#also it's bc she's a trans girl so i guess she's incapable of bad shit in their eyes?? news flash!! she's not fucking immune!!!

[fabulouslygaybean]

apparently someone in my fucking gsa is a racist cunt who keeps creeping on my little sister. this is the final straw i think

[snapedefender]

You are like one of those weird, Hillary supporting, feminazi girl. The one who can't see that not liking a transperson could also just be a turn off for them. That's like you seeing someone cute across the room or even by you. Soon enough you guys talk and she reeks of some scent in which you distaste. That or you notice she/he's much to young for you. So you are automatically turned off. Same can go for transpeople. You saying that we don't see them romantically/sexually is not transphobic.

I mean I’m all for your blog on supporting Snape, your trans! Snape doesn’t bother me (that much), and I’m not totally grossed out by it, and I still support you and the blog. What I don’t support is calling us a bunch of transphobes for not like the idea. Or not wanting to be with a trans person. You remind me a lot like Riley Dennis, you should listen to Blair White or Andiwarski and get some sense. All three are youtubers by the way :)

(assuming these are from the same person…. sorry if they’re not i guess?)

lmao okay. this isn’t my personal blog & i’m on here to talk about snape so i really don’t fucking want to answer any more asks about this so this is going to be the last one. 

yes! i am one of those “weird” hilary supporting feminazis. (hey here’s a protip: feminazi is a fucking nasty term that tries to make being feminist a bad thing and you shouldn’t use it.) i’m a dirty feminist, i’m bisexual, i’m a liberal, and i fucking hate donald trump’s guts. i think the rich should pay higher taxes & we spend too much money on the military and white cops are killing black kids bc they know they can get away with it. i’ve admitted it, you caught me.

i don’t know how much fucking clearer i can be but: not being attracted to a single trans person doesn’t make you transphobic. refusing to date them or saying that you could never be attracted to a trans person (e.g. applying it to the entirety of the trans community) IS transphobic. it’s not remotely comparable to not being attracted to someone bc you dislike their smell or they’re too young for you (which is what i’m assuming that confusingly worded comparison was meant to convey.) i’m sorry this is such a wild idea for some of you guys, i’m sorry you’re sad to be called transphobic but that’s literally what it is and i’m not interested in trying to spare your feelings about the subject.

you want to know why this is a touchy subject for me? i get this a lot. “oh i won’t date bi people” is a thing i have fucking heard many times over. and it’s not even as bad for me and my community as it is for trans people, but it’s fucking hurtful to hear that, as if bisexual people are interchangeable, as if all i am is my sexuality and not a person. as if when people hear that i’m bi, they can’t see past that to see if they’d actually like ME as a human being because they’re too busy assuming what i am based on my sexuality. 

trans people exist outside of their gender identity. i’m sorry it’s rough for you to understand that, i’m sorry that you are literally incapable of understanding something that i have explained at least four (4) times TODAY but preferences are not free from bias and saying “i don’t date trans people” is gross and transphobic. get this! thru your skull:

trans people have wild and varied physical appearances and personalities and when you judge them as interchangeable because they’re trans that’s discrimination

and when you’re saying “i won’t date trans people” that’s treating them as interchangeable bc you’re saying they’re all the same….. when they’re NOT. the same goes for black people, the same goes for any goddamn minority on this godforsaken earth. “i won’t date black people” leads into “i think all black people are the same so i’ve decided i can’t be attracted to any of them because of this Idea of Black People I Have in my Head” the same goes for trans people. 

listen the fuck to me. trans people already have a fucking hard time finding love considering the discrimination they face in their own goddamn community, let alone from cis people. so stop trying to tell me that your “innocent” preferences for cis people, who we’ve been conditioned since birth to see as “normal” and “desirable” lack any transphobia and just accept that you might actually have some bias in the people you want to get with. 

having bias is normal my man. we grow up in a toxic society and it’s really really rough to shake that shit off. me saying “hey that’s transphobic” shouldn’t get you on the defensive - instead maybe consider what the fuck i’m saying and take a look at your own actions. the best way to deal with bias is to recognize it when it pops up and do your best to get rid of it…. not pretend it isn’t there. 

