#almost late with this one but I'm here

[anyataylorjoys]

YELLOWJACKETS APPRECIATION WEEK '23 ↳ DAY 01 - Favorite episode: S2E02 Edible Complex

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

[mamawasatesttube]

just thinking out loud here but i feel like a lot of popular perception of kon esp in online fandom spaces is colored by his joie de vivre and all the times he's silly and goofy. which i do of course adore!! i love when he's silly and goofy. but comparing that perception to, that of like, clark or kara, i feel like kon gets shunted into the box of "dumb comic relief character" a lot more easily. lots of factors probably contribute to that (sb94 having a bad rep, while no other kon comic really goes into a lot of his tragedy; conflation with the side of the fandom that doesn't read comics; the fact that comparatively postcrisis kara doesn't have a team the way kon has yj and clark is seen as a more capable adult, so other characters in the jl get the "dumb comic relief" short end of the stick more often; etc) ...

... but what really gets me about him is that he does embody a lot of the same traits as the rest of the kryptonian superfam. he's so extremely kind. he's got that same noble heart as the rest of them; he cares about everyone and he wants to protect everyone. and he's so, so lonely. he struggles between cultures and worlds where he feels like he doesn't belong to either. he is so strong and capable and holds so much power that it scares him.

cradles him gently in my hands. he contains multitudes... come closer don't you want to love him 🥺

[hrokkall]

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it's ultimate blorbo hours

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

if ur still doing requests pls rem if not das all g

she’s chrysanthemum-coded to me <3

close-ups ig

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[rinofwater]

You know, my first instinct is to tell Arvio to stop butting...but I can't even get mad at his suggestion, because I'm definitely planning on using a certain main story plot point in a similar way in my fic if I can ever get that far with it...

[pollen]

hii it's been awhile since i've given any updates about what's going on with me but!!! i think we're moving back to oregon at some point. and i'm gonna make grad school happen. i'm so yhappy

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

helloo!! i just wanted to say, i finished the here comes the sun fic and wow. i’m absolutely blown away it was so beautiful. i’m sure you get this a lot but i just adore the way you write, especially with alex. i feel like you portray him in a way that feels a lot like him, which i feel can be hard to do. the bunk scene at the end left me gasping for air i swear. oh my god. thank you for your services and have the most loveliest day.

oh wow, this is so so lovely i don't even know what to say 🥺 writing that fic brought me so much joy, so to hear that reading it brought you joy too is just... the best feeling a writer could ask for ✨

it means particularly much to hear that you enjoyed my portrayal of alex - i find him such a fascinating person to write, but i'm also very aware that his complexity makes capturing him in a realistically quite a challenge! so it makes me happier than i can say to hear that the way i wrote him felt authentic to you 💗

ahhhhhhh. i really can't tell you how much it means when lovely people like you take time out of their day to come and talk to me about my fics 🥺 thank you so so much, this was such a wonderful little gift in my ask box 💜 wishing you all the best vibes for a wonderful day today ✨💫✨💫

[letsmcfreackingloseit]

I JUST SAW MATPAT IN THEATERS AND IT WAS AWESOME AND I'M SO HAPPY

[house-in-the-backyard-trees]

Both me and my one coworker are going through a breakup.

The day I got broken up with I tried to call off. I wasn't allowed bc it wasn't a good enough reason. I came in and cried on and off at work when I really should've told them to fuck off and I'd be back the next shift.

Yesterday she got to go home early and now she's off for the foreseeable future as she's on a 72 hour hold that I'm pretty sure I shouldn't have even been told about.

Last week I had to disguise my anxiety/depression related illness for a week as a nasty stomach bug just so I could manage to pull myself together enough bc I couldn't eat or sleep or drink or exist without bawling. I am still struggling.

Now I am going to have to continue to do the work of me and my two coworkers bc neither of them can ever fully do their job while trying to fill in for this coworker bc I am the only dependable worker here other than my manager so she'll certainly be asking me to come in on my days off and come in early/leave late and bc I am a people pleaser who doesn't know how to say no to the point where I'm pretty sure it's a form of passive self harm, I'm gonna do it and more than likely find myself in yet another mental breakdown.

I am exhausted of the double standards where so much is expected of me at this job but my coworkers get away with not even remembering their sign in numbers (I have to remember it for her) or consistently doing nothing to the point that our district manager and/or general manager has had at least 5-6 talks with her.

Last week was so hard bc everything all caught up to me. And I had to hide it just so I could pull myself together enough to pretend everything's fine so I don't let anyone down.

[spinnysocks]

old lion guard rp blogs my beloved

[aberooski]

I'm seriously hanging on by a thread right now I might just go drop dead 😭

[astriiformes]

It's definitely... interesting to look at the evolution of the type of characters whose narratives hit me the hardest, because there's a very real shift over time that corresponds pretty glaringly my own life experiences.

When I was younger (high school and into early college) I had a tendency to latch onto bright, eccentric genius characters, not just for their positive traits but also because I was awkward and often lonely and struggled socially, and felt like I could project that onto them easily while still feeling good about myself. There were very real reasons beyond just wanting to feel smart, but I still tied a lot of weighty mental importance and self-identity to characters like the Doctor, and Newt Geiszler, and Ford Pines, in ways that absolutely influenced things like my future career goals and college choices

--and as someone who ultimately fell short of that brilliant academic archetype, in the long run I think it did a lot of damage. I won't say that seeing myself in those characters was exclusively a bad thing (it helped me figure out I was autistic, for one thing, as well as recognize elements of my personality that are also very real during a formative period), but I do have sort of an awkward relationship with how I used to feel about them vs how I feel about them now.

There wasn't a huge transitional phase. I think the main character I can point to as a sort of pivot point might be Percy de Rolo, who still fits the brilliant eccentric archetype but is much more glaringly mentally ill and ultimately ends up on a very different path than he started on by the end of his story. That smug desire to be the smartest person in the room is very much still there, but it wasn't the main reason I latched onto him. And I don't think it's coincidental my biggest CR1 phase hit after I dropped out of school the second time.

Since then, my favorite characters have been...... different. There's Fjord, who picked the wrong patron, totally ruined his life for a bit, and then slowly rebuilt his self-esteem with the guidance of a friend, a new god, and a better calling. Hunter, who was driving himself to the point of a complete breakdown trying to live up to unreasonable standards, and Lilith who made questionable life choices that put her in a similar position prior to a full-on midlife crisis in her 40s. Harrow, who's brilliant and powerful but also completely broken for it and would have been better off if she didn't feel like she had to constantly apologize for existing. And now I'm having a lot of feelings about Andreas, who starts out as a university drop-out going through a total career shift and is clearly somewhat insecure about it who then.... well..... [gestures]

Even when I do like smart or particularly gifted characters, it's for totally different reasons. I like Raine because they're awkward and anxious but still willing to stand up for what's right, and have had a real impact on how I think about my gender and helped reignite my love of performing music. When I first read Gideon the Ninth, I spent a good chunk of the book thinking about how my younger self would have latched onto Palamedes instantly, whereas with my experiences now I almost felt wary to, before ultimately deciding I actually liked him because he was kind, had a strong moral compass, and deeply loved someone who was chronically ill.

And it's not like it's more virtuous to like characters for the reasons I do now, but for me, personally it's certainly healthier to have my preferred archetype be "people who have tried and failed (but aren't giving up)," and it's been a bit of a trip watching that shift happen when for so long I felt so differently.

[ilkkawhat]

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