#also i am finally playing bb after all these years!!!!

[reaversanctuary]

Sancta Spatha de Lunae Lumen, absolvo! Absolvo me!

Sancta Spatha de Lunae Lumen, praemostra mea manus!

Sancta Spatha de Lunae Lumen, semper ad latus meo, mea dux sancta!

[sharingfandoms]

So like in your tags under the bb vs msp poll I saw you mentioning that msp was bad written and tingun aren't as healthy as people claim they are.....and I was like YEAH!! EXACTLY!! But I wasn't able to pinpoint it. Would you mind elaborating on those tags??

ohhh wowwwww my first ask!!!!! of course i will. i am also really happy that someone agrees since i kind of always found myself pretty alone in this lmaooo. thank you for your question!!! much appreciated! ♥

First claim: MSP is bad written

Yes, it is. For many reasons. I will elaborate on the main two.

It kind of presents itself as some sort of heir of Bad Buddy, but the comparison is pale to say the least. The main characters don't really have any reasons not to date. They could date in secret from the very start, as soon as they realize they both have feelings for each other, and then come out as an actual couple as soon as the whole music contest is over, or something like that (even waiting for another year until they graduate could be a valid choice tbh). No particular drama needed. They could still go to each other's houses and make out all day in bed while Gun's mom is working, or go out somewhere public without their classmates present and have a real date.

The actual conflict that makes them star-crossed lovers is ridiculous at best. The mere idea that a school club in high school (well, Mattayom actually, but whatever) would have a rule like that is genuinely stupid - like, it's not even 'club members can't date', but 'those who are in this club and going for Hot Wave can't have a faen'. Like, hello? What if I've had a faen before joining this damn club? I'm supposed to break up with them because some idiot thinks that'll make me more focused on singing and playing music? Are you fucking kidding me? I'm only accepting this as something not entirely crazy and fucked up if there's some cultural reference I'm missing behind it (if things really work like that anywhere in Thailand, then apologies, pretend you never read this last complain; but I did look it up on the internet and didn't find anything about it). It'd still sound stupid, but at least it'd make sense. It was something so out of the blue that just felt like the opposite of plot armor: something made entirely just to create an obstacle to the love story of the main guys once their path was clear and they were both sure about their feelings (if that's such an important rule, why didn't it come up sooner? It felt like watching a kids show, where threats gradually become scarier the more our protagonist becomes stronger). Regardless, like I said, it was not that bad for them.

Pat and Pran are star-crossed lovers because the parents they love and admire - and are economically dependent on - hate each other and actively tried to keep them apart, causing trauma and pain on both ends. They can't get rid of them. It's not highschool, it's not a damn music club you'll eventually get out of (soon enough!!!). It's their whole life. It's the people they love the most who are trying to oppose their relationship (not to mention their friends as well, while Tinn and Gun have full support on that regard). They feel guilty, they feel sad, they don't want to have to say goodbye to their fucking families in order to keep their relationship going. This is serious, and complicated - and practical, as money does buy happiness after all. This will last, probably forever, until their parents will finally come around and accept things are the way they are - we see a glint of it happening in the last episode, at least. Compared to this, Gun and Tinn are fine, really. Even a teenager should be able to see that. The writers didn't have to go out of their ways to make comparisons that martyr PatPran's symbols, like having them use the word 'friend' instead of 'boyfriend' as an 'inside joke', or their colors, or anything at all really, only for them to be related to a fucking school club rule.

The secondary couples are bad handled, which is a shame because I was genuinely interested in Sound and Win at first. I even dared to hope - fully aware I was fooling myself, but at least hoping it was going to be a fun road to something interesting and original! - that they would have actually written an aromantic/demiromantic character in this drama, based on what Win says to Sound in episode 10. But then everything that episode was supposed to be a build-up for in terms of their bond just suddenly disappears in the next, when they're somehow in an established relationship already. Great? Would have been nice to see that happening on screen, I guess. I suppose that's what happens when you WASTE so many episodes around only two characters (TinnGun), relegating focus on your secondary couple (I won't even mention the third couple, since there isn't much to say about them tbh) in the last ones, making it rushed and kind of pointless (this also happened with the feud between Tinn and Sound, which never got explained to the viewers for some reason; okay). And they even get an explicit PatPran reference at some point towards the end of the drama, which makes me cry and not in a good way - poor babies, don't worry, we'll all just collectively forget your outfits and cans were even brought up in MPS in the first place.

Second claim: TinnGun are not as healthy as people say they are

I want to be brief with this one, because people are going to hate on me anyway, and I don't feel like writing a whole ass essay on those two. All I have to say is: if this couple had been heterosexual, people would have probably hated it. With how much double standards affect the way people perceive female characters and straight relationships, all those traits that make them state Tinn is a green-flag and a lovable simp would instead have them assert that he's a succubus, that he's not indipendent enough, that he's only obsessed with the guy and doesn't actually love him, and that he doesn't do much in the show other than being the love interest. Usually, when people say these things related to female characters, they're wrong - and just being mysogynistic, hating on any girl who dares to have a cute crush on a guy. Ironically enough, in Tinn's case, they wouldn't even be all that wrong.

Like I said, I don't feel like elaborating much on this issue, unless anon really wants me to - then I'll dive into it in detail in another post. But, like, genuinely, Gun really pissed me off at times, he often takes Tinn for granted (I'm thinking about that one moment where Tinn tells him he's not going to make it to one of their rehearsals and he gets mad about it, as if Tinn hasn't been at his disposal the entire fucking time; that scene really made me feel uncomfortable, because if I were the one who had been so helpful to anyone at all, just for them to treat me like that as soon as I have a problem of my own and can't attend to theirs, I'd be genuinely disappointed; and yes, I know that Gun will later change his attitude, but I feel like there was no weight placed on this matter, as if him finally acknowledging Tinn's struggles and effort wasn't a turning point in their story but more like something optional that just kind of happened), and I feel like their relationship is often unbalanced on many aspects.

I won't elaborate on all the other claims - "he's obsessed with the guy", "he doesn't do much in the show other than being the love interest" -, but I do genuinely believe there should be more dialogue about them in the fandom. I never once read anyone complain about these issues, and I know for a fact they'd have come up immediately had it been a female character in Tinn's place.

[pikapeppa]

Fic writers' end-of-year roundup: 2022 edition!

It’s that time of year, writer friends — time to take stock of what we’ve been up to this year! Tagging to literally ANY AND ALL WRITERS who would like to participate, but I’ll throw down some tags from the top of my head: @contrivedchaos @kittynomsdeplume @little-lightning-lavellan, @varric-tethras-editor @lavendreapark @hobo-apostate @ranaspkillnarieth @iamcayc @ocean-in-my-rebel-soul @hollyand-writes @elveny @johaerys-writes @charlatron @noire-pandora @hellas-himself @crackinglamb @barbex @mogwaei @alyssalenko @musetta3 @iarollane @about2dance @mythicaitt @cthu-boo !

Words written (published or not, WIPs included!): 1 012 607. I was hoping to crack a million this year and I FINALLY DID IT. 😂

Smut scenes: 41! Less than other years, but not the least.  

New things I tried:

I wrote fanfic for anime for the first time this year — for Samurai Champloo (Fuu/Jin/Mugen) and for Cyberpunk: Edgerunners (David/Lucy). On a related note, this year was the first time I wrote for a form of media that I didn’t originally watch in English. I was always a little scared to write in English for something that I hadn’t watched in English, because capturing characters’ voices and speech patterns is so important to me, and it’s hard to translate that across languages. But CPER got me by the throat, so I watched it in both Japanese and English so I could capture the characters’ voices as best as I could. I watched Samurai Champloo dubbed in English, though, and I am a sucker for Jin’s English voice, so that was a snap to write. 😂

For the first time, I also wrote for a game that I’ve never played before: Far Cry 5! @schoute got me reeled in with her raving loving descriptions of cheeky shithead John Seed, and I was compelled to write some smut for her. I had a blast watching a playthrough of FC5 with her (LOVE YOU BB ❤), and writing from John Seed’s POV was A MINDFUCK AND A HALF, let’s just say. GOOD TIMES. 😂

Fic I spent the most time on: 

Becoming Whole (Aloy/Kotallo), which has been my main focus since March and is more than 500k words now. I genuinely did not expect or intend for this fic to be this long! I’ll blame the party banter for this. My outline will say “GAIA Gang chat over dinner”, and this single note will translate into 10k words in the chapter 😂💀 In any case, VERY honoured by everyone who has stuck with this extremely long fic!

Fic I spent the least time on:

The Wisdom In A Bowl Of Pudding (Felassan/Tamaris Lavellan). I was inspired by the news about the DA:D milestone and got so excited that this oneshot came together in… one day, I think? One or two. I JUST LOVE FELASSAN OKAY.

Favourite thing I wrote: 

It’s a tie between two fics. I loved writing Finding Something In Common (Aloy/Nil/Drakka) because a) writing Nil again after 5 years of being “away” was like coming home 😭❤ and b) I fucking love Drakka with a burning passion LOL. But I also loved writing my Samurai Champloo fic Just Hold On, We’re Coming Home because it was purely and entirely for me. There are so few fics for that anime and even fewer explicit fics for the OT3, so I knew that basically nobody was going to read it and that anyone who did would be really grateful to see a rare fic for the OT3, but I had to write it because I just had the urge and couldn’t rest until I did. It was a gift to myself to kick off the year. 😂

Favourite thing I read: 

I’ve actually done some actual reading this year!!! Both of fics and published books, because I wanted to start working my way through my bedside tsundoku, with mixed results: I read a couple of books from my tsundoku pile but then bought the entire Sailor Moon manga set and have only read 6 issues so far 😂😭💀 one step forward, 10 STEPS BACK. 