sorry to take a step away from snape with this discussion but this is a subject near and dear to my heart

[ttransthirteen]

okay here we go! for sol: 8, 35, 19; for hernandez: 45, 5, 13; for jericho: 3,17, 24; for nikola: 40, 43, 50; for nix, 9, 22, 29, for scott: 3, 36, 27; for hero: 34, 18, 6; for lynx: 10, 26, 44!! sorry if that's too many!!

anon i have no idea how you know all these characters enough to send me specific ones for their names, but i want you to know this is the best thing that has happened to me in weeks and you are the absolute light of my life. if you believe in a higher power i wish you blessings and happiness for years to come. 

here we go!! (also this is so long im sorry, I tried to sort them if anybody is actually curious about any of them)

Sol- 

8. did they have pets as a child? as an adult? do they like animals?

Dani Solis, or just Sol to her coworkers, is a mechanic who never quite understood living things. she grew up in outer space and never really had the opportunity to have a pet, although the constant traveling meant she got to see a ridiculous variety of life. When she was a little girl, she would sometimes find a cockroach or other bug on the ship and catch it, keeping it and feeding it until it died. it was never a very satisfying experience, probably adding to her obsession with immortal machines. 

35. whats their guilty pleasure? what is their totally unguilty pleasure?

I’d call Eric her guilty pleasure. they would have ended up together if I hadn’t killed him off mid-breakdown. Most people live on a planet, but she doesn’t have one, so to her any sort of truly meaningful human connection is dangerous and off-limits. but she loves him deeply, although it scares her. Unguilty, I’d say shes kind of a hoarder. her bunk is full of knick-knacks from every corner of the explored universe. she spends pretty much her entire salary on it tbh

19. whats their least favorite genres? 

if this is about literature, she thinks fantasy is stupid. if it’s music, she loves rap and techno but has never really been able to tolerate slow guitar pieces about how beautiful planet life is. think space-age country. 

Hernandez-

45. How do other people see them? Is it similar to how they see themselves?

this is a big one for him. Captain Eric Hernandez is a trans man, so for a lot of his life yeah there was a massive difference. but after he transitioned, I would say the main difference would be that the people around him see him as cold, kind of scary. he’s not scary, he’s scared. he sees himself as small and weak, even after he straight up murdered his abuser and took his place as captain. His friends would say he is the strongest, bravest man they’ve ever known. They would be right.

5. Do they have any siblings? What’s their names? What is their relationship with them? Has their relationship changed since they were kids to adults?

He has two sisters and two brothers, I don’t know any of their names. He was very close with all of them and misses them every day. Since he ran away to avoid having to pretend to be a woman his whole life, and then murdered a guy, contacting any of them would have been massively dangerous. He couldn’t even tell any of them he was leaving because he wasn’t out to them. In the version of his story where he’s executed, they all get letters from Sol explaining everything. In the version where he lives, he sends the letters himself.

13. What is their least favorite food?

fish was never available to him as a kid, and he never acquired the taste. 

Jericho-

3. Did they have a good childhood? What are fond memories they have of it? What’s a bad memory? 

this isnt something i get to say about my ocs a lot, but he did. he had a lovely childhood. he grew up with a loving father in a huge, beautiful city where he was free to explore and learn to his hearts content. he has especially fond memories of wandering around the actual ground of the city where basically nobody ever goes, looking at bugs and mold and plants with his little junior scientist magnifying glass, looking them up on his computer-band. the worst ones were probably nights where his dad had to work and he was lonely in their apartment, bc those were the nights he wondered about his mom. 

17. Do they like to take photos? What do they like to take photos of? Selfies? What do they do with their photos?

He’ll take photographs of cool specimen, but mostly he carries a journal and prefers to take notes. he takes notes on absolutely everything and has boxes and boxes of old notebooks in his closet at home. 

24. What is their sleeping pattern like? Do they snore? What do they like to sleep on? A soft or hard mattress?

my boy jericho has very little trouble sleeping and is fine with the govt issues firm mattress. he is quiet and still and sleeps deeply. 

Ok! switching universes! these characters are completely disconnected from those three.

