
Authority Figure: I might be the most leftist person you could meet. Vladimir Lenin? He has nothing on me. I'm not sure how I would fair with this.
Age Gap: If everyone is an adult then maybe it doesn't matter if he's 20 and she's 90 idk.
Pet Play: I don't understand this. Are you or I playing as pets?
Praise: Praise what? I think you would have to pay me to praise another human. Another animal? Sure. I praise animals daily.
Latex/Leather: It exists. Congratulations to latex and leather.
Нет, никогда! No, never!
Spit: I put yes but I meant no. lol I REALLY dislike spit and tongues and all that. I don't drink after people and if someone double dips, I just won't eat anymore - and I'll tell them, too. Hard no.
Breeding, Pregnancy, dd/md/lg/lb, Impregnation, Breastfeeding, Oviposition: Нет, никогда! No, never!
Facesitting, Rimming, Feet: Нет, никогда!
Water Sports: Not a hard limit but umm… no. I… I think not.
Ordered to masturbate: I don't see the point in me ordering someone to masturbate or otherwise. I don't think this is something I would like. I wouldn't care if you masturbate so it's not something I would ever ask or order someone to do and I wouldn't want someone to put me on the spot and order me to do it. My response would be something like looking up and laughing with an "lol no".
Cumslut/Cumplay/Cumflation: idk what this is, but probably not since I have a thing about certain bodily fluids.
French kissing: Not listed but it's a hard no.
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