Anyway! Fave fics of the year:

I read a few fics for Samurai Champloo. As I mentioned before, there aren’t many fics for this fandom, but one of the fics I read was both the shortest and the most drop-dead gorgeous fic I’ve ever read: Bodies of Water by moemachina. I genuinely envy this writer for their ability to pack so much emotional punch into so many words. 

Where The Time Goes, a Chloe Fraser/Nadine Ross fic by @contrivedchaos. OH MY GOD WAS IT EVER LOVELY. Cat used a repeated phrase/theme throughout the fic that just had me on the edge of my seat the whole time, and MY GOD was the ending ever wonderful and satisfying. 😭❤

Written In The Stars, a Kotallo/OC fic by @iamcayc WHICH IS SUCH A TREAT. Caycee has created a wonderful OC to pair up with Kotallo and expanded on Tenakth lore in a way that had me squealing!

HZD Terraforming Base-001 Text Communications Network by Discar. It’s a texting fic between the GAIA Gang and it’s SO GOOD. Hilarious, great characterization of the crew, incredible expansion on the worldstate and lore. I stopped reading halfway through because I was afraid that I’d start accidentally stealing their headcanons/lore expansion since it just makes so much sense, but I just recently noticed that the fic finished, so I might get back into it soon!

Writing goals for next year: 

Oh man there are so many things I want to write and so little time and I’M SO MAD ABOUT IT.

Finish Becoming Whole. Now that we know the DLC is coming out in April, I am DETERMINED to finish BW before then so my slate can be clear for new fics ideas 🤩

An Aloy/Avad sequel to Window Bird. The conversation that Aloy and Avad have at the start of HFW makes MY ENTIRE HEART HURT. I will stubbornly maintain that Avad is the most tragic character alive in the Horizon universe, and I’m going to give him some love because he deserves it, the poor sweet man.

More Aloy/Drakka. This entire fic has been my treat to myself, and the next oneshot is in progress -- probably the first thing I'll publish in 2023!

Aloy/Nil. I fucking love Nil to the moon and back, but writing this ship again is going to take some mindfuckery because I’ll be rebooting my take on the ship as though Stormbirds and Stalkers didn’t happen 😅

I’m sure this won’t be all; I always end up getting blindsided by a desire to write something I didn’t expect (e.g. Cyberpunk this year), so we’ll see what else comes up as the year progresses! 

Can't wait to see what everyone else has been up to!!! Please tag anyone you think would like to participate, and tag me back so I can spy on what you've been up to as well! 🥰

-- love from your friendly Pikapeppa xoxo

[lycanthian]

idk if were allowed to do propaganda for the enstarsblr yearbook but either way i desperately need the public to know about my koga plight . its entirely possible i am Not the unluckiest kogaP in existence but it does sure feel like it.

anyways throwback to when i pulled for prison breaker koga like 200 times right after starting enstars for the first time and grinding out every last mission i could for dia bc the game decided to launch a koga scout right after i started playing and didnt get him.

and then when i finally pulled his fs1 after a year of playing right afterwards i accidentally lost my whole account.

and then when band bb koga came out (right after i spent most of my dia on getting 4/5 of the easter shuffle cards) and i used some birthday money to pull for him around 200 times and still did not get him.

and then kogas global exclusive came out right after this and i did not get him because i was low on storage space and literally Could Not get enstars english or any other global server

and then when right before happyele announced the undead/crazyb cover song cards my phone entirely broke so i couldnt pull for them.

and then got so incredibly busy around the time his tanabata festival card came out and couldnt do the event. and then during this same time his shuffle card came out and i Also couldnt do the event.

and then when the second year graduation gacha came out i pulled around 50 times and got multiple 5 stars including the 5 star graduation yuzuru but not the 4 star graduation koga (i still do not have it)

and then when manga circle mao came out (my fav card in the game this far) i pulled for it about 20 times with the savings i had and did not get him.

and then not just back to back but OVERLAPPING with this FS2 koga came out and i also managed to pull about 20 times and did not get him either.

and then when the 2023 gacha reruns came out i saved incessantly for band bb koga again and pulled over 100 times and did not get him (again)

and then made up my mind that i was going to start saving for the UNDEAD climax event and managed to save a lot. and then bye bye buddy dropped and i HAD to do that one because i love double face.

and then the undead/crazy:b cover song cards went back on the gacha for a limited time and i pulled 10 times and got multiple reis and multiple rinnes and one (1) adonis and no koga

and then the 2wink climax got released and i had to do that event (i love 2wink) which killed 1k of my savings

and then kogas tour came out and i had to do that because i couldnt miss another free koga 5 star

and then maos tour came out and i had to do that because mao is my second favorite character

and then the undead climax came out finally and i almost missed the cutoff for finishing the event because im so busy with school (per the november usual, it seems)

and all in this time

- missing two koga 3 stars (gacha)

- missing 5 koga 4 stars (two gacha, three anniversary)

- missing FOUR koga 5 stars (his event 5 star and THREE gachas)

- have obtained all of his event cards other than his 5 star due to sheer willpower (event memorial tokens) because his gachas all hate me

and thats my kogaP story. i hope you guys enjoy my misfortune :3

[kit-teung]

bad buddy fandom getting-to-know-you meme ):)

template by @fiercynn, tagged by @hereforlou! this is exciting, thank you so much for tagging me <3

name and whatever you want to share about yourself

i'm (na)tasha, a freelance artist from eastern europe, i really love mountains, lemons, teal colour and when it's hot as hell outside. you might know me from c-drama/novel fandoms - that's what i mostly draw on my main blog (which i'm being weirdly secretive about, but if you want to know the url you can message me about it off anon)

when did you watch bad buddy/join the fandom?

episode 5 was trending on here and a mutual who abandoned tumblr almost completely suddenly came back to reblog like 15 rooftop kiss gifsets in a row, scream in tags and then disappear again which made me go huh. what's all this then. lemme check out the first episode. and then by the time episode 6 aired a few days later i'd been already all caught up (can't remember exactly but since i have a tendency towards binge-watching i have a suspicion i watched all five episodes nearly in one sitting). for some personal reasons i'd rather not get into i never got a chance to create anything back then when it was airing and after, and so here i am finally joining the fandom more than a year later!

favorite ship(s)

(apart from the obvious) 📢📢📢TONGYOD📢📢📢 !!! also i was never big on crossover ships but then our skyy 2 happened and altered my brain chemistry

favorite character(s)

sometimes it's pran, sometimes it's pat. i don't control the part of my brain that decides which one of them to hyperfixate on out of the blue

favorite episode(s)

(again, apart from the obvious) i really love episodes 2-4 where they get to reunite and just hang out with each other. i love you bus stop shenanigans. also episode 11 because i'm a sucker for beach episodes, especially when they are mellow and bittersweet

favorite scene(s)

episode 8 balcony scene my beloved. inkpa darkroom confession scene and the way love's voice was trembling as she was on the verge of crying. also that bit in episode 11 where pat wakes up alone, goes out and sees pran playing the guitar outside and pran turns to greet him and SMILES SO SO BIG ugh my heart is doing somersaults as i'm typing this

one thing you would change about the show if you could

put pat in crop tops. cmon

what are your some of your favorite fanworks made by other people? 

any of the artworks by @thatgothsamurai, but especially this one

any of the artworks by @shikanji, but especially this one

any of the artworks by @hereforlou, but especially this one

any of the artworks by @kornswasianguyswag, but especially this one

this fanvid, the best fanvid ever that i've accidentally stumbled upon when searching up "bad buddy same page" (i think i was looking for the mock trailer lol)

this fic by @oldlace

this fic by @aroceu

and a special shoutout to all the wonderful gifmakers and meta writers, you guys are the real mvps <3

(if you create fanworks) what are your favorite fanworks that you’ve made?

well, i haven't drawn much bbs fanart yet, but from the ones i've done so far i especially love this inkpa

also pls look at this korn i drew in the bbs discord server

a song that makes you think of bbs (the ones in the show don’t count lol)

does same page count if it technically wasn't in the show ah no wait pat sang it in episode 12 damn it ok this one i guess

idk anything else you want us to know?

this show's name in my native language is a pun that i can't explain

unfortunately i don't really know anyone in this fandom yet (unless.. @aroceu have you done this thing?), so i'm not tagging anyone, but if you're reading this and you really want to do this, you can say i tagged you!

[katyspersonal]

Re: This post

First off, congrats on three years, girlie!! This is so cool, man. I love seeing Soulsborne games change people’s worlds and give them passion and inspiration for years afterwards <333

(Now hurry up and get to over ten years like me you scrub 😎😎)

Asfghajsdg but in all seriousness, I love that we both started getting active around the BB tumblr fandom around the same time, because even though I was a Soulsborne junkie, I had never found a stable group of lore-friends to enjoy it with, and throughout 2020-2021, I was just drifting aimlessly after watching my old fandom community collapse.

I had been only using tumblr for random shit on another account before this one, but one day I looked up something about the Doll and Gehrman, kinda wondering if the whole “Even the Doll” creep-theory had any other interpretations. I just didn’t like the idea that Miyazaki had written his main “sad old man” of Bloodborne to be a weirdo because it didn’t sound…right? Something felt really off lol. His “sad old men” types usually are dark because of their grave mistakes that led to the deaths of people they cared about/innocent people.