Nikola Tchaikova- 

40. Do they like energy drinks? Coffee? Sugary food? Or can they naturally stay awake and alert?

I’m not sure she’s ever even tried it. Nikola is a full blown alcoholic and anything that makes her feel more alert is probably not something she’s gonna enjoy. Her natural senses and awareness are absolutely through the roof, so it’s not something she really needs at all. She does like sweets though. Back when she had her family, her and her close companions use to sneak away sometimes and go out to the city for milkshakes and music, and those are probably her fondest memories. 

43. Are they religious? What do they think of religion? What do they think of religious people? What do they think of non religious people?

When she was a very young girl she might have worshipped the christian/jewish/muslim god, or at least attempted to. For a young shifter where she grew up, life was rough, and she would have had a hard time finding the meaning in it all. but later in life, after the war, the major religion worshipped shifters and obviously that was ridiculous to her, so she kind of looks down on the whole thing. She might still be a little envious of the purpose and comfort that the worshippers get and that is missing so much from her life, but one of the main gods in their pantheon is based on her kid brother’s best friend. its hard to take that seriously. (the idea is that there were 5 original all powerful shifters who made the real world ones. this is wrong. shifters were a science experiment gotten out of control, and Nikola knows that.)

50. If they could only take one bag of stuff somewhere with them: what would they pack? What do they consider their essentials?

She would pack her knife, which her long dead brother gave her about 1500 years ago. she would take the pendant she wears, which was symbolic of the leadership position she used to hold before the people she was leading were all killed. She has a photo collection that she says never looks at out of fear of the light ruining them. Her best friend made her some copies, but she doesn’t look at those either. I think it hurts her to see the faces of the people she misses. She has a small bag of things tucked into the back of her closet that she never, ever touches or looks at. After the massacre that took her family, Angelo (the only survivor, her best friend) went through the carnage and collected the possessions of their friends. Nikola helped him bury them, but she couldn’t stand to take their things. he gave them to her afterwards, and she’s only every managed to take them out and look at them when she’s so drunk she knows she won’t remember the next day. But she would never leave them behind.

Nix- 

9. Do animals like them? Do they get on well with animals?

Domenico “Nix” Tchaikova is Nikola’s son, so half-shifter. Shifters are, by necessity, a bit closer to nature than the rest of us, and even though he has almost no actual form changing abilities animals have always seemed to like him a bit more than his friends. He’s always assumed that it’s because of his prosthetic leg, that they realize he couldn’t chase them if he wanted to, but animals know things, and they can sense that he’s not quite the same as the other humans. 

22. What are their favorite insults to use? What do they insult people for? Or do they prefer to bitch behind someone’s back?

Nix would never insult someone behind their back- he has a temper, and if you piss him off he’s gonna confront you on the spot. His insults tend not to be physical. he might call you ugly if hes real mad, but hes much more likely to call you a coward or an idiot. He gets hit a lot for this. 

29. What do they do when they find out someone else’s fear? Do they tease them? Or get very over protective? 

No, he’d never tease someone for being genuinely afraid. He knows fear too well to try and use it against people. If somebody he cared about was afraid of something, he would plant his tiny self between them and whatever it was no matter what. hes used to being seen as small and weak and incapable, and its resulted in a stupidly brave boy who gets himself into trouble a lot because he doesnt know when to back down.

Scott-

3. Did they have a good childhood? What are fond memories they have of it? What’s a bad memory? 

My boy!!! This is another one of Nikola’s children, one of the triplets. if you just read her thing, you can probably guess that she wouldn’t be a very good mother. Angelo, his father, was always loving and supportive, but both of his parents were just sad people who weren’t really prepared to raise three children. They grew up in the century before the war broke out, in a political climate that feared and hated them, among countless news stories of people like them being murdered and hunted. but Nikola still managed to give them a reasonably normal childhood. She found a place to settle down, near enough to a city that they could socialize and explore but far enough away they they grew up in the woods and could explore their natural abilities without being hunted down by hate groups. 

He has a lot of good memories! pretty much all of them are him doing dumb shit with his siblings. they used to use their shifting to break into concerts or fly up to the roofs of tall buildings. 