It’s always more tragic than it is gross, and Miyazaki is big on that type of story-telling. He likes his refinement. Sure enough, that gave me the hunch that the Doll wasn’t…ya know.

And voila! I stumble across your brilliant post! I think it was one of the things that made me finally create a Soulsborne blog because I wanted to reblog it. I’m not sure if that’s the exact timeline, but it was definitely part of what drew me over here.

And now here we are, going strong, trying to move on after going through fandom drama hell, and it’s been three years!

Honesty? You are kicking ass <3

Girl you say this, but at the almost same time, Fantomette also started scouting the fandom and figured she wanted to stick with me over that post :pensive: That post makes me extremely nostalgic! It was just... so chill, so nice, so leveled. 0% fatigue. Where did that nice version of me go and who is this angry unlikeable bitch typing this ask response now? xD

But yeah, overall, Soulsborne games are just written in such a way that it genuinely helps to know all of them on at least basic story level to understand each of them individually! The more I learned about reoccuring themes in other games in the series, the better my lore understanding became. You know I would not do shit on Research Hall and Deep Sea without DS3, or better grasp ER characters without entire DS trilogy! If you don't want to play, just learn their themes and story, I promise it helps a lot!

Anyways thank you for the nice words; I had not even noticed how fast the time went by! It feels like I have not done "enough" considering three years span, but maybe I am underestimating myself and focusing too much comparing amount of my drawings compared with faster and more talented artists. After all, fandomry is first about discussions and passion, and I've had nothing BUT that on the way x) So yeah, let's just give up and die watch fandom crash and burn. Because, you know what? THE very "system" that made it crash and burn to begin with will also, eventually, crash and burn, and something good will sprout from the ruins. And we won't miss it! Except, that good era will also crash and burn eventually. And then the thing that destroyed it will. And then what people build from THOSE ruins will. And then another thing... and another thing... and another thing.....

STILL I want you to be there for me through every turn of the downward spiral, you chicken <3 *stabs u affectionately*

[sarah-crewe]

tagged by my pal @thecrackshiplollipop

1. are you named after anyone? yes, sort of. some of my great-something grandmothers had my names, but it was more that my mom liked them a lot and wanted to name me my name since she was a teenager. we later found out that one of my great-something grandmothers was named sarah mariah (which is my name and my sister’s name).

2. when was the last time you cried? i teared up earlier today when i was reading a post about dads being great and loving their kids.

3. do you have kids? no. i’ve had a lot of childcare jobs, including being a nanny for four years, and i’m still super close to those kids and see them all the time. sometimes their mom wishes me a happy mother’s day, so...

4. do you use sarcasm a lot? never. you think someone would really do that? go on the internet and be sarcastic?

5. what’s the first thing you notice about people? i straight up do not know... i feel like i’m taking in a lot of info when i meet someone new, so maybe it’s just whatever stands out the most about them?

6. what’s your eye color? brown

7. scary movies or happy endings? happy endings. i’m a little bitch and i don’t watch scary movies.

8. any special talents? running into large, solid objects that have been consistently been in the same place for months, years, or even decades of my life.

9. where were you born? maine, born and raised bb

10. what are your hobbies? i like to read a lot, dabble in 45 different crafts/arts, watch educational videos on youtube, partake in semi-dangerous sports, and play pretend with my friends

11. have you any pets? no. i live in a real small apartment that is uncomfortably messy and i would feel too guilty to bring an animal into that. i really love cats though, and want a cat that is legitimately bonded to me, which i’ve never really had. we weren’t at my dad’s house enough for his cats to really get comfy with us, and my mom has always been hella allergic.

12. what sport do you play/have played? i played soccer and basketball as a kid. my dad said i was actually good at soccer when i was little, which i always thought was not true (not afraid of the ball, good coordination, good soccer vision, his words) but i quit both of those when i was in upper elementary because i was focused on gymnastics. i started gymnastics when i was five and did it regularly, up to 5 nights a week, until i was 14. i took up figure skating about a decade ago, but i’ve been on an extended break because of pandemic anxiety. i skateboard occasionally, but i am not good at it.

13. how tall are you? 5'3″ on a good day, lol. can’t believe the doctor told me i was gonna be 6′2″.

14. favorite subject in school? english or art/theatre (in high school). i liked school in general, but i struggled a little bit with science and math in high school: science because i had never learned how to study and was finally being challenged for the first time in my life and math because i accidentally pattern reconditioned myself into a higher placement test score than i ought to have had, putting me in a class where i didn’t have the foundational knowledge needed to succeed. both problems were fixed by the time i was a junior, but the damage had been done to my psyche and i thought i was bad at those topics for a while. english though, loml.

15. dream job? lol my current job (children’s librarian) if it was just the actual job and not the societal bandaid that it’s become... though i would love a four day work week. that would make it perfect.

tagging @jennamacaroni @tarynlatx @knockfivetimes @stellesappho @roarsaidthedinosaur @also-angels @littleoases @seemssostrange

[silverselfshippingchaos]

HII OMG i had to follow for the soul calibur and kingdom hearts ships!!! also you seem pretty cool!!! :D if it isn't too much trouble, could you tell me more about your ship with aqua? i love her sm! (kittyandco)

hello!!! thank you thank you! it's great to see you here ajdhqkdjw I love so many of your ships and have been following for a while! i'm a huge marvel fan and hux is a character i like a lot too and there's so many f/os of yours that i recognize! soulcal is so special to me since some of my earliest memories are of me playing it! as a result, I've been with my guy for a while- what a guy, am I right? 😍

i'm always down to talk about my aqua! I also love her sm if i do say so myself- this might end up being a little long but here we gooooo!

okay so. Ash is another Keyblade wielder raised by Master E.raqus! He found her after she was orphaned so she sees him as a fatherly figure. She's just a few months older than Aqua and a little younger than Terra. She dresses in mostly all red (her and Aqua are the red and blue couple!!!!) and has those chest straps the other wayfinder trio folk do as well.

She became a Keyblade master before Aqua did (though not very long before- just a few weeks) and she's very good at what she does! She wears a long red coat. I wanted her to look cool and important which is why her outfit is like that.

I hope you like the childhood best friends to lovers trope because that's exactly what happens! These two have been together since they were children. They were always together. No matter what. Always together, hand in hand, giggling and laughing and training and talking. It isn't until their teenage years where Ash goes "... Oh. Oh."

Ash has it bad. She's so horribly in love with her best friend. Terra knows, Ven knows, Dad knows, they all know- It's so obvious! As a kid, she always wanted to be with Aqua, but as she grew older, those cute little giggles turned into longing glances.

Ash often calls Aqua "Berry", a nickname from when they were kids. Ash was red... Aqua was blue... Like a blueberry! So she's Berry for short. She always called Aqua that when they were little, and it stuck! So you can sometimes see her call Aqua "berry"!

Just imagine a little Ash and Aqua when they were small.

"You're Aqua.. and I'm Ash!"

"You're red, and I'm blue!"

"You're like water... But I'm like fire!"

And little Aqua giggles,

"Hey, we match! We're meant to be, right?"

"Yeah, that's right! Ash and Aqua, we'll be best friends forever and ever!"

Anyways, Ash said that she'd finally confess after years of pining after they're all Masters, but... haha... ha... (looks at birth by sleep). She doesn't take the end of the game very well.

(Oh and more appearance details! Ash has brown skin and eyes and black hair like I do. Her coat is red and her shirt under is black. Her straps are green. Her Keyblade is green too. Her hair is long, but tied in a ponytail with a white ribbon. The ribbon was a gift from Eraqus when she was younger.)

Like with the others, Aqua makes a wayfinder for Ash. Ash's is red, just like her coat. But Ash refuses to take it. She laughs, saying that her and Aqua are so close that they don't need this to be together. And so, for all of BBS, Aqua carries two Wayfinders.

But at the end, right before she falls into darkness, Aqua asks for Ash's hand and gives her a blue Wayfinder.

"Aqua..." "Keep it. I'll always be by your side, okay?"

So for all of Ash's appearances until they reunite in 3, Ash carries a blue Wayfinder from her belt. However, that also means that Aqua carries a red Wayfinder in 0.2

It makes moments like these a little more emotional. She thinks of Ash whenever she looks at that. Ash is what keeps her going throughout the darkness. Her best friend, the woman that she loves.

And then... At the end of BBS... Aqua falls into darkness. And Ash is forced to watch. The last thing Aqua hears is Ash begging and screaming, pleading for the darkness to please just take her instead. Anything, she'd give up anything to save Aqua.

Ash punches at the ground again and again till her knuckles bleed the same red as the Wayfinder Aqua always held onto, casts every single spell she knows. She doesn't care about how much it hurts. She just wanted to save Aqua.

... And she failed. Aqua doesn't come back.

Ash's hands are scarred from all that, and every single one of those scars are a reminder that she failed. She has bandages around her hands.

For ten years, she is alone. Eraqus is gone, her best friend Terra is gone, Ven is gone... And Aqua is gone. Her light is gone. Ash spends ten years by herself, wandering worlds and imagining what it would be like to see Aqua again. She loves her so much..

Ash can be seen wandering worlds in 2. Sora tries to talk to her, seeing that she's a Keyblade wielder. But Ash tells him to leave. She doesn't care about anything that doesn't have to do with Aqua. She doesn't even have it in her to be a boss fight.