As for bad ones. definitely most of his bad memories are on Nikola’s head. He was the shifter equivalent of about eight years old when he saw her kill somebody for the first time. she didn’t know he was there, but im not sure if knowing would have changed anything. she’s been on a very long, very complicated vengeance quest since before he was born. She had tracked somebody down, and he watched while she slowly cornered him. You could practically smell the terror coming off the man as she drew her blade, moving towards him as she spoke. He had never heard her talk about the deaths of her family before, and as she told her prey all about how she had come home to find her kid brother on the floor with his throat slit open, there was something in her voice that he would never forget for the rest of his life. then he watched his mother put a knife through the bottom of the man’s jaw into his brain. he saw the light go out of his eyes, and he saw the absolute emptiness in his mother’s when she turned around. He ran as fast as he could back to his siblings and cried, but never told them what he saw. 

36. What are they good at? What hobbies do they like? Can they sing?

He can sing!!! he has a voice like an angel and he loves to use it. he plays about twenty instruments- hes had a long time to learn- and he always carries at least one on him. he can use weaponry and is good at it, but doesnt enjoy it. 

27. What makes them sad? Do they cry regularly? Do they cry openly or hide it? What are they like they are sad?

He doesn’t cry often. He doesn’t care if his siblings see him cry- theyre all so close its like crying in private- but with other people he doesnt like it. He just gets quiet when he’s sad. He’s not the moodiest of his siblings(that title goes to Lynx) but they all inherited something from their parents that makes them quiet, serious people on the whole. He feels deeply and thinks about things. Hes bisexual. I know that doesn’t go here but its important. He cried after he slept with a man for the first time, not because he was upset with himself about the gay thing but because he’d let himself fall for a human. The boy’s name was Jacob, and he didn’t understand but tried to comfort him anyways because he cared about Scott. They dated for a while, but Scott couldn’t handle knowing he would age and die so quickly and broke it off. Jacob was 43 when he was killed in a bombing during the war. Funerals had stopped happening at that time, people unable to keep up with all the dead. But there were still graves, and Scott visited Jacob’s for years afterwards. 

Hero-

34. What is their body type? How tall are they? Do they like their body?

She looks a lot like her mom. about 5′7, muscular, strong features. She got her dads eyes though, the only one of her siblings to have them. Scott and Lynx and Nix all have Nikki’s distinctive golden-ringed brown. She likes her body fine, its a good and strong body. she likes that shes not the shortest of her siblings(lynx is tied and nix is smaller) but other than that she doesnt really care. 

18. What’s their favourite genre of: books, music, tv shows, films, video games and anything else

She was never much of a reader, and the only tv she ever got to see was when there was one on in a restaurant. She did enjoy films though, and her favorites were action. She got a certain something from Nikola that neither Scott or Lynx has, something kind of cold and fierce. Whatever it was that Scott saw in his mom’s eyes when she killed that man, exists in Hero too. Nix too, but less so. She would have liked video games a lot if she’d ever had the chance to really get into them.

6. What were they like at school? Did they enjoy it? Did they finish? What level of higher education did they reach? What subjects did they enjoy? Which did they hate?

She never went to school. Her father taught her to read and write, as well as everything he thought she needed to know about the world. She spent her childhood wandering with her siblings, and most things she needed to know she got from that. All three of them had been planning on going to college, but the war came before they got the chance. But I think if she’d gotten the chance she would have had an interest in something technical. Engineering or architecture maybe. 

Lynx-

10. Do they like children? Do children like them? Do they have or want any children? What would they be like as a parent? Or as a godparent/babysitter/ect?

God I love Lynx. He would never, ever become a parent, but I think he would be a good one. Out of all of her children, Lynx inherited the most of Nikola’s sadness. In non dramatic terms she gave him her tendencies towards mental illness and its something hes struggled with his whole life. His siblings are a wonderful support system but he knows that any child of his would struggle like he has, and he has so many unhappy memories of Nikola’s misery that he would be too afraid. But children do like him, and he likes them. He’s a fun, playful person when he’s feeling good, and is absolutely delighted to discover he has a little brother. obviously hes got the same terror of losing him, but he has pushed those feelings tf down. he just wants to enjoy their relationship while he can. hes a wonderful, sweet, caring boy whos full of love and good times, but too scared of himself to ever be a parent.