But yeah. For ten years, we get mean and sad Ash. After Mickey sees Aqua, he tracks down Ash. Ash agrees to help them because she wants to see Aqua again. So we see her work with Riku and Yen Sid and Mickey and all those losers later. She's a little serious and quiet (which is wild, since she's a goofy and bright jokester with Aqua!)

Her and Riku also develop a sibling type bond. She's the cool big sister to him. Riku picks up on Ash always playing with the blue Wayfinder she carried on her.

And then a bunch of stuff happens and she's the one who has to fight Anti-Aqua. It horrifies her and she's crying for the whole fight.

"Please, Aqua... I-I can't... Don't make me do this..."

"You left me here. You abandoned me. You never came me."

"Aqua, please... I did everything I could!"

And when Aqua finally comes back, Ash is tackling her in a hug. They're both sobbing, clinging to each other with all they have. Aqua has always felt like home to Ash. Ash was home. She was finally home. Aqua cries, saying that she never stopped thinking about Ash.

You know how in 0.2 Aqua looks up at the sky sometimes? Ash looks up at the stars a lot too. Reminds me of the days when her and younger Aqua would stay up and laugh together under the stars.

A little while after they reunite, they kiss. They've always been so close, and sometimes just... snaps. And they both confess that they've been in love with each other for a long, long time. And yeah! For the rest of 3, you can see them kissing and holding hands and being really cute. They're a very adorable couple (if I do say so myself hehe)!

Also, Ash is afraid of taking off her bandages around Aqua at first. Her scars are ugly. Her scars are a reminder of how she wasn't enough. She wants to be the perfect woman for Aqua, and Aqua shouldn't have to see that side of her. But Aqua tells Ash that she loves Ash for who she is, and her hands are beautiful, no matter how many scars are on them. Aqua kisses them often.

Also, Ash sometimes refers to Aqua as "my heart" and Aqua refers to Ash as "my light". In a world of darkness, thoughts of Ash was all Aqua had. Her bright smile, loud laugh, all of it... Ash was her light. And a heart is supposed to be Ash's guiding key, right? Well, Ash's heart always found its way back to Aqua. Aqua is her heart.

There's a lot more to this ship and I've written soooo damn much for them, but that's pretty much what you need to know about them! They're the red/blue Keyblade gfs!!!! They're so in love! Best friends (and even more than that) forever!

Ash is pretty sassy and humorous, and can sometimes be a bit of a flirt (only towards Aqua). It makes Aqua blush. Aqua is just the sweetest person alive- It's adorable how she's the only person who can fluster Ash. They love each other so much. Ten years without each other wasn't easy. Ash isn't used to having anyone around again, and Aqua isn't used to the light. But that's okay. They have each other, right?

Oh! Also! When they reunite, they finally trade Wayfinders again. Red for Ash, blue for Aqua.

This is mostly Ash/Aqua focused, but she's cool big sis to Ven, and sassy daughter (who loves him lots) to Eraqus. She didn't like Terra as a kid, but as they grew up together, they've gotten extremely close and care for each other deeply. However, Ash likes to pick on him a lot. She calls him an idiot a lot, but she cares about him, I promise! He was also one of the first to go "hey, Ash, youre down bad for your bestie aren't you-"

Thank you for this ask!!!

[hughungrybear]

Me watching Dangerous Romance Ep 12 (FINALE):

We're tying loose ends! I'm really excited to see my GuyNava ship sailing even if it is just one episode 😭😭😭😭 Also, Name and Saifah would probably switch places as Saifah's name will be cleared and Name will have to go to jail for (the much-deserved) shooting of Big Boss.

1. No connection to the plot whatsoever but I just realised, we never did get a ViewJune moment 😭😭😭 I thought this series would at least give us a glimpse of what is to come considering they are being paired in upcoming (much-awaited!) GMMTV GL series, 23.5. 😔😔😔

2. Kang, that gag was already sold by Pat (and bought by Pran) when the BBS production crew decided to have Pat shot and hospitalised ON CHRISTMAS EVE. Yes, I still have not forgotten nor forgiven 😂.

3. Oooh. Guy is walking without crutches! My dude, looks like your 'shooting star' is highly effective in making wishes come true. 🤭🤭🤭

4. Name, you stupid dumbass. Saifah should have just betrayed you from the get-go. I am still not above skinning you alive. 🤬

5. Ngl, I teared up with that conversation between Kang and his Dad. Also, that embrace between brothers, Sailom and Saifah 🥹🥹🥹 And then all was lost when I saw that big-assed tarpaulin welcoming Sailom back that Kang posted on the school grounds 😂😂😂😂

6. Saifah and Name. I wonder if they will ever be able to get their dream of travelling together (preferably to the US) and live the "fast and furious" life. 😔 Also 'best buds'??? BEST BUDS??? ARE WE QUEER-BAITING NOW, PAPANG?

7. Oh, look at Guy. He is playing again 😊 Nava must be proud. Also, considering they used to goad Guy into fighting them, the way Max was ready to throw hands at the player who tripped Guy in the field is just 🤌. The gangs have fully merged.

8. Dad, what are you doing outside? Why are you not sitting with the audience? 😅

9. The fvck is that? I don't remember reviewing that much material to get into uni 😂😂😂 The bulk of those review materials looked like they are studying for licensure exams or something (in my home country, majority of STEM graduates need to take an appropriate licensure exam. Otherwise, you will never be qualified to do the work that you have spent 4 to 5 years studying for. Even with internships - no licence, not qualified).

10. Max and Auto, you know there is such a thing as FaceTime, right? 😂😂😂

11. Pimfah, my spirit animal and fellow GuyNava shipper 😂😂😂

12. Really? All we get are just bits and pieces of ViewJune? We have no choice but to take it, right? I'll just imagine the lesbians will be thriving in the UK 😭😭😭😭

13. I want a MarcPawin series with a lovely, no-mess storyline (looking at you, My Gear and Your Gown. It didn't help that GMMTV also did them dirty with the time slot and the promotion of MGYG). I NEED GMMTV TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT 😭😭😭😭

14. Oh, look at that. Sailom is officially part of the family 😊

15. Okay, but why is Kang making the speech? I thought speeches are reserved for those who graduated with highest honours. 🤔🤔🤔 <after 5 seconds> Ah, of course. Sponsor's son. At least, he's more than aware and accepting now 😅

16. Really? You need to do a PSA of your dating life, Kang? WTH. 😂😂😂😂 and yes, we need the sudden (and completely unnecessary) rain to showcase the windmill umbrella. Gotta promote the merch, eh? 😅

17. Ooof. From Teacher Nubdao to P'Nubdao. We're getting close, Pimfah 😅😅😅

18. Max, you are rich enough to buy a selfie or vlogger stick. So why the ever loving fvck are you using your hand/arm to hold that phone? More importantly, why are you not equipped with the right camera for vlogging? 😅😅😅😅

19. What kind of p*rn play is this end credit scene??? 😂😂😂

Overall, I think this is an okay series. Of course, I might have been a bit misled by the trailer thinking that Sailom's family's debt forced him to sell himself (to prostitution) and Kang is gangster/mafia who comes to save him 😅, which could have perfectly explain the series title. Instead, we got minimal hints of danger all throughout the series. 😅😅 Still, I must thank this series for bringing MarcPawin back 😭😭😭 Now, to get GMMTV to have them cast as main for another BL series...😅😅😅

[butwhatifidothis]

Have you ever considered, once you finish sporking that fic, washing the taste out of your mouth by taking a look at fics in the fandom you like/think deserve more attention?

Even one of my favourite sites, Cake Wrecks, does a feature on Sundays were it's cakes they think are really nicely-decorated so it's not all downers.

😭 i think i need to clear up something lmao

I already read fics that I enjoy - reread old ones, look out for new ones, write a good few myself (here's two of them lol). I read my trashy little otome isekai villainess manhuas that I love to death. I play the shit out of Hades. I play DnD with irl buds every Wednesday. I'm watching - and rewatching - episodes of the new Bleach anime, and am eagerly awaiting for June to come around to give more. I play Smash Ultimate with my big sis and lil bro. I replay VW every now and then. I play BBS and hope to finally pull the last couple Valentine's/Academy Momo's I need to have fully completed all the Momo's in the game (so far).

I already do plenty of things that I thoroughly enjoy doing - I talk about the fic a lot here, but y'all don't have to worry; I do, in fact, do things I enjoy doing lmao.

But! I do want to give some attention to fics I really enjoy! I've already talked about most of them before, but it never hurts to do it again lol. Most of them are dmcl so if that's not up your alley, well, rip, but if it is then yeah!

Princes of Silver and Gold is sooo good - and very meaty! It deals with Dimitri and Claude getting bopped back to the prologue after the events of Saving Derdriu, after a mysterious spell seems to ambush them during a moment of peace. It's has a lot per chapter to take in - 4 chapters, +129,000 words, a very dense read - but imo it never feels like too much. I've reread this a good few times actually! There's a lot of 3H's lore that's played around with and given more oomph to it that really makes the fic feel alive, which is always nice.

Be Not Proud: an absolute downer for sure, can't ever get through it without snivellin' and snottin', but it's a really touching look into Nader and Claude's relationship. It revolves around Claude's last moments on a CF run where he isn't spared - very sad oneshot, but very memorable imo.

Everyone Leaves Eventually: an interesting oneshot about the Black Eagles leaving Edelgard's side one by one as she gets more and more aggressive with her war, from Hubert's POV. Granted, Hubert is more than a smidge OOC for it to work - he's given a good bit more morality than he's shown to ever have canonically - but as a concept it's interesting, and it's a neat read all around. If you're willing to accept that this Hubert is less like canon!Hubert than he ought to be, I'd definitely recommend it!

Survivor's Burden: another one that's kind of a downer, but with a much happier ending than Be Not Proud. Revolving around the idea of Claude and Dimitri surviving SS Gronder, with Claude doing his best to keep him and Dimitri alive in the woods. It's a bit long for a oneshot - a bit over 30,000 words for one sitting - but! It's definitely worth it imo. Plus! It was part of the dmcl Big Bang that happened a couple years ago, so this one also has great art to go along with it at certain points!

to this vow, i hold fast: yet again this is being recommended by me lmao because it is beyond amazing. It's a slow-burn dmcl political-marriage AU of post-war Fodlan, and it's just a joy to read through. The one thing I'll say about this one, as much as I love it to bits, is that, hm... you can tell the author also ships Dimi///leth. Understandable what I mean by that once you read it, and it can be quite a bit annoying to see it imo, but also imo it doesn't take enough away from the quality for me to ever do anything but recommend it lol. This multi-chapter fic is actually almost complete, from what I understand! So there's that too.

seeking humanity: a dmcl AU where Claude is a traveler and Dimitri is (seemingly, anyway) the god of death, and they make a pact: Claude either gets Dimitri to like humans in half a year's time, or he gives up his soul to Dimitri. I am a huge fan of how the characters are, well, characterized in this fic; everyone is just a joy to read through! Even characters I don't care that much for (especially with how they tend to be written in fics), like Leonie and Lorenz, are just great. And the mysteries this fic has in it are also really fun to think about, with all the crumbs the story lays down to try and follow.

please give them a shot!! If they're up your alley anyway lol

[succ-princess]

Name: Jung-Hwa (정화) Surname-May-Vary •Goes By: Jun (順)

Nationality: Half S. Korean, Half Swedish

Gender: Full Package Futanari •Position - Submissive

Occupation: Final Year Highschool (Cosplayer, Streamer, etc)

Eye Color: Silver Hair Color: Silk Raven Black Hair Style: Long, even cut bangs (these vary wildly when cosplaying)

Measurements: Height - 155cm (5'1") Bust - 153cm (60) •O Cup Waist - 58cm (23) Hips - 90cm (35) Cock length: 12" (grows with each edged load) Ball Size: Orange+ (grows with edged loads) Cum amount: 2+ cups minimal

Personality: Jun is generally a helpful, kind, and honestly very naive person. As her story progresses she'll also assuredly be corrupted much more into a truly lewd plaything, until then however. . Just hiding how nerdy she can be.

Background: Jun is an above average sized Streamer (especially because when she games the only thing she plays is fighting games), much more popular Cosplayer, and all around well liked content creator. She happily goes by e-girl despite not having very many e-girl qualities, her cosplays can be revealing but she also loves every character she cosplays, has watched the anime, played the game, and enjoys getting to dress up like them. She's a member of the FGC (fighting game community) and has been playing them since she was 6, taught by her late father. Her Morrigan Aensland cosplay was done out of love for the name Aensland, and her adoration of the Vampire series (she main'd Lilith though, shh). Waaiit. . Jun hadn't done these things. Her online handle NEPHiLiM had. In fact, her 'normal' life and creator life were completely separated from one another, and for many reasons, mostly ones that she still kept behind yet another layer of secrecy.

Jun's favorite things:

Jun's favorite bands/music?

A few of Jun's favorite Anime/Manga?

Chainsaw Man (literal favorite piece of fiction) Steins;Gate (was my favorite anime for a long long time, Okaba is one of the best MCs) D.Grey-Man Hunter x Hunter A few of the many FGs you can play with her: BlazBlue Central Fiction (i don't think i'll ever enjoy any other game as much as i do BBCF, BB is 'Gimmick Character ; The Game!' so every character feels like they're from a different game almost, it's incredibly fun, but learning every matchup is a pain in the butt) Tekken 7 (have a long story here but damn. . . played Tekken the first time in 2023, and it's easily the game i play the most) Guilty Gear -strive- (sorry everyone i am dissapointed to report i had to secondary Jack-O', after spending so much time away from the game because of the bad man (in case your confused: Happy Chaos), i decided to finally learn Ram, and I've been crushing it.) Street Fighter 6 (i actually wasn't playing this very much despite it being the new big thing, and i mean it's been breaking records for number of people playing at tournaments, but. . A.K.I. just released, and guess what. . my character crises is over. will still probably switch to Ibuki when she's release, or just dual main, but yeah. . found a main <3)

May add to any of this at some point if needed.

[coralinehecc]

Corals Monthly Update #3

HOHOHO!! FIRST BLOG POST OF 2023 AND I’M NEARLY 2 WEEKS LATE!!! Super sorry about the long wait! I’ve had tests recently and only got off of school like a few days ago haha! So! Welcome back to my monthly update on what I get up to in my life! Now, before we get into January, I, for the final time, have to tap back into the previous month. Curse past me for thinking the 21st was a good day to start doing these!!! ANYHOW! The rest of December and early January were a BLAST! But lemmie talk about what happened after I made the last update. CHRISTMAS!! I had a great time with my family and I got a bunch of fluffy things cuz that’s apparently the easiest thing to get me now. We also had dinner on Christmas day with my Grandparents like every year. Over-all that day was very fun! I even got drunk playing Minecraft which was funny for everyone in VC. The next few days weren’t anything exciting, however my brother Finn had a bunch of his friends over for his birthday which was chaotic. But the excitement picks back up on the 28th! BECAUSE SKYE AND VI CAME OVER FOR NEW YEARS!! We’ve been planning this since like, June, so it was awesome seeing them again! We did all kinds of stuff from shopping to playing some awesome games! (I am now chronically addicted to Ultra Kill thanks guys)

We even did some baking! Here is our glorious creation I dubbed, “The Jimothy”. 

Overall the rest of December was awesome! I’m glad I got to celebrate New Years with my besties! Overall, I’ll give it a 10/10! Best way to end 2022 >:D Here’s a few more misc photos hehehhehe

NOW! FOR JANUARY!! January started off still vibing with the guys. However they would then go home on the 4th which sucks. But before that, both Skye and I spent a lot of money on consoles that are almost as old as ourselves. They bought a fucking PS Vita and I got a motherfucking Wii. We both had fun with em and I even helped Skye homebrew their Vita since I wanted to put PebbleCD on it (I failed but shut uuup) But yea, sadly the guys had to go and it sucked! But I still had a great time. There’s a bit of a gap here right up until the 12th, where finally, the big event happened. CAREY IN THE HOUSE WENT LIVE!! I had finished it a few days prior but figured I’d build up hype by posting it on that Friday. AND IT SURE WORKED! The video blew up faster than any of my videos before it! I am so happy the response has been overwhelmingly positive. I also love how the only main complaint that was common amongst people was that Careys exaggerated accent was annoying which, yea can’t argue against. For anyone wishing for more CITH content, I did a behind the scenes mega thread over on my twitter if you wanna have a deeper look into the production! I’ll even link it here:  https://twitter.com/Carey_Black_/status/1619731723352444928 Now, to move onto why it took me forever to make an update. My mock exams.. BUT BEFORE THAT!! THERE’S ALSO THE FACT THAT MR WULF AND I WERE ABLE TO ARCHIVE THE ORIGINAL EDDSWORLD BANG BOOM SPLAT PROJECT FILE!!

This all started because Wulf wanted to edit the credits for his arcade BBS build since I was helping him out and since I said SWF modding is hard he just casually asked Psycosis and after seeing his WIP cabinet, gave Wulf the FLA! So a current “BBS arcade version” is in the works by yours truly thanks to both the generosity of Psycosis and the fact that Mr Wulf is a fucking mad man who could stop global warming in a month if he wanted to LOL! Here’s Wulfs finished Cabinet btw!:  https://twitter.com/MrWulfOfficial/status/1622295302685315073 But yea, for real. My mock exams were a pain! For those outside of Ireland or have a different name for em, Mock exams are, well, exams that act like a practice run for your finals. They’re always harder than the actual finals and are usually graded stricter too! Why? Who knows! The Irish education system is a joke. I feel like I did somewhat ok in them anyway? Some were definitely worse than others but overall it was more of an inconvenience. I did get this really cool art piece out of it however.

Exams would later spill over into February and like I said at the start, I finished and got off school a few days ago. Overall, this month was about a 7/10. It was pretty good, especially in the Eddsworld department, but mocks and other personal tid bits I didn’t mention here dragged it down for me. Since February seems to be mostly me being off school, I hope this month will be better haha! Only time will tell! Thank you for reading! And I hope to see you next month!! (Hopefully on time too haha!) 