26. How do they act when they’re happy? Do they sing? Dance? Hum? Or do they hide their emotions? 

When he’s happy, everybody knows it. He is an absolute delight. he does dance, actually. when hes happy he does it more but also its just a thing hes good at and loves to do. humans who see it know theres something not quite natural about the way he moves, and hes beautiful to watch when hes using it to express joy. He has bright eyes and a smile that makes you feel like you are safe and loved and that everything in the entire world is gonna be ok. 

44. What is their favorite season? Type of weather? Are they good in the cold or the heat? What weather do they complain in the most? 

He loves any time of the year where it’s warm enough to wear skirts and loose, light shirts. The wintertime makes his depression worse, and a lot of years he and his siblings will head south to avoid it. but he loves warm breezes and cool nights by a fire, loves seeing the flowers in the spring and all the new baby animals. he isn’t at all a complainer, but when the weather is affecting him badly it’s easy to tell. he gets quiet, which is not something he is a lot. 

[frejasfeathers]

UHG DYSPHORIA

CW: dysphoria, misgendering

I am just having a bad night I guess. There is this horrible woman that comes in just about every time I work, and she is transphobic as all hell. Like, the first time I met her she saw a tabloid with Caitlyn Jenner on it, and she was ranting and raving about how it was wrong, being trans is sick, she’s not a real woman, blah blah, ect. It was so awful and awkward because at the time I was DEEEEP in the closet and terrified to say anything in the first place. And plus, I’m just a doormat anyway and never speak up for myself at all. And I’m also afraid to lose my job. But anyway, she came in again today and every time she sees me she just looks startled bc I obviously look more masculine, and then gets this disgusted look on her face and starts saying all kinds of shit. Like today it was that I shouldn’t put my hair back because it looks bad, I don’t look pretty like that, why do you look so different, what’s with the sideburns?? it’s not a good look on you, you should leave your hair out you’re much prettier that way, ect ect.  She wants to do my hair and makeup and fancy me up bc she’s supposedly a makeup artist.

She never uses correct pronouns and goes out of her way to call me ‘girlfriend’ and girl and everything, even though I have a guys name on my freakin nametag now, and all employees call me sir and him. I still get ma’am’ed but only by customers that knew me before transition. I think some of them are trying to be polite and I get that. I still haven’t figured out how to come out to these people bc I barely know them, I just see them practically every day. So it’s really not cool and I’m dysphoric and depressed as fuck tonight because tonights interaction with her just keeps replaying through my head and I want to say all these things that I didn’t have the courage to! But now it’s like too late. She makes me feel like I must be the ugliest mf on the planet or something. Like who comments on other peoples appearance like this? WHO??

So I’ve decided I’m going to stop being a fucking doormat and actually speak up when people get it wrong. I’m SO TIRED of just letting people walk all over me. Esp with this woman. I’m straight up going to tell her I’m trans if she starts up again, and if she has a problem, I’ll get someone else to ring up her stuff. I’m not dealing with her rudeness anymore. 

And I guess my body is giving me trouble. Like my chest is flat which is a lot better than the FF’s I used to have, but bc I have zero muscle definition I’m like .. really, really flat. Like a board. A concave board. It’s embarrassing and I feel incapable of building muscle. I know I haven’t tried hard enough but depression is getting to me bad. I just had a bunch of teeth pulled too, because of past eating disorders most of my molars became unsalvageable. It’s impossible to eat anything but mushy food right now and my new fillings cut my tongue and I won’t be able to do anything until my next visit. I mean, I’m getting a partial for the back teeth but until then I’m just kind of a wreck. 

I feel insecure and not pretty anymore and I want to cry. I wonder if cutting my hair would make me pass better and put a stop to some people misgendering me still, but my husband really really likes my hair and I’m afraid to lose him as I get more masculine, so I’m just like WTF universe. I don’t know what to do. I also feel really lonely bc everyone is going to pride and doing cool stuff and I haven’t hung out with friends in months. 

I’m just tired. I’m sorry.