[genshinconfessions]

I ended up getting 5 new characters on the event banners!! Which is extra special considering I'm only 2 weeks away from reaching AR58! After not getting them a year ago because I had just started playing I finally got Klee and Kazuha, with a Qiqi in between, and Thoma who has been avoiding me since he was released, and Heizou also showed up!! All without having to spend extra btw I've just been saving primos like mad since Zhongli's banner. I'm so happy with all of them!! I haven't had a new characters to spoil in so long and now it almost feels like back in the beginning when I didn't have many babies yet and almost every banner gave me a new one. I was running out of stuff to do, have 100% exploration and only one world quest left, so I'm now just having a BLAST (literally because Klee) building the newbies, trying out teams, going through their voicelines and stories, even planned some co-op times so Klee can hang out with her big brother... and I already promised Klee bb I'll take her back to the GAA when it comes back! Ugghhh I am so so happy rn I hope this high lasts me well into Sumeru

omggg :o congratulations that's so cool!! i want new characters but i have such bad luck on banner :<< heh i am glad u r having fun and found a renewed passion! hopefully once sumeru comes out ull have even more newbies ;;777

keith

[inkykeiji]

Hiya Clari I hope you are doing amazing 🥰

sorry for getting birthday months mixed up that is totally on me, embarrassed after I said I wouldn’t forget and I did so love that - I will not forget for future birthday well wishes

a Star Wars crochet kit sounds awesome like wtf i am totally going to keep my eye out on something like that - on the same note I did not realise you were a star wars fan !! I’ve been watching the obi-wan show on Disney plus and I would love to know your thoughts on it because personally I’ve been really enjoying it, I’m pretty sure it’s finished now but I haven’t seen the finale yet so I hope it’s good

I’ve recently bought some more classics because as a kid I didn’t not read enough classic books and now I am slacking, I bought pride and prejudice as well as Emma just to get some Austen on my shelf - currently I’m reading a book by Patrick Ness who is one of my absolute favourite authors, I read a lot of his books when I was younger and I feel like no matter what age I get to I will always love his writing <3

Been a bit crazy currently in my life since I’m moving into a new house for my next year at uni and I will not get over how stressful it is moving half my life across the country every few months but the house is nice so it’s worth it

Anyways how have you been? What have you been up to? Reading or watching anything good? I feel like I haven’t spoken to you in ages so I do apologise I didn’t realise how quickly the time was going - oH I also read your angsty touya-nii piece and omg that shit was so good I do love a bit of angst

Sorry I went off track - I do hope you’re doing well and taking care of yourself and enjoying some nice summer weather, I am not sure what the weather is like in Canada but currently in the Uk it’s pretty good <3

Sorry this has gotten pretty long so I’ll wrap it up now, sending all my love and hugs to you <333 -🍯

hi honey bb!! <33

AHAHA oh my gosh don’t even worry about it!! it’s totally fine <3

oh gosh it’s so adorable but i’m terrified to try and start it LMAO i’m so worried i’m going to be horrid at it!! and i know the only way to get better and improve obv is to practice and actually do it but aaaaaaaah (/▽＼) i am!!! star wars is actually like, the most important series/piece of media to me when it comes to comfort n stuff like that!! my sibling and i were super super into the prequels (and anakin/vader as a result) and we had so many star wars toys & video games that we played with constantly. so it’s just really important to me in a deeply personal way. star wars was there to comfort and distract us when things were going really bad at home, and that will always mean the world to me <3

omg!!!!! i just watched the finale last night and i LOVED IT!!! the series itself was more or less exactly what i expected it to be (which isn’t a bad thing!) and i really enjoyed it, especially since hayden + ewan and the prequel films were my introduction to the star wars world so like, again, they have a lot of sentimental meaning to me <3 so it was so lovely to see them return to the sw universe!!! vader is one of my all-time favourite villains/characters and has been the longest hyperfixation i’ve ever had in my entire life so just getting to see him again and knowing that hayden was (sometimes) behind the mask was such a treat!!! it was so, so, so deeply comforting i cannot even begin to put it into words <3 i love him a lot!!!

honestly, for the most part i hate what disney has done with star wars. i’ve said this before but after tros i left the theatre literally crying i was so upset. the mandalorian is incredible, but tbh ALL of that credit goes to the absolute genius of jon favreau. so aside from like, the mandalorian, the obi wan series, and rogue one, i try to stay away from the disney sw content just because i know it upsets me & i don’t want to subject myself to something that makes me sad! the best thing about fiction is that we can all have our own ‘personal’ canons, right? we get to decide what we include and exclude in those. so in clari land the sequel films simply Do Not Exist ahaha

omg so exciting!!!! i love austen’s work!!! ooh interesting! i’ve never read any of his work! but i hope you enjoy austen, you must tell me what you think after you finish reading some of her work!! <33

oh gosh that does sound extremely stressful >.< i’m sorry honeybun!! i moved a lot throughout my time at uni too but it was only across the city so i can’t even imagine the stress of across the country!! it’s good to hear that you like the house tho!! liking your living space is so important imo!!

i’ve been okay!! i’m currently reading something wicked this way comes, and still chipping away at wuthering heights, too!! hopefully tonight or tomorrow i’ll finally get around to watching the french dispatch, which i’m excited for!!! wes anderson is one of my all-time favourite directors and tbh it’s a disgrace that i still haven’t seen his most recent film aaah ._. please don’t apologize my friend, there’s no need for it!! life is busy!! i always appreciate a message from you, no matter how long it takes <3

oh thank you so much!!!! i’m so glad to hear you liked it!! <333 i had a ton of fun writing it, and i’m currently working on another small smutty touya-nii oneshot before dragging myself back to finish tag you’re it part two (my therapist is currently helping me overcome my perfectionism, slowly, which is what seems to be holding me back and giving me a ridiculous amount of anxiety surrounding tag you’re it. and it SUCKS because i absolutely love that story with all my heart, it is so special and personal to me and i so desperately want to share the rest of it with everyone :( but anyway i am working on it, slowly!). oooh we just had a heatwave over here, it’s finally passing!! i really want to go to our big amusement park (called canada’s wonderland!) soon!! <3

ah i love you so so much my sweet friend <3 please take care of yourself and remember to treat yourself with all of the love and kindness you treat me with, because you deserve it!! <333

[pilothusband]

Congratulations 🥳🥳🥳 for your celebration may I request a snow day with Will Miller. Maybe something like a snowball fight that turns smutty?

Thank you, bb!!!! Ok I loved this request so much that it turned into 4k words instead of 500. Whoops.

Pairing: Will Miller x Female reader

Rating: Explicit!!!!!! (18+ ONLY)

Word count: ~4k

Warnings: Rough sex, slight humiliation/degradation kink (he doesn't insult the reader, tho), throat fucking, pussy slapping, slight breath play kink, Will is a certified Dom™️

Author's note: Big thanks to @wyn-n-tonic and @green-socks who coached me through writing Will. Also shoutout to O for helping me figure out how to write rough sex (I'm a soft bitch, okay).

When the power in your apartment went out and the power company said they couldn’t even schedule a fix until the snow stopped, it was a no-brainer to call up Benny and ask him if you could hang out at his place for a few hours to warm up. There were two things you hadn’t considered: 1) the snow wasn’t going to stop any time soon, and 2) Benny was out of town for a week, traveling for a fight a few states away.

There’s no way he’s going to let you wait the cold out in your dark apartment. Even when he’s miles away, Benny has your back.

“Come on, Will is home and I’m sure he wouldn’t mind the company. I’ll call him up now to make sure he’s around.”

“Benny, no. That’s not ne–”

The line goes dead before you have a chance to protest any further. Lo and behold, about 10 minutes later, after you’ve started to wear a hole into your kitchen floor from pacing back and forth, your phone chimes with a text message from Benny.

Will said he’s more than happy to come get you. His truck is better in the snow than your shitbox. Pack some clothes in case the snow gets worse. Be ready in 15 minutes, he’s already on his way. Love you! Stay warm. :)

You groan, cursing the younger Miller brother. Sometimes having a stubborn best friend who knows you better than anyone is incredibly inconvenient.

It’s not that you don’t want to spend time with Will— the problem is you very much want to spend time with Will. You suspect Benny knows, but he’s never brought it up, thankfully.

Kicking into gear since Will is already on his way, you tear through your apartment to pack an overnight bag with the essentials, and then take a moment to study your appearance in your bedroom mirror. You look just as frazzled as you feel, but don’t have time to rectify it, as your phone buzzes in your pocket.

Will: Hey, I’m here whenever you’re ready.

Checking your cold icebox of an apartment one last time, you lock the door behind you and trudge your way through the snow to Will’s truck, a red beacon in a blindingly white landscape.

Will exits the vehicle when he sees you approach and walks around the front to grab your bag, depositing it into the back seat.

“Thank you,” you reply timidly. No matter how many years you’ve known the Millers, Will always has your stomach doing somersaults.

“No problem,” he replies easily. “Let’s get you warmed up. I have the heat blasting.”

Hauling yourself into the cab of his truck feels like paradise. Hot air hits you square in the face, warming up your nose. You close your eyes and sigh contentedly.

“That bad, huh?” Will chuckles, pulling out of the parking lot.

“You have no idea. My power’s been out since 4 am,” you reply, glancing over at him. He looks so put together, despite the raging storm outside.

Will frowns, concern reflecting in his bright blue eyes. He looks your way for a moment, then returns his attention to the road.

“You know you could have called me, right? I’d hate for you to sit around shivering all day.”

You feel your face flush with embarrassment.

“I didn’t want to impose,” you explain. “I finally reached out to Benny when my fingers started to hurt. Forgot he was out of town.”

“You could never impose.”

Will’s eyes meet yours for a moment and your traitorous stomach does another flip.

You give him a shy smile in return, quickly moving your gaze back to the road.

“Where the hell is your winter coat?” Will’s voice is incredulous. You can’t help but laugh at his tone.

“In storage,” you answer. “I haven’t had a chance to grab it yet.”

“We’re going to go get it as soon as the snow stops.”

You acquiesce, grateful he cares enough to offer.

The rest of the drive is quiet, Will never being much of a talker. You appreciate that about him, though. When he chooses to speak, it’s because he has something important to say.

Once you’re at the Miller residence, Will brings your bag in, leaving no room for you to insist you can carry it, and drops it off in Benny’s room.

“I made his bed for you. It doesn’t seem like the snow is going to let up any time soon, so I assume you’ll need to crash here.”

You gulp and nod distractedly, looking around the room.

“I’m going to clear the sidewalk and salt the front pathway. Make yourself at home.”

Will turns to leave but you stop him with a hand on the back of his bicep. He pauses and turns around, looking at you curiously.

“Wait! Let me help. It’s the least I can do.”

Will smiles, his eyes sparkling with something you can’t quite place.

“Alright,” he agrees. “But I only have one snowblower, so you’re on salt duty. Besides, you can’t do much without a coat.”

Luckily, the salt bag is a little more than halfway empty, so you don’t struggle to hold it as you spread the salt up and down the path. Perhaps you should have changed into thicker pants, your black leggings offering no protection from the bitter cold. But you power through, knowing you won’t be outside for long.

Will is working away at the sidewalk in front of the house, powder spraying out the front of the machine, disturbing the pristine layers of snow in the yard. You’re so focused on evenly coating the end of the pathway, you don’t notice how close he is, despite the loud rumble of the snowblower.

It’s when you’re bent over at the end of the path, dropping the bag of salt onto the ground. Something cold hits you like a freight train, landing directly on your ass and all over your back.

You whirl around in surprise to see Will a few feet away, smirking at you and looking quite satisfied with himself.

There’s a moment where you freeze, your mind racing. Is he flirting? You know Will can pull a prank or two on Benny (usually in retaliation) but he’s never pulled one on you.

Once your brain catches up, you bite your chapped lower lip and reach into the snowbank with your bare hand, balling the ice cold crystals in your fist.

Will powers down the snowblower and copies your movements, eyeing you carefully with a snowball in hand.

“Are you sure about that, sweetheart?” Will drawls. His face is stone, but his tone betrays his amusement.

Oh, shit.

You throw the first snowball and it thumps him on the chest, albeit weakly. Will lobs a huge one at you and it hits you in the right shoulder, pulling a soft "oof” from your mouth.

All bets are off at this point. You’re dodging snowballs left and right, trying with all your might to hit your target amongst all the chaos.

You finally land another hit, but to your horror it nails Will square in the face, flakes of snow exploding around his blond head.

He just looks at you for a moment in shock. You gape at him.

“Oh my God, I’m so sor—“ you start, but are interrupted by Will charging at you like a bull. You try to run, crashing into the wall of snow that separates the yard from the sidewalk. A few moments are spent trudging through the thick layers of it, but you slow from a run into more of a pathetic flop.

Will catches up to you in no time, tackling you to the ground. You manage to flip over just in time to avoid eating a mouthful of snow, but this allows him to straddle your legs and grab an armful of snow, dumping it on your face.

His weight sits heavy on your legs as you splutter and wave your arms around to try to wiggle away, but it’s no use. The man is simply too strong. You decide to stop struggling, admitting defeat.

“Okay Miller, you win,” you gasp, the ice cold chilling you to the bone.

He simply laughs, then rolls off you, offering his hand to help you up. You accept it gratefully, lungs expanding rapidly as you try to catch your breath.

Will is a little out of breath too. His cheeks stained red from the cold, as well at the tip of his nose. He has snowflakes stuck to his hair and eyelashes and it’s the most endearing thing you’ve ever seen.

You’re a little worse for wear, with your leggings soaked all the way through and snow inside of your jacket and boots.

“Come on, let’s get you inside,” he chuckles, his hand on your lower back to lead you inside. You shiver a little, unsure if it’s from the cold or the subtle contact.

Will gets to the front door first and holds the door open for you, ever the gentleman.

“Thanks,” you say with a huff of laughter. “I should have known better than to challenge a Miller to a snowball fight.”

“To be fair, I did start it,” he murmurs, looking down at you, a smile gracing his handsome features.

Your sweatshirt is absolutely soaked; globs of snow cling to your arms and stomach. You look down at yourself.

“And you ended it.”

Mirth dances in Will’s eyes as you brave a glance up at him. You can’t recall ever being this close to him outside of the occasional hug.

He hums in agreement and reaches out, shaking snow out of your hair. Your heart is racing, having him so close. He smells so good, like cedar and clove.

You huff out a small laugh and ruffle your hair, biting your bottom lip self-consciously. Will’s gaze follows the movement. The shine of lighthearted humor in his eyes melts into something a little more intense. A little more hungry.

You try to think of something to say, anything to break the tension, but come up short. Instead, your hands act on their own accord and slide up his chest, feeling his erratic heart beat.

Then suddenly the tension snaps and Will is on you, molding his lips to yours in a soft kiss. You make a soft noise in surprise, but kiss him back, the tips of your fingers brushing his face delicately.

Will pulls back suddenly with an alarmed look on his face. Ice cold dread pumps through your veins, afraid you’ve gone too far.

“Shit, your fingers. Why didn’t you bring gloves?”

He grabs your wrist to demonstrate, fingers bright red and shaking, and wraps his large hands around yours to warm them up.

“Jesus Christ, you’re freezing. We’ve got to get you out of these clothes.”

You hold back the double entendre that pops into your brain and reach down to the hemline of your sweatshirt to peel it off your shaking form. Unfortunately, your fingers are too frozen to get very far, and you struggle to peel it up your torso.

Will jumps in and lifts the sweatshirt up and off. Your t-shirt underneath is just as damp and cold, so he removes that as well.

“Sweetheart, you’re not dressed for this weather. Leggings?”

Slightly embarrassed by your lack of preparation skills, you kick your shoes off as he stoops down to remove your leggings. Heart thumping through your chest as you look down at him, you notice his face is flushed all the way to the tips of his ears. There’s something intoxicating about having him so close, letting him take care of you like this.

Your fingers act on their own accord as they thread through his hair. He’s so warm, so solid. Will stands back up and you drop your hands back down.

He grabs your hands again, rubbing them in his palms for warmth.

“You know, you look pretty cold yourself, Miller.”

He doesn’t. In fact, he has a winter coat and proper footwear on, so if he is cold, it can’t compare to the bone-deep chill you’re experiencing.

“You’re right.”

Will starts unlacing his boots, then removes them, his thick coat following. His eyes burn holes into you as he unzips his sweatshirt, then his jeans, kicking them off quickly. The only time he breaks eye contact is to shuck his t-shirt off. He throws it unceremoniously to the ground, then lunges forward, lips crushing into yours in a searing kiss.

You press yourself into him, feeling his erection push insistently against your stomach.

“How about a shower?” he murmurs against your lips, hands smoothing down your back to squeeze a handful of your ass.

“I thought you’d never ask,” you answer against his lips, smiling wide when he lands a smack on your cold ass cheek.

Ever the careful military man, Will insists you start off the shower lukewarm so you don’t go into shock.

“Can you help me with my bra?” You ask, looking up at him with the best doe eyes you can manage. You both know your hands are warmed up enough at this point, but he bites back a grin and complies, reaching around to the clasp of your bra to unhook it. Your breasts spill out and Will looks down, licking his bottom lip.

“We’ll need to get these too,” he adds, sliding your panties down your legs.

“Don’t forget about those,” you tell him, gesturing at his boxers.

He snaps the waistband comically before taking them off, his cock springing free. Your eyes widen at the sight of him, thick and long, pointing up towards his stomach proudly.

He checks the water one last time and steps into the stream. You can’t help but check out his ass for a moment, imagining yourself pressing your nails into the soft flesh while he drives into your aching cunt.

As you follow him in and close the shower door, Will takes advantage while you’re facing the other direction and kisses your neck, his arm snakes around your front to cup the apex of your thighs. His fingers card through your curls and press down, rubbing against your clit lightly.

You let out a contented sigh and roll your head back against his chest while he works at you slowly, his other hand reaching up to pinch your nipple.

“Thought about this exact scenario,” he tells you, voice low and husky in your ear. “Rubbing your clit in the shower. Playing with these perfect fucking tits.”

Will likes to talk dirty. You store this knowledge away in your brain.

“Thought about this too,” you tell him. “Though, in my fantasy I’m on my knees for you.”

“Fuck.”

Will responds with a quick slap, hitting you directly on your clit. The sharp sting takes you by surprise and you whimper and buck your hips, seeking more contact on your throbbing clit. He gives it another slap and you shout, pulling a pleased groan from the man behind you

Turning around to kiss him, you plunge your tongue into his mouth. He meets you with every stroke, kissing you back at a furious pace.

Eager to please him, your kisses move down to his neck, playfully licking and biting at the tender skin, earning a deep rumble that comes from his chest, then you drop down to your knees, hands resting on his thighs.

Will squeezes his eyes shut for a moment, mouth open in a groan.

Starting with kitten licks on the underside of his cock, you glide your tongue around him lightly before wrapping your lips around his tip. He grabs onto your hair, as an anchor for himself and a guiding force for you.

There's a need in you to draw it out, to test his control, and you bob your head to build a steady rhythm. He finally grunts in frustration and begins thrusting in time with your movements, his hand tightening its hold on your hair.  Drawing away for air, you watch as he continues to thrust, suddenly left without the hot, wet cavern of your mouth.

Frustration sounds deep in his throat and he grabs your chin, forcing you to look up at him. His eyes are darker than ever before, stormy even now without the snow reflecting off them.

“You gonna be a fucking tease? Or are you gonna let me fuck your throat?”

A fresh wave of arousal rushes to your core, leaking onto the shower floor.

“Y-yes,” you stutter out, dizzy with need. “Please fuck my throat, Will. I need it.”

He groans, taking hold of his cock momentarily so he can give it a few pumps, then turns off the water.

“You like being told what to do?” His voice is deep, laced with something dark. It has you quivering with need. There’s a primal need inside you to please this man.

“Only by you.”

Will swears again, grabbing your face so he can kiss you. It’s all tongues and teeth— feral and desperate. A match lit next to a tank of gasoline.

“I want you to grab a towel, dry off, and get on the bed. Can you do that for me?”

Nodding, you open the shower door and grab a clean towel, drying yourself off as quickly as possible, then settle on Will’s bed, waiting for further instruction.

He saunters in and stands by the side of the bed, hand still on his cock.

“Get on your back and face me.”

Following his orders feels like second nature. Will stands above you, where you can see the underside of him while he strokes himself. Slowly, carefully, he guides his dick towards your mouth. You’re open and waiting for him eagerly but he takes his time, ghosting the tip over your lips, smearing them with precum that’s pearling at the top.

Trying your luck with his patience, you lap at the tip of him with your tongue and Will hisses, then pinches your nipple harshly, tearing a gasp from you.

“Did I say you could do that?” Will’s voice is low and dangerous, sending pleasant shivers down your spine.

“No,” you reply.

“Do as I say and I’ll fuck your pussy good until you forget your name. Can you be a good girl for me?”

Swallowing heavily, you gasp out a breathless “yes.”

“Tap my thigh twice if you want me to stop, okay? Or tell me to stop with your words.” His voice is a little softer at the moment, making sure you know he wants to respect your boundaries.

Will starts off slow, giving you a chance to get used to his length. Grabbing onto the back of his thighs for purchase, you seek to take him deeper. He complies, driving his hips towards your awaiting mouth. When he enters your throat, you suppress your gag reflex and feel him slide deeper and deeper with each thrust.

“Holy shit, sweetheart.”

His hand slides to your neck to feel himself there, absolutely entranced by the sight of you choking him down, tears streaming from the corners of your eyes. You’re beginning to make a mess of yourself, saliva coating your face mixing with the precum drooling from Will’s pulsing cock.

“That’s my good fucking girl,” he grits out, reaching forward so he can rub your clit in harsh circles. His biceps flex with the force of his movements/ The sounds coming from your mouth are obscene, but you don’t have it in you to feel self conscious about them. There’s something building inside you, about to crash to the surface, and you can’t even warn him.

Somehow he senses it, squeezing his other hand lightly around your throat in time with his thrusts, and then he lets go, pulling himself out quickly while you cry out, your thighs quivering with the intensity of your orgasm.

Rubbing you through it, his touches become lighter, a little more soft. Will bends down so he’s at face level with you, kissing your tears away, wiping at your chin while you gasp for air.

He gives you a few minutes to recover, stroking your hair gently, then murmurs in your ear.

“Do you want me to fuck you, sweetheart? Or are you too worn out?”

You can feel your pussy clenching around nothing, signifying your answer.

“I want you to fuck me.”

Will growls at that, hauling you up so your head rests on the pillows, and takes no time to line himself up and thrust into you. The thrusts start off a little shallow, a tease of what’s to come, and you whine, gyrating your hips in little circles to take him deeper.

“Look at you,” he laughs. “So fucking eager for my dick. You’ve thought about this before, huh?”

The only answer you can manage is a cry as Will starts to thrust himself in further, fucking into you.

“I’ve thought about it too,” he confesses. “Thought about all those boys on Tinder who couldn’t satisfy you, wondered if you thought about me while they were fucking you.”

“Yes, fuck. I did.”

“They couldn’t give you what you needed,” he tells you, each word punctuated with a hard thrust. “They couldn’t because none of them were me.”

“Fuck– yes, yesyesyesyes. Will. None of them compare to you.”

“Gonna give you the rest of my cock. Can you take it?”

“Yes, please, please give me your cock. I need it.”

“You beg so pretty for me,” Will grits, cock punching into you with hard thrusts of his hips. He hits something inside of you that has you tingling all over. Nothing else exists in this moment, just Will, fucking into you, and the wet slap of skin as his balls touch your ass.

“You gonna cum for me?” he asks, panting. “Your cunt gonna milk my cock?”

Your moans are getting louder, more insistent as he whispers filth into your ear.

“You’re gonna feel me for days, honey. Gonna mark you up real good so everyone knows you’re mine.”

Suddenly you’re clenching around him, squeezing his cock like a vice as spasms erupt through your body. There’s a moment before it crests where you’re gasping for air, face hot and body trembling like a leaf, then the band snaps and you’re gushing, squirting your release all over the bed.

“Fuck, that was hot. I’m gonna cum. Where do you want it?”

“Inside.”

That one word is all it takes before he’s shouting, pumping his hot seed into your cunt. Riding you all the way through it until you’re both twitching with overstimulation.

Once he takes a moment to recover, he kisses you, slow and languid, then disappears for a few minutes, returning with a glass of water and a towel.

“Drink this,” he murmurs, holding the glass up to your mouth as he props your body up. Once he’s satisfied, he takes the glass from you and proceeds to clean you up with the utmost care, a stark contrast to just a few minutes ago.

“Are you okay?” He looks worried, as if he wonders if he went too far.

“I’m incredible,” you answer, giving him a lazy, contented smile.

“Yeah, you are,” he agrees, giving you the same private grin he had given you in the car earlier that day.

“I’m going to change the sheets, and then you’re going to rest up. We have a lot of lost time to make up for; Want to get it all in before the snow lets up.”

“But first hot chocolate, right? I’ll make it. I have my own special recipe.”

Will’s eyes twinkle with the same fond look he’s always given you— but this time you know what that look means.

“Hot chocolate sounds perfect.”

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killing eve finale thoughts! (the 1 am edition)

three to five bullets is just a flesh wound, okay!!!!!!!! also, i appreciated how it ended immediately on that scene, so i can forever imagine that villanelle gets med evac’d and saved, like she absolutely would if there was a season five on the way, rather than it having done a “here’s eve sad and alone in the future!” thing. i’m just saying: this leaves us in a good place, fanfic-wise. i simply refuse to accept that villanelle floated away like jack dawson, never to be seen again. (also, i see u with your romantic leo movie bookends, season four.)

i’m gonna have to think more on what i think about them deciding to kill villanelle. it was so sudden and left us so suddenly in that moment that i’m just gonna have to muse. like a lot of s4 plot developments, i’m left kinda like “huh?” without feeling like there’s a lot behind it. i think if both of them had died or if both of them had lived would’ve hit harder in a more satisfying way. i know this is a sappy take, but i think this show was so much about figuring your life out and figuring out what made you feel authentically alive that they should’ve both lived.

but also villanelle isn’t dead, she’s at the hospital by now with eve by her side, so that’s okay.

also: what the hell, carolyn?? i don’t get it! someone explain what that was supposed to be for.

this was suuuuuuuuuuch a lovely testament to eve and villanelle’s connection and their love for each other, i was frankly in heaven the entire time. the humor, the snark, the fondness, the scar-caressing, the making fun of an annoyingly schmoopy couple, the psychopathic curly fries, ALL OF IT! all the fond looks and laughs. AAAAAAAAAH.

that KISSING, omg, oh my godddddddddddd. *cries forever* the passion, the fondness, the bliss, the fact that they were walking and kissing because they couldn’t stop kissing, villanelle following her over to the other van door and us just hearing eve’s laughter … FINALLY!!!!!! man, that did NOT disappoint. also, i love that they finally kissed right after peeing in the woods together at a shockingly close proximity. (after making fun of the other couple for not being able to pee in front of each other, hahaha.) that’s ROMANCE, baby!

the idea that they got each other’s future cards in the tarot because they were that entangled ……… i need a minute. :’( really loved how eve looked like the sun in her yellow turtleneck dancing with the wedding guests!

i was SO hoping there would be a callback to “tell me”, since the bridge scene is (i don’t know if you guys have heard about this) MY LIFE, so it playing while eve delivered a wedding speech inspired by their love while villanelle watched fondly was frankly heaven to me.

also we got a villanave hug!!!!!!! i wanted one so badly and didn’t dare to ever hope!!!!!!!! sure, it ended in the worst way possible, but they still HUGGED.

you know what, i honestly kind of liked that the whole “resolution” to the twelve plot was villanelle just killing a random room of people interspersed with eve busting out a sweet dance move at a wedding, because it handled the twelve plot with about as much narrative complexity as i think it deserves, i.e. none.

i didn’t think this season was very good overall, but i DO think it was worth it just to get the eve/v interaction we got in this episode. (however, i do think that ending it on 3.08 would’ve technically been a better ending for the series. but you will pry this villaneve content from my cold dead hands!)

OH, EVE AND VILLANELLE, MY BBS! GOODBYE TO SOME OF THE BEST CHEMISTRY HAVERS IN THE UNIVERSE, AND ONE OF THE GREATEST AND HOTTEST AND WEIRDEST LOVE STORIES EVER TOLD!!!!!!! YOU HAVE BEEN THE COMPLICATED LIGHT OF MY LIFE THESE PAST MANY YEARS!!!!!!!! i truly never would have dared to dream in season one that you would get to fall so deeply and sincerely and joyfully in love.

my boyfriend: “at least they got to do it in the van. that was a post-doin’-it driving look if i ever saw one.”

i might write fix-it fic. i might have to.

p.s. eve full-on dug a lady’s eyeballs